#this piece is pretty old now I think

[dilutedconfusion]

I did a thing…again.

Just realized that ya’ll need to click for better quality for some reason this post looks especially bad 🤚

#OKAY so this piece is a little old #I think I posted it on my twitter (of which I do not use anymore) and nobody really cared for it #WHICH IS FINE #I don’t make art for others I do it for me #BUT I know for a fact that some of you will definelty like this so I’m posting it on here as well #I added a WHOLE new just standing still sketch of Killer and a bunch of doodles to make it more fun #but technically the orginal piece was just the ‘in murder mode leaning over one’ #which I could post seperately if ya’ll wanna see that idk?? #ya know without the extra image of him and the doodles so its looks less like a collage #ANYWAYS back to the art I REALLY like how I drew Killer in this #LIKE HE LOOKS SO GOOD #ITS CRAZY #so pretty so lucious so cute #I’m literally obessed with drawing flame lighting #everything looks pretty in a nice warm glow #so yeah #he be standing #he be killing #hes killer #OH and all the doodles are of course easily apparent the rest are his trivia #oda thinks his flower is a snow drop #that boy would be a chef in a real world au #and one of his hobbies is playing the drums #so if ya’ll didn’t know that now you do #i also like to think how I wrote his name is how he signs his name #killer one piece #kid pirates #illustration #digital art #one piece

[b4kuch1n]

ough brain is doing SO bad but sometimes. there are colors

#bakuspeech #WIP #cw: gore #the stuffed animal cartoon kind. but still #ask to tag #Im so fucking sorry I keep going like I will draw! (does not draw for three weeks #I. ngl Somethin is goin on up there. I finished writing a Thing and it doesnt solve that #I just. this is my capacitance really I think. I just gotta. accept it. work with it #its always so funny tho bc like I look at whatever it is Im drawing rn and its like hey this looks like shit! this looks ass #and then I keep drawing it. #like this piece is at Least two weeks into something thats supposed to be a pretty quick revised illus for #an old wizard leon design. and like if I werent Bit Off it wouldve stayed that way #instead. this is how its goin #I have not slept for 23 hours. I should uh. fix that #but yeah its just. my brain is wrappin itself around some new ideas n concepts n shit rn #like. I was really afraid I wouldnt be able to paint digitally if Im not on the screen tablet #and its kinda fuckin with me? like obviously I can. I am literally doing the exact same things Im doing on the screen tablet #but now on a graphic tablet #thats just. not getting thru to my brain yet. for some reason. its still generating goo n such #well! what is a guy to do. if not blastin off regardless #sorry. I really should sleep now #have a good night lads! this piece will be done when its done. I am NOT saying more I am not jinxing SHIT #u should change ur pillowcases! it really does send u to another realm

[wildstar25]

MiqoMarch Day 27 - Comfort

Tucked away at the farthest end of The Andron was a room larger than the others. Primarily it was intended for storage but, given the circumstances, Krile thought the space would better serve as an apartment of sorts; comfortably shared between three of her dear friends.

Some extra shots of the build for fun!

#miqomarch #miqomarch 2024 #ffxiv #g'raha tia #y'shtola rhul #wolgraha #wolshtola #y'shtola x wol #WOL posting #Arsay Nun #miqo'te #three cheers to krile for being literally the nicest friend #i tried my best to turn arsays apartment in mist into a pseudo old sharlayan type zone #basically arsay doesnt own any property in canon and has been setting up a room for herself in places shes been allowed to #ie the pendants at the crystarium and the rising stones #but since no one really goes to the rising stones its really lonely for arsay to go there at the end of the day #shes been crashing in the annex since endwalker anyways #and now that graha is working for the students pretty much permanently all the more reason to give them an actual living space #with enough room for yshtola too of course!! #and at the farthest point in the building so there's a modicum of privacy :) #i dont think kryle was expecting arsay to reno the place but Arsay had a lot of free time when she was recovering from ultima thul #a lot of it was stuff she transferred over from her room in the rising stones lol but theres new pieces from her endwalker adventures too

[designernishiki]

just a thought but like. if akiyama, who’s established as being a bizarrely talented investigator in y5, suspected kiryu’s death to have been faked (or at least “fishy” in his own words) basically on the fucking Spot, i feel like it just makes sense that majima would’ve been just as quick, if not quicker to see where shit wasn’t adding up and become skeptical that the whole thing was a coverup. reason being, in y5 he put shit together and figured out the grand scheme going on so damn early most people didn’t even suspect yet that there was any scheme going on. he then faked his own death well enough to get it in the papers and had masterminded himself all the way to the final boss (with some help of course) before things backfired on him. so he’s got some crazy good skills when it comes to reading people, figuring out their intentions, putting puzzle pieces together, etc– way better than he wants people knowing, generally– and he knows the hallmark signs of a faked death because he’s literally done it before. all that on top of knowing kiryu like the back of his hand and knowing damn well how hard this man is to kill, and how prone to running away from shit for the sake of the safety of people he cares about (for better or for worse) he is. he could absolutely put together that, if given the opportunity by some faction or powerful individual, kiryu would sacrifice his identity and status as a legit living person for the assured safety of others, or for yakuza tensions to diminish, or maybe even as an act of self-flagellation.

tldr: I think the reasons majima didn’t go rogue/apeshit after kiryu’s alleged death are that A) for once he has saejima around to reign him in and make it feel less like Everything has been lost, B) I think he’s legitimately known pretty much all along that kiryu didn’t die that day; nor would he believe it unless he saw it with his own eye.

#however. I also think it would clash with his tendency to be way more cynical and nihilistic than his persona makes him seem #like I do think he’d be pretty fucking sure in his gut And with his logic that kiryu wasn’t dead #but there’d be a pesky depressive part of him that’d scold him for being too idealistic or hopeful in a world that’s so fond of #torturing him. he doesn’t think himself Lucky to say the least. but if he held out hope for saejima while he was on death row for literally #years and saejima did make it back to him in one piece eventually– he’d have some ammo to reason with himself if that makes sense #that + I feel like saejima upon hearing him spiral into supposedly ‘realistic’ nihilism would Strongly reassure him #via reminding him that HE made it back to majima in the end. and that saejima himself knows from experience what a faked death feels like #and how holding onto hope Can in fact be fruitful in the end. overall a bad time for majima after kiryu’s fake death obviously but #he’d be surprisingly stable with all that going for him. makes me think he and saejima would really be the ones keeping daigo from falling #apart. considering he doesn’t have basis for the kind of hope they’re capable of having. almost everyone important to daigo dies eventually #his dad. mine right in front of him. now kiryu. boy must have abandonment issues off the damn charts. #I also like to think he hung around shinada a bit after that incident to just have Something good and pure in his life occasionally. but #he’d be cautious and occasional about it out of fear that he’d ruin shinada’s life or cause him trouble #anyway. many thoughts about all this. they didn’t dive nearly enough into the old guard characters’ reactions to kiryu’s ‘death’ so. yeah #rambling #y6 #majima #kazumaji

[bookwyrminspiration]

happy 2nd birthday to my kotlc wings au, shattered upside down!!

2 years ago today I posted the first chapter of this infamously long fic, so I threw together a piece for fun in celebration--if you've read it, you may recognize a few things as well. you should read it. or talk to me about it. does anyone want to talk about the wings au •_•

closer shots and taglist below :)

KotLC Art Taglist: @bronte-deserves-better @imaramennoodle @thisbluewind @we-have-no-bananas-today @theofficialkai517 @ruewen-and-rising @keefeinnit @thesandsofdawn @crumpledwitchfeet @ascendant-queen @tribblemakingalicorn @axels-corner @loverofallthingssmart @silveny-dreams @girlofmanyfandoms @enbies-and-felonies @impostertamsong @sofia-not-sophie @alabestrine @keefes-hairgel @fanartofthelostcities @three-bunnies-in-a-trenchcoat @a-lonely-tatertot @ketterdamkid @cosmogyral-cleo @meg-doodles @dragonwinnie-kotlc @anaccidentwaitingtohappen @maglorslostsilmaril @even-if-in-another-time @crazedfangirl14 @callas-pancake-tree @katniss-elizabeth-chase @wolfstar-being-ridikkulus @thefoxysnake @florida-preposterously

(please let me know if you'd like to be added or removed. i may start a new taglist because this one is so old)

Shattered Upside Down Taglist: @cosmogyral-cleo @axels-corner @cadence-talle @ahecktonoffandomsinoneblog @milesspidermanmorales @loverofallthingssmart @cowboypossume @jolieharkness @wings-of-hell-and-beyond @shellyseashell @blossomjenniie @akotlcblog @imaramennoodle @panic-at-the-multi-fandom-chaos @dragonwinnie-kotlc @solreefs @fintan-pyren @jazzanddaydreams @xanadaus @sa-divine

#kotlc #kotlc wings au #shattered upside down #kotlc fanart #quil's quill #i keep looking for things I've missed but screw it I'm posting it! #this is the piece I've been complaining fondly about #but!! the wings au is 2 years old now! since the first chapter! #wow... #increbible... #I wish I hadn't been slacking so I could've gone into even more detail (and given keefe feet) #but! i think it's rather impressive I drew 13 people and 6 animals in like 2 days #so. yay me :) #but shattered upside down birthday!! woo woo!! idc if no one else is celebrating I'm celebrating #wings au so cool... #also that might be the best fintan I've ever drawn #i gotta go eat real quick everything say happy birthday to the wings au pretty please :)

[reiinai]

#sketches #character sheet ideas #essek #critical role #essek thelyss #critical role fan art #critical role art #look i gotta compile all these bits and pieces into a proper ref sheet for the lad #this is a couple months old now and his design hs involved #I think his eyes are v pretty here though and I wanna keep them like that #I also just really like giving him morally-ambigious anime protag brows coz #theyre my drawings and I like em

[ivyithink]

here on this fine day to spread my agenda: uhtred's actually a good dad to aethelstan. edward can have his other children, but aethelstan is uhtred's little boy. uhtred is his mom, dad and cool uncle all in one and i think that's beautiful actually

for those who choose to reblog/comment! if you’d be so kind to take a moment and write a few words in your tags/comments, I’d be very grateful!

I’m messing around with some stuff and your input would be super helpful! can you please say:

1. when you saw these pieces, did you immediately notice anything weird/off about them/their quality? did you notice it when looking closer at them or specifically looking for it after reading this question?

2. was it distracting/annoying/unpleasant to look at? or did you just take it as part of the piece/chosen texture and were fine with it?

please be honest, I swear I won’t take offense at anything you might say, I just want to know your opinion!

thank you so much to those who indulge me in this request!)

#my art #my doodles #aelswith has a spa day (10th century equivalent of it) and uhtred has to watch over aethelstan’s bible lessons #not much is learned but much fun is had #actually I think uhtred should have tried the tickling strategy with edward and alfred #they’d think they had finally driven him completely mad #and start treating him better out of guilt and pity #anyway #sometimes I just think about parents ticking their kids centuries ago and getting the same reaction they’d get today #and get emotional and draw silly pictures about it apparently #actually! #hilariously enough I’m pretty sure I have a very similar piece with alfred and aethelstan in modern au lol #(similar to the first art) #it’s months old but has to be somewhere in my gallery #I’m lazy and like reusing ideas #can you tell what my first reaction after watching the trailer for 7kmd was? #‘WOW you stop that RIGHT NOW young man! that is NOT a proper way of treating your parental figure!’ #yeah exactly #those bloody kings should really stop pointing swords at that poor man #the last kingdom #tlk #tlk uhtred #tlk aethelstan

[ford-ye-fiji]

don’t get me wrong I love ghibli movies but what on earth is happening in tales of earthsea????

#Arren: I killed my dad I don’t why I just did #????? No explanation ever given #Sparrowhawk: cob… who is this cob…. #Sparrowhawk five seconds later: Cob my old enemy #Like it’s a beautiful movie but I’m wildly confused #And now we have this whole fear of death thing out of left field with no lead up it’s not cohesive and I’m confused #I feel like arren was possessed but like legit he acts and talks like he wasn’t so im???? #The bad guy was horrifying tho so I guess it has that going for it #The pacing is weird but I could’ve accepted it if not for everything else #I feel like this movie was trying to say too many things and then forgot that they were supposed to be telling a story #instead of just throwing random moral lessons at us #Anyway the whole movie feels like it’s missing a ton of pieces and I don’t think it’s bc I’m dumb or crazy I don’t think it’s me??? #It just didn’t make any sense at all #But it’s pretty and the music is gorgeous ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #I just would not watch again or recommend it XD

[eijiroukiriot]

maybe it does take him until he’s 24 in an apartment but i think that bkg katsuki would eventually go from the point where he likes affection from kirishima all well and fine to the point where he can ask for it and be all clingy himself

#the backstory here is that i'm stuck in my apartment with covid for a couple more days and i'm completely lost in the sauce thinking #abt krbk's wedding #so i'm throwing myself into this old wip!! #it's pretty close to completion honestly so i feel like..maybe you'll see it sometime this week #if i can keep throwing myself into it #idk if anyone's still around who remembers but i actually shared this specific bit for beta-ing a long time ago #back then i got so much super nice feedback about it ;-; and i never got around to finishing the second half of the piece so it never #actually surfaced #but now enough time has passed that the conversation i had written before kinda doesn't fit my idea of krbk anymore #it's interesting i really hadn't touched it in so long that i had no idea i'd feel that way #and i appreciated the warm response so so much back then it kinda surprised me i didn't like it anymore #but in like...a nice fun way #like now i'm really excited to revamp the scene and think abt what krbk means to me now #and like what a 24 year old long term couple looks like to me now versus when i was 18 years old #i'm so excited writing this i love krbk so much and i love that they get to be in love #so hopefully i'll be back w more updates soon!!! #thoughts #prev #may be more additions to this thread coming

[orcelito]

Feel like I am absorbing as much as my father after his death as possible. I will carry on his Legacy. I will be the Biker (in time). I am already the weapon collector (though with knives, not guns). I even have accepted owning a minions mug, something I swore would never happen (I hate those fucking things), just bc it makes me think of him.

Maybe he's gone now, but I'm gonna make damn sure to live a continuation of his life... just in my own way, lol

#speculation nation #like how im taking so much of his clothes. im absorbing some of his masculinity too #i own so many harley things now. like tshirts and such. my dad had so many. #and. well. i did end up deciding to take his little revolver. though that's with more of a grave observance than anything else. #guns are. scary. and i think it's ludicrous that i dont even need a permit to own a gun here #but it's my dad's. and at least a revolver is less scary than like. a pistol. #less easy to accidentally go off. u gotta pull back the hammer every shot and everything. #guns are scary and i dont like them. but it was my dad's. a pretty big part of his life. #i was raised being taught basic gun safety rules. brought to a shooting range at 9 years old #i couldnt even hold up the rifle i was so small. #never went since then bc i didnt care for it. but it's still... something so intrinsic to him in my mind. #so in this Too. i will be continuing his legacy. at least a little bit. #we r gonna be selling most of his guns. but not that one. #it's so tiny. it fits so well in my little hands. i kind of love it almost as much as i fear it. #oh well. i'll be careful. i was taught to never forget the danger a gun can be. #a part of me also is like 'omg a revolver. like what vash uses!' which ok maybe that's part of why i went to the revolver too #though the primary reasons are. it's a Tiny piece. and also itd be Really difficult to accidentally shoot it. #bc u gotta full on cock it back And pull the trigger. that aint gonna happen by accident. #but yeah not to be Stereotypical American but yea guns sure do exist here #and it's in my family too. i want the gun to remember him by. even if i dont ever end up using it. #(tho ive contemplated taking it to a range at least once just to get a feel for actually shooting it #Just In Case i ever end up needing to use it for like. home invasion self defense or smth #which is. another Smaller reason for me to have it. things to think about.)

[rubberbandballqueen]

hmm i have like, 500-600 taiwan dollars leftover in a tin from the last time i visited relatives... i wonder what would happen if i just handed it to my little cousins like. "yep. here is gift. have fun."

#i heard them trying to sound out 'eidelweiss' on the piano so i've also been thinking of giving them this little music box i bought #a while back that plays eidelweiss. put it in little box with money and letter that is like. 'hello. cousin cares about you.' #'but cousin is awkward and has bad hearing and speaking skills. anyway here's some money and a music box for you.' #i checked n it's like the equivalent of almost 20 usd so like. that's an appropriate gift for nine-year-olds i think #today at work i was cutting glow sticks in half for our craft and i was not wearing any gloves so i got minor chemical burns <3 #like part of the skin on my thumb n pointer finger got bleached so i went around n showed alllll the kids #like. 'hey. check out my chemical burn. this is why we wouldn't let you guys cut open the glow sticks yourselves.' #'because it will do This to you if you touch them too long. this is why we had you wash your hands when you finished.' #n some of them were like 'just wash it off' n i was like. 'it is a chemical burn. it is on my skin.' #at least i Think it was a chemical burn but i mean it was very minor (makes sense bc it's just glow sticks) so the skin's flaked off by now #similar happens when i touch my hair bleach w/o gloves so i'm Pretty Sure it was chemical burns #we had a table of kids who were speaking cn to each other so at some point i pieced together they didn't seem to pay attn. bc low en skills #anyway i broke my own rule abt no phones at work to look up 'chemical burns' in cn for them bc although they know i speak Some cn #(by giving them minor instructions for the glow stick craft) i was like. 'chemical burns... how to say....' #apparently they are mostly from taiwan which is fun i love it when i Don't receive microaggressions for writing in traditional c': #today's my only camp shift for the week tho... one of my coworkers died last week so i told my boss i could pick up his camp shifts #if no one else had but apparently i'd go over hours this week... feelsbad man. it's summer + we're always understaffed #so there's gonna be a point when the front desk worker is gonna be covering the camps for a little bit which is. i feel bad ahaha #the worm speaks

[britneyshakespeare]

you know what it is. i talk about how vain he is and how he only talks about himself and that is the impression a lot of people have of him and it is the impression i favor leaning towards. he has a very coded way of self-disclosure; he often seems like he's trying to impress people but i know him to be not-the-most-assured in a lot of ways. when i first complimented him on his poetry and told him how much i liked a few pieces (and i loved some of what i read before i knew his last name, so when i read his poetry i did not assume the person whose poetry i so loved was, well, that retired male model i met in passing every now and then). when i told him that. he was very moved by it.

and i do talk about how vain he is; i do say he only talks about himself; but every now and then when he does say something about me it is not at all hidden that he does admire me. some of what he says that seems to coded to impress me or to get my validation, i know he is doing this towards me because he thinks im this smart poetry girl. and i am? i am that, he's not wrong. i think it makes me feel hopeless to think that he really does respect me and care what i think of him because i'd rather he didn't. i'd rather him be this charming but shallow pretty boy which i think he has been seen as by a lot of people throughout his life. despite that he is hardworking, despite that he has (or at least tries very hard to have) an intellectual side. perhaps what he says about himself is so often coded to please me even while it is fishing for my attention, and i want to see that as a reflection of his own self-regard but i don't know that it is.

i don't know that it's not, but i don't know that it is either and as neither of us is very frequently vulnerable with the other, it's not fair for me to say which is the case. or even that there's a "which" like it can't be both. i don't know that he admires me; i don't know that he sees me as this girl who is (or at least used to be) very charmed by him. i do know that he always comes to me and asks me about poetry because as far as he's told me, i'm the only one who has ever cared about his. for all i know that could also be bullshit, but then why should i assume it is either? i'm quite unfair to him in my assessments of him. i do have to admit, he has never actually seemed to have a disrespectful or unfair assessment of me.

#he told me today i was 'exquisite' basically #i think sometimes he's very shocked by my general lack of ambitions. while i do have all this artistic knowledge #i'm like some sort of poetry guru to him. which does make me laugh a little #his estimation of me is overstated. #im a fairy to him! a strange creature he doesnt understand #like how rochester used to call jane eyre a fairy. except we're both pretty good-looking #tales from diana #i dont call myself good-looking often either but i know other people see me as that. so. it is what it is #thats another piece of the puzzle is back in 2020 during quarantine he was... well he still is #but he WAS initially very flirty w me and sort of asked me out 'if we ever get out of this' (quarantine) #whether he sees me as some pretty smart girl who's 8 years younger than him. well. #thats probably exactly what he sees me as #although im not pretty enough or smart enough. or hell even young enough anymore #god we're both old now. #i do promise you reader i won't marry him

[fragmentedblade]

Just how big was Teng Xiao if Cirrus calls Jing Yuan a "lightweight"???

#I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #I guess they don't mean it physically and more in countenance given the insults they direct to Jing Yuan #but that was my first thought lmao #I keep forgetting people here don't age so I always picture the masters old or at least like Gongshu aesthetically #so this line made me reconsider how Teng Xiao may have looked like #I always think of him‚ Fu Xuan's master and Huaiyan‚ for example‚ as old(ish) people #until the reminder of how they don't age hits me on the temple with a pan lol #The one time I saw Huaiyan art it took me a moment to place who that pretty man was because it wasn't anything like I pictured him #And then the idea that he could actually look like that even nowadays dawned on me like a punch. Same thing happened with Fu Xuan's master #Yet even after the punches I keep forgetting after two days and go on to think of them as rather old looking #only to be hit with the realisation again at some other time. Like right now xD #Super funny that he just pushes the fight on us. In line with his 'okay but why do I have to deal with this? This spark isn't even worth it #And then he pulls the 'if you lose you must answer one question without lies or tricks'. The same guy who can't be named in front of #the prisoner who collaborates with the interrogations of the Ten Lords Commission and that has a few free days yearly #This is so his way of doing things and god I love him so much for it #Odysseu.s-adjacent kind of character. A scoundrel truly in many regards‚ Fu Xuan was so right. I love him so. He should have been my fave 😔 #Cirrus talked about chessboard‚ pieces and pawns. I love how Jing Yuan's opponents keep talking in chess metaphors #And how he manauvers conflict and his moves in a similar fashion yet how he draws a clear line between real conflict and a chess match #when asked if war is truly similar to a xiangqi game #Ahfksjkd I love him sooo much haha

[b4kuch1n]

Fishmob just killed my friends wifi

very sorry for that. we'll put him down

#ask #kdragon-art #bakuspeech #Joking. I Am Joking. I hold no power over fishmob #I do love hearing abt u guys' stories with him tho lol it's like hearing abt a distant cousin #or an old friend I havent talked to for a while #glad to hear he's doing well and wrecking untold havoc on countless lives! #man thinking back tho. fishmob as a joke was pretty tame. its wild how everyone was like ''he's so cursed!! aaaaa'' back then #The Man Involved (baku of healthy) Has Gone On To Do Much Weirder Shit For Less #I think fondly of fishmob now. a piece of light idiosyncrasy from a different era... #thank you for letting me see him again once in a while (said in an extremely divorced voice)

[sheliesshattered]

I’m just so tired

#things with my dad are getting significantly worse. with terminal brain cancer that's pretty much the only direction things can go #but his mental state is deteriorating quickly. multiple massive brain tumors will do that to you but now it's accelerating #I described it to one of my siblings that it's like Dad's mind is a big jigsaw puzzle and for a year now it's been clear that #the once-whole puzzle is breaking into pieces. for awhile the pieces were still pretty big and he could still carry on a conversation well #he might not remember it 15 minutes later but get him talking about an old memory or something he's an expert on and he could just go on #I've been calling him twice a week for months now. since Mom first suggested we work on writing a book together #in the month since we decided to give that up as a lost cause Dad has gotten noticeably worse. he's gone from losing his train of thought #to talking complete nonsense in a scrambled combination of old memories and things he once read about -- smaller and smaller puzzle pieces #and as things have taken a downward term I know from talking to Mom separately that Dad is also having a lot of trouble with basic self care #balance and bathing and eating and knowing where he is and all kinds of things. all of which is made worse by his memory problems #and by the fact that he outweighs my mom by a good 100lbs. so when he fell in the tub and couldn't get himself out she had to call for help #had to have a church friend who is more than a foot taller than her drive over to help maneuver my dad out of the bathtub #he's also getting obstinate and angry and saying that my mom and my nb sibling who lives with them are the ones with mental problems #all of which means I think they're going to need in-home healthcare ASAP. if not a round-the-clock facility. it's coming sooner or later #but Dad still hasn't officially retired so he's still on his own insurance which apparentlydoesn't have any coverage for that sort of thing #so Mom has to get him to file the paperwork to officially retire and then get him on her insurance. hopefully without a huge confrontation #and I feel like we're running out of time. that he's going to need that care before all the paperwork has time to clear once its started #I feel like we've been barely surviving horrific river rapids and now I'm the ONLY one pointing out that there's a massive waterfall coming #ignoring it won't make it go away or take longer to get here. it'll just hit us with even fewer preparations in place #I have enlisted the help of siblings so hopefully we can convince Mom of the importance of getting the paperwork started #but Mom is so mired in her own grief and busy with work (and she can't quit bc of the health insurance) and unable to get the help she needs #that it's tricky to bring up any of this sort of thing in a helpful way. and all the while Dad is getting worse #meanwhile I'm trying to deal with my own grief and manage my own chronic health situation. and still call Dad twice a week just to chat #and holy hell I'm just so TIRED

[emeraldcreeper]

I truly despise writing a paper like a lawyer making a hopeless case with weird evidence going of course we can use existentialism! Yes we can use it it’s useful because…. Depression and anxiety,,, and and! And… middle aged people! And…. Fuck! Depression again! Yes I know but a new way to see it in adolescents! And,…, fuck! One more???? Shit! Okay, we can use it in research done two years ago, about pandemic and how it’s useable in 2020, yeah that’s it!

#I’m puzzle piecing my thesis together it’s hysterical #the psychological existentialism is about finding meaning in life and having that propel your…. meaning #it’s not all doom and gloom it’s doom gloom and oooh pretty flowers #I mean the old fuck deserves my clinical slant I do not care #the case is clinical to me all psychology is clinical #I’m not going into social psych fuck off if I have to say society I will walk into the sea and that’ll take a while #I’m not near the coast #for the layperson not in my hell clinical psych is what you think of with psych #the basic Freudian therapy idea of laying on a couch that’s my house where I live #I’m not tying the theraputic technique to anything but therapy you can’t tell me no #I’m reading the horrors of a man in a concentration camp and how he made it out and went logotherapy #I don’t wanna tie it harder to anything! that’s annoying! #plus all my articles cite the book I had to read as a basis of the cases they’re making #since it fell to the wayside probably around the cognitive focus that we’ve got now #well biological too but who can prescribe meds???? in this economy???? only psychiatrists #so we push the medication angle under the rug that’s for doctors to know and us to go yea it works