#this realization brought to you by my recollection of the colorguard girl

[stardustedknuckles]

Do you realize that from Beau’s point of view, Mollymauk died for her? His last spoken words were literally, “Fuck it. If you’re in for Lorenzo, I’m going for Lorenzo.”

They barely knew each other, had only just begun to work towards a kind of kinship. And then he went and died for her, leaving Beau with absolutely no way to repay him.

Except to make damn sure that if another sacrifice was ever needed, it would be her.

Beau already had troubles with self worth before meeting the Nein, sure. Who wouldn’t, after the life she had?

But she got that tattoo in Molly’s memory, months later, and shortly thereafter tried to exchange her chance at family and at happiness for Veth’s. She is the first to put herself in risky situations for her family despite being proud of being a survivor. Molly’s death left devastation in its wake, but it also left her with a purpose.

Beauregard doesn’t have a death wish. She has a debt to repay. And I wonder, held up by the throat in front of her family for execution, whether there was some part of her that looked into those red eyes and saw the scales balance.

#beauregard lionett #mollymauk tealeaf #this realization brought to you by my recollection of the colorguard girl #who knocked her own teeth out to keep from hitting me during practice #we weren't friends #we just sort of knew each other #it would have been so much easier to hit me #she was guard captain #it was not an accident and she said as much #we were not friends afterwards either #i did not know what to do in the face of a kindness like that #and I still don't #but I can look at beauregard and molly and understand suddenly #usual disclaimer that interpretation has inherent bias #if this doesn't track for you that's okay #but it's been ten years since someone took a pole to the face for me #i can't imagine what beau must have felt watching someone die for her #with no chance for her to protest #cr spoilers