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basard;; 4, 6,and 7 for silvy 24, 25, and 32 for gold :3c

:DDDD i wuv u!!!!

Silvanus:

4. Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

I may have answered this one b4 but that just means i get 2 pick another instance >:3 (lonk from pennslyvania to the first rep to this q)

The second time that Silvanus witnessed something that fundamentally changed them was probably when they met Luljeta. This is gonna sound pretty cheesy, and my next choice probably would have been when Gold was outed as a half-demon or when Ky revealed himself willing to murder to keep his love safe, but - these things didn’t really change Sil. Or, they did. I’m getting all jumbled up here - those instances are what made Silvanus believe in the whole love thing in the first place, watching their two idiot brothers (because Sil knew how this was going to go down, okay, he’d been calling Ky a brother-in-law for months if not years at this point) figure out they loved each other enough to defy the whole world and win.

No, but some part of them knew that love existed for other people, but Sil was also the elder of the Spell-Smith brothers. He saw what Morgana did to their father, and some part of them that wanted desperately not to get that hurt ever whispered to them that love just was not in the cards, not for them, no ser no way. No thank you. But then, this is so cheesy, they met Luljeta, and they were just floored. Like, Ky and Gold went on for years after that that they were just as bad as they were, and like, they didn’t even have the whole pining for literal years problem, so what was their excuse? No, they just kind of... they interacted with her, and she was so much sunshine, brilliant and chaotic and inevitable, and they think “Yeah. Yeah, I could try for her.” And that changed them. That changed them forever.

And yeah, pretty much anyone with eyes knows that :)

6. Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

Flames. It’s always been flames, before Ky even came into their family, flames. It’s always been their worst irrational fear. Eventually their fear of fire gets better and worse, better in their conscious mind (their brothers are fire elementals, and they’ve learned to recognize the warmth of family that comes with the flames) but in their subconscious, in their dreams, it gets worse, so much worse, when he heard of the Druidic Genocide that happened in Blithe during the war.

Rot eventually is added to their bad dreams at night, and sometimes, even during the day.

Another theme: time distortion. Speedups, slowdowns, all the time; even in good dreams. They can never make sense of it. To me, though, it symbolizes their fear of immortality while knowing, again and again, without fail, they would make the same decision of choosing a good, healthy tree. Because it wasn’t for them. It was for her. And whatever comes, whatever pains or numbs them, they will remain, steadfast and sturdy against the flow. And hey - life does bring joy, too. There is always a silver lining.

On a less serious note: purple tones. They dream in pastels and forests and running, flying. They dream of letting go of their cold facade in front of the whole world of nature around them, laughing and crying and smiling and it’s just so liberating that they know they can never do this in reality in front of anyone but their family. They love it. They sing with the birds and they braid their hair and it doesn’t mean anything, they’re not an officer there, they’re just... a druid. No responsibilities, just a connection with what’s around them that they were robbed of when they were young and that they would be damned if they didn’t allow for themself now.

Also ducks sometimes :p

7. Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

I guess I accidentally already answered this one,,,,, xDDDD

Gold:

24. How quick is your character to trust someone else?

Oh this boy has some Issues, as you well know xD

When he was young, he would trust so absolutely so quickly. See: his first summoning of Ky. Immediately the kid went “ah yes, new friend!” even as Ky was freaking out, as one would, if one was seven and just summoned across enemy lines, but whatever. He snuck into wizard pentagon and batted not one eyelash at the officials with weapons chasing after him; which may be more akin to stupidity than trust, but anyway.

But then he got to know Ky better, and it sounds bad, but Ky taught him distrust, Not by betraying him, no, but Ky is the one who taught him that not everyone has the best of intentions. Not everyone is Golden, who sees someone who is by all rights an enemy and goes “ah yes, new friend!” Some people have ulterior motives, and Ky murmurs this to him, and Golden, ever the strategist, goes duh, because he knows this (he just doesn’t believe it yet. He’s only a kid).

Until his eyes find Ky’s newest bandage-to-soon-become-a-scar, and his fingers brush it, and he goes okay, I trust you.

He believes it when he is discovered as a half demon, and the previous Head General tries him in front of his whole military and cuts his braid, takes his wand and ID, strips him of his citizenship and chains him and leaves him to starve. Some people have ulterior motives, he whispers to himself the first night as he cries. He believes him now in a way he couldn’t before.

So he doesn’t trust in the way he could before, either. It takes him so long now, though he’s developed an instinct for it; if you ring the instinct in a bad way, it’ll be never, but ring it in a good way and it’ll be much quicker than it would be otherwise.

Once you’ve earned his trust, though, it is very, very hard to break.

25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

Again, he has an instinct for it, and he certainly won’t convict you if he has no evidence, but he certainly would be willing to look for it, you feel? He’s been strategizing and fighting battles and winning them and losing them too long to ignore a bad feeling. That said, he still kinda halfway keeps his childhood naivete; he looks for the best in people even if he doesn’t particularly trust them yet, and there is the difference. However, yeah, that changes real quick if he’s close with the person because - it takes so much to be close to him, and part of him can’t reconcile that with that person being suspect of anything above a harmless prank, really. He can be forced to see reason with hard unequivocal evidence, but that pretty much is what it takes. He’s got a personal rule not to suspect his friends anyway, because those are the only people guaranteed not to have ulterior motives.

32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

The kid cannot handle watching his friends die and knowing that his own clock is ticking while his brothers - still technically is, but at a much slower, bigger scale. Because he’s known his brother long enough to know this: their biggest fear is being alone, and they’re on the fast track for it. Forever. Or, not forever. The foreseeable future, which, for Sil, is a hell of a long time.

Or a scenario where Ky is in pain, in trouble, and he can do nothing. Replace Ky’s name with anyone he cares about, really, because that’s what it all comes down to, honestly. He can’t handle helplessness. That’s what it is about Sil’s situation, Luljeta’s, Ky’s way back in the day - that despite everything Golden is, who he is, even with his power he cannot save everyone. He can’t shield everyone from everything. That’s not how it works.

And one day, he won’t even be there to try, and that thought terrifies him as much as it makes him grieve for his brother.

And for his love, because he will be the one to hold the blade despite how much Ky loathes it, and he can’t even spare him from that. Because he can’t do it himself.

Helplessness.

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