#this sounds like as if I am an alcoholic

[fumifooms]

Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.

His grey hairs are so earned

#Chilchuck tims #dungeon meshi #analysis #HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY #You know what yeah understandable have a good day #Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose #Spoilers #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm #Anyways I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s #How he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺 #I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many #Compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol #He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!! #I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers #He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help #Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’ #Is nice in his opinion #This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost… #OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level. #‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc #Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡

[g0dtier]

people pretend the worst part of your after-25 twenties are shit like. idk, fucking back pain

you know what the worst part is? hangovers

i used to have some alcohol issues at 23 where i would drink myself into a stupor alone and just wake up the next morning feeling fine

i do that now, at 28, and i fucking die. thats it. im just gone

#i still dont understand how i got drunk as all hell every night for like 3 months #and still finished my bachelor #im pondering this atm because i am currently drunk as all hell off half the amount of alcohol i used to need #the body truly is a marvel #im doing fine btw #like that sounds like a joke but i genuinely am

[hella1975]

'compliments to the chef!' the chef is currently waving around the steak hammer going 'COCK AND BALL TORTURE' so i think i'll let this one slide. have a nice day tho

#i just came round the corner like 'can you do some fries for table- what are you doing.' #literal five year olds im telling you. he even had the grace to look embarrassed #it was so dead today that my manager had me take ALL THE ALCOHOL OFF THE SHELVES AND DUST THEM #it was kinda funny tho bc basically our bartender today was this one lad who's worked there even longer than i have #AND as a full-timer so he's regarded as like a Knows All kind of worker at my place he's very VERY respected #even though he is just some 20-something guy lmao. and on top of him being our best bartender i in comparison am not even bar trained #everything i know about the bar has been picked up on shift just from observing in fact he's taught me 99% of ALL OF IT #so between the two of us it's not even a COMPETITION #like he has me FLOORED when it comes to bar. so it was absolutely a skill thing but the conversation was: #my manager: i need you both to clean the shelves but if there's customers dan will take the bar and hella you clean #my manager: *silent for 2 seconds. eyes widening* IM NOT BEING SEXIST BY THE WAY #LIKE KING NO ONE SAID YOU WERE 😭 #i of course jumped on it i was IMMEDIATELY like 'idk mate it sounds like an HR complaint to me' #man was DISTRESSED lmfaooo #hella slaves to capitalism

[quaranmine]

i love how popular my ao3 html post for spoiler drop downs has become. it's been steadily in my notes every day since i made the post and it's over 2k notes now. i get lots of tags of writers who are excited to learn about it and saving it for later!

however i also think it’s very funny that the example used in this post, that breached mcyt fan containment immediately, will forever be firewatch au chapter three

#every stranger who uses this html code now knows about alcohol and grief content warnings in my fic akdhskjfkejgk #well when i word it like 'alcohol and grief' that makes it sound like substance abuse. which is not the case #and will never be the case in this au because trust me i am not qualified to handle that

[johndonneswife]

someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

#who is talking about this!!!! let me know #idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which #i was anticipating #and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before #but liiiiiike. #i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them #it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there #just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse #like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no #anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite #and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up #people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out #and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point #or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible #but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding #at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends #which i am so grateful for obviously #i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol #AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad #just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t #i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it #i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this #which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao #probably for the best #ugh whatever #again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know #meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone #AAAAAAAA i just want to scream #text

[hergan416]

For the ask game: A story you might think is funny or ridiculous.

I used to always sneak my own alcohol into events, festivals and shows, and some of my friends would do the same. Usually I would just put a flask in my bag and put a pad or something on top because security would never dig around past it. But some of the more unique things we did was sneak an entire bag of white wine under my friends tits into a club. And replace the middle of a pack of water bottles with tequila and vodka instead of water (but water on the sides in case security checked. That was for a festival).

That ended up being a terrible idea though because we kept forgetting to check what bottles were water and which weren't. Leading to us taking huge swigs of liquor in the morning on more than one occasion before realizing in horror 🥲

Jeezus christ. Yes, I am laughing omg

#alcohol tw #alcohol #this sounds like fun for someone younger than i am now lol #😂😂😂 #ask answered #fyodorkitkat

[hanzajesthanza]

there are many good and even superb and even life-changing scenes in the witcher books, when asked “favorite scene?” we of course hear the classics — the striga fight, the death of essi daven, geralt leaving ciri outside of brokilon, geralt and ciri reuniting in something more, ciri at kaer morhen, shaerrawedd, ciri at ellander, yennefer and geralt at thanedd, the thanedd coup, the mandrake distillate, the horseshoe, the fish soup, the battle of the bridge, the slaughter of the rats, brisingamen, the ice skating on tarn mira, the stay in beauclair, ciri travelling between worlds, the battle of brenna, the assault on stygga castle, rivia…

but there’s also just the scenes you like that are not so grand or epic or even relevant to the main plot…

i have to have played and reread the conversation and philosophizing between regis and the rest of the company in chapter 7 of baptism of fire at least twenty times by now… and more, in my head

#the audiodrama added a running/bubbling water sound effect which is just so nice #this is like legit my bedtime story like i listen to this when im having an anxiety attack. its very special to me #regis: [describing how his life went horribly wrong and his severe alcoholism led to a stupid death-suicide] | me: oh so cozy… 😴🥱💙💤 #i am making this post because i have repeated the ‘that is to say Me — and my Myth —‘ phrase over and over in my head for the past hour #embody all of your fears… #sit. and think. in silence. | don’t admonish him geralt… #do lustra? #i dont reflect in mirrors… #the emphasis his VA puts on dzień and noc … :) <3 #does the explanation satisfy you my dear milva #UMNA będę. socjologia aktywocja srututucja wilkołacja… #txt

[bbeelzemon]

star wars rewatch idea: take a shot every time someone falls into some kind of hole or shaft

#actually this genuinely sounds really fun. latimer and i arent huge alcohol drinkers but a virgin version of this #with like candy or something would be delightful esp if we're stoned #i myself actually COULD do it as a true shot drinking challenge i am just genuinely afraid at how many #times guys fall down holes or shafts in star wars im worried id die LOL #it would be so fucking fun though. #maybe we could do 'take a sip every time...“ instead of a whole shot #at least til i get a better idea of around how many to expect in an episode. #if its like 6-8 or less times per movie on average i could do real shots about it. but what if theres like. 20 in one movie. id die LOL #star wars is so stupid and i hate it and i love it and its like one of those oil/water hourglass toys to me #like i know objectively its shitty made and if youve ever seen one youve seen em all #but yet i do still love to watch them. and it can be fun to look at a new one or an old favorite every now and then <3

[cuchillx]

You say you care about my birthday but it’s on Sunday and you planned a birthday party for someone else on Saturday, so if I celebrated on that day you and other friends wouldn’t go

You say you care about my birthday but you suggested I merge my birthday with yours’ and this other person’s even though you know I feel uncomfortable by that group of friends, and I’d be the one crashing a party that I wasn’t even directly invited to

You say you care about me but when I shared different options of what we could do that are friendly to your budget, you never confirmed any of them and just said you would get back to me. I had to choose to make an event somewhere and when I shared where you said you didn’t have any money, even though one of the options was just hanging out at a friends’ house but you just didn’t get back to me on that

You say you care about my birthday and you confirmed one day before even though my messages were sitting there for a couple of days, you asked to add your partner as +1 but once I got a deal on a package of 10 and gathered everyone in a group chat, you cancelled and I had to cancel the reservation because we wouldn’t complete the number of people for the group :(

You say you care about my birthday but when you canceled you turned down other ideas and mentioned a bar would be better (I don’t like bars) and then you just said “just let us know when” as if I hadn’t been doing that for the last weeks and you still bailed on me. No, apparently YOU let me know when because what I plan no one cares about

Only two people were nice about this. And its not even about being available, its ok if you’re not. One of the two people couldn’t actually make it but they communicated it and then still expressed that they were excited about seeing me and celebrating on our own and proposed a different plan. And I appreciate that. But unfortunately everyone else just made it so complicated for me to make a plan with their lack or communication, commitment and empathy :(

#i sound so spiteful how horrible #but welp im not doing anything for my birthday :( #i tried but i cant even have a get together at my place my mom’s alcoholism has been kicking our asses and the house looks like #a hoarders documentary #i really wanted to make something nice no one celebrated my birthday not my family either #i dont know at what point they stopped but i know it was very young i must have been a teen #anyways im just making a pity party for myself and that sucks too #i dont like myself ultimately #i am insufferable??? its likelier than you think #syrup speaks

[pinkspiraling]

i feel sick

#i’m really questioning if i’m an alcoholic like…am i???? maybe idk !!! i can’t seem to get a fucking grip #and being sober freaks me out so much like i don’t want to just never drink. that sounds terrible. but also i can’t drink in a normal way! #pink’s word vomiting

[borathae]

I just wanted to talk about this and you seem like the most sensible person when it comes to the members 😭 i really hope jungkook is okay because he's been getting drunk in every single live and i don't know how much drinking is bad because i don't drink and nobody in my family does. What do you think? I hope he's okay 😭😭

They seem to all drink a lot tbfh fjdsfja I don't want to say my truest opinion on this because those are the kinda topics where everything you say will be met with hate. I do agree with you though that he drinks A LOT (at least for my standards because I don't drink alcohol lmao maybe it's a normal amount to alcohol drinkers idk to me it seems like a lot as well). But yeah what I wouldn't advise you to do though is baby them fjdafj that sounds weird but at the end of the day they are adults and are capable of making their own decisions and also to seek help if they need it. I do think though that they drink a lot lmao so yeah that's all I will say about that

#i also think yoongi drinks a lot lmao #like in every suchwita episode he is all like yeah i was hangover there and there and we drank these many bottles of hard liquor #and i am always like damn am i really that anti alcohol or does this sound like a crazy amount of booze? #and like im austrian where society is basically all about getting wasted jfjdsjf #either way thats all i have to say about that lmaoo #asks #jsjsjshhfcbnsan #tw: alcholism #tw: alcohol

[vulpinesaint]

personally handing all of my mutuals a peach for the holidays. reblog to give your mutuals a peach for the holidays

#valentine notes #i just think peaches are. so good. #y'all it's so fucking late never let your family convince you that writing letters to each other is easier than buying gifts #my hand hurts and my brain hurts and my brain is also Not Functioning Right #words aren't wording u get what i mean? took me so many tries to write this tag my hands kept going in the wrong place #anyway. peaches are great. beautiful delicious fruit for you to hold in your hand. #mutuals you know who you are. i am personally handing you a peach #idk if peaches are in season right now i'm sure they're not #but for my mutuals. they are. #y'all i'm SO fucking sleepy right now 😭 #ummm anyway peaches are a summer fruit. right??? #tangy delicious beautiful for summer??? #i need to stop talking i sound like i'm drunk #I FORGOT I HAD ALCOHOL #also had like half a shot of eggnog liqueur so. my brain is just Slightly Fucked Up from several different perspectives #Cannot keep talking though i'm gonna make a fucking fool of myself #happy holidays to everyone hope winter is. wintering

[murderballadeer]

is soju supposed to actually taste like anything bc i've only had it once and it was mixed with lemonade and the whole thing just tasted like lemonade but idk if that's bc it was a high ratio of lemonade to soju or bc the soju just didn't taste like much

#was reminded of this bc i am drinking the same brand of lemonade rn #if soju & lemonade sounds like a weird combo that's bc it is but we wanted to have drinks and we only had soju or sambucca #soapbox #alcohol

[aezyrraeshh]

im gonna get drunk today besties 🥴

#alcohol mention #just in case #so if i write any texts post that sound like i am drunk as fuck it's bc i am #hfhejdjsi #nico.txt

[conflitdecanard]

Hello, sorry if you've answered this question before, but what advice would you give to a absolute beginner learning to draw fantasy character illustration art? (Also do you draw while high? Since that is the only way I know how I can experience new methods of thought openly without judgement.)

Hallo (*°ｰ°)ﾉ

dxdezhjdhed I will answer this part right away: I don't consume any subtances :'D Drugs or alcohol or such

I don't know if I am the best at giving advices for such a general art topic but I will do my best (。_。) - Before all you should have fun - It may sound pretty... basic but if you draw stuff you enjoy, it will be easier to work ! It is motivating to do something you enjoy I would say

- Art style is a patchwork - It is how my art style is, I dunno if it works for many others but yah. My art style is a mix of details/parts I find really good. I took them and put them in my art style. You would not notice it because there is so many little details I took, my art style doesn't look like the artists' I took these details from. You can look for fantasy art you find pleasing. I have a channel in my personal discord where I put inspirations for my art. It can be just a detail or more details ( I would say to also save the source of the art ^^" As respect for the artist ) -There's many fantasy species and even more depictions of them- Fantasy characters is a pretty wide subject as not only artstyle will change how species look but people may have different ways of how they will represent these species too

‣For example: Firbolgs - I saw them as blueish/greyish giants with pink noses but for some years now, I draw them as cows-like humanoids from seeing people draw them as such and I just... loved this vision ! ‣ Or for goblins, I see people drawing them with tails and even whiskers ! I don't do tails or whiskers myself but it is different possible interpretations ! And the examples go on...

It is a bit like the paragraph above but here it is more about fantasy characters yah. If you find a way a species is draw even if it is not how it is show in " official fantasy books ", if you enjoy it and it will bring you joy then that's how you will have that species draw. Who listen to every details in handbooks anyway... /lh

- Don't compare yourself to others - Again. Pretty basic. And not easy at all to do for many, I know that myself oh my gosh... It is in part with having fun. You will not have fun putting expectations on yourself FROM yourself... It is good to have a goal but do not try to be EXACTLY like someone else. You are you and what you create is good enough. <:)

- Real life is also a good place to find inspiration - For personal designs or adoptables, I will often use stuff I saw outside or just thought about. Like: - Ragdoll bunny plushies, I had one I adored as a kid. I could do something around that yeh... - Tadpoles are so interesting ! Oh swamp goblins do exist uh ! - Ayah... This character from that movie really gave me gender emotions growing up. Hmm... I could use his hairstyle as inspiration, I loved that part the most yeh. - I'm watching videos about bugs. I'm learning about them and I could do stuff around what I learned and saw ! I'm really about using stuff you enjoy hehe :')

- You do not have to finish a piece or make it complex to make said art good - That's an advice I got from a friend recently. I would think only arts I have finished fully or put enough work into were " worth " posting. He told me just doodles/sketches are good enough too. Art is art. Art is what you create. You create ? You're an artist. It is pretty simple if you ask me.

- You don't have to post or show every art you did - I would say to experiment and don't try to make it good everytime. You can just let the pen glide across the canvas and just draw what you want just cuz you wanna try to draw it. Nobody can make something good right away when they never done it before. It is like... testing if an ink pen works ! You would probably just make a random scribble to see if there's still ink in it, if it still work yeh. You can just warm up and test stuff around and keep these for yourself. I do recommand to keep even little tests so you can look at them later, for inspiration or just to remember how far you have come ! o(^▽^)o

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+ Not a general advice but a way of creating by just letting go I enjoy doing as a kind of exercice and game + Something I do WAY more on paper than digital is to... just start doodling and sketching without any real end goal in mind. I will start with a thought and just doodle stuff from it, like: - I think of the ragdoll bunny plushie of my childhood and just start stuff around it - Starting maybe with the plushie of my memories as best as I can, then maybe actual bunnies wearing the cute clothes my plushie wore, then maybe make the bunnies stand on two legs and have an anatomy more like my plushie had etc. I don't think or try of making it good, it helps me relax and let go. Empty my head from the day to day stress and anxiety. I will most likely never show these doodles to anyone. But here yeah it is more a me exercice and I don't say you have to follow it. And you have no obligations to follow any advices above too dhezhud (╯▽╰ ) Again I am no teacher and I believe everyone is different so not every advices or tutorial will work for everybody but it costs nothing to try ! Just be kind to yourself always ;w; @anony990

#saastalk #anony990 #long post #I took a moment to answer cuz i was very suprised you would ask me if i consume anything i dont remember saying anything sounding like i do #also been some rough days but I hope it is still an okay answer if a looong one oh god #i do talk a lot good lord #drug ment tw #funny tho cuz i was thinking not long before i got that ask how i am not very good at giving advices cuz art is such a vast subject oh gosh #i did my best but again i am no professional so you dont have to follow everything or anything i said huehue i would never judge you for th #for that #alcohol mention #alcohol ment tw #drug use mention #ask to tag #am sleepy so i didnt reread as much as i would usually do so sorry if any wording is weird or stuff is misspelled TwT