#this was truly heartbreaking to see

[blueskittlesart]

at a certain point i think we need to acknowledge that art is very rarely created accidentally. if you can see a theme in a work than that theme was, more likely than not, at least somewhat intentional on behalf of the creator. you don't put a piece of yourself out into the world without thinking about what it means at least a little bit.

#sigh. sorry got a comment like 'nintendo creates these accidentally heartbreaking scenarios and then fans add depth' and i just. #do you really think that not a single professional adult writer on the oot writing team thought about the implications of the scenario they #were writing. do you think that all of the ways in which the world is set up to reinforce the themes brought up by that scenario are also #accidental. do you think writing is just throwing shit at a wall and seeing what sticks without any more complex thought. #do you truly genuinely think that in a game so constrained by storage & software limitations ANYTHING about that story would be accidental #it just seems like such a sad and reductive way to view art. it's like you can't imagine that anything is done in earnest. #that people might really care about the things they create. that they might be truly meaningful. #the mcuification of story analysis. we just assume that nothing has substance anymore ig. our brains are so flooded with consumerist #garbage that we assume all art is made purely for consumption and profit. ok #WHATEVER. sorry. i have this disease where im obsessed with video games as art and i hate that no one sees it like i do #personal

[evankinard]

I keep seeing people say buck has never gotten a breakdown moment and every time I have to reply well what's all this then

#i get that it was different from eddies in the sense that eddie's was the climax of his mental health arc and led to his healing journey #but sometimes a breakdown is just a breakdown and there's no immediate relief #(not that that was the case for eddie but for us the audience we saw him truly start to heal within the next two episodes) #buck just picked up his pieces and put himself together again into a recognizable shape #until the shooting and the crane brought it crashing down #and then he existed in a self destructive limbo all of season 5 until season 6 where we're finally FINALLY starting to see him heal #but that doesnt take away from the fact that the warehouse was a full blown breakdown after three decades of slow simmering misery #and the heartbreak grief desperation in his face is one of the most devastating things this show has ever done #evan buckley #911 fox #weewoo brainrot

[adventure-showdown]

What is your favourite Doctor Who story?

TOURNAMENT MASTERPOST

synopses and propaganda under the cut

World Enough and Time/The Doctor Falls

Synopsis

The Doctor decides to test how good Missy has become by sending her on a trial run with Bill and Nardole. However, when things go wrong, the Doctor takes over. With Bill trapped in a different time zone, can the Doctor make it to her before it is too late, and who are all those people getting cured?

Propaganda no propaganda submitted

Heaven Sent

Synopsis

As if the death of his best friend wasn't enough, the Doctor's situation has only gotten worse. What initially started as an attempt to help clear someone of a false murder charge has evolved into to something much worse.

Now trapped in an old rusty castle in the middle of an ocean, the Time Lord is being stalked by a mysterious creature that only pauses when he gives up his deepest secrets. What does this thing want? And can the Doctor escape and find his way back home?

Propaganda no propaganda submitted  

#quarters #time for me to go to bat for my favourite nuwho #(i haven't so far becuase it would have been tantamount to bullying) #first of all weat #we all know weat is incredible and heartbreaking and incredible and amazing and horrifying and incredible #just #ahhhhhhhh #now people say tdf isn't as good #but seeing as thats functionally impossible its hardly a fair criticism #and anyway it is still amazing and great and i love it #firstly more multimaster stories please #secondly 12 regenerates not even to truly save anyone #all he can do is give them more time #but not a lot of it #but that still matters #its still important #point is tdf is still great #weat/tdf for the win

[cupidskissx]

I’ve seen a lot of commentary / comparisons to Lestappen and Larry over the past few months and as someone who never shipped them but saw first-hand how detrimental it was to Harry and Louis’ relationship it makes me feel genuinely sick. To the point I have had very serious thoughts about leaving the fandom to avoid the association.

Tumblr has always been such a safe space to obsess over your ship and find friends who share your same delusions. The beauty is, and always has been, the freedom to go feral over them — to exaggerate and fantasise in the shadows — all in the name of fun because we know deep down we don’t actually believe any of it.

The recent mainstream attention is becoming increasingly more concerning because things can get out of hand extremely quickly. When some fans move out of safe spaces, or start their shipping journey on sites like X or Instagram, their views on boundaries can easily warp. They are able to freely tag the people they are talking about, or worse, try to find more drastic ways to get their attention.

I’m not saying the entire fandom on those sites is toxic but it’s a lot easier for lines to be crossed in spaces the real people occupy as well.

It’s getting to the point where I’m not sure if we can go back, or if it’s too late and I’m going to have to watch a fandom I love be torn apart all over again…

#I’ve avoided this discourse until now because it’s for lack of a better word extremely triggering #it’s something that truly keeps me up at night #having the two ships linked makes me feel dirty and has stopped me writing for weeks on end #I don’t know if I want to contribute/participate in a ship that is heading down a route I don’t want to witness again #it’s heartbreaking to see something that used to only bring joy and happiness turn into something dangerous and damaging #lestappen

[smile-files]

oh yeah, i think it's important to differentiate between the ideas of a "jewish ethnostate" and a "jewish homeland", as a jew myself especially --

of course we deserve a place where we feel safe, a place that puts emphasis on caring for us and not treating us like dirt. but that is not the same as a place that allows ONLY us to be there. (and we are talking about a mass of land, not an affinity club or anything -- we're talking about somewhere people live. who gets to be a part of it is not something you should be policing on lines of race or religion.) we have no right to lay claim to land and force other people out of it. we have no right to a jewish ethnostate.

"oh but if there are any non-jews in our land they'll treat us badly like they always have!!!" no, that's just cynical nonsense. if anything, you're letting the antisemites win by agreeing with the omnipresence of their bigotry. yes, tons of people have been horrible to us. that won't get better by running away from them and hurting other people in the process.

also, it is very worthy of note that jews and their ancestors have lived in palestine, for a great portion of history in fact, but were conquered multiple times by multiple empires and expelled to the diaspora. of course jews want to live in palestine! of course! but palestinians are just as indigenous to the land as we are -- we have absolutely NO right to kill them and kick them out and say it isn't their home (which is exactly what so many empires did to us, in the same land no less).

endorsing zionism and anti-palestinian rhetoric, as a jew, is hypocritical, cruel, and wrong. let palestine be free, as they (and we) deserve to be. they are facing the same terrors we have; let us stand with them.

#melonposting #free palestine #and seeing jews post stuff about the israeli hostages -- #i know you want your loved ones back!! i know i know i know!!! #i would never wish that kind of pain on anyone -- to be taken hostage or lose a loved one to that. it is truly heartbreaking and horrible #and of course we have loved ones in israel in general. and of course we're so so so worried for them #but no matter what you think of hamas and what they're doing -- palestinian CIVILIANS do not deserve your hatred and genocide for it #these people just trying to live their lives like everyone else? these poor children orphaned in the blink of an eye? #THEY are monsters who deserve to be wiped off the face of the earth? look at yourself. good god. #and i'll admit. i haven't read as much as i'd like on hamas. for all i know they are horrible (i genuinely don't know) #but that gives you NO right to endorse the constant cruelty israel has been waging on palestinian civilians.

[kphobcapt]

andhera my dear love. i need to know what advisor’s reaction was the day that obsidian shard was placed. was he angry. did he hold his tongue and offer a quiet comforting touch. did he look at this beautiful lonely deeply feeling boy with bright eyes and a kind heart and think i will help him. they don’t see him but i see him. where is advisor i gotta know.

#that reveal was so heartbreaking and omar delivered it so beautifully and with such sadness #and binx seeing him truly and offering a reprieve if desired #FUCK imagine if rue knew #IMAGINE IF HOB KNEW #uncle Hob wouldn’t stand for that shit but he would fully understand. #god I have so many feelings omar you are a genius #omar najam #a court of fey and flowers #prince andhera #andhera #dimension 20

[enden-k]

drawing haitham crying (not bc he feels bad, its for other blog so its already telling) and unsurprisingly, he looks gorgeous. bc of course he does. def cries silently, eyes shimmering beautifully, tears catching on his lashes like pretty lil pearls. meanwhile kaveh is a (endearingly) messy crier; getting all red and puffy, wobbly lips that he tries to bite to keep still, runny snotty nose......idk why im having thoughts of them crying when im supposed to finish my doodle AKJBCSJK

#kaveh is like #u dont wanna see him cry bc it truly is heartbreaking #meanwhile haitham cries so prettily it does smth to u #which is exactly why it makes kaveh feel bad for him but also does smth to his heart #which is also why im drawing dacryphi-- #babbles #hcs #headcanons #hkvthm

[magnusthepuppet]

i could spit out some rant about this fandom having the media literacy of a single-celled organism.

however, i think that we have enough negativity in this community regarding this season as it is. so instead, i’d like to say a few words regarding why this season was perfect to me.

queer people are told they’re nothing their entire lives. we are killed, harassed, and treated like pests. ofmd tells us that even if you’ve fucked up. even if you’ve been a bad person. even if you’re “broken”. you still deserve to be loved. ofmd fucking proves them wrong.

maybe everyone didn’t get the happy little ending y’all hoped for. maybe there was heartbreak. but goddamn you if everyone in this show wasn’t loved.

#‘kill me. kill us all. our spirit will last throughout your entire fucking empire.’ #rest in piece izzy hands #you managed to divide an entire fandom #and your death drove many foolish people away #and for that i thank you. #one of the best characters i ever did see… #if you couldn’t tell i’m insanely happy with this season #i had so much fun #watching it with my friends made it even better haha #the only show that’s made me cry from both laughing and heartbreak #thank you david jenkins #truly. #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #stede bonnet #ed teach #izzy hands #frenchie ofmd #wee john feeney #lucius spriggs #black pete #roach ofmd #jim jimenez #oluwande boodhari #archie ofmd #swede ofmd #nathaniel buttons #fang ofmd

[foxsarah]

i wish we got to see more of sarah's blackness in the show, even within her mixed identity, even if it was lukewarm and barely there. i feel like we missed out on seeing her style her hair, on learning about her natural texture and keeping it up, about going to the beach or to the pool, or even showing us a bit of her homelife.

i wanted to see her play with dolls as a kid and watch vh1, burn cds and learn how to cook. maybe it would've been whitewashed and bland and serve no narrative purpose to the story, whatever, but i feel like if they can have a mummy episode they can make sarah black.

#or less like...easily replaceable (?) casting wise. #strength #the best way to understand a character as a character of color - especially (for me) black & mixed - #is to see if they can exist as another race in the show and see if that changes the narrative or plot or character behavior #like CAN she be any race? IS she exclusively black? #from how we see her - yes - sarah is black and her mixed identity is something we are vaguely familiar with. but BECAUSE #there are hardly any episodes outside of hottie hotep that could be seen as race related or indicative of the significance of her blackness #its heartbreaking to understand really. that they cast her so perfectly (because vanessa is truly truly talented) and yet approached her #growth AND identity with such race blindness

[marymekpop]

⟢ highlight of the hour: my dearest [13/20] ⟣

unexpected

#my dearest #korean drama #nam goongmin #ahn eun jin #mmkfav #mdhoth #mygif #after 300 years we finally saw these 2 together again #but it wasnt what they expected #ugh this scene just broke my heart #they were acting their butts off #the way aej spoke with her eyes!! those tears?? those eyes?? #and then i could even feel jh's angst and pain and heartbreak and anger thru the screen #like i get it i truly do #i get why he was so angry upon seeing her again #how many more mins until they separate.. AGAIN #i bet we get only 3 mins of them together and then drama will once again find a way to be a troll and separate them again #smh fr fr

[iguessitsjustme]

Because Pat doesn’t know how someone as good as Jeng can like someone like him, here is a list of some of Pat’s most endearing traits:

-So kind. He is so kind

-He works hard. Sure he might fuck up, but no one can say that he doesn’t try and he isn’t working

-He can be a goofball. A little silly. At the perfect moments.

-He is, and I mean this from the bottom of my heart, a cutie patootie.

-He is thoughtful.

-He is capable of setting clear and reasonable boundaries in his personal life.

-No filter when drunk. Will ruin your life and tell you every last horrible thought he’s ever had if he’s drunk and it will be something you’ve always suspected of yourself but no one’s told you so directly before in such an unabashed way.

-Can’t cook but will cook for you. It’s a lot of instant noodles but who doesn’t like instant noodles? (*stares Put dead in the eyes*)

-Will unknowingly stare at you with puppy dog eyes and make you fall deeper in love

-Likes snacks

-Has good friends who are also open and accepting and love each other deeply

Pat really sells himself short. I could really go on forever. He sees Jeng as someone who is too good for someone like him, but what I see are two people that fit together like puzzle pieces. They both have their flaws and they both have so many good things about them as well. And those good things balance out each others flaws well. Pat is more straightforward and direct than Jeng, who, as much as I love him, has a tendency to beat around the bush. Jeng can seem kind of uptight and stern at times whereas Pat can seem somewhat childish. Jeng needs that childish whimsy and Pat needs that grounding sternness. But they also have a lot in common. They love their friends, they love helping people, and most importantly they love each other. Whether Jeng sees Pat’s love or Pat believes Jeng’s love, it’s clear that the love is there.

#step by step #step by step the series #step by step bl #it hurt to watch Pat put Jeng on a pedestal like that #it’s never fun to be placed on a pedestal #and to have Pat put himself down in order to do it #was just so heartbreaking #Jeng is a human and he’s flawed and he’s not perfect #and that’s the beauty of this show #is that the high powered scary bossman isn’t just some perfect stereotype and can do no wrong #Jeng is flawed and he has made mistakes and he has hurt #but at no point in this show has he ever put that hurt on anyone else and that’s why people see him the way they do #including Pat #but that breakdown that Jeng had after getting rejected was so beautiful because it showed Jeng at his most vulnerable #something I doubt he lets very many people see #but he was so strong for so long and he finally let it out and let it free and it was so good and heartbreaking to watch #Pat doesn’t know the power he has over this man #truly the most smitten man in the entire universe

[deathsweetblossoms]

“When I sleep, I can hear your heart beating through the stone.

Can you hear mine?”

“No, lady. I cannot.”

“No one ever does. No one ever looked—not really.”

#elain archeron #just the most heartbreaking thing I’ve ever read #one page later Azriel carries her through the door of the townhouse and asks if she wants to see the garden #do you realize what this means??? #it means her love story is going to be based around someone truly seeing her and I go feral for that every time

[cannibalovers]

jack coming back, showing pics of the crime scene to will AND molly, pressuring him to come back and molly telling him that she would be satisfied knowing he did the right thing and that he should go and Will actually going made me actually shed a tear.

#at the scene where he started to act as dolarhyde and kill the family #specifically during shooting the kids #THAT made me lose it #i get justice #everybody wants justice #especially if it means saving families #but jack tell me why are u coming back to an agent that u wouldn't even give the title of an agent to cuz he was too unstable for the field #and got mentally destroyed by this job and so he quit and doesn't wanna come fucking back #after 3 years of trying to rebuild his life and regain normality and happiness (at least what he thought would give him happiness). #all thrown out the fucking window #GO HIRE MORE PEOPLE THAT U WILL GIVE MORE RESPECT TO INSTEAD FFS #THERES A LOT OF PASSIONATE PPL THAT WILL HELP SOLVE THE CRIMES #WILL ISNT THE ONLY PERSON IN THE WORLD #MARIAM FOR EXAMPLE EXISTS HOW COME HE LEFT HER ALONE or at least thats what was implied #anyway<3 #as much as will wasn't truly happy so technically it was for the good to yk return to hannibal someone he felt truly understood by #and complete with #still. seeing him give up that carefully crafted (although full of lies) life that he thought would make him happy was SO heartbreaking #but perhaps he wanted to do it and needed the push? #ok rant over #nbc hannibal #will graham #text post #my post

[stuckinapril]

hey -- i know you probably dont want anons worrying about you too much because i know at the end of the day what we're doing is doing whatever we can, spreading the word and letting them go unforgotten at least as the bare minimum, to help palestine. but genuinely volunteering fatigue is a very real thing and of course im sure i dont have to tell you to never stop talking about what's going on, never stop thinking about those individual lives lost to the occupation, im sure you understand better than most people. but in regards to your other volunteering work -- oftentimes your best work comes from when you've ensured your own rest first as best you can. im sure its hard with everything going on but try to take care of yourself where you can even if its the little things. youre doing amazing work irl and im sure i speak for a ton of people when i say your constant activism doesnt go unseen. you are making a difference in so many ways. they will be free.

from the river to the sea. 🍉

(no pressure to reply to this and sorry if i overstepped at all. im just an anon online so i dont really know you. i just also volunteer and have a lot going on and i've been thinking constantly about the atrocities against the palestines and how horrifying it is that some people would think it's even remotely okay. i know you wouldnt want the attention put on you so again i totally understand if you dont wanna publish this -- i just want you to know you're doing as much as you can in all aspects of life and im sure many people think your work is a blessing)

🌻

No I really appreciate this!! I do realize I can come off as pretty stilted when I’m answering asks like this, and honestly yeah it does have to do with that I’m uncomfortable w the idea of making this about me. It even took a mental tug of war to answer this lmao, but I don’t wanna just dismiss people who’re being openly kind to me—so thank you. Sincerely.

I can see how a lot of my posts can come off as red flags haha, not w regards to volunteer work but just in general bc I’m very much an overachiever pre-med. And I love it, I wouldn’t do it if I didn’t love medicine and science and being busy, but I do have moments where I’m like I!!! Have not truly been home!!! In a week and a half!!! But I do have ways to destress w that like the gym, a good group of friends, journaling, reading, self-care regimens etc etc.

Really grateful that I’m just some girl on the internet & there are still people who care enough to send worried asks like this!! Love u SO much even if I am bad at expressing it at times

#thank you for all of this!! you’re the sweetheart of sweethearts #luckily putting in the work for palestine aid does truly energize me… even though its so heartbreaking to see what’s happening #it haunts me all the time anyway so I’d probably go insane if I just sat back about it in the name of self care

[booasaur]

NCIS: Hawai’i - 1x10

#ncishawaiiedit #ncis hawai'i #lucy tara #kate whistler #yasmine al bustami #tori anderson #ncis hawai'i 1x10 #kate x lucy #kacy #femslash related stuff #yes this is from many months ago but I was looking through my posts for what I referenced in the tags of my newest post #and realized I'd forgotten to post this despite giffing it way back #but you see the contexttttt #of why a certain someone might think that a public gesture would be well received #lucy would be super excited about it! #awww though #when I'd made this gifset I didn't know what was on the horizon and was like look at them being so tentative and cute #and all the other context retroactively added just makes it all the sweeter and more heartbreaking #because kate is fully in this! this is a relationship she is ready to truly embark on #and this isn't just a few weeks in #this is the culmination of YEARS of bad timing and pining #but for lucy this is just a memory of being made a fool of #is it really just kate being self-conscious and careful about being out in public #or is she afraid to get caught by her girlfriend #let me add #ncis hawai'i spoilers #just in cases

[faebriel]

hgs brainrot has returned due to tbosas .. speaking of hgs here’s an ask abt the hgs au: if things were totally different, and Wilbur were to be a 12 victor, what do you think a possible mentor-tribute dynamic would look like between him & Niki? I feel like it would be similar to Snow & Lucy in the way that he’s just going out of his way to cheat n help her

anon u have in fact struck jackpot because this is a concept i was spinning some thoughts abt before bee mentioned avoxes and we went OOOOH at that!!! so yes i have considered rainduo as a mentor-tribute dynamic and would love to talk about that concept too :]

so for this concept i think wilbur and niki would be close friends throughout childhood from 12, and then in their teens wilbur is reaped and, well, no one has particularly high hopes (he's a writer and a musician at heart, not a fighter) but through sheer trickery and dumb luck, he makes it to the end of the games. wilbur pulled some pretty fucked up tricks to win - when you can't use brute force, you have to use your brain - and partly due to the trauma of the games, partly due to his shame and survivor's guilt, he sinks into the capitol and relishes a new life there as a socialite. to him, the old wilbur died in the games and the new one has taken his place - to niki, and to his other friends in 12, whatever the games did to him made him into every vapid heartless capitol victor there is.

or. niki has her doubts. they all saw how horrible the games were, but surely there is some part of him left, some part that's hurting, even if it's buried deep?

anyway.

like og spin of the au, niki is reaped and this sucks - this time she does expect wilbur as her mentor on the train, and she expects some kind of warm welcome (maybe even an apology for leaving them so suddenly and silently? an explanation?) but she gets jack shit. wilbur is jaded and cruel and unrecognisable and niki entirely hates it. this is the part where i REALLY WISH we got some time of those two beefing with each other directly in canon (or at least interactions while niki was So Mad at him) but it's okay we fly blind. niki feels abandoned, lonely, thrown off of her kilter - she expected an ally in this place, but she doesn't recognise the person wilbur has become. she doesn't recognise his shallowness (...much), his ruthless advice for the arena, the way he doesn't seem to care for anything. she's scared and now she's lonely and it pisses her off - their mentorship is fraught. here are some thoughts from discord on that:

i tend to think of niki as a bit naïve before l'manberg or even doomsday - i think this is an au where this streak would come out real strong, and niki is stubborn that she can get through the games without losing herself. stubborn that she can stop things, that she can protect people. i don't think wilbur is cold enough (or, really, can bear to say aloud) to say that her odds in the arena are slim enough as it is, but he definitely tells her that she's making enemies and that her odds of survival dwindle with the more trouble she causes.

beyond that... hm. niki's trust in wilbur is almost unshakeable until nov 16, even when she outright says she doesn't recognise him anymore. i think she'd reluctantly listen re: don't burn down any buildings, but she would grow bolder each day she had to stay in the capitol. she gets more honest in front of the cameras. she makes more friends in training, and not the ones wilbur recommends. she throws barbs at him every time he makes one of those callous, cold-hearted comments about other tributes and rankings and odds. and besides, she's going in the arena this time, not him. she needs to practice her bravery.

it's like... she hasn't given up on him. she thinks the old wilbur is in there somewhere. (she is wrong. that is not how trauma works.) but she won't hold her tongue just because she

for extra angst points could definitely play up the whole 'feeling abandoned' angle between them as niki goes into the arena - probably due to how fraught their friendship gets leading up to the games. niki wants to focus on them and their friendship, wilbur has stringently cut off (almost) everything from 12 and refuses to let her in; he tells her to behave for the cameras, she tells him she never will. i think the last point in that screenshot would also make for a super tasty argument where niki feels wilbur has gone astray, that he's abandoned 12, and that he'll probably do nothing but sit on his ass and watch her die and he can't even bring himself to care about her anymore, can he? just more fodder for the arena. and honestly, i think wilbur would passively agree with most of that - he values niki's opinion, after all, even now, and if she says he's rapidly descending into a lost cause then she must be right. and it's niki, so she will be fine, and he goes to his bedroom that night and tries to pretend he is sleeping perfectly fine instead of feeling paralysed with fear.

okay now onto the games - YES HE SO WOULD. or at least i think he would go out of his way to help. as for cheating - he's a recent victor for 12 and i think he would value tommy (no doubt a link to him... i think they'd be in touch in this au also) too much to risk the punishment falling onto him as well. i get the vibes this is a games closer to 74th than 10th, so there are far fewer opportunities to cheat and the consequences of getting caught are higher. but schmoozing up sponsors? making stupid ass radio interviews or whatever to talk up niki's odds? sharing anecdotes from their childhood - some real, some entirely fabricated - across capitol airwaves to stoke their sympathy? 100%. with less to lose in this au, i think niki would be far less inclined to play nice for the cameras - i hope you starve, she spits at one of them, and wilbur appears on a talkshow two days later as she scrambles for survival in the arena to talk up how she always saved loaves from the bakery for the poorest mothers and children in 12. he borrows and begs and swindles to the point where it feels like cheating. but hey, this new wilbur is capitol-branded. he knows how to play the game.

if anything he probably sinks into the game a little too much. self-preservation is not his forte. probably wracks up a few heavy debts and favours to owe, but those are not priority until niki is out of the arena, alive. as long as she wins, and as long as the family he has isn't in danger, he will manage. wow it would suck if at some point those two goals became impossible to co-achieve. anyway

i kind of see niki's victory in the arena being similar to the one in the main au - if only because planning out an entire games is hard for meee >-< . she walks in bolder and braver for sure, and with a less strategic pick of allies, but they all get picked off and she spends a few weeks so terrified she can barely sleep and then she ruptures some fuel line and sets the arena alight with a fire that burns brighter and more ravenously than it should. but she wins, and she's airlifted out of a filthy, muddy creek she had resigned herself to die in, and wilbur barges his way through as many peacekeepers so that he can actually see her with her burnt skin and hair and unfocused eyes and trust that what was on the screens wasn't a fluke, and that they made it. and then it's just a matter of surviving the after.

i'm sure there are some other random quirks or tidbits i can think of re: this take on a c!rainduo hunger games au but these are my base thoughts!!

#can i just say whatever the hell lucy grey n snow had going on in part 1 made me so berko btw. like congrats ur my means to an end youre my #symbol youre my buddy? should we kiss? i'll get you out of here / don't make me leave these people behind #BRIDGING OFF OF THE TBOSAS DISCUSSION. i think the thing with crainduo (or at least how i like to depict them) is that they care about each #other extremely deeply and value each other... without being each others number one priority at all times. #i don't think niki plays priority with people she cares for like that; see her relationships with like wilbur and eret in lmanberg #even her friendship with and offering ponk a place to stay in her city after manberg even tho manberg hurt her #as for wilbur: his priority is tommy. like always. if it was just him on the line he'd do anything to get niki thru but it's not #asks #hunger games au #they would truly be such a nightmare in this au like. wilbur's self loathing is SO HIGH due to survivors guilt and trauma and mental illnes #he thinks that niki is So Good and Has It Together meanwhile he is So Bad #and is a mess that she cannot possibly rely on him. she can't possibly need him. she can't possibly want him around #<- and this shit is INGRAINED like. it's not even an active thought pattern anymore it is carved into his brain like a groove #and so shes like. do you even care whether i live or die?? #of course he does. but this is the capitol. he cant be vulnerable in a way that matters #and that alienates niki further and this rage and heartbreak is building in her with nowhere to go. and in the arena she thinks it erupts #nah uh. i think its AFTER the area when she has to face wilbur again that she would go full screaming meltdown #ANYWAY !! i really like aus where they have this friction esp because i think like.. idk i think sometimes our views of rainduo are too ros #wilbur kind of forgets about niki sometimes because his self hatred is that bad. niki doesnt get wilburs mental illness and takes it both a #a burden/blame AND a direct rejection of her and her friendship #and they hover just outside of each others spaces anxious and angry and almost self flagellating. GOOD FOR THEM ! #anyway Yes this did unlock something within me. thanks anon feel free to add on if u had more thoughts esp re: tbosas and such bc i had suc #a good time watching that movie