#tldr Blake ran away and learned that her friends were there to help with her problems

[chlothequeen]

There’s a Ruby and Blake interaction that I really want to see, but I’m not quite sure how to articulate it. Basically...

Ruby said something way back in volume 1 that I think is still part of her mindset.

“You’re a leader now, Jaune. You’re not allowed to be a failure. ...Because it’s not just about you anymore. You’ve got a team now, Jaune. We both do! And if we fail, we’ll just be bringing them down with us. We have to put our teammates first and ourselves second.”

That’s part of why Ruby doesn’t talk about everything that’s happened to her since volume 3. She always supports her team and buries her own problems so that they don’t bring her team down.

In a way, this parallels Blake’s arc. In volume 4, Blake has a conversation with Sun where she tells him this:

“Do you think I like being alone? Every day... every day I think about them! Ruby, Weiss, Yang... they were my friends! I loved them like I never thought I could love anybody. And I hope they hate me for leaving. ...I made my choices and I’ll deal with the consequences because they belong to me.”

In both of these situations, Ruby and Blake thought of their issues as a burden. Ruby thought she wasn’t allowed to be a failure, and Blake thought that she had failed her team. A big difference was that Blake had Sun to talk her out of thinking that way.

“You can make your own choices, sure. But you don’t get to make ours. When your friends fight for you, it’s because we want to. So stop pushing us out!”

While I wouldn’t necessarily say that Ruby is actively pushing her team out, she has definitely been compartmentalizing, and hasn’t really talked about her trauma with anyone.

As of the volume 8 part 2 teaser, Ruby is more obviously having trouble dealing with everything that’s going on, finally saying that it’s “too much.” Basically, I really hope that Blake picks up on that, and helps Ruby learn what she did. That she doesn’t have to deal with her problems alone, and that her team will be there for her.

#rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby8 #rwby8 spoilers #ruby rose #blake belladonna #long post #because I’m bad at wording things #tldr Blake ran away and learned that her friends were there to help with her problems #and Ruby is repressing trauma and needs to learn that her friends are there for her #also because of the team split and volume 8’s tone cue Ruby realizing that Yang Jaune and Ren actually aren’t there and disagreed with her #so that might be a whole thing if this sorta interaction were to happen

[benedictmaxwell]

From your ask thing you reblogged, 3?

3. list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.

So tumblr mobile is a pos that doesn’t notify me when I get asks so THAT’S cool… Also Sarah is this you?? You use the same wording. I’m hearing this in your voice.

As for fandoms… let me roll up my sleeves here. Are we talking past and present? Because that list is LONG and I’m not sure (if this is Sarah) that you really want to know how much of a nerd I am.

Ok well it did indeed get #LONG so it’s going under a read more. Tldr: Kingdom Hearts, Vampire Knight, Yuri on Ice, Check Please, and Eerie Crests.

EDIT NOPE I guess those on android can’t open read mores?? So I deleted it YOU’RE WELCOME SARAH now everyone has to suffer through scrolling!!!

So Kingdom Hearts is my baby first and foremost. I identified a lot with Riku and also with Roxas, mostly bc Riku started out as a flat and sort of asshole character (which I most definitely am) and had to deal with darkness (HELLO anxiety and depression) overcoming him. He had to fight back and learn how to control it and also how to cope with his friends offering help and never QUITE being able to reach him. And Roxas was just… so used. So angry. He had no idea what was going on and all he DID know was that he was a pawn. Never supposed to exist. The people around him were fakes, his childhood was stolen. I have a lot of deep seated psychological trauma I’m trying to work through, can you tell?

That was two characters and the ask said one. Oops!

Omg let’s go WAY BACK to a manga called Vampire Knight. It was terrible. Truly awful. I loved it so much. There was this character named Zero and I had his tattoo literally inked onto my body when I was 16. I named me car after him. This is so embarrassing kill me. He was torn between where he was SUPPOSED to be in the world (elite vampire hunter anyone?) and where he WAS in the world (turned into a vampire by this conniving bitch who killed his entire family.) And the only thing that really kept him toeing the line was the overwhelming desire to protect the ones he loves most. How typical manga does this sound right now. Anyway, that desire to help family (for him, the love of his life/fellow prefect at the school Yuki and his adoptive father. For me, my sisters) kept me from killing myself on more than one occasion. It’s been so many years since I’ve even thought about that story LMAO

So currently. Let’s see. I’m a HUGE slut for gay skaters, as you can tell by my blog title. So Yuri on Ice. BRO. The way Victor hides his own psych issues behind that TOO obviously fake mask of oblivious joy and pushes Yuri to be happier, better, bigger than he was. The way he dropped everything for That Boy who he loved so immediately. He’s a goddamn martyr, and I identify so closely with that it’s honestly disgusting. I mean, don’t get me wrong, he felt lifeless before Yuri and that’s a huge reason why he ran away, but I understand all too well that hopeless question of “is there anything beyond this? Is this what I’m stuck doing for the rest of my days?” Also he’s super codependent with his dog and LET’S FACE IT SO AM I OKAY HE’S JUST SUCH A GOOD BOY. Also, people look up to him?? He’s afraid of letting people down?? I’m just projecting my insecurities onto a fictional character???

Check Please! I wish I could identify with Shitty in all honesty because bro is hilarious, charismatic, successful, talented, and also socially aware as much as he can be despite his privilege (which he is also aware of!) But. My son. The one and only Kent Parson. Poor child is dealing with so much. First love rejects you and ignores you and downplays the fact that you definitely had something going on? Been there, done that. It fucking sucked. CONSTANTLY facing the pressure of being better than your previous self, better than others, better than the past you’re STILL trying to leave behind but it follows you no matter what? Yup. That also fucking sucks. Dealing with a range of undiagnosed disorders and abandonment issues that were instilled upon you when you were vulnerable and pliant and young? I’m getting in too deep here. And one last thing: acting cavalier about it, putting on a front of smug, joking asshole? Being a bro and crying behind closed doors? Picking fights when your shit gets so heavy you have to unleash it on SOMEONE? 

Finally, let’s get into Eerie Crests, my newest baby but DEFINITELY NOT THE WEAKEST. I’m not sure if I can pick just one? They’re all such rounded, dented, wounded characters and a piece of each person individually speaks to me? Dallas hates himself and is dealing with major abandonment issues. He pushes Malek’s buttons even though he KNOWS it’s wrong and that he’s being irrational. Malek wants to better himself not FOR himself but for his family despite having faced hardship and loss. He plays cool and calm despite the absolute bullshit he’s going through at home. He’s constantly trying to help Dallas (and literally everyone else lbh) cope even though he himself is doing something he knows is bad for him and that his friends hate (smoking in his case, drinking in mine.)

Blake is bitter from his past relationship and needy. He needs validation and seems to lash out sometimes. Blake is me and I am him and I need MORE DEVELOPMENT BELL PLEASE GIVE ME EXTRAS FOR THIS CHILD. Poppy is exasperated and impatient and also SO GOOD at keeping secrets. She’s family/friend-oriented and also a wlw and she’s willing to follow her friend into the black woods where their other friend disappeared and was apparently murdered even though she doesn’t feel the same way (that he’s alive) but bc she trusts Dallas and doesn’t want to abandon him. THAT LOYALTY.

This somehow turned away from why I identify with her and what I look up to in her, but let’s be totally honest my crush on Poppy is REAL.

Anyway, that’s enough of an essay from me. I got carried away…

#tw suicude #tw murder #I probs shouldn't put the actual fandom tags in this huh? #tw missing persons #tw mental illness