#to tell the world how you are defined

[faelapis]

crazy seeing rightwing people calling the barbie movie anti-men considering i’m pretty sure the “i’m just ken” song did more good for men’s mental health than any number of their shitty little incel forums combined

#not su / #genuine banger telling men not to define their worth by having a gf or trying to dominate others #and they still can’t handle the movie quipping about the state of gender relations by saying kens will one day be as important in society #as women today (which is an excellent prompt for people to realize how unequal the world still is and be unsettled but people still don’t #get it) and it’s just. So revealing that you can’t handle being treated like you’re not the center of the world for 5 seconds #barbie movie #barbie #barbie 2023

[beeapocalypse]

^ GAH !

^ GAH !!!!!!!!!!!!!

#funger screenshots #didnt get screenshots of her final speech where she comforts the pc and tells them to rest bc the text faded out too fast but OH my god man #THERE IS SO MUCH TO ALL OF THIS. I FEEL SICK #THE NEWBORN GODS STRUGGLE TO DEFINE HERSELF AND FIND A BODY IN 'FEAR AND HUNGER'. THE RECOGNITION OF YOUR PAIN- THROUGH-- #--HER OWN SUFFERING SHE ASCENDED AND IT WAS RIGHT ALONGSIDE YOU SHE BLED #for all the pcs possible kindness (the doll and the dagger- u can see her reminiscing over the dagger here) they still brought her deeper #they still made her fight alongside them and they still obeyed nilvans plea and brought her to the heart of darkness. kindness wasnt enough #putting this w the knowledge given in termina- fear as motivation and hunger to keep humanity moving forwards driving them to technological #--advances unheard of before- makes this so bittersweet. the world was stagnating under the rule of the new gods and in the absence of the- #--old. its as nosramus says- extinction approaches. it was a necessary cruelty to birth the god of fear and hunger but it still HURTS #the expression of seeming ecstasy on the fourth phases face. how she retains at least Some semblance of the girl (the hair mostly) until-- #--she finally settles upon the SCARECROW (<-- !!!!!!!! WTF) form. THE SKIN YOU CAN SEE SLOUGHED OFF AT THE SCARECROWS BASE #elaboration on the scarecrow bit. fear and hunger. frightens birds away from food. my GOD

[gibbearish]

maybe this was common knowledge and ive been severely out of the loop but the fact that russel t davies is gay is kind of rocking my world rn?

#like obviously his characters were always super fuckin queer but idk there is still something different knowing that like #its not accidental rep its not pandering its not rainbow capitalism #its one of us telling our stories #like. idk how much torchwood criticism ive read that boiled down to 'they all act bi but dont address it' #and then seeing a clip of an interview w him being like 'yeah thats deliberate i thought it was time to bring bi ppl into mainstream #and i think in a world with literal aliens it would get a lot harder to care about gender in the first place to even need to try #and define it' and its like. hello???? why did no one mention this before????????? #like that literally describes 99% of my friends is 'am i gay? am i bi? do i have gender preference at all? fuck if i know i have #bigger issues to think about' #ppl criticized it for being bad representation but like. is it? #is a group of misfits with nowhere else to go and only each other to rely on who have weirdly intense co-dependant #sometimes toxic messy relationships and lots of hooking up not descriptive of like. most queer friend groups #raise a hand if youre queer and arent exes with at least one of your closest friends. yeah thats what i thought #anyways thats all thank you verilybitchy for your doctor who videos im astral projecting #origibberish

[tittysuckersworld]

y'know, not saying anything but you know what id love to see more of? sorta washed up kaveh fic stuff. like he is burnt out and tired and cant compell himself to work in different mediums he used to do good in cause it just dosent work for him anymore. or just being dad cause he defines himself on art and others define him on art so when he dose other things its weird or smth idk

just like if know any fics about kaveh struggle with happy end would love to read yes

#can you tell im an art kid? #only thing defined myself by in childhood that wasnt smth bad #loved sewing knitting the like #and now i have so much materials piled in my room from those passions #so much time and effort and work #and i cant get enough energy to even find my knitting needles again #i have projects wanna do but just #cant #idk i just wish i had extra energy again because these things i love that brought me so much energy now drain me #i still love them so much #but im really not good anymore. especially with standards by my age #idk you ever have a mid life crisis at like your teen years? #think shows how messed up the world has become lol #oh well #i just #kaveh is so much to me personally #i judt wanna see him struggle a little and think and yet be able to be pulled back up #i want him to be happy so bad #im horid horible projecting again but cant help it #if you cant find yourself really in a character project a little helps yes #glob im existing #gonna sleep now school but fanfic authors or ppl who read fics like this recomend me them pls thanks yous!!! #kaveh #also forgot to tag main man

[aj-thegreatest]

Someone needs to make an essay on how the Owl House tackles the “don’t fully fall into fantasy/don’t believe you’re the main character” moral with Luz stronger than Amphibia did with Marcy

#the owl house #amphibia #quiet mumbles #i think while Marcy’s arc was well defined and showed how believing in that mindset was harmful #it doesn’t finish the landing for her arc in season three (it gets shoved to the final episodes) #meanwhile the Owl House literally structures its world and characters around how believing this is not good for you #the second episodes moral is all about how you need to chose your destiny and that Luz DOES have the ability to become a powerful witch #without needing some prophecy telling her she’s special #…SO THE TRIO ENDS UP BEING PART OF A PROHECY- #i think this all comes down to The Owl House being a more thoughtful deconstruction on the isekai premise and the harm it can bring #(with Belos having that mindset) vs Amphibia briefly sprinkling it in to seem smart while also abiding to the harmful/typical tropes of an #isekai. especially when Luz feeling like she has to chose is shown as an internal conflict and pressure she puts on herself #that (hopefully) will be proven wrong #because the owl house actually knows the found family aspect is a key part of their narrative

[duskythesomething]

every time someone tells me that I'm "high functioning" or "only a little autistic" it almost makes me wish i struggled more visibly. you Do Not Know what i go through every single fucking day

#mrowr.txt #my coworkers and i were talking about disabilities/autism #and one of them was saying how people shouldnt let their disabilities define them #and they should be more confident and stuff #like?? you are able bodied? your opinion doesn't matter? #depression and anxiety can be disabling for a person sure but you do NOT have a say #i literally cannot function because of how my brain works fairly often #like you're really gonna tell someone with EDS that their disability shouldnt define them? #someone in a wheelchair?? #you gonna tell someone with a physical disability #that the world DOES NOT cater to #that it shouldnt define them?? #not everyone wants to be above their disability. #not everyone wants to act like being disabled. visible or not. physical or mental. isnt so fucking hard #because it is. life is 500× harder #and you. do. not. get. a. say. #white abled bodied neurotypicals need to SHUT THE FUCK UP.

[sleebyconfy]

you are not defined by arbitrary ratings and grades.

you are worthy of respect and rest and joy, regardless of any superficial judgements others make of you.

you are worthy because you are alive and here.

sometimes things are out of your control, and it is ok and healthy to let them go and no longer worry about them after acknowledging them.

when things are out of your control and are unimportant in the grand scheme of things, no amount of panic and anger and guilt will fix it, and it is good and ok to turn your attention and energy towards other things.

#my post #affirms #need a more direct affirmation written out for Frank so: #getting a bad grade or getting a one star review does not mean you are bad. #it does not mean you are a failure. it does not mean everyone is mad at you. it does not affect your worth. #you are more than grades. you are much more than how customers and employers see you. #you are not defined by arbitrary ratings. you are not defined by arbitrary ratings. #you are a person worthy of respect and rest and joy regardless of any superficial judgements others make of you. #panic and guilt and anger are not going to help you fix things when they are out of your control and when they are unimportant in the grand #scheme of things #(got a mysterious one star rating at work with no explanation as to why and Frank is really stressed and upset and hurt about it #but it’s ok if they won’t tell us why then it is not our fault and is out of our control and it does not mean the world is out to get us)

[lucyvsky]

thinking

#ok so like. ignore this i just need to type things out #it’s weird because i don’t ever know what to call my hyperacusis right. like i don’t know what to do about it i just call it a sound thing #and move on but it’s like. i don’t know if it’s a disability or not because yeah it’s like. well it makes my life miserable and impacts like #everything about how i interact with the world. etc. but since i can manage it better now it doesn’t worry me as much and i don’t think that #i struggle with it as much as i used to so it just doesn’t count for me. but it’s also like. i don’t know. my audiologist thinks it’s caused #by me playing trombone but i’m willing to bet it’s all the concerts too but in any situation it’s my own fault and i don’t know how bad i’m #allowed to feel about something that i did to myself. like just the consequences of my actions. etc. on another note though it’s hard too #because i can’t find like. anything concrete about hyperacusis really like it sort of exists but also not really but demonstrably it exists #because i can feel it but there’s no research. and so i don’t know how to figure out my relationship with my sound thing. at all. because on #some levels it’s just like nooooooooo :(( too loud noise but then you go on the wikipedia page it’s like. people have killed themselves #because they had this and it’s just like. ok so that’s a possibility here. great. and i need to survive this?? #i don’t know man. blame the random onset of tinnitus five minutes ago for this #it’s just hard because i don’t know how seriously i should tell other people to treat it like my friends from high school were there with me #when it was the worst it has ever been and so like. they know how bad it could get but i just get really dismissive of it now when people #ask me about it because it’s like. well it hasn’t been that bad in a while but it could be at any time. and so having to define how much it #bothers me to other people is hard because on some days i’m so normal and then on other days i’m near tears over something #i just miss my friends

[crazy-fruit]

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#jojo rambles #cw death #but only in the tags #i wonder how bad the grief will be on the offical death date #and I only realised how much love there was when she was gone #but it hurt a couple of nights ago #how can she be gone? #has it been 2 or 3 years already? #I no longer think I will just meet her when going back home #but I miss her #I'm sad she can't see my future #how important she was for my entire family #it says a lot that my mother asked my brother to call me because she couldn't #I hate the fact that I am still wondering when she died #it can not be the day when the life support was turned off #funny how I would have lost a parental figure of a bicycle accident hadn't happend and how I actually lost one due to a bicycle acciddent #parental figure sounds wrong #but how do you grief somebody when you can't define the relationship you had #from tucking me in as a kid to giving me my favourite stuffed animal to making sure my family can handle my mother returning to work #to saying that I will find love to telling me about the world and encouraging me on my path

[oathofpromises]

21. Listening to someone’s heartbeat —Data to Stella after the Vault

Stella's breath came in labored gasps as she hurriedly ascended the stairs leading to the vault. Data had departed several hours prior with the intention of confronting Thordan VII. In this encounter, she knew that he would inevitably confront the deep grief resulting from the loss of Haurchefant. Data would undoubtedly exert his utmost effort to maintain a facade of strength for the people, but the Au Ra knew him too well. She knew that his heart was already succumbing to the weight of anguish. This event was beyond her control, as hard as that was to admit. Which, made it impossible for her to prevent it or even forewarn him. It wasn't her place to mess with the timeline, no matter how much she wished to shield Data from all the pain he would face across his own journey.

With a gradual motion, her hand tightened into a firm fist, corresponding with the onset of rain cascading upon her form. Even now, she retains vivid memories of the rainfall that fell upon her on the very same day. Reaching up, she touched the red blossom necklace laying against her neck. The rapid beating of her heart almost made it hard to breathe. That all seemed insignificant though, once Stella spotted Data. There he was perched upon the staircase, his face hidden behind a cascade of brown hair. She quickly realized that he had indeed already been crying, presumably choosing to wait until the other Scions had departed before allowing his emotions to surface. It was how it always had been for them as Warriors of Light.

The world’s expected them to demonstrate great strength and resilience in the face of numerous challenges. To guide this world in the way of light, yet did anyone stop and realize that they were also human? With their own thoughts, feelings and pain? Silently, she settled herself beside him and tenderly drew his head towards her chest. The rhythmic pulsation of her heart resembled a melodious lullaby, soothing and captivating.

"Data," Stella whispered, her voice barely audible amidst the turmoil of all the emotions. Tears teetered on the edges of her eyes. It was becoming difficult to keep them surpassed, but taking care of Data took precedence over her personal emotions. Right now, he was hurting and needed her support.

In light of her intimate understanding of the severe anguish that lay ahead, how could she offer solace to him? The weight of guilt and self-blame that he was bound to place on his own heart. So many would say it wasn't his fault, and he would try and force a smile. Simply burying how he truly felt deep in his own heart.

Stella vividly remembered enduring prolonged periods of fasting, secluding herself within the confines of her room and rarely emerging, except when her presence was required. Despite the circumstances, it became evident that the Warrior of Light was severely limited in her physical mobility. She was rendered weak by exhaustion and hunger to concentrate on her duties. The situation had deteriorated to such an extent that Alphinaud identified it necessary to gently encourage her to take in nourishment. However, it wasn't until she experienced the echo of G'raha's voice summoning her within the realm of dreams that she mustered the strength to keep going. Regardless of the tremendous suffering it caused, she had to persevere and carry out her duty as the Warrior of Light.

At that moment, talking seemed inadequate, and so she cradled Data against her chest in silence. With the gentle rhythm of her heartbeat providing solace, she relied on its familiar presence, trusting it to bring the other solace once again. Deep down, hoping it would serve as a means to keep Data grounded, enabling him to rely on her and reveal the emotions he concealed from everyone else.

With a tender touch, she delicately placed her head upon his, while his arms enveloped her waist. As they sought refuge beneath the protective canopy of the building, the relentless downpour persisted, drenching the surroundings. Given the current conditions, it is highly probable that the two individuals would succumb to a cold if they were to continue staying outside. With a gentle motion, she tenderly cradled Data's face, his eyes inflamed from weeping, while tears persisted in tracing their path along his sun-kissed cheeks.

"Data, it’s important that you take a nice shower, and we get a fresh set of garments for you. I understand that it's the last thing you want to do right now..but I won't have you getting sick. “

A part of Stella wasn't sure if Data would heed her advice and follow her back to the Forgotten Knight, or if his aching heart wished to remain here. She wouldn't blame him if he did, but just feeling how badly the brunet was shaking against her worried the pink haired Au Ra a lot. A soft gasp escaped her lips, as she felt him nuzzle against her chest. His hands clenching at her shirt, as tears fell from his face onto her own skin.

I'm sorry...that I couldn't prevent you from suffering this, too...

#— ❛❛ //Final Fantasy XIV¦I will tell you a tale. A tale of a world on the brink.・ 「 Main Verse」 #— ❛❛ // DATA MOCHI ¦ You are my Star the one I never want to lose ・ 「diademreigned」 #— ❛❛ // STELLA CAELUM & DATA MOCHI ¦DYNAMIC・ 「Our souls entwined A love so pure forever defined.」 #— ❛❛ // STELLA CAELUM ¦ our hearts endure and remain forever strong ・ 「 Threads」 #ooc: Take these feels;; #I made this a little shorter than usual ones incase you did want to continue off this. No pressure but how you like it

[diegoshargrieves]

listening to my parents talk about me is so fucking funny. "she's dealt with us for so long that at this point she's done. she's mentally checked out from having to give a shit about anyone. can you believe how corruptible she is just because she's almost an adult and she thinks that we're not her problem anymore?"

like man you are literally so close. so fucking close.

#no it's not that ive dealt with everyone for my whole life and now im selfish and dont want to give a shit about anyone anymore #its that ive dealt with everyone my entire life ive been an emotional support pillar ive been rotting in this toxic dysfunctional household #ive been a third parent ive stepped in for my dad when he spontaneously decides to be a deadbeat ive supported my mom without fail #whenever shes needed it for years. ive dealt with everyones fits of mania & psychosis & breakdowns & chronic pain & depressive episodes #ive had my mental illness trivialized and belitted and downplayed. im exhausted and traumatized and so fucking burned out #of course it looks like ive given up on everyone from the outside because im struggling !! im struggling mentally and emotionally #and its spilling out in all the wrong ways and they just see it as me letting my anger ruin my character and everyone else around me #they dont care if theres something wrong with me even though im throwing out signs and cries for help literally wherever i can #they just care that theyre affected by it and inconvenienced by my deteriorating mental condition #they think this mentally ill freak is just what i am at this point and they cant stop emotionally blackmailing me #by reminiscing about how i used to be so kind and optimistic. i wish they would just fucking see me for once #ive played the role of the good emotional support eldest daughter my entire life. why didnt they think it would blow up at some point #and when i have tried opening up in moments of severe emotional vulnerability they just throw it back in my face later on #while simultaneously telling me i just need to change my outlook on life because im still young and cant define myself by childish problems #mom you are depressed and anxious you should recognize it better than anyone. you should be able to see it for what it is #instead of telling me to go spend a week volunteering at a cancer hospital so i can go see what real problems exist for people in the world #and what other people are going through and maybe ill come out with a new appreciation for life #mom just bc people are dying of cancer doesnt mean i can't be depressed just bc other people have it worse doesnt mean i cant have it bad #im so fucking tired! #3 am vent post yippee i am going to regret oversharing on the internet so badly when i wake up tmrw

[pumpkin-padparadscha]

i know roman was the one dressed as phantom of the opera but

phantom of the opera remus who is in love with opera singer roman but only ever visits him in a mask

roman who worked so hard to get where he is and become famous and claw his way up from being worried about his next meal and is now world famous

remus writing him music and complimenting his arias and playing piano accompanyment in the quiet of the otherwise empty opera house at night

and roman says "please i love you, may i see your face"

and remus says "if you love me, never that"

and theyre happy and they kiss and fall deeper in love, fall into each other's lives and orbits and minds like its inevitable

remus has been following his career since practically his first tryouts and practice, even if he only approached roman later. he's seen sketches of himself tucked among remus' sheet music that show him young and gangly and nervous. roman wonders what he did to deserve to catch remus' attention.

but eventually the curiosity burns at him enough that while remus sleeps he lifts the mask and-

its a copy of his own face, slack in dreaming but so undeniable in its evidence

he remembers remus saying "if you want to love me, dont look" and he wishes visciously that he had heeded that warning

#rero #remrom #remrom au #remrom prompt #maybe #its phantom of the opera remus idk what you want from me #'how did remus find out about roman?' you ask. if you saw someone with your face youd probably get curious about it too i dont know #luck? coincidence? the burning desire to not be alone in the world? #remus approaching roman for the first time hiding his face because he doesnt want to be judged #or because hes eben watching roman but doesnt want roman to interact with him out of obligation #and then he tells himself that hes wearing the mask so if roman hates him he wouldnt bother hiding it #or so that when remus ruins this roman wont be able to find him #but then they kiss and- well now hes stuck #because without the mask they cant possibly have this #but hes willing to give up himself and who he is for a chance with roman #if all that defines him is what he has with roman #if hes a faceless nameless phantom #its worth it becuase the him he is with roman is the most real anyway #atwb

[rustchild]

honestly until i grew up and started doing my own research there was so much i didn’t know about antisemitism, as a raised-reform jew growing up in a fairly non-jewish area with a gentile father. the narrative we’re taught is so limited and so warped and it doesn’t include shit like my great-aunt being asked why she doesn’t have horns or people having quarters thrown at them or what blood libel actually is and how it functions. antisemitism is so fundamental to understanding how christianity, especially but not exclusively european christianity, functions, but the lack of genuine education around it is just... staggering. there was always a hovering sense of danger--i remember asking my middle school best friend if her parents hated me because i was jewish--but I didn’t have the words or the framework to understand it as a system in a historical context. this isn’t a guilt trip or a woe is me or anything, it’s just kind of boggling to me sometimes.

#like sometimes i see shit that sets my teeth on edge and can't tell if i'm #overreacting or just #the only person paying attention #it's so weird how everyone knows Of us but no one actually Knows us? #except for people who grew up in certain parts of new york. #but it's so so weird how you grow up with this sense of undefined Danger hanging over your head #and then have to go out into the world and slowly learn the edges of it #while in spaces defined by people who have no idea what you're talking about #jewish things #idk i'm just thinking about how many things #send off warning bells in my head #like mjf doing the devil thing #or my coworker talking about her interest in kabbalah #and then i have to sort of just sit in that dissonance

[whimsybrain]

I feel like gender and romantic love have a lot of similarities, in that

A. Both of them are heavily emphasized, publicized, and politicized in our society, though the reality of them is extremely personal

B. They are equally real and social constructs

C. The majority of people seem to believe that you can’t go your whole life without one, or that you can’t have multiple at once, though these things are very natural and possible

D. People have a lot of trouble giving an exact definition of either

#I may regret posting this but I’ve been thinking about it a lot #there’s also many more similarities #how personal or public you make it #how playacting it can make your life easier #it as a feeling vs it as a display #The euphoria of it #People often disbelieve that they can alter #but sometimes disbelieve that they can remain the same #That it’s more ok than people realize to not define these things #Marriage and legal gender #How the patriarchy plays into the normalized versions of it #how they don’t have to look the way the world tells you they have to look

[vamptastic]

looking for advice on college essays and everything i see is like "don't talk about mental health or disability or racism or your mom dying or being lgbt it makes the essay readers too sad" like damn okay. it makes me sad too. let me into your school.

#idk the past seven years of my life have been dominated by being trans against my will idk what else to tell you #sure wish it could be a minor facet of my life and i had like a wide variety of other defining traits to talk about but #about the only way to achieve that in this town is to be closeted-which most people are #every ten minutes when writing these stupid fucking essays i am tempted to pull a leonard on the 8th grade state writing exam #and just write about how fucking stupid the adminissions process is. which i did in 8th grade except about standardized testing #on the standardized test. and i got a 10/10 so like it worked #the prompt was uhhhh summer vs full year schedules #and i went off about how a change to the amount of time we spend yearly doesnt matter n we need to change daily schedules #and also make school less like work slash prison and more like somewhere you can be a human being #basically took the this or that question and went. this one is better but neither will actually help much #what ifi just wrote my college essays about how i cant write about any of their stupid ideal essays because #i dont really get the luxury of getting to interact with the world w/o transness being the first and usually only thing they see

[cienie-isengardu]

The Death Watch was a violent splinted group of mercenaries who disagreed with Mandalore Jaster Mereel’s insistence on honorable behaviour.

#star wars #jaster mereel #death watch #star wars miniatures #that i have #you know it is funny how sources like to say jaster was all about honor and/or honorable behaviour #but never really dwelling on what that supposed to mean #i mean the golden age of mandalorian was about picking a fight for honor and mandalorian empire attacked and destroyed many worlds #while mando bounty hunting was seen as them losing a honor and being about money #at least in canderous ordo's eyes #and then jaster demands honor from his men but true mandalorians / jango never had any second thoughts about killing people who tried #to rebel against their opressors yet the opressors are the one with money so mando works for them #so the honor doesn't sound as about for whom you work #but rather how you work #so it still doesn't tell us why jaster and tor fight because honor is #not a rigidly defined concept and varies from person to person #but when we hear someone cares for honor then we all oh he must be a good guy #but what is a honor and honorable behaviour for mando mercenary who take money for killing other (also weaker) people? #and we know from JF: OS that Jaster saw Mando just as higly paid mencenaries #so was their conflict about a mando... job etiquette?