#today on Transference™️

[cartermagazine]

Today We Honor Phyllis Hyman

Phyllis Linda Hyman was an American singer-songwriter and actress, born in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania July 6, 1949. She was best known for her singles from the late 1970s through the early 1990s including: You Know How to Love Me, Living All Alone, and Don’t Wanna Change the World.

She performed on a national tour with the group, New Direction. Later she joined All the People while working with another group, The Hondo Beat. She made her acting debut in 1974 in the film Lenny. Hyman also led a group called Phyllis Hyman and the P/H Factor.

Hyman’s debut solo album named Phyllis Hyman was released in 1977 on Buddah Records. When Arista Records bought Buddah Records, she transferred to the new label and released four albums: Somewhere in My Lifetime (1979), You Know How to Love Me (1979), Can’t We Fall in Love Again? (1981), and Goddess of Love (1983).

She also performed on Broadway in the musical, Sophisticated Ladies, the tribute play for Duke Ellington. For that work, she received a Tony Award, nominated for Best Supporting Actress in a Musical, and won a Theatre World Award for Best Newcomer.

In 1983 Hyman recorded the song “Never Say Never Again” for the James Bond movie of the same name which starred Sean Connery but the song she recorded couldn’t be used for the movie soundtrack due to legal reasons. In 1986 Hyman released the album, Living All Alone, on the Philadelphia International label. She also appeared in the movies, Too Scared to Scream (1985), Spike Lee’s School Daze (1988), and The Kill Reflex (1989).

In 1991 Phyllis Hyman released the album, The Prime of My Life, on Philadelphia International, which was the biggest album of her career. It included her first number-one R&B hit as well her first Billboard Top 100 hit, Don’t Wanna Change the World. The album, her last released while she was alive, was certified gold by 1992.

Phyllis Hyman… One of the Greatest Artists of our Lifetime.

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[more-better-words]

When all else fails, Just Post ™️.

This was proving to be one of those days when Trip and T'Pol would see a great deal of one another in the course of their duties, but have very little time to actually speak. She was in Engineering, helping with some standard stress test calibrations when Trip paused by her station. "Sorry I, uh, haven't really said hi today," he said, passing the PADD he held between his hands. She gave him a curious look; agitation was not abnormal for him, but to be so perturbed simply because he hadn't had the chance to greet her yet? There was something more at work.

"If you are concerned I am offended, I assure you I am not," she told him.

"That's good...I mean, I wasn't..." He stopped himself, took a breath, and asked, "Can we talk? Later? Off duty?"

"Of course."

"Okay...good." He nodded, seemingly to himself. "I'll stop by your quarters." He extended his fingertips to her; she touched them, and he hustled off to oversee the upper level.

A quiet curiosity hummed at the edge of her senses for the remainder of her duty shift. They had shared the previous evening's meal with the captain, and he had been his usual self - something had occurred since then, and she couldn't help but wonder what it was. But patience would have to be her watchword, so she performed her duties, and when her shift was over, she returned to her quarters to await him. She didn't have to wait long.

He entered with the same restless energy he'd exhibited that morning; as soon as the door was closed, she seized his shoulder, and sat him down on the edge of the bed. "Sorry," he muttered, looking sheepish, "I'm just-"

"Trip," she said, sitting beside him, "what is it?"

He took a deep breath. "Last night…I wasn't tired, so I went to the mess to work on my proposal for the Andorian project, and the captain came in. He couldn't sleep. We, uh, we got to talkin', and I…told him that we're both lookin' to transfer. And why."

"He will have to be privy to any reassignment either of us undertake," T'Pol pointed out. "He will know soon enough - what does it matter that you told him last night?"

"It isn't so much what I told him…it's something he asked me."

"Which was?"

"If you and I were gonna make it official." At her blank look, he elaborated. "Get married."

"Oh." She considered that for a moment, then tilted her head. "Are we?"

He stared at her, then laughed weakly, running his hands over his face. "You wanna know why I haven't brought it up? Honestly?"

"Yes."

He tightened his lips, wetting them with his tongue before saying heavily, "You've been married. I'd understand if you didn't wanna do it again, if it's...not a concept you've got warm feelings towards." He sighed. "And we've got a really good thing goin' now, and I don't want to mess that up."

"We do have a good thing," she agreed quietly. "But my previous marriage bears no resemblance to our current relationship."

"Exactly. And that's why I don't want to-"

"That marriage was the result of negotiations between Koss's family and my own when we were children. I had very little choice in the matter." She touched his cheek, turning his head to look her full in the face. "But I chose you, Trip."

His eyes were fixed on her, caught, as if held by some invisible tether. "I wanna spend the rest of my life with you," he whispered.

"I would like that."

"So you...wanna get married?"

She nodded, brushing her thumb over his cheek. "I want to marry you."

He smiled, suddenly and hugely. "Okay. Then we'll-" Something seemed to occur to him, and his head lolled back, his smile replaced with a pained look of self-recrimination. "Wow. Hell of a proposal there, Tucker. Good job."

T'Pol raised a questioning eyebrow. He took a deep breath, stood, straightened his collar and sleeves, and dropped to one knee in front of her. "T'Pol," he said seriously, looking her squarely in the eye. "I love you. You make me happy. Will you marry me?"

Her eyebrow remained elevated. "Was my previous statement unclear?"

He doggedly maintained eye contact, his mouth pursed. Suddenly she remembered similar scenes in some of the films he'd picked for movie nights over the years. A proposal. Right. She twitched her shoulders slightly, perfecting her posture. "Yes, Trip. I will marry you."

The smile was back. "Sorry, I just...I really wanted to do it right."

She wanted to tell him that the method was immaterial, but he looked so pleased that she simply said, "I believe I understand."

He seemed to realize he was still in the floor, and stood, pulling her up with him, clasping both her hands in both of his. "The, uh, the cap hinted real hard last night that if we were gonna get married, he wanted to do the ceremony."

"Did he?"

"Oh yeah."

"He would actually be a very logical choice of officiant." She paused, then asked quietly, "I make you happy?"

"Yeah," he said, sounding surprised at the question. "You really do." He kissed her hands, first the left and then the right, never taking his eyes from her face. "And I really do love you."

"And I love you."

He smiled, and she realized her question about his happiness truly was redundant. "Then I guess we got a weddin' to plan."

#fic #trip x t'pol #star trek enterprise #too cute?

[jinx-on-mars-19xx]

Hey people I love 🫀

I thought I'd do another update because some of y'all genuinely seem to care and that's amazing. Thank you. I hope I'm not a constant downer because even in the darkest moments I try to find some hope. Thank you so much for the well wishes and sweet things you all say. It truly helps.

I called my dad to check in and he let me know a few things about mom. The doctor thinks he removed the whole tumor (for now, glioblastoma comes back) but it had grown attached on an artery and when she woke up they found she has complete weakness on her right side (left side is fine), she can't seem to talk, and she couldn't swallow today so they put in a feeding tube. They'll work with her there to help and then hopefully they can transfer her to a rehabilitation facility in our city's hospital so she can be closer to the family. The specialist she sees is about two hours away.

My visiting relatives left today. I'm hoping I'll be able to rest a bit but... I can admit I'm pretty upset and nervous. The hope here is that they can help her recover some of her strength. I'm not going to say all my fears because I honestly don't like being emo on here and I'm trying to stay hopeful and not give voice to the Scary Things™️

I'm not sure I'm as strong for myself as I try to be for those I love. I want to be babied if I can be honest, as silly as that sounds at 33. But I keep trying to tell myself they seem hopeful- so I'm trying to be. I'm sorry it's not a great update, but she did make it through and they have hope she'll get a little better.

I hope you all know how much I love you! And I hope you're all doing amazing and having beautiful weekends! (I know it just started for most of us but ah well, it's Friday! Enjoy it!) Thank you so much for caring, it means the world. I love you! 🖤

#jinx rambles #life update #cancer tw #surgery tw #feeding tube tw #i love you all so much #🖤🖤🖤

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

I finally finished the book I started reading months back!!!!

How has your journey been so far?

- 🌺

OOOH what book was it???👀 Did you enjoy it?

My journey has been successful in that I arrived to the hotel safely buuuuut I got lost in Heathrow airport for THREE HOURS walking across all five terminals looking for the fucking buses for the hotel transfers, had an anxiety attack on one of the seven trains I didn't need to take because I got lost, cried so much I soaked through my face mask and had to replace it, made several video calls to my aunt who basically handheld me through the airport from six hours away, and just got so stressed and overwhelmed that I just got reduced to a sobbing wreck.

Severe anxiety meet a normal airport... And you're totally alone🙃🙃🙃🙃

But I'm in my hotel room now, showered and my hair is brushed and I have eaten, so that'll do. Tomorrow is flights!!! Way scarier than what I did today, which is the Easy Day™️ in comparison.

So it's been a good trip because I made it to the hotel but also a bad one because emotionally I reduced myself to a shaking sobbing wreck in one of the worst places to lose my cool...

Eddie would not have been proud.

#🌺 nonnie

[ev-n-learning]

Cat stats: entirety of 2022 edition!

shut up no im not late youre late .

Note: I double checked and literally All of that writing was in belarusian! Despite the fact that I switched how i was tracking this halfway through! So technically that's 114 hours and 8 minutes. Pretty close to russian, actually!

Marathi has so many simply because at the start of the year, I was still trying to get a handle on actually like... reading. I'm decent at that now! But currently I'm not at any sort of level where I can talk or really read or anything, haha.

(Apparently tumblr doesnt like readmores when you have an image id. Hoping this doesnt somehow ruin the formatting!)

So, starting with ukrainian; as of today I have four skills to complete to finish the duolingo course! So I think that's at least like, 12 more days? Or something? After that I'm going to go back through to make everything legendary, so I suspect in total I will have spent at least a year on it. So that's... something. Lingq is the only thing holding my reading comprehension together right now I think 😂

For marathi, I'm honestly just curious how much better I'll be by the end of this year! Maybe my goal should be like, 'read sentences' or something lol. I've long since come to terms with the fact that I just Don't learn fast at all... :)

Russian is currently sitting on the backburner, so maybe I'm a little bit better, maybe I'm not. For now, though, I'll try to stick with it and see where that takes me! I'm happy with the fact that I finally made it through duolingo, and hopefully never have to go back again, haha

Belarusian: my one true love, light of my life, So Fucking Hard to find resources for. Anyways.

You may have seen I did nanowrimo in belarusian this year! I wrote a Lot, relatively, and have written exactly one thing in belarusian since. Such is the way of nano burnout... (but actually, I'm just procrastinating.)

I haven't decided yet whether I really want to post what I did or not, so currently the file is just sitting on my phone, waiting to be transferred so I can fix typos and stuff. It's probably going to stay like that for a while.

In other news, while I did want to start usong polygloss more, I've made a fatal mistake in constantly forgetting to reply to people, so now I think the total of 3 other people on there are ignoring me. Or just not using the app anymore, one of the two. ...in light of this, I am not using polygloss for belarusian currently. #r.i.p. my dreams.

I haven't really thought much about what I want to do this year... write more, at least. I'm definitely going to try nanowrimo again, when it comes around. I'd love to start getting more listening and reading in, but I don't go on youtube much, and as far as I can tell, most anybody who's posting in belarusian is on twitter. My twitter account has been dead since 2018 (or something) and it is going to Stay that way. As far as actual books go, eh... it's a bit harder to get my hands on anything, haha. If you happen to have reccomendations, I'm all ears... :P

(Yes there is also The Tiktok™️ but that, too, has the affliction of No Fucking Subtitles and is also a hellscape just generally, so... no.)

It's also still early in the year, so it's really anyone's guess how things are gonna end up! But that's where having simple goals comes in handy XD

In short...

Ukrainian: finish duolingo course, ???

Marathi: be able to sort of read, maybe

Russian: Who The Fuck Knows, better grammar (impossible for me and yet)

Belarusian: Know Everything Better, write... more comprehensively? write my langblr posts in belarusian, maybe?

#alt text #small text #long post #langblr #learning languages #languages #russian langblr #belarusian langblr #marathi langblr #stats for cats

[cleoenfaserum]

STEREO (1969) CRIME OF THE FUTURE (1970) COMMITTED BY CRONNENBERG

Today I conclude this series of all of Cronnenber's films posting two of his films herein, Stereo (1969) and Crimes of the Future (1970) with poor rating of 5'1 and 4'7 respectively. I will be starting a series of Michael Crighton's books turned into films and films he has directed.

The film is nothing but a bore with the occasional visual provocation.

It is not a good film in any conventional sense.

However, Stereo proves that it is possible to be boring and interesting at the same time. David Cronenberg: Stereo (1969) — 3 Brothers Film

859-1 https://ok.ru/video/7373617170995

Stereo is a 1969 Canadian science fiction film directed, written, produced, shot and edited by David Cronenberg in his feature film debut. Stereo was Cronenberg's first feature-length effort, following his two short films, Transfer (1966) and From the Drain (1967). The plot follows several young volunteers who participate in a parapsychological experiment.

The film’s rudimentary plot follows individuals undergoing an experiment in “pattern brain surgery” and telepathy put on by the Canadian Academy of Erotic Inquiry. A young man in a cape (queer scholar) enters a mysterious institute and engages in social and sexual experiments with other individuals. There is no dialogue. There is no recorded sound. There is an intermittent commentary throughout by unseen figures who are meant to be intellectuals or scientists analyzing the action on screen and contextualizing it for the viewer, although their commentary consists of little more than pseudo-scientific babble.

WATCH the film STEREO (1969) that follows...

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Crimes of the Future is essentially Stereo: Part II. Like its predecessor, it is filmed without sound.

An art-film that pushes esoteric themes without delivering much in the way of conventional drama or entertainment.

It is the second of David Cronenberg’s introductory experiments in narrative filmmaking, another early stage in the germination of a brilliant, deviant artistic mind. David Cronenberg: Crimes of the Future (1970) — 3 Brothers Film

859-3 https://ok.ru/video/7373742213683

Crimes of the Future is a 1970 Canadian science fiction film written, shot, edited and directed by David Cronenberg. Like Cronenberg's previous feature, Stereo, Crimes of the Future was shot silent with a commentary added afterwards, spoken by the character Adrian Tripod (Ronald Mlodzik).

Although the film shares its title with Cronenberg's 2022 film of the same name, the latter is not a remake as the story and concept are unrelated, however there is a loose connection between the two films, as the main premise of the 2022 film, "creative cancer" also appears in the 1970 version. (Crimes of the Future (1970 film) - Wikipedia) with an IMdB rating 4'7, Crennenberg's worst rated movie.

Crimes of the Future is set in a fictional 1997 where women have largely died off due to a disease known as “Rouge’s Malady;” the disease is spread through the use of cosmetic product.

WATCH CRIME OF THE FUTURE (1970) THAT FOLLOWS...

859-3 https://ok.ru/video/2068454967869

[jupiterbyrd]

My house is really messy and it just overwhelms me. But today I did some laundry and when I was transferring from washer to dryer I had a burst of inspiration to unload and reload the dishwasher. Which gave me the inspiration to throw away all the old boxes I have lying around. Like when food or drinks come inside a box, when I run out of the thing in the box, the box goes in The Pile™️. and today I threw away* the pile. Which gave me the inspiration to clean up everything on the floor in the kitchen and holy shit I swept and now I can mop?

But I won't mop because I need to wipe down the counters, which will make the floor dirty again. But now I'm tired but I'm proud of what I got done.

So now my house is still messy but I have hope I can tackle it slowly a day at a time. So I set a reminder on my phone for tomorrow at 2 to clean something for at least 15 minutes. Which will probably be when I clean counters and map the kitchen floor, making it so that I can then move on to clean the dining room. I don't have work at all this week because of Thanksgiving, so I hope I can have a less embarrassing house when I go back to work. It won't be perfect because I can only do so much before I'm like, I'm done. But it'll be a lot better.

My plan is kitchen ➡️ dining room ➡️ office ➡️ hallway bathroom ➡️ bedroom ➡️ bathroom. Hallways gets pretty regularly cleaned because that's where the cat litter boxes are and I do actually clean those and around those

*I'd like to recycle the pile but the city never gave me my recycling bin and I have to use the city-issued bins for trash and stuff to be taken away.

#probably tmi about how i live but i am a depressed bitch so trash piles up which makes everything worse #im just happy i did something today #might do more later when i have to switch out laundry again

[mariska]

howdy pardners, random question for u guys: i rly miss doing my lil video game twitch streams that i tried to do for a while at like the beginning of this year or the end of the last one but my pc hasnt been working properly for the past month and it's probably gonna be a little while until me & my family can try to get it working again; in the meantime i have a tv-to-computer screen converter box that i got for analog tv vhs archiving purposes and was wondering if anyone would be interested in watching twitch streams of me playing games that i own outside of my computer for my other consoles?

i've always been primarily a console game person since thats always been more affordable and accessible to me so the majority of games i own are for things other than pc anyways and aside from my slow internet getting in the way sometimes, i had so much fun hanging out with people and just chattin and chilling while playing a game on twitch and i am alone most of the time in my house again so i am very lonely fhkdhdgfshvsgdg

specifically i also was wondering if anyone would be interested in me streaming the game Rock Band on twitch (the 3rd one most likely since i have that song transfer thing for the previous games on it and still have not replaced my broken disc of Rock Band 2 like 5 yrs after it broke because i keep forgetting LMAO)? it would definitely be me doing vocals 99% of the time if i did stream that game because thats almost always what i play and like, y'know. that is my real main instrument irl so its the most natural one. but i do have a working guitar controller and drumset for it so i could def switch it up on days where i have the physical energy to and do guitar/bass/drums too!! i was thinking it would be fun, if i can set this up correctly which i think i might be able to, for me to put a webcam in the corner and dress up in some cool outfits i have in my closet that i want to actually wear as stage-wear irl if i ever get the chance to leave my house and actually do local live music shows like i really want to someday 🥺

anyways!! its not something i'd do like today but if anyone is interested in partaking or if that sounds enjoyable i think it could be fun!! i would absolutely still play other games too but idk if there would be any interest in that specific idea since its Niche™️ but its something i still play constantly and wish other people still did too lol

[sunflowersorrows]

Hello gays, today I bring you sodacule thoughts. Tomorrow? The same     I like to imagine Darnold and Tommy started dating in black mesa, pre ResCas. They had mutual feelings for each other, and Tommy eventually advanced and asked Darnold out, and their relationship just grew from there. They're a really great couple, and frequently spend days off and vacations together (Tommy may or may not be using his connections to his dad to get Darnold some more vacations days).       There's one day that a new guy in the physics department gets hired, and Tommy goes to get acquainted with him since he works in HR. (Tommy USED to be a biologist, but being immortal and creating a functionally indestructible dog draws some eyes, so G-Man has him transferred somewhere else.) He introduces himself as Gordon, and Tommy can only think, "wow, he's kinda cute." His thoughts never really go past this for the time being, but he wouldn't mind running into him again sometime soon. Darnold eventually meets Gordon at some point as well, and he has roughly the same reaction as Tommy. They never interact that much, but GOD every time they do see him they both grow fonder of him. Tommy and Darnold were both very comfortable with having a poly relationship, but it was a matter of not knowing Gordon all that well, and not knowing what he thought of them both in return. Feelings were eventually put on the back-burner, as Tommy and Darnold were perfectly happy with each other, but the thought of getting to know Gordon better and potentially him reciprocating their feelings was always there.        Cut to mid hlvrai events, Tommy keeps hopelessly falling further for Gordon.  He's adorably dorky and cute, and Tommy can't help but just want to look after him. There's a few moments where Gordon throws him off (ie. the "He's only like, 5" comment), but otherwise Tommy's still fully interested in him. It also seems Gordon is getting closer with Tommy as well. He can't tell if it's the stress getting to him, or the radioactive compounds they've been near, but god. Tommy's his type, and he's incredibly kind to him (Gordon crumbles when he gets any praise or positivity cuz this bitch has such low self esteem). Gordon tries to flirt with him, but the attempts usually don't land, or Tommy's just like "haha thanks Mr. freeman!" as he has an internal Gay Breakdown™️.  It doesn't help that Tommy was the only one there for him when his arm got cut off either, he gave him all of the help and comfort he could possibly give, and then some.    When it comes to the part where they meet Darnold, Tommy's excited to see his boyfriend again, and they just embrace n kiss a lil when first reaching the potions lab (Tommy knew Darnold was alive and well after the ResCas, being an unfathomable alien/eldritch being has its perks). Gordon's thrown off by this because he didn't know they were dating. He never saw them together during work, mostly because his department wasn't close to either of theirs Even if he did catch Darnold and Tommy in the same room, he just never picked up the fact they were a couple. Gordon feels terrible for trying to flirt with Tommy. He thinks all of the times Tommy either didn't pick up on his flirt attempts, or him slightly brushing them off were now out of discomfort, rather then Gay Distress™️. Gordon considers that hey, Darnold is also pretty attractive, but he just doesn't know if he fucked up or not with Tommy so he just Represses All Feelings and goes about the rest of their adventure.    Post Hlvrai events they all meet up again and become good friends. I like to think Gordon and Darnold reconnect when they meet at the same therapist's office. their sessions happen roughly at the same time, but Darnold gets out 15 minutes earlier then Gordon. Gordon waits for Darnold and they walk out with each other and go out to lunch and chat about things. Tommy will occasionally tag along if he's in the area (or even if he isn't he can teleport if he so desires.) They eventually make these outings a weekly thing, regardless if they have a therapist appointment to meet up after.        Darnold and Tommy eventually starts inviting Gordon over to their home. It's a really cozy place an half an hour out from the main town they live in. It's a foresty area with a lot of running space for Sunkist to enjoy, and is a generally quiet area they both enjoy. They tend to their own garden together, and Tommy has pet chickens he takes care of (you are NOT immune to pet chicken propaganda). Darnold can cook exceptionally well, and remembers what Gordon likes, so when he comes over he can cook his favorite meals. Darnold, Tommy, and Gordon  all hit it off really well, and they all just. fall into this kinda really close friends-borderline dating thing. Gordon's just NOT realizing all the signs Darnold and Tommy are giving off to him, as he still thinks he might've fucked it up with Tommy. He wishes so desperately to get with these two, but he just can't pick up the signs they're giving to him. Tommy and Darnold eventually get fed up with trying their flirting attempts, and one day literally ask "hey we both like you a lot. you literally live with us a lot join our polycule officially" and Gordon's so fucking happy. Thank u for reading, you are not immune to sodacule.

#hlvrai #sodacule #darnold #tommy coolatta #this is not getting tagged gordon freeman for obvious reasons #hlvr:ai #gordon hlvrai #gordon freeman hlvrai #orange sodashipping #this is MY rarepair and I get to decide their origin #im so sorry mutuals who dont like hlvrai / friends who dont know anything abt it #i have gay thoughts and i will project them into your brain at rapid speeds

[coolleen-was-taken]

After graduating high school (many eons ago), I’d attended community college courses off and on, and usually just part-time until I finally transferred to a 4-year university in 2020. For the most part, I’ve enjoyed the classes, lost focus, regained my focus, and then re-lost my focus until 2019 when I decided on the major that I should be graduating in come next spring.

It’s been a LONG road with a LOT of school. I’ve essentially been attending school for almost 30 years (since kindergarten), with maybe a couple gaps that lasted a year or two, at most.

I am

burnt. out.

🔥🌫☠️

Well, I was chatting with my dad today (discussing birthday dinner plans), and I mentioned how I’m basically just counting down the days until graduation. Now, he’s been hoping against hope that one of his children would choose to experience the on-campus university life, and I’m the one that’s kind of doing that (I’m commuting, rather than living in dorms on campus), but because of the burnout, it’s kind of like going to another job: I drive up the freeway for 45 minutes twice a week, go to my classes, maybe study in the library or have in-n-out under one of the giant trees in the park at the center of campus, but I usually just drive home once my last class is out, and do my homework in my pajamas. I’m in a geeky syntax club (I love syntax), but they meet on days I’m not on campus, so I’ve never actually been to a meeting.

But when I told my dad about my feeling burnt out, he started talking about it and mentioned that it (the burnout feeling) was “an unhealthy state of mind.” 😕

In a sense, I can agree, but it’s not the way he’s thinking of it. He thinks it’s unhealthy because it’s more like a bad or “negative” attitude toward school as a whole, whereas *I* would say it’s unhealthy because it means I’ve been doing it for much longer than my mental and emotional capacities would prefer.

When it comes down to it, my dad won’t be able to convince me to “just think about it in a better light” and finally decide that I really love school and the university experience. School’s fun and all, like, I genuinely like the stuff I’m learning about in class, and the campus is beautiful, and I hope to use my degree someday (lookin’ at YOU, linguistics). But, like, I’m done. I can’t wait to graduate and never go to school again. I wish I could do that this week.

Being burnt out, and thus not wanting to do something that you’ve committed (over 10 years and over $25,000) to isn’t a mere bad attitude. Being burnt out is a sign that you should either not be doing something you’ve been doing because you’ve been doing it for too long, or that you should slow down on doing the thing. But it is a symptom of something bigger, and that Something Bigger should be addressed - burnout, itself, is not the Something Bigger that is Bad™️. I don’t know if my dad will ever see it this way, and I’m still obviously gonna finish my degree, but my brain and my heart are 100% done with being enthusiastic about school.

#original #school #college #university #burnout #burnt out #student life

[cartermagazine]

Today In History Arturo Schomburg born January 24, 1874 in Santurce, San Juan, Puerto Rico. Schomburg was a Puerto Rican historian, writer, and activist in the United States who researched and raised awareness of the great contributions that Afro-Latin Americans and Afro-Americans have made to society. Arturo amassed a personal collection of 10,000 items related to Black history and the African diaspora. This was transferred to the New York Public Library and became the starting point for today’s Schomburg Center for Research in Black Culture. He was also a part of the Harlem Renaissance in the United States and a supporter of independence for his native Puerto Rico. CARTER™️ Magazine carter-mag.com #wherehistoryandhiphopmeet #cartermagazine #historyandhiphop365 #carter #arturoschomburg #blackhistorymonth #blackhistory #history #staywoke #afrolatino https://www.instagram.com/p/CnzE8qxL_Kr/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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[tristesse-and-distress]

Hello, Romanticism, history, and music Tumblr, today, on the 17th of January, 2019, I am very stressed and procrastinating due to this stress. Instead I would like to divert my (and your) attention to Alan Walkers new(ish) book on Frédéric Franciszek Chopin. I was trying to read what I could through Google Books. Curiosity got the best of me and I wanted to, while reading the available preview fragments, see what the author, Walker, had to say about Sand, Chopin’s sexual/romantic alignment, and of course, Tytus Woyciechowski. To his credit, he didn’t seem to vilify Sand all that much, just a couple of passages from what I read about her (paraphrasing) having problems that she “carried over” onto being with Chopin that rub me the wrong way of edging close to making her out as this terrible person who ruined Chopin, as so many biographies tend to do. Again, Walker doesn’t do this, but gets close. So thanks, Alan Walker, for not making Sand out to be a historical bitch.However, what was interesting was the fact that he almost entirely leaves out FF Chopin’s sex life (or lack thereof). Almost as if he doesn’t seem to want to discuss it and walks around the entire subject. Kudos to the New York Times for the little segment in a review on the book (third photo) stating “For most of its nine years their relationship was conducted in separate bedrooms […] For surely it seems plausible […] Chopin just wasn’t wired that way.” Again, Walker mostly avoids/excludes any talk of (a)sexuality EXCEPT when concerning Tytus and THOSE letters. As can be seen in the screen shots from the book above with the highlights, Walker states that Chopin was “confused” and was “transferring his feelings about Konstancja onto Tytus.” *Insert record scratch* Um, Walkers book just dropped in points due to this. This is subjective and dismissive of the possibility of bi-omantic inclination. Psychological confusion. Y i k e s?! This whole section reads like:  So, yes, we can all only “speculate,” but why can’t any historian seem to speculate that Frédéric Chopin was biromantic and Had A Thing™️ for his bff Tytus and his opera singer schoolmate Konstancja, but had more of a thing for Tytus but couldn’t express it openly like he could about Konstancja (even talking about his feelings for her to Tytus to cover, while at the same time being like “TYTUS U R HOT”, because teen life [also, depression/manic-depressive episodes going on while away from home]). 
Anyhow, I was like 2018! New Chopin stuff, sweet! But it became quite a bit of more Chopin stuff-i-ness in my opinion and left a sour taste in my mouth after the Tytus bit.
It’s now 2019 and we should be okay with being open about discussing or questioning famous people of the pasts’ sexualities without being “they’re just good friends” or word-walking every which way around it. 
Thoughts, anyone?

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[cl-oelia]

teletherapy has its drawbacks but I can occasionally look my therapist in the eye now. she hasn’t said anything but I can tell she notices because she tries to hold it (even though I always break it) and it’s a lot more comforting than I ever expected

#today on Transference™️ #also in some ways i’ve been able to open up more easily than normal #homework: journal; make a schedule for school work; have some grace for yourself #teletherapy #p #therapy #cptsd

[cartermagazine]

Today In History Arturo Schomburg born January 24, 1874 in Santurce, San Juan, Puerto Rico. Schomburg was a Puerto Rican historian, writer, and activist in the United States who researched and raised awareness of the great contributions that Afro-Latin Americans and Afro-Americans have made to society. Arturo amassed a personal collection of 10,000 items related to Black history and the African diaspora. This was transferred to the New York Public Library and became the starting point for today's Schomburg Center for Research in Black Culture. He was also a part of the Harlem Renaissance in the United States and a supporter of independence for his native Puerto Rico. CARTER™️ Magazine carter-mag.com #wherehistoryandhiphopmeet #cartermagazine #historyandhiphop365 #carter #arturoschomburg #blackhistorymonth #blackhistory #history #staywoke https://www.instagram.com/p/CZHFEO8Lep3/?utm_medium=tumblr

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