#together we can make anything make sense

[mikesbasementbeets]

it’s a little frustrating sometimes to watch people try to “debunk” gay mike evidence by quibbling over things that are. kind of beside the point? like arguing that mike’s consistently negative (or even neutral, if you want the benefit of the doubt) reactions to girls aren’t “disgust” therefore they don’t mean anything. but like 1. yeah i agree, cates gate isn’t about mike being “disgusted.” mike’s face when el kisses him isn’t “disgusted.” mike’s reaction to el, to max, to girls in general doesn’t really read to me as “disgust” either. so 2. what DOES it read to you as? incredulity? confusion? discomfort? those…. still aren’t positive reactions.

the point is that mike actively and blatantly Does Not react positively toward el kissing him. and he also Doesn’t react positively to dustin’s description of a girl being “hotter than phoebe cates.” he asks “is she cute?” with maybe preemptive incredulity (in line with will's question "girls go to science camp?") over a girl who goes to science camp being cute, or perhaps just a neutrally curious state over dustin's new girlfriend, but then dustin doesn’t say “she’s hotter than phoebe cates.” he says, “think phoebe cates. only hotter.” that’s a prescriptive statement. you want to know if she’s cute, mike? think about phoebe cates, and then imagine someone hotter than that. and mike’s expression doesn’t improve in the slightest. think about someone hotter than phoebe cates, dustin tells mike. and mike? remains confused and entirely unintrigued. no, he’s not disgusted, but the point is not his negative reaction, it’s a complete lack of any sort of positive reaction. if he’s listening to dustin, he should have, in that moment, thought of phoebe cates. and his reaction?

nothing.

(but. this is also just to say... i don’t even think it's fair to call most of mike’s facial reactions “proof” of his sexuality in any argument… i think they’re fun little easter eggs that add an extra visual element to his gay characterization. but. it’s not WHY people think he’s gay. it's funny to point out BECAUSE he's gay)

[edit: AND this is not even to mention the direct line drawn to this in season four via stobin's discussion of fast times, linking phoebe cates to 'people who like boobies.' #notmikewheeler]

#y’all want gay to mean nothing less than ‘disgusted by women’ and pretend that’s not homophobic #‘he’s kissed a girl without throwing up so he can’t be gay check mate’ maybe check your homophobia 👍 #this was inspired by a bylr confession anon that i shouldn’t have seen bc i have that blog blocked but it showed up anyway. this is why #(i know i called this proof uh. two years ago but it's not 'proof' i recognize that. also not going on another tangent but. there is no One #irrefutable gay mike proof and that's also the entire point. you can point out specific things out of context and say hey i think this #points in this direction. but if you pull EVERYTHNG together and analyze IN FULL then the entire narrative only makes sense from a gay mike #perspective. imo. 'well i think this one is a reach' ok fine but if you see it all together and your only argument is 'idk it's just not #that deep' i mean. fine i guess but the burden of proof is on you then. the issue is then that no one who is against gay mike is willing #(or. um. able.) to put together a COMPREHENSIVE analysis that supports bi mke as a Full narrative without brushing a bunch of stuff aside #as 'eh idk i don't think that means anything' and instead fall back to 'it's just a headcanon i don't have to prove anything to you' #but refuse to recognize that gay mike is not actually a headcanon it's a theory. backed by analysis. we are not the same.) #idk. got annoyed might delete later 😗✌️ #beets posts

[b4kuch1n]

dip pen ink comm batch 4 complete! for Ezechiel, @ohwwhuv, and Leo :]

#bakuspecial #commission art #the grayscale for these were done on a train with my laptop track pad fksdjhf it was! manageable! but not desirable condition #that was before I got my new current tablet too... thank you my old huion. you served me well. Im so sorry I chipped ur paint to shit #ngl the texture on the new one's better off the bat. the grip's better and it has good kinetic feedback #too bad abt the touch buttons tho... I was confident I could make use of them but alas #things need actual feelable buttons again please I can Not tell where anything is when Im drawing and cant look at the tablet #my eyes are on the screen!! Im bad at gauging distance!!! please give me buttons I can find in the dark. please #even the old huion which has actual buttons I still couldnt use them. bc theyre not raised #theyre flat to the tablet's surface. you know what I shouldve tacked raised stickers on them I was stupid there #well! the more u learn. the more u learn #I'm happy with the current tablet tho!! buttons stuff aside it's nice to draw on. and thats what important. wrists dont hurt no more #almost said ''I miss the wacom eraser end" I don't. not really. every time I used that thang I was like wow you are so imprecise and blunt #litcherally why would you want basically a mappable stylus end but it's 50 times the size of a normal nib and you cant see where ur drawing #especially on a screen tablet. the dynamic there makes absolutely no sense #I can really do the same thing now by mapping one of the stylus buttons to swap foreground color to transparency #anyways. this has been my testimonies on tablets. in the tags of a dip pen ink post lmao #well! this is a late post I shouldve posted this before art fight. thank u again to that anon who reminded me #have a good day lads! we can answer emails together. hands in professional hands

[kindaorangey]

okay hold on. hold on.hold on. the self aware jokes dan and phil are making have lapsed from mocking their shippers right into directly referencing the fact that they are possibly still together as a jab at how the shippers have no way of knowing whether they are

#thunder rambles #yhis makes no sense. hold on #the present ideas bit of phil's new video where hes like you can just get ur partner a photo of the two of u. #and then theres that edited clip of a framed photo of him and dan. hello #like thats gone past the 'please stop asking we're not going to tell you bc we value privacy' stuff. #it's gone past the mockery of 'THEY TOUCHED!!1!!1!1!!!1!' and 'no but seriously imagine it' and '11hr fuck session' #now its just. like overt things that will be taken as 'hints'. but theyre still not gonna say fucking anything to confirm or deny whether #theyre together #its very funny. it is giving me brain damage😁

[rawliverandgoronspice]

hmmm getting hit by another little "being heartbroken about tp ganondorf" moment :)

#ganondorf #tp #twilight princess #thoughts #he's just........... like........... #and him and fucking ZANT together what a toxic shitshow you guys #extremely repressed psychosis + terminal stage of burnout sure is the combo of all times #both fueled by revenge resentment bitterness and hatred in their own special way <3 #I'd eat fanfic that dissect these two being codependant and horrible and untreated open wounds prancing around in hyrule #making it everyone else's problem :) #ganondorf being the most callous god-complexed heartless bitch that will destroy everyone and then himself if you breathe at him wrong #because if he stops to move and reflect on everything he will literally implode probably #and zant really really reaaaaally having it under control and never ever once threatening to fucking lose it terminally <3 #holding on to the.... “god” he found for his sense of worth and power and stability (mega lol your man is in shambles zant sorry) going lik #“can we keep the weird angry god from the light world I picked up from the sidewalk midna? no?? okay :D *coups the twilight realm* ” #I used to not get this relationship conceptually or why people shipped it. I get it now. #awful awful time for everybody involved 10/10 #not even getting into the Mega Divorce because wow #but seriously it's genuinely sad that two men who were *severely* wronged by fate and gods ended up being each other's undoing #because they were too.... toxic and fucked up to be anything but toxic and fucked up about it #queer infighting :( #girls hurting girls :( #SORRY about the novel in the tags I am unbearably like this everytime :((((

[whentherewerebicycles]

question: when you're starting a new job, what do you most want out of your first week of onboarding? what's most helpful for you to know/understand upfront? also... what's not helpful? tell me your onboarding nightmare stories too lol

#i honestly do not ever think i've had a positive onboarding experience #in my entire professional life #i guess for me a lot of my early-job anxieties are around expectations and 'rules' #like i want to know what time i'm supposed to be there and what time i'm allowed to leave and what the dress code is #and how the hybrid schedule works #so i don't make dumb mistakes right away #i also think i want to be involved in the real work as early as possible #like i don't have to be DOING anything yet but i want to be watching people do things and shadowing in meetings #so i can start to develop a sense of who's who and what the actual work of the office/workplace looks like #and also because i really value getting a feel for personalities as early as possible lol i want to know what the vibes are #hmm and also maybe most importantly #i feel like in any new situation i need a very loose conceptual framework to hold the new information being given to me #otherwise it's just random pieces of info you know? like it's helpful when someone is actively helping me fit information into a frame #like they're saying 'here's the HUGE picture - now let's zoom in and start looking at this one corner of it - and as we add new corners #i'll actively help you fill in the connective tissue that holds these different parts of the big picture together' #hmmm #my worst onboarding experiences have been when the person training me comes in and throws lots of #long complex extremely context-dependent documents or readings at me #and is like ok spend the week reading those and get back to me #and i'm like ?????????? #i have NO understanding of what my role is or how this organization functions #at this point it is not helpful for me to pass my eyes over tons of dense info without a guide to tell me what's important #i have no way of gauging of something is important or trivial and then i feel stressed like i have to learn ALL of it #even though i know that a huge portion of it will end up being not that relevant to my day-to-day job

[twpsyn-who]

Excuse you, where is my "Stiles and Isaac has been secretly dating for a year before Scott got bitten" fanfiction? You know, the one were their relationship got challenged when Stiles began lying to Isaac and finding excused to not meet up, all to help his best friend and co. with everything going on? In which Isaac gets into a big fight with Stiles before he gets turned, which makes things ten times worse when Isaac finds out his boyfriend knew about the supernatural and have been lying all this time? You know what I'm talking about.

#boyfriends to enemies to reluctant allies to boyfriends again #I'm a sucker for secret relationship but also it makes sense for it to be a secret with Isaac's father #I swear Stiles tries at least once a month to convince his boyfriend to report his father after all his father's the sheriff everything is #going to be ok. but also he can understand why Isaac won't do anything about it. All Stiles can do is be there for him #ANYWAY just the idea of people finding out they have been dating all this time? Gold #also the parallels??? because Stiles has prioritised his best friend and supernatural over his own boyfriend where Scott has done the #opposite #we all know Stiles kept it quite just to protect Isaac and keep him away from danger but still. Isaac doesn't see it like that #ok.but them getting back together and then the Nogitsune shit takes place???? they can't catch a break #teen wolf isaac #isaac lahey #teen wolf stiles #stiles stilinski #stiles x isaac #the betrayal man. the hurt. the PAIN. I love it #stisaac #teen wolf stisaac #teen wolf #if there's a fic similar with what I'm saying herr pls pls PLS let me know??? tge idea won't leave my mind and I'm losing it #Scott asking Stiles if he was ok after the break up and Stiles insisting that he's fine while Scott keep insisting and Stiles... #just breakdowns? but like more like blows up. he's hurt and it feels unfair that Scott got to keep the girl and be a werewolf while Stiles #lost everything. even his relationship with his father's shit because of all the lying he has done to protect/help the pack #and for what??? #he lowkey knows is not Scott's fault. Stiles has made some choices and has to live up with the consequences #that doesn't really stop it from lashing at scott before starting to have a panick attack over losing Isaac #yk first love and all shit. that hurts the worst

[soldier-poet-king]

Sexism? Implicit homophobia? Double standards? IN MY FAMILY?? 🙃🙃🙃

Bro 1 either got really drunk and stayed over at his friends (likely) or is MISSING (unlikely), but he didn't even send a text and didn't come home overnight and my mother is FLIPPING OUT and like low-key it's a little funny bc he's 23 and she's been letting him come home at all hours since highschool, I'm talking like, hes regularly crawling in when I'm getting up to leave for work, and sure he can do whatever he wants idgaf he no longer takes even a modicum of advice from others (tho it's super annoying when he wakes me up coming in at 4am since we're the only two in the basement)

HOWEVER, like, do u think he's gonna get any flack for this? Absolutely not. If I'm 30 min late coming home from work IN BROAD DAYLIGHT AT AGED 26 I get in SO MUCH SHIT. God forbid I fall asleep on the bus and forget to text that I'm running late. Or walking home from my Nonna's at night (less than 1 block) I have to text to say I lived, but none of my male cousins or brothers do, despite some of them being MINORS. Or like. I can't even take the subway at night without my mother constantly texting and begging me to let her pick me up like a child (aka tmg concert getting out at midnight but I very specifically stayed sober since I was alone) but nooo my brother can go bar hopping at all hours and she'll just. Go to bed and let him leave.

He can just do whatever the fuck he wants because he's a BOY and he's also our mother's FAVOURITE (the rest of the siblings all agree on that one, me and bro 2 are like 🤝 least loved & most criticized children solidarity), and he's also capable of SUCH anger, he's largely apathetic to the general world and highly selfish, but when he gets mad he he's MAD tbh I fear that anger a bit and so now no one will criticize him at all? He gets away with EVERYTHING and I can't even leave stuff out in the house where I LIVE WITHOUT GETTING SHIT

Also like he was living with his gf and not going to church and all that, and I literally Do Not Care At All, that's his business, but again the hypocrisy of it all from the parents, when theyre supportive of him - literally bought and moved their shared bed - even tho he's "going against their professed values" or however my father wants to phrase it, but god forbid I just EXIST as a queer person, even if I'm single. Like. HELLO???? I can never be out ever

Like yes I'm glad they're not assholes to him but also WHY DO I GET SO MUCH SHIT FOR LITERALLY MY BENIGN EXISTENCE

#franposting #more insane behaviour from this house #hes also moved back full time so fuck me #we have a. strained. relationship. if anything other than anime or video games is discussed #and like i get it and shit kinda went weird for him w college #but 99% of that is his own fault #and my mothers and his gf for enabling him #like oh my god be responsible #he can cook and clean but when it comes to big life stuff like finances and course registration and all that? GET UR SHIT TOGETHER OMFG #anyway. im not even worried he definitely got really drunk or probs a lil high and didnt come back #fine whatever i dont actually care. hes determine to be like this #HOWEVER i AM PISSED #about the DOUBLE STANDARDS #AND THE SEXISM OF IT ALL #everyday. im like. oh my god i need to move out but i cant afford to #and if my job contract is getting renewed it makes no sense to move out #i could buy a car AND save some. if i lived here for another year and workedin my jon #but like. F U C K M E i am ratttling the bars of my cage #its ok. ok. fresh kale at home. i am going to make some good ass salads and oasta for lunches this week #meal prep will be ok. i am not going to commit violence

[hesbianyaoi]

Go talk about Dazai and Atsushi. I don't care if it's dangerous. I don't care if you will straight up kill me. I WANNA HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS

you are opening up such a dangerous can of worms. unfortunately they take up 98% of my brain space when i think of bsd so i have no many thoughts about them. their relationship is everything to me – genuine trust in one another's abilities while still goofing off and playing around, atsushi's desire to do anything to protect dazai and viewing him as perfect (although this is immediately met with "no he isn't he kinda sucks actually") alongside how to dazai, atsushi is redemption and a promise to keep to a certain friend long gone.

(this is from the Dead Apple light novel) this specifically drives me insane every time. they love each other! okay!!

i would also talk about their relationship in BEAST but i think that's an entire other can of worms to open because it's so complicated but i would also argue there is still genuine care for one another (mostly on dazai's part, since he has the upper hand here because of course he does, he's dazai) which is obvious in how he basically freed atsushi before his suicide and how he wanted atsushi to live in the light. i'm not normal about BEAST though i promise

#richie asks #their relationship intrigues me so much. i want to see more of them together #i really don't think it's insane to say they love each other either #not even in a romantic sense! or a familial sense! they just do #truth be told i've never been a dazai-father-figure truther. i don't think he's anything familial to atsushi honestly. he's just Dazai #and i think that's what makes their relationship so important #because everyone who knows dazai thinks of him in a certain way – he's capable and intelligent #but atsushi is someone that recognizes that dazai is actively trying #and without a doubt he accepts dazai for who he is. considers him good without question #it's undeniable that atsushi is important to dazai and that dazai is important to atsushi. dazai is a savior and atsushi is a promise #realistically this would make for some good codependency if anyone even gaf but unfortunately they are normal abt each other #we can always change that though #I'M SO SORRY FOR THE LONG RANT. I'M CRAZY AND I'M FREE

[theoriginalcrossjumper]

current mood: repeatedly banging my head into the wall because of animes that have Major Important Events happening over the span of decades before the "main story" even starts, but have NO ACTUAL OFFICIAL TIMELINE for when these Major Important Events ACTUALLY HAPPEN, forcing you to dive SO DEEP into reddit pages (and manga panels and anime screenshots and wiki pages and character data booklets) that you wind up with a master's degree in that anime JUST so you can piece together what MIGHT be a semi-viable timeline of historical events in the show that STILL has holes in it because the actual show decided "timeline? what timeline? we work on dramatic timing alone lol" was a reasonable organizational method.

if this seems very pointed and specific, it's BECAUSE IT IS.

#like. dont get me wrong i love this show and this world and this everything #but WHEN DID ANYTHING ACTUALLY HAPPEN. #we have a rough series of events but next to no details on how much time happened between them #which is NOT HELPFUL for someone who. say. is trying to put together a fix-it au based on changing some of those specific historical events #because that means that I AM THE ONE who has to put together a viable timeline that makes sense in MY head for everything to work #because i cant just work off vibes alone as much as i desperately want to. ive gotta have an actual timeline. Ive Gotta. #which leads to late night spirals down internet rabbit holes when i should be working on homework #catch me outside screaming into the void at midnight trying to make sense of when shit went down based on how old chars look in flashbacks #anyway. #catch me with a red string board after graduation trying to finally make this all make sense so i can finally write this brainrot au #this is the mkoverse tag

[visdiefje]

Man I can't wait until I can recover alone for a while

#I was alone in my apartment today and put together a standing clotheshanger shoerack combo #and it was actually so nice to do stuff and NOT receive verbal feedback I didn't ask for #I actually HATE when I start to do things wrong and immediately there's an audible no no no #it makes me feel like I Have to be on top of things and do them right immediately so everyone can be silent to me about it #trying to navigate life without triggering an unskippable cutscene as it were #if I do it on my own I will find out I'm going about it the wrong way soon enough #and I'll correct it #no nitpicking needed just using my time and brain to find a solution #it makes me feel so much better about myself #I'm already starting to see why I've always felt so incapable and inadequate. I can tell I really need this #I'm really curious what else I can do now that I'm allowed to figure it out in silence #more than ever reaffirmed that auditory is my quickest sense to wear me out/overstimulate #which is why reveiving verbal feedback I have to interpret makes me want to fly into a rage sometimes #because I NEVER get enough time to figure it out. they see me not change my course of action immediately and they take it out of my hands #it feels so. crowded and like nothing is in my control #give me time. give me space to breathe. let me make a mistake and understand firsthand why it's a mistake #please please please stop narrating everything to me. please. can we be quiet for a while. #you can sit with me but please don't tell me anything. #bien rambles

[haemosexuality]

fuck it fnaf tierlist

#fnaf 3 and sl both have cool lore and some other cool bits but arent good to play #and sl marks imo the start of fnafs downfall #like fnaf 3 is only bad gameplay-wise sl is bad in. almost everything. actually i dont even like the lore that much i just like the #purple mike minigame the idea of a robot wearing an actively decomposing human body is sick #and the fan songs gave me a soft spot for it #but other than that i think you could remove all of sl's lore and animatronics and the franchise would be better. AND the gameplay sucks as #i also think that anything that happened after pizzaria simulator can just be erased #actually yk what would be fun. fuse fnaf 3 and pizzaria simulator together #put the henry monologue at the end of fnaf 3 yk make it so that burning fazbears frights was his plan or smth. join the funny bits of the #simulator w the spooky halloween attraction. both games minigames can stay. the happiest day happening at the same time henry burns #everything down makes sense william goes to superhell and the kids souls are released. see it all works out im a genius #and that way we can erase the funtimes from existence. yay! #what else. custom night is great i like it i almost put it as fuck yeah. fnaf world is fun and funny and cute i love whimsy. security breac #needs to die. i like the sun moon design ig but not for a fnaf game #idk what half of the bottom tier even is #the movie is everything i ever wanted #ok thats all <3 #i wanted to make the books but i havent read all of them and the ones i did read i barely remember cuz it was years ago #five nights at freddy's #fnaf

[the-casbah-way]

Wait so does Oct know that Jed has autism or no?

i guess he doesn't, but neither does jed. i don't think jed's diagnosed or has done much research into autism, he just knows he has certain needs and triggers and a different worldview to a lot of people. he's got a good solid support network and a job that works well for his lifestyle and mental health and he's pretty happy with where he's at with that kind of thing. he does have moments where he goes non verbal but again, he's used to this and so are his friends and he knows how to cope with it and it's not a big deal to him. octavius isn't really written to be autistic (though its kind of impossible for me to write someone who isn't because i am autistic myself) but he does have his own fair share of experience with anxiety and feeling overwhelmed in social situations so he really doesn't see jed as particularly different to himself. of course he does come to recognise and understand and accommodate for jed's specific needs, but i think he relates to him so much that he wouldn't really notice something like that

#once they get together and are well established octavius just rolls with whatever jed wants or needs #he's like yeah no jed doesn't like this texture we're not doing that. we're not going here jed said the Vibe Is Off #jed is like i can't talk today can we just sit in bed and eat pasta. octavius is like your wish is my command good sir #there are so many older men especially who are autistic and undiagnosed and just kind of like. chilling if that makes sense #jed in this fic is a very specific kind of autistic rep that ive always wanted and have never seen before but im bad at explaining it #i definitely want to explore it more in the fic if i get the chance. feel free to ask anything else about autistic jed <3 #down then left

[theforgottendaydreamer]

tmi probably

my lunatic ass after telling my therapist "i have a thousand voices in my head all the time, and they tell me all the possibilities, so i deserve to know the future and i actually see it most of the times!" when he replies "not really. none of us can see it, you are just hyperactive and manic."

#ignore ignore ignore ignore go away #doc started talking about inpatient wards and emergency rooms like?? no. i'm never telling you anything ever again. how dare you. #i know he cares about my mental health. but like. i don't know. i feel like i'm being gutted out like a fish #i might throw up #like how dare you tell me i'm manic? #like. i know. i know! i can see it. i can tell. #i just. how do i put it into words. i just need to do the stuff i do and i need the voices to keep going. they just have to be less loud. #also because not all of them are bad!! some just don't make fucking sense. #“you know there are things we can do together that can help if you would just trust me and yourself” impossible. #i don't trust anyone. i have like a thousand voices in my head. which one is me? are they all me? trust is- no. not doing that. #and like yes yes i have to trust others and deep down a voice wants me to since i asked for help but? #i am so confused. #“saying no is something that can be learnt” also impossible. #i want a hug. #and a beer. #and #idk #cuddle pile #that's still hug territory? #oh i miss my mom. she gives the best hugs. #i can't ask a friend to hug me can i? #no but it's not even the same. like a friend's hug isn't the same. just doens't hit the same. #but like. i'd take it. #and also i wouldn't ask my mom for a hug either. they just happen. #she hugs me a lot. and i do hug her back too. love it #but like. it's been 15 years since i last asked for a hug? more maybe? #i don't think i ever did. not like. not after i stopped going to my parents every night until age 9 because of nightmares #yes i used to go to my parents every night until i was old as hell. i know kids stop at 6. i stopped at 9. #and like yeah someone should have guessed something was wrong with my relationship with sleep but

[gfwooyo]

cannot stop thinking about yungi youth mv

#like what if i throw up #it's about the trauma and the tiredness and picking yourself back up and moving on it's about friendship and home #they lost sight of each other when they were so focused on themselves and their own shit #the shot of mingi in front of the mirrors where the center one is himself and the rest are yunho with his back towards him like !!!!!!!!!!!! #their old coping mechanisms not working #mingi used to use music to shut out the world so he could be alone but now it brings him back to yunho but yunho isn't THEREEEEE #yunho picked up his lore!brother's guitar bc it had been his dream before he died and he was grieving him but here he's smashing it on the- #-wrecked car the thing that took his brother away from him #and u can SEE yunho dancing in the burning house even in the 2 different sets u see flames through the windows #and mingi is watching the cabin burn alone until yunho walks into frame and we can breathe bc he's no longer trapping himself in that house #AND THE LOOK ON HIS FACE WHEN HE TURNS TO MINGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII #IT'S LIKE. WE'RE BOTH HERE. WE MADE IT AND WE'RE STILL TOGETHER. #gonna puke. idk if anything i've said makes sense it's after midnight and my head is a jumble they just got me feeling a lot #it's about the loneliness it's about the grief it's about watching ur past in third person it's about returning to yourself in the present #mingi i love u forever and ever. his lyrics have always hit the hardest like he Gets me #god this is just such a fever era song so ofc i'm obsessed like the lyrics in that series just fuckin HIT #they talk abt how hard and lonely and scary and confusing and tiring it is growing up and i start thrashing and clawing at the walls #how wonderful to not only be alive at the same time as atz but to be the same age & have similar experiences so their music feels like a hug #like. i'm not alone huh #ANYWAY. did not come here with the intention of saying anything in the tags i was just gonna post that picture but alas #kara can talk

[fourteenthz]

Every time I open my shakarian playlist I get more ill but also I need.... need more old sad songs... i need to collect them all.... where are they

#yeah my playlist is filled with Out of touch + Two of us + Mayonata no door + and stuff that sounds like that (night we met for exemp) #and i have to both have this feeling and make it made sense with shakarian which is hard bc they are not toxic just difficult. hard times. #which is kinda good bc old songs normally have that feel but like 90% of mitsik songs feel off for me in that sense #BUT I NEED THEM FOR THE VIBE... GOD.... can u tell I take playlists seriously? and they aren't even public??? #i saw that when I have like 3 mitski songs there but I try. also I REALLY don't line Lana but man if summertime sadness isn't about them. #“i think ill love you forever” part is GENUINELY SO THEM and no one else. i swear. #like 10% of the songs on that playlist are from artists i like and usually listen to but that mostly bc im not a moody sad old songs kinda #of girl and i just caN NOT choose anything else for shakarian. like i swear I can picture shepard showing that kind of songs for garrus #and garrus listening to most of these on thr 2 years gap even before they get together..... bc he heard her listening once #in the normandy and it stuck with him bc... u know... reminds him of her... im gonna throw up #“smoking gun's hot to thr touch” from out of touch reminds him of their meeting like the night we met entire song #but it doesnt gets him more than “none of you” from the chorus. and by the time me3 comes they are sooo Local Natives coded #When am I gonna loose you + I saw you close your eyes ESPECIALLY #its also insane how I can go into akiangel playlists and get songs from there tbh... i never watches csm and NEVER WILL bc really not my #thing. but man akiangel stans know how to do playlist and they are the exactly same feeling i get with shakarian #sorry for the akiangel playlist makers who I have liked the playlist and listened to it on repeat. i was thinking abt shakarian while doing #sorry for the SUDDEN txt post about my spotify playlist.... i spent the morning doing university work and I accidentally #changed from my xiv playlist to the shakarian one and it went downhill from there........ anyway miss my babies..... enough rambling now #ALSO theres this thing were skip The night we met bc its my go to ardbert song LOL but THAT'S LIKE... ANOTHER SUBJECT ANYWAY #kelly says #dl #i forgot to mention For the first time by mac de marco which i like... ultimate shakrian song with Out of touch..... ANYWAY ANYWYAYA

[tigergendermoved]

I'm ngl the longer it's been since I've played TOTK the less I like it I think

#do not get me wrong i think the game is fun to play and that was like 80% of where my concern lied #but godddd the story sucks so bad. i love the draconification bit with zelda but the rest. augh #why do we need Another ancient civilization literally appearing out of nowhere and infesting hyrule with its ruins #they got rid of all the sheikah stuff with literally no explanation to shove the zonai into the region #but why are we even focusing on the ancient civilizations again???? #it would have made so much more sense to focus on hyrule in the present day. work with the npcs to make hyrule greater than it was #move on from the calamity and turn hyrule into a strong bustling country #the zonai were hinted at in botw but they feel so shoehorned in because they have nothing to do with anything in botw #i dont care about the secret stones we had champion abilities #i dont care about the sages the champion descendants had the champions to look up to #i dont care about rauru and sonia because sonia got fridged hard and rauru's character is flat. pleasant but flat #and i dont care at all about ganondorf because the most interesting thing he ever does is do the gmod face #its so frustrating watching the same 'woah secret stones! sages??' cutscene 4 times with Da New Sages and its so frustrating #watching the other characters speculate what happened to zelda and chase down her ghostly paper trail #when like. i can see her in the sky. she's over there guys #the memories were one of my favorite things in botw bc they all subtly stitched together the story of what happened #in totk they are incredibly plot dense and very linear and very confusing to watch out of order. which is easy to do #the one where sonia gets murked is like. the third memory i found #id at least be more interested in all the zonai stuff if link was the one to get teleported to the past while zelda has to try and save him #giving zelda agency. craziest thing they could have done #ok sorry this is a Lot of salt but just. raaaaagh #maybe my expectations were astronomical but outside of gameplay totk brings nothing good to the table imo #i'd significantly rather they made botw2 more gameplay focused where you can do something like make meaningful changes to the map #tarrey town style #than try to shove a whole different zelda game's plot into a carefully constructed preexisting world #i think the zonai story would be cool in its own game but not botw