#tokyoghoulanime | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

kawaiiindian · 2 years

Text

Happy Birthday to my little Butter cube!!! (◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*。

Baby you light up my world like nobody else 🥺🥺 !!!

In honor of Juuzou, I'm gonaa write an one shot on him.

>< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< ><

~♧ Dream come true ♧~

* Warning! ~ gore, blood.

* Notes ~ I honestly don't know what the fuck I wrote (-_-) , It's just a random idea. Also, avoid the pronouns if you want to.

"It's over, it's over... I don't want to live anymore... I- I am done with this family, these people around me, I hate them all... I am done with this life...", y/n said while crying in her room alone.

Everyone around y/n seemed to hate her or ignore her, even when her family consisted of many members, yet she felt like an orphan. Y/n's parents often compared her with her siblings, cousins and neighborhood kids, which made her feel like a trash and talking about her academic relations, they mostly bullied her. She felt like running far away from this reality. She wanted to kill herself but the only thing that was holding her back till now was her comfort character, Juuzou Suzuya.

Yes, a fictional character was keeping her alive till now because Y/n felt safe when she thought about him, she felt loved, she felt like living a bit more. She used to hug her body pillow and think it was him to make herself feel comfortable, whenever she felt sad and got those nasty suicidal thoughts. But this time things had went way too far that even her comfort character couldn't help her. Y/n felt like if she died everyone around her would be happy and the world wouldn't even cry for her death cause most of the time she used to hear 'You are worthless', 'No one would care if you would die', 'Wish you died the time you took birth', 'You are a disappointment'.

Y/n was tired of hearing all those words, she was tired of living this life. She wanted to end it all.

She took out a sharp blade from her drawer and slashed a deep cut on her wrist, it had already started bleeding and she felt a bit dizzy. Y/n dragged herself till the bed and then laid herself on the bed. She held her body pillow near her chest, "At least... you are here with me... You always made me feel happy... Thanks for everything...", her eyes started to close down, slowly and slowly.

Y/n didn't had any idea of time, when she opened her eyes she found herself lost in dark. Nothing around her was visible, it's just a dark place. After taking a few steps, no difference was felt so she started running as far as she could. After running for, which felt like a few meters or maybe a kilometer, she suddenly saw a bright light. She was trying to reach it but the darkness was pulling her but she didn't gave up, she kept running and running and finally she reached the light.

The light was burning her eyes, so she closed her eyes. When finally her eyes settled with that bright light she slowly opened her eyes, what her eyes saw was a huge city with crowds all around her, am I not supposed to be dead?, she thought. She then looked at herself and saw herself wearing the same clothes she was wearing during the time she commited suicide, then she looked at her wrist and saw that all the scars she had given to herself had vanished, "what is happening?! I remember giving myself a deep cut...".

Y/n then started looking around and all the people she saw around looked different from from, so she decided to go to a nearby store to find out where she exactly was. She then reached to a nearby restaurant, she saw people calmly eating their food. She entered the restaurant and not even a single person seemed to notice her. Y/n sat on a chair which was placed right in front of the food counter, hoping someone would ask about her whereabouts but after waiting for a couple of moments no one came to her, so she decided to approach one of the people near her, "Umm... Excuse me, could you please tell me which place is this?", no response, "Hello! I'm talking to you...", annoyed by the fact that everyone seemed to not notice you, she decided to touch the person she was talking to.

When she laid her hand on that person's body, her hand just passed through their body, this shocked her, "What the hell?! Am I even alive??", she immediately ran outside the store and stood in the middle of the road where cars were passing, a car came approaching towards her, and she closed her eyes but nothing happened. Once again, the car passed through her, "The fuck is happening with me!!", things started to worry her now, Y/n definitely discovered the fact that people neither can see her nor hear her and apparently people and things are passing through your body.

She was roaming around this unknown city cluelessly, not know what to do, where to go and how to get out of here.

"Is this supposed to be afterlife? If yes, then why am I in a city and not in hell and how the hell I even reached here...", y/n said while being disappointed on herself.

What caught y/n's eyes was the time, it was passing in a strange way, like a few moments ago it was morning, and now it is afternoon and soon it is going to be evening, she don't have a clue how the time is running so fast. After walking for a few more steps, y/n reached on a place which seemed like a train station, y/n sat on a bench nearby and thinking about all the things that happened to her today, "So like... I tried to kill myself, and then I got lost in this city and apparently I'm an invisible human... Wow! And I don't even have an idea if I'm alive or dead...", while y/n was talking to herself, she noticed a middle-aged man sit right beside her.

The man was looking like a homeless person and when y/n checked the man she saw that the man was holding something, and he then proceeded to eat it, while the man was eating she looked away and after a couple of moments something came rolling beside her, "Oh no my food!", the man said. Y/n then looked at the food and it was nothing but a human eye. Y/n was traumatized to see this, she looked at the man and the man's eye was having a texture of dark black and red in the middle, "A-a GHOUL??? Is that even a real thing!! GOD!!! what is this I am seeing!", she ran away from the man and hid behind the nearest pole though she knew she was invincible.

After witnessing that sight, y/n saw that a train has arrived at the station. The train was way too vacant, a women came out from the train and she seemed to be pregnant and she was alone too.

Y/n's POV~

"OH NO!! FUCK! He will eat her up!! What am I supposed to do now?? How can I help the woman!!", I was too afraid to witness the situation, so I looked away. I was silently praying that someone would help that women. By now I already heard a few screams of that women, Those people were right who said I'm useless... I-I don't even have the guts to save the women, then I tried to look at the situation and what I saw was the woman was lying on the ground and was dragging herself while her lower part of legs were bleeding severely and there was a huge blade like thing on that man's arm, "Is that- that supposed to be a kagune?! How are these things even real?? What kind of reality is this...".

While I was cursing myself, I heard a sweet voice, "Good evening~ oh my my what do we have here~". I somehow recognized that voice but can't remember whose voice that is exactly of, "I know this voice... I know this voice...", while I was blabbering to myself I looked at the drastic scene and saw that, now the man was lying down and the pregnant woman was sitting nearby and she was looking very terrified. My sight then went towards the person who saved the pregnant woman.

The person seemed to be slim and had an androgynous appearance and was having white hair, I couldn't see much of that person because their back was facing in my direction, "Now who is this supposed to be...", then my sight went towards the weapon the person was holding, it appeared to be a scythe.

"Ma'am could you please mind looking away? I am sure a women who is carrying a child in her womb won't like this scene~", as soon as the women looked away the person with white hair slashed that homeless looking man's body into two half, "Hehe~ it's fun to kill ghouls like you~".

"Is this... no no this is not him... it can't be!... It-it's impossible...", I don't know why but this person seemed to be that fictional character which I admire the most. Then the white haired person looked at my direction and our eyes met, my eyes couldn't believe this reality, "You...", my eyes welled up, the figures behind him was just vanishing into the air. I didn't knew about what should I panic, whether the fact that the pregnant women and the ghoul was vanishing into the air or the fact that my comfort character, Juuzou Suzuya, was standing right in front of me. I fell on the ground on my knees while my eyes was fixed on his angelic face and my tears was rolling down my eyes.

"What happened? You can't recognize me?", he asked me.

"You...YOU CAN SEE ME???", I asked.

"Of course I can see you silly~", he said while giving a sweet smile, "But, why are you crying?", he asked me while tilting his head a bit.

My hands were shaking while I tried to touch him, "You... you are re-", he immediately came closer to me and lowered himself to my height and hugged me. At that moments it felt too hard to control my tears, my head was resting on his chest and he was gently caressing my hair.

"No, I'm not real... I am just your imagination and today I'm here to save you~".

I hugged him back and started crying on his chest, "Then... then how can we touch each other?!".

"Well, because it's your soul which I am talking to.", he then stood up and offered me his hand to me, "Come with me, you don't have to worry about anything! You are safe with me~", I held his hand and stood up.

"But why are you even trying to save me? It's not like I matter anyway...".

"For me you matter!", he said in his angelic voice.

"Huh?", not sure why he was saying those things but the words were definitely making me feel good.

"You were trying the kill yourself, isn't it?"

"...yeah", we were talking with each other while walking side by side and holding hands.

"and why?"

"It's because... because everyone hates me, starting from my family to my relatives to my classmates... Everyone hates me..."

"and don't you think you are letting them win by killing yourself? And you know right, that I love you~", Juuzou said while I looked at him with surprise.

"...but it kinda suffocates me to live between them-"

"then why are you letting those toxic people eat you up? You are a strong girl who has fought till now and you know what, you can actually overcome this toxicity!"

"How?", I asked curiously.

"You already have a part time job, isn't it? Also, you can work more hard, if you want to and in a few years you would be a successful person~ you can stay away from these people forever, and I believe you can do this!!!"

I looked at myself, "Am I even alive? If yes then why can't I touch anyone except you??"

"Yes, YOU ARE ALIVE! Didn't I already said you that it's your imagination and this form of you is just you soul and I'm talking with your soul~", Juuzou said with a sweet smile.

"then why am I just existing in my imagination and not in real?? Why?"

Juuzou cupped my cheeks, "It's because in reality you are hanging between life and death... and I am here to bring you back to your life~"

"...Why do you even care if I die?"

"Because I don't want to die in your imagination, if you will die, I will be erased too...", Juuzou then patted on my head, "Don't worry, I am always here with you, by your side and ALSO I want you to keep living~", I was not sure what to say, I was just looking down and droplets of tears were falling down, "I hate those people too, who hurts you but also I am happy that you think about me every time you are sad so that you could smile once again. You have loved me for so long so don't you dare erase me!", he the lifted up my face , "I have seen these tears of you so many times...", then he rubbed off my tears, "... but also I have seen this strong women come out of her room after every mental breakdown."

"Do I really need to continue living?"

"Yes! If you don't want to do it for yourself then do it for me, okay?"

"For you?"

"Yes Y/n, for me! By the way look behind...", I looked behind and saw that the city and everything around us were vanishing into the air, "What do you see?"

"... that t-the world around me is VANISHING??"

"Exactly! It's your time to go~"

"WHERE?"

"Back to your life silly~ I have worked hard to bring you back to your life so now, don't you dare to commit suicide again!! It's my order that go run for your life, continue to live, please!"

"But I don't want to go away from you...", I said while sobbing.

"Who said you are going away from me? You know right, that I am always there for you~"

"...yes you really were with me every time I needed!!", I looked at Juuzou and smiled a bit.

"And I will ALWAYS be there for you till the very end and will continue loving you~", then I suddenly saw a black hoop appear near me and Juuzou pushed me into it, "NOW GO! You don't have much time left!"

"Thanks... Thanks once again for saving me!", then I started walking into the hoop, it was all dark and once again I looked at Juuzou and he gave me a bright smile and spread his arms wide and I ran towards him and gave him a tight hug.

"I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU...", I said while pressing my head on his chest and cried my heart out.

"I love you too~ and I am proud of you for hanging on for so long and please make sure to make me and yourself proud, even in future... I want to see a happy and a successful woman with no toxicity around her!", he then held my face with both his hands and kissed me gently on my forehead and then on my lips, "... please continue to live."

"YES! YES I will... I will try my best to be happy in my life..."

"Now y/n go! Go and touch the thread of your life... oh wait a second! I have to give you something... ", he then tied a red thread on my pinkie finger, "Now go~ this thread will remind you of me~"

I then kissed him one more time, on his cheek, "Thanks for everything!", then I ran into the black hoop, when I looked black I saw everything around Juuzou was vanishing and he was still smiling at me. After running for a few steps, I again saw that bright light, "Maybe... Maybe this is where my life starts again...", then I looked back again but this time I saw Juuzou was vanishing into the dark, still carrying a beautiful smile on his face, "Thanks, my angel, thanks for giving the love I always wanted!", then I ran into the bright light.

Third person's POV~

After one and a half day when y/n woke up from her deathbed, she found herself in a white gloomy room, she rubbed her eyes, "Where am I? Did I managed to live?", she whispered to herself.

"OH my god! Finally you are awake!! Doctors please come here...", a nurse where calling the doctors, it's then Y/n realized she was in hospital.

A doctor came immediately and checked the pulse of y/n, "How are you feeling now?"

"I... my head is kind of paining but I guess I am ok..."

"You know what, you have given yourself such a deep scar that you were hanging between life and death... it's a pretty much a miracle that you actually managed to live."

"Haha... is it?", Y/n asked with a calm smile on her lips.

"There's nothing to laugh about it! Actually it's a punishable act, if you won't be able to prove yourself innocent then congratulation! you will be punished with a few years of imprisonment.", the doctor explained.

"And what if I prove that I attempted suicide because I was depressed and forced to do so?", Y/n asked.

"Then... you would be asked to go for counseling and steps would be taken for you so that you can stay away from things that are making you depressed , but are you really depressed?"

"Yes! I am! And I can even prove it in the court and even point out the reason behind it!"

"Ok then, good luck and do your best! You will be discharged soon."

"Thanks doctor."

The suicide attempt case of y/n has continued for a few months and then finally her family members and her classmates were the once found guilty, though this time they weren't charged for anything but they were warned by the court judge that if this continues then not only y/n's family members and her bullies will be imprisoned but also she will be imprisoned for committing suicide.

Things has finally settled between them and the Judge has ordered and helped y/n to move out of her house.

Time-skip brought you by Juuzou's stitches ~

After seventeen years, Y/n is now happy. Now she works in a music company as a CEO, and more than thousands of people work under her. Away from her bullies and her toxic family, ironically the people with whom y/n was often compared with, now works under y/n, at least a few of them. In those half of people, a few family members of her include too, but she cares the least about them, she also don't mind firing them from the job.

She still has the red thread that once Juuzou gave her, yes it was her imagination but a few years back when she reached home from the hospital, she found a similar thread lying above a picture of her comfort character, Juuzou Suzuya. She still doesn't know if it's the same thread or not but she believes that it is that red thread that Juuzou gave her.

Y/n rested herself on the chair and closed her eyes, "Are you proud of me, Juuzou?"

'Yes! I am proud of you and I love you~', a sweet voice came from her heart.

y/n smiled and blushed a bit and whispered in her big office room, "Some people think that it's weird to fall in love with a fictional character, but little do they know that even a non-existent thing can save you and give you life... I will be always grateful to you, Juuzou... and if it would ever possible to marry you, I DEFINITELY WILL!!", she chuckled, "I always feel like you are watching over me! Even if I can't see you, touch you or feel you, I will continue to love you till the very end!"

>< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< >< ><

A/n: This was huge and pretty much boring story but anyways it's a tribute to all those people who love a fictional character or has a comfort character. Thanks for reading this story. I appreciate you if you actually read this whole story because while I was writing this story I actually had a mental breakdown and started crying... XDD. So yeah, Bye for now. See you soon, I LOVE YOU ALL ♡~♡

19 notes · View notes