#tonight being my last night at home :((

[theflyingfeeling]

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#god i hate being on my period and being so flipping emotional and just wanting to cry for random reasons #my current reasons: cute doggo pictures and also the fact i'm up and awake instesd of in bed asleep?? 😩 #last night i cried about fictional people #both about their problems as well as the fact they're leading more exciting lives than i do 😂 #which makes no sense i knoooooowww but i was feeling crap and lonely okay #can't wait to be home tonight to cry some more. as a treat 👌 #crying is healthy! i just wish i knew why i felt so shitty last night 🤔 #i guess i was just exceptionally tired. i work only 4 days a week but somehow this week has felt never-ending 😭 #i've had an alright week in general though? nothing to complain really so maybe it really just is period stuff 🙄 #i hope anyone reading this has been having it a bit easier this week 🤍

[pallases]

ourgejjg

#i am feeling so ill rn for no reason and i need to shower and wash my hair so bad but i can tell if i do it rn it’ll make the #lightheadedness ten times worse and there is a nonzero chance i will just pass out in there 😭 #best guess is bc my period started today and yeah the first two days suck but they’re not usually This bad #personal #also this is the last thing i need rn it’s tech week and all rehearsals lately have been going/are going to go till 10 pm and i have no tim #to do all my assignments and my probability prof assigned a lab today that’s due TMRW AT MIDNIGHT? <- we usually get a class period btwn #it being assigned and the deadline and he’s not even giving us until the next class period to do it now like why is it due at midnight #instead of noon the next day… also i have not one but two exams immediately following this weekend and i really want to see my family for #easter but that sounds like such a bad idea im so unproductive at home and i’ll be busier than usual when i go home on top of that bc easte #and one of the exams is circuits for which exams are worth 90% of our grade and im averaging a 74% at the moment which is NOT #promising and. AAAAA #also have an exam this thursday which imnot nearly as worried abt but still. and i have to meet w someone abt a scholarship tmrw during my #free period so i Still can’t work on that stupid lab due tmrw night like. this sucks okay ‼️ #the engineering chronicles #the music chronicles #i know it was only a matter of time before musical started stressing me out but 😭 please give me back the joys of saturday’s rehearsal… #oh also there’s ANOTHER probability lab due day after easter and same day as circuits exam and the prof is the same so he knows full well #what he’s doing like. why are you not giving us the usual period in btwn for these anymore fuck you <3 #OH ALSO soldering qualification i need to do for like 3 hours wednesday the night before my thursday exam. nearly forgot abt that one i hat #it hereeee #soldering i could reschedule tho which i might do. but ive already pushed it back once so im like :/ do i really wanna do that #idk. still feel sick as fuck and still need to do physics prelab tonight 😭 it shouldn’t take long but i really don’t want to get up and #stare at my computer even more ifeel so awful rn #ANYWAY. sorry that was oversharing even for me i am just 😐 you know.

[a-s-levynn]

Uhh.. today is so slow..

#i mean sure i'm excited #tonight being a concert going night #also at a venue i have not seen since it got renovated #but like #uhh #okay to be fair today was the last day of one of my collagues and i always feel so awkward in moments like these #and it kind of blocked most of my brainfunctions #and i'm in the process of rebooting #but like.. i really just want to get out and let go of whatever for a few hours #please let me skip today until gates opening already TAT #if all goes well i'll be at the venue when the open so at least i don't have to waot in line #only upside of sitting at work #because i physically cannot go early #i need to drop my backpack off at home and stuff #but still #i don't know i'm kinda just pointlessly rambling here #but i really need this tonight #alsl the weekend #thank fuck or tomorrow basically being home office day #yey typos galore #whatever #levynn tries to think

[sashimiyas]

happy cancer season tumbie babes!!! 🌻🩷🌻🩷🌷💖💖🩷♋️☀️🌷🌻✨🌻🌷💖

#reinas.inretrograde #i hope you have The Best day and summer and season ever #and today is the best day of cancer season. for me at least 😇✨ #summer came and we said ‘do not worry. we will bring the rain.’ and we grew homes with our tears and we loved even when the sun burned #i love being a cancer!! (cancer males diff tho. wait. not you natsuo. i am looking at you oikawa 👀) #this year i am so grateful and i still have belated gratitude to give to a lot of you #but i’m twirling! played a bit of ffxvi last night and i will have my long noodles tonight!

[attaboy-art]

day 07: legacy

[Image ID: A darkly colored digital painting done with oil brushes of Alfendi Layton, from Layton Brothers Mystery Room, sitting at his desk in his office at dawn, as seen from the back corner of the room. He is sitting cross-legged with a cup of tea in his hands and he is blankly staring forwards. Behind him is a large window with the blinds half-down showing a grey dawn sky with mutliple buildings and Big Ben in within view. The same wall the window is on also has shelves, newspaper clippings, and a framed letter of apology addressed to Alfendi. In front of him is a messy desk with a lamp, a rotary phone, and a typewriter sitting on top, dimly shining in the light. /.End ID.]

#lb;mrweek #i know im late im sorry im so sorry #i spent tonight and last night looking for my cat up in the park for a couple of hours so i havent had much time to paint #but. I really didnt wanna miss the last day. So #fun fact i started seeing bugs on my ipad while drawing this #anyways. ANYWAYS its time for me to Explain My Reasoning #originally i had a ton of different sketches right. i couldnt choose which one i wanted to do for this prompt #one was of the layton fam greeting al post-game. one was a polaroid of lucy and al posing next to the letter of apology #and the last one was gonna be an abstract-ish portrait of al #but none of them were working with me so i decided. Actually. What do /I/ Think #basically. u know me u know im always on my poor little alfendi shit. #and i was like. well. post-game #post-game hes probably still reeling from everything that happened. Fendi that is but also Al #and hes probably just. like. Holy fuck. Holy shit man #after 4 long lonely years he's finally gotten his name cleared and has gotten an apology from the Nebulous Yard #but. its not like he can go back. Its not like hes going to pretend that none of those years ever happened #he cant forget that ostracization. the alienation. the demonization. The Izations #the wounds of being left behind cannot heal just yet. and thats okay #and its just. What really is al's legacy. He doesnt fight a big robot or save the world. He fought trauma. He fought suppression. And he won #and you KNOOOWWWW my babygirl is a workaholic. you know he stays at the office because its better than being surrounded by reminders at home #AND. LASTY.... dawn is a recurring motif in the laytonverse. dawn symbolizes the end. it symbolizes new beginnings and rebirth yadda yadda #lastly* good lord #so i reallt wanted to capture that feelinf of like. Pulling an all nighter when youre in a fucked up area of your life #and just looking at the grey skies above and thinking sunrise was supposed to be more worthwhile than this #hope u all enjoy. im going to hide my ipad and stylus in a safe for the next week #art #professor layton #lbmr #layton brothers mystery room #alfendi layton

[semercury]

I don't want to be at work I want to be home writing some silly little words.

#stuff sarah says #jk id probably be working on an s+ run in re/4/r #(tryna not get picked up by tags) #but we finished the cle/on movie/mini series last night and it breathed new life into my fic idea #tbh i was sad there was just crumbs but i think thats all any shipper gets with this series #but i wanted to write this fic before i work more on my cringe fic bc its short #and i love instant gratification #and i have a title. its some fu/n. lyrics if that tells you the mood... #''if youre right here why do i miss you so much?'' #and with ''now i just wait for you to talk to me but you wont even look at me baby'' as some ~flavor text~ #came up with the fic by being like ''they should get smoothies together :)'' with the bestie #and now im gonna make it sad #babe if you see this i def will send you snippits as i write the rough draft #anyway. i dont want to be at work for a lot of reasons #it feels weird. theres too many people here tonight #and i think we're gonna get done super early with stuff we needed to do? #idk. id rather be home #i dont want to work anymore ever. i think i should be paid for having amazing takes on fictional characters #and being mildly interesting to talk to and being bad at video games but still having a good time #that last one is a real talent. real gamers take their L's #anyway

[audiovisualrecall]

Constant pain only dulled for a whole day by daily taking full dosage of tylenol and also 1 advil even tho I'm not supposed to take NSAIDS

Miserable

#extraction is friday. home today then work tues-thurs #and thurs is inventory night :)))) #advil is bc in the 4pm-9pm time range the tylenol is not enough #like ive been staggering the doses bc max dosage is 6 pills #and also i want tp try not having to take the advil by overlapping differently but so far not working #earlier pill wears off at 5. took another at 2:30 thats good till 8:30 so in theory i should be ok rn bc i have 2 tylenol in my system #cant take another one until after 4:52 (took the prev dose at 10:52) and its 4:39 and ive been at 6-8 level pain since 4pm #ish. #have a few tricks that lessen the pain and should be helping like cold compress and tugging on my ear and holding my tongue against roof of #my mouth bc it helps for some reason. but all thats doing is stopping it from being a level 10 pain #between tmj pain and whatwvers up w my ear rn (may be related to tmj) and the pain in the gums around the tooth #and the pain from where she did the numbing injections. and both that and the gums are swollen/irritated #the pain bounces back and forth between the different spots and the gums/tooth area throba #throbs* occasionally. so I'm just. in a lot of pain #earlier in the day I'm fine with the one tylenol wearing off soon after i take a 2nd one #and I'm fact i went an hour between one wearing off while a 2nd was in my system before taking the 3rd instead of #what I'll be doing now which is taking another asap after the one wears off. 5pm or asap #last night had to take an advil #and this morning got up late and didnt take a tylenol till 7:30 after last one wore off at 3am #I'll have 1 extra pill tonight i can take either after 11:30pm or after 3am #Or if i can wait it out and take it ehem i get up for work #otherwise my 24 hrs resets at 7:30 tomorrow which means not taking a tylenol when i get up in the morning #reluctantly id take an advil tonight or in the morning i guess

[disneyprincessdxminatrix]

wallowing in self pity as an after work activity.

#I also watched tv and almost fell asleep #I woke up with a bad stomachache last night which kept me awake for a little over an hour before it got better #so I didn’t sleep enough and went to work #and then received a text that my boyfriend wouldn’t be home tonight cause he’s meeting from friends #and of course I’m not invited because one of his friends is my ex I keep shit taking about (rightfully I might add) #saw him for like one minute after his work before he left again #I’m really fucking sad rn still because as I told some friends #one of my Guinea pigs died just yesterday #and I’m tired and #I’m hungry #and yes my boyfriend offered to bring me food but I don’t even know when he will be back and he’s probably going to bring cake which isn’t #real dinner food anyway #my stuff #give it half an hour and I’ll be better I hope #maybe she least good enough to make myself something to eat #at least my cat his here he always comes when I’m crying #edit: I think the part about tonight that hurts the most is being invited but not being invited #one of the boys sent a message to the group chat if anyone wanted to join #and idk if all of them know #but my bf knows I won’t go anywhere near my ex #even though I haven’t seen one of the other friends there in a awhile and wouldn’t loved to see him #so it’s like #being invited #but not really #cause I can’t go there #I’d feel sick #I already do feel sick knowing he talks to this despicable piece of shit

[shadowed-yet-vibrant]

Can't believe I spent this weekend living one of my worst nightmares, and that it's not over yet.

#I don't like to vaguepost #but #I closed my eyes #because when I opened them I saw the face of my mentor #my boss and a near father figure #a man more than twice my age #his teeth scraped my skin and I could tell he was ravenous #I looked up at the ceiling as the bed moved beneath us #and I prayed that I was dreaming #and that if I wasn't dreaming that I could just die instead #I didn't say no... but he didn't ask. #last night I was able to get drunk enough it didn't hurt as bad #I can't imagine ever being sober again #because I'd have to think about what happened #and what's going to happen again tonight #at least I can go home tomorrow

[petruchio]

ive been hungover for like 48 hours now and im going out again tonight and again tomorrow night send strength besties

#to be clear i am hungover from being out the last 2 nights as well #like i was hungover all of thursday and all of friday #bc i was out weds and thurs night #and tonight my friends bday #tmw my friends home friend is visiting #woof. that’s all #caroline speaks #being 23 and sexy is like sooooooo fun

[stupidnaturals]

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#nobody has to read this lol i jist need to vent #bc i was at the fall out boy concert tonight (incredible showstopping stunning etc etc etc) #and they played g.i.n.a.s.f.s. for the first time in concert EVER #and its like. i have a rocky relationship w the concept of a home and rockier relationship with my mother #but the last two apartments ive been in ive worked really hard to make them feel like homes and safe happy places for myself #and everytime i was driving back to one of those (especially if i had to be at my parents house for the day) id put on infinity on high #and specifically make sure to listen to g.i.n.a.s.f.s. bc of ' everybody wants to drive on through the night if its a drive back home ' #so i was. very emotional. #and scream singing to it. #and my mom (who took me to the concert) stops me and tells me im singing too loud and annoying her and the people around us #just like. FUCK dude. #i was having a fucking moment to a song thats so fucking special to me and specifically bc of my issues with YOU #and boom there u go being shitty ruining my moment giving me rsd. that wouldve been THE moment of my life. but you cant let me have shit.

[afieldinengland]

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#back home :) today has been the first day where things have felt easy in a long time. even with the buses cancelled i walked to the train #station in no time— got there early— got on the train and got home :) autumn’s in the air so strongly now #and my timetable for this term of university got released!! and it’s lovely— i have wednesday off entirely and only one 9am start #ah. and a takeaway tonight. i feel better. relieved. like i can breathe #herb wine anon my dearest i think our conversation last night is what’s sparked this— #someone saying ‘i think i know what happened to you’ was frightening at first but so so exhilarating and relieving after years of assuming #i would have to come out with every detail myself. and obviously i haven’t told you the complete details of everything yet but— to have that #part of me looked at and the person not being scared or repulsed or hating me for it. it was wondrous. really wondrous #and intimate in a way i haven’t felt in years. and even then i’d never felt it with such sympathy and empathy and kindness #as i said you reached right in and touched my heart as it beats— intimate investigative internal. peaceful. healing. unflinching #the sun was so pretty on all the trees all the way back from bristol. what a beauty after so long :)

[dreams-in-daylight]

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#actually manage to go to bed now or another night ending around 5-6am? #tumblr made me smile at least #dear diary emotional bullshit #giving fair warning or whatever idk #heavy messy life bullshit #just venting and shiz but def negative energy/bad vibes #official ​last chance to turn back #talking w MIL former pharmacist but within 2 years so immoderately accurate I acknowledge that #but a lot of what she said didn’t match up with the info available online from cites I imagine are pretty up to date #offer assistance online so probs pretty well informed an up to date #and I get that bae probs needs the mental security or w/e bc talking w her mom and her job and I get that #but then why the fuck would that make me feel any better?????? #all in my head isn’t any better bc guess where I have to live #bed might’ve been smarter but if I’d cry either way then at least not keep bae up #I and negative head space just manifests as stress dreams/mundane nightmares #lyrics stuck in my head #I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not I’m far from lonely and it’s all that I’ve got #or I’m so sick and tired of being sick and tired #I need something else would someone please just give me ? hit me knock me out and let me go back to sleep #up down turn around please don’t let me hit the ground tonight I think I’ll walk alone find my soul as I go home

[clownboy-yeehonk]

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#good news gang i survived my shift by transitioning smoothly from severe hangxiety to caffeine jitters #to being so tired i feel physically ill but i am in fact home and me and my babies had a good shift #but good god #theres that line in natasha pierre and the great comet of 1812 in the duel #when pierre says “there is something inside of me #something terrible and monstrous“ #like i get u bb it be like that sometimes #but god is merciful its a gross cloudy day that is perfect rotting in bed for 12 hours before transitioning to couch rot #im off tonight then 2 shifts and then i have a week off and i will make it through this if it kills me #i am proud of myself for not callikt out last night even if it was only bc the holiday #id rather drop dead at work than have poeple think im weasling out of my holiday #also calling out would have intensified the “do people hate me” spiral which wouldnt have been productive #its ok tho im gonna sleep so hard ill develop bed sores i can feel it im so excited #being so painfully exhausted does have the upside of ending up with the best goddamn sleep ever nothing compares #shout out to my coworkers who responded to my experience of getting quite drunk in a basement and chain smoking other peoples cigarettes #with “ah those were the days i really miss that” #the drummer was right nurses really are just all like that

[h-ypno]

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#i really fucking hate killing roaches #its like getting mad at a cat for sharpening her claws #An animal has biological reasons for doing things #And Iv given cockroaches a place thats environmentally beneficial for them #I cant get mad at the animals themselves when im the one who could just clean my room #I hate anthropomorphizing “scavenger animals” just because we dont like what they do #yeah roaches suck and people have really bad experiences with them but I cant get mad at the roach when its MY fault im having these #bad experiences in the first place #That being said #im cleaning my room #i asked god last night #Please fuck... Please send someone to touch me tonight. A ghostly woman or a dream of my ex to help make things easier #that fucker gave me a bug #like #wake up #your home is nasty

[goldenstarprincesses]

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#I spoke to soon. work last night was not calm. it was super busy #then i got home to my roommates being annoying and only having a few hours to sleep before next job #but I get out at like 11 tonight so I'll get to the asks that I asked for lamo #.