#tonight's ep was just

[heartstopperthoughts]

Tori being cynical about everything but also secretly being Nick and Charlie shipper # 1

#I’m starting my Heartstopper rewatch #so prepare for an influx of thoughts #just ep 1 tonight tho #because I sleepy #heartstopper #nick and charlie #nick nelson #charlie spring #tori spring #kit connor #joe locke #jenny walser

[tapeworrmart]

There's a shadow on you, son

#Literally just started watching this tonight. Got to ep 5 #I knew I was gonna like it but holy FUCK it's good. These characters. The atmosphere #Rust Cohle is my babygirl immediately. Literally haven't been I spored to draw smth so IMMEDIATELY in a while #It's 4am lol #True detective #true detective season 1 #Rust Cohle #rustin cohle #fan art #art #sketch #character art #mathew mcconaughey

[cashweasel]

I’ve not seen anyone talk about Julia Belmont yet which is crazy because,, she looks like this?! My honest reaction seeing her on screen was “damn boy that’s your mommy??” Can she be my mommy too? She’s stunning. I want her so bad rip tho queen

#idk what I expected her to look like but not this lol #on my knees fr #also am I the only one who thinks she has a little bit of sypha in her? fjskskdj #I’ve only watched the first ep tonight but istg if we get some trevor and sypha flashbacks that I don’t know about yet #i will break down #edit: ok I just found out this was like 9 generations after them lol #somehow that makes me very sad tho 9 gens and they’re gone and alucard is still here #he met not only their kids but their descendants #:( #castlevania #castlevania nocturne #also richter is baby (literally) he’s a smol child and I love him #babe how old are you? 17?

[timlucys]

#from “let me set you up on a date” to “let’s go on a dinner date to celebrate you” #the world’s biggest glo-up

#the rookie #therookieedit #chenford #chenfordedit #tim x lucy #userburn #usercher #tuserjen #userjessica #tuserlena #usertimlucy #still looking at each other AT WORK for an inappropriate amount of time so really what else has changed #he just gets to go on those dates with her now #*gifs #oops this has been in my drafts. oh well it's applicable today bc #he finds out TONIGHT too i'm so hype bring on the vday ep!!!!

[cookinguptales]

So I've talked about this a little bit in the past, but like... to me, the biggest tragedy of this substandard turning for Guillermo is that he's clearly always associated vampiric transformation with personal growth.

One thing that's always struck me about both Guillermo and Nandor is that both of them have this odd fixation on a nebulous "better" version of their lives that they should be living, and that fixation is so strong that it prevents them from fully living the life they already have. They both have a tendency to be so focused on how green the grass is on the other side that they forget to water their own lawn, if you get me.

Nandor has pretty obviously been on a quest for meaning since at least the first season (due to his crisis over Al Qolnidar no longer existing and his descendent dying) and he has a strong tendency to ignore all of the meaningful things that already exist in his life so he can pursue a fantasy of something better. He constantly throws aside the good things he has because he believes there must be something better. And in so doing, he often loses what he had to begin with.

Guillermo actually does things fairly similarly, except while Nandor is looking externally for something to enter into his life and give it meaning, Guillermo's fantasy life is focused more purely on his sense of self, with the anchor of it being vampiric transformation.

Guillermo has always looked at vampiric transformation as being the magic bullet that will make him good. It'll make him stronger, faster, more powerful, sure. But it's not just that. His entire sense of self-worth is attached to this. He doesn't just want physical power; he wants social power. He wants emotional power.

When Guillermo becomes a vampire, he won't get bullied anymore. When he becomes a vampire, he'll get respect. He'll be smart, strong, sexy. He'll be loved. He'll be able to love himself.

He'll be better.

Guillermo has always unabashedly put all his eggs in that basket. He's always just waited for someone to come bestow worthiness on him. But it's also circular logic, y'know? He'll become worthy once he's a vampire, but he'll also only become a vampire once he's worthy.

He has to earn it, and he'll never be happy until this growth, this vague sense of superiority, is earned.

That's really not how self-worth works, though, is it? No one can give that to you. No one can magically make you all the things you've always wanted to be, and no one can magically strip you of all the parts of you that you're ashamed of. And all the praise in the world won't mean anything to you if you don't believe it.

Guillermo, as he's gotten further away from being a vampire, has actually started to gain all the things he has intrinsically associated with vampirism. He's stronger. He's faster. He's more powerful. He's sexier. He's more confident. People respect him. People accept him. He's been able to start to reclaim his sexuality. He's starting to be able to be himself, and that self is both alluring and dangerous.

But none of that came because of anything he's done to try and earn his worth. It was all accidental; he's been so focused on this fantasy version of himself that he didn't see the way he was growing, changing, and developing in his own way.

Guillermo can't see that he's already grown up to be his childhood fantasy of himself, y'know?

So now he's gone and used all this newfound power and confidence and cunning to finagle himself a bite. But it didn't work. And it didn't make him feel the way he thought it would.

Because it's always been a fantasy. It's always been something to work toward. It's always a version of him that can't exist because it's nothing concrete, it's just the nebulous idea of being better.

Moreover, it's not just a power fantasy, though it certainly is that. I think the key to it here is that Guillermo has really come to associate this changing with acceptance. Not just anyone's acceptance -- Nandor's acceptance.

Along with all the other parts of the fantasy, Guillermo has fantasized about Nandor changing him because Nandor thinks he's worthy. It symbolizes all the longing he's ever had for acceptance and respect and acknowledgement and love and desire. Nandor's really become the center of all that for him, mostly because Guillermo is stupid in love with him. And since he circumvented Nandor's acceptance when he claimed a bite from someone else, he's really missed out on a major portion of what he was fantasizing about in the first place.

No one in the vampiric world is accepting him. If anything, they're pushing him away even more now that he's upset their social balance. No one thinks he's sexy. No one thinks he's cool. No one loves him, desires him, respects him. He still hasn't gotten the acknowledgement that he really wanted all along.

It was never just the powers. It was the fact that Guillermo hated himself. He hated his nebbishness, his weakness. He hated the way he couldn't fit in, not with his peers or his family or his religious community. He hated his timidity and his shyness and his submissiveness. He hated the way he was pushed around by everyone -- and in fact, he wanted to do the pushing.

And he thought that getting bitten would fix all that overnight. But it didn't.

So now even though he's gotten the bite he's always fantasized about, he's still deeply unhappy. And some of this really is the lack of physical power, which he's associated with social power. But I think more of it is that he always thought that a bite would change him on a fundamental level. But he has to come to terms now with the fact that he's still just Guillermo.

He can never be anything but himself. And Guillermo hates himself. He's embarrassed by himself. He's ashamed of himself. The idea of never being anything but what he already is is unbearable to him.

Then you add the fact that he doesn't feel like he "earned" this transformation, he never did get the acknowledgment from the person he needed it from most...

Guillermo was bitten and he still doesn't feel worthy. That's the root of it. He doesn't feel like the bite made him worthy and he doesn't feel like he was deemed worthy of the bite. So the bite itself? Yeah, that's worthless, too. Just like him.

Guillermo is struggling with the death of a fantasy here, I think, and struggling with idea that he might only ever be himself. And all he has to impress those around him, especially Nandor, is that self. And he doesn't feel like that self is enough, especially now that he might have fully alienated Nandor in particular.

God, I just. I really want Guillermo to come to accept who and what he is. I want him to see his own strength and his own power and his own beauty and realize that it didn't have to be bestowed upon him by anyone. It's not just his bloodline, it's not just the master he serves. It's him! It's in him! It's intrinsic! It's good!

It's enough!

I want him to be so proud of himself, because I am. My beautiful little murder machine. He's awful and I love him so dearly. ;;

God, I just want these two idiots to look at each other and realize that what they already have is enough. Nandor already has the love and acceptance he's been craving. Guillermo already has the power and worthiness that he's been craving. They already both love each other. They just need to stop being dumbasses for five minutes!

(But now who's lost in a fantasy world? lmao)

#last meta post for the first two eps for now I PROMISE #that said once I see tonight's ep things will just start again unfortunately #wwdits #wwdits meta #wwdits s5 #wwdits spoilers #nandermo #guillermo de la cruz

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Listen I know people are rightfully gonna be focused on that fucking ending for a hot minute but I just need to say. Heh, Lincoln was so fucking cool this episode. SORRY I NEED TO HAVE THIS THIS WAS SUCH A GOOD EPISODE FOR HIM. Faking out Schmegan!? THE CALLBACK TO WHAT HE SAID IN THE FBI EPISODE!? 😭 Using the essential oils to cure poor fucking Normal and just kind of being the only remotely competent person this episode? NODDING AT HIS DAD (Grant was also cool this episode lol) TO TAKE THE SHOT idk to me that part was sick as hell anyways dhdjksks listen I just love my boy okay.

#dndads #also he and Norm should kiss who said that #''I just died in your arms tonight'' is a cheerkicks song now lmao #dungeons and daddies #dndads s2 ep 46 #lincoln li wilson #dndads spoilers

[dylanconrique]

tim "i'm not trying to be romantic" → gets his girlfriend a 1st place trophy before she even takes the detectives exam because he believes in her so much, and then writing in a little '7' next to it after she notified him that she didn't do as well as she had hoped SEEMS PRETTY FUCKING ROMANTIC TO ME.

#*carly #ik i said i was gonna go on a little hiatus cause i'm currently working through a little depresive slump but..... #that doesn't mean i missed out on tonight's ep especially since it's actually a really good source of serotonin for me it's my fave show 🥺 #and my brain couldn't help but make that parallel from that scene after lucy giggled like 'this is cute you did good' #HAD TO RATTLE THIS OUT OF MY HEAD AND SHARE IT WITH YA'LL #the rookie #4x22 #6x03 #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford #otp: you know me so well #AND TO THINK BACK TO S2 TIM WHEN HE WAS DATING RACHEL AND DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR HER BIRTHDAY SDDZFRTYGHJKL #HE HAS COME SO INCREDIBLY FAR #i mean we all know he secretly got game..... #he just never showed off those smooth moves as much in his other relationships cause he never felt really attached to them #BUT THIS IS LUCY WE'RE TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THAT'S HIS BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #HE LOVES HER AND WANTS THE WHOLE DAMN THING WITH HER #A HOUSE BABIES GRANDBABIES ALL OF IT #sorry i made the connection and it made my brain go buzzerk #ttfn ta ta for now 👋

[crybaby-bkg]

holding Bakugou’s face in your hands and singing the cheesiest songs to him and watching him try to complain about everything even though he can’t help but love how everything sounds and how pretty your mouth is and admire how your lips curve around that one word. gets so entranced at the sight and sound of you, he doesn’t even realize how heavy his head has gotten in your palm, how low his eyes are, and how red his cheeks have gotten <3

#this was a self ship post but I got too embarrassed ajshdkdj #anyway you sing in love with you by erykah badu and he gets so sweet n soft n lax in your hold #or giving him a scalp massage while humming a love song under your breath #he’s PUTTY #you try to do this w Eiji and he tries to sing with you and throws you off #bc he’s so goddamn adorable but so damn tone deaf lmfao #I never talk about him but you do the same w shouto #and he’s just kinda staring at you and you think he doesn’t like it #but you try to pull away and he’s grabbing your wrist back and goes #‘why’d you stop? that was extremely relaxing. could you do another?’ #I would melt on the spot #love singing to my favs if that wasn’t obvious #okay gn a few eps some bnha are airing dubbed tonight and I’m ready to catch up some ^_^ #I think it’s the episode where bkg wakes up in the hospital???? #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬

[unluckyprime]

shhhhh they’re sleeping !! ❤️❤️

#drew most of this before the latest ep and was like I should finish it <3 #gay people who deserve a rest: them #normal oak #oakworthy #hermie the unworthy #hermie unworthy #digital art #dndads #dungeons and daddies #just a simple one tonight!

[vdearest]

#tonights ep punched me in the heart #amanda's acting was INSANE like the switch from goofy to completely serious #she is just a mother‚‚‚‚‚wanting to have a family again #and then to think back to her not wanting to talk about her kids!!! fuck!!!! #she is so fucked up and motivated by love #AND KODA #i had a theory about him having some connection to the castle because he was so weird abt it but then it was so much more sad #“and they ran as well” SO YOU MEAN THERE'S A CHANCE- #I LOVE SECOND CHANCE ROMANCE CMONNNNN #grgrgr biting thru stuf #sword af #smosh dnd #delores paradise #koda sword af

[pomegranate]

MOVIE TONIGHT!!! EP OF ALL TIME

#mash #m*a*s*h #mash 4077 #movie tonight #mash s5ep21 #one of the real tragedies of modern tv seasons being like 8 episodes max is that we don’t get filler episodes like this #mash has so many good filler eps where it’s just the characters having FUN #and they help you care more about those characters when they experience danger or trauma #god i love this show so much #screencap spams #mash edits by me #AS REQUESTED BY TOM 💓

[notsosecretlyalesbian]

"You're pretty dang defeatist for someone who votes third-party. Come on. Let's go bully some sensitive artists."

Lisa Ann Walter as Melissa Schemmenti in Abbott Elementary | 02×17: Mural Arts

#melissa schemmenti #lisa ann walter #abbott elementary #abbottgifs #abbottelementarygifs #abbottelementaryedit #abbottedit #my gifs #i just have no words for how much i love her #also LOL cause i've made 200+ Melissa gifs #some of them i haven't even posted here #most of the time i just like looking at her pretty face #btw i don't know if i'm making the usual gifset for tonight. it's the last ep of season 1 and i kinda don't want it to be over already #but maybe i will who knows the night is still young #notsosecretlyalesbian.gifs #notsosecretlyalesbian.law.gifs #notsosecretlyalesbian

[sadpanda]

you are in love or whatever it is that taylor swift said

#god someone just kill me #how am I supposed to survive a week? #and we have an ep tonight?? #911 abc #buddie #911 spoilers #evan buckley #eddie diaz #2 of these being 2 episodes apart is CRAZY

[manjusaka]

"I've been afraid of the water since then. So, I tried to stay close to it--to get used to it."

"I'm trying too."

Here was a tiny prelude to Tharn's confession. Phaya might not quite grasp the meaning, but Tharn can almost be heard saying, "I've been afraid of loving since then. So, I've tried to stay close to you, to get used to it."

That admission of Phaya's was yet another chip in Tharn's defenses.

And when, by the poolside, Phaya says again that he couldn't stand to lose Tharn, Tharn also felt compelled to finally share his fear--that everyone he loves will die and that he's so dangerously close to loving Phaya that he's already afraid of the loss as well.

And they're sat before the water that Phaya fears and Tharn is sat beside the love he fears. And they're dipping their toes into water and into love. And maybe they're facing fears together.

Which is why, when Tharn practically pleads, "Please don't force it," Phaya can't help but take his hand and instill within him a little more courage.

Before either of them know it, they're slipping in. Deeper. Deeper. To depths unknown.

#The Sign the series #The Sign #I don't know why this reads like a fic excerpt #because I was just wanted to get my thoughts about the scene down #but this ep made me feel artsy apparently #I have a gifset for this scene in my head too #but no time to make it tonight

[antiherobuckley]

please don't go home yet  | songs that make me sad + bucktommy

#this is nothing just thinking about how buck has one (1) face when he is enamoured with tommy #like..... same #throwing this into the abyss before tonights ep #evan buckley #bucktommy #911 edit #911 #911 abc #my edit

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Having so many feelings about them.

#also I obviously remembered the roughhousing scene (all these scenes are etched into my brain) but NOT THE CHANTING OH GEE THE IRONY #dndads #dndads s2 ep 36 #dndads spoilers #dungeons and daddies #fuck dude #grant wilson #terry jr #pouring one out for both of them tonight #this might revive my shipping of them #oh my #my babies #dndads audio #the s1 episodes are 35 38 and 68.5 just fyi #spoilers