#too many feelings

[madeleineengland]

Drew Barrymore's reunion with her "Cinderella: Ever After" co-stars in honor of the 25th movie anniversary! (28 march 2023 at The Drew Barrymore Show)

#drew barrymore #cinderella ever after #my feelsss #cindarella #cinderella #ever after: a cinderella story #ever after #the drew barrymore show #ever after 1998 #a cinderella story #nostalgia #too many feelings

[kitamars]

to have and to hold

#lyrics from lover of the light by mumford and sons! #i. idk what to say #too many feelings #hc that vash wears ww’s rosary under his jacket after. well #god. they make me so sad and for what #vash the stampede #vash #vashwood #vash x wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum spoilers #trigun maximum #ok bye

[rockalillygirl]

Murderbot Holding Hands

(Minor spoilers alert for Artificial Condition, Rogue Protocol, Exit Strategy pls check the tags)

First real post because I’m shy. Don’t know why it’s going to be a hyper-specific murderbot meta but here we go:

I’ve been rereading all the books after finishing System Collapse <3 and I want to talk about a small moment in Artificial Condition that I’d never noticed before. It’s near the end of the book when Tapan is in ART’s medsystem after nearly dying, and SecUnit says that when Tapan wakes up it’s holding her hand.

When Tapan woke, I was sitting on the MedSystem’s platform holding her hand. (Artificial Condition, p. 155 in my ebook)

I thought it was a really sweet moment, but it also kind of puzzled me because of SecUnit’s aversion to touch. Later when I was reading Exit Strategy, I noticed a similar moment when SecUnit holds hands with Mensah to help disguise them as they’re trying to escape TranRollinHyfa.

[Mensah] took a deep breath and looked up at me. “We can look calm. We’re good at that.” Yeah, we were. I did a quick review to make sure I was running all my not-a-SecUnit code, then I thought of one more thing I could do. As we stepped out of the pod, I took Mensah’s hand. (Exit Strategy, p. 87)

Reading these scenes felt different in a couple ways. In my opinion, SecUnit taking Mensah’s hand in Exit Strategy seemed like more of a big deal because it was a part of SecUnit’s reunion with Mensah, and we see its thoughts and emotions leading up to it. And it tracks that SecUnit might feel ok holding Mensah’s hand in that situation because of their close friendship. But the moment in Artificial Condition is more mysterious. We don’t get any of SecUnit’s internal monologue at the beginning because the scene opens when Tapan wakes up. And even though it’s clear in the book that SecUnit likes Tapan along with Rami and Maro, I wouldn’t say their relationship is anywhere near as close as its bond with Mensah. So why did it hold her hand?

I think it’s a neat moment that’s fun to ponder! And I have some vague ideas I’d like to share about it. (Some of this is based on the books and some is my speculation as an ace/aspec person dealing with touch aversion.) (Also none of these thoughts are mutually exclusive!)

Maybe SecUnit saw holding Tapan’s hand as a form of first aid after her traumatic experience and didn’t want her to panic waking up in a strange ship’s medsystem. This fits with SecUnit bracing itself to hug Mensah in Exit Strategy. (The memes of this moment are perfect lol)

But I was the only one here, so I braced myself and made the ultimate sacrifice. “Uh, you can hug me if you need to.” She started to laugh, then her face did something complicated and she hugged me. I upped the temperature in my chest and told myself it was like first aid. (Exit Strategy, pp. 82-3)

But I feel like SecUnit might not care as much about comforting Tapan in a similar way if it hadn’t already built up some kind of trust with her? Which brings me to Thought 2:

I think SecUnit might have felt safe holding Tapan’s hand because of the moment in Artificial Condition in the second transient hostel when Tapan laid down next to it. (Ofc I think rescuing Tapan from Tlacey’s ship was also a factor, trauma-bonding and all. But to me this moment in the hostel is more important.)

Thirty-two minutes later, I heard movement. I thought Tapan was getting up to go to the restroom facility, but then she settled on the pad behind me, not quite touching my back… I had never had a human touch me, or almost touch me, like this before and it was deeply, deeply weird. (Artificial Condition, pp. 136-7)

This is one of my favorite sequences in Artificial Condition (which is also my favorite book in the series because of ART! And because I find it quiet, reflective, and weirdly cozy even though objectively few cozy things happen now that I think about it). The scene is pretty mundane with a lot of fun bits like SecUnit pretending to need to use the restroom, be on a diet, etc. And we usually don’t get to see SecUnit hanging out with only one person. So it gives room for some small, but important feelings that I don’t think SecUnit has time to explore when it’s busy saving the day. Like how it feels about physical contact with humans.

(idk it reminds me of how like in ghibli films there’s usually at least one scene with the characters eating a meal or something because it sort of grounds everything else. I just like it!)

Tapan being close to SecUnit seems to throw if off-guard, but the context of the scene feels non-threatening and pretty mellow. So I think this gives SecUnit the opportunity to check-in with itself about this new experience. It still feels weird about it, but not in a scary or upsetting way. I think it’s almost this mutual vulnerability (Tapan feeling vulnerable and seeking comfort and SecUnit feeling vulnerable about her closeness and its own boundaries) that creates a bond between them, and that’s why SecUnit reaches out to Tapan to comfort her when she wakes up onboard ART.

That scene has become really special to me. And I would argue that it’s an important moment to SecUnit too because it brings it up again in Exit Strategy, along with a later moment in Rogue Protocol, thinking about times when it’s experienced physical contact with humans in a non-traumatizing way.

Except it wasn’t entirely awful. It was like when Tapan had slept next to me at the hostel, or when Abene had leaned on me after I saved her; strange, but not as horrific as I would have thought. (Exit Strategy, p. 83)

These moments seem to lead up to SecUnit offering to comfort Mensah later on because it’s reached a point where it feels willing to do so for her sake, even if it doesn’t want to seek out that kind of comfort for itself. And it’s really cool to see SecUnit navigate this throughout the books.

SecUnit starts the series with a strong innate sense that it doesn’t want to be touched by humans, but it’s allowed to refine those feelings in light of its new experiences. It’s boundaries are situational and personal, and even well-meaning humans sometimes struggle to understand them at first. Other times, SecUnit finds it difficult to understand it’s own feelings regarding touch and even changes its mind. But, importantly, the narrative always presents this as valid and worthy of respect.

This is a much more nuanced and realistic portrayal of defining boundaries than I’ve seen in a lot of media- one where it’s a constant and sometimes confusing process of self-discovery.

And these might seem like obvious concepts to some people, but they weren’t for me growing up. I really wish I’d read these books when I was younger, and maybe I would’ve given myself more grace to define my comfort level, grow, and change. But I’m glad that I’m in a place now where I can see and appreciate these things in what’s become one of my favorite series.

Anyway, I don’t want to say "thanks for coming to my TedTalk” lol. But very grateful to anyone who reads this and hope it was thought-provoking. Would be interested to hear other people’s thoughts on these scenes!

#murderbot diaries #murderbot meta #murderbot #secunit #artificial condition #rogue protocol #exit strategy #murderbot spoilers #too many feelings

[soulinkpoetry]

Too many feelings…

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#too many feelings #stay away #you can’t handle this #soulinkpoetry #poetry #thoughts #she writes #feelings #poets on tumblr #that’s life

[staygaybaby]

I can't even begin to express how much Stray Kids has impacted my life. When I first discovered them, I was going through a difficult time and their music became my safe haven. Their lyrics spoke to me in a way that I had never experienced before. It was like they understood what I was going through and their music gave me the strength to keep going. As I delved deeper into their content, I realized that they were more than just a K-pop group. They were a family, a group of 8 individuals who came together to chase their dreams and support each other through thick and thin.

And that's why seeing them make it through another year together brings tears to my eyes. It's not just about their success in the industry, but it's about their bond as a group. They have been through so much together - from being on a survival show to debuting as a group and facing the pressures of the entertainment industry. But through it all, they have remained true to themselves and each other. They have shown that they are not just a manufactured group, but a group of genuine and talented individuals who have worked hard to get to where they are today.

But it's not just about Stray Kids themselves, it's also about the beautiful people who support them. The STAY fandom is one of the most loving and supportive communities I have ever been a part of. We come from all walks of life, from different countries and cultures, but we are united by our love for Stray Kids. We celebrate their victories, we cry with them during their struggles, and we lift each other up when things get tough. It's truly heartwarming to see how this group has brought so many people together and created such a strong and supportive community.

In a world where there is so much negativity and hate, Stray Kids and their fans have shown that love and positivity can prevail. They have inspired me to be a better person, to chase my dreams and to never give up. I am forever grateful to them for saving me in ways they may never even realize. As long as they continue to make music and share their journey with us, I will always be a proud STAY. Here's to many more years of Stray Kids, their beautiful music, and their unwavering bond.

teehee the rant is crazy 🤪

#stray kids #i love them #i love you #skz stay #lee know #han #bang chan #changbin #felix #seungmin #i.n. #hyunjin #skz ot8 #8 is fate #happy anniversary #too many feelings #too many tags #why are I crying #someone take my phone away #someone take me out #someone take care of me

[justfriendsbestthings]

Something something empathy compassion even with the worst kind of people but also how some people just continue to disappoint us and it’s ok to take a step back from them but also something something empathy and compassion even for the worst of us. Not you, but maybe someone else.

#idk #no one expects Wille to forgive August ever #Micke providing a save space for Sara and then spitting in her face in broad day light several times #I just can’t #too many feelings #need 4-5 business days to process #will rewatch tomorrow #young royals #yr s3 stuff #yr s3 spoilers

[kaxenart]

I'M NO RAVEN.

I'M WALTER'S HOUND.

#armored core 6 #armored core vi #c4 621 #ayre #digital painting #TOO MANY FEELINGS #I'VE ONLY HAD WALTER FOR ONE MONTH BUT SOMETHING HAPPENED TO HIM SO I GUESS I GOTTA KILL EVERYONE #SORRY AYRE #I'M NOT WORKING FOR LESS MONEY AND LETTING ARQUEBUS GET AWAY #I'M NOT GONNA BE REASONABLE #I WANT REVENGE. #I'M HAVING TOO MANY FEELINGS HERE #I BUSTED THIS OUT IN ONE HOUR!

[goaliekisses]

“sid and geno are PERFECT for each other” ao3 has nothing on this 🥺

#help #too many feelings #evgeni malkin #sidney crosby #pittsburgh penguins

[ghostvalleymasters]

I would like to formally apologise for thinking that Cherry magic Thailand wouldn't be good. The original is one of my favourite shows ever, so I was really doubtful about the adaptation, especially since it was going to be thai, but I have never been happier to be proved wrong. This show is a gem. It's so good.

#cherry magic #cherry magic th #taynew are doing so well #i didn't thought they would be this good #i am pleasantly surprised #i thought i would never watch it just so it wouldn't ruin the original for me #but i am so glad i decided to give it a try #i also love the fact that they didn't just tried to copy everything from the original excatly #they made it their own #agh #too many feelings #moonchilds jukebox #bl series #bl shows

[fandomcrazyshit]

Nico begging and pleading and sobbing to Jason’s ghost telling him to let himself be brought back.

And Jason keeps telling him he can’t. Not that he doesn’t want to. That he can’t.

Nico keeps begging and Will is trying to pull him away and Jason sees he has tears slipping down his cheeks.

Eventually the son of Jupiter snaps. He tells him he planned on dying. He was going to anyway.

“No you could’ve avoided it! You could’ve ran away from it!”

“You can’t cheat fate, you know that!”

“Fate could’ve waited for another war!”

Nico’s breathing hard and the underworld goes incredibly still as the argue.

“Nico-“

“No! It didn’t have to be this way! Let me fix it!”

“I wanted it to be this way! I didn’t want to be alive!”

Wills eyes are filled with fear and he’s not looking at Jason as person, he really sees him as a ghost. The air goes cold and Nicos eyes dart across Jason for a long minute.

“I was alone. Again. I had nowhere to go. I don’t fit in the mortal world, I was failing school and I—I’ve lost everyone Nico.”

“You had me! You still have me!”

“Nico.” Jason’s voice is rough. “You have a boyfriend—a great person. You have people. A family.”

Nicos chest sinks. He’s always felt for Jason when it came to family.

“But Thalia—she was devastated…”

“She’ll get over it, not much to get over anyway.” There’s a bitter tone in his voice now.

“She has a better relationship with Percy and Annabeth and you.”

“I miss you.”

“I miss you too.”

There’s a brief moment where the two share a moment of silence. Jason smiles, just barely but Nico can’t with his lip wobbling so urgently.

“I can’t be the burden that drags down you’re happiness, all because I don’t fit in.”

“You do fit in.”

“Nico. I was abandoned for my whole life, just because I turned 16 doesn’t mean it changed. I’ve always been attached to fate.”

“We’re demigods, we all are.”

“It’s not the same. Nico I wasn’t happy all the time. I was happy with you because you were my only friend. That doesn’t mean I was the only reason you were happy.”

Nico let’s out a sob and the force of his feelings shake the ground and there’s the smoke of ghosts passing.

“I miss you. I want you back.”

“No you don’t. I wasn’t a person Nico. I was just a head full of thoughts and ideas for temples shoved into a body. I wasn’t me. I never have been.”

“Then come back and find you.”

“I don’t think there will be anything good to find.”

Nico let’s out a guttural scream that shakes the underworld’s walls to the point they crumble.

#jason grace #nico di angelo #will solace #solangelo #solangelace?? #perhaps #but yeah this happening?? #jason having issues and nobody knew #get him help #idc if he’s dead i don’t act like he is anyway #nico having unsettled feelings for him #JASON NOT THINKING HES A GOOD PERSON #jasons severe abandoment issues #like actually #angst #they’re so #idk #too many feelings #sorry for all the tags #hoo #the sun and the star

[theresnosafeharbor4myships]

People often mistake numbness for nothingness, but numbness isn't the absence of feelings; it's a response to being overwhelmed by too many feelings.

Maybe You Should Talk to Someone, by Lori Gottlieb

#emotions #numbness #quotes about emotions #overwhelmed #overwhelming #book quotes #quotes from books #life quotes #quotes about life #feelings #too many feelings #maybe you should talk to someone #lori gottlieb #personal

[rydiathesummoner]

Me: Ugh ok another random sidequest, looks like Gaute can't count or something

10 minutes later: *HYSTERICAL SOBBING*

#too many feelings #it still hurts #ffxvi #ff16 #final fantasy xvi #final fantasy 16 #final fantasy #otto #cidolfus telamon

[that-wildwolf]

them

#mass effect #shakarian #garrus vakarian #mass effect fanart #my art #still figuring out my new style #as well as generally having the ability to draw #snuggles #cuddles #sleepy times #they are in love they are married they are finally allowed to sleep in #i just #i have feelings about shakarian #too many feelings #far far too many feelings

[uccmd]

Can't believe they just dropped these photos like they expected us to act like absolutely normal mentally stable people who can saw it and go on like nothing happened without literally dying??

#ofmd #ofmd fandom #i can't #too many feelings #omg #fucking christ #our flag means death #our flag means gay #it's official

[soulinkpoetry]

Too many feelings, to swallow all of them.

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#bad habits #too many feelings #what do i do #soulinkpoetry #poetry #she writes #thoughts #feelings #poets on tumblr

[the-insomniac-emporium]

finishing Miranda's route for the first time like

i love her so much asdfgjkl;'

#now I just gotta get the last two cult endings #and oh god it's gonna be feelings again #holy shit man i need a nap #too many feelings #resident lover #resident lover spoilers #again just in case