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shining-gem34 · 5 months

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Path Choice: Hunt

||Long overdue thoughts regarding how DH obtains his paths and what it means to him. I did want to like write a drabble about it, but now have this short summary of my thoughts.

The Hunt

Initially, Dan Heng followed The Hunt because he feels like he should. Ever since he was born, he was educated of Dan Feng life and crimes (or more like drilled it into his head). Because he is Dan Feng reincarnation, Dan Heng had to bear his punishment.

By following the Path of the Hunt, the Reignbow Arbitor, Dan Heng feels that "he" (Dan Feng) can find redemption- forgiveness for his sins. That way, Dan Heng won't be haunted by that man past anymore.

There is some idea that Dan Heng met Lan in a dream before he was sentenced to banishment. Unable to recognize the vast space around him, he sees a shooting star moving too fast for his eyes to follow: Beautiful but terrifying. All he hears, as arrows of light descends toward him, are along the lines of: "A Scion of Permanence? The Azure Dragon who attempted to drag the Stars into the ancient sea. Very well. If you seek to redeem your crimes, then take my arrows and vow to annihilate all of Yaoshi spawns in your path."

Then Dan Heng wakes up, confused about his dream. He had no time to decipher it when he's escorted out of the Luofu; exiled. The first signs of Lan blessing are subtle:

The first signs of wind gathering in the palm of his hand (a gift to hide the waters running down his veins)

The confidence he feels unflinching in the face of danger as he wields his spear.

The whispers in the back of his mind (Dan Feng? Lan? Who?) that guides him how to keep his footsteps quiet, to find weaknesses against his opponents, and know when to retreat/fight.

But upon his first meeting with Blade as they clashed, Dan Heng realizes the impact of Lan blessings. The single-minded focus he had, his defenses shifting to pure offensive, and the aggressiveness in his strikes he never had before all because of Blade as his enemy. The fury and hate that tastes like bile in his throat does not belong to him.

It belongs to Lan, and it is Lan that controls him at this moment.

Dan Heng hates it. He hates it even more when he feels something else fighting within him- Permanence, Dan Feng maybe. Struggling to keep Lan power at bay, forcing Dan Heng to stagger in his movements and slow (barely avoiding the lethal strikes of Blade).

Oh, Dan Heng is sick to his core that he has no control at the moment. He hates the feeling that he is never free, even in his own body he has no autonomy.

The first time he stabs Blade in the heart, Dan Heng finally feels like himself. He throws up, the whispers in the back of his mind slowly fading. He believes it was Lan at the moment, but the many times after that...

Dan Heng only slayed Blade if the situation is necessary, and it was within his own choice. In a way, he feels like Lan is watching nearby and mocking him.

The thing is, an Aeon's blessing is also a curse for Dan Heng, he was unaware at the time that the beast he killed many times is the same man his previous incarnation, Dan Feng, dearly loves.

And remember, Lan only requirement for Dan Heng in exchange for his blessings (and allowing him to follow his path) is simple: Annihilate Yaoshi spawns in his path. :)))

Inspired by @everlastiingiimmortals and their amazing Jing Yuan Erudition Path HC's. >:333

#the guard of the express (dan heng)#lotus moon blooming from mud (il dan heng)#jade personal headcanons #||I will do Destruction Path later #||This is a hot mess. I was suppose to do a decent summary.#||I will go back and edit this later #||Remove some tidbits here and there that don't make sense #||I am sleepy #||Willow I still love your Jing Yuan HC's of how he got Nous attention and the impact it had on his life...In all the bad ways. :DDD #||This is long overdue zzzzz #||I also need to decide Dan Feng Path too #||Hints of XingYue #||Okay I was going to add that Dan Heng does love the Luofu despite the shit that happens to him but he considers teh Astral Express #||His home now #||As I wrote the “Follow teh Hunt as a path to redemption” thing #||I really went ahead and be like hehe punishment for Dan Feng where Dan Heng ends up taking that punishment too #||Note Dan Heng absolutely feels like shit because he's not sure if he's in control or something else is which #||adds to his fear when he starts to come to terms that he cannot escape Dan Feng past; that he won' be himself anymore but someone else #||OKay I shut up here now before the tags are filled with more rambles

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thedrotter · 12 days

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sweet sweet re:kinder community... I would like to ask y'all how you came upon the game and your experiences with it because i wanna know. im genuinely so curious to hear about other people's experiences and little opinions about this game because of how wild the game is (/pos) I'd love to hear it. do ramble to me about it

#re:kinder #not art #so in my case i once saw someone talk about it in a video and some scenes with the very vague context really struck with me #i was like wow...that is so sad... i wonder what goes on #but the thing is i watch videos talking about games like that ALLL THE TIME while im multi-tasking so i FORGOT FOR A YEAR?!?!?#until one day i was sick in pain on my bed could not move. and then it came to me. yes. “RE:KINDER. I SHOULD PLAY IT.” LIKE OUT OF NOWHERE #i will never understand how i dying of pain remembered a game i saw once BY NAME AT LEAST A YEAR LATER when jve heard of so many games #and you wanna know why it stuck with me. i saw in the video an image of the “as if id be reborn as a princess” line #i did not know the context but it was devastating #AND WHEN I PLAYED THE GAME when that scene game i was shocked to silence😭😭 BECAUSE I BASICALLY WENT COMPLETELY BLIND??#I DID NOT KNOW THE LITTLE KID WOULD BE THE ANTAGONIST???? AND THAT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH A SAD STORY??#like. i saw the sad coming i knew it was bound to happen yet i could have never been prepared for how hard it would hit me #I HAD TONS OF FUN but at first when i finished it i was so confused and so lost i was like welll.....what a game... TOO STUNNED FOR WORDS #then i thoughr of it for 20 minutes and bawled my eyes out and realized it was art #so when i got to my second playthrough i CRIED LIKE CRAZYYY😭😭 I WAS BLOWN AWAY IT REALLY HITS YOU #personally it admittedly hit close to home and while it made me bawl my eyes out it was also very comforting i felt very understood #AND IT WAS CRAZY FUN TOO i was not bored once the first time i played through it i was sleepy but i was so excited to keep playing😭😭#its funnt becayse i was initially apprehensive about playing cuz im sensitive to stories where sad things happen to kids #but i played it regardless because i was like “but what if its one of those scary media that hit close to home and i enjoy”#AND I WAS RIGHT. BUT NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I DID NOT THINK IT WOULD HIT AS INTENSELY AS IT DID😭😭 IT WAS MYCH MORE THAN EXPEVTED #many ways in which it impacted me but if i started listing them i would not shut up . so for now it is enough #IN SUMMARY WOW.. WHAY A GOOD GAME!! PLAY RE:KINDER!!!#i rambled more than i intended to i do apologize

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amee-racle-ofmyown · 2 years

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Can I request the impossible? Suit/Unknown (you choose) cuddles 0-0 🤲

Perhaps difficult, but by no means impossible, my dear! (at least I'd like to think not.) there is only one scenario in which I can imagine this happening and I think you probably saw it coming.

Suit Saeran x gender-neutral reader | Words: 1045

‘I’ll go now.’

‘Wait-!’ You’d scrambled from beneath the blanket and let the words fly out as if by instinct, or some inexplicable, deeply-rooted understanding that this may be the last time you would see Saeran as he was now, at least for a long time. Perhaps it was the fact that he himself had said you wouldn’t be seeing him for a while, and that he was leaving it to Ray to make you happy, but there was this nagging feeling that you needed to make the most of whatever time you had with him. ‘Saeran- don’t go yet.’

He flinched ever so slightly at your sudden outburst, his face still cast in the peaceful glow of moonlight.

‘Sorry- please- please stay a bit longer. Don’t leave.’

How ironic he found your plea to be; it had been Ray begging you not to leave and Saeran who insisted you would, and yet here you were. You had always been a strange one. Perhaps to you, even the company of a monster was better than the crippling feeling of being painfully alone? He supposed that he could understand this sentiment — maybe a little too well. Some part of his tired mind wondered if this had been the key to breaking you all along. Maybe leaving you isolated and abandoned in this room for days would have brought you a fraction of the numbing pain he carried. But even then, how long would he have been able to stand the insufferable emptiness that clawed at his being, tearing him up from the inside out, without the emotional rush your presence gave him? You confounded him, no doubt, but being around you made him feel alive.

Well, none of that mattered now.

He said nothing but his eyes remained steady on you. Somehow, they bore none of the sharpness you'd seen the previous nights. Instead, as he stood bathed in the soft glow of the moonlight, watching you silently, you felt a sense of the same weary sombreness that would often reside in Ray’s gaze.

The familiarity was comforting, and yet it made your heart ache.

‘Please… Can you stay a little longer?’

‘I… I’ve said all I needed to…’

‘I know, but I want you around. I care about you too, not just Ray. If you really want to leave, you can. But if it’s alright with you…’ you trailed off, shifting your position close to the edge of the bed so you were facing towards him and patting the space next to you.

He hesitated for a moment, then slowly, tentatively made his way the few steps from the open window to the bed, taking a seat at the very edge, staring at the star-speckled sky opposite you both. As he perched beside you (so close you could hear his breathing, close enough you could just about cup his cheek if you reached far enough, if only he’d let you) the mattress hardly sank under his weight. You found it odd: The preceding days he had made every effort to be as loud and as purposeful as possible, making his presence fully known as if in a constant and desperate battle for his very existence. Yet now, he barely took up any space at all.

‘Thank you, Saeran… Thank you for apologising.’

He remained silent. The gentle breeze from outside made the curtains sway and brought a pleasant coolness to your skin. He turned his head ever so slightly in your direction, but it was enough to meet his eyes. You could make out every eyelash, see the dark, tell-tale bags marking fatigue on his pale skin.

‘Saeran… when was the last time you slept properly?’

He raised an eyebrow slightly in response before you saw the corners of his mouth twitch upwards, unable to suppress a small smile.

‘You used to say that to him a lot, huh?’

He was deflecting, of course, but at least he was letting you have an actual normal conversation with him — which, now that you thought about it, was kind of a milestone for him.

‘Guess you two aren’t so different.’

‘Heh. I guess not.’

‘You can… rest here for a bit… if you want. If you really have to go later you should take some time to relax and lie down properly.’

His eyes widened a little and he shifted slightly. ‘I don’t think I should-’

‘But do you want to?’

He held your questioning gaze for several seconds. Eventually, he sighed and you shimmied over, making room for him as you leaned back against the comfy pillows, pink like everything else in this room, but now painted in a new light by the hour.

He began to lean down onto his side, a little uncertainly, and you gently guided his head to your chest, feeling his breath hitch in surprise.

‘Is this okay?’ you asked softly.

‘I-’

His cheeks were turning pink and he seemed to be caught off-guard, but after a moment you felt his arm encircle your waist nonetheless.

‘Relax.’

Under normal circumstances, he thought to himself, perhaps he should have chided you for telling him what to do. But there was a tenderness to your tone that he simply couldn't argue with even if he wanted to.

You began to stroke his crisp white locks, sometimes twirling the tufts in gentle circles around your fingers. He closed his eyes. Slowly but surely, his breathing evened out.

Several minutes passed in comfortable silence before he spoke in the tiniest voice you'd ever heard from him. ‘You’re caring for me… You always cared for me this whole time… even when I said and did those horrible things to you.’

The next words came out uneven, and you could have sworn you felt a teardrop or two on the fabric of your clothes.

‘...I don’t deserve this.’

You thought for a moment before responding, choosing your words carefully.

‘I think… you deserve another chance. I’m proud of you for taking accountability for your actions. And I know you don’t want to hurt me anymore. You deserve to feel safe and happy… And loved.’

His grip on you tightened ever so slightly, pulling himself as close as he could get to your warmth. He had cursed your scent so many times, but being surrounded by it completely, he only felt safe and calm. He wanted to inhale your warmth along with it.

This was bliss. This was the paradise he had been searching for.

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a-snowpoff · 2 years

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Self indulging with @flamingbiscuit ‘s Horrortale Papyrus named Cinzel. He a big boi at, gosh what was it… 8’5”??? fsdkfgksdgf… Either way I got the best seat in the house, may as well curl up into a ball like a cat about to take a nap, haha!

#papyrus #papyrus with fangs #undertale #horrortale papyrus #cinzel #ht!papyrus #lmao… that last tags tried to auto correct to hot!papyrus… which would also be accurate #too sleepy to come up with more funnee tags #my art #a-snowpoff #my non poff persona gasp #i forgot the coin in my hair… oh well~

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elegyofthemoon · 5 days

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can someone remind me to write up my thoughts about gallagher and the enigmata later or at least compile them somewhere i want to share it but also my Goodness i am sleepy as heck today and i have work tonight 😔

#and its a saturday so its gonna be busy asldfjkasdlkah #im just. im so sleepy man #and i have to wake up early too for work tomorrow so i just. Im going to Die between today and tomorrow count on it #but at least on monday-wednesday ill make myself catch up on sleep #love the work but on the downside MY SLEEP.....#i forgot if i said it here. idk where i was posting bro #but the other day i 100% the theme park and am close to 100% dewlight pavilion so i'll be nearly caught up with all information #that + still need to read #but im also nearly caught up with all the reading in penacony too so thats super fun and exciting !!#but because of that i have thoughts askjdfalh #most of it is towards gallagher and the past of penacony and the watchmaker but. you know alskdjfalskjh #avil plays hsr #hsr 2.1 spoilers #just in case o7 #i will say though #its wild i havent run into any information regarding the dreammaster at all really #the one who adopted sunday and robin #who is the dreammaster? why does the dreammaster and watchmaker have beef with each other? whats going on?#where did the shift come from between the watchmaker being the father of penacony to the family being in charge #since the family and the watchmaker are kinda against each other #(shakes the game) I WILL KNOW YOUR SECRETS SOON ENOUGH. AS SOON AS I AM MORE AWAKE ITS OVER FOR YOU.#i wish i had someone to ramble about ideas with and like bounce off of #WE CAN SOLVE THE MYSTERIES OF PENACONY! TOGETHER!#and then probably get our asses killed too by getting to close to the legacy 😔✌🏼 itd be the way of the truth

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satellite-starss · 2 years

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the post i typed deleted itself >:O/lh

m gonna post the ocs tomorrow then 🚶

for now..

lil teaser<33

bab.,

#satellite stuff ✨#satellitesart✨#i have some non oc content coming up too >:))#and hopefully some more nib asks…#anywaysssss sleepy time for me<33 #good nightttt<3333 #hope you all have good days/nightssss💛

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reluctanthurricane · 2 months

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Everyone remember for next year the Monday after DST starts is Daylight Recovery Day where you spend a day recovering from the hour that was STOLEN from you by the government

#I am going to keep coming up with holidays #I am legitimately taking tomorrow off next year #I thought of it too late this year #Drink a nice little drink in the morning after waking up from sleeping in #idk why I keep writing things on my blog like I have more than two followers who aren't my roommate #maybe if the void adheres to my holiday I'll feel validated #I'm so sleepy

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sexynetra · 19 days

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fruit dish and flower for the emoji ask 😊 and 24 for the interesting questions

Hmmm fruit I listed a few already but I’ll tack on more! I went through a bigggggg orange phase a month or two ago I could not get enough. And apples as long as they’re tart and crunchy (or a honeycrisp/honeycrisp adjacent) oh that fucks supremely!!! Dish is so hard there’s so many things I love but honestly I was talking to a friend about cucumber salads last night and I’ve realized that I eat that so much more frequently than like anything else I just fucking love cucumber salads (but also like. Lasagna and matzo ball soup and pizza and dumplings and all sorts of wonderful and amazing things I just love food). My favorite flower is probably the Japanese honeysuckle, much to the chagrin of native plant lovers 😂 but there’s really not a flower I can think of that I dislike like who doesn’t love flowers????

24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

Oh gosh uhhhhh I think that I have really grown as a person and learned a lot about myself over the past year which I think is really cool! I feel more confident in knowing who I am and what matters most to me :)

#ask #asks #ask game #glittertrail #hi I love u I love these asks #I am simply too sleepy to come up with any more witty fun tags #I am barely keeping my eyes open #my lunch was too big I’m in a food coma now

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quirkle2 · 2 years

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yeah no i asked what i asked and i still . hated myself for imagining it bc i really hate that the idea that the loving and caring family the links have built isnt meant to stay AJSJSAJAHJ i say i love angst but really. i love hurt/comfort and yeah no theres barely any of the comfort . ask ouchy questions get ouchy answers on my part </3 but still ty for indulging me (i say with equal amount of tears) !!

so now i am sitting patiently like a kindergarden kid about to hear storytime . that storytime is your ranch au :>> please ramble as long as you like <33

NO NO UR SO VALID I TOTALLY GET IT imso sorry if i made u sad . i made ME sad. we're both sad :(

kicks my feet up into the air i will cheer us up mark my words

ranch au ...................my beloved and most cherished ranch au. a lotta people prolly have this idea but here is my interpretation of it i suppose

to sum it up rly quickly it's the boys not getting a permanent goodbye and Instead sticking together and going to live on time and malon's ranch happily ever after <333 that's it that's the plot GVEAIYGV

sometime after wars is exiled from castle town and he's had a bit to reflect, he realizes that he's not gonna have Any place to stay when they separate. he hates thinking about their inevitable goodbye in any capacity, but he knows that at some point he's gonna have to come to terms w the fact that he won't have them forever (he will.) and they'll have to say goodbye for good (no.)

he's . obviously very troubled by this in general but That on top of the exile has him stressed and upset and worrying about the future and how he'll even continue without them. the chain can See he's upset—of course he is, he was just betrayed by his "friends" and banned from his home, stripped of his title—and luckily, time comes to da rescue :)

time knows wars is worrying abt living situations n such on top of the Betrayal(tm), and he,,, offers him a place, at the ranch :) they both know very well that that might not be possible—fate drags them around as it is, and they doubt it'll be kind enough to allow wars such a luxury—but the offer is there, if they find that it's possible. and wars isso fucking touched by that that he nearly cries GVIAEYGV

fast forward to . The Inevitable. in this au they Do say their goodbyes, and they Do separate and branch off into their different eras. everything goes as it should, according to fate. everything goes well Except the fact that there's only 8 portals. wars' isn't there. and that just,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

that kinda cements it in wars' head that he's truly been thrown away by his Entire Era. why else would fate not let him go back home? that means he's Truly not needed anymore, and just like artemis and impa, his world abandoned him when he stopped being useful. even fate says there's no point in going back. wars might as well not even exist there anymore

so he goes through time's portal instead. and for the next few days they live on the ranch and ,,try not to fall apart. time basically just lost seven of his fuckin boys, the one remaining one an absolute wreck and definitely working himself to the ground to keep his mind busy and Also to sate that fear that he'll be thrown out by time too if he's not useful enough (malon is more than welcoming to wars and so very happy to have him there and she'sso fuckin gentle w him u don't even know)

and for those few days, they both live w Giant holes in their chests. it feels utterly and dreadfully empty, to just continue life after a loss that great. they're both constantly reminded of the other boys and neither of them are sleeping much at all; wars and ledge were So incredibly close and wars constantly misses him every fuckin moment and all the work he's doing around the ranch is not doin a goddamn thing to distract him from it. time has to stop him from overworking himself too hard multiple times

but one night time's lyin in bed, unable to sleep and Feeling Empty, and then wars is suddenly banging on his and malon's bedroom door. he drags them outside—wars has his sword on him, that's not a good sign—and lo behold, when they step onto the porch, there is a portal in front of their house. just,,,,,,, sitting there. waiting

call it magic or a sixth sense of sorts, but for some reason, Both of them know this isn't a simple calling for another adventure. they just,,, know it in their bones. this isn't that. somehow, somewhere in their minds, time and wars both understand what fate is offering them

they quickly pack, fully arming themselves just in case they're wrong, and they say goodbye to malon in hopes that they'll only be gone a few days or so (they,,, hope to god)

they r dropped in skyloft. so far, promising

they track down sky. he bursts into tears at the sight of them GVUYEAGV at first he thinks it's another adventure, and they say while they can't Promise it's not, they r pretty sure—"like . 80% sure"— that it's smth else entirely. the Opposite, rly

sky goes w them. next up is four, a tearful reunion ensues, same explanation is given. it repeats and repeats and repeats until they,, eventually have everybody :) Everybody is back together—and yes, wars and ledge did run to each other and absolutely Tackle the other

one last portal stands before them. they don't know for sure it's the last one, but they Hope. they hope to god. they all,, hold their breaths and walk through it .

and they r deposited right back where they'd left at the ranch

there is . a sort of strange, underlying apprehension that resides w the sheer Holy Shit We're Together and Home. it's the fear—mostly and justifiably felt by legend, since he's experienced,, what, 7 journeys now ? give or take—that fate is simply gathering them together at a safe spot just to get ready to throw them into smth else

in reality they Can't know what the Entities behind these portals r doing, what their intentions are. they can only assume. but ultimately, even though legend honestly doesn't think his body can Make it through another adventure, if he's dragged into another one and it's w These idiots ? he'd go, and risk destroying his body and mind a lot more in the process, just to spend more time w them. it's not the ,, best circumstances to spend time w ur family, but hey . when else is fate gonna let him do it

malon sees them all back in one piece and races for them, and that's sorta the thing they need to snap out of their little shell-shocked trances and Celebrate. it's . a very big emotional rollercoaster GVYEAGV they cry and laugh and holler and while they're all distantly aware there is a chance this isn't the end of their journeys and there's more to go, they still celebrate. they're back together. gang's all here

and this lets the boys be boys. they all get to live in a normal household (as,, normal as a house full of traumatized heroes can get) w PARENTAL FIGURES . HALLELUJAH. and the younger boys get to be kids and the older boys gets to catch up on a childhood that was taken from them. they get to be normal people

eventually time expands the ranch house to accommodate them. it is a very big change—malon: "there are 8 extra people in my house and i love them all dearly but also there are 8 extra people in my house."—and yeah they definitely struggle to adjust a bit, but eventually everything calms and settles and it's Peaceful. they live peaceful lives, for once

AND YES I . I KNOW THIS HAS MANY MANY HOLES IN IT. but frankly my dear i do not give a damn HVGIEAGVA don't think about how all of them effectively left their families to join a different one. don't think abt that. they visit . it is canon in my eyes that the portals occasionally appear and let them visit their families. it's absurd but have u been paying attention ? so is everything else GVIEAYGV

ofc it's not all flowers n rainbows. they all just went through the fucking ringer w this last journey, and for people like legend who barely had any time in between each adventure to process the trauma, he's got,,,, a lot of catching up to do. they all struggle w a lot of different things, and even several months in they r still learning each others' boundaries when it comes to living in the same household

legend doesn't unpack his bag until 2 months in because he's fully convinced it's not over and he wants to be ready and packed when another portal comes to yank him from reality. hyrule's never,, lived in a home like this and he feels a bit out of place and unsure of what the etiquette is. twi in particular is absolutely terrified of the possibility that they could be dragged into smth else or separated again. both bc he's dealt w this before—being separated from midna between realms—and bc time, well.... the hero's shade thing is another can of worms entirely.

wars is still terrified he'll be thrown out despite the numerous reassurances from time, malon, And the others that they'd never. even though he had several years between the end of the war and the beginning of lu, a Few Years is not enough time to process and even Begin to heal from all the trauma that came from that war. he's still paranoid. he can't go outside at night, even within the safety of the ranch fences—yes, he'll admit he's developed a fear of the dark over the years, terrified of traitors lunging at him from alleyways or from around corners

they all still take time to spar outside, working hard to hone skills, and when time gently reminds them that they don't Need to do that anymore, they all ,, look so shocked and dumbfounded. a lot of them still keep emergency potions in their bags that they take to town. several of them r armed at all times w Some sort of weapon on them, even in the house

legend is still in Adventure Mode and keeps buying useful tools for journeys he might need, even though he's never going on one again. wild realizes that he doesn't have to mold his recipes around what will give them all the biggest buff in strength or defense; they don't need that anymore. he can just make whatever tastes the best w Whatever he wants

u get it. they all slowly learn to Live, instead of survive. they help each other heal in a safe environment, in a world they no longer have to babysit. time has his boys again. gang's all here

#qktalks #soul-of-rei #suncaster au #tw trauma #trauma tw #for da angst at the end there. if i need to add any more tags please do tell me !#I GOT SEVERAL ASKS... urging me to yell abt the ranch au #pspspsppspspsp y'all over here pspsppsspsppssp #IM SORRY IF I MADE PEOPLE SAD W THE LAST ASK . IMSO SORRY #i made myself sad too . deadass teared up when typing it out i cannot Handle wars being that sad #dw tho ranch au gotchu covered #wars is 100% the Happiest he's ever been in his life when the ranch au comes around #the most content he's ever felt. even when starting to process all that trauma #overall he's just . so much better #many of my drawings and fics r made w the ranch au in mind btw. im obsessed w it #i simply have never mentioned it before out of nervousness <3 #maybe not so much the fics in like a tangible visible sense but i do think abt it when im writing #and i think abt what impact Insert Fic Here would have on the ranch au and it's just a fun time yaknow #! TRADE OFFER ! u receive: qpps wars and ledge ranch au. i receive: nothing this isn't a trade this is a Gift #the uhhhhhh sleepy morning w da qpp drawing takes place in the ranch au . i love them #i've THOUGHT abt writing a fic for this au but it'd be one of those rly long ongoing ones #or maybe like . a series of shorter snippets rather than a continuous narrative #idk <3 #i Adore writing dialog and like general vibes tho . and that's what that fic would be made of so GVIEAYGV

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kunikidas-lost-glasses · 1 year

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Verlaine and Arthur being like parents to Chuuya and raising him pt. 1 - Calming down Chuuya down after having nightmares

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This takes place in the same AU as my BSD College!AU. There are no abilities and the characters obviously aren't as mentally fucked as in the manga.

Also Chuuya is 5 or 6 years old in this. Verlaine and Arthur are together.

TWs: Mentions of (child-) abuse, mentions of nightmares (obviously), mentions of crying (nothing is very explizit though. This is mostly really fluffy/ hurt/comfort with more comfort than anything)

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Some information on Verlaine's and Chuuya's backstory (can be skipped):

Verlaine and Chuuya lived together with their abusive father for quite some time but eventually they fled with the help of Arthur, Verlaine's boyfriend who he first met in high school. After the successful flight, they moved in together in a apartment and later in a small house. Arthur and Verlaine now took the role of parental figures to little Chuuya who was only 5 years old when they ran away and they really tried their best. Verlaine and Chuuya are in fact traumatized from their time with their abusive father but Verlaine and Arthur tried to give Chuuya a place where he finally could grow up in loving and safe surroundings.

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Chuuya struggled a lot with nightmares as a child.

Just like his big brother Verlaine, he would often dream about their abusive father from who they fled with the help of Arthur.

At first, Chuuya always tried to behave "like a strong boy" and tried to soothe himself, forcing himself to sleep again after he would wake up crying from another nightmare but he just couldn't go back to sleep again after such dreams.

Verlaine and Arthur eventually talked with the kid about it since they noticed how tired he was in the next morning and because he looked like he cried.

After he explained what happened, they told him that he was allowed to come to them for whenever he had a nightmare again.

They also ressured him that seeing comfort and help isn't something "weak", that they won't be mad at him for waking them up and that he isn't bothering them then.

Arthur told Chuuya that even Verlaine sometimes wakes him up after he had a nightmare, ressuring Chuuya even more.

Since then, Chuuya always came over to their bedroom when he had another nightmare.

His big sheep plush in his arms and his flashlight in the other, he waddled to their room, hesitantly climbing into thier bed and gently shaking either Verlaine or Arthur to wake them up.

Arthur often wasn't even visible since he was usually buried under 4 to 5 blankets as well as under Verlaines' blanket which he hogged in his sleep so Chuuya mostly woke up Verlaine first.

They were never mad at him, just like they promised him and comforted him

Verlaine often hugged Chuuya, letting him talk about the nightmare and cry as much as he needed to.

If he didn't wanted to talk about it at all, that was fine too. He would still hold his baby brother, rubbing his back and calming him down.

Arthur would often ruffle Chuuya's head gently, making his wild red locks even messier.

Sometimes Chuuya would sit down on Verlaine's lap after he somewhat calmed down, cuddling him while Arthur cheered Chuuya up, pretending like the sheep plush would talk with the kid, making silly little jokes and telling him through the sheep that everything was okay now and that he was safe here with them

Sometimes he'd also gently press the Sheep's soft nose against Chuuya's cheeks which were wet from crying, "kissing" his cheeks carefully, the plush soaking up some tears.

Cheering him up like this, often helped, making the kid giggle again.

Verlaine knew that Chuuya despised going back to his own room to sleep after a nightmare, so they let Chuuya sleep between them in their bed.

Lying between his brother who hugged him and Arthur who was something similar to a father figure for him too, often calmed Chuuya fully down, making him doze off again in no time.

Verlaine often told him bedtime stories in French or quietly sung or hummed old french songs to Chuuya when he struggled with falling asleep, carefully wiping some loose hair strands out of his face and wiping the last few tears away.

To this day, Chuuya still remembers the songs, the stories, the slight smell of freshly baked pasteries and bread of which his brother always smelled due to him owning a bakery, the familiar cold which Arthur radiated, how safe he felt lying between them in the arms of his brother, his sheep plush in his own arms pressed against Chuuya's chest, how warm the multiple blankets were which Arthur pulled over the three of them after they lied down and how Arthur sometimes went through his wild red locks with his cold but soft hands making him even more sleepy.

He cherishes those memories greatly, even though he had been horribly scared in these nights before.

He had always felt safe lying there.

He also remembered how his brother and Arthur said quietly but lovingly goodnight to each other in French, while Chuuya was half asleep and they thought that he would be fully asleep by now, calling each other 'my love', 'love' and 'dearest', whispering so that they wouldn't wake up Chuuya again.

He could also often feel Verlaine reaching out with one arm to Arthur, probably cradling his face with one hand and caressing his cheek with his thumb before letting go of him and hugging Chuuya again.

They would only ever fall asleep after they were sure that Chuuya was peacefully asleep.

Especially Verlaine who had always been way too protective of Chuuya.

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Bonus (Skk):

By now, Chuuya might be 22 and in college but he never forgot the songs, the stories and as mentioned previously, he cherishes the memories greatly.

Sometimes he still quiey hums the songs to himself to calm himself down when he's feeling stressed or anxious.

They surprisingly also work to calm down his boyfriend Dazai Osamu.

One time, where Dazai shot up from another nightmare, screaming and being dangerously close to hyperventilating, Chuuya of course calmed him down, held him close and after Dazai somewhat calmed down again, he lied back down with him, still hugging him (and Dazai still clinging to him anyways).

Dazai's breathing was still a bit hitched as he pressed his face against Chuuya's chest, holding onto him as if his life depended on the redhead.

Chuuya continued to calm him down using nicknames like 'love', 'darling', 'princess,'' and '' 'Samu" while talking to him, hugging him even thighter, reassuring him that he's safe here and that he won't leave him.

Eventually he started to play gently with Dazai's hair, still holding him close and he started to quietly sing the songs Verlaine always sang to Chuuya when he had a nightmare. He knew them word for word, the melody being burned into his memories.

It did in fact, calmed Dazai down more and more until he got sleepy again, his dead grip which he had on Chuuya slowly loosening a bit and his breathing becoming calmer and more even again.

After a while he managed to doze off again.

After he fell asleep again, Chuuya stayed awake a bit longer despite being sleepy, to make sure that his boyfriend was really fully asleep and wasn't having any nightmares again.

He then buried his face into Dazai's messy locks, whispering quietly how much he loved him and dozing off too shortly after, still hugging Dazai holding him close and tangling their legs together.

Since that night, Chuuya always hummed or sang the songs to Dazai when the latter was having trouble falling asleep again or when he woke up from a nightmare once again.

#The amount of hcs and drabbles I've written which end up with the characters are falling asleep is kinda funny #Writing hcs and drabbles like these makes me feel all sleepy and warm #Verlaine is actually a good brother in this and is just way too overprotective #I need to write more Rimlaine hcs #Don't come at me for having the hc that Chuuya calls Dazai princess #After watching Dazai literally referring to himself as snow white in dead apple my sister and me made up the hc that Chuuya calls him that #At first he wanted to use that nickname to tease him during their daily bickering but since Dazai actually liked that name #He continued to use it as a nickname for him #Hurt/comfort #More comfortable than hurt #Fluff #Fluff so much fluff #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou gay dogs #bungou stray dogs hcs #bsd headcanons #bsd dazai #bsd dazai osamu #bsd chuuya #bsd chuuya nakahara #bsd arthur rimbaud #bsd rimbaud #bsd verlaine #bsd paul verlaine #rimlaine #sokoku #skk #chuuya x dazai #dazai x chuuya

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