🚨SPOILERS FOR FANTASY HIGH JUNIOR YEAR EPISODE 4!!!🚨
Dimension20 "Fantasy High Junior Year"
Episode 4 "Under Pressure"
Timestamp: 1:01:29
Video Length: 3min. & 17 sec.
Ayda sends an ancient scroll to Fig
This was SO RANDOM! 😂
I truly was like "What in the world is going on right now?" 😂🤣💀
Everyone's reactions were so perfect!! 😂😂
Emily just immediately laughing 😂
"Sir Davin of the Order of the Sacred Scroll"
😭😭😭
Fig: "Thank you. You have served your purpose"
😂😂😂
Fig: "You never once peeked?"
I love how that's Fig's first question 😂😂😂
Sir Davin "My brother tried to peek, breaking the sacred vows he took, and I cut him down where he stood."
RIPPPP!!! POOR DAVIN!!! 😭😭😭
Fig: "You could have peeled"
Sir Davin: "Traitor that he was"
Sir Davin: "1,500 years of knights in service to this cause. I am free."
I love how Adaine's the first one to be like "well- open it!" 😂😂
It's a cute letter to Fig from Ayda! 😭😭🥺🥺❤️❤️
Ayda's letter: "Darling Paramour, trip is going okay. Miss you lots and lots. PS, my dad keeps saying 'basketti' instead of 'spaghetti', and I said 'is that a bit?' and he won't admit it's a bit, and it's driving me nuts. My heart burns for you with an eternal fire that will never dim. XO, XO, XO, XO, XO, XO, XO, your paramour, the wizard Ayda Aguefort."
Stat nerd leila is back in business with a comparison of SKZ and PTV's discographies because I love both of them and today is skz's 5th birthday so it's more practical for me because PTV have been around for long enough that I'll just round it up to 16 years.
So I've decided to sort this into two part, first up is the number of albums and songs and the second part is listen time. Let's just get into it.
Albums/Songs
SKZ:
Okay so for their part I included every official Korean comebacks (I am series, Clé series, GO Live/IN Life (I just added the seven songs that weren't on GO Live to it), NOEASY, ODDINARY and MAXIDENT), all the ALL IN and THE SOUND songs that aren't anywhere else and every song from SKZ-Replay. We therefor have:
Number of albums: 13
Average amount of albums per year: 3 (13/5~=3)
Number of songs: 130
Average amount of songs per year: 26 (130/5=26)
Average amount of songs per album: 10
(130/13=10)
PTV:
For this one I took all of their albums with the deluxe version of Selfish Machines.
Number of albums: 5
Number of albums per year: 0.3125 (not rounding it up because seeing 0 album per year just makes me sad and its lowkey writing 0325 without the 1 and I am a whore for that song so deal with this)
Number of songs: 59
Average amount of songs per year: 4 (59/16~=4)
Average amount of songs per album: 12 (59/5~=12)
Listening time:
SKZ:
Pretty much the same rules apply here. I put all the songs in question onto a playlist on Spotify and looked at the listening time.
Total listening time: 7h 1min
Average listening time per song: 3min 14s (((7*60)+1)/130~=3.2~=3min 14s)
Average listening time per album: 32 min (((7*60)+1)/13~=32)
PTV:
This was pretty much the same as before.
Total listening time: 3h 43min
Average listening time per song: 3min 47s (((3*60)+43)/59~=3.8~=3min 47s)
Average listening time per album: 44min (((3*60)+43)/5~=44)
So yeah, that was it for the useless stats of the day. I had fun doing this and I hope this useless bit of information brings you some kind of fulfilment. Take care and have a good day/night
Switched up PT excercises on Monday and I gotta say: OW. Currently feels like it is moving me backwards, but, I am still better off than I was three weeks ago, so I will comply; but I am taking lots of notes.
Oh!! But I can sneeze without searing pain for the first time in two years.
I do need to set new goals for PT. Apparently "be able to sit for an hour without pain" and "able to lean over bathroom sink" were suprisingly achievable. I have most likely been suffering for months due to an item that was had quick relief for those issues. The rest of the pain I am pretty used to. I don't like it, but I am familiar with it. I have not thought about it being in the way of things .... I know it is, but I usually assume I CAN push through if I have to. Not that I should or have actually been able to.
I know that I need to make them life/work/hobby centered of I will not connect with the goals.
#1 Be able to complete my typical former work duties. This can be tested using gym weights. Requires lifting 35lb straight up at arms length, arms wider than shoulder width. Requires 45lb farmer carry per arm. Requires 35lb shoulder press. Requires holding a 10lb weight at arms length for 5min. Note: job description lists "must be able to lift 75lb easily" note - this does not include the physical requirements for the roll-o-meter (35lb hang clean, and shaking the 35lb object for 3min)
This is currently prevented by hip and back pain. Most muscle should be there. Currently cannot do any of these actions with 1/4 the weight without feeling repercussions. Rick, the 66 year old vet who took shrapnel to his hip and has a heart condition can complete all these tasks... There is NO way his hip is better than mine, so why can't I fight through the pain?
#2 I would like to walk up without hip weakness 4 out of 7 days.
#3 I would like to increase balance/stability. Measured by ability to put pants on without sitting down easily and consistently for a week. I really hate sitting to put on pants. It drives me nuts.
My goals seem so flippant. Like luxuries. Why does trying to rid myself of pain make me feel so guilty???
A return train journey from Cardiff saw me travelling through the Severn Tunnel. Opened in 1886, this train tunnel is 4.3 miles long, below the Severn Estuary. It took us about 3mins 42 seconds to get through. I recorded directly onto my phone (mono) onto the Zoom Handy Recorder App, placing the phone on the small shelf table by the window. The top of the window was open. In the background you can hear other passengers coughing and the sound of a particularly annoying guy listening to something on his phone very loud without headphones. The quality of sound in the tunnel changes at 1:24 suggesting a larger space before becoming closer again at about 1:50. The recording opens just as we enter the tunnel and finishes a few seconds after we leave.
San Diego Unified Superintendent prepared for a new school year of success
Summer vacation is just about over for students in San Diego Unified School District.
They are scheduled to return for the fall semester on Monday.
Superintendent Dr. Lamont Jackson sat down with KPBS Education Reporter M.G. Perez for a one-on-one interview and for a preview of the new school year.
Jackson said he is ready to welcome back students with a priority on their mental health.
“I think we're doing a much better job of exposing individuals, human beings to what they have been suffering with in silence. It's much more public. With that comes self-referrals. So, we're getting more students articulating what they're feeling," Jackson said.
The district is hiring more counselors and continues to empower its department of youth advocacy which provides support for children dealing with everything from gender identity to bullying, and cultural sensitivity issues.
Teachers are returning to the classroom this semester with a historic 15% pay raise over the next two years. That's just one highlight that came from negotiations that dragged on for more than a year
“They deserve that and more," Jackson said. "And we have said we want to be the highest-paying District in this County and we are very proud of our 100% benefits package. But at the core, it's a belief that our educators and our staff members deserve it. First and foremost, we as a district have to see our employees as valuable.”
This year, there will be a significant increase in the number of campuses now designated as Community Schools.
“When I was hired as Superintendent the community spoke, and the community said we need to support the whole child," Jackson said. “It's about bringing the resources of the community into the school as a hub. So, when you talk about mental health, you have support there. When you talk about physical health, we have on-site clinics. Look at Hoover, they have dental medical facilities, right on campus."
With the help of community organizations, private business, and state funding, San Diego Unified goes from just 5 community schools to 15 community school campuses across the district, this fall.
There is also the much anticipated guaranteed arts funding for every public school in California. Voters approved Prop. 28 last November which is expected to provide up to $1 billion from the state budget annually.
“We're going to hire more educators and we're going to have more programs. We're going to get instruments into the hands of our children. We're going to get great music and we are going to make sure that the Arts and academics are taking center stage together.”
Dr. Jackson and his wife did have a brief summer vacation to Maui. Their flight back home to San Diego took off just hours before the first fires started, leaving him bittersweet.
"We enjoyed (the vacation). But you know, my other thought was, gosh, I want to go back and I want to help," Jackson said. "I even had a crazy thought that we could do some hybrid learning and offer to the schools to Zoom some learning from here. We help out. And those who helped the most lost the most and it's sad. So you asked me about vacation I got away for a few days but I returned with a heavy heart." *Reposted article from KPBS by M.G. Perez on August 18, 2023
**View the KPBS video interview with Dr. Jackson at the following YouTube link: https://youtu.be/kPXldMtFO-M?si=oHXgkFdIjinV7wk2 running time 3min 48sec
This class was a chance for everyone to introduce themselves, their gender, and what types of music we draw our inspiration from. It was also an introduction to the course, what we will be learning throughout, and when and what our assignments will be, and what needs to be admitted. We will also be required to keep weekly journals, which I have chosen Tumblr Blog to present my journals.
We will also be required to create a Glossary, when and how I do not yet know, but we went through a comprehensive list of musical technique words that we will be learning about throughout the course, which I think will become part of the Glossary.
We were then required to fill out an Artist's Statement that asked 8 important questions that relate to ourselves as musicians, where we draw things like inspiration and talent from, where we would like to be, and see ourselves as musicians. We then had to present a 3min talk about our statements, in which I got to talk about my dad being a drummer, my 1st musical performance playing a djembe when I was 4 at a kid's birthday party, my 3 creative influences, my dream studio, and how I would love to have my own movie studio, where I would be the director, producer, and composer, to direct whatever I wanted.
In reflection for this exercise, I think I would answer question 3 differently, the question being,
Q. Who would you list as your top three strongest creative influences?
For this question, I took it to mean we had to name 3 musicians or bands that we liked, but now I would answer the question with what inspires me to write music. Being
Answer:
1 Reading SciFi Comics
2 Listening to Classical Music
3 Going for walks in the rain
Then we had to do a group activity which involved splitting up into 2 groups and writing a song using the techniques we had learnt about earlier in the class. I got to play the drums on the track with 5 other students and was part of the call-and-answer vocal.
I continue to be disappointed by these hospitals. Story time below the cut.
I had to go to a preadmission testing appointment today, something i never had to do for any prior surgery. They did not tell me i needed to register first so i was directed to go downstairs then they told me i had to go back up to registration.
I go to registration and i had to answer personal questions in front of strangers like my sex assigned at birth and my sexuality. Took quite a long time. I'm thankful I carry around my insurance card bc that was not told to me to bring. 15min past my appointment time i finally got to go to my actual appointment. I was directed down a long hallway to a place where there was nobody at the reception. So i had to go in the back offices and call for someone to check me in.
I had to have my blood pressure checked and an EKG. Then i had to sit in waiting again for like probably 10+min before being taken back to another person. She asked me a bunch of stuff i had answered approximately 1 million times at this point. Literally nothing seemed to be anything that couldn't have been done literally the day of especially since i have to show up an hour and a half before my actual surgery but sure. Again info they did not share with me before was that my actual surgery wouldn't be until 730am despite my appointment being at 6. Whatever.
Then she told me I needed a covid test despite having no symptoms or risks bc I've been bed bound for 3 months. Luckily i was able to get it done immediately. Unfortunately it was the type that goes allllll the way, the first time I've had that type done. It also had to be done in a parking garage where i couldn't hear a single damn thing the nurse was saying through their mask and plastic shield. I got the gist that i will hear from them if i have covid. Which i know i dont. What's more annoying is i literally have a back stock of home tests i could have used if they had just told me.
Additionally the directions initially given to me for the sanitizing cleaner were completely different from what the nurse told me. Initial direction: shower once the night before and one the morning of. Use special soap and scrub surgery spot for 3min. Directions given to me today: use it FOUR TIMES before surgery, use special soap and leave it on for a while before rinsing off.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Yanno what else? Literally never directed to do this for my other surgery for my mastectomy. Maybe because they probably did it for me. Like this place should.
So far not a great experience. After Tuesday though i am free to just stay home and recover. I'll have to make sure my disability leave is extended but that shouldn't be a problem. I'm anticipating about 2 weeks at least. I also anticipate I'll have to go see my PCP before i can return to work to ensure I'm healing well.
My most exciting anticipation tho is being able to walk normal. I think i will cry when i wake up from surgery bc I reckon ill be able to tell immediately the difference.
Gaaaaah MONTHS of this hell is finally coming to a close.
HELP THE GAME TURNED INTO A KID ICARUS UPRISING FLYING SECTION BUT IN SPACE
(…pretty sure I bought this game thinking it was a kiu clone, actually. Guess I wasn’t too far off after all XD)
…so apparently said 3min section was just the intro of the level. Ouch.
Nvm it was the entire level, the end part is just exploration to find all secret medals (honesty half-expected that I‘d have to catch them mid-flight, so this is pretty chill)
What do you mean I have enough medals to unlock upgrading my stats to level 9 half of these never got off level 1-
Aaaand I just remembered why I didn’t play this game since December. The next level took me 23min. Reminds me of Hyrule Warriors- fun while playing but man am I exhausted once the chapter‘s over. Also there’s a hidden island up there I had no idea how to reach, not sure if it’s a remnant or the Wii version that had unlimited flying stamina or just a secret- so hello second try…later. Maybe.
idk maybe i also missed it, but i don't remember anyone mentioning they had a nice interaction with her
You could just go to a whatever fan page, open a photo taken with a fan, check the source and go on their personal profile. It took me 3mins. I’ve opened the first fan page it was shown to me typing kelly piquet and found 2 pics with fans
There’s no post on the guys profile, maybe it was posted as a story. Anyway, they look happy and the guy shared the pic, I doubt it was not a nice interaction, do you?
I’m too lazy (yet still less lazy than you) to go on searching for others. But here you go
Brennan: "Let's do any Mystery rolls that we have here at the very end."
Emily: "I have a mystery thing I wanna do."
Brennan: "Cool."
Emily: "I basically want to- if we can't do it on campus, I don't have to do it on campus. I can do it around the town. I basically want to disguise myself as various eligible high schoolers and probe about Ruben's dating past."
Brennan: "Oh-hooo! Go ahead and gimme a Mystery roll. This is your third roll, so the DC's 15, but successes past a certain point will get you even more. You can give me Perception, Investigation, or Insight."
Emily: "All right, I think the goal is that I was gonna try and use my Actor feat, but okay, I'll do that."
Brennan: "I'll let you use the Actor feat to get advantage, but not to use your Performance skill. Cool?"
Emily: "Okay." *rolls dice* *scoffs*
Brennan: "You could take a stress." (Why is he so evil?! 😭✋)
Emily: "I'll take a stress. I'm gonna take a stress."
Lou: "You can take a stress."
Emily: "I want this."
Ally: "Ah, a stress pusher."
Lou: "You could take a stress."
Emily: *rolls dice* "That's 19."
Brennan: "That definitely passes. You ask about Ruben's-"
Emily: "And like, I wanna go through all of his lyrics and basically get a profile of what he might be attracted to."
Brennan: "You talk to a student. There's a Triton student at Aguefort whose name is Lashra. And you see she says like,"
Lashra: "Oh, Ruben's dated a lot of people. Like, he's in everyone's DMs. He's, like, constantly talking. I haven't heard anything that's, like, that gross beyond, like, what you would expect for someone who, like, got famous quickly."
Fig: "Yeah, no, I meant more like, does he have a type?"
Lashra: "I would say anyone who thinks he's cool, straight up. I haven't seen like a strong type. Oh! He talked a lot about this girl at the beginning of the year, Wanda."
Fig: "Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, I heard she's super hot and mysterious."
Ally: "Wanda Childa?!"
Lashra: "Yeah. Oh! He asked me if I knew if Wanda was gonna be at Frosty Fair."
Fig: "Okay. That's crazy. I'm so jealous of Wanda."
Lashra: "Yeah, he was like, 'I hope she's there.' 'Cause he's- I dunno if you heard, he's headlining."
Fig: "Is he?"
Lashra: "Yeah, he's headlining at Frosty Fair."
Fig: "Interesting."
Lashra: "Mm-hmm."
Fig: "Cool"
Emily: "So I wanna use that information to...I took the Dream spell and I wanna, just every night, give him dreams of Wanda."
(Ally laughing 😂😂)
Emily: "Just dreams of Wanda saying how good he is. Dreams of like-"
Ally: "You're invading a teenage boy's dreams. Inserting your alter-ego."
Emily: "My alter-ego."
Brennan: "My alter-ego."
Murph: "Alter-emo." 😂😂
Ally: "Alter-emo!"
Emily: "I think it's like- who did 'Tree of Life?' Like, Terrence Malick, kind of flashbacky. Her in fields."
Brennan: "Yeah."
Emily: "Her showing him her poetry tattoos, her putting hair behind her ear. It's just, like, everything is montages of that."
Brennan: "So you're incepting Ruben with Wanda Childa."
Emily: "Like a buildup of this crush on Wanda Childa."
Brennan: "Incredible. You successfully do that."
Siobhan: "Why is she always under a white sheet?"
Emily: "It's always like, yeah. It's always over her shoulder, like that Instagram travel."
(Siobhan and Ally laughing)
Lou: "Your mouth is talking, but it's just the sound of waves crashing."
Zac: "She's on the end of a pier?"
Emily: "Yeah. It moves in and out."
Siobhan: "Are there piers? Aren't we in a landlocked city?"
Emily: "Just like, her in the passenger seat doing this in the window."
Ally: "omg."
Brennan: "Incredible. Like a week after that, a single hits the thing of 'Not All Who Wanda Are Lost.'"
You know, before going into this episode I reminded myself this was the first episode of a new era, the first episode completely made by the new team.
So with that in mind my expectations were "Okay, let's see what they've got."
And oh boy did they surprise me.
DISCLAIMER: this text post is long af, not kidding.
1. THE INTRO SCENE.
You guys have no idea how glad I am that we got Mac doing a usual MacGyvering in his house. It's been ages since they implemented this format of showing his dynamics outside Phoenix and around his house.
I wasn't worried about the proposal thing at all. Guys, you have to accept that MacRiley was always going to happen after that 4x04 episode.
There was also the fact that this was the intro scene (usually the most important plot issues happen in the outro scene), Bozer's weird reaction and the melancholic audio cue.
If that proposal was happening, they would've made it more uplifting.
(I gotta say that watching Monica Marcer and the official MacGyver account making damage control in Twitter 3mins into the episode was a funny experience)
So my initial questions about Mac wanting to propose were: "what are his motivations?" and "how is this not going to work out by the end of the episode?"
The second question we got the answer later on. The first question remains unanswered. If we take on Mac's words, he says:
Mac: Unexpected, I know, I know. But that's why I like about it. You know ever since I lost my dad and Jack I've been thinking about the bigger picture. A commitment to make things work it's exactly what Desi and I need. A grand romantic gesture. *cue melancholic music*
Here we're presented with a bunch of things worth analysing, in my opinion.
He's trying to see the "bigger picture" which, for me, it means he's trying to tackle down different issues from his life with one specific, efficient action [the proposal]. Those issues being:
> his current romantic relationship: make is aware they have an inconsistent relationship
> his performance at work: he needs balance between his personal affairs and his work, which is based on saving the world in a daily basis and for that he needs to be focused.
> dealing with his past losses: to my understanding, saying "ever isn I lost my dad and Jac I've been thinking about the bigger picture" means that he doesn't want hopelessness to take over him, he wants to keep on moving and being proactive about his life.
So... you have to understand that in some sort of way, this proposal thing is a signal that Mac is healing. In some sort of way, if you were in Mac's shoes you would see that it was a positive thing for him. A step forward.
The thing is, we [the audience] have an extended understanding of the situation and we know that an engagement would be an incredibly rushed decision.
As well as it is that Mac's trying to move forward, he obviously hasn't been able to pinpoint the true issue behind his relationship with Desi. He isn't wrong about them lacking in the commitment department, but forcing the relationship to scalate isn't the right move. He should be asking himself: "Why are we avoiding commitment?"
And that's when he'd find out that they have very deep and important trust and communication issues.
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2. Moving on. MURDOC.
Russ: I can process it more efficiently by having it all spread out ahead me, you know. I reckon see the bigger picture at once.
This is when I realized that the episode was centered on this whole "bigger picture" idea. Russ struggles to see the full picture until the very end and Mac finds out that he hasn't been seeing the full picture of his life at all by the end of the episode.
Fast forward, the team's in Mexico, Riley knows about the ring already and she has already had the talk with Bozer in which she refers to her feelings for Mac in a past tense.
Then Murdoc appears.
And as if the episode wasn't already a rollercoaster after Mac's reveal, now Murdoc shows up to put everything upside down.
First I gotta say, man Dastmalchian is SUCH A GOOD MURDOC. Excellent actor. The way he delivers his lines, his facial expressions, all of it make an original and very entertaining Murdoc.
He always gives me such a Andrew Scott's Moriarty vibes and I love it.
Secondly, his dynamic with Andrews: *cheff kiss*
I loved how Andrews was so over Murdoc's theatrics, to the point his facial expression screamed "Why did I even reclute this guy" LOL.
Back to the story.
This is something I was hoping it wouldn't happen but at the same time I don't see another way it could've happened which is the explanation behind Murdoc's escape and how Phoenix didn't know about it.
Because what they told us is that the FBI didn't let them in on Murdoc's escape, right? Does that imply that the FBI has a corrupt agent in charge? Does it imply that the order of not letting Phoenix in came from above? Maybe someone with higher clearence than Matty? A politician? Governement conspiracy?
It smells like plot hole, tbh. I feel like the Murdoc's escape is a classic "it is what it is". We'll see if they come back to this in later episodes.
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3. BIG SECRET REVEAL 1.
By now we're at the point of the rollercoaster where you're going up and up and up. Your tension building more and more as you're getting close to the drop.
Bozer and Riley's audio was the drop.
You know, during this scene I jumped from my seat, closed my eyes, cringed, squealed, my heart accelarated, forgot how to breathe...
As a person who is a little bit bipolar when it comes to romance (I can be very shy about it or very outspoken about it) that scene made me SO UNCOMFORTABLE.
Imagine having your feelings exposed not only to the person you have feelings for but also his girlfriend who happens to be your friend, your boss and the criminal that's threatening to kill hundreds of people.
I was like: "Not like this!!"
And Mac's reaction didn't help because of the lack of it. I don't know what I expected but his slightly monotone reaction broke my heart.
Thankfully, I've recovered since then and I don't mind that it happened that way.
Still, imagine how suffocating it must've been for Riley. That idea was what made me so uncomfortable and I think that's what they were going for. They wanted to make it as straightforward and awkward as possible.
But it doesn't end there. It's followed by Mac revealing the ring to Desi (and Riley). Mac's in "fuck it" mood and Desi kinda panics.
Little side note here, using GUM and a DIAMOND to break a bullet proof glass... BIG YES. That's an intrinsic MacGyverism.
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4. BIG SECRET REVEAL 2.
Then we get a breather from this drama by introducing another drama, Leanna's death.
Bozer's reaction to the news was heartbreaking for my already heartbroken heart.
I have my suspicions as to why they decided to kill her... The other episode completely made by the new team was the Quarantine one (5x06). During that episode Mac and Bozer bond over Bozer's pain. After learning about Bozer's mom, Mac chooses to share a piece of his own pain with him.
So, hear me out, I think they writers are planning to help Mac process his own grief THROUGH Bozer's grief. Keep in mind that we still have a Bozer centered episode coming up.
This is just a theory. I may be wrong, but I think it may be right too.
Back to the episode.
Once again we see a three dimensional Russ. He does something accordingly to his own judgement thinking it's the right decision [hiding Leanna's death], he realizes he screwed up, he gives Bozer a very heartfelt apology about it.
Henry's acting talent shone with this narrative. Actually, most of the actors had the chance to shine THANKS to the NARRATIVE. Murdoc, Andrews, Desi, Mac, Russ and Bozer... they all had their highlight moments (I'll talk about Riley later).
Parenthesis here... THE NARRATIVE HAS RETURNED THEIR SOULS TO OUR DEAR CHARACTERS!
WOW, they aren't brooding, angry, sad or whiny ALL THE EFFIN TIME. ABOUT TIME!
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5. LAST ACT.
For the third or fouth time in this episode my heart broke again when Mac was friendly towards Riley, after she explained herself. It really felt like he was friendzoning her.
But here's something to point out. Riley visibly relaxed when he reacted that way. What does that tell us?
> She had been so tense up until that point. Imo, she's on the defensive now. You can even see it in her wardrobe, make up and hairstyle choices. They're very contrasting to Riley's most vulnerable moments in this show (like when Audrey broke up with her).
Riley has had a year to sort out her feelings. We see in this episode that she spoke about them in a past tense. Whether she achieved it or not is unknown. We just know that she has at least tried to move on.
> She was mostly afraid of ruining her close relationship with Mac (who's her only family, along with Bozer) and her friendship (?) with Desi. We've seen it over and over again: Riley DID NOT WANT to get in the middle of them.
Keep that in mind as we go in the last scene.
It took me a while to figure out a possible thread of thought inside Mac's mind. Why did he look at the ring and decided to go to Riley's house? It really didn't make sense to me.
One moment he was thinking about his proposal and somehow that lead to him having the necessity to know if Riley still had feelings for him? Why??
My theory is that he went to her apartment for permission.
His question was a way of asking Riley for permission to propose to Desi. It was a way of reassuring himself that proposing was still the right decision.
In a way, he could also be fishing for an excuse to not do it [the proposal].
Because now he has doubts. He's confused, unsure.
Mac asks:
Mac: Hiding your emotions and letting it pass. Did it go away?
What could her answer have been? Here I wanna go back again to Riley being emotionally defensive, added her strong desire of not wanting to be in the middle of Mac and Desi's relationship.
I think she would've said "Yes, it worked."
Because it also lines up with my idea that the love triangle has changed from "Riley's a better match for Mac" to "Mac needs to win Riley's heart".
Riley's done her job. She worked out her feelings. Now it's time for Mac to sort out his humongously messed up internal self and reignite her spark. That's what I think.
Also, if anyone has any idea on how the song that played in that scene relates with the moment please share it with me because I don't really understand the song choice lol.
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6. ADDITIONAL COMMENTS
Desi. I'm not sure what's going on in her mind. She seemed stressed out by the ring, very serious about Riley, lenient with Mac... I'm really not sure.
My guess would be that she doesn't want that type of commitment but she wants to be with Mac yet she can't ignore Riley so does that mean she has to end it with Mac? That's the thought process she may have had? Idk...
I'm glad they let her be mature about it, with no overreactions, no whining, no blaming, nothing of that style that we're used to see in her.
I'm also glad about that moment when she defeats Murdoc and Andrews. THAT'S HOW YOU WRITE A TOUGH DESI. It was filmed with such a gracefulness and elegance. I liked it.
From a MacDesi point of view, she's probably being open minded and giving him space and waiting for him to come back to her... but somehow I got the vibe that she's actually... running away?
Lastly but no less important.
THE HISPANIC REPRESANTION OMG. RUSS SPEAKING SPANISH AND THAT CUMBIA MUSIC FILLED MY HEART WITH SO MUCH PRIDE!!! :')
hey liz!! last night i randomly fell asleep at 11pm which is rly early for me lol. and i woke up around 4am and checked my phone and saw my bf had snapped me a couple times. so i responded and was like “sorry i fell asleep. love you” and i checked his location on snap and it said he was active on it like 10mins before i snapped him. and i knew he was playing video games when i passed out so i figured he had just stayed up playing his game because he usually goes to bed at like 2am at the very latest. and then i couldn’t fall back asleep so i stayed on my phone and i checked his location again 20mins later and it said he was active 3mins ago. so i was like wtf? then i waited another 10mins and checked and it said he was active 1min ago. so his snap score had updated like 3-4 times after me snapping him. like he would go on the app and then go off for a few mins and get back on, but he hadn’t snapped me or even opened my chat. so i took a ss every time it updated so i could show him and ask about it. and i messaged him again on snap saying “ok wtf? why are you ignoring me?” and sent him the screenshots. and he didn’t open it so i checked his location AGAIN a few mins later and it said he was active like 4mins after i sent him that. so i called him because i was like wtf? and it took a few rings and he picked and just said “hello” but he didn’t sound like he was sleeping. like i know his sleeping voice and it didn’t sound like that. so i just hung up without saying anything because i was annoyed. and he texted me and was like “why’d you call me and hang up?” and i said “check snap”. and he after he saw my messages he said “i wasn’t ignoring you. i was asleep and haven’t been on snap” and i said “do you think i’m stupid? it wouldn’t update like that if you weren’t going on and off the app” and he said “idk maybe i fell asleep with my phone with snap open still” and i was like “umm no stupid. it would just said “now” on your location. it wouldn’t keep updating like it was” and i was just pressing him about it and he got sooo mad at me and freaked out because i was saying he was lying. and he called me and was YELLING about how he didn’t lie and he hates that i never believe him and how dumb it was to wake him up and start a fight over something so silly. and he woke his mom up and she got sooo mad. and i feel really bad because since his location kept updating i assumed he was awake and i didn’t know me continuing to say he was lying would make him flip out like that. so i explained that to him and he sent me this long message basically saying “baby i’m serious i wasn’t on snap, wasn’t talking to anyone else, i was fr asleep. i have work in the morning and i wouldn’t be stupid enough to leave my location on if i was ignoring you and snapping other people” and he sent me a ss of his recents list and a screen recording going thru his snaps from that day. so now i feel really bad because 1. his mom got woken up by him freaking out because i didn’t trust him and now i feel like she doesn’t like me 2. i pressed him sm that it caused a big fight. like i’m still suspicious because i don’t think snap would update like that for no reason. ik what it looks like when someone stays on snap for a long time and it constantly updates. not every 3-10mins like his was. we haven’t talked much since that and he’s at work rn still so ya. do you think i should still question it or believe him? and if i see him today it’s gonna be soo awk with his mom because we’ll be at his house. sorry that was insanely long btw!! i tried to narrow it as much as i could to make sense haha
I would have reacted the same way and that has actually happened to me with my ex boyfriend. I would be like what the fuck and ask him why he is ignoring me and accuse you, because its like you had proof it was right in front of your face. so you have a reason to think that. maybe just be like sorry I did that but you have to understand where I am coming from. maybe he didnt actually wake up his mom he just said that because he wanted to scare you. either way im sure it is fine and she already forgot about it!
It’s been a funny old time these past few weeks, and I haven’t had the brain to post about c25k when more important things are going on. Nevertheless we kept at it, so here’s the RUNdown 😉! Beware, this one has 5 runs, so it’s another long one.
Week 4 Run 2
Friday. I finished work later than expected today, just lots of things to do. I really did not feel like going running because I was feeling rubbish, but it was the last day we could do run 2 and have a break before then next one so we got to it.
As with run 1 this week, run 2 was 3m run - 90s walk - 5m run - 2.5m walk - 3m run - 90s walk - 5m run. It was quite a bit more running than last week and I knew that this week’s sessions were quite a push so we tried to pace ourselves to make sure we had something left for the 5min portions.
We were okay on the 3min runs but we were really counting down the seconds on the 5m runs (literally). Because we paced ourselves a little better, our chests weren’t as painful, but my calves were still giving me grief. Pat struggled with his feet but we both kept plodding on, really slowing down on the last run. Finally we finished and actually felt very accomplished in doing this run again. Very tired though!
Pat had said I should take a break and go for a run towards the end of my normal work day to try and revitalise myself and get my head back into work but I wanted to continue, so we had set off quite late.
I should have listened because I felt refreshed after this run, it was hard, but the extra effort seemed to burn off some of the rubbish feeling I had and I really felt the endorphins rushing about. Pat now has decisive power over when we go for a run haha!
Week 4 Run 3
Sunday. I took Pat for drive to his parents and had a socially distanced drink. We thought it would be nice to go for a run down the canal close to their house for a change in scenery as Pat was getting a bit fed up with the 5 min runs.
The canal was a good place for our first 3m run as it’s pretty flat so we didn’t find it too hard to keep going. I had to tell Pat to pace himself as he really found a fast stride at one point! I got a few midges in my nose as we were running which wasn’t ideal!
Soon the path climbed as we went past a lock or two. We jogged past one and kept a wide berth as there was a mumma and dad pair of geese with their gosling who hissed and flapped their wings at us. I was certainly glad we’d been training to move faster than normal in that minute, although my calves were already protesting that!
At the end of our second run, we had an incline up to a bridge which my calves really hated but luckily we got a reprieve shortly after and we turned into one of the neighbouring fields to make our way back to Pat’s parents.
Pat was really in his element leading me round the fields he had grown up playing in and it really took my mind off of the run watching him playing. He took us over stiles and through a mini wood (which I hated - I got MORE flies in my nose, mouth and ears 🙈)
We were soon on our final run, and although my calves and chest were hurting, the change to the scenic route was really enjoyable.
This week has been a hard one, but the runs slowly have gotten slightly easier and more bareable as we kept at it. I suppose practice makes perfect, even with running. I never believed my P.E. teachers about this, and I still don’t want to believe it now! 🤯
Week 5 Run 1
Tuesday Morning, breakfast and a cuppa demolished, and ready and raring to go. This week is 5mins x 3 with 3minute breaks in between, which is actually 1min less than the total run of last week. Just an extra 5min run, but we knew we could do that stint in one go because we had done it last week. Okay, let’s go!
We step out of the house and we are hit by a wave of heat. Okay...so this could be a little harder than expected. Probably should have had water instead of tea or coffee, but anyway, we go for it.
All 3 runs are sweaty and way harder than last week. With burning legs and chests, we tire easily and I struggle at about 3mins into each run. The 3minute breaks are way too short and we home in on any available shade. My belly is churning and I am basically shuffling along to the end. The final run, my legs are in agony before we even get half way. I am breathing very deeply to try and relieve the aching in my calves and quads* and in the final minutes I’m dizzy and can’t see very well, not just because of the sun in my eyes. We finish and I want to collapse on the floor, but I can see the shade up ahead and make a beeline for it. My legs don’t recover very quickly today at all. I now know I DO NOT LIKE RUNNING IN THE SUN!
As we finish our cool down walk, glad that it’s over, I look at the app to plan our next run and see that this week isn’t the same everyday as it has been for the last month. Nope, the next run is 8mins x 2, 5min break. Uh oh! After this run, I’m not sure I could do 8mins!! But...well, it’s only the same total time as last week, and has a 5m break, it might be hard, but doable?
I check the 3rd run of the week thinking it might be 2 9min walks or something and my heart stops. 20minute run, no breaks? That can’t be right! But it is...oh dear. I really don’t think that is possible. That’s a big jump! We’ve only run 5mins at once and this is FOUR TIMES that. And it’s an extra 4mins total time! How can they think we can do that so quickly??
I’m pleased we completed this run in the horrible heat, it really was a hard one to do. Unfortunately I also have a sense of foreboding that I haven’t had for the whole programme: we might not be able to complete the runs this week. But I then think about our first two weeks when we couldn’t even complete the first day of c25k and resolve to keep trying until we get there. We might have to repeat but we will do it eventually!
We’ve not come this far to only come this far!
*Pat told me that’s what they’re called after the run
Week 5 Run 2
Pat made the executive decision to run on Friday, not Thursday, I think the 8min runs were putting him off a little...So despite my warnings of pain on Sunday (we were going for a bbq at our friends’ house who we hadn’t seen for a while on Saturday night, I was driving, and Pat would be drinking. A lot. 🍻🍻🍻) we skipped Thursday and ran on Friday Night.
I was scared of today’s run. 2x 8minute runs! I’d been whittling about it since the sunshine nearly killed us on Tuesday, so we went after work around 20:30. My new sports bra had arrived earlier that day, and it fitted(!!) so I strapped them in and we got going. (Best purchase I’ve made this year by the way - they didn’t move! No pain! Woohoo!)
The weather broke earlier in the week, so it was quite cold on the walk out before we started running and we were basically power walking to get warm! We geared up for the 8 minute run, and I started feeling the burn in my legs just as Sarah said we were half way through the first run, so I decided to slow down a little and made a mental note to drink more water and STRETCH properly before Sunday! After a minute or two the burn had lessened and when Sarah said to slow down for our 5 min walk, I felt like I could have kept going, which struck me as odd.
Pat recovered quickly and said that he was almost bored of walking! Ready to get the next run over with I’m sure, hopefully not my company! 😂 We thought it might be a good idea for him to have some music on the longer runs anyway to keep him going.
We started the second run and my shins and calves were instantly remembering the last run. I slowed down even further and soon the pain eased a little. Our final stretch is a bit of a hill (it isn’t but it feels like one when you’re tired!) and at the half way point I was ready for giving up, and then it started to spit! 🙈 Luckily it was a false alarm, but it distracted us a little. Those last few minutes really were a drag, my legs were burning and my breathing was heavier than usual trying to get up that last hill, but we kept on going and we did it! I did walk a little weird for a minute afterwards, stretching will be needed next time!
We ended the cool down walk and were happy with what we had done. We then remembered our mission in two days - 20minutes on Sunday... how were we going to do that????
Despite our worries, we still commended ourselves. We ran for 8 minutes in 60 second intervals the first week of c25k and we had ran the same amount of time all in one go, TWICE, today. What an improvement!!
Week 5 Run 3
Sunday arrives. OH MY GOSH. THE DREADED RUN. 20 minutes...can we do it???
After a particularly rowdy night on Saturday, poor Patrick was hanging: McDonald’s was necessary, naps were mandatory and our tv viewing had to be drivel. At 6pm, I reminded him of his terrible decision on Thursday and we set about the slow rise from the sofa. I even “made” a salad to help along the process! Those of you who know us, know I’ve forgotten where the kitchen is, so this shows the level of Pat’s hangover.
We set off for our walk to a duet of encouragements from Sarah Millican and wails from Pat about his stomach. Soon the dreaded time came: our 5 minutes walking were up and we were to begin our TWENTY MINUTE run. We opted for a light jog as instructed, with the option to push a little if we felt we could and slow down if needed. We had decided that as we weren’t stopping and starting, we’d have no time to chat in between runs and listened to our favourite bands to cheer us on: Bowling for Soup for me, Tenacious D for Pat.
Pat always dislikes the first few mins of a run until his chest opens up and he feels he can breathe a little easier. Whereas I’m the opposite, the beginning feels easy and after a few minutes it gets harder. I didn’t feel too bad to start, I was a song and half in when Sarah told me we were a quarter of the way through the run! Earlier this week I was struggling with 5 minutes! How has this happened? I assumed I was going mad and continued....a few minutes later we started a very shallow incline so we slowed a touch to allow for it.
We kept checking in with each other and we were both pleasantly surprised to find we were both doing okay. Soon we were half way through our jog and feeling alright. Some calf burn for me, but after a while it seemed to go off as though my muscles had stopped protesting because they knew there was no point!
Soon we were down the “hill” and I found that my strides were opening up a little and was “running” a little faster than usual which felt great! We turned the corner to start our usual slightly steeper incline just as we were told we only had 5 minutes left to go! Where had the time gone?? We were doing well!
As we were running late-ish and it was cooler, we were sweating but doing okay because the breeze was keeping us at a good temperature. My new sports bra was doing it’s job and I was beaming because I never believed I could do anything like this! Pat was feeling the hangover a little as Sarah told us we had two more minutes left. My calves were really starting to burn, because of the hill I think now, not because of my fitness level (!!) and very quickly we were hi5ing at our mission completed!!
Yes, we were breathing heavy, our legs killing and sweat was running in our eyes but WE RAN FOR 20 MINS STRAIGHT!! Wooooohooo!!!
I didn’t believe her at the beginning of the run, but it’s just like Sarah M. said. We were fit enough, and this was a mental challenge more than a physical one, but I still couldn’t believe we did this!! Triumphant, we set off home for our warm down walk and a hot bath!