#took my adderall for the first time yesterday because i got adhd and it is KICKING my ASS

[witchlockmonsterfox]

second day of (on the niche little drug corner of my blog) The Phentermine Trials. once again i do not suggest you experiment on yourself like i am doing. i am a person with a long and extensive history of drug use as well as experience with an absurd amount of pharmaceuticals of all kinds, i have rudimentary medical knowledge, and have been studying psychopharmacology on my own for 16 years. i can’t stop anyone from doing anything, but i still don’t recommend doing something like this, especially if you’re inexperienced.

previous post here explaining phentermine and other information re: for the treatment of adhd

i took a break from the phentermine yesterday as like i mentioned, it gave me insomnia and i did not sleep until last night. i only slept five hours, but that’s not unusual for me. i’d say insomnia was the worst side effect from it, but i imagine with tolerance that’d go away as many people who use it for weight loss have no problems sleeping on it as long as it’s taken long enough before bedtime.

this is true for all amphetamines, so i don’t know if it’s really a specific drawback. i have little stimulant tolerance currently, and insomnia is something i’ll also struggle with with other amphetamines upon first starting them.

so i ingested another standard dose of 37.5mg six hours ago. i forgot to mention in the last post that 1) i’m on 5mg of valium (diazepam) 2x a day as well so that might be blunting side effects like anxiety/energy/jitteriness although with the usual and typical amphetamines i needed a higher dose of valium than that.

and 2) this drug takes 3 to 4 hours to reach peak concentrations in the body, HOWEVER, both times i have started feeling it well within an hour on an empty stomach, and it hasn’t been much different from my experiences with extended release amphetamines that can take 2-3 hours to really get going so it’s pretty comparable still.

after second dosing today and now knowing what to expect, perhaps some mild tolerance, and the previous dose still hanging around in my system slightly (it has a half-life of 20 hours so there’d be around 9.3mg left in my body) the energizing effect is milder than previously.

however despite this it’s still pretty beneficial for my adhd and those effects haven’t decreased in strength. in fact just this morning i was able to research and figure out everything regarding how to get a medical marijuana card, which i have been putting off for years. i got the motivation to post to a local subreddit about the topic and was able to read, respond to, and focus on the comments i received with the end result being a productive one as i now understand the entire process, have a clinic i plan to go to, and hope to be approved by the end of this week.

so here’s the breakdown… (all of these are going by comparison to therapeutic, standard dosages of commonly used amphetamines, not by recreational standards.)

the pros (for me, don’t forget this is all anecdotal!):

side effects such as anxiety, jitteriness, and agitation are extremely mild to the point i honestly can’t tell if it’s even related to the medication as i get those anyway.

MUSCLE SPASMS. i have a problem with muscle tension and spasms that stronger amphetamines (usually instant release like those found in adderall) trigger. this has had zero effect on them (even though valium is a muscle relaxant as well i would get them so severely on instant release adderall that just 10mg of valium wouldn’t help).

NO HEARTRATE OR BLOOD PRESSURE INCREASE which was very important to me because i have idiopathic sinus tachycardia (or: heart beat too fast all the time and it’s a mystery why) that i even have to take beta blockers for. my friend who was prescribed it for weight loss has high blood pressure and theirs also did not increase.

definite, NOTICEABLE and tangible increased focus and attention span unlike non-stimulant medications. you can tell this drug is working. helps you feel less foggy headed and less confused, able to organize your thoughts better. in fact in this one regard i can’t really tell much difference at all in this effect between phentermine and other amphetamines unless you were doing something intense or… (see below)

slightly increased energy, but seems to have waned after one dose a little. helps fatigue some but nothing like the usual amphetamine.

suppresses your appetite (hence its use as a weight loss medication) but not as bad as other amphetamines do. this is another one of the worst side effects for me even WITH tolerance. food can be impossible to eat and just the thought of it is so disgusting. this is probably worsened by my chronic nausea/lack of appetite i already have but i do know others report the same severity of this side effect.

now the cons:

the obvious: it’s not as potent as typical amphetamines and when it comes to motivation and focus it doesn’t work as well with things that you don’t want to do. however if you’re having difficulty even doing things you actually WANT to do (including productive stuff! it all depends) then it’s pretty equivalent.

insomnia, normal for all amphetamines and was about the same. not worse but not better either. again this probably just needs time to gain tolerance to.

Headache. it got pretty bad at one point. i assume this is from the norepinephrine as it’s the SAME headache atomoxetine (strattera) gives me which is an NRI (norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor). all amphetamines can give me this headache too, but typically more so when i’m using them recreationally and taking extra dosages.

for my fellow junkies, addicts, drug users, etc: low recreational potential imo. i don’t think i would enjoy increasing this drug in dosage as its focus is on norepinephrine over dopamine and serotonin (the Good neurochemicals). it seems like it would produce more side effects that would outweigh the positives too much to be worth it. the standard dose of 37.5mg did produce some very mild euphoria/content feelings but i don’t see much potential here.

(this last point could be seen as a pro depending on how you look at it)

in conclusion: doctors, psychopharmacologists, whoever: please study this drug for adhd! i think this might be an incredibly useful alternative for some patients who have issues with the normal amphetamines for adhd and poor/no response to non-stimulant medication (which let’s be honest… is most adhd patients)

also for those curious about it it MIGHT be worth asking your psychiatrist about as well! even just to get their opinion (which i’d be interested in hearing by the way if you did and wanted to share). it definitely has a reputation as a weight loss drug only though.

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[anakinthetrashking]

Ok so LAST WEEK I had an appointment to confirm Adult ADHD, bc EVIDENTLY you have to get diagnosed AGAIN even if you had a diagnosis as a kid!!!!! It's probably some sort of insurance hullabaloo, or maybe they want to screen people to make sure they didn't get misdiagnosed???

Anyhow. The paperwork I did made me laugh really hard bc every question was just like, screaming at me: YOU HAVE ADHD AND ITS SERIOUSLY AFFECTING YOU AND YOUR LIFE.

cause I didn't know that. And yet. AND YET. My anxiety had the GALL. To say, what if the Dr thinks ur lying :(

She did NOT, btw. It was funny bc she said that the paperwork I filled out was probably the most comprehensive she's seen. All those notes we put in there were USEFUL! HAHA!

Anywho, I obtained both a diagnosis AND a prescription for Adderall and proceeded to send the "Cool Guy Disease" Vine to my bff as soon as I got in the car aydksjskdj

I took my first dose yesterday, though, and dude. Dude. I don't really know what I was expecting other than an uptick in motivation and ability to "just do" things, y'know? But it's also a really low dose, and we wanted to make sure it's not aggravating other conditions of mine?? Anyway

Yesterday I took it, IN THE MORNING!!! And I felt, so,,, calm??? All day!!!! Like!!! I still had anxiety and anxious thoughts but they were so much easier to push away???? And I felt like I could BREATHE!!!!!! And my brain was so QUIET!!!!!

I don't think it's quite the right dosage yet, but I finally feel like it's in the right direction??? Bc like. I have as needed anxiety meds and they don't have such a profound effect as what happened yesterday. It could be a fluke, of course, but I'd like to think it isn't.

I took it around the same time this morning, but unfortunately that means I didn't sleep enough since it took me til after 4am to fall asleep. I really hope that doesn't happen again tonight because the meds will work best WITH sleep...

I definitely need to work on directing the focus better, I think that was probably part of the issue with trying to fall asleep and also some other issues I had today. But also I tend to get insomnia when I'm pms so it could be that?

I definitely need to keep track of symptoms and stuff bc I had a weird dizzy spell today. Eerrrgh...

#adhd #adhd meds #adhd medication #adderall #housekeeping tag would be... #Ani's Adderall Adventures #i feel like that makes it sound like im taking them recreationally but i am not! i have a real prescription! #not that anyone on the internet cares either way tho 🤣 #i just need a tag that'll help me find it later for record keeping

[whatiwillsay]

cam, it’s adhd anon, and i have good news!

so yesterday i called my psychiatrist and gave her the updates. she said that my gi side effects were severe enough to warrant completely switching med types rather than just upping the dose of ritalin.

so today was my first day on adderall, and i think it kind of worked! i had an ap exam today, and i was able to stay on task for low key a lot of the test! which is HUGE, since during all the practice exams we took in class, my brain was like “No ❤️” after like 15 minutes max. but today i was able to answer all the questions, which has never happened before since usually my brain just bails on me even if i have a ton of time left to answer them.

i still got distracted sometimes (there were a ton of weird noises in the room, and also i wrote a bit of fan fic in the margins of my multiple choice section because i got a great fic idea, but then they collected the booklet, and i can’t remember what i wrote now, f in the chat). and i felt overwhelmed and stuff a lot during the exam (i mean, i probably failed the exam, because i knew very very little of the content lol), but like, i kind of don’t care that i didn’t do well, because i was able to do it, and it’s crazy and good and a relief.

and i didn’t have any side effects at all, which is such a relief too.

so yeah! i’ll message again tomorrow because i’ll be able to see if it helps me be able to focus on my homework (i didn’t try to do any homework today because i’m too worn out from the exam), but yeah! i’m very hopeful!

that’s great!  Adderall worked better for me than ritalin too if i remember correctly 🤔

#advice #ot #adhd anon #Anonymous

[junkyard-dunky]

Sorry I didn't send an ask yesterday, I found out while at work that I had a shift with my other job so there was a lot happening ahaha anyways, let's start off with some basic questions; what's your fave song of each album? what's their biggest bop? and what's a song that really resonated with you? 👀 feel free to give more than one answer if you can't decide -🌟

Hi it’s currently 6:24 pm and it’s so wack for me because it’s normally 8 where I used to live. Also I just took and adderall lol. Um I’m gonna put a trigger warning (mentioned abuse, suicide)

lol you’re fine I think I mentioned that I’m moving and we visited with family in a state along the way. And I’m sorry working is a pain in the ass lol. Anywayssss my favs are always changing but these are them rn

Self titled: trapdoor because i have mdd and so I feel like idk I have to put a mask on for people so they think I’m okay until I just snap or break down but then I feel vulnerable about it

regional at best: either anathema or ruby. Anathema because it was one of the songs I just became really attached to when I started listening and I didn’t have lots of options at first when I started listening (vessel era gang 🤙) and then ruby because it would make me feel hopeful and happy

vessel: probably truce. It will always hold a special place in my heart and not because of what it’s about. It’s the first song. I showed to my dad by them and he kinda understood. I hate house of gold. It’s a beautiful song but I have bad memories associated with it which sucks because I like it a lot.

blurryface: rn it’s hometown but the sleeper series version. It’s just so melodic and peaceful. I listen to the original when I’m hype but also sad lol. The drums hype me up but the lyrics hit hard as if it was the first time listening to it all over again. But I like the sleepers series because he makes it sad. This sounds weird but I like being sad because I was so used to bottling it up all the time when I lived with my parents and now I’m in a situation where I’m accepted by the people around me.

And then last but not least trench: probably legend. This is also one that resonates with me. I lost someone who was very close to me. It was my dad. He didn’t die, but I’m no longer allowed to have contact with him. This time of year is really hard (from oct to January) which sucks because I love the holidays. But I’m, this is kinda over sharing but I guess everyone can know that follow this blog. But my whole life my step mom (who raised me when I was three, bio mom not in the picture) was very abusive towards me in basically every way. I was my dads only child and my step mom has three older kids and so he figured she knows what she was doing. I fell into depression and major anxiety around nine years old but the doctors thought it was just adhd. I found about twenty one pilots when I was 12 years old (I know people think it’s like a competition to know them for such a long time but I seriously have lol, I’m 16) because I threw up really early in the morning and my mom let me come sit out in the living and watch music videos on mtv and they had artist to watch come on and it was them and they performed car radio live it was amazing. But yeah I fell in love ever since. Anyways, a lot of there music helped me, my whole time living there. My didn’t do much about her, he just followed what ever she did. I was constantly trying to end my life. It was hard. Until last year in September, I went to the hospital again and I was drugged up and out of it cause I overdosed, and I said somethings so a social worker and my parents didn’t want me to come home. It’s hard because when I got out of the hospital and I was in foster care a lot of people say that what they did wasn’t right and it was hard for the longest to understand that they were right. I was manipulated my whole to think my situation was normal and that everything was always my fault. I miss my dad though. He never really hurt me too bad. But there’s still good memories. They say when it comes to really bad trauma from abuse, the person gets attached to the abuser. But yeah, that song reminds me of my dad a lot. And I really do look forward to having a lunch with him again. Sometimes it’s really hard and it was hard for a while after I got out to listen to twenty one pilots because I didn’t have electronics except for this big ass boom box and my burned twenty one pilots cds my dad made for Christmas for me one year. Trench also came out when I was in a physciatric hospital. And secretly listened to it on the laptops they let us use for “school” I just have so many memories associated with every song. Idk. But that’s also why this time of year is hard because all that stuff and my life changed so rapidly. I live with my sister and brother in law which is amazing I love them and they’re the ones that are so accepting over my emotions and understand.

WOO sorry that was a lot. Um thanks for listening to my bullshit I’m sure you weren’t expecting all that sooo yeah sorry.

#cliquesecretsanta2019 #🌟 anon

[illuminatingfear]

adventures in adhd (med talk cw)

alright so

yesterday was another bad depression day. It wasn’t bad thoughts, just the horrible gnawing heavy dread/emptiness in the gut. of course had a weird dream, woke up early and feel... okay??! so... because of that, I decided to actually take my adhd meds (adderall XR) at 8:30 or 9am today. a friend challenged me to a game through fb messenger, and I got hyperfocused on that for two fucking hours. 9:30 - 11:30am straight. wtf. then I did music until 3:45pm. by this time, i started feeling less great and a little anxious. 

I felt really good for the first 5 hours. Really good! (Better than last time I took it, maybe two months ago?) It’s now been 8 hours; feeling anxiety again and paranoid agoraphobic thoughts (normal); I have a rehearsal I’m crashing in less than two hours, and I always feel weird about going back... I have problems with viewing myself with confidence among those who have seen me grow up; I just want to shrink away because I was a dumb little shit back then (”back then” means like, anytime before last year lol). even though I know it’s irrational and no one thinks this about me.  aaahhh. so I’ve been doing stuff nonstop for 8 hours. and now that I’ve stopped... the anxiety is here... because I feel I need to “prep” myself to see people I’m on weird relations with. I’ve been a lot more antsy to see people in general... INCLUDING friends. reaching out has been giving me anxiety, which is new. like, bad anxiety.

also my SSRIs did a huge spike in price and i’m crying - that shit brings the relapse thoughts to the forefront -- “it’s too much for me to afford... so why take them... why be stable when I could die” heyo who loves ideation. 

anyway, that is me rn! I’ve been trying to set goals for myself... I want to write in a journal and document mental illness days, but I know I’ll do it for awhile and then stop and feel guilty and never go back to it for like, 5 months. aaaaaaa.

#ADHD #journal #personal #meds talk #med talk #adderall #adderall xr #anxiety #panic disorder #agoraphobia #depression #me #ideation #recovery #price gouging #bpd

[clamonnaturalhealth]

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