i'm just thinking abt how many providers i've had who heard my story abt psychiatric abuse + immediately individualized it. "oh, you're so smart + kind+ obviously sane! you didn't deserve that! i can't believe they gave you that diagnosis when you're obviously not like that! they shouldn't have treated u like that when all you did was xyz! they shouldn't have assumed you were crazy like that!"
there is always a third person haunting this interaction- the patient who does deserve that, who is "actually" that evilscary diagnosis, who did Have To be treated like that. if i want to soak up the affirmations of these providers, i must be careful to never become this third person. i must affirm myself by setting myself apart from her- i did not deserve to be treated like that because i am not like that.
i reject this. not only was i like that, she + everyone else like that deserve everything i deserve. they are my siblings + my friends + my lovers. i do not need to cut them out of me to believe i deserved better. i refuse to comfort myself through the lens of someone else's dehumanization. the tragedy is not that psychiatric violence was applied to someone who not insane enough to warrant it. the tragedy is the violence.
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henry you cant take people through the circles of hell on the first date
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Fic in which Mary tries extra hard to bond with Cas to show Dean she supports him and their relationship, except that relationship doesn’t exist in the way she thinks it does and because none of them ever use their words Dean is now faced with the horrifying thought Cas might become his stepdad
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i need ghoap frantically making out against a door finally taking the leap on their feelings. need ghost grinding against soap, expecting to find him just as hard as him, only to feel nothing
and in all his wisdom and experience, he concludes soap was tortured and never told him
he’s trying to think of a delicate way to say he understands, that he’s been through it and it doesn’t change anything about how he feels (and who the fuck touched him so he can hunt them down and rend them limb from limb)
meanwhile trans!soap’s just trying to find the best angle to grind his cunt on ghost’s thigh
just it never even entering ghost’s head bc he’s never known a trans person but he has met plenty of people who’ve been tortured - himself included - so of course that’s his logical leap
soap takes off his shirt and he sees his top surgery scars and ghost asks if he wants him to kill the one who did it and soap just hums like, “actually, man did pretty good, they healed real well,” and ghost’s just teary-eyes with awe at how well he’s coping, “looking on the bright side, that’s my johnny.”
imagine he thinks johnny was fully castrated but sees he’s determined to still have a sex life with him so he buys packers and straps to help him bc hell yeah healing and soap’s just like, “holy shit i’ve never had such a thoughtful partner before, such a sweet man, lt.”
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objectively funniest theon mention so far. actually that’s not true it’s either this or him being considered as one of cersei’s potential new husbands
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My friend was telling me about her blorbo from a horror TV show that my brain made up. His name was Tristan or Jordan or something with that vibe, and he’s an awkward teenage boy who dresses kind of like Denny from The Room except with eyeliner, and is the main character’s friend, but he only appears for one episode: at the end of the first episode the villain kidnaps him off the streets of the suburbs and skins him alive using scissors, starting with the face.
Later in the dream I went and watched the show, they don’t actually show the gore (possibly out of taste, possibly out of budget), they cut to black from the villain holding scissors menacingly at Tristan and we hear his screams and gross flesh noises for a little too long before it goes to credits.
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Eddie posts a Tiktok where he’s clearly hiding behind a corner, filming Steve and Robin attempt to tie themselves back to back to chairs. They’re arguing with each other about it because it’s very hard to tight yourself up so Eddie clear his throat.
He asks when they look at him, “What is this, platonic BDSM?”
Steve: I’m proving a point. Help me?
Robin: I’m proving a point. We would’ve succeed if Steve hadn’t been concussed
Steve: The concussion wasn’t the problem. It’s that you have the coordination of a newly born giraffe. We wouldn’t have fallen over if you had any control over your limbs.
Robin: Lies and slander! You didn’t even know your left and right.
Steve: That’s diff-
Eddie: Whoa. Wait, what? What are you talking about? Succeeded at what?
Steve: It’s not about succeeding. It’s about avoiding, which we did not do.
Eddie: Huh?
Robin, helpfully: The bone saw
Eddie: WHAT?!????
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SO MANY THINGS ARE HAPPENING ! WHAT DO YOU MEAN THERE'S A COUNTDOWN FOR TOMORROW 2PM WHICH WAS FOUND BECAUSE TAYLOR HAD PLANNED TO REVEAL ONE LETTER AT A TIME THROUGH QR CODES WHICH WERE ALL OVER THE WORLD AND ENDED UP SPELLING OUT FORAFORTNIGHT AND THERE ARE STILL LYRICS TO BE TEASED AT THE POP UP AT THE GROVE AND-
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lalala
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