I haven't had a haircut since 2012.
I love my long hair, which, about now, reaches down to my waist.
But I have to admit that my hair is thin.
Sides are okay, but most hair coming from the scalp... it is thin.
My transition hasn't started yet, and may not for several more years, damn waiting list. Minimum three (which i reached this year,) but up to six years at this point.
Fuck the tories.
I always promised myself (long before I figured I was trans) that I wouldn't be one of those men (now, one of those people,) who would have a bald scalp and weak comb-over to try (and fail) ar maintaining the Illusion that I still have long hair.
I just wish I could look in the mirror and like what I see.
I wish I didn't have to deal with the problems of aging men.
I am a woman in my heart but nature gave me all of mens problems.
(Probably made worse because I didn't figure myself out until I was approaching my mid-30s)
Tall and broad body
Barrel chested
Thinning hair.
I think I have a widows peak at this point.
Hairy body. Chest, legs, arms. You name it.
I am in the wrong body for me.
I really feel I have to wait until I start taking hormones, and seeing the effects they have on me before I can even socially transition.
Because there is nothing about me that could pass as female at the moment.
And I know I've been losing hair since my mid thirties, but now I'm entering my late thirties it seems to be speeding up.
I swear I see more scalp through the follicles these days.
It's getting harder and harder to cover with volumizing products, styling, and so on.
This has mostly been a rant to just vent my feelings.
But I know a lot of ladies have short hair and are still very feminine.
Maybe I can try short hair instead of an ever growing comb-over.
Even though long hair does seem to be tied to femininity.
Most trans women in media have, at least, shoulder length hair.
Only cis-women can get away with short hair, it seems.
Maybe that's not to right way to think but it's the way I do.
I can only hope that hormones, whenever I get them, can retore some activity to the follicles of my scalp.
If nothing else, I hope that people will recommend different types of hair cuts and hair styles for me to try.
I can use an app to get a vague idea of what I would look like before I commit to the work of a stylist.
Any style that works with a person who has plus-sized features would be welcome right now.
A pixie cut is the only one I could think of right now. And I'm not totally convinced that I could pull that off.
If anyone has any other suggestions, I'd love to hear them.
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Me and my friend were in choir once and our teacher said boys sing the first verse and girls sing the second verse and my friend (who uses they/them pronouns) turned to me and went “I guess we don’t have to sing then” and I said “yeah lol” and then I just stared at them in disbelief for a solid 5 minutes like what the fuck I haven’t come out to anyone yet is it that obvious??
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[Trans Problems]
I NEED SOME ADVISE FROM TRANS, NONBINARY PEOPLE AND ECT.!
Ok guys so I'm genderqueer.
I rarely feel dysphoria in my chest, seriously if I could I would probably go just in my pants and nothing more and I would feel comfortable.
But often when I clothes on my chest I feel dysphoria, because it always makes my body look too feminie.
So I thought of buying a binder.
And my mom is really against it.
Before you say anything she's not transphobic or anything.
She actually knew from the begining that I'm genderqueer and basicly was just wating for me to come out.
She's really worderfull mother that supports me and help me with it. No matter what I am she loves me and tries to understand me by doing some research online and ect.
So why she doesn't allow me to wear it?
In my family a LOT of people both form my mothers and my fathers side had cancers and tumors.
And few women had breast cancer.
So.. In addition I have "bad genes" And probably very susceptible body to all kinds of diseases.
And she's very worried about this and just is afraid that I'll hurt myself by getting a binder.
And honestly I don't know what to think about this.
On the one hand I know that I can life without it and and chest dysphoria comes to me from time to time. Moreover I don't want to hurt myself.
On the other hand I feel very uncomfortable and disgusted when dysphoria comes and again I thinking of buying binder.
What should I do? Are there other methods that partially alleviate dysphoria I'm not familiar with?
I literally have noone to ask..
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so i recently went to see my school's counselor because my grades weren't doing the best and i came out as trans and explained my problems with being trans to the counselor and it was.. interesting to say the least, the counselor kept telling me that I'm still born as a girl and that i can't "force" people to call me a guy, the counselor also kept mentioning lesbians even though i never said i was a lesbian, the counselor doesn't really know how trans people especially how trans men work, the counselor also kept saying that i "choose" to be trans and that i'm just confused and that maybe in the future i'll realized i'm a girl and have kids, the counselor also kept telling me that i'm a pretty "girl" and it was so frustrating to sit through.
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waiting for the day my parents learn that being transgender isnt just “i wear the pants in the relationship”
my brother thinks im a masc lesbian but rlly im not
im jst a transmasc who so happens to be dating a girl
im going crazy
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