[⚠️TW: COVID19, swearing]
In lockdown again. I am without work. School online. We can’t go anywhere and I am loosing my mind.
If I sleep too long I sweat, if I don’t I’m fine like come on so I don’t get sleep😇 alright then
To heal. – Guest Submission
(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)
I fucking hate all the shit that happened. Why me? Why did I have to be abused? It’s ruined my life. I can’t stop thinking about it, I get flashbacks when I have sex, I really am broken and damaged and dirty and ruined. How could anyone want me? I’m filthy, ruined, I’m no good for anything anymore. All I’m good for is being used and abused.
I was never good enough for you, but I’m going to be good enough for myself and be reunited with her~
i hate it so much when people that never been through relationship abuse joke about it and make it seem like no big deal or normalize it… especially when they’re joking about beating your partner is normal and funny. no. it’s not normal neither funny. it’s no funny being scared when your next bruise will be or being scared of doing the smallest mistake. please stop joking about that.
::: fck1ng_g1rl_wh0_1s_18_but_4cts_and_l00ks_L1k3_15 :
Me: Trying to mind my own business and write down important shit before I forget.
My brain: hey, let’s revisit your trauma and elaborate on why you are the way you are and how your emotions, reactions, identity, self worth and relationships are all effected by and based around that trauma
every inch of me feels like dying
I feel like no one really talks much about the super fucked memory that can come with mentall illness. Like:
- Sorry I forgot you birthday
- We’ve met before?? What when??
- *asks the same question five times within an hour*
- School is just a lost cause at this point
- Wait what was that conversation I had five minutes ago and why can’t I remember literally any of it?
- Accidentally taking your meds multiple times a day
It’s not, “Aww cute clumsily and forgetful uwu” like for some of us it’s an actual hindrance to our everyday lives.
a lil reminder! <3
Is it my personality or is it the consequences of the trauma
Childhood is extremely important to a persons long term mental and emotional development. That being said, I am extremely fucked up.
It’s 4 am so naturally here’s an edit. Enjoy.