#trauma has me likr

[waywardsalt]

ive spent like 20 minutes trying to world this eloquently but i give up; im a big fan of linebeck just. not being capable of watching over kids not the person to be the guardian of a group of young people he struggles to take care of himself at times and has so much shit going on that it takes about one conversation with oshus for the old man to realize that this guy is. not doing great

#this was gonna be like. a jokey post at first juxtaposing oshus’ expectations vs reality with linebeck but im too emotionally drained #so real linebeck talk in the tags bc idk if ive actually talked much abt like. the specific as on why. iwrite and see him the way i do #likr. off the bat i put him at like 19 in ph and im too fucking tired and just. done rn to justify that like whatever kill me if you wish. #like. hes. been throught a lit hes been abused neglected used ignored hurt ridiculed violated deceived hes so fucking tired #hes worn down over the course of ph it causes him to finally like. express his anguish over what hes been theough its cathartic #hes getting pushed but talking to oshus and being around link loosens him up and he fucking. cries properly yknow #he cries about everything and the last bit of ph hes kind of an emotional wreck but hes finally letting himself feel all that shit #he cries he struggles to articulate himself he has a violent public meltdown as he becomes fed up with his reputation #and it all culminates in bellumbeck just. being a really raw examination of what hes been through and how he feels and what to do now #he hates people he has people he wants to kill people he wanted to kill but after bellumbeck its just. hes tired. hes processed everythjng #and then he needs the post ph crew and everyone they meet along the way to just. be a fucking support system for the first time ever #like post ph hes rhe captain he runs the ship he keeps everyone in line he can do that. but hes softer more vulnerable more self doubting #hes kinder and more hesitant but trying new things and being more openly passionate abt his interests #and he keeps working through his trauma he finds out what else it causes problems for and everyone. supports him #hes not capable of like. being any kind of parental figure to link in ph his perspective on like. how to handle kids is fucked #because his perspective on what a normal childhood should look like is kind of a mess #his perspective on relationships is murky on love on adventure on self expression but post ph hes just. free. tired but free #he manages to take naps the group helps him eat properly he learns his physical boundaries and actually does what he loves #idk. im just. man idk. its still measy but like. my version of linebeck is. i really hate the idea that its so out of character its not him #like. idfk what to even say abt that. idfk what ‘in character’ looks like when you hc a character to be masking in canon #when you hc them to be lying and covering things up and just. subdued bc theyre working on stuff #that they lie and exaggerate their own traits on purpose but let the truth through some cracks like what rhe fuck then #i hate it bc i dont see anyone else think of linebeck anything like this so im scared im fucking wrong somehow #im tired. i recently learned that one of my cats has been burrowing under and chilling under a blanket we cover a couch with #its very cute

[oars]

i like that in some kinda way bg3 punishes you for mischaracterizing characters or interpreting them incorrectly

#ok yeah this is mostly about astarion i havent delved into most of the other companions #but from what ive seen so far he has the more complex storyline and character #and the game does punish you if you interpret him as some easy whorish vampire #but its also in the most heartbreaking way bc youd honestly have to be ignoring all the things he tells you relating to his trauma #for that to happen for him to reject or end things with you #sorry i saw one of the cutscenes bc i could never choose some of the options but seeing him say #it doesnt matter what i want as long as you get what you want. likr after all hes been through for 200 years #yeah im a little sick rn sorry. astarion get behind me

[qween-virgay]

give me ALL THE COLORS (or just indigo idk)

ohh gosh thats a lot of people

im gonna choose some of my favs

Indigo

First impression: Thought he was going to become one of those cool and smart bad guys, likr very cunning. Then he opened his mouth

Impression now: I think he's so funny, def not the smartest in everyday life but he does have his genius moments

Favorite moment: When we finally saw his eyes i cant believe hes a prettyboy

Idea for a story: AU where he gets found out from stratoversian authority and has to deal with That.

Unpopular opinion: I actually like his clothes and drawing them, even if theyre objectively horrible XD

Favorite relationship: he annoys the HECK out of prez and im all for it. funniest thing

Favorite headcanon: (connected to the story idea) that he had perhaps a pretty important family so he was expected to fight his way to power - but instead he ran away.

Green

First impression: funny, morally-grey loner, would like more lore

Impression now: funny, morally-grey loner, would like more lore

Favorite moment: making fun of xela

Idea for a story: encountering prisma and finding out that perhaps it wasnt what they expected....

Unpopular opinion: I dont think i have a particular one!

Favorite relationship: Grolange 👀

Favorite headcanon: back in ecoverse they used to be VERY religious but becoming a color (and perhaps prisma influence) radically changed their view of life. dont know what it really is tho

Yellow (there is no yellow text color)

First impression: Gentle, motherly type; like a kind, old sage

Impression now: i still think she's the motherly type but also that she's a lil egocentric even when she tries to do good

Idea for a story: meeting all the past colors y_y perhaps timetravel story or universe hopping

Favorite moment: "if you see this girl... kill her" girlboss moement

Unpopular opinion: i dont know if it's unpopular but i reckon age and trauma has made her more vindicative

Favorite relationship: YellowxVirga YellowPrisma

Favorite headcanon: Bald

#gloomverse #gv #ask #ask game #indigo #yellow #green #gloomverse indigo #gloomverse yellow #gloomverse green #character opinion list

[myownprivatcidaho]

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#ok im glad the car discussion is being treated with more subjectivity and acknowledged as just opinions w/o ppl trying to make moral cases #with a few annoying exceptions #idk my. input (?) is that. #idk my default panoc response is freeze but once o finally get tp a point i REALIZE i can distance myself... #i mean. its like objects - no matter hos valuable to me - ars like. thr first to go #and sometimes its impulsive and i end up losing smth personal thst ill never getbackt #but like. idk its like wgen i know im in a situation thats fucked up i just compartmentalize it and shut up thst thought for later #bc if i acknowledge whats going on is fucked up while its happening i Will freak out and i. cant afford to do that #so like. once the delayed response kicks in (even if its been held in flr years - ESPECIALLY if thats the case) its like. idk #bpd fucks with my relationships with everything and. i just go through a period where literally nothing material matters #and end up throwing out things that !! otherwise feel apart apart of mt identity but im so numb to it its like ripping out a chink of flesh #with my bare hands and not even really processing the pain. but once you do it feels GOOD bc that proverbial flesh was infected #im rambling & didnt mean to make this abt myself. but what im getting at is trauma reminders FEEL infected like deep in my gut #and once i can afford to think of them as unclean thats ALL j can see. (and deans neat freaky tidiness clicks w me for lots of instances but #ESPECIALLY this) so. i do like to think of him losing the car one way or another. likr yeah reclaiming it and sense of ownership is AWESOME #but. idk personally actually thinking about him keeping it makes my lungs and nostrils burn and it feels like my hands & arms are covered in #chalk #and more than just avoidance. its mostly just. i love the high that comes with that irreversible act. its unhealthy ik but. #idk its like a sobbing impulsive haircutting scene. like Yes this hurts Yes its a dumb idea YES the pain is Mine and YES I Can Feel It #likr idk i def see the appeal in him keeping it but once mr bpd has an episode of losing his bonds w material #the car would be among the first to go #spn

[the-hydroxian-artblog]

Hi it's me again, just wanna say once more that I really love the stuff you do and I have a question about Tikal

What exactly is she in your comics? This may be my lack of Tikal knowledge in the Sonic lore but I'd like to know why her eyes go crazy and why she goes all savage likr that (which is honestly the best)

Oh and I love the way you draw Tikal, buff echidna gall lives in my mind now

She's a revenant! This is completely just my take, but she's a dead body possessed by a ghost (she's good at healing so no rotting, thank goodness.) You can find similarly asked questions here.

Ghosts mutate over time, because people grow and change with time. Some destroy themselves utterly in their trauma until they're unrecognizeable, while some others get so lost in their memories of pain that they strip all other aspects of self and personality until they become like machines, doing the same task over and over for eternity. Then, there's the third, the ones who mutate for the better, and become something brand new.

Tikal walked this middle path and became what I guess you can call the ultimate post-lifeform, ha ha. Freaky faces are just part of the deal. Of course, it's really because she's actually a big ole snake thing hiding inside a (relatively) little echidna body.

Unrelated: I used to make a habit of always adding a picture to every ask response I do, but all that's done is make me put off answering asks, so. I'm gonna just answer more now.

#FAQ

[teekily]

TW: mention of possible rape

When I think about it, it's like everyone in 118 is treated like how the trend in media changed on portraying trauma characters face. Nowadays they acknowledge more that physical wounds can heal off-screen but mental ones should be addressed in some way like it's not just sad or upset moment that when characters get over it, they get over it anymore. There are lingering effect gradually manifest and of course if the setting of the story is suitable, there'll be mention of therapy.

But then with Buck it suddenly go back to the old way. The 'one deep talk and you are good to go' and I really don't know if it's because Buck, similar to Chimney, has more comedic atmosphere around them than others so they don't want him to have far too long angsty scene or they want to say there are people like Buck whose heart heals along with physical without needing therapy because he doesn't bottle his thoughts and feelings. He processes them all how he can recognize and tells them to others like how he tells Eddie he's insecure to look after Chris after Tsunami so Eddie reassures him and the issue is solved. How he tells Maddie and Bobby all his injuries matter to him only whether or not he gets to be a firefighter again. If he gets to be, he's okay, if not, his anguish begins. Alright, but why he's the only one whose the only therapy session on-screen showed as some kind of joke tho? They even bother to keep switching back and forth between Buck's session and the Grants' one, joking about how different two sessions go. At first I thought this happened out of 'well, media write men to costantly ready for sex and engrave 'hot people can't rape each other' a lot to audiences' usual ignorant point but the shrink came off as creepy to me tho, suddenly getting up to sit so close and touching his wrist likr that 'hmm, maybe because I don't like strangers touching me but maybe it's different in American culture, who knows?'

Then two seasons later they bother enough to mention that therapy session again with Bobby unconfortably saying the shrink is not working with the department anymore and I'm like ???? I'm so confused like are they gonna talk about it because they know what are they doing or they didn't, but know now, so let's just fire her as a consequence? Or are they going to bring this up again long later? Because I think there are many audiences out here and there who still buy into the toxic masculinity norms that 'men always want sex, if they don't at first but the women is hot enough, they'll eventually and it's okay' i don't think Buck feels like there's problem besides that she mentions how unprofessional it is for them to hook up but it's either this is that dumb concept of how cis straight can't control their lust around each other (but we lgbtqa+ are the one hyping over sex and shouldn't be around children, sure you bitchy society sure) or she's being manipulative and preys on hot patients.

#evan buckley #911 on fox #911onfox

[thewolfandthesea2]

Sorry let me address the miscoumm

it’s the fact you’re saying you’re attracted towards me

meanwhile I’m feeling as if I over stepped a boy dry with Walter and I don’t want to hurt you by that and that’s my own fears that’s been brought up because it’s been feeling I’ve been pushing yall away when the reality is that I just need some privacy

i guess it’s the trauma of rejction(?) no for me that would be the like fear of authenticity acceptance

because I’m so used to hiding all aspect of myself from being judge or having peop know me and I haven’t

that’s why it reads as fear of rejection

and I’m sorry because it’s when I do this it hurts and seems like what you do is under alptciated

and even now I sit here laughing like you idiot she just said she felt consumed and drown in love

and I’m over here like

how can I give her more what can I do for you what can I do to help make this right

snd I laugh harder because I forget that I said that Valentine’s Day has always been overrated brca yo love someone everyday is more important that just in holiday

even now I was in jail when Hey old friend let’s look back on all the crazy clothes we wore

cause baby baby we got so far to go! By hairspray played in my head.....

that was on the day I had a dream about.....(?) Bob market’ I had another dream about Bob Marley

shout out to the ancestors for knowing I’ll do this before...... smh

sotrh every time I think about Walter right now I’m likr

im sorry I hurt you that bad to make you think I didn’t care and I’m sorry that I seemed like I was pushing you away.

Even now I’m laughin sorry on the bus transferring and shit were I’m like you’re reminding me self love is important

even now I’m cracking up because she’s like

i made this nigga fucking tweak????? my lil old self

I love you sometime

i ain’t use to this tweaking shit

Even now I forgot that fucking drakeo had been playing in my head all day the I love you I love you I love you till I find a

and it’s still niggas turning me into brake

even bid you’re sitting here telling me be strong

[danny-move-o-blog]

Let me abt ur oc!!!!magenta is her name right?yell m everything

THE GIRL!!! buckle up bucko it’s gonna be a wild ride featuring @veryundecisive‘s purple and pink oowoowowowoo here we gOOOO

tw guns, trauma ment, death ment, family stuff, drama drama drama just general warning man 

i am soooooo excited that you asked me abt her!! okokok so like it starts with a bunch of Pain™ involving three good people named rogue, rose, and ash. they are friends trademark but they have a big falling out and rose gets married to her dream guy, rogue, so ash doesnt get his dream guy, rogue,

anyway so theres this thng and they’re involved in a big ol turf war concerning the city they are in and like rose and rogue (aww happy married w a daughter, magenta, and a bb boi, pink) are on one side and ash and unnamed ash’s wife (w two bbys white and gray awww) are on the other. neither of them knows that the others are on the opposing side or that they live in that city

so now we got that, yeah? you still with me? ok so now we get to the Pain

ash gets called in by the Big Boss for another Job™ so like hes all “gdi i just washed these clothes” but he gets the name and almost drops to his knees. it’s rogue flamingo (silly name shut up). ash is all o h n ooo ooooooo

meanwhile we gots the flamingos on a family outing. young lil magenta and parents rogue and rose are on a family thing probably picking up magenta from like piano lessons or going to the store or something and the pink boi is at home w cousin violet because Yes Hello I Am Eight Years Old I Can Watch The Baby. and ash yknow slams rogue into an alleyway and offs him right there, tears streaming down his face and victim’s family watching and crying. one swift gunshot and he’s gone. and of fucking course ash doesnt get hecking arrested because Big Boss Controls The City. after that rose moves with her sister(and sister’s wife) and they plan to skip town. they dont need that mess

but right before they skip town stuff happens that i wont get into detail because damn thats a whole other story but bluh now rose has adopted lavender’s (her sister’s) kiddos and she has magenta, pink, violet, and purple.great

so fast forward now we have grown bbys yeah and violets a private assassin pink is fucking obsessed with candy and gay asf, and purple is Literally 13 Year Old Me. and then there’s magenta. quiet, withdrawn, sad, and only listening to her music. she doesnt talk to anyone. she barely looks at people other than her family. she would die for her family just like her family died for her (sOBS) and like nobody in her family but rose understands why she is like that but they dont bother her about it. well, violet knows too, but thats another story man sjdkhl

then ash moves to this town. he’s tryin to leave his past behind, plus Big Boss (ah heck ill just tell u his name is Gold) is on his ass for leaving so he needs somme change. l i t t l e  d o e s  h e  k n o w

his oldest boi (white) comes home likr “!!!!!!dad omg i found a g i rlll and shes beautiful and pretty and-” so he goes on and ash is just sippin his drink and asks his girls name and he’s like “oh magenta flamingo” and ash fuckiNG S PIT S OU T HIS DR I NKK

anyway magenta is like super duper wary of ppl w white-ish/gray-ish hair so like, shes kinda ehhhh abt seeing white and stuff because He Looks Just Like His Dad Panic Time but whatever

eventually they  do get to talking even tho d amn theres so much drama and panic but hey white’s a nice guy besides being a fREAKING SQUARE- COUGH anyway yeah so they do eventually fall in love and stuff and it’s all good we got the nerdy ass “check out my fucking pistol skills” white grizzle and the quiet ass “ill fucking murder you with a pair of earbuds and some string” magenta flamingo.

also there’s gray, white’s lil bro, who falls in love with childhood sweetheart red, a fuckin gay, and theyre buff friend, chcartreuse, who will punch u and she can kick ur ass man. plus rusty and beige and orange and brown and baazaar and marigold and just aaahhhhhhhhh god

the au you saw was a circus au. magenta is a tightrope walker and white’s the snake charmer. ash is the ringleader and rose is a hoop/ring aerialist. rogue is a sword swallower and yeah. also

in most happy aus rose is a cousin of magenta and pink and then rogue rose and ash all get together and theres no death and magenta is just a normal quiet girl honestly just love my kids Blease i love them

#magenta tag #rose tag #rogue tag #ash tag #white tag #ocs #heart words