#trauma things

[pain-is-my-game]

The duality of a mother amazes me. It's either she constantly brags about you to friends and family or she's tearing you down and talking about how you're such a terrible child.

#i will never care if you reblog #mommy issues #toxic mother #childhood emotional neglect #toxic mom #tw vent #vent tw #eldest sibling #eldest daughter #eldest daughter syndrome #eldest sister #eldest kids #trauma things #thoughts to throw into the void

[unstablemotions]

My PTSD ass when the microwave beeps - no matter how prepared I make myself for the eventual noise:

#tw explosion #tw fire #tw war #idk just in case #actuallyptsd #actually ptsd #actuallycptsd #actually cptsd #actuallytraumatized #actually traumatized #ptsd memes #cptsd memes #trauma memes #ptsd things #cptsd things #trauma things #tw flashing #tw flashing images #tw flashing gif #my posts #personal

[battling-my-demons]

Who else is shocked that others are shocked when you talk about the trauma that you've been through. Like, it's not normal? Then you start to realize that it's not actually normal. Then you're even more shocked 😨😳😭.

#trauma #im still traumatized #actually traumatized #traumatic experience #post traumatic stress disorder #trauma response #mental illness #mentally unstable #lost #fake smile #numb #it's not normal #shocked #shock #trauma things

[piendoll]

No one will save me from myself. No one will keep me safe from what has touched me. I will never be the clean pure bodied angel I want to be. I want to be the one in my mind. Why can't they hold me and keep me safe forever.

#text #trauma #trauma things #HAHA #HAHAHAAAHAHAHAA #vent #paranoia #bpd #actually borderline #bpd blog #bpd feels #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #childhood trauma

[voidxbrat]

Learning to accept being safe and comfortable after a lifetime of nothing but chaos and horror is such a difficult process. It’s like, I want to just let myself be relaxed, I’ve earned after all we’ve been through, but… I still can’t. In fact, sometimes it feels like it’s even harder than it was before. It’s so confusing and tiring.

#adrihel tag 🦊 #personal vent blah #trauma survivor #trauma #cptsd thoughts #living with cptsd #actually traumatized #healing from trauma #did osdd #dissociative identity disorder #trauma disorder #trauma things

[korya-elana]

I had my annual health assessment for work today and found out that they provide free therapy for employees. And everyone else in the System just stared pointedly at me.

I've been in therapy before. It's never gone well. Once I was told the trauma I'd endured was my fault. Another misdiagnosed me with bipolar disorder and put me on the worst medication I've ever experienced. So while I fully acknowledge that we need therapy and whole-heartedly suggest it to others, the thought of going back fills me with terror.

And now I have no excuse. Because they're offering it for free and we need it and now the rest of the System is pressuring me but every time I consider calling the number to schedule I start to panic. I hate this.

#did osdd #plurality #system #alters #did system #trauma #trauma things #complex ptsd #therapy #therapy issues

[shrike-without-a-thorn]

It's okay if you defended your abuser(s) before you were aware of how badly they hurt you. It doesn't make you less deserving of recovery and safety from them now.

#mental health #mentally ill #mental illness #ptsd #trauma #cptsd #actually cptsd #actually ptsd #healing #trauma healing #trauma thoughts #trauma things #recovery #mental health recovery #cptsd recovery #ptsd recovery #trauma recovery #abuse survivor #cluster a #cluster b #cluster c

[lifeonkylesfarm]

i was only 5

i was only 6

i was only 8

i was only 9

i was only 10

i was only 11

i was only 12

i was only 13

i was only 14

i was too young for what they did

#trauma and recovery #traumatic experience #trauma victim #emotional trauma #trauma #trauma work #trauma warning #trauma writing #trauma response #trauma recovery #trauma related #trauma things #trauma talks #trauma is trauma #trauma is a bitch #trauma posting #autistic trauma #trauma stuff #trauma survivor #trauma support #trauma shit #trauma feelings #trauma healing #trauma coping #trauma brain #trauma blog #cptsd #ptsd #living with ptsd #complex ptsd

[flirts-with-dragons]

Not a professional but the crazy thing about ptsd is that you can be going through multiple ptsd's at the same time in different severities, complexities, and stages. Like for example I've got cptsd from my childhood abuse, cptsd from being bullied throughout school life, and at the same time, I've got regular ptsd from the mental hospital. I've also got another regular ptsd from cyberbullying. And the ptsd from the beginning of the pandemic! They're all at different recovery stages, they're all at different severities, and there's the differentiation between the forms of ptsd or cptsd.

I know some psychology student is gonna look at this and scoff, but I'm going through this and I know so many other people are. So many of us being poisoned by our own cortisol. Damn!

#ptsd #actually ptsd #trauma #childhood trauma #actually traumatized #actually traumagenic #complex post traumatic stress disorder #cptsd #complex ptsd #post traumatic stress syndrome #post traumatic stress disorder #post trauma #trauma things #ptsd things #cptsd things #abuse #tw abuse #abuse mention #pandemic #pandemic mention #tw pandemic #tw psych ward #psych ward #psych ward mention #not a professional

[v01dg0th]

“I hate you for what you did and I miss you like a little kid” that lyric sticks with me like nothing else, Phoebe Bridgers gets it fr

#motion sickness #phoebe bridgers #i hate you for what you did and I miss you like a little kid #song lyrics #lyrics #trauma things #actually traumatized #childhood trauma #cptsd things #indie music #textpost #personal #emotions #misery

[pain-is-my-game]

It hurts finding out that your mother is abusive. Especially if you're autistic like me and you've only just now realized that your childhood was in fact traumatic. I feel so stupid. All these years have passed and I never knew. How come I never saw it when it's so obvious?

#i will never care if you reblog #i think the only thing as bad as being your mother's daughter #is being your father's som #trauma things #vent #tw vent #cw vent #eldest daughter syndrome #mother issues #mommy issues #toxic mother #mentally unstable #toxic mom #toxic mothers #emotionally manipulative mother #childhood trauma #trauma coping #trauma #childhood abuse #cw toxic relationship #actually cptsd #c-ptsd #actuallytraumatized #hello #i am spiraling #I'm so very tired #thoughts to throw into the void

[simply-starryeyed]

being removed from a traumatic place/person feels so fucking bad

the new situation doesn't even have to be good it just has to be better than it was and that's a low bar

...not really sure how to do anything i find any enjoyment in without feeling like it'll end, not sure how to take care of myself, not sure if i'll ever remember that i can, not sure how to live without feeling watched

it makes you crave old bad habits to make up for the trauma that's no longer ongoing, and it is a feeling that feels like it may never go away, just a constant what if lingering in the back of my mind

#actuallytraumatized #actuallyabused #childhood abuse #trauma #trauma things #childhood trauma #abuse #child abuse #ptsd #cptsd #mental illness #post traumatic stress disorder #complex ptsd #mental health #actually traumatized #actually abused

[smokingonthathd]

I'm shattered

#aesthetic #dark aesthetic #grunge #late night #grunge babe #dark grunge #sad thoughts #trauma dump #poesia #mood board trauma #trauma #sadcore #sad #depressing quotes #depressing post #depressing life #sad aesthetic #trauma things

[angelbvn]

but what if— and what if— but— but i’m not— and this is different— what if?—

listen, the brain is a highly intelligent fleshy mass floating in cerebrospinal fluid, don’t think about it so much. your valid, and whatever odd things happen happen, if a specific answer helps look for it! but don’t get over worried if you don’t fit a perfect mold. make your own, i mean, how do you think molds were made?

#mostly did things #did stuff #system stuff #trauma things #traumagenic system #system help #dissociative system #did system #actually did #mental health #mental health awareness

[xx-pixiegutz-xx]

That awkward moment when you realize you have no support system, and things that you want to vent about have no ears to fall on. So you internalize what you would want to say to someone and run a mental simulation of what that interaction would be like and end up comforting yourself all the while feeling like you’re going to burst if you don’t spit the words out. Then you post on tumblr to speak into the void just to let it out lmao. This is my life

#trauma things #trauma sucks #trauma system #trauma symptoms #trauma support #mental heath support #overthinking #over this shit

[notabled-noodle]

it’s taken me a surprisingly long amount of time to realise that my fear of being an abuser may kind of tangentially be related to the fact that I’m an abuse survivor

#tw abuse #ok to rb #trauma #trauma things