#tricky is just having a good time

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

If I was in a lucid dream with a ghost, I would simply impress them with my blunt rolling skills

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs au #MDZS disco elysium au #This is brought to you by my Scrambled Egg brain - slowly burning up as I try to finish a long comic for this AU. #I hoped it would be done several days ago but I've changed things so many times....It is now Very Close to being done! #I probably should have just posted each page daily but at this point I'm just being stubborn. I want it complete and together. #Ruining the surprise a bit to say 'yeah its a digital art comic' #But its been tricky figuring out the style I want to use for it! #hence the swaths of MSpain(t) doodles that boil down to 'how would this look if I did X?' #I wanted to do a fully Black & White Ink style. But I scrapped it. Then I did small bits of colour. And scrapped it. Sigh. #This comic started out as just the first panel and then my brain went 'hold on. Its time to make a dumb joke' #Any disco elysium fans who finished the game probably know the scene I'm doing for the *actual* comic after seeing this <3 #Anyways I know in my heart LWJ would roll the worst blunts ever his first time. And then dedicate himself to the rolling craft- #-until he has finally mastered it. He would roll blunts so good that people would hire him and pay him a monthly salary for it. #But he declines. His master blunts are for his beloved and his beloved alone. #wwx would roll above average but after having lwj do it for him he can ever go back.

[brainless-tin-box]

They went to an arcade!!

#doctor who #classic who #second doctor #zoe heriot #jamie mccrimmon #doctor who fanart #art has been tricky the past couple of days but I’m glad I got this done! #I might colour it I don’t know #they’re just having a good time 👍 #edgars art

[bonefall]

Maybe I'll make a post on this at some point but like, something deeply fucked up about TNP and Po3 that people have totally forgotten about is how badly they try to whine that "Tigerstar Had Good Traits :("

Firestar does it, Brambleclaw does it, and they keep doing this after it becomes this GRAND irony that Firestar almost gets Tiger'd to death in a fox trap because he was too trusting. Bramble gets his pity award of keeping deputyship and then cries to his son about how No One Saw The Good In Tigerstar :(

And it's wiiiiild that no one else in this fandom has done anything with the fact that Leopardstar broke the Warrior Code to appoint Hawkfrost, who had no apprentice, an extremely aggressive and warmongering Tigerclone who says things like "Tigerstar wasn't the worst cat to look up to." ONLY qualifying trait was being kinda like Tigerstar.

And she practically did that the SECOND Mistyfoot went missing. And then Leopardstar continued to be one of the most violent and xenophobic leaders through Po3, joining with WindClan to attack ThunderClan.

What I'm getting at is that like, a few years ago, with books like "Blackfoot's Reckoning" and "Shadow in RiverClan" it's like they suddenly decided to retcon in a bunch of "redemption arcs" in hindsight. They just pretended like there was this grand high reckoning with TigerClan, when there literally wasn't, and if anything that caused SERIOUS problems for the cast that the authors didn't fully acknowledge as such.

And now ppl haven't actually read the main series and are just working with their recent memory of all these retcon books.

But TNP and PO3 are still there, and you can go and see the ACTUAL timeline where Leopardstar is really not apologetic at all, and Blackstar is a useful stooge for the very next wannabe dictator that strolls in, in spite of the new side content that COMPLETELY mischaracterized them for their plots to work.

#I just wish people could be more critical of this #And im not entirely anti-retcon. Mind you #But I am here because i think these retcons make them WORSE characters. It's BAD for a character to GET a book with a redemption arc and-- #Then they don't change at all and act like totally different people later in the timeline #And Leopardstar is the worse one between her and Blackstar BECAUSE she has sooo many active choices here #Im confident in my choice for BB the more I think about it. Leopardstar's dismantling of the bonehill was good #But it works better as a tragedy imo with the rest of the series in mind #That for a brief moment. A fleeting whim. She could have changed. #But she never did. #And Blackstar who was FAR less repentant at the time DID eventually turn around. #At the end of the day one of them appointed Hawkfrost as codebreaking deputy. #And the other did not. #And I think it's fucking bullshit the way that Leopardstar's retcondemption implies that Hawkfrost was just so tricky he mislead her #The old and experienced leader who had been fooled by a tiger before and was soso sorry for it. Just got tricked. #Like fuck off. She never had a redemption. Stop trying to tell me she did 15 years later #She's a girlboss who empires too close to the sun in pursuit of power and drags everyone down with her #Not a sad weepy smolbean #Bone babble #Warrior cats analysis

[inappropriations]

Lilith in Warrior Nun season 2

#warrior nun #lilith #sister lilith #i just really enjoyed her evolution this season #my gifs #anyway i'm still learning how to gif and i have yet to find a really good screencapping process #i feel like all the good tutorials are for mac users #if you've got a gif tutorial for windows i'd love to see it #coloring is still tricky but at least it's fun #the screencapping and timing and all that is not fun to troubleshoot #description in reblog

[pushing500]

I love the idea of Irwin "animatedly" doing anything. Somehow I never picture the abrasive, ascetic, brawler colonists as very "animated" characters, but maybe he's just trying to make the lesson engaging for the little guy. I bet Irwin is a great teacher.

Also, yeah, we got a dinosaur. His randomly generated name is Swampy. I have not had the courage to attempt drawing him yet. Dinosaurs are awesome but also very tricky to draw.

Irwin and Andy continued to hang out for a little while, playing with axes as every reasonable adult looking after a three-year-old would do.

But, alas, while teaching the child about mathematics and biology and tree-felling, it appears Irwin's abrasive trait has also been noticed. Kids do learn from example, but I guess nobody told Irwin that.

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#rimworld #gracie plays #The Animist Alliance #art #my art #traditional art #rimworld art #unpolished art #I can't decide if Andy would consider everyone in the colony as an aunt/uncle or not #Maybe they're all just “Mr” or “Ms” to him #but I do like the idea of Honourary Uncle Irwin #insults from small children just hit harder #They're so brutally honest all the time #Oh handy-dandy tip: don't give axes to three-year-olds #I doubt it will ever end well #Even if said three-year-old is being raised in a colony with a pet dinosaur #I'd still avoid the axe thing #It's tricky to find the right balance between “big round childlike eyes” and “lizardlike slitted pupil eyes” #But I think Andy is a cutie pie either way #Have a good day everyone! Love you! <3

[totallynottinsel]

I both physically and mentally needed to impulsively do these at 1am yes.

AVENTI NATION I’m curious to hear your thoughts, so what do you think the lil’ context is to these?

#genshin impact #aeventi #venther #spent way too much time on this #aaaaaa #I love the 3rd one honestly it’s really adorable #2 got a little tricky and there isn’t many images of Venti just casually sitting sideways sooo it’s alr #and 1 is perfectly good and happy #venti #aether #venti x aether #WHY IS AETHER LITERALLY THE MOST INNOCENT LOOKING ANGEL IN EVERY HANGOUT #LIKE we don’t deserve him #aight I’m about to pass out so have a lovely day or night or time #*passes out*

[guinevereslancelot]

job interview tomorrow 🙏

#working interview as an assistant prek teacher #i know kids are exhausting but its the only thing i have relevant experience in #and im tired of being rejected from every office job i apply to i need a job even if it pays 12 dollsrs an hour lol #anyway they'll pay for continuing education and the phone interview went really well #i think it seems like a nice place with nice people and she said she wouldn't start me at the bottom of the pay scale #so i might get more than i think #still probably not going to top sixteen an hour but its something #they called me in for prek even tho i didn't apply for that i applied for infant toddler teacher bc i have no relevant education #just lots of volunteer work with kids #but she said that one was taken and would i consider this one i didn't think i was qualified for so thats a good sign #and she seemed really nice #and the location is good its like a 17 minute drive and not too hard of a drive either #just one tricky turn #anyway #all job interviews fill me with impending doom and dread #even tho i interview pretty well i think i just never have the relevant experience to get the job lol #but this time it seems more likely #i have anotherdaycare job that literally pays twelve dollars an hour that wants to schedule an interview as well 😬 #but hopefully i get this one #the other one is closer but doesn't seem like as nice of a place to work tbh #anyway im so stressed!! #i took a sleeping pill which i may regret #i never take one before an interview bc im afraid i'll be super sleepy and tired and not want to get up and be less sharp at the interview #but then i NEVER manage to sleep the night before which i decided is worse lol #so hopefully that doesn't backfire #goodnight ❤️

[teleportationmagic]

mmmmm don't know if I'll ever get around to writing this, but while we're talking about Cass's missing period, may I present to you

Batgirl: Lost Days

We follow (in part) a mercenary hired by David Cain in the aftermath of her running away. His job is pretty simple - collect this impossible child through any means save death, and bring her back. This is is complicated by the fact that Cass is Cass, but simplified by the fact that she can't kill him either. They start in the middle of a city - Cassandra living off a mixture of scraps and theft, him sifting through corners looking for a desperate black haired girl in a sea of desperate black haired girls and largely getting a punch to the face whenever he does catch up. Eventually she gets bored of him and of this, and sneaks onto a random truck, headed away from the city. He in turn spends hours pouring through security camera footage and the shipping manifest until he can take a plane to the place we was supposed to arrive.

And then he hears that it got waidlaid by a bunch of bandits. We flash back to Cassandra who hears the bang of a gunshot, and swings out of the car to see a body slumping out of the truck, bright red. She's an immediate blend of motion, of course - but dead is dead. They are incapacitated, but she can't do. anything about it.

He finds her an hour later, and she insists that the take the gangsters with them, turning them over to the local police all the while he has one hand on her. Till it's done, of course. Then she runs away again, and he's left trying to follow her where she goes next.

#telespeak #If I was writing the as a comic (which this is very much designed to fit into the structure of) this would cover most of the first issue #choosing an outside pov partially comes out of how tricky it is to write a just a silent protag in comics #but mostly because it's good to have someone nipping at her heels to keep her moving and because Cass's pov of herself is so warped at this #point in time. contrasting the two would be interesting #plus there should be a redemption arc in early cass's story. she is who she is before bruce came along yanno? #cassandra cain

[godsfavoritescientist]

I have! It's been a while, but I remember it being good. I liked how the stuff with Liam makes the line "why would someone sacrifice everything for their dumb sibling" hit hard, and I remember the vindictive fury of the scene where he destroys his dimension being very well written.

For whatever reason, it didn't make me interested in flatland as a concept. I think I was a little bit lost when it came to what the world itself was like, apart from how shitty the society was.

My takeaway from the fic was "that was a really well done backstory fic!" but not "ohhh man I am Changed Forever", which might partly be because I was not invested in Bill as a character at the time.

Also, this is just a matter of personal taste, but I didn't like the idea of Bill getting his powers from a time wish. It's a clever use of pre-existing concepts in the show, I just didn't find it all that interesting of a concept.

#godrambles #i must confess. I still dont find the henchmaniacs interesting either. sorry </3 #it was a very good fic #it just didn't happen to resonate on the same level as other fics for me #its definitely not close to my headcanon for bills origins #I dont have a solid idea of what his origins are but every time I read a bill origins fic there are things that click and things that dont #I think part of bills backstory should be things a human mind is incapable of comprehending so that makes it tricky #cant exactly write an incomprehensible fic. the whole point is being able to read it #shoutout to pengychans fics for introducing me to the concept of billford iirc #where would i be without them

[sschmendrick]

thinking about friends i left on bad terms with whom i can never go back but who i still love. But I wasn't a great person then, wouldn't even call me a good person. I'm glad to see them thrive.

Feels bittersweet to look back at things I still have from them. I wish I was a better person then. I wish I could have been better for others. But also then I wouldn't have met the people I have.

I hope they don't think about me, ever. Feels somewhat bad to be able to look back and see the good moments we had and the good person they were, because I don't think they could do that. And also I don't think I deserve that.

#just some thoughts #it's a weird thing to naviguate these feelings and thoughts of repenting and my morals about doing the right thing #which right now would be to never interact with them again and let them free of me #idk said like this it sounds like i was a terrible person. I wasn't great i was in a very unstable state of mind and i hurt people around m #being that way and reacting to the world around me but it's no justification for the pain i caused them #i'm sad i lost these friends but they are in better situation now with better people #also this was like years ago #such a tricky subject #internet relationships are hard and so are real life ones #isolating yourself is such an easy fix but it's not doable for a long time #i try to be a better person. i try to be more gentle so the people i don't talk to for any other reason don't remember hurt but good times #i want to be a better person. #i don't want to hurt people and leave a mark of that hurt #i don't want to hurt people #i try not to #i've learned how to not make things worse but that feels like...such a small improvement #having more and more thoughts. i could ramble about it for so long

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hello! I was wondering if you’d be willing to take commissions someday 👀. No pressure tho! I just love your art so much

The short answer: "not at the moment, but it is very possible in the future'!

The slightly longer answer: I would have to figure out a good pricing and payment system! PD-MDZS is also where most of my free time goes, so until my life settles down a bit, I would be on the slow side to complete them.

#Ask #Even longer answer: I technically do - but it's been people I know irl asking and handing me physical money/bank transfers. #I'm working on one right now but the tricky part with pricing is that they want the physical copy of it - which is different to online comm #Fun fact: I have gotten a fair amount of commissions from a local hobbiest quilting club. #They show me their pintrest inspiration board and tell me size specifications and I draw out patterns on parchment paper. #I am probably being undervalued by a group of 50-60 year old women but they call me handsome and say I'm doing a good job so... #There was also someone a while back who asked about a tattoo design and I was *so* enthusiastic but I just got too busy to commit. #I truly do appreciate people asking - It is *extremely* flattering that you like my art enough to want to commission something! #I will re-examine my situation in a few months! Someday really is the keyword here; I think I'd have a lot of fun with it! #(All the money would go back into buying more artbooks and supplies too! What a dream!) #Through this blog I've gotten to know a few people who do commissions for a living who I will probably pester for pricing advice #Time really is the only barrier for me right now B*(

[you-are-my-neverland]

taking a creative writing intro course this fall and i’m so, so excited!!!!

#.txt #it definitely wasn't in the books but the other two courses i had slotted aren't going to work until the spring so i chose it as a filler #and then got really attached to it #first had to submit to the humiliating ordeal of confirming it was a personal interest course to my advisor but she was chill with it haha #(bc she was pushing for me to take another course that's only offered in the fall but i said maybe next year because i'm already taking two #other language courses) (it's too complicated for the tags) #i'm just genuinely so so excited #hoping it will consistently inspire me to write + i'll feel a little more learned #since i loved creative writing in high school but the first year of college was just crazy insane busy (which is kind of the vibe for my #future endeavors as well because almost full time work full time school ahahah) #of course scared that i'll have hardcore imposter syndrome and everyone else will be better writers and talented and passionate #which i want! but it also makes me feel a sort of weird vibe idk i know i'm good at writing. but the technical aspect is tricky #plus there's also weird feelings about childhood dreams - #as in i always wanted to be a writer but i learned to bite down on that dream because obviously it wasn't going to work out #so sometimes i feel like i failed myself by giving up on my dream even though i didn't really? #because studying something else was the practical choice for ensuring i have more prospects for career etc #plus i do like what i'm studying now #but writing was just what i always wanted you know #so i guess i can reclaim it a little now #school starts in two days though. haha *dies*

[feedingicetothedog]

any suggestion or theory that armand has manipulated louis' memory in any way about anything is so so so boring to me tbh. i thing it's far more interesting if louis has told himself a different story that has superseded 'reality' (however we choose to define that) and only through reciting it does he begin to see the cracks in the narrative he's created

#i think defining reality irt an autobiography is really tricky and not clear cut bc of the way we view our lives and experiences #like the perception of the events of our own lives is subject to fluctuation based on new experiences that reframe old ones #so being definitive on something as subjective as your own history is really complicated in my opinion #like to ask if the original 70s interview is true or is the new one true is not a good question. they're both true #bc louis saw the events differently at those specific points in time. and he sees these events differently than claudia saw them #and they both see it differently than lestat would have seen it. i don't think any particular person is lying it's just what happens w pov #jacob on the podcast said that he wouldn't describe what louis is doing as lying but there's a version of events he's convinced himself of #and when the veracity of that version is called into question it unsettles him and makes him feel unstable #which is a far more interesting character trait than he was brainwashed by his current husband to see his past differently #i don't know why i've been seeing so many posts insinuating armand is brainwashing louis lately but god i think it's such a boring theory #vampterview

[toytulini]

can i access the tunglr on work wifi but not discord. insane

#toy txt post #apologies in advance. nonzero chance this means i liveblog The Horrors. of slogging thru work #and or also liveblog. my own going insane over tryimg to remake character playlists now that the characters have evolved enough #that i look at their og playlists like.......what was i thinking #mostly. mostly Bytte #its just #hard to find things that match Bytte or Headloose or both of them and their. fucked up little dynamic both tonally and lyrically? #like in theory i Want to put Shakiras She Wolf on Bytte's playlist. its so iconic and In Theory. it could match. i could force it #in practice........god i dont even know how to expkain how it does not fit Bytte like....tonally and probably not even lyrically #i love bridge city sinners sound and a lot of their lyrics and would love to put them on both playlists but like lyrically and subject wise #theres just.....not much that fits? #i might be willing to try to explain Why It Doesnt Fit if i had more time ? and wasnt just typing in between printing labels..idk #and defining what doesnt work and why might in turn help me find more stuff that Does #i think i need to listen to a little more uhhhhhh. megan thee stallion? is that how u spell her name? for bytte. unsure. its so tricky #like half the shit on her playlist like only a couple lines in the song Really vibe w me idk #i actually just. remade her playlist completely the other day and im less mad at it now but it still could use a lot of improvement #theres not a good like.....flow between the songs? ig? #need to. figure out headloose now also.i think in fairness when i made Bytte's playlist i still hadnt really developed her as a character #much at all yet? idk #im not As Mad at either of Headloose's playlists theres just a bunch i need to add and reorganize and prolly need to trim? and tbh i prolly #need to just honestly make multiple separate playlists for all of them like i did for Suki.... #that will be similar and have plenty of overlap but have different nuances for the different eras of their lives #like. idk maybe Bytte needs to just have a Separate playlist for how her approach to and relationship w her sexuality evolves between #how she is as a human and. warlord. and then ig after she is w headloose which #is after she decides to become a demon but before shes fully transformed cos shes not dead yet so the evolution there is still #more subtle until she turns fully. and headloose gets 1) better at controlling the shapeshifting and healing factors and #2) Headloose getting more fucked up kinks. i guess. or learning more of his own fucked up kinks. or whatever #and the influence that has on her as well AND ALSO her like. lowkey toxicity in any attempts at long term rships #due to being a woman in a weird position in a point in history where we probably didnt have a word for aromanticism #...im out of tags. how does this happen everytime

[immortalsins]

it’s 9pm if i finish my stats revision now i would have completed all of today’s tasks which was a huge amount tbh and then i can ‘treat myself’ with the angel maker hannibal episode but that’s not a treat since it genuinely bothers me so i’ll turn it off and sleep ... the version of me in an hour doesn’t know what’s coming i’m going to get her so good

#tricking myself into being productive and healthy #in all seriousness i'm struggling rn #i'm focusing on just my first 2 exams which has taken some of the pressure off #of trying to make sure i dedicate equal time to all 5 modules #that's always a tricky balance #but this afternoon has been nonstop maths #i'm exhausted #and exams don't start until thursday #realistically i know i'll be fine #i am more than capable of the work and i know i have the discipline to complete it #but that doesn't stop me stressing #it's amazing weather rn and i can't go outside #i don't have time to exercise properly #i can't cook good food #my lecturers are not responding to emails #we've got one past paper for the hardest module #etc etc etc . #it's going to be over so soon #but this is the hardest stuff i've ever learnt #sometimes i open my books and it hits me that this is university electronic engineering #and maybe if i do well #i'll finally stop feeling stupid #and like i'm not supposed to be here #jhwvgjfaugskyhbjs glad i left here during a-levels i would have been unbearable #less than 3 weeks and i am free #biomed eng

[genderfluid-druid]

dropping thoughts like laundry into the aromanticism washing machine and watching them spin. taking little notes in a fancy journal titled "greyro??" and crossing them out, but then going back and scribbling an addendum. holding up an extravagant glass beaker full of a cool bubbling potion and peering at it through safety glasses that say "mind the amatonormativity!"

#i think there are two layers of questioning to deal with #the first layer is easier to see and that's the trauma-related layer #the second layer has been going stealth for years and is more intrinsic #the second layer *could* have been a contributing factor toward the first #so anyway the question is. as i work through the trauma and have the support of a therapist to deal with the first layer #does the second layer become an issue. or is there only the first and it's just worked itself deep enough that it now feels intrinsic #the thing is i do get crushes and i do yearn and i can't remember a time when i didn't crave the idea of a relationship #so that should be that right? not aro. at least not intrinsically. #but why did i always end up losing interest in the relationship once i had it #was it really just because i wasn't dating people i actively chose #honestly maybe. there *was* B. i don't know how much longer that might've continued if logistics hadn't put an end to it #and M....... M is a tricky one. because even though i left that relationship by my own choice. i kind of had to in order to not want to die #the thruple vibes with K were just so utterly rancid and M was just so incapable of doing anything to make it better #so yeah. maybe that one could've continued indefinitely IF two to three of the people involved had been #a leeeeetle more mature and well adjusted. maybe. but desire for a relationship was not the issue. #so okay. maybe im NOT aro. maybe i just have shitty taste in men. you know? that's a distinct possibility. #okay. so now on the other hand. let's look at how happy and enlightened I've felt since starting to *use* the aro label #cuz it actually is fantastic. the freedom to just feel love and affection for anyone I'm close to and not have to worry about #it being taken in a way i don't intend. that's great i love that #and not feeling any pressure to find The One? rocks. good shit. i can just let whatever relationships be what they're gonna be #and not have to fret over assigning a label and structures and expectations. hot shit. #(honestly it's helping me understand where M was coming from in a way that would've been. you know. pretty useful six years ago.) #i don't wanna lock myself in a relationship with friend E but it's great hanging out with her on a regular basis #cuz that's the amount of affection i feel for her. enough to chill and watch Owl House. not enough to be in each others' space all the time #(god idk if I'll ever want to be around anyone all the time ever again. that is a LOT for my limited batteries) #idk how physical affection fits into this yet. that area is still under development #but like. if my friends were cool with it and i knew they wouldn't take it too seriously then YES i would probably kiss almost any of them #and i THINK that's true and not me telling myself something i think I'm supposed to believe? i THINK. #'s always the possibility that i just very badly want to be kissed and my brain is looking to make that happen in a way that isn't scary #ah shit that’s 30 tags. i’ve done it again.