as much i loved getting to see zoya be crowned queen of ravka, a part of me still wishes that nikolai has been able to keep his crown. but only because i can’t help think about how much it would have meant to him to have his people accept him as their king even after finishing out that he was a bastard, that he had no right to crown. despite everything there is still a part of him that felt that he was unworthy of the crown that he really was what his idiot brother had always said, Nikolai Nothing. nothing to his family, nothing to his people. having his people choose him despite everything, chose him for who he is, for what he’s done for them, as Nikolai and not as a Lanstov would have meant the world to him. just thinking about it makes my heart hurt. i wish leigh had let nikolai have this. had let him have the crown and learn just how much his people loved him and that it was all because of who he is not because of the crown or who his parents are.
Watched a new show last night, mom’s folding laundry while listening to true crime podcasts, I felt seen for the first time in a long time ...
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"Have you ever seen the devil?"
"So how do you know who's the devil and who isn't?"
—Anthony C. Winkler.
Death dances silently in everyone's shadow and she doesn't give a damn . So , why give a damn about her ?
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Why are so many gamers so fucking stupid when it comes to crunch culture
That shit actually makes games WORSE because exhausted and stressed employees are more likely to half-ass their job and not be passionate about their work anymore
And even IF crunch made games better it's no excuse for workplace abuse! Personally, I'd rather a game have fewer features or come out later than have human fucking beings in the industry suffer and break down and need months-long breaks due to a borderline deadly amount of stress and work. NO stupid game is worth the lives of people, no matter how good it might be, and if you think otherwise you need ticking therapy because there's something seriously wrong with you.
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i see you've picked up tifa! of course, you're great. just out of pure innocent curiosity, do you have any canon ships with her? :D
UMPROMPTED ASKS // always accepting questions about the muses c:
Hi anon! Yeah, I had been interested in her for a while and it only took a tiny bit of encouragement for me to do it hahah And thank you for the compliment 🥰
As to the actual answer to your ask, it really depends? There are some I can see and that I like, but sometimes I think they’re just as amazing as platonic relationships. So I don’t have anything really specific in that I can only see X ship for her romantically, or that I can only see those ships as romantic relationships. Right now she’s brand new on the blog too so as I write her more the answers here may be expanded, too (it happened a lot with some of my other muses, and I grew to like some ships I didn’t initially like).
But getting to the point of what I think you want to know (and keeping in mind my familiarity with the characters and everything is mostly through the Remake)! I really like Cloud/Tifa, it was what I leaned towards while playing the FF7R, but to be fair I can just as easily see it as platonic. I know many people ship Aerith/Tifa, too, and I honestly can see the potential and like the idea, although I think their friendship is truly really wonderful and much more important than either a romantic relationship between them or between either of them and Cloud. And although the same still applies in this regard, I like them as an OT3 as well.
Other characters I’ve seen her shipped with I don’t know well enough or haven’t seen them interact enough with her to have an opinion yet uahsduhasudh Except Barret. But in this case that’s a big no for me. And anyways, when it comes to writing, the usual applies: I never assume a romantic ship without talking about it, I’m just as interested in developing Tifa’s relationships with other characters without them being romantic even if I consider them possible ships, and last but not least, I’m always open to developing stuff I didn’t mention here, romantic or platonic.
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💭... Nothing... 💭 😑
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some of you are really set on this “true pairing” thing and i got to say. considering i have written thousands of words specifically for lea/mc. it’s a comment that is really genuinely starting to wear on me. at this point i literally can’t discuss two of my own characters because i keep getting these messages.
especially when i specifically answer one of these messages saying that it bothers me & that me, as the author, is saying there is no true pairing, and then to STILL get more of the same and people literally arguing with me. the author. the creator of the characters.
in general i know people have preferences and you can choose not to read something because of it. but you can do it without notifying the author in a weird, guilt-trippy message. do you expect me to suddenly change my entire plans for two of the main characters because of an anonymous message? or do you just want to make me feel bad? both answers are pretty shitty.
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🎧 🎶 " God of creation
There at the start
Before the beginning of time
With no point of reference
You spoke to the dark
And fleshed out the wonder of light
And as You speak
A hundred billion galaxies are born
In the vapour of Your breath the planets form
If the stars were made to worship, so will I
I can see Your heart in everything You've made
Every burning star
A signal fire of grace
If creation sings Your praises, so will I " 🎶
- So Will I (100 Billion X) - Hillsong Worship
What’s scarier than the shortness of life is how much we end up wasting it.
Being loved and loving back, to be thought of in respect and to be apart of other people’s memories... that’s success, that’s rich... I know if I have my health and my children are happy and healthy I am truly the richest man in the world x
Ladies and gentlemen, my fathers words.
(I asked him what his idea of success was)