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#trust me im tired of it too but like the pandemic nothing is over bc youre tired of it or ignore it
flintbian
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4 years
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Ha. You know what? I'm fucking tired of this
#im tired of caring more
#and just because my pain is constant and forever doesnt mean it should be ignored and that i dont still feel it and that it's not hell
#trust me im tired of it too but like the pandemic nothing is over bc youre tired of it or ignore it
#and im tired of being ignored
#im tired of me handling my pain and disability with grace being taken for granted
#and like everyone forgets how i learned and continuously learn to do that through so many tortures
#if i cried and raged every time i was in pain id be doing it 24/7 but i don't have that choice and after ten years me even barely taking
#about it gets fucking ignored bc 'it's just the usual' but hey newslash it's still the most painful illness in the world
#im still struggling and no one wants to even listen or acknowledge that and
#god others cant even have a shred of empathy occasionally they dont even have to live through it
#so im tired and frustrated and my therapist says the only way to release my anger and frustration is to talk about it but i dont
#really have anyone to talk to...i mean ive tried
#so this is going here now
#maybe i just want someone to care and it seems im always the one who cares more about others than they do me
#always being the one to care more to forgive to be the bigger person to handle it to bare it to reach out to quell anger to put them first
#no one ever put me forward enough to even manage and now my entire body and soul have been consumed and ill never get any of it back
#if someone had fought for me back then maybe i could've gone into remission
#but even back then as a kid that the masses are supposed to care about the innocent victims even then no one did
#no one cares about cases like mine we just have to grin and bear it or die
#the people who were supposed to be there for me condemned me and nowadays I'm so good at grinning and bearing...
#but even when i reach out...so im tired and want to stop trying
#yeah others cant fix you and i dont think i could physically rely on someone else enough to do so
#but is it too selfish to want a single person to care enough for once?
#well whatever
#im going to try find the will to live in a book
#unfortunately for me all the ones i read recently sucked but aint that just the way with me
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