“I’ve been in love with someone that didn’t love me back, and I’ve been loved by someone that I didn’t love back. And I don’t know which is worse: to be broken or to break another soul.”
I think that's what happens when you've lived a lonely childhood. You get too attached to people as you get older, in the hope that they'll give you the care and love that you missed out on and never leave you.
Aren't endings supposed to be sad? Everything has its validity and had to bid goodbye after it serves its purpose. Then why the heck do we look for a happy ending?
The truth is, if they wanted to say something they would. But sometimes it’s easier to hide in the shadows of silence - where there truly is no responsibility - than it is to confront the truth.
I'm on the deep end
Sinking underwater
I forgot how to swim
The pain weighs me down
I can't catch my breath
The harder I swim
The deeper I get
Would I resurface to get the oxygen I need?
Should I keep swimming or just let go?
Feeling like I'm going to sink forever
Is this a bottomless pit of water with no floor to push myself back up?
Should I let the water fill my lungs?
The time passes I can't keep going like this
Weighed down by the pressure
I open my eyes
wake up to do it all over again
Maybe one day I'll be able to swim up
So many people feel like they're helping. Giving advice about situations they aren’t in or feelings they can’t relate to. I’m sorry, for somewhere along your life someone taught you that you had to fix everything that was broken. Clocks that aren’t working don’t always need repair, they just need to be heard the next hour… and the hour after… and after…
I knew it the first time I felt you, this danger. I wanted to scream and bolt the door, curl up in my little bed and sleep and sleep. But you came closer. I felt you every step across the moor.
The worst pain is still being in love with someone but not being with them. Having to love them from a distance. Having to close the chapter you never wanted to end.
On the authority of Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him), who said that the Holy Prophet Muhammad (ﷺ) said:
Allah the Almighty said: “I am as My servant thinks I am. I am with him when he makes mention of Me. If he makes mention of Me to himself, I make mention of him to Myself; and if he makes mention of Me in an assembly, I make mention of him in an assembly better than it. And if he draws near to Me an arm's length, I draw near to him a cubit, and if he draws near to Me a cubit, I draw near to him a fathom. And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.”
- 40 Hadith Qudsi - Hadith 15 It was related by al-Buhkari (also by Muslim, at-Tirmidhi and Ibn-Majah).
Don't be scared to start over if something doesn't work out the first time. Keep in mind that you're not beginning from scratch this time; instead, you're building on your previous experience.