#try not to use disposables

[ilynpilled]

why must everything that the text clearly states atp be misconstrued like i really dont get it he has plenty of flaws in that relationship but we, and cersei, know that he was ready to kill robert for just the disrespect of the cheating if cersei said the word. he doesnt concern himself with the personal consequences, he is reckless, detached from a lot of things, and can close his eyes at the future if he doesn’t want to acknowledge it. also the concern over the “shame” and ned type judgement feels so overestimated to me atp. he never regrets aerys, he is mad at how he is perceived (but again, notably doesnt try to rectify it by telling the truth for a lot of complex reasons), but he would never take it back. if he believes its the right thing to do, and is not overdosing on copium trying to juggle vows he cares about, he will do it, reputation be damned. though he has selfish concerns regarding being viewed as good, the internal matters so much more than the external: see weirwood dream: who actually shows up? what makes the fire go out? “it was not him. it was never him”, see the trebuchet fiasco, see the choice in adwd. why shouldnt we take cersei at face value when she implies that if jaime knew about the physical abuse he would have killed him? he loves and cares about cersei to an insane degree, even if he can be selfish toxic and unhealthy too. i really find it very very difficult to imagine that he wouldnt have killed him based on almost every single part of his characterization.

#ik its better to reply than to do this but i dont use my twitter for fandom and i keep seeing this general sentiment over and over again #like it makes him so inconsistent and nonsensical #i don’t understand this whole jaime was never there for cersei prehandloss he was at her disposal for almost everything he would have maimed #a child just bc she asked like what??? #u think that wouldnt have shamed him?? #he gave up almost everything for her at 15 #and im gonna be real if u r frustrated by jaime burning the letter being framed as this grand triumphant redemptive choice #by people #which i get i dont think its framed like that either #its just as unfair to treat it as the opposite #it is the end of a certain delusion #which is why the joanna dream is the focal point #and #he can divorce himself he has no obligation to die to try save her atp #and remain her sword #i dont see him as the literal devil for that sorry #i feel like some of u feel the need to misconstrue his character to make some of these choices out to be as bad as possible

[canisitsnotlupus]

Hey y'all,

We recently found a rabid skunk on the farm today (10/17) and I need to do rabies boosters on everyone. It's caught me off guard, especially in the middle of the month when my SSDI check is pretty much gone, and I just don't have the money to cover this when it's so sudden and pressing to get done ASAP.

No one has to donate, I will definitely try to figure it out, but I was told by friends to ask anyway, so:

COVERED

I will be scheduling the farm vet to come out to do it as that is easiest for me instead of carting 2-3 dogs 40 mins away and taking all day to get everyone done, but it does incur a travel fee. edit: thanks all! got it covered, will be calling the farm vet first thing tomorrow to get him to come out and booster everyone. this has been a NIGHTMARE.

#game warden came with a biologist and took it to dispose of it #literally so scary to deal with #i can also pay people back if you want just give a message and i will figure it out #i AM sorry to ask for this i was in a good place and was saving for black friday and will obviously be using that but it's not enough #and won't cover the entire bill and they're closed rn so idk if they will work with me on it #basically panicking but would rather have the peace of mind to cover it #trying to save for black friday at least but it kept getting used for like “food” and “heating”

[chirpsythismorning]

We gotta start somewhere! For those that haven’t yet, go read everything you can from the official WGA site for the strike. Maybe we can put our heads together and come up with something that could actually have at least some impact. It’s not like we’ve got much else to do anyways…

#byler #stranger things #it seems like picketing and protesting is their top priority to pressure like actively #but as we know… most of us don’t live anywhere near where the protests are happening #notably Netflix hq in our case #even though there are quite a few protests throughout the US #most are in major cities where filming is prominent #so not exactly an option for most of us #the main thing we have at our disposal is social media and being able to come together that way #idk I just feel like we really should be trying bc they must be desperate if they’re willing to notify byler tumblr #and now it’s my duty to show up

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

#‘out of nowhere’ she says like she hasn’t been doing a lot of reading/thinking recently about various tragic messy breakups #and the later regrets of the parties involved #anyway. tell me not to text her #it’s been over two years since the last time we talked… absolutely no reason to break that streak now. lord give me strength #she was really fucking mean to me! like objectively intentionally unwarrantedly cruel! it ruined an entire year of my life #and fundamentally changed me as a person on a deep level! there’s a lot of things i used to like about myself that i don’t think i’m ever #going to get back #and yet every once in a while we have to do the whole ‘maybe i could make things right’ song and dance 😔 #the thing is most of the time i’m not even really angry with her anymore like enough time has passed since all the shit went down that #really i just sort of look at her behavior and feel sad. both because of the impact on me but also because of the ‘that’s really how you #felt you needed to act towards someone who cared about you? you couldn’t have just expressed your feelings in an honest and productive way #instead of just lashing out in the cruelest possible way and ruining the entire relationship beyond hope of repair?’ #and i feel bad and sorry that it went that way and honestly i kind of pity her and hope she’s gotten some of her shit worked out #so i’m not like. actively pissed off at her anymore. but also i can’t think about her without thinking about the worst year of my life so 🙃 #i don’t actually feel that trying to reopen that door would be very healthy for me at least #we did try a Reconciliation of sorts a couple of months after the initial falling-out and while it was kind of helpful for me in that she #like. apologized lmao. and affirmed that i wasn’t crazy and she did in fact On Purpose say the most hurtful things she possibly could have #said to me given the information she had at her disposal. and that i really had not done anything to her that could warrant that. etc. #it also left a sour enough taste in my mouth that i just don’t see a future where the two of us spending time together is enjoyable for me #and yet… the regret will always live inside me i think. maybe if i were a stronger person… #caseyposting

[lavenderjewels]

Never getting over this scene. the chapters right before this of gojo thinking quickly while dozens of people get killed but not hesitating in making risks. all this cool guy behavior only to be completely frozen by the corpse of his best friend saying his name. right when there’s a flashback of jogo saying not even a thousand lives could distract him, but kenjaku knowing without a doubt geto’s could.

Then gojo immediately experiencing for the first time what he just put others through by activating his domain. Reliving years of his past actions and experiences with geto (who marked his “youth”) in just a moment.

Meanwhile, Kenjaku is taunting Gojo for not getting rid of Geto’s body or forgetting Geto when we know Kenjaku fully centered their plan around Gojo being affected by Geto. And with Kenjaku knowing Geto’s memories, Gojo’s last words to him, and the throw away line that Gojo couldn’t destroy the body after JJK 0 despite acting positive afterwards with his students... It’s so heartbreaking, but incredibly written

#jjk spoilers #gojo satoru #geto suguru #kenjaku #id in alt #satosugu #there’s also just. a lot with the light novel (technically not canon so yknow) mentioning gojo trying not to get nostalgic and make faces #when getting ready to kill geto #combined with not disposing properly of his body and recent chapters with wanting to properly mourn/bury him.. #it’s pretty clear gojo just. has not fully processed everything that happened #and kenjaku being kenjaku used it against him #not like it’s the first time they’ve used someone’s love to emotional manipulate someone using a corpse 😰 #anyways it’s one of my fav manga moments and just everything. the villainy the reveal the themes gojos having a distinct weakness #chef’s kiss #this isn’t even an analysis or anything and I feel like this scenes are constantly brought up by fans #but idc I’ll add to it #this is also just about gojos side but wow when you consider Geto’s role in the story too and in these moments. that’s a whole other thing 😭 #but I already rambled too much

[sysig]

One better (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax! #Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!! #It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!! #Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u; #Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to - #Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/ #It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :') #Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone? #''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔 #That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :) #I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol) #I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers! #Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

[nogenrealldrama]

The overwhelming urge to spend an entire train ride just looking out the window and Feeling Really Strongly about things

#waste disposal for me at the moment #not quite ready for a full rant though #I keep trying to write during the commute but thoughts about compost and single use plastics aren’t letting me

[tea-earl-grey]

what really haunts me about trend of replacing actual human-made art with AI art is that 2 years ago, just prior to all of these AI generation apps, i took a cognitive science class which had a whole unit on Artificial Intelligence and Machine Learning and we had an in-class debate on whether AI art was art or not. and i know for a fact that many students made art and had aspirations to work in creative fields (me included) and when we were discussing where AI art would go in the future not a single person out of the 30 people there suggested there would be mass attempts for industries to mechanize art or replace human artists. because to a group of people who a) knows how artificial "intelligence" actually works and b) generally knows how art is made (whether it's writing or painting or acting or singing or whatever) it's just INSANE that there could be any attempt to conflate the two.

and maybe it's telling of our naivety that none of us (professional researchers included) considered that so many people don't really know how AI works or how art is made or that the majority of corporations just sincerely don't care about human-made art and only care about money. but it's also telling how quickly we went from funny chatbots and indecipherable abstract shapes a computer put together to full on professional projects using generated images based off of stolen work rather than paying an artist.

#idk what i'm trying to say here but it's been going around my brain #and even the speed at which *my* opinions have changed is shocking just because i never considered how badly tools would be misused #the last time i talked to someone studying and researching ai they were planning on abandoning the field because of how fucked up it became #like my problem is not with ai itself. it genuinely is an interesting field with potential for useful research. #my problem is how quickly tech bros and corporations looked at a developing tool and decided that artists are disposable #anyways i have a 100 degree fever can you tell #ai discourse #my posts #anyways i even think that there *can* be ai art but the art is in the act of programming (on not stolen works i might add) #and the work acting as a commentary on human made art #the art is wholeheartedly not in someone paying to type a few words in a search bar and seeing what comes up

[mayordoi]

hey everyone i cannot stop drawing my oc. look at my oc boy. this is your problem now

#mayor doidles #mayors ocs #asc xane #digital art #misc style #i wanted to try using my watercolor brushes again since theyre real neat but apart of me wants to try coloring this again with a slightly\ #different method. luckily i preserved the lineart so i pretty much have an eternal coloring page at my disposal #man i should get in a habit of saving my lineart instead of merging it during the process… #would anyone be interested in me releasing transparent lineart as coloring pages? i think those are cool and wonder if theres an audience #for that. would probably just be my fanart tho :’) #that reminds me i have a very big ambitious project for a certain anniversary coming up that i have not started yet #but im excited to give it a go since i think it’ll be a fun lineart job #and i def wanna release the colorless version of that for folks to color #hehehehehe >:3

[dbphantom]

Near scribbles from home

#Been trying to get better at paneling lately #When I was a kid I used to just draw out massive grids of squares #Looked like a fucking nuclear waste disposal site warning #With furries <- my Toontown fursona + all my friends #Cruddy rambles #Veneer #Near posting

[lucky-fy]

Would people like it if I documented my steps for creating a Kuro (Dungeon Meshi) cosplay?

#fun fact: it started with me going “would it be possible to use a puppy play mask as a base for the head?” #the answer is “absolutely no” #just learn how build a fursuit head; it’ll probably be cheaper too #since all the good looking pet play masks cost a fucking arm #dungeon meshi #kuro dunmeshi #cosplay #fursuit partial #my main concern will be to try and avoid using faux-fur as much as possible since I heat up easily #obviously there’s no way to avoid it for the head and neck #I’m entertaining ideas for the shoulders and upper arms though #I already did a test run for the feet by sewing and stuffing paw pads on a disposable sock #not perfect by any means #but now I know what to look out for; once the actual cosplay pair arrive

[supercantaloupe]

found the cat trapped in a roommate's bathroom. fucking great

#he completely blows off anything we try to tell him about keeping an eye on this animal #i'm gonna throttle him #he also clogged the kitchem sink which i had to clean up because he poured solids down the drain #when the basin with the garbage disposal is literally right next to it #and HE whines about how bad HE wants to move out so he can have more freedom #because i guess being a 27 year old man living with 22 year old women who ask him to do basic housekeeping things like #cleaning his fucking dishes #is too Stifling for him. #also he's not even doing the bare minimum to help us find a replacement roommate when he leaves #and hasn't even fucking told us a date hes moving out yet #which means we're probably going to each have to take up an extra $500 to our rent for every month we're trying to find a replacement. #i swear he's a nice guy but he's kind of a shit roommate #i wanna talk about me

[stonersolana]

it's so fun when the people who took everything from you claim to be the real victims. like, y'all want to dump a years-long friendship in a dumpster fire just cause you're in a romantic relationship and that's the only thing that matters to you, go fucking ahead. but don't pretend to be the victim when you were the one who destroyed it.

you don't get to take literally everything from me and claim that you were the real victim when the only thing you didn't take was the skin off my bones.

#sunbun speaks #i keep having nightmares/memories of the 3-ish people who literally left me with nothing but the clothes on my back #and kept asking for more because it wasn't enough #or the fact that every single one of them basically turned into whoever their partner wanted them to be and would ditch their own parents #if their partner told them they didn't like them anymore #using me as a scapegoat whenever they had negative feelings and accuse me of being the source instead of a voice of reason #or just straight up getting pissed at me when i wasn't going to play their toxic game #and by the end of it all i had nothing: no clothes or any of my stuff no money nowhere to go and no friends #they destroyed my life while i was barely a blip in theirs #people who grew up with wealthy parents are fucking pricks #because yeah that's another thing they all had in common other than being codependent af: they all grew up with upper-middle class parents #they just took and took and took and tossed me aside #cause btw it's really hard to get back a lifetimes worth of stuff in only a few years with no money #i still remember everything they took from me and not just material possessions #and in the end they wanted me to apologize to them for being inadequate in filling my role as emotional punching bag #only for none of them to feel any remorse and get mad at me for implying they did anything that i didn't deserve #even looking at my life now i only have my partner and my kids #as much as i try i can't fix the fact that I'm autistic which means i will always struggle with human interaction #so it's not like it's easy to make friends #especially not friends who don't religiously devote themselves at the alter of toxic monogamy and view anyone else as 'extra' and disposable #in a matter of three years those three people took everything from me and despite it being 6 years later i am STILL recovering what i lost #how can you destroy someone's life who never did anything to you and still consider yourself the victim

[lostcryptids]

i got some of my film photos back from phily :P

#i took more on some disposables..i was trying out a new (old) camera that used to belong to my grandfather #my other camera sadly broke so im glad to have another one #I used kodak film and yet a lot are kinda cool toned i think it was just way too cloudy the days i went

[lastnightonthecyclone]

Another fucking wip on fnaf because inconsistency is my skill

#In my au the crying child kind of accidentally helped kill Charlie lol. He pushed her outside and locked her in the rain. Tee hee #And THEN. He went to go check on her because he felt a little bad since Sammy was going ballistic #and accidentally witnessed the last bits of his dad murdering Charlie. He then hides and was going to wait for his dad to leave but #Since OBVIOUSLY will needs to dispose of evidence he was going to stay there. So he kind of. Went over to his dad and they had a mutual agr #Will in return started treating him “better” and also stopped using him for experiments (as much) and instead tried doing remanent stuff #And then Mike and Elizabeth got kind of envious (this was also their father subconsciously pitting all three against eachother ) #so then they started to bully cc #Sammy comes into play because he also kind of helped cc push Charlie outside because Charlie was deemed “the favorite” and Henry truly #Never bothered to try and care for Sammy. This is not saying he treated Charlie good either #but. He treated her VISIBLY better than Sammy #and Sammy looked up to William (this is actually kind of relevant and is the reason why security breach and help wanted exist because… #Sammy saw William and his work as amazing and even when he figured out he used actual children for his stuff he continued it needlessly. #He usually spent more time in the Afton household than his own which is. Quite sad. William actually thought of him as the perfect nephew/ #Apprentice and taught him in his ways. He’s as old as Micheal #and also the Freddy bully. (I’m figuring out how to not make him white #Oh. Right #also cc was friends with sam #(the one u shouldn’t have killed) and she has two siblings #Why is this relevant. WELL. BUDDY. So the Bonnie bully is in fact Jeremy.F #he has an older sister named Ximena. She worked at Fredbear’s diner and then circus baby’s pizza world #and Jeremy was friends with Micheal AND SAMMY. eventually after Will murdered the og kids #Jeremy was tasked with distracting Mike. #Their younger half sibling is Sammy. Jeremy is also later tasked by William to distract Micheal in any means possible from what Will is doi #Ximena’s life was essentially theatened and in order for will to ensure the animatronics don’t target her Jeremy was forced to distract mik #Even though he was still grieving for his sister and grappling guilt over cc. Mike also was somewhat mean to him sometimes and Jeremy a #Babysat Elizabeth sometimes. By distraction William never clarified so Jeremy kind of went for a romantic ish approach. He’d constantly tak #There’s more but I don’t want to explain 😭 #Mike out from his house

[glittertimes]

Maybe I am just a Taurus but having a moral backbone is literally so easy!

People who use their trauma or marginalized identities to justify the harm they cause make me so mad like I have crazy CPTSD and I can barely leave my house some days. And yeah all of us mess up and harm people sometimes but not being a shitty person is literally so easy!

#do you lose people and get villainized in the process of standing up for your values? absolutely #is it painful and not fun most of the time? also yes #but I’d much rather be sad and working towards liberation than trying to be something I’m not just to uphold a shitty system #that disposes people once they’re no longer useful #Audre lorde said it best ‘your silence will not protect you’ #sometimes being afraid to speak up or self reflect and hold yourself accountable is going to cause harm #and you don’t get to tell ppl they weren’t harmed just because you were too afraid to speak up #personal