#trying to figure out life

[amistytown]

Just stopping by to share this!!! I AM SCREAMING AND CRYING 🥺🥹😭🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡 MY PERFECT DEMON, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

I hope I can pull him one more time before it’s over and good luck to everyone who is pulling 💕

#i'm still on break #trying to figure out life #it's hard when i feel hopeless but also want to get better #i'm doing my best #also feel embarrassed when i talk about my feelings flkdsjfkdlsa #i'll reply to everyone when i return #thanks to the kindness everyone has shown me #noelle plays nightbringer

[starting-anew-fresh]

Hello

I am going to go ahead in writing a short introduction on myself. I hope that in doing so, I will be able to better understand myself, my plans, and ultimately the goals I want to set for myself.

My name is K and I am currently a Correctional Officer. Before this, I was studying biology. The reason for pausing my education had to do with the fact that my wife had joined the Air Force and was being moved to another state. We ended up moving over 1200 miles away. We both made an agreement that I would give her 5 years to make any decisions she wanted to make, both career and educational goals she wanted to meet, and that I would get those same benefits afterwards. We are currently on Year 4 and i am now beginning to embark on the journey of organizing myself by both figuring out what I want to do, both educational and career wise - especially now that we are moving close back to home.

I know for sure that I want to finish my degree in biology. The only issue is where (what college would I go to) and what I plan on doing with the degree. I've always had this life-long passion of doing medicine. The origins for this passion is a story for another day. I also have experience in working in a research laboratory. Hopefully through nearing the completion of my degree, will I have a better understanding on what exactly I want to do with my life.

In summary, I am a 28 year old guy who

has not finished his B.A. in Biology

hasn't been in college in 4 years

is deciding if medicine is even possible for someone like me

is this journey even possible

I am lost, confused, unsure, but overall, haven't given up.

Welcome to my journey.

#biology #medblr #study #studyinspo #dropout #goingbacktocollege #trying to figure out life #new

[laughingcatwrites]

As a reminder that good exists out there, a coworker recently confessed to me that he found out his child is questioning their identity (kid's gender redacted for this post). The kid is keeping it from him, so he can't say anything to them or show that he knows, but he's doing his best to get mentally prepared and educated so that he'll be ready whenever his kid does feel comfortable enough come to him.

For context, this guy is a big, bulky middle aged dude who loves sports and typical outdoor "manly" activities. As his coworker and friend, I know he's a kind and sweet teddy bear of a person, but his kid probably views him as a stern, authoritarian figure, the way most teenagers view their parents. His family lives in a conservative area, so I'm sure between that, their dad's looks and interests, and the fact that their dad is a Figure of Authority, the kid is worried that they won't be accepted.

But you know what? When he found out about his kid, the first thing he did was reach out to his closest queer friend and ask for resources for parents of questioning children. His biggest fears are that his kid will be bullied or discriminated against and won't feel comfortable enough to be themself. His second action was to find himself a mentor in another parent who went the same situation (kid coming out in a conservative town). The other person is preparing him for some of the struggles his kid may face and the fights he may need to take on as a parent to make sure his kid is safe and treated well.

Something I want to emphasize for people focused on language as the primary method of allyship is that when we spoke, he used some outdated terms and thoughts about gender and sexuality. That does not make him bad. These were the terms and thinking used about questioning teenagers when he was growing up and he never needed to learn more current ones. But now that he does have that need, he's throwing himself in head first because that's his kid and he's darn well going to make sure that his kid feels welcomed and has a safe place to be themselves even if they never come out to him.

#I'm so proud and happy for my coworker and I've been trying to figure out how to let him know how amazing I think he is #what gets me the most is that he's keeping this super down low to avoid giving any hints to his kid #he has a lot of queer friends so he already is known as an ally but there's always a chance it will be different if it's family #and he took that chance and crumpled it up into a ball and slam dunked it into the garbage for three points #and decided that even if his kid wants to hide it from him for the rest of his life he will still do what he can to make their life better #pflag #parents doing their best #parenting win #good news #allyship

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 169

Danny is from a world where everyone has wings, even if most have long since lost the ability to fly. Something about loading and aspect ratio, wings being too small, body too heavy, now mostly used as display, whatever. 

It doesn’t matter even if he had blueprints from when he was like six of a jetpack to help fly. It won’t work anyway and hey, he has his ghost form! Which uh, might be perhaps, affecting his wings which were maybe sort of scorched black and practically down to the bone thanks to the accident. 

It doesn’t matter, he swears. Though he’s admittedly relieved to see the new feathers growing in are different from Dan’s angry sunset. Even if they’re not even supposed to be able to grow back. Alright, this is fine, no one is going to notice! It’s not like everyone knows about the poor Fenton kid whose wings were absolutely destroyed thanks to an accident! It’s fine. 

He’s not flying in a half-panic towards the Far Frozen while crying because his wings are coming back and he’s so scared. He didn’t panic and instantly fled the moment Jazz pointed them out while changing the bandages. 

He definitely didn’t trip over something while wiping away said tears and blacking out from all the stress and all of his problems that he definitely mentioned to someone and isn’t keeping a secret. Definitely. 

Hawkwoman and Hawkman would like everyone to know that neither of them were expecting a very small child to be spat out of the villain of that week’s machine that should definitely not be a portal. A very small child, maybe nine or ten, with a multitude of concerning wounds both old and fresh. Which isn’t even beginning to touch on the wings. 

Feathered, like baby down despite the gnarled scars, unlike their own metallic, with the beginning of tiny specklings like stars amidst the darker fuzz peeking from the wounded flesh. 

Who?! Who dared?! It’s (at least to the forever reincarnating duo) a literal baby! They still have down! Tiny baby fuzz! Was it the portal?! Oh this villain is going to taste their maces for causing this if that’s the case! 

The rest of the Justice League would honestly like to know what just happened and are honestly unsure on if they should stop the two…

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #wing au #Shayera & Carter: THAT IS A BABY #Danny who is still very distressed when he wakes up: I don’t know what’s going on & might start crying at any moment #He got brought to the Watchtower #Y’know what make it where his world is similar to a Flashpoint timeline & that’s why JL never came #He has no idea why he’s tiny and just wanted to go to one of his caretakers #The League is trying to figure out how to get this kid home but also subtly asking how his home life is #Danny: Oh I guess my bio-parent’s house is dangerous but my caretaker’s homes are really cool and safe! #The JL now think this child is in foster care of some sort in his world #Danny does nothing to dissuade this assumption #Honestly it’s really freaky for him to see people without wings & maybe clings to Hawkwoman & Hawkman #Look their wings might be metallic but at least they have them & he can actually recognize their body language #How can anyone deal with not being able to express with wings?! #Even if his were completely scorched from the Accident he could still move them and such!

[the-ineffable-dance]

Just a little reminder... this is the way Aziraphale looks on the way back into the bookshop at the beginning of the Final Fifteen.

The Metatrash has just told him to "Go and tell your friend the good news," and Aziraphale is headed back to convince Crowley to return to heaven to be an angel again.

That is not the face of a happy angel.

THIS is the face of a happy angel...

Or this one...

Especially this one...

No... what you have as he returns to the bookshop after whatever was said with the Metatron is not happy. That's the look of a man shaped being desperately coming up with a plan. Who knows that danger is staring straight at them, and suddenly he's in a perilous dance that he must do perfectly in order to protect Crowley.

He doesn't want to go back to Heaven. He has to.

#I'm going crazy trying to figure out what the actual conversation with the Metatron was #my poor angel is fighting for Crowley's life #aziraphale loves crowley and will do anything to keep him safe #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #aziracrow

[rafora]

I already miss them... The (self-proclaimed) pumpkin duo.....

#quick girls while i'm trying to figure out gem's secret life design #secret life #secret life smp #secret life fanart #secret life spoilers #? #geminitay fanart #ldshadowlady fanart #rafora's art

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

some more random HoM au doodles

#hom au #american dragon jake long #jake long #ben 10 #ben tennyson #generator rex #rex salazar #jenny xj9 #my life as a teenage robot #kim possible #danny phantom #secret saturdays #zak saturday #juniper lee #rc9gn #randy cunningham #trying to use some of my collection for pose references and figuring out stuff for hom au i guess lol

[wasyago]

we're at it again🕺

#jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #my art #sketch #back on my bullshit woo yeah woo yeah woo yeah #genuinely a lot happier with this design than the previous ones. the lighter metal looks better on him #and this one doesn't have a lot of detail (or any detail tbh) so it looks more solid and fun i think #and you can see im trying to figure out how gill would carry his sword around #technically he should just carry it in his hands and don't have a scabbard because its a longsword and isn't supposed to be sheathed... #but like... its not practical to always carry it in his hands. especially in a day to day life. because he always has the sword on him- #but he doesn't necessarily always hold it? like. he needs hands for stuff #i think i like the back scabbard better (even if i drew the whole turnaround for the hip one) just because it doesn't mess with his tail #plus that way destiny's blade is higher up and gets to look around at stuff and i think its funny #but then like... the cape is a little awkward if it has to go above the sword... #but its not a big deal. if he has a cape and armor on he probably holds the sword in his hands anyway #am i putting too much thought into this unnecessary detail? yes #am i rambling in the tags again instead of making a separate post? also yes

[dogerbooger]

Scar secret life doodle

#I’m still figuring it out but I think this one is alright #look I’m not going to like everything I draw and that’s okay I’m just glad I can try right now #anyway one of my favorite winners he does little dances in my mind #life series fanart #trafficblr #secret life #life series #mcyt fanart #secret life fanart #secret life smp #gtws fanart #secret life gtws #goodtimeswithscar #goodtimeswithscar fanart #dogieboogie art

[ghirahimbo]

evil time loop escape conditions where you can't get out until you've fuucked up your life in the most spectacular way possible, confident that the next night will reset the slate as usual.

instead, the next day comes.

#that's the first chapter btw #the rest of the story is about coming back from the fallout #trying to make amends #something something the hubris of believing you were above consequences #coming to terms with the pain you were willing to cause in the moment because you never thought it would last (but it did) #actually maybe this is just undertale geno route #post cancelled undertale did it already #lol mostly i was trying to figure out if i could get to new york in a daily reset time loop #i probably could if i fucked up my life #and of COURSE that would be the day it didn't reset

[marsmarbles]

the way u draw skizz brings me so much happiness and whimsy,, / pos

Thank you! <3

He’s really fun and silly

#I wanted to do a little doodle of Skizz to show my appreciation for the compliment #but I ended up spending a whole fucking hour trying to figure out a pose and composition T-T #mars ask #skizzleman #skizzleman fanart #skizz fanart #hermitcraft #hermitcraft 10 #hermitcraft skizzleman #mcyt #mcyt fanart #trafficblr #traffic life #traffic smp #life series

[spiderziege]

boogeyman business

#ive been trying to figure out this god damn composition for like three weeks i think. i kinda like it now tho which is nice #last life smp #life series #my art #goodtimeswithscar #smallishbeans #inthelittlewood #mumbo jumbo #impulsesv #solidaritygaming #grian #pearlescentmoon #smajor1995 #skizzleman #tango tek #ethoslab #bdoubleo100 #rendog #ldshadowlady #zombiecleo #bigbst4tz2

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

True love is possible only in the next world. For new people. It it too late for us.

(Redraw for @pakhnokh's DTIYS post!)

#better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangij #Finally I can redraw a pahknokh piece with *permission* B*) #I was so excited to see you (pakhnohk) do a dtiys! It's such a fun skill building activity & I really hope to see more people bring it back #The composition and melancholic feeling of the original piece is so lovely! Thank's for setting this up! #Lighting is still kind of my enemy. In the way that getting curb stomped is my enemy. I had fun trying to figure it out though but... #I have a long way to go and that's okay! #Sadly I feel like I overworked this and made the colours a mess B*( That's *Also* Okay - I learned something from it. #The Robert Kurvitz quote is one that I feel *really* fits the heartache of the yiling laozu and hanguang-jun era. #As painful as it is...No...I don't think there was ever a chance they could have had a true romance in wwx's first life #It was always going to be a tragedy. #Sometimes the right person comes at the wrong time. And when you realize what they really mean to you it is the wrong time once again #They get to try again though! They get to be happy B'*)

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 198

Now Bruce was not expecting to reincarnate upon his death. At least he thinks he died, he’s pretty sure he did. There wasn’t any other reason for him to be a well, literal baby. Around two he thinks, which fits well with the fact that it’s around that time that babies start forming memory recall, if he, well, remembered correctly. 

But while he knew about reincarnation thanks to Shayera and Carter, he’d never exactly given it much thought towards himself. Because seriously, what were the chances of such a thing as him being given another chance? 

So he was quite surprised at his situation, experimentally opening and closing pudgy hands that looked well, just a tiny bit off. He’d never been that pale before, he thinks, even back when he never went outside like, ever. 

He turned his gaze towards the mobile above him with a sort of idle curiosity- a mixture of bats (ha) and other trinkets he wasn’t familiar with. It also caused him to get his first good look at his parent, asleep on a rocking chair right next to the crib. 

Huh. They had the same pale skin he did, albeit in the light it looked like it was slightly tinted blue, and while their hair was white they didn’t exactly look old. They looked surprisingly well rested for raising a toddler too, unless they had a nanny or something similar… He rolled over, managing to very shakily push himself to his feet with the help of the crib. 

Why was standing so hard as a toddler? And why did he have his memories of everything except how he had died anyway? 

His head whipped up from where they were staring at his feet when he heard a snort, finding his parent awake and standing. Somehow silently enough that he hadn’t noticed- or he was that easily distracted by the unfamiliar giddiness bursting in his chest. 

“Morning little bat,” his parent easily picked him up and held him while he inwardly sighed at the nickname. Of course his bat motif would follow him into this life. A low rumbling almost caused him to jump, his body relaxing before he could fully register the sound. The… purring? 

Oh. 

He wasn’t human this time around. 

#Dcxdp #Dpxdc #Prompts #Vlad is a young-adult dad to a reincarnated Bruce #After the hospital he drowned his despair/distress in any way he could & ended up with a baby boy #Bruce’s main suspected species of what they were was vampire before the ghost reveal lol #Bruce can’t say shit about Vlad’s thievery but he has the most judging expression for a toddler #Then he also sees his new dad develop and try to figure out powers #Vlad was terrified to pick him up when he first discovered his ghost fire #Yes this very much changes Vlad’s relationship with Danny #The reunion has 14 year old Danny meet a Very Smart 8 year old Bruce #Yes Bruce clocks teenage vigilante instantly #And look he Would try to get Vlad to stop the possession shit but as long as it’s actual assholes he can’t exactly judge #He blackmailed SO many people in his past life… he's trying Not to be a hypocrite here #Why yes Bruce IS very liminal from having a half-ghost dad #Vlad panicked more than he did when his fangs came in (Bruce has made a file about both himself & everyone he meets) #Just because he’s now baby doesn’t mean he’s no longer Bruce #At some point someone from his world might find their way to this one but that would be a very long time in the future lol #Vlad (unaware of his core being able to feel his ghostling’s big emotions): Wow raising a child is surprisingly easy

[blackcathjp]

ppl seem to like the idea of harry courting draco or harry doing big public displays of affection to ask him out (think promposals). but i feel like he'd be so awkward at dating. he doesn't quite know what to do with or show physical and emotional affection, the weasleys give him bad advice on romance, he's also oblivious when ppl are interested in him.

what he does have is earnestness and determination - he makes the first move on accident, just bursts out his feelings, brave and embarrassed.

draco knows all about courting and respects tradition, but he's not the type to make the first move (not anymore at least, not like when he was a kid, where running to his parents for safety and comfort was a luxurious option). he's calculating and weighs his options - what if he confesses but harry doesn't like him? what if he confesses and harry DOES like him? what if harry likes him, but doesn't like dating him? he's more hesitant and guarded with his feelings, but is more likely to show his affection towards loved ones.

harry asks him out in the middle of a conversation, just because he loves watching how passionate draco gets about something he loves. even after weeks of dating, draco insists on courting him the "proper way", showering him with gifts, writing letters that make harry blush, leaving loving post-its all over harry's home and work desk, delivering anonymous flowers, publicly asking if he can escort harry home (they're both embarrassed). he's touchy feely too, which harry isn't used to, but physical contact becomes easy and second nature now with draco. harry doesn't quite get the courting, yet still loves it.

harry: you already have me, draco 😊😆

draco: i still want to woo you though 🥹😤

#harry is earnest and determined in life but always had a bigger responsibility to be a hero #romance and physical affection are just kinda like. there in the back of his head #still trying to figure out what he wants and trying to express that #yet he's also touch starved and touch deprived #draco knows exactly what he wants but w/out $ and status he doesn't know how to get it #he's a very prideful person who takes a bad hit and gets humbled and becomes a better yet still prideful person #anyway this is supposed to be a cute idea of drarry courting ways #fics where harry figures out what he wants bc he's never wanted before >>> #drarry #harry potter #draco malfoy #drarry blurb #drarry headcanons #writing

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 147

psychically induced chronic illness squad

#day 147 #year 4 #aradia megido #sollux captor #homestuck #arasol #solluxs migraine thing is right in his introduction #but we only get like. one line from aradia in her singular conversation with rose in a5 #where she mentions an 'elusive feeling of sickness' following her for her entire life #which i think you could read as like. anxiety/sense of impending doom due to upsetting psychic whispering 24/7 #but when i was a kid and i felt anxious it ALWAYS manifested as a feeling of Oh I Am Going To Barf About This #to the point that i spent like a full year getting a whole barrage of medical tests trying to figure out what was wrong with my guts #turned out it was simply undiagnosed mental illness because nobody really considered that a 6 year old could have one of those #but such is life anyway catch me projecting onto these two once a fucking gain