#tumblr journal

[mobbieboy]

Okay okay okay

I wanna talk about something

So the part when ???/Shigeo says look at Reigen he’s afraid of us he won’t even come over here (even though he just got hit in the head with a boulder) is so… so relatable

Let me try to explain

Often times when I am in an emotional spiral, my mind works double time to make sure any glimmer of hope or any kind thing another person does for me is discredited/downplayed

For example, if a friend asks if I’m okay when I’ve obviously shut down, my mind will say they’re only asking because they feel obligated. They’re only asking because they think it’s the nice thing to do. They don’t really care.

When in reality, they do care, they care so much that they’re reaching out to try and help me.

So ???/Shigeo looking at Reigen and saying “he’s afraid of us he won’t come over here” is just his way of validating his own feelings of frustration/sadness/rejection and justifying his actions

It’s toxic, especially considering Reigen got hit in the head with a bOULDER

But when you’re already in that mindset, it’s so easy to convince yourself that no one cares

No one will save you

When in reality, you may actually have a whole line of people who are reaching a hand out, waiting to help you up when you fall

You may have people in your life that recognize your worth when you don’t

You may have people in your life who accept you fully before you’ve even fully accepted yourself

That’s what this show is reminding us of

And I know I need that reminder sometimes

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mobbieboy #mp100 spoilers #tumblr journal

[hell0andg00dbye]

never put it down. never ever ever or it will be swallowed by the surface below it and you will never ever see it again.

#adhd #living with adhd #adhd struggles #adhd problems #actually adhd #adult adhd #adhd brain #adhd things #diary #diaryposting #pointless thoughts #tumblr diary #dear diary #journal #my thoughts #thoughts #adhd diary #tumblr journal #hell0andg00dbye

[bamababygirl7]

I haven’t been very active lately and not sure if I will be for a while other than maybe queuing some posts. I just really wanted to make a friend appreciation post. Honestly without these people I would have fallen completely apart in the past couple of days.

@blueedana I don’t even know where to begin. I have only known you for a few months, but I can share things with you before I share them with anyone else. You make me feel safe and are there for me and offer to hurt people for me when they hurt me and I know you legit would lol. I honestly don’t know if I would have made it through Thursday especially without you. Thank you for being such an amazing friend. And of course I’m so thankful for our goofy shared bestie @dominant-dominion and his beautiful wife @submissiveebrat It is not very common for me to become super vulnerable and share and reach out for help when bad things happen, but y’all were there and helped me more than you can ever imagine.

And I can’t forget my other besties… @c4c4ine and @missathesiren I didn’t get super in depth about the situation but any time one of us is hurting y’all are quick to offer support and words of encouragement and to bring the violence lol I love y’all so much for that.

And last but definitely not least (sorry if this ruins your reputation lol) @mister-s0013 I don’t even know where to begin and my post would be super long if I wrote even half of the reasons I’m so thankful to have you in my life. You are also one of the main reasons I made it through Thursday. Even though you were spending time with your son when I asked if you could talk cuz I was falling apart, you made time to talk to me and made me feel safe. I was def being a little stubborn cuz I was just exhausted but your concern was so sweet and genuine. You have made it super easy from the time we became friends to be vulnerable with you which is not something I usually am and I have shared things with you that I don’t share with others. I also know that without a second thought you would hurt anyone who hurts me. You help motivate me when I’m just not feeling motivation. You say the sweetest most comforting things and sometimes I think if I could just crawl up in your lap and get a big bear hug that would fix everything. Okay I’ll stop now. Totally kidding y’all he is really really really mean and scary 🙃🙂🙃

Ok. I’m done being emotional and mushy. 🙈🙈🙈 I just have so much going on in my head rn mostly not good but all of the good thoughts are about my friends. I seriously love y’all and couldn’t imagine my life without y’all.

#tumblr journal #just tumblr journaling again lol #friend appreciation post #txt #txt post #bamababygirl7🥰💞 #fave mutuals #my txt

[dyinqbees]

happy birthday to the boy who does not adore me. i hope your day is as poetic as the words that i would have written for you, as transcendent as the playlists i would have comprised for you and as heartfelt as the art i would have created for you.

#my journal #my thoughts #thoughts #tumblr journal #yearnposting #happy birthday

[xplore-the-unknwn]

I don’t usually post but with the latest events happening this year, I cant help but feel so happy to live and be alive! We have Brendan Fraser having his comeback. Pedro Pascal, a humble hardworking self-made actor getting big lead roles! Ke Huy Quan and Michelle Yeoh finally getting the recognition and praise they deserve. Hayden Christensen and now Ahmed Best being appreciated and redeemed from all the hate they got. Its like the world is healing idk but I love whats happening! 😭🥺

Seeing these wins from these beautiful people who have also gone through alot, I feel a little better knowing in time, some wrongs that happened or had been done to you, will become right again. Eventually everything will be alright again and you will be happier and surrounded with loving friends or family. :)

This is getting long but I just wanna tell myself that whenever I get anxious again, I’ll say “If they made it I can make it as well!”

#I literally cried when I reflected this #Like Ive had struggles of my own that made me more anxious and have low self esteem about my capabilities #but seeing these triumphs these wins of people who have gone through shit as well #I feel like I can make it as well #and thats just so beautiful about us #Tumblr journal #brendan fraser #ke hey quan #michelle yeoh #ahmed best #hayden christensen #anakin skywalker #jar jar binks #pedro pascal #wholesome

[spamming-gay-agenda]

I started reading acotar… honestly I’m 200 pages in and there’s no smut…disappointing so far…will update when we get to this amazing smut everyone keeps talking about…🤷

#acotar #smut #reading #faerie #faerie smut #tumblr journal

[thewitchesbrewletter]

And if today, all you did was hold yourself together, I am proud of you.

– acupof.selflove

(Journal Page by Poorvi)

#thoughts #musings #spilled thoughts #words #spilled words #spilled ink #art #art journal #journalling #journaling #my journal #dear journal #dear diary #spilled writing #spilled pages #journal #journal artist #scrapbooking pages #tumblr journal #journal pages

[rubyprincey]

I'm staying home today ! My mom was angry but like I didn't feel well. I wish I could be energetic & not be sick all the time like most boys & girls I see in town. I feel like I'm missing out on being a teen. Well, anyway, I have a doctors appointment today, so I gotta get up at 12:00 pm to get ready (it's 7:30 am right now). Even if I feel bad, maybe I can make myself look cute today ? Yk..

Much love , Jacinto ♡

#scheduled post #faunlet #blog #online journal #tumblr journal #faunlet aesthetic #boy blog #boy coquette #ranting

[kaeelom4now]

I like to think that the art and different artists I am attracted to are different puzzle pieces of myself. Little, fractal pieces. As I continue the journey of life, I continue to discover these hidden pieces. These pieces are essential because they help me define who/what I am and what I am not. Not one mere piece defines me, but all pieces collectively define me. As I evolve and change, I must release those pieces that no longer resonate with the whole.

#just a cool thought to ramble about #tumblr journal #Spotify

[noirwordsmith]

Introduction (I think?).

I suppose for my first post, before I get into any sort of ramblings or writing, I should make some kind of introduction, though I'm unsure as to what that would entail. So... I shall try my best.

My name is Noir. I ramble about a many of things, but usually my own life experiences, thoughts, and writing. I go by they/them and xe/xem/xir pronouns. 

All my links can be found here.

This serves as a journal and a safe space on the internet for me to be myself. I’ve been outcasted heavily irl due to my disabilities and physical appearance. I’m also lover of all things vampiric and monster in nature.

So... greetings, and nice to meet you. Also, I apologize for being a bit late on this, but happy New Year to those who celebrated it.

- Noir 

#noirwordsmith #introductory post #introducing myself #dark academia #journal #diary #tumblr diary #diaryblr #tumblr journal

[hell0andg00dbye]

i love you like i met you last month and like i've known you for a lifetime

. 💗

#diary #diaryposting #tumblr diary #dear diary #pointless thoughts #journal #hell0andg00dbye #tumblr journal #journal post #love #relationships #relationship #relationship posting #journalling

[bamababygirl7]

Bed made, breakfast eaten, and heading to the gym before my doctor’s appointment at 11. 😊😊😊

#tumblr journal #seriously the gym #has been amazing #for my mental health #just wish I had someone to go with me 😭😭😭 #txt post #txt

[0nlinejournal]

04.18.3023

#April #2023 #mine #chihuahua #online journal #tumblr journal #dogs of tumblr #look at this cutie

[raincamp]

10 24 2023

tw vivid descriptions of abandonment

i keep getting new memories. bad memories.

ive been visiting home a lot recently. had my mother take care of my cat while i was gone. as a result I've had to spend more nights there than i would prefer.

it took me a while to accept that i had abandonment trauma. first it was the BPD symptoms, the pervasive fear of abandonment. the trauma responses. i thought maybe i was just sensitive. sure sometimes my mom would leave but it wasnt that bad.

now i have memories. triggered by being in my childhood bedroom. even with the furniture moved around, even with it empty and desolate.

my parents recently cut down the trees that used to shield my window. the ones that had only grown tall enough to block my view by the time i had turned 13.

the way the light shines through that window, unobstructed. it brought something back.

i feel the fear and helplessness and desperation for love that i felt as a child. and i remembered. i remembered begging my mother not to leave me, chasing her car, clinging to the door handles as she drove away, scraping my bare feet and knees on the asphalt and grasping so tight my knuckles turned white, crushing my fingers in the window as it was rolled up to block out my screaming and crying and begging.

i was a child.

i remember feeling like it was my fault, wondering what I could've done to change her mind, trying to be as small and insignificant and non-intrusive whenever i saw her so maybe she wouldnt leave again. i taught myself how to keep to myself so that I wouldn't set her off again. i taught myself how to earn love from her and learned what would constitute it being taken away. i never felt like i got enough. i spent so many nights feeling alone.

then i remembered. all the times i was forgotten about. all the times i had been left places with no way to get home. all the times i had waited until the sun went down, until the establishments had locked up for the night, for my parents to finally pick me up. the times i hid inside while they were closing so at least i didnt have to shiver in the cold. no phone to reach anyone, i remember begging strangers to let me call someone. i remember taking rides from people i didnt know, asking the first person i saw to walk me home. i was too young to know it wasn't safe. i just knew i wasnt supposed to be alone.

i was a child.

the appearance of memories has given me fear, but it has also given me validation. validation that what im experiencing is real. validation that my anger is warranted. validation that i feel like my parents don't care about me. validation that i do have trauma.

#bpd #actually bpd #im not mentally stable #actually mentally ill #borderline #bpd struggles #mental illness #bpd stuff #borderline personality disorder #tumblr diary #tumblr journal #ptsd #c ptsd #complex ptsd #actually cptsd #trauma #actually traumatized #tw descriptions of trauma #tw trauma #tw abandonment

[nebs-shitposts]

i love reading other people's tumblr journals/diaries, it helps me feel more grounded in this universe and less like im just one single being drifting confusedly

#diary #tumblr journal #journal #tumblr diary #writing #poetry #rambles #ramble

[thewitchesbrewletter]

You are worth finding. Worth knowing. Worth loving. You and all your one million layers. Always hold that close.

To the old you from the old me.

– danielledoby

#thoughts #words #spilled words #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #musings #art #art journal #my journal #journalling #journaling #journal #dear diary #dear journal #tumblr journal #journal artist #aesthetic journal #journal art #journal aesthetic #spilled pages #spilled writing #writing #scrapbooking pages #notes #notes to self