#tumblr needs to fix that thing

[messrsbyler]

for today’s miwi, will confesses his feelings for mike and mike’s brain stops working

will: i have feelings for you

mike’s brain: error_404

#miwip #miwip wednesday #wip wednesday #my wips #i need to fix my tags bc they are a mess #byler tumblr #byler #stranger things #mike wheeler #will byers #byler endgame #mike x will #byler ao3 #byler wip #miwi

[eyesofshan-if]

whoever came up with the idea of changing the tumblr desktop layout... i hope that both sides of your pillow are hot as toasted toast because what the fuck 😭

#pengu.txt #psps tumblr staff... don't fix things that arent broken... or don't need fixing in the first palce

[alchemiclee]

someone pls end his painful existence.

non-stabby version too because I like both:

#hsr #hsr blade #blade hsr #honkai star rail fanart #honkai star rail #honkai star rail blade #star rail fanart #hsr fanart #sketch #art #artists on tumblr #my art #lee arts #arts #tw blood #i suppsed i should add that maybe idk #i didnt think id reach a finished point with this but i kept wanting to work on it with no ideas. so i experimented a lot #and i really like how it turned out!!!! #theres some things im noticing now that need fixed lmao but oh well it's fine for now. maybe if people want prints ill fix it #hes kinda pretty tho and great for art #who should i draw next 🤔 #oh. i never finished my fontaine siblings art oops i should prob do that #*

[domsaysstuff]

Steve's kindness is, like all self-taught one, a mirage of borrowed expressions, a collage of habits picked from people he loved, a bit stilled but eager and well-meaning, sometimes a bit chopped at the sides, a growing want to let the good feelings out in front of the right people.

Eddie liked to sometimes watch him and find all the signs of other people in him, try to match them up to right people.

He would watch and think - this is Nancy's stubbornness to never give up on people and Dustin's loyalty, he would see him trying to give advice to Dustin and see Johnathan's akward pep-talks to Will. The way he would always try to have snacks for the kids screamed both Joyce's and Mrs. Henderson motherly kindness. His willingness to sit in silence, a steady presence, when somebody needed it shined with Will's warmth. How he fights for the people he cares about, letting his meaness be a defense for them all, a barier and a shield similar to Max's snark.

And whenever he found himself to be the matching person? It made him feel loved, so fucking loved and seen that he would choke on it.

Eddie sometimes would make a game out of it, to found the matching puzzle whenever Steve's kindness shone (and it was a lot of the time). It was always someone from the party and he would always find himself with a strange fond warmth whenever he realized who it was. And usually he was good at it, it wasn't really hard when he loved and knew all those people too

There were exceptions though. The first one was Robin and it wasn't for the lack of Eddie's knowledge and love for her and moreso because of the whole RobinandSteve being always so SteveandRobin, never really separate. Whatever was Steve's was also Robin's, their clothes, habits or sometimes even their smiles shone in the same way. They were mismatched in a funny melted together sort of way, his kindness was her and hers was his and it was hard to difference between the two when even they didn't know where one ended and the other began, they traded traits like they traded clothes, wore them bright pink socks with yellow soft sweater, a joke to cheer you up with a soft you can tell me anything in the same breath.

He didn't really knew whose kindness it was the innate one that must have been deep within Steve before he let it shine or Robin's. He didn't think it would really matter anyway, they would trade it between themselves like shiny cards anyway.

The other one was a smile. An unique one, one that Eddie swore he saw somewhere before and that lacked the freckles and a missing teeth except noone in the party had these two traits, at least not as Eddie knew them and he could never find that one puzzle. It was boyish and full of mischief, usually with a starry reflection in Steve's eyes.

The last one was a lift in his tone, the way he would make his voice honey-like sweet when he tells Robin her new haircut suits her or El's new shirt brought out her eyes. The intonation always made Eddie think of bubble gum and sugared summers.

He couldn't place the last two to nobody. At least not until Steve told him about Tommy Hagan and Carol Perkins.

Obviously Eddie knew about them, but Stevie didn't talk about how they are. But how they used to be.

"Sweet." he said while passing the joint they shared laying on Eddie's bed, pressed from shoulders to their ankles. "Carol used to be sweet, warm with the naive love only kids hold" Steve's eyes were looking out the window of Eddie's room, as if he could see the young version of them just outside playing childlish games. "and Tommy used to be wild. But not like bad wild, more like he was always chasing trouble, adventure. Like kids do."

And Eddie couldn't see it, not with how the world twisted them into different people, cruel. More cold, all sharp teeth and autumn's rain.

Except he could, he could in Steve's special smile and the sound of his voice, he could see it and he could see the love that Steve Harrington had for them.

"They're douchebags now," he said when Eddie voiced it out loud "but I did loved them once, sometimes I feel like I've never stopped, they just... Grew out of my love, grew into something I couldn't."

It should be strange, to love something someone isn't anymore, but to Eddie it just spoke of the way Steve Harrington threw himself into love, how he never really stopped loving and caring. It was admirable, it was so lovable and it was so Steve-like. Earnest in the sweetest way.

It made sense that Steve Harrington would love people even through his expression of it.

#idk what this is #i just kept thinking about how at some point Steve must have loved Tommy and Carol #and yeah some relationships are bad and you need to drop the people because they are as*h*les but that doesnt mean the love was never there #or that you don't sometimes feel the ghost of it when you think of them #And I think Eddie - just would watch the people he loves - would observe them and analyze them #cathegorize them or their habbits and expression into something a little cabinets in his mind #this is kind of shitty but oh well i've written it so now i'm bestowing it onto others #i'm trying to get back into writting because my laptop will be hopefully fixed soon and i'll actually could write then #but i cant so for now this ficlet is here #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #platonic stobin #my writing #ficlet #dom's tumblr writing

[kindlykolorful]

cellbit animatic - pearl

#artists on tumblr #digital art #cellbit fanart #guapoverse #guapoverso #qsmp #animatic #cellbit animatic #pearl mitski #this took a while to finish #my pc shut down and i don't remember all the tags i put on this #anyways love mitski #and mitski + my hyperfixations go BRRR #please i need u to say this is good bcus i wanna delete it and fix things eternally #i'm crazy #kindly kolorful animation

[kvtnisseverdeen]

TEEN WOLF REWATCH: 1.05 “THE TELL"

Do you want to do homework? Or dto you want to not die?

#i literally hate this new ediitor #tumblr needs to stop tampering with things that dont need fixing #teen wolf #twr #mine* #gifs* #teenwolfedit #teenwolfgifs #teen wolf rewatch #twedit #teenwolfplus #teenwolfgif #smallscreensource #tvedit #tvgifs #filmtvgifs #teenwolflegacy

[lazy-b1rdy]

SOO... I'm taking a break from social media.

Well it's not like i'm not gonna be active on my account but the posting will be significantly slower (IF MY PEOPLE PLEASER SIDE WOULD LET ME TAKE A DAMN REST FOR ATLEAST A WEEK WITHOUT WORRYING IF I'M DISAPOINTING ANYONE)

with me still being sick bc of allergies, my motivation and energy is lot lower than before. I also wanna do this so i can take care of myself better!

I love posting here with this amazing community so i hope that in the time that i'm kinda gone i'll stack up with more cool art for you guys!

another thing i wanna do is fix up my art style and this account because…. if i'm gonna be honest, this is literally a dumpster fire and i might clean up some of my tags and make an about me page!

again, so so sorry for this i hope you guy's can forgive me for this hahaaaa.....

#tsp #so sorry but i need to take a moment to fix up this place so my mind is a ease #i don't think this'll take too long but still wanted to say this #and imma pin this on my tumblr until i finish things up #love you guys byeeeeeeee!

[chiptrillino]

What's your opinion on jee in the live action avatar? (And the whole 41st Division change)

anon... not like natla is the worst that could have happened to this franchise. but i really couldn't vibe with the natla...

jee is just... younger jee i guess. and the 41st surviving was like... cheep writing vise? Something to force us getting emotional, which to me personally didn't work? so.. uh... -srugs- Ehhh

#chip!ask #natla #not my cup of tea #honestly i think natla is the cold tea iroh got in BSS #like... does nobody think that the action don't fit toghetehr? #that somehow its just a bunch of scenes and they srot of connect but the endpeaces do not really fit anyway? #like some parts feel forced in for emotional moment but like... why what for??? #and things were 'fixed' that didn'T need fixing #and i have read some interviews and who was hired for what and... it explains a few things to me #granted... i am a slighty unhinged kind of obsessed with the show so reading 'i have watched season on 3-5 times' compared to my like #over 10 rewatch and years of analysis reading and exploration here on tumblr... #it sounds like laughable and not as passionate like people try to sell it? #honestly the more i think of natla the more i get confused budged vise #and i have beef with the fire nation enviorment in a way....

[pepperpixel]

I’m sick of the feeling that I always have to have enough pictures for a photoset to post anything. So. I’m rebelling against that stupid fuckin feeling and just posting this chara stand alone! There’ll probably be a frisk to go w it eventually! But! U’ll just have to wait lol

#undertale #chara #chara dreemurr #ut #doodles #started this yesterday. finished it like an hour ago. and posting it fucking now. no waiting to draw more shit to go w it ghghg #also. I’ve put this in the tags of another chara picture before. but that was a long time ago. so. reiterating just to be safe: #yes. I have drawn chara in a skirt. their pronouns are still they/them #idk if that needs to be said! but. just in case.. #cuz I remember. specifically on deviantart. there were a few ppl who rlly liked misgendering the humans on my art of them ghgh #I don’t think that’s as much of a thing on tumblr. but still #but anyway yeah! chara! I drew this completely on my phone too! #and I took my time w the details and coloring and shit! I didn’t rush thru any of it! #im proud of myself ghghg #also. this was an attempt to solidify a chara design I like. cuz I felt like. the last one I drew. for the honey pie animation meme #was ok?? I liked it. but I was also like. shit. their hairs too messy and long they look too much like Kris #so. I wanted to try and fix that lol #we’ll see if this design finally sticks! #…for the once in a blue moon occasion I draw Undertale fanart ghgh

[xxpectrum]

Better than a mirror, maybe

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 fanart #baldur's gate 3 fanart #astarion #tav #this scene popped up recently and i needed to (fix) draw it #my tav (and i) think that line is one of the most genuine ones #something something about noticing small things / proof of ageing. living (once) #i could write a whole essay on my tav's thoughts and reactions #maybe i will #my art #artists on tumblr

[fiendishartist2]

i love apollos sprites so i thought id try to animate them :3

#compared to that paul one i did i feel like i have a better understanding of how to do this now!! #theres things i need to fix obv like the awkward constant motion of apollo's head turning up #and i think i should add some more stretch and maybe even a smear to the hand in the twist #and an overshoot and settle to the point. and fix the antic into the twist/add more bc it looks like not enough #but overall im happy with this so far :DD #my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #animation #rough animation #ace attorney #apollo justice #wip animation

[p41nty]

yknow this was meant to be just a sketch

#i like to think im funny #inanimate insanity #ii paintbrush #ii lightbulb #lightbrush #mine #my art #i thought about this earlier and i scrambled to open ibis paint i needed it to be real #im so tire d #aaahh AAAAAHH TUMBLR IS DOING THAT QUALITY THING FUCKCING CLICK/TAP THE IMAGE TO FIX IT IM GONNA

[queercowboyinspace]

it's like you're my mirror

my mirror staring back at me

#sth is wrong w the quality so i changed the file again...why tumblr why😞 #in case you're seeing this for the second time...no you don't🤫 #just needed to fix a minor thing #very very inspired by simonscurlz on tt #so credit to them #spatort #tatort saarbrücken #tatort #fan edit #tiktok edit #adam schürk #video edit #outerspacecowboy #spatort edit #daniel sträßer #vladimir burlakov #leo hölzer #hörk #hörk edit #leo hölzer x adam schürk #leo x adam #adam x leo #tatort edit #leo hölzer edit #adam schürk edit #tatortedit #tatort saarbrücken edit

[pancakessart]

BOOP STICKER SHEETS ARE UP!!!!

this is my first time using this sticker-making service (oh to have my own supplies) and the black cats turned out a little too dark so they're a bit discounted from what they were originally going to be, but I hope you guys enjoy them!!!!!! if enough people want them, I'll do a pre-order for a reprint where I fix the colors to make the black cats more visible :) they are very much void blobs at the moment!

REBLOGS HELLA APPRECIATED!!!!!!!

(they look so great on my sketchbook :DDDD)

#SUPER PROUD OF THEM ASIDE FROM COLOR ISSUE!!! #im not gonna go in and fix the color if I don't need to btw #so thats why im waiting 2 see if preorders are gonna be a thing <3 #my art #original artwork #cat art #cat drawing #cat illustration #boop #the boopening #tumblr boop #april boops #stickers #small business #sticker shop #small artist #boop stickers

[autisticlee]

I know I need to "just do things by myself" like literally everyone tells me, but I really wish I had someone I can always ask to go places with me even if it's just to one store for one quick thing.

I barely have the ability to function enough to take care of myself daily. leaving the house for any reason is basically impossible most days. I don't have the energy and ability to drive, find the thing I need at a store, interact with people, and do the checkout dance, then drive home, all while acting "normal" (or appropriate/presentably human enough) in public with the added bonus of sensory overload. for most people, going to the store is one single task. that's all it is. for me, it's hundreds of simultaneously occurring steps I need to remember to do and maintain the entire time....

it's so hard to explain this to people. no one gets it. but i need someone else to do the human-ing for me and I just follow along. they drive, answer or ask questions and let focus be on them, lead me to the thing I need, let me copy them so I dont stand out with my weirdness...so many times i'll go to a store to get a few things alone. the sensory cacophony of everything hitting me at once makes me forget what I'm looking for, tunnel vision on the offending sensory input and can't see where i'm going, can't find things even if they're in the same place they've always been, i've run into people and things, knocking stuff over, because my body disconnects from my brain and it's hard to control. if people talk to me, I can't process their words or respond. I can't ask questions if I need to. i'll wander lost for way longer than I want to be there.

this whole time, i'm trying my best to put on a mask and appear "normal" so I can blend in, but i'm struggling and it's probably obvious because idk how to act "normal" or as expected when alone. so many times I come home without one or more of the things I needed from a store even if I had a list in hand.

I completely space out and dissociate way more often than i would like. not even stores when i need to go in and out quickly, but anywhere. if I try going to a thing that's supposed to be fun, like say a festival or aquarium or anything else, and I go alone because I don't have a friend to go with, I spend the whole time in a sensory overloaded, dissociative state, while being required to perform "normal human" rituals and masking. then get home, realizing I didn't enjoy it or retain much of it because my brain was overworking and i got exhausted as soon as i got there. i didnt get to relax and enjoy any of it because it was so much work and my brain shut down while there to try protecting itself. it's a whole brain exercise that exhausts me beyond belief. this whole time. i'm trying my best to put on a mask and appear "normal" so I can blend in, but i'm struggling and it's probably actually very obvious because idk how to act "normal" when alone and don't have someone to copy and follow.

if I have someone familiar with me, especially someone comfortable who i dont have to lead or entertain, I can ground myself better and focus more on them. I follow and copy them so I dont have the try as hard to be a human and think about doing human things. it's easier to copy someone doing the things than to try to think of the hundred steps you probably forgot and perform them alone. they always answer people so fast before I even processed half the words that were said to me.

it always surprises me when people do that. they'll answer a question before I even processed it was a question! I always need someone to be there for me to answer for me because i'm too slow, they get impatient, and/or I answer incorrectly, if i'm able to speak at all being semi-speaking. at least half the time if I do get words out, they don't hear me or mishear me. for example, just yesterday, I made my mom go to a new sushi restaurant with me. the waiter apparently asked if I was ready to pay, my mom was gesturing to me ans asking if im ready or something and the waiter was looking at me, but my brain couldn't make any of it out at all. I was staring between them like ???????? and gave up and just shook my head no. my brain was trying to figure it out and process anything at all, but i got incredibly confused and completely froze up. my mom answered "not yet" and they left. I was like, what was that about ? She said "they wanted you to pay now. you're ready to go right? now we have to wait again." I didn't get any of that, and if I was alone, that would have been even worse because I wasn't able to figure out anything or even say words. I need someone with me at all times to cover my perpetually lost and confused ass lmao

but it's also a struggle when the other person is like this too, puts too much attention on me, or expects me to lead us both. it causes the same effects as if i'm alone, plus the added bonus of needing to entertain and/or advocate/answer for and lead THEM, when I can't even do it for myself! I had a friend like that and it was annoying and immediately exhausting every time we hung out.

I don't know if any of this is making sense. i'm sure at least one person's gets it, though, right? how it's hard to consciously and appropriately act human in public when alone, but copying or hiding behind another person makes it easier than thinking about it all yourself, while sensory overload! if i can I just exist along with them and the focus isn't all on me like it is when i'm alone, it's a lot easier.

acting "normal" like a human, or basically what's "appropriate" in public spaces around others takes so much brain power that most people don't have to even think about! because it's automatic for them. so they can't fathom how much i'm struggling and it's so easy for them to say "just do it/you don't need help/you don't need someone to do it with or for you/you're being lazy!" plus adding on sensory overload you can't ignore, while everyone else is able to completely tune out and ignore the horrible lighting, the squeaky cart wheels, the crying babies and screaming kids, the 50 different conversations, the loud phone ring tone a few aisles over, the annoying music playing, someone dropping a box of something, crinkling of wrappers, the cash register beeps, the air being a bit too chilly, the annoying seam on your socks, the scratchy material of your jacket, the overly bright display of products, etc. everything all at once in great intensity. people who can ignore this don't know how lucky they are. they also don't understand what it feels like. it's exhausting.

i'm like a cave gremlin seeing light and the world for the first time ever, every time I leave my room. everything is confusing and overwhelming, but because i'm human shaped, everyone expects me to have the expected human behaviors and they freak out when i dont meet those standards. they don't care how difficult it is for me and how much i'm struggling. they won't help or accommodate me. it has to be my fault I made them uncomfortable.

exposure doesn't make it any better and arguably makes it worse because more sensory overload and more need to use my brain to overthink every word and movement I do, leading to a very deep exhaustion immediately 😫

this is why functioning labels or comparing me to my "good" days/experiences sucks and shouldn't happen. I often need help/support and people expect me to ~do it myself~ and refuse to help me so I struggle and fail to exist correctly.

#autistic #autism #lee rambles #actually autistic #neurodivergent #audhd #autism things #sensory processing disorder #sensory overstimulation #sensory overload #i copy pasted this from where i first typed it and somehow pasted it in the incorrect order because tumblr app is a nightmare #it kept jumping as i was trhing to paste so things pasted jn the wrong spots. but i *think* i fixed it. apologies if not lmao #its one of those days. where i wish to go a place and do a thing but have no one to ask so i will not go #i need a dedicated beat friend i can always ask who preferably has the same work schedule as me or flexible time #or become rich and hire someone to do things with me l m a o #why is tumblr app such a nightmare though why is it jumping around while i type #and why does it turn a whole paragraph italics when i only highlighted ONE WORD. #and dont even get me started on trying to rearrange pictures in a post lmao #this has been a rant within a rant #autism stuff

[layla-carstairs]

Cassandra Clare writing the pre-tlh short stories and then forgetting about them & what they had established as canon when actually writing the last hours is my villain origin story. like it makes me so violent. and I get things change as the writing process goes on but imo as an author you have a responsibility to abide by what you previously wrote & published. you don't get to pretend that it just never happened.

#it's cheap & annoying & takes away from the final project #even just some acknowledgement would have fixed the problem! #like with James being the 'leader' of the Merry Thieves when in the short stories it was very well established that was Matthew #or how James was the one who really hated Alastair #and Thomas would always defend Alastair which meant having conversations about Alastair nearly impossible without upsetting someone #there's countless examples of this it makes me want to pull my hair out #as for something like the family tree. I would have rathered cc just explained the situation to us fans #like just *tell us* the family tree was written before tlh was really a thing & because of that it's not canon anymore #there wasn't really a need for an canonical explanation (especially since it was so random) #I doubt anyone but fans cared about it anyway #by fans I mean hardcore fans who don't just read causally. like ones who get her newsletter/follow her on tumblr and twitter etc #the last hours #chain of gold #chain of iron #chain of thorns #james herondale #cordelia carstairs #lucie herondale #matthew fairchild #thomas lightwood #alastair carstairs #christopher lightwood #anna lightwood #jesse blackthorn #grace blackthorn #the shadowhunter chronicles #tsc