Either Way (You'll Figure It Out Someday) | G | pre-Sterek | 9612 words | complete
In Mexico, in the dead of night, Derek Hale learns how to turn into the wolf.
Here's how it happens.
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When Derek dies, he wakes up in Bardo.
He’s still leaning up against that little ruined wall he died on - maybe it came here with his consciousness or something - but there’s no doubt that this is the place Scott described back when he first activated the Nemeton. Bright white fluorescent lights buzz overhead in a vast, low-ceilinged room, both endless and claustrophobic. The whole place is white; impossibly, there are no shadows.
Derek tries to sit up, but his body seems to creak. There’s no pain anymore - not when death is so close, is already here, has already come--
Jesus, he’s freaking dead--
--but every atom of his body is screaming against the movement anyway, like his muscles have been replaced with cotton balls and his bones are made of lead.
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Bodycheck
Snippet from a short story / visual poem I did back in may. Trying to capture a specific kinda 3am ed feeling.
Idk. Stay safe out there folks.
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Tw!!! Eating disorder related . Specifically ana.
Just a bit of art by me to help vent...... :)
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tw. back with my adventures in self delete good morning you fucking weirdos.
guess what? i’m not dead. i got incredibly high off speed (my sisters ADHD drugs that i stole) and was so filled with energy i didn’t sleep a wink. i listened to music and ended up creating a book filled with everything i think. it’s started as a su1c1dw note to my family after i took all the drugs, and i started crying all sad like.
then things got weird. i by like, 3AM i was just WRITING. everything that popped into my head i wrote down. i was off about serial killers and my love for my best friend and my desires to lose my virginity and be known as the school s1ut because i love self destruction. i talked about how much i hate my father and when he hit me and my sister i talked about how my town is inherently racist and never even touches on the subject of black history. i told people my thanks for them and told them not to suffer from my death. i drew diagrams and phantom of the opera arrived and i heard voices and had full on conversations with my friends while i’m alone. i hallucinated a monster thing that’s just a blob coming into my bedroom and shadows which sit in my peripheral. i talked about my relapse and wondered how long it will be before death gets me. i was shaking and emotional and raw and ME.
fuck therapy. fuck medication and people telling me i’m sick. i know i’m sick. but if i can make art, show the real side of my problems, i’ll keep doing it. 22 pages of loose leif paper all double sided and completely unedited. i showed my thoughts —as best as i could while high on stimulants i REALLY shouldn’t take—and left it all on the page.
it was the best night of my life. i got high and failed to kill myself. what joy.
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he doesn’t know my mind is disturbed :3
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sketch tw uw
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OC/ sometimes i like drawing and writing with blood it feels like i really pour my essence in it and it makes a profound impact on me
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some of my art
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got my hands on a field guide of californian bugs and i found that there's this one bee species in southern california that looks like this
(Actual bugs under the cut, CW for insects)
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Baked with love, doomed for compost :’(
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Look man, it was too perfect not to do, I was obligated to make this-
Anyways another drawing for my little series of dumb doodles, gotta keep the fandom well fed💪💪
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@ every blog on april 1st GET BOOPED
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resurrection is sort of romantic, isnt it
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