If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you are not alone.
If you are in the United States, please try:
National Eating Disorders Association (support, resources, treatment options)
If you are outside the United States, visit IASP to find help lines related to eating disorders for your country.
For self-help courses on body image and general peer support, please try Koko.
If you need some inspiration and comfort on your dashboard, follow Post It Forward on Tumblr.
ed-things nobody talks about
(some things I experienced when my ed was really bad when I was 16-17. It’s not all fun and it’s not like the cute thinspo-posts you see here everyday)
hiding food in your pockets, shoes, socks... while eating with others
forgetting that you were hiding the food in these places (oh the smell)
friends, family ... finding the food you were hiding
trowing away the food someone you loved gave you
making people cry and constantly worry about you
being upset when people give you the bigger portion (do they think you eat that much????)
being upset when people give you the smaller portion (do they think you are fat and that you should eat less????)
drinking to much water before a doctors weight in so you feel like you are peeing your pants
the pain after the laxatives kick in
being afraid to put chapstick on (because you know, it’s made out of fat lol)
not going out with frieds, because there is food everywhere (you will regret it later, because everyone went clubbing and now that you are healthy they are not into that anymore, aka missing out your youth)
freezing when people around you wear a bikini
not being able to get pregnant, although you recovered
heartproblems, although recovered
struggling with hormone-production, although you recovered
having bad teeth, although you recovered
having problems with your bones, although you recovered
having problems with your nails and hair, although recovered
the need to take medication your whole life because of a few years of having an ed
loosing your sexdrive
being afraid to fall asleep and never wake up again
not being able to stop, even if you want to
Edit: I didn't want to make you guys feel bad about using chapsticks. I thought it was obvious that, unless your eat your chapstick, you don't consume calories by using it. Calories need to enter your mouth, not just sit on your lip. Your skin just absorbs the moisture, you can't gain weight by putting calories on your skin. Me thinking that was a thing and so many of you now thinking that's a thing should make you think about how absurd this illness is. You are here to live and experience this earth. You are not on this planet to worry about calories absorbing your body through your skin.
i’ve come to realize that you can display every single symptom of an eating disorder and if you aren’t skinny it won’t matter
me: omg no I deserve to eat and be happy I only live once I shouldn’t be so focused on my weight
also me: thîñšpô. çôffèé. I crävê dęäth ńôt føöd
to every eating disordered person who's reading this:
reasons why you should make yourself a nice warm tea right now!
it basically doesn't have calories!
it's really good for you, since dehydration is very real.
it's getting colder because winter is coming, so it'll warm you up, too!
it fills your stomach and surpresses your hunger.
it's good against boredom, too! (because it takes you some time to boil the water and stuff)
don't you miss tasting something?
and please take care of yourself!
(ironic, i know.)
When you step on the scale in the morning and see a number lower than the one yesterday you feel so euphoric, but only for a second, because then you realize that you cant eat today, cause you need to keep losing weight. Its a day of hell followed by a second of euphoria and it goes on and on.