In a few weeks i had wondered why i look still fat, and now i get it I HAVE A LOOSE SKIN BROPLEM !!!!! I hope i can still fix it ? Meybe if i buy some kollegen and try to eat 1000kcal a day :(((( im 17 so my skin will recover ? Oh and i sould do lot of booty workouts my body is liket triangle shape, i like it but i would like bigger hips to palance that little bit. And i have to look a bit healtierskinni ? Bc i see my grandpa and grandma in the summmer, My grandma understand beytystandards we always go shoppin together i think she would be fine me rocking that 2010-2000 size zero look. BUT my grandpa actualy when he grewup he had this friend whos girlfriend died to anorexia at weight 35kg, so he thinks 70kg is ideal. Everybody a bit older seems to have this “+10kg is always good to keep around ” I really dont get it like it somekind of safety, anyways i have these caremeetings bc my bibolar, with my doctor, nurses and parents those meetings are really fucking acward but i know that someday when im size zero they will attack me witch is stupid like they never told me to lose weight when i was +80kg. Overweight or underweight it really dosent fucking matter, the same healtproblems. The worst wear of mine is that is spring almost summer, and im in my goalweight and im one of these meetings and they decide to call ambulance and but me in feedinghostpital where they but me to GAIN weight, they have often just but me on mental hospital bc they think im in *maniac* its not fun im in controll of my head, PEOPLE WITHOUT BIBOLAR THINK WE ARE SO GRAZY AND ITS SO SO SO ANNONYING, its so messed up always when i tell some people some of these storys they just roll their eyes and say “SHUTUPUGRAZY” im so happy that i have this one friend who really gets it he dosent have bibolar BUT HE STILL GETS IT :DDD
Fasting today to make up for my binge & purge last night. Wish me luck because I’m back with the family this weekend. 🥺
1:18am 2/28/21
I mentioned before that I had a second, newer scale. My roommate did me a favor and brought it home from her mothers house.
My issue now is that while I did just want my nicer scale back I didn’t realize that one of my scales is reading wrong and I don’t know which one. For giggles I decided to test them next to each other even though I know night time after eating etc is not the time to weigh in. The older one came in 1.2lbs higher than the slightly newer one. I am immediately paranoid about the one that’s says I’m lighter of course for obvious reasons.
Obviously it’s not healthy to continue using both but that’s not an option anyways. One of them needs to go into my roommates bathroom now, which is part of the reason I asked her to grab it for me.
Message me for some meanspo/sweetspo!
should i eat
cus im literally just sitting here trying to figure out if i should but its 9am (n im scared of fucking eating that early) and i weighed myself n i gained .3kg so now i cant decide
i binged so fucking bad last night after fasting for almost 46 hours
better than last time but i’m fasting again. no getting high. no hanging out w friends. no weighing myself bc i’m gonna get so upset. i was so close to my GW2 but i binged. after a week of high restricting and working out i’ll start weighing myself again. i will remember how terrible this feels
edit: counted the calories, oh boy
So I admit I have an ED. Whatever. Does anyone know what to do when you get deficient in like all your vitamins and become anemic?
Heyy, does anyone wanna be friends??
I’m 17 soo you got to be 16-19…
NOT PRO just us trying to cop! Keep our minds out of this stress as much as possible 🖤
Dm mee
Hey! I made a gc!
it includes:
and more!! message me/reblog to join🤍
12:33am 2/28/21
I almost forgot to log my meals before bed, I ended up repeating yesterday’s meal almost exactly.
Breakfast: 1 everything rice cake ~ 50, hummus ~ 70, 1 chocolate rice cake ~ 60, chocolate PB2 ~ 60
Lunch: Starbucks doubleshot ~ 70
Dinner: 2 everything rice cakes ~ 100, hummus ~ 140, 1 chocolate rice cake ~ 60, PB2 ~ 30
Total: 640.
I want ed friends please
sleep is a food group dont @ me