#tw in tags

[thelunarsystemwrites]

(VENT!)

(Triggers: Suicidal ideation and thoughts and talk of it. Talk of PJ'S daycare. Depression, mental illness, all of this happening to a kid!)

When I was... maybe eleven, twelve? I watched PJ'S daycare, and all I can remember thinking is, when it got to the Geno part?

That, that's what I was feeling. That's what I wanted, I wanted to be in Geno's place, I was suicidal.

And, uh, I wasn't the same after that. It was kinda my first introduction into suicide...

Honestly, I still get that way occasionally.

I sometimes want right stand on a bridge, on a very foggy day and have it raining. Or be night with a full moon and harsh breeze, I want to... I dunno, I wanna have a taste of not having to be here sometimes.

But I won't, I made a promise to a very special person, that I'd stay alive. I'd stay alive until the day I die, normally. Not by my own hands.

...It was weird, putting a label on it. Suicidal. It was weird for me knowing that I wasn't mentally okay, that I had issues and was fully aware of them.

Anyways that was plenty of years ago, I'm surprised I even remembered. But... I dunno, for all the bad Rouge has done, and the bad in PJ'S daycare. It started my journey to, well, not killing myself. So... that's cool?

Sorry, I just needed to vent lol.

#tw #cw #tw mental illness #tw mental health #tw sui ideation #tw sui vent #tw sucidal ideation #tw sui implied #Tw pj's daycare #tw depressing thoughts #tw depressing stuff #tw depression #tw depressing shit #tw depressive #tw childhood trauma #Tw in tags #tw death #Tw vent #vent #vent post #venting #personal vent #just venting

[raincamp]

the feminine urge to cut myself so deep that FP looks at it and says "holy shit thats really bad Andrew" and looks at me with her worried eyes, wonders what she did wrong, asks me if I've talked to my therapist yet, tells me that she'll pay more attention to me from now on, and—

#tw in tags #tw self h@rm #tw sh related #tw sh implied #tw s/h mention #s/h tw #self h@rm #s/h #styro #styroblr #im not mentally stable #bpd #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #vent #ventposting #vent post

[spamtongspamton]

Does my artwork make a difference/does anyone actually like what I draw when I can draw?

#tw in tags #going through a really bad depression and I cant see a point in living rn #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression #delete later #not spamton #lost my tablet in Chicago and I feel like my life has no purpose

[blanknamw]

Sometimes I wonder why I have issues with food. Then I remember I go to an an all-girls school. 😭

#disorder eating #tw in tags #3ating d1sorder #🦋tw #🦋humor #4n4r3x1a #notpro4n4 #notprojusttags #ed but not sheeran

[wecandoit]

job interview in fifteen minutes!!! wish me luck

#dilli rambles #tw in tags #tried my best to cover up the scar on my face #from the *festivities* at home from two nights ago #seriously we have impeccable timing

[eljayetc]

@buddywakefieldpoetry

#buddy wakefield #human the death dance #EVERY DAY IS ONE DAY LESS #si tw #suicidal ideation tw #tw in tags #tag tag tag tag #I just want to unexist #I don’t want to be here anymore #I don’t want to be alive anymore #I passed my expiration date years ago #I’m not meant for this #*gestures vaguely* #blob #ihe #let me die

[blitxenweiner]

Day 5

tw for ana/mia

I don’t know why I want to lose weight, all I know is that I want to be skinnier. I have been weird about food for ages and I actually had a bit of a binge/purge habit in middle school that resulted in me being overweight. That is when I started my restricting, not really intentionally but I’ve been wanting to lose weight (and succeeding) since then.

As of right now my focus isn’t really on losing weight as much as feeling ‘clean’. I really struggle eating food that I don’t see as healthy or clean.

#tw in tags #tw ana shit #bulimima #tw ed diet #tw ed discussion #ana shit #4norexia #tw mia #4namia

[c0rpsebrideskinny]

Ha

Ha ha

Ha ha ha

Fml

#tw in tags #tw sh relapse #8 whole months down the fucking drain for a moment of release #fuck #have a gd concert this month too no fuckin shorts for me #fmyfuckinglifeman

[deathrises]

This is my best friend 😍😍😍 breakfast right here in a can!

#an0rexic #ana #an0r3xic #an0rex1a #i will be skiny #tw ana thoughts #tw ed relapse #male 4na #4n4 blog #tw ed vent #tw in tags #ed #4na diary #4norex1c #male anna #tw calories #tw food

[depression-permanent]

what I’ve been eating

#personal #tw binge mention #tw in tags #tw ed #tw ed vent #binging #I can’t stop #I want to die

[frvitbatz]

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#hey how do i not be suicidal after getting a second medical bill in the mail #i dont have insurance and it’s ludicrously expensive even though they didn’t do literally anything #i just fucking sat around for 3 hours #and i cant pay it and i dont know how to function and i wanna just die #why do i have to deal with this #its not fair #jesus fucking christ #suicide tw #tw in tags

[xakumi]

idk what happened but i hope you are ok and that your day gets better

im doing a lot better now, thank you!!

#basically this dude sent me 70 asks basically harassing me and threatening to unalive himself. fun times!! #suicide mention in tags #tw in tags

[wildbasil]

things haven't been great but i think they will be. eventually 🌻🌼🩷

#personal #comics #tw abuse #digital art #personal comic #for the record no i don't think my mother loves me #but the idea that she did kept me in an awful situation for a very long time #the number of times people said “she's your mother. she's trying her best. of course she loves you” etc etc #but i don't think “love” and abuse are mutually exclusive #like even if someone DOES love you it doesn't mean it's not abuse and it doesn't mean it's ok #art tag

[ayo-edebiri]

Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse + text posts

#tw flashing #byaurore #across the spiderverse #spiderman #across the spiderverse spoilers #marveledit #filmedit #userallisyn #userchelsea #tuserhan #usersaoirse #useradie #userbbelcher #userpavlova #spiderman across the spiderverse #userpayel #not tagging more ppl because i don't know who has already watched it #it was sooooo good!!! #marvel (ok sony but....) gave us too good movies in a row??? in 2023??? what is happening

[blanknamw]

Just found out that the month long trip that I’m going on, I’ll burn 3,000 calories a day. Plus a guy in my class was handing out chocolate bars and when I denied, my teacher told me I ‘had discipline’. The validation.

#3ating d1sorder #disordered eating thoughts #notprojustusingthetags #pro recovery #tw ana shit #tw in tags #disorder eating

[wecandoit]

(HEYYY Random ask to get to know better!!) What aspect of you or your life do you think past you would be more proud of right now?

Hiii, that’s a lovely ask thankyou <3333 and i’m sorry but i’m gonna get a little mental health-y.

There’s a moment that changed my life forever but the truth is, I wouldn’t be able to tell you when exactly it was bc i don’t even know. But one day I decided that I was going to stop letting things that happen around me inform my perception of who I was and how I felt. I said, You know what? I’m tired of waiting for things to change. I simply don’t give a shit. And I didn’t know it then but it changed my life and i’ve lived freely ever since.

#tw in tags #i guess if you want a more tangible moment it would be the last time i reached for a blade and chose not to use it #mental health #sorry if that was too much #but i encourage you to live unapologetically! #ask #isbluecool #💌