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vilsoo · 1 year

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DECEPTION & PERFECTION⌇NANAMI KENTO

❝ 𝑰 𝑩𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑲 𝑨 𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑳𝑰𝑶𝑵 𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑺 𝑱𝑼𝑺𝑻 𝑭𝑶𝑹 𝑭𝑼𝑵 ❞ ‎ submission for @510hz’s “how to be a heartbreaker” collab!

after losing yourself and becoming so disillusioned about love and romance, you finally accept yourself as nothing but a devious homewrecker. . .

꒰ ა ♡ ໒ ꒱ PAIRINGS! — nanami x homewrecker!f!reader ꒰ ა ♡ ໒ ꒱ TAGS! — heartless!reader, commitment issues, anxious attachment, slight narcissism, toxicity, angst, hurt (no comfort), sorta depressing/sad themes, self-loathing, hopeless romantic themes, unrequited love, seduction, eventual smut. i know this may slightly stray away from the “maneater” theme but with the meaning of this song, it’s more tragic.

You don’t belong to anyone.

As liberating that may sound to some, being in this state was more of a defense mechanism for you. Because after realizing you don’t know what else to do other than to break the hearts of men, you couldn’t escape being labeled as a homewrecker. Your life had spiraled into a mess that you just accepted it with no care in the world.

If all you really wanted was love, the pure kind that everyone dreams of, you had to run away from it. You’ve become so disillusioned about falling in love, convincing yourself nothing will ever last for you. Instead of the love and trust and laughter you deserved in a healthy relationship, you end up with a happy never after.

One night you were at the club, all dolled up and glamorizing enough that you’ve been receiving so many compliments from men and women. Compliments you’ve been told numerous times before that being called “pretty” was tedious and unoriginal to hear a lot. You deserved way more admiration than that. And even though your self-esteem and your confidence was radiating enough to showcase your outwardly strong personality, deep down you were alienated and empty in the inside. But you decided to not give any fucks that night. No regrets about anything. All you wanted to do was have fun and embrace even a fleeting moment of euphoria and feel as if you were the center of attention that night.

And there it was— that prolonged gaze from a handsome stranger’s eyes, capturing his attention that night. Watching you long enough, it eventually turns into a stare. Staring at you like he was hypnotized, getting under his skin with the way your body moved to the music. That night you were wearing all pink. Your attire seemed as if you were one of the dancers wearing pastels and other bold colors that weren’t neutral or plain— enough to not blend in with the crowd. And as you were dancing, your wandering eyes finally met his, settling on the stranger’s prominent, enticing features.

He was quite handsome that night. There was a dark mystery about him that intrigued you. When you caught him staring, he immediately glanced away it made you chuckle. But you didn’t take your eyes off him, yet— you just kept dancing, your body moving in sultry, mesmerizing ways to the music as you gazed at him with the right kind of heat in your eyes. Then he finally laid his eyes on you again. You couldn’t help but smile deviously at the stranger. He smirked back slightly, making his way through the dancing crowd just to be near you. But he disappeared— you suddenly lost track of his presence.

Slightly disappointed, you head to the restroom down the hall illuminated with pink lights where nobody was around. But that was all the stranger needed from you that night— a chance with you alone, right before you withdrew your mind. You feel his arms snake around you, holding you by the waist and pulling you ever so slightly where you could feel his body heat transmitting onto you. That night you felt a rush of helplessness against him, like a sinking yielding, a surging tide of warmth that left you limp and aching for him.

As you turned your neck, resting your head against his shoulder, his addicting lips dived down onto yours, kissing you softly at first. Then with a swift gradation intensity, his insistent mouth was parting your lips and his roaming hands parted your legs, sending wild tremors along your nerves. That night, when the two of you made out and fucked each other hard in the hall of the club, you were both evoked from such sensations you never knew you were capable of feeling.

It wasn’t difficult for you at all to catch the attention of men. You used to love and thrive off that feeling of a man chasing for you, wanting to uncover your mysteries, yearning to pursue you for they couldn’t contain their attraction to you. That man you met that night was the man you thought you were going to marry someday; Nanami Kento.

When time passed and you finally made it official, sex with Nanami was your everything with him; writhing into an unexplainable ecstatic state of mind together. The slapping of your skins, the sweet moans, loss of breath, the heat, the unforgettable sensation. Each hard thrust into your aching cunt sent you ablaze. You had the face and heart of a delicate angel and a body of a slutty porn star just for him. The beautiful princess treatment by day and the messy whore treatment by night.

There was this certain alluring presence about him that enticed you, intoxicating you with lust and love and all these feelings that made your stomach twist and turn. You were head over heels in love. Undeniably in love. Unconditionally in love with him. Blindly in love, at most. Love, love, love— it was all defined by the way you experience it. Nobody had taught you how to love. You just went with how your heart felt. What you were desiring for this whole time; “the one” as many people called it. But at the same time, you feel this sinking feeling in your guts the moment you believe you’re in love.

Oh, how Nanami loved you. He really was your dream man, the man who was going to marry you, pursue you, value you, worship you— every wholehearted trait of love and endearment he had for you was like an undying flame. He didn’t value you just for your body nor the sex. He knew deep down in his heart that you are the woman he belongs to by the end of time, the only woman he wants to marry, the only woman he wants to grow old with and die together. He’s never loved anyone so passionately like this. There was something about you that sinks him deeply into an unexplainable writhing of bliss.

But love was nothing but an image of deception.

Nanami is a hopeless romantic just like you. But even though the love he gives is what you deserve, would it be forever? Would he get tired of loving you? Is he only speaking to you through his mouth, and not his heart and soul?

Every past relationship you’ve been in haunted you for years. You still never fully healed or recovered from the pain and experiences you endured; your heart constantly getting broken and shattered to the point that you have no piece of it left. You were tired of being heartbroken all the time and you should not be committing to anyone right now. And it was all because of the need to rather break hearts than have your own heart broken first. In hopes you could find the 'one', you would have much more fun and liberty being single just like the old days…

“I don’t love you anymore.”

Nanami’s entire body froze when he was about to walk into the bathroom after the two of you had sex. He did a double take, chuckled, and turned slightly to you. “What? Sweetheart, don’t joke around like that.”

You sat on the edge of the bed in your nightgown, slanting your head at the blond male who looked unrecognizable to you now. “You heard me,” you replied coldly. “I don’t think I can do this anymore, Kento. I’m slowly losing my happiness every day I spend time with you. The last time I ever felt happiness was… before I met you. And now I’m trapped in a committed relationship where I have this massive fear of you hurting me.”

Nanami stood frozen as a deer caught in headlights. It felt as if the walls in his body were closing in on him, making it difficult to breathe. Your words inflicted more pain than any pain he’s ever endured in his life. It felt as if the world became slow, finally reaching its end, and not everybody has enough time to embrace their fate or let alone prepare for it. There was an uncontrolled staccato rhythmic in his chest and this swirling ache in his stomach. His nose flared so strongly from holding back tears, sauntering back to you and kneeling before you, holding onto your arms and caressing your skin.

“Look at me, Y/N. I admire you. I worship you. I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you. If I’m making you feel… trapped, I will do everything I can to not make you feel this way. So please… if you’re in need of reassurance, I’ll give you all of it. Even without you asking.”

It felt as if his words went straight through one ear then out the other. Because for some reason, even if Nanami thought he was being genuine and sweet to you, you remained nonchalant. A deadpanned expression, a slow beating heart, and not having enough energy to fight for this relationship or talk through it.

You stood up, your face remaining emotionless and free of pathetic tears. “I said what I said, Kento. If you really loved me, you’d allow me to be happy. And the only way I can feel happiness is never seeing you in my life again.”

Nanami just stayed down on the floor, feeling his nose burning from his tears and his heart being crushed from such agony and devastation. He didn’t dare turn his head just to watch you leave or see you one last time. He just decided to let you go, all while drowning in tears, sobs, and desolation.

When you finally left his home and drove down the highway, you finally felt that liberating spark again. That rush of adrenaline, rediscovering parts of yourself that were buried long under, like a sun brightening up a dark room. And after coping with your disillusionment about love, you just had to accept everything the way it is. When you have a slight feeling that something is gonna go wrong in a relationship, you run away. When you don’t feel the happiness you thought you would feel, you run away.

You’re only happy when you’re on the run. And you could break a million hearts of men just for the fun of it.

#( ♥︎ ) — collabs.#how to be a heartbreaker #nanami x reader #nanami x you #nanami kento #nanami kento smut #jujutsu kaisen nanami #jjk nanami #jujutsu kaisen smut #nanami kento fanfic #tw toxic relationship #tw narcissism #tw angst #i’ll be adding pink color for the text soon im just so lazy lol

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rorywritessmut · 1 month

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As a low empathy AFAB person, it’s weird being in feminist groups sometimes. I was originally diagnosed with NPD before ASD. I see Narcissism and Narcissist thrown around so much in these spaces and it makes me want to leave. As a low empathy person I feel as though I don’t belong even though I’m not a manipulative person. Narcissist and an emotionally immature person are not the same thing. People with NPD are not automatically bad people with nefarious intentions. I sent two years beating myself up because of the stigma surrounding NPD and cluster b personality types. Stop using narcissism as a scape goat for shitty people. Thanks.

#tw narcissism #actually narcissistic #not anymore #npd #narcissistic personality disorder #low empathy #actually audhd #afab #misdiagnosis #feminism #safe spaces #uncomfortable #just stop doing it #I was abused by a diagnosed NPD person #don’t come at me with your trauma #mentions of narcissism

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roguekhajiit · 13 days

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TW: Self-harm, cyber bullying

On the surface, my boss seems like a really nice and benevolent person. But lately, there have been instances that make me think I'm actually working for a narcissist.

Last year, my coworker got hurt on the job and needed stitches. After that incident happened, I heard some really icky things spoken by my boss anytime my coworker asks for even something minor, "[Coworker] cost me more money than any other employee!" When it was rumored that co-worker might quit; "If [they] do that [they'll] have to return every cent I paid [them]!"

But whenever my boss is in hot water with their superiors, they will ghost everyone for a couple of days and then show up with some story as to why no one could get ahold of them. "I had a heart attack yesterday, but I'm here. I am working!" I believed them at first until they let slip that they say that every time their customers are getting furious with their lack luster customer service; "I just tell them that and they instantly change their tone with me every time because they don't want to appear unsympathetic."

But this last part gets really bad. I had another coworker who was being cyber bullied in the neighborhood Facebook groups. I was never aware of it because I'm not active on Facebook, and I especially avoid those toxic neighborhood groups. People were making posts in these groups specifically to shit talk this coworker. I later found out my boss and other coworkers were aware of it and chose to ignore it. The bullies even went so far as to send them DMs and make fake accounts to harass them. This coworker eventually attempted suicide and I never saw them again. But I recently heard my boss say, "I don't care! [Coworker #2] put ME at a disadvantage trying to off [themselves]! [They] were out of work 2 months, and it really cost me!"

What the fuck? Is that all you can think about is how it disadvantaged you?! You KNEW this shit was going on, since you're in those groups yourself and you chose to let them suffer in silence because it had no personal impact on you until they couldn't take it anymore and chose the nuclear option? But anytime someone calls you out on your bullshit you pull out your ass some lame excuse to explain it all away and earn yourself more brownie points.

#tw self harm #tw cyberbullying #bad boss #work rant #work problems #tw narcissism

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dabisqueen · 6 months

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do you mind if I rant a bit?

I just really hate being blamed and guilt tripped all the time. One minute we’re laughing and talking about a drama. The next minute I’m being yelled at, called a disappointment, and basically being a emotional punching bag. I hate it so much. I have no one supporting me, I have moments when I think “this is fine, we’re all happy.” But that turns into “why am I being blamed? Why the hell am I taking all this? Why is everything always my fault? Am I at fault?” I just can’t stand this cycle. Then they’ll just say it was all a joke they didn’t mean it and I shouldn’t get mad. Mad?? Does being mad mean wanting to break down and cry? I want to cry but I can’t, the tears won’t come

Hey sweet pea, I am so sorry to hear that you are in a situation like this. It sounds like that someone has a Narcissistic personality disorder. have you ever heard about this? please research and read about it.

I have a lot of personal experience with narcissist people and I am actually seeing a therapist to learn how to handle it. A lot of it is all about not taking their actions too personal. like, realizing that its not YOU who has a problem but them.

that helps the most. and keep telling yourself its not your fault, this person tries to warp reality in a way that they are always the smarter, better, more perfect - that they are never at fault but everyone else.

please seek help by talking to close friends about this. and please research. get yourself acquainted with this personality disorder and how to deal with narcissist people.

Please reach out to me via dm if you ever need to ok? I am here for you.

#tw narcissism #tw narcissistic abuse #queen answers

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munstysmind · 3 months

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People will shame, blame you and label you all sorts of things for your REaction, yet somehow the action/s that caused it are never the problem 🤔

#munstysmind #tw abuse #tw reactive abuse #tw narcissism

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someweirdoreblogger · 9 months

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I think Poseidon is just as lonely as Sasaki implies.

However complex, you can understand Poseidon's specific views, though aren't morally justifiable; I firmly believe Poseidon has sociopathic and narcissistic tendencies but not a sociopath himself.

Poseidon seems like a simple jackass on the surface (and Poseidon definitely is a jackass), but he is actually a very complex individual on both a physical and mental level.

Poseidon is cruelest amongst the gods entirely, and that much is obvious in his fight, clearly displays questionable views. So indifferent, distant, and incomprehensible. That particular emotion of loneliness, he is purely incapable ever admitting to it because anything outside of flawless is beneath the gods. Unworth the time of day.

And the mere thought of emotional difficulties sends Poseidon in an intense rage, because why would a piece of shit human ever dare suggest he give a fuck about that?!

Poseidon is capable of "caring," however, as unforward as it is. And I think he's a lot more conflicted on those sorts of matter than we are lead to believe because Sasaki is right. Poseidon's choice to live a life of emotionless solitude in the ocean is a lonely existence.

As we can see in a few flashbacks with Hades, Poseidon does love his brothers, but the incredibly salty kind, more of an indirect piece of acknowledgment. We know he respects Hades on some level of notice, but Poseidon can't express it the way brothers are morally accepted to do.

Family naturally preaches love for each other because it's natural, its moral, and healthy. That love brings a family together, good or evil, it brings a deeply connected happiness. Family just know to love each other, since who else are expected to be there for you your entire life?

Poseidon does none of those things. That personal depth of understandable and emotionally unconditional attachment is foreign to his level. I don't think he ever told anyone or his own brothers that he loved them, nor do I think he actually can.

We can tell he has problems with people, normal or otherwise. He is unempathetic and carries inside him a sort of dullness during the youngest centuries of his childhood. Murder is a common occurrence to Poseidon. He cares not who or what he maims, whether or not because he really wanted to or if they were actually in the way of his goals. He also seems to take sadistic delight in causing pain.

This made me wonder if this makes him autistic as well, and he may very well be since he shows traits on the autism spectrum.

He is absolutely insensitive. His narcissism comes into play here too; he feels nothing for his fellow gods, is lacking in proper emotions, and has no decent social skills. He actively prefers to not care about anything, not even his supporters.

Poseidon doesn't bother to sympathize in thoughts and the hearts of others, as he can't envision himself in another's shoes except his own. He shows little to no interest in anything else than what else lays in his role as god of the sea.

#mypost #ignore this if you want but i have lots of thoughts on sea god jerk #its just me take and the more i think about it the more i believe he is very likely autistic lmao #poseidon #ror poseidon #record of ragnarok #anime #manga #record of ragnarok poseidon #tw narcissism #tw mentions of blood #tw mentions of murder #ror poseidon is his own warning

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bpdcodone · 3 months

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I hope you wake up and realize how meaningless your entire being is

@ everyone who has ever fucked me ober serisouky fuck you guys m

I’m high sorry

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jokerislandgirl32 · 5 months

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Did I ever mention how much I hate having toxic perfectionist, abusive, and narcissistic parents? No, I didn’t? Well, I have now.

#tw abuse #tw abusive parents #tw narcissistic parent #tw narcissism #tw perfectionist parents #vent post #tw vent #vent #wish i could just leave #but i’m stuck #marriage is the only way out and no one wants me #vent in tags

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rabbitholecrimes · 1 year

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Lori’s cousin Megan discusses their childhood, young adulthood, how religion played into their lives, and how the rules didn’t apply to Lori and the Cox family.

#lori vallow #lori vallow daybell #religion #narcissim #lds #tw religion #tw lds #tw eating issues #tw mental health #tw childhood trauma #tw family trauma #tw narcissism #tw animal death

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firemedicdiaz · 2 years

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When your narcissistic mother sends you a text message that was meant for your brother just completely slamming you.

Lol wow how embarrassing for you. Now I get to drag your sorry ass and you have zero plausible deniability.

I would like to thank EMDR for helping me change my core belief to one where I deserve better and also talk therapy for giving me the guts to confront the bitch.

#personal #tw narcissism

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kiame-sama · 1 year

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omg im already a goner ??? how would orion deal with a shyer darling who dances around his advances?

- At first, he doesn't understand. He is used to getting what he wants when he wants it, but you are proving difficult. It is a slight blow to his ego due to his typical style of landing anyone he has put his charms on- everyone other than you. Truly, he doesn't need to do much to get people to throw themselves at him.

- Once he realizes it is because you're shy, he will change tactics. He will go more to the charming protector, trying to coax you out of your emotional shell instead of expecting you to come to him. It will be difficult to doge him and he will intentionally cross paths with you, being so persistent that he basically tricks you into a date.

- He has 'run-in's so frequently you become more comfortable with him before he conveniently mentions having a reservation at a restaurant, but his 'date' canceled. So would you like to join him as a friend?

- He will push you into accepting the invitation and gets your number. Orion has had it since your first meeting, but he wanted it to seem like he got it from you. He will inform you it is a high-end place, but he will provide an outfit for you. It arrives the day of this meeting and it fits you perfectly (way too accurate).

- He asks where to pick you up and is already planning to use whatever he can to get you into his bed or at least into his home. Orion realizes during the date that he really wants you as his darling to love, spoil, and tease. You are adorable to him and he becomes intent on making you his, willing to continue a relaxed pace but ready to resort to more extreme measures. Regardless, he will make sure you are his permanently.

#kiame-sama #yandere #x reader #yandere x reader #reader insert #tw yandere #my oc #orion medici #my yandere oc #tw manipulation #tw narcissism #tw daddy kink

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priestessofcreation · 2 years

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Why do empaths fall victim to narcissists? 🤔

Our whole shtick is that we can sense other peoples’ pain. You’d think we’d be able to sense the truth too.

I mean seriously. I think that is one of our things. So why do we get caught in the trap?

Narcissists just seem really sincere in the beginning. But as they peel back the layers, you start to see the holes.

But I have one more idea. Perhaps the reason that we don’t sense the bad is because narcissists aren’t “bad or good.” It’s a personality disorder and an insidious one at that. Not just because it is hidden to the external world, but also because the sufferer themselves has no fucking idea. Also, the other reason is because the sufferer genuinely believes their isn’t a problem and that their perspective is completely valid.

Empaths sense energy and energy is heavily influenced by the person whose energy you are sensing. The reason the person feels authentic is because they are being authentic. They have no idea they have NPD. Which means the only the people on the outside can see it in the end.

#insidious indeed #almost as if it was designed to keep the person alive without taking any accountability #psychology #tw narcissistic abuse #tw narcissism

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waywardvictorianconfessions · 2 years

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People arm chair diagnosing Emillie as a narcissist has me thinking I might have NPD, too. Because I, too, do a lot of the same things.

#wayward victorian confessions #faerie admin #narcissism #tw narcissism

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otto-c-graves · 1 year

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Today I feel the need to post this somewhere that isn’t my deviantart.

I don’t like to post about my personal life and I am just one of many out there, but today, I want to just lay it down.

I don’t like to talk about my personal life because I have a fear of the repercussions it may lead to and what I might cause to myself and the others around me.

Earlier this year I started going to a therapist and he helped a lot, bless him, but I haven’t gone back since due to some other major life changing events I do not wish to dwell on. My therapist helped me realize that a lot of my anger and anxiety, which the latter of the two being through the roof, was caused by my upbringing. In other words, my inability to contain my emotions and how to deal with a sticky situation was not taught well to me as a child.

Then, on top of that and unfortunately many years of my life later, I came to fully realize that someone very close to me was, in short, a gaslighting narcissist. This person put so much strain on me growing up that I didn’t realize it. When I would sense something wasn’t really right, or my words would get twisted by this person but I was unable to do anything about it, I thought it was normal to feel as I felt.

I grew up walking on eggshells, and still do, and fearing of upsetting them. I can’t even begin to list all the things they do and have done to me nor do I think I feel comfortable doing so. Since going to therapy and realizing all my anger, anxiety, depression, zoning out, on top of many other issues, we’re caused by a lot in my past I feel like I really want to try and push forward.

I say this but I know darn well I probably won’t. However, I do, at this moment, have a sense of at least wanting to move forward. I would like to work on my projects again and really focus on the things that give me a little spark of serotonin. For the past five years I have spent procrastinating and depressed and in slow motion due to my home circumstances. I hate putting the blame all on this person- even if it was mostly them.

I do want to look forward to organizing and encouraging myself to work, but I feel like everything almost does not ever go according to my plans. So I say again, I want to look forward to start a new chapter, but we’ll see how that goes.

Can’t have too much of a good thing, you know?

#otto babbles on and on #otto talks #otto’s personal life #tw depressing stuff #tw narcissism #tw gaslighting #tw therapy #therapy #tw abuse #tw anxiety #mentally exhausted #mental health #mental health tw #tw depression #I hate talking about me #i’m sorry #tldr #text post

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