#tw sui thoughts

[support]

Everything okay?

If you or someone you know is struggling, you are not alone. There are many support services that are here to help. For 24/7 peer support and other resources, message KokoBot on Tumblr.

If you are in the United States, please try:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) The Trevor Project (LGBTQ youth, ages 13-24) National Eating Disorders Association (online chat, text) RAINN (National Sexual Assault Hotline)

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[honeypleasejustkillme]

suicidal people deserve a space to talk about their suicidal feelings without risking hospitalization/institutionalization or being accused of being manipulative or attention seeking

#world mental health day 2022 :) #remember you all are loved and appreciated :) #everyone with mental health issues are valid and deserve support so if you ever need it don’t hesitate to reach out <3 #actually bpd #bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd problems #actually borderline #bpd fp #bpd shitposting #bpd mood #bpd vent #bpd favorite person #tw sui mention #passive suicide #tw sui thoughts #tw sui vent

[ghostkennedy]

One Foot Here, One Foot Out the Door

~Leon Kennedy angst~

Word count: 854

Content warnings: PTSD, mental illness, gun use, suicidal thoughts, suicidal ideation, near suicide attempt, self-destructive behaviors, Leon is depressed and contemplating suicide. No comfort, no happy ending, just pure sadness.

I've been having a hard time lately with the battles inside my own head, so I wanted to write about the part of Leon that most resonates with me. The one foot here, one foot out the door feeling. Teetering on the edge of the end. I've barely scratched the surface here, but it felt nice to release these feelings from inside of me.

!!!!!SUICIDE IS NEVER THE ANSWER. REACH OUT TO SOMEBODY, NEVER SUFFER SILENTLY!!!!!!

~masterlist~ for those who don't wish to proceed with this piece

Why are any of us even born at all? Brought into a world where pain and suffering is the primary universal experience.

He looks at an old lady pushing her grocery cart, knowing she’s experienced pains he’ll never be able to comprehend. He sees a newborn baby and knows there’s nothing at all anyone can do to prevent them from enduring countless heartbreaks and devastation. He looks in the mirror and sees the shell of a man he once was. Or maybe he doesn’t recognize the face staring back at him at all.

He’s merely the solution of an equation made up of trauma, ache, and dread. 

So that begs the question, why the fuck were we even born at all?

Graced with a life that we beg any higher deity to take away. Take it back, take it all back. Why must we be forced to exist? He never should’ve existed at all.

Projecting his own damage as the general consensus to aid in an endless loneliness that no company could ever fill. Emptiness. How can one person feel so empty and so full of disgusting emotions at the same time? 

Countless people tell him he’s worthy of a better life. That he deserves so much better, that there’s better out there for him. But no one ever offers a solution. It’s just words they tell him to make themselves feel like they did something for him. 

If one day he loses the battle between himself and his own brain, they can say that they tried to help him. They were there for him. They took care of him. They can’t believe that this has happened.

They didn’t do a fucking thing. Thank you, sincerely, for your meaningless phrases that went in one ear and out the other. Empty words that he tossed away. Meanwhile, the words inside his own brain telling him the world would be better off without him dug their claws deeper and deeper into this godforsaken soul.

This soul that couldn’t have possibly been designed to endure such bullshit.

If everything happens for a reason, he’s sure that the reason is to see what will be the final nail in his coffin. Each day is harder. The years pass and traumatic event after traumatic event after traumatic fucking event just keeps happening to him. What will it finally take for him to fall apart completely and give himself away completely?

He wishes he could summarize it so simply. He could proclaim that the darkness has him in its grip, but that wouldn’t do it justice. Maybe he’s become the darkness. Maybe any light left inside of him has burnt out and now he’s left with only the nothingness within him.

If he had a choice, maybe he would feel better. He’d tell himself that he does it because he helps people. But that’s just more bullshit.

He’s never had a choice. He’s always been expected to put everything above himself, who gives a fuck what happens to him? Another statistic? A plus one to the casualty count? He’ll destroy himself until one day, that’s all he is.

If he thinks about how much light he used to hold inside of himself when he was younger, he’s filled with a blinding rage. The hopes and dreams he’s long lost and buried. 

How is one person expected to mourn themselves while still fucking breathing?

He’s not himself anymore. The Leon he once knew, maybe even the one he was meant to be, is gone. And there’s nothing he could ever do to bring him back. 

No matter how much he tries to numb himself, to detach himself and just go through the motions, the depression and anxiety always creeps up. It’s the only consistent thing in his life, and it’s not much to cling to, is it?

And as hard as it is to admit it, he truly wants it all to end. 

Maybe not by his own hand. Maybe not intentionally. No, he’s a coward. Too cowardly to take that final step that he so desperately craves.

His daydreams have become a grim vision of what it would be like if a mission went wrong. If something out of his control finally ended his life. 

Perhaps he’s become careless. Acting despite the possible consequences. Because if something finally clipped that last thread tying him to our world, would that really be so bad? Is that really “worst case scenario”? 

He’s no hero. He’s a fucking fool. A fool who at the root of it all, should’ve never existed at all.

The only comfort he finds is in the fact that one day he will cease to exist and there will be no one left on earth who remembers Leon Kennedy. The pain and suffering he’s seen will die with him.

But unfortunately, today is not that day. Today isn’t the start of the world after Leon Kennedy.

“Fucking coward,” he whispers to his reflection as he clicks the safety back into place. He lowers the gun from his temple and smashes it against the bathroom sink with a loud clang.

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hey. i love you. and i would listen to you any fucking time. don't let the worst day of your life be the last. -hannah

#leon kennedy #leon s kennedy #leon kennedy angst #leon s kennedy angst #triggering content #tw depression #tw sui ideation #tw sui thoughts #ghostkennedy

[glbtrx]

do y'all ever just... want to die. like actually want to die.

#justglbtrxproblems #depression #tw: depression #tw sui thoughts #sui mention #tw death #glbtrx

[euneirophrenic]

I hate the agony you feel when they're slowly distancing themselves from you & all you can do is watch

#actually bpd #bpd #bpd problems #vent #borderline personality disorder #trauma core #vent core #actually mentally ill #depressing thoughts #heartbroken #bpd fp #hopeless #tw sui thoughts

[gaymaramada]

When You Go, Take This Heart

Summary:

“I think I loved her, Yang.”

Yang shifted to find the girl’s eyes, her tone as soft as the coo of a dove, “Who?”

Ruby met her gaze, eyes shining, “Penny.”

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Warnings/Tags: Canonical character death, suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt, Ruby Rose-centric, pining, angst, emotional hurt/comfort, background bees, team as family, bittersweet ending, written before chapter 9

Relationships: Penny Polendina/Ruby Rose, Ruby Rose & Yang Xiao Long

Word count: 7,125

#rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby vol9 #rwby volume 9 spoilers #ruby rose #penny polendina #yang xiao long #nuts and dolts #bumbleby #strawberry sunrise #fic #fanfic #fanfiction #tw sui attempt #tw sui thoughts

[hyacinthdreamsworld]

i don't have anyone to rely on. all have is my razor.

#self h@rm #sad thoughts #tw s3lf harm #s3lfharmm #sucidial #tw selfhate #suicudal #suicidal #tw sui ideation #tw sui thoughts #tw sui mention #cvtt1ng #cvtaddict #tw cvtting #s3lfh4rm #s3lf harn #sewer slide

[lucent-blade]

I am leaving tumblr for a while.

Trigger warning for sui thoughts

My mental state is in shreds and I cannot continue posting and I do not know how long I will be long gone.

I am close to offing myself.

My posting has been less frequent as always and it has come apparent that my online activity is less and less.

I can’t keep doing this anymore, I’m sorry.

#tw sui vent #tw sui thoughts #might delete this account in general

[rongrii]

Henry Emily 2023 spotify wrapped be like:

“Top songs: 1# “Don’t try suicide” by Queen”

#fnaf #henry emily #rongrii talks #tw sui implied #tw sui joke #cw sui mention #cw sui thoughts #cw sui implied #tw sui thoughts #cw sui joke #to be safe and don’t make anyone uncomfortable

[c0smic-h0rr0r]

my parents just yelled at me for like a solid 30 minutes for being disabled and incapable of dealing with the implications of organized society so yeah i’m gonna kms i can’t deal with this bullshit anymore 👍

#i want to cvt #i wanna cvt #988blr #i wanna kms #tw sui vent #tw sui ideation #tw sui thoughts #i want to diiieeee #i want to disappear #block don’t report

[underthevveather]

If you've ever had suicidal thoughts, but found some - or any - reason to continue living and not act on any urges, I'm incredibly proud of you.

When your brain is so against everything, including its own survival, it can be extremely difficult to stay alive and be safe.

I want everyone to know that if you struggle with thoughts of suicide, relapse, or any kind of harm towards yourself/ others, but you actively choose everyday to continue living, that shows a type of strength that not everyone is equipped with.

You are so much stronger than you may believe.

#tw sui thoughts #tw mental illness #tw sh #tw depressing thoughts #mental help #mental health awareness #mental illness #mental health #mental health matters #actually mentally ill #depression #anxiety #bipolar #bpd #positivity #stay safe #staysafe #positive life #positive mental attitude #coping mechanism #trauma coping #coping skills

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i woke up feeling silly (suicidal)

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd #actually borderline #bpd problems #bpd fp #bpd vent #bpd mood #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #tw sui mention #tw sui thoughts

[humanruinsofamadmanslove]

Monsterous Existence (Reprise)

Hidden beneath tattered wings

A little girl weeps

A teen rages

An adult is silent

Behind sharpened teeth

A little girls blood stains her sheets

A teen's body is too small for what he asks for

An adult hides in her room where no one will hurt her

Behind curling horns

A little girl learns to swallow her tears

A teen sobs herself to sleep on the bathroom tile

An adult tends to the flame of rage that sustains their life

Behind blazing red eyes

A little girl is pinned to the floor

A teen can't forget the taste on her tongue

An adult forgets everything except what she wishes would fade in a drug induced haze

Behind razor sharp claws

A little girl hides away behind a book

A teen creates identity after identity to run away to

An adult can't see who she really is past the millions of masks that litter the floor around her

Behind a thrashing demonic tail

A little girl has one hand on the steeting wheel

A teen has another

An adult guides them through the dark tunnel they drive with three hands, together

Behind the shadows worn like armor

A little girl is silent

A teen weeps for an end

An adult holds them and promises their nightmare is finally over

#poetry #original poem #poem #poems and poetry #poems on tumblr #cw sh mention #poetic #poets on tumblr #poemsbyme #cw csa #cw csa mention #tw csa mention #tw csa #tw csa implied #cw csa implied #cw sh #tw sh mention #tw sh #cw sui mention #cw sui ideation #cw sui thoughts #cw sui implied #tw sui ideation #tw sui mention #tw sui thoughts #tw sui implied

[glbtrx]

I want to scream to break the quietness, the stillness of my heart and mind, but I can't hear my voice anymore. It dissipates in my throat into hopeless air. I should probably let myself drown. I should accept it and end the voices around me and in my head. So why can't I? Is it the cowardice? Or the so hated hope? Is there really any left inside me? For they say it is the last to die, but I don't believe it anymore.

#tw depressing thoughts #tw depression #tw sui thoughts #tw mental illness #sorry about this y'all #I'm so sorry everyone #I just want to die #come on death. Come take me for your icy arms would still be warmer than my soul #tw death

[euneirophrenic]

I feel bad for everyone that tries to help me. They just don't understand that i don't feel like it will get better, ever.

#bpd problems #actually bpd #vent core #vent #bpd #mentally ill #tw sui thoughts #tw self destruction #actuallybpd #mentally unstable #actually mentally ill #actually cluster b #cluster b #hopeless #lonely #alone #quiet bpd #bpd stuff #depression

[narcvampp]

VENT

Tw // sui mentions and thoughts

My biggest fucking fear is people viewing me/us as a bad or scary person. Our fiancé was scared to talk to us because he thought we'd get upset, someone had a dream about us saying things along the lines of using him for supply and being a bitch(and has acted off since that happened)

I genuinely hate this feeling and it makes me want to throw up. Because I care about these people and yet they see me as scary or rude or using them.

At this point I'd rather genuinely kms than deal with it because I feel like I have the need to throw shit and scream and shout and just!!! Eugh.

Sorry for the vent posts lately chat.

#vamp diary #vent #vent post #tw vent #tw sui vent #tw sui talk #tw sui thoughts