thank u so much🥺💓 i’m not about to kill myself btw so none of u need to worry, just in case u were💀
Anyway the best advice I’ve ever given is the advice of “if you can’t see a reason to live right now, I know it’s hard to understand that there might be one. I know it sucks, but our brains are against us. They want us to fail, to lose sight of what matters. If you can’t live for yourself, or for anyone else just yet, learn to live to spite your shitty fucking brain. Even if it just means eating when your brain is telling you you’re a failure. ‘Oh, am I a failure? Ok, fine. Let’s say I am. What the hell are you gonna do about it brain, it’s your goddamn fault!’ ‘…’ ‘exactly. Fuck off and let me eat my goddamn taco’”
Does anyone here knows where to get sleeping pills that kills
the smell of alpaca breath
the way the soft blankets feel on my skin when they are cold
the sight of the sunset over the reservoir
chatting with the magpies
really good showers in the dark
breathing in fresh air
drinking water when ive been parched
getting a sketch right the first time
the smell of watercolour paint
creating something that others love
the sound of kirins screams when she sees me
del’s noises when dad starts playing with her
abu’s gentle horse breath
seeing the cria play with one another
getting surprise kisses from the girls
ambushing the boys with hugs
the feeling of evvy purring around my shoulders
the sight of the stars at the farm
those early days before i knew it would all be so bad
the way the sunlight hits my wall in the morning
wearing mismatched jewelry
eating weird food combinations
the taste of burnt popcorn
sleeping in and waking up without any pain
watching a really good anime
laughing so hard i start crying
mostly being hugged
feeling like i am worth something
feeling like i am useful to someone
feeling like i have helped
a really, really good selfie
keeping in contact with old friends
losing contact with people who hurt me
the thought of getting to meet who i love
Pov: you accidentally trigger yourself by taking sleeping meds for probably the 3rd time since you tried to od a year and a half ago
Talked about this b4 with my s/o….but here are some age headcanons for brad and Lisa!!!
Who else is dreading thanksgiving?
You guys have to stop using “think about your parents” as a way of convincing someone out of suicide
So, I know no one fuckin cares, but yesterday I woke up to life, someone really close to me had a massive mental break down and it shaked me to my core. I was high af and when she started to breakdown I was worried, I was present, I was there. It felt like if I’ve been inside of myself for days and she pulled me out by screaming for help.
I’m less tired, and I’ve decided to keep swimming. I decided to share my life with my partner, I can’t quit on life if I’m able to help.
I’m gonna keep going, and hope I go back to therapy on January.
my mom whenever we have a fight: i wouldn’t mind if you died. feel free to kill yourself anytime
my mom when i tell her that her words hurt me deeply: you’re just overreacting! i didn’t mean any of that
and you know what? i know she doesn’t mean any of the shit she says. i know that now. but 16 year old me didn’t and what if i had killed myself back then? how would she life with all that guilt?
but you know. i am weak and dumb and useless and a terrible daughter. but i would never kill myself. no matter how much my depression tempts me. no matter how much it takes from me, it will never take my life. even if i think about dying all the time.
also. just because she didn’t mean it doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt and i’m TIRED of being dismissed like that. she has to learn that words have impact and consequences.
i have NEVER even once in my life threatened to kill myself. never. not even when all i wanted to do was die. i never said a word of it to her because i know it would hurt her
but does she do the same for me? does she think before she speaks? no. and then she just comes around after a few days acting like nothing happened
i am DONE. living alone is difficult. we were already going through a tough time without her pulling this bullshit on me again.
but enough is enough.
i want to fucking die lol
I’m really dysphoric & sad so I made a playlist for that but it’s comforting here
hopefully I’ll update it frequently. I’m paying very careful attention to make sure the songs are soft & comforting
I’m not saying I’m s*icidal, because I haven’t been for years, but at god, I don’t know how much longer I can keep living in this house.
IM SO FUCKING SICK OF THIS.
JUST LET ME LIVE, FOR ONCE.
NOT EVERYTHING I DO NEEDS YOUR OPINION
IM ALLOWED TO DRINK COFFEE
IM ALLOWED TO LIKE SCARY MOVIES
IM ALLOWED TO HAVE QUIET DAYS
IM ALLOWED TO SAY I LOVE YOU TO MY FRIENDS
SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET ME LIVE OR YOU WILL WATCH ME DIE.
Heres to hoping i wont wake up tomorrow
pov u just attempted suicide and now ur watching scott pilgrim vs the world scenes on yt to feel better
if my grandma, whos the only person that ever cared about me dies, and im not out of this mental shithole yet, i will definetly kill myself
Trying to draft a post explaining to spn fans that therapy is not evil like it’s consistently portrayed it but I just… dont have the fucking energy man. I can’t believe Andrew Dabb portrayed a psychologist as cruel to Dean and then endorsed suicide. It’s unfathomable.