#tw: mentions of abuse

[mymistakewriting]

Diaz Family Dynamics

This comes with the standard warnings of 'hey if you think I'm bashing this character, I'm not' and 'if you don't like my content, you don't have to interact with it because I ain't fighting with people over opinions'. With a single exception. I am absolutely bashing Helena and Ramon Diaz. They're terrible parents and even worse people. my asks are open for questions or conversations!

I also have other thoughts about Eddie, including things involving him and Shannon, and more things about him and his sisters, his traumas, etc. However, I think this post is a little too heavy to share all of those. If you're interested in any of them, let me know. I'll do a separate post for them later regardless, but I'd love to see what people are interested in hearing about.

Trigger warnings: PTSD, talk of child neglect & abuse. It's Eddie Diaz and his family, that's it's own warning.

Let's get the hard stuff out of the way first, shall we? As someone who's been in shoes similar to Eddie and Maddie as oldest sibling who's had to step up and be a parent to their younger siblings, there is no situation where a child is raising another child and it's not because the actual parents are neglectful at best and abusive at worst. The Diaz parents are both. And it's exactly the way you'd think. Helena is shown to be verbally and emotionally abusive to Eddie in the flashbacks we're given during Eddie Begins. She sits back and watches her son, who's a newly single father and still healing from injuries he gained in a war that he ran to in part because of his parents struggle with multiple jobs at once, doctors appointments for himself AND his son, and did nothing to help. Instead, she used the fact that he was struggling as an excuse to ask for custody of Christopher. And considering Eddie grew up with that same style of abuse, that he shielded his sisters from receiving it, too? Yeah, I hope she burns in Hell for it.

And Ramon. Oh, Ramon. He's equally shitty to Eddie when it comes to verbal abuse. He abandoned the family (for work, yes, but what decent father looks at their 10 year old son and tells them it's time to 'man up'?). And no one has a fight style scrappy enough for genuine street fighting, the way Eddie's got, unless it was learned originally in self defense and then refined later on with actual lessons. I'd put money on Ramon having laid hands on Eddie a time or two before he got big enough to fight back. I've seen it, I grew up with kids who have that exact fighting style and that's what it was from. And the way he never turns his back on his father when they do interact? It's a survivor's skill that you learn the hard way.

Also? All of Eddie's doubts about him being a good dad? His worries that he's fucking Christopher up when he's given everything he's got for his son? Those come from his parents, too. He's always tried to make sure he wasn't like either of his parents, but those doubts don't leave very easily when you've spent your whole life not knowing anything else. Helena definitely drilled it in the entire time after Eddie came home from overseas that what he was doing for Christopher's sake wasn't enough. That he wasn't a good enough parent.

I'm also entirely sure that Eddie's lack of skill in cooking stems in part from his childhood. He was the oldest sibling of three, and he was helping raise his sisters. He probably tried to learn to cook by the time he was 12 for their sake but was told no by his mother. They're a Southern family, do you know how much time some boys are allowed to spend in the kitchen when there's daughters around to learn to cook instead? Sure isn't enough to learn anything. And I 100% believe Helena just refused to teach him. He learned how to cook eggs when he was 12, but no one ever taught him anything else until after he moved to LA, where Pepa and Isabel stepped in and tried to teach him. But it's harder to learn to cook in your late 20s when you've got the weight of the world on your shoulders already than it would be when you're a kid. It's just an unfortunate fact that some aspects of toxic masculinity like that are furthered by the mothers here in the American South. Sometimes.

Additionally, Eddie's never considered that he could be anything other than straight (I think he's bisexual but demiromantic, but that's just a headcanon). Again. Welcome to the South. He grew up Catholic. No way in Hell that Ramon didn't threaten to 'beat the gay out of him' the first time he was overheard jokingly flirting with a friend in high school. More families are like that down here than I want to admit. My own included. Just look how quickly Eddie's communication style changes when he realizes something sounds flirty. All those times he's jokingly said something to Buck and then went too serious directly after for no discernible reason? Bet you anything it's that.

He didn't leave despite hating staying with his parents after Shannon left not because he couldn't (Pepa or Isabel would've let them stay until he got a place, I'm sure that's what happened anyway because he packed them up and left on a dime anyway) because he had to make sure his sisters were out of his parents' home first. He'd rather suffer than leave them unprotected from it all.

All three Diaz siblings went no contact eventually. Then Eddie switched to limited contact because he thought Christopher deserved to know his living grandparents after Shannon's death. The only time they all show up is when it's required (like at Ramon's retirement party).

And final comment involving the Diaz parents: Eddie never wanted to marry Shannon. Another unfortunate tradition here in the South that still happens (less frequently, but happens): sometimes the parents force a marriage in the case of an unplanned pregnancy. We've had several in my family. Eddie loved Shannon, yes. But he never would have married her on his own. His parents forced it as soon as they found out Shannon was pregnant. It's part of why their marriage was so toxic, I think.

#kieran talks #911 #eddie diaz #not writing #tw: mentions of abuse #tw: ptsd #helena and ramon diaz can suffer imo #them and the buckley parents deserve pain and nothing else #those are my thoughts and no one can convince me otherwise #also ignore any misspellings or bad grammar its 3 am for me as I post this

[davxdalexander]

What is your worst memory from your teen years?

The night I killed my father. It was one of the worst nights we had, and not just because I shot him. If I hadn't, my mother and I wouldn't have survived that night.

#ask david #tw: death #tw: mentions of abuse

[olympusrox]

WHY ARE ALL THE BG3 COMPANIONS SO TRAUMA

gale was groomed from a young boy by mystra

astarion was forced to use his body to bring his slaver victims

karlach was sold by the person she worked for and trusted with her life (ironic)

shart got manipulated and gaslighted into joining a cult of the direct opposite beliefs to what she grew up with and was made to erase her memories to serve shars whims and keep her secrets

Laezel got manipulated her whole life into believing that Fantasy Cronus (haha yk cuz he consumed his kids and they ended up killing him as revenge) was the only thing that she needed in life and was shielded from the outside world (another point - her and shart are diff sides of the same coin)

Wyll got forced into a pact to save his city and then his father rejected him and turned him away when he needed him most

Minthara got manipulated by orin and the cult and was abused by her

Minsc got abandoned by his bsf pookiebear no1 gal and then was manipulated (heavy word for minsc it wasnt that big it was just. Fake Jaheira: hey come w me and do what i say. Minsc: Where you go i goooo, What you see i seeeee) but yeah

Jaheira's hubby dies idk when and she had to leave her kids, leave her bsf pookiebear no1 gal and then finds out that said bsf pookiebear no1 gal was being manipulated by a shapeshifter to kill ppl in the cults name (theres so much more for Jaheira but i havent played the first 2 games sorry guyz so idk)

Halsins chillin idk tbh

#tw: mentions of abuse #tw mentions of trauma #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #bg3 lae'zel #bg3 astarion #bg3 gale #bg3 shadowheart #bg3 shart #bg3 minthara #bg3 halsin #bg3 wyll #bg3 minsc #bg3 jaheira #bg3 karlach

[kevin-ibw]

About Valentino's Outfits

TW: Mentions of Abuse

As you all know, the majority of the time, Val is on screen. He seems to have fishnets with a skirt. Episode 4 was the only time we got to see him dressed up professionally with pants. Sure, it's kind of funny when you think about it, but I personally think there might be a reason why that's might be the case.

Looking at this from a writer's perspective, I'm pretty sure the reason why they made him dress like this, is because so we can take him seriously, especially since after we got a reveal of his full body for the first time, the abuse scene happens. Think about it, we never see Val wear these golden rings and finger claws before up until this episode, and it dissappears afterward.

I'm not saying that anyone with fishnets or a skirt can't be intimidating, but for Val's case specifically I think this outfit change was sort of needed even if it was for a single episode, cause to many Hazbin Hotel fans that weren't here prior to the pilot days, they wouldn't have know WHO Val is to Angel. The first peak of him was episode 2, and he throws a tantrum because, apparently, getting your own apartment is illegal.

His entire look in this episode brings out the pimp vibe he's supposed to have, cause I'l have to be honest and say that Val's current look with plain long red coat mostly looks like a costume. The new outfit is supposed to reinforce the fact that, yes, this man is a dramatic sack of shit worse than dirt. He became an overlord for a reason, and it's by abusing his employees and giving everyone sexual gratification through his films.

Another thing is the inconsistency with his shoulders.

On the left, they're much broader, making him look intimidating compared to the right. Sure, the fur might play into a factor, but isn't the case considering that the third pic has his fur almost cover his entire shoulders, yet still look very wide.

The context that happens in the episodes also proves my point, since in EP 4, Val threw Angel around, threatening him and making him work overnight, not giving him a chance to fight back at all. Whilst EP 6, Angel stands his ground and didn't allow himself to be pushed around because they're not within the studio's premise.

Because I know some people lack media literacy, this post is by no means discouraging people from drawing Val in certain outfits, I'm just a weirdo on the internet over analyzing something because I felt like it.

#tell me if i should tag other things #tw: mentions of abuse #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel valentino #hazbin valentino #valentino #hazbin hotel angel dust #angel dust #hazbin angel dust

[bunniebaby]

i think we all know this by now, but wilbur has revealed himself to be a narcissistic asshole, but on the bright side, his actions can be rooted back to his intentions pretty easily which could possibly stop people like this from being popular in the first place

(Ie: abusive actions disguised as playful, strangely victimizing lyrics, etc.)

Anyways, support Shelby, don’t ignore what happened

#tw: mentions of abuse

[speciosuspoematis]

LYRI DRABBLES. MENTIONS: @hydrvs

Silence eengulfs him as elongated ears listen to the shouted violence his inebriated father offered up the staircase that lead to Cyvel's quarters. Profanity, vulgarity - naught was barred as his torrent of offense and abuse continued - leaving the poet only thankful that the older man could no longer ascend the steeper set of stairs that would have otherwise carried him to his space.

'T was getting worse - as his fathers health failed further, his violent and uncaring outbursts became more obscene. Escape only came in heading outside, to the freezing streets, or remaining cooped within his quarters: isolated and teary, Cyvel chooses to sit himself 'pon the window seat opposite his bed.

Eyes, glassy from the silent shedding of tears, turn to trace the sights of stars above. How rare it was for a clear night in Ishgard, to allow for the viewing of the cosmos and thus he decided to make the very most of it. Without speaking a single word aloud did he send hopes and prayers towards the heavens, some to Halone and some to his brother and, once he was quite finished, did he sit back and wrap a blanket around his person, turning thoughts instead to positivity.

Cyvel found, while life was so terribly difficult, that reflecting on fond memories helped him get some sleep, aided him in getting up the following morning: in burying his grief and depression and, instead, gave him willingness to find more joy, somewhere.

It took very little time at all, however, for him to grow teary once more and, having used the corner of a blanket to wipe at his eyes, did he whisper a rather broken: "I miss you, Serpos."

How long had it been since he had settled his eyes on the man? Too long to not be a mass worry and oh, how his dear little heart couldn't hold any more grief. Still mourning his brother and his end, still attempting to fix his mind from his own near death encounter, still attempting to remain strong in the face of his father... Cyvel simply couldn't accept the grief that came with the possibility of losing Serpos, too. But it had been so long... And he was petrified something had happened and that, perhaps, he would never find out what. He would simply be left to wander what had happened.

It's enough to bring a quiet sob from his throat, muffled by how he hid his face into the soft confines of the plush fabric. He would usually remind himself that Serpos could be out there, right now, glancing up at those very same stars... But that night, the poets truly sorry state got the better of him and he was reduced to naught more than immense grief and upset. No sleep would alleviate it, no words would soothe. 'T would seem as if the great dark cavern of his woe only grew bigger.

"... Please... Come back to me." Weeks upon weeks of uttered prayers for his safety returned to him, we're whispered beneath his breath, willing the Fury with all of his might, even if his faith had wavered since the loss of his brother. If there was any possibility it would help, he would try it. Just in case.

Eventually, he forces himself out of his upset and paces to his bathroom: washes his face, changes into bedclothes and nigh collapses into bed, so exhausted by emotion. But sleep never came easily and when it did finally claim him it was, as always, poisoned by a host of different nightmares. Loss, grief, attack, pain - - all of it as consuming as the darkness he found himself within.

#Exceptionally sad poet hours #Tw: Mentions of abuse

[halliwellauto]

@crownedhopelesss II @weareheroes sent: you never told me that. i can't believe you never told me. / from cordelia chase

"I didn't want anyone to know. I should have seen the signs. But I guess after what happened in Sunnydale, I just wanted to find someone that cared for me." After her heart was broken with Angel meeting Buffy, she had came back to San Francisco to mend her heart for a bit. she had meant someone who had seemed nice at first. She said all the right words, did all the right things. But underneath the surface, she was as bad as any monster she ever faced. She made her life a nightmare after they started to get more serious. She didn't want her to work at the shop anymore or to at least fire the guys she had. She limited contact between her and her parents. She made her feel less as a person. She was naive in thinking that she would change. That maybe she was just stressed about her job or something else. She stuck it out until the first time she hit her. Then she was gone, making a new life for herself in L.A. The end result to the hit was a small scar on her forehead.

When she reconnected with Angel and Cordelia, she didn't tell them what happened. She kept quiet about it. It had seemed to be in the past. Then one day, her ex walked in with her new girlfriend, asking for help on a ghost. When she met eyes with Aiden, it took everything in Aiden not to run. Cordelia found her in her room, crying after they had left. it was then that she had to tell someone what happened. "Look, we can still take the job. As much as I don't like her for what she did, I don't want her girlfriend to be in the line of fire of this ghost."

#tw: abuse #tw: mentions of abuse #ask #aiden answers #weareheroes #v: away from home

[humanitys-strongest-bamf]

okay i slept on it and now i'm a little less upset about the ao3 comment, but i would still like to remind everyone to do your research before leaving shitty comments like that to avoid doing real harm to survivors because my god i was not doing well

#kat rambles #tw: mentions of abuse #like jesus fucking christ i shouldn't have to handhold someone over not making a shitty comment like that #if your intention was to do harm then shame on you #i hope you find happiness /gen

[fadingmagazine]

Come to the Vocaloid Ao3 tag! We have:

The absolute worst, comedically bankrupt Crackfic ever put in a google doc

Improperly tagged Project Sekai fics that have nothing to do with Vocaloid itself

Oliver being tortured in every way imaginable (Mostly sexually)

Russian LenRin gore fics

Actual fics that have been inactive for years

Plenty of Chat Fics

Things that aren't even stories with like 30 different fandoms

...on second thought, don't come to the Ao3 Vocaloid tag

#vocaloid #rambles #magazine rants #ao3 tags #tw: mentions of abuse #I swear browsing Vocaloid fanfic is hell

[mymistakewriting]

Howard 'Chimney' Han headcanons & thoughts

Let me start this post out with a heads up because I'm sure something I say here is going to upset someone. I've seen how divided some of this fandom is on Chimney. NOTHING I SAY HERE SHOULD BE TAKEN AS ME BASHING A CHARACTER. I have several opinions on Chimney. My opinions and feelings on Chimney are VERY complicated and I'll do my best to explain them all.

And now, let me begin with the question posed to me by @happilylovingchaos

Heritage: Because he lost his mother so young and he stayed in the United States instead of returning with his father back to South Korea after her passing, his exposure to his heritage was limited (and rather tainted) despite another family taking him in. Because of this, I'm very sure his feelings towards his heritage is complicated - he's proud of where he comes from, he'll happily answer questions or discuss it if people want to hear it.

I do fully believe he intends to make sure Jee-Yun is aware of and connected with that portion of her heritage, he does still hold it close even if he doesn't feel as connected with it himself. Additionally, I think he uses the language pretty fluidly, kind of like how Eddie occasionally slips in a Spanish word, Chimney slips in a Korean word or phrase when he thinks it matches what he wants to say more. That said, I don't think it's something he uses often.

Other: For all that the show frames Chimney as the funny guy who takes nothing seriously, ESPECIALLY when paired against Hen, I don't think he is. He's not the comic relief, he's not the guy that's always joking around. And I see that misconception a lot in the fandom as well. He definitely uses humor as a coping mechanism, don't get me wrong, but he's usually the one balancing Hen's more wild ideas. He acts as her balance - her savior complex versus his need to stay well within the bounds he's been given because he knows and has seen what can happen if he oversteps those bounds for even a moment. Better read as her savior complex versus his survivor's guilt.

He's not fit to be a full time captain. He did passably well as interim captain in the show, however he has the tendency to focus on the wrong things and he tends to freeze when he's under pressure and asked to make the calls. If he worked on that, he'd make an amazing captain. Personally, I think he should be paramedic in charge for a-shift at some point. He'd thrive in that position. However, to do so would mean he would have to take a step back from the rescue (firefighter) portion of his job to focus more on the medical side and I just can't see him doing that.

He does owe Buck an apology for punching him during the situation with Maddie. But not because it was uncalled for. Yes, he shouldn't have hit Buck because frankly, I'm half sure at the time Buck didn't know where the hell Maddie was, it was just another time that she'd up and ran away like she always did when he was little. However, in the situation? I understand why he did. He shouldn't apologize because oh he hurt Buck and Buck's everyone's favorite - he should apologize because it was a moment of high emotion and they both should have communicated better. He isn't a terrible person for reacting as a worried partner who wasn't being told the truth. It was just a shitty situation. For everyone.

This one is just fun. He's the reason Buck trained Ravi the way he did. Chimney certainly didn't give Buck an easy time during his probationary year, and Buck took that to heart. He's tough enough to handle the job because of how Chimney helped train him in his mind, so of course he paid it forward. I'm pretty sure Chimney got a laugh out of the stories when Hen told him.

Chimney handles being the partner of a domestic abuse victim beautifully. He knows that sometimes, things are going to happen that trigger a memory or reaction that don't make a whole lot of sense. The fact that he's been shown to roll with the punches and let Maddie make the calls on how fast they do something? Beautiful. I adore their relationship SOLELY for Chimney's side of it and how considerate he is of the fact that he hasn't been there, he doesn't understand everything she's been through. But he still tries to make sure she knows she's safe and loved and valued. He is exactly the kind of partner she needed after what she lived through with Doug.

#kieran talks #911 #chimney han #911 chimney #tw: mentions of abuse #I still have thoughts about him but none of the rest want to be put to words so a part 2 will happen eventually.

[amethyst-aster]

Y’all shout out to the creator of Loving Reaper. It is so sad but is very important and spreads awareness for the different kinds of animal abuse. (It’s on webtoons)

#I just finished it #trying not to cry #it’s so good #tw: mentions of abuse

[abbyandhanako]

“My paternal grandfather, the 17th Count of Jeong and my step-grandmother was the only one who supported me, they didn’t approve of the engagement and marriage to Sang-jo either because of how physically abusive she was…

My grandfather, Ju-won even respected the decision my wish not to be contacted by anyone in my paternal family was respected.

He was adamant he did not treat his wife like that when she was alive, from what I heard….She died when my ‘father’ was only a baby and he got remarried to my step-grandmother, who was the only grandmother I was raised with.

My step-grandmother, Misapinoa Kang came from an extremely wealthy family but not of nobility like the Choi and Jeong families and was half-Paldean, half-Korean, she had cancer and couldn’t have anymore children after the two from her previous marriage as she was left sterile due to chemo, but even though I wasn’t her biological grandson, she absolutely adored me and was absolutely horrified how Sang-jo was treating me.” - Mark

#in character interactions #tw: mentions of abuse #Mark Jeong {{the unusual visitor}}

[trainerlynda]

✘ biggest regret?

I-... killed someone.

It was a long time ago, I had been made to believe that I was indebted to a creature should never have associated with, it fed off my anger and my pain and sent me out to screw with people.

And while I was forced out and doing that, I came across my abuser.

Rage and pain had flooded me and before I knew what I was doing, I had killed him.

I didn't regret it in the moment, however if I had not killed him I could have been free from his torment of me.

But now an Arceus keeps bringing him back to life to punish my 'misdeads'

I wish I could have stopped myself.

I wish I could go back in time without screwing myself out of my currently amazing life.

As the time stream goes, that isn't possible.

//2/10 (If I gotta add more warning tags please let me know)

#tw: mentions of death #cw: mentions of death #tw: mentions of abuse #cw: mentions of abuse #//I AM SO SORRY FOR THE SUDDEN DARKNESS! #pokeblogging #pokemon irl #pokemon rp #lore crumbs #//DUMPPING SEVRAL JARS

[multifandoms27-blog]

Warnings: Mentions of abuse (not specified), drug use (not specified), mental breakdown

Summary: This is a vent of mine. Chris Redfield finds you high in the shower after not speaking to him for a couple days. He thought you were done with drugs, but discovers you got high because you were having trouble with your PTSD and abusive father. He then helps you feel better.

Viewer discrestion is advised. Take care of yourselves.

• ───────────────── •

Chris moved up to the door. You hadn't been answering his texts or calls for days. That never meant anything good. Fiddling with his key ring for the spare key you gave him for emergencies, he noted to take off the keys he didn't need anymore once he left your place.

Finally finding the right one, he jammed it in the lock and unceremoniously shoved his way into your apartment. The lights were off, but he could hear a shower going in your bathroom. He took a quick peek at your current living space. Things were everywhere, the sink was crowded with dirty dishes, he guessed it had been like this for a little bit.

"(Y/n)?" He called out. "Hey, it's Chris. You uh, you didn't answer any of my texts or calls and I was getting worried."

No response. The shower continued. Growing suspicious, he made his way to the shower. He knocked once, twice, thrice, and right when he was about to knock a fourth time, your raspy voice sounded quietly through the door.

"Come in."

He did, and saw your curtains open. You were fully clothed but drenched head to toe. You looked tired, your lips were chapped, and your skin was pale.

"Jesus, what happened to you?" He reached over and turned off the water.

"No, turn it back on...my fucking..." You trailed off.

"Come on, let's go." He bent over and slung one limp arm over his shoulders before hauling you up and out of the tub. "What the hell were you doing?"

"Bad trip...thought...cold shower would help." Your head slumped, and when Chris tried to stand you up, your face just smashed into his chest.

Chris sighed. "Lets get you dried off, yeah? What even prompted you to get high? I thought you quit that."

"I did...but my fucking...my fucking dad came by..."

Chris knew that was the culprit. Your abusive father. Nodding, he helped you into your room, picked some oversized clothing for you to throw on (that absolutely weren't his) before handing you a towel. Nothing needed to be said, Chris knew well enough by now.

After changing into dry clothing and drying yourself off the best you could with a towel and high off your ass, you tried to stumble into the living room. More lights were on and it was fucking with your vision. Chris was putting some of your dirty dishes in the dishwasher.

"Oh no, no, don't do that...I can..."

"It's fine, you go sit down." Chris turned and gave you a charming smile over his shoulder.

You hesitated. Chris clicked his tongue. "Want company?"

You hesitantly nodded, not entirely sure. If you started having flashbacks again, you didn't want to get violent with your only source of comfort. But, before you could finish your thought process, Chris had abandoned the sink and guided you to your couch.

"Cuddle or no?"

"..." It suddenly hurt to speak.

Chris waited patiently for you to speak, or give him a hand signal. When you tapped his shoulder, he nodded. You just wanted to sit shoulder to shoulder. Chris patiently waited for you to talk, or not. He would wait for you forever if that's what you needed. He'll sit here as you begin to breakdown and cry, all of your worries and PTSD-ridden thoughts come spilling out. Chris listens, and listens, and listens. He doesn't say a single word. He just slowly begins to envelope you in a hug, giving you plenty of time to back out if you wanted to.

When his arms finally cage you in, you feel your tears begin to stop. You aren't close to calming down, but it definitely feels better like this. When you're done, Chris gives you a moment to see if you have anything else to say. When you're silent, he only says a sentence.

"I'm here, I've got you."

And do you feel damn safe in those fucking arms.

#chris redfield #chris redfield would fight my dad for me #tw: mentions of abuse #chris redfield x reader #chris redfield x y/n #chris redfield x you #chris redfield comfort

[valorheroics]

Can we just talk about the Shibas' house for a second here???

( putting under a read more because i'm rambling with headcanons. )

First of all, I don't like Taiju either but we didn't have to do him like that for his picture. Deranged.

This is pulled from a character book for those that may not know or only just found this too. CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT HOW THEY'RE LIVING IN A VERY NICE HOUSE, HELLO???

Swimming pool, a jacuzzi tub, a balcony, a million bookshelves. There's a housekeeper's room, which i'm sure is empty since Yuzuha's mother passed. I'm going to assume so.

I saw a lot of people saying it's probably Black Dragon money, but listen. That isn't really... well it's not really checking out. I'm just throwing some headcanons here because not vibing with dirty money. This is giving me dad's a CEO or big boss of a few businesses that's why he's never home vibes. So i'm throwing some Yuzuha & Hakkai living situation headcanons here that @galaxythixf and I decided on for our portrayals.

My Yuzuha portrayal is going based off of the siblings having a doting father. Yeah, sorry their lives are already tragic enough with family situations. Their mother died and Taiju is a horrible gang leader who abuses his younger siblings? I'm not portraying Yuzuha to have a father that just abandoned them.

I like the idea that their father calls to check on them every single day. He's running a very successful business or businesses that keep him away from home on long trips around the world for meetings, promotions, & etc. What he does I don't really know yet. But he calls Yuzuha and Hakkai a lot to check on them.

When it comes to the things they endure with Taiju i'm headcanoning that Yuzuha has this deep fear of letting her father down. She doesn't tell him about the abuse, the gang activities, or really anything that might make her father question if he should come home. She really wants him to believe she is handling everything. Yuzuha just wants both of her parents ( regardless of her mother no longer being with them. ) to be proud of her & know that she's staying strong.

With that being said, i'm headcanoning that mother and father fully bought the house ( nothing to do with Black Dragon shenanigans sorry not sorry. ), their father doesn't know about the Taiju behavior situation because they just don't want to worry their father ( which we can get more into later. ), and highkey they're just rich kids. I mean they don't seem to go to the same school as the others so i'm just vibing that they attend a private school nearby.

#【🌺】❛ jazzy babbling ❜ ( ooc ) #【🧡】 Yuzuha || HC #tw: mentions of abuse #{ oml the house. wha. } #{ the swimming pool!! i envy!! } #{ When Taiju leaves they throw a house party. I dont make the rules. }

[xxno-thoughts-just-chaosxx]

A Ramble on Beg (and to a lesser extent, Prisoner)

These comics actually mean quite a bit to me in very unique ways. I'll talk about what I can below and what themes I have/may be covering. There might be mild (and unintentional) spoilers- and if so, I'd appreciate it if none of what I write below the cut is carried out into the open and mentioned in the comments of future pages.

I'm gonna get a touch real, so please don't feel obligated to read further.

Let’s rip the bandaid off and say the big thing first.

I’m a bit of a mess. I’ve always been a mess. I’ve been the victim of emotional abuse growing up, including and not limited to Gaslighting and Manipulation. For a very long time, I’ve been unable to trust myself or my memories. Still don’t, tbh.

I want to stress - I’m in a far better mind space NOW, compared to what I was a few years ago. I’m still healing, but I’m better. And I will continue to get better.

The comic BEG serves as an outlet… or at least as a canvas to describe some of these emotions. A huge running theme is Guilt.

Luigi feeling guilty for things that were always out of his control.

Peach feeling guilty for things that were in her control.

Bowser feeling guilty for a mixture of both.

Mario feeling guilty for making choices that seemed right at the time, but it actually only made things worse. In fact - maybe things would’ve been better if he had never involved himself at all. 

The idea is that you never actually know what is going on in your life or how your actions may affect others. How, at any moment, your entire life could implode. (Or someone else's)

Prisoner covers the need for retribution. When someone does a bad thing - there needs to be justice for it. Right? But who calls those shots? What defines a proper punishment? How do you cope with your actions or the actions of others?

…I feel like I have to stress that I don’t see any of these characters as ‘me’. But they’ve all been given roles that best represent what I’m trying to express here. I’m sorry if that doesn’t make a whole lot of sense haha… 

End of the day, it’s just an edgy story. Both of them. But I’m using tools most familiar to me to help make it feel like a good story. It’s exciting and a little scary. But like, in a good way.

#tw: mental health #tw: mentions of abuse #rambling