#tw: self half

[harrystylesfan2686]

Alone

Pairing: no one really.

Summary: Reader starts to feel left out in her own family...

Warnings: Neglection. Suicide thoughts. Self harm (in detail) please go back if any of these bother you. Your mental heath matters more.

A/N: I think I need therapy too...

Masterlist Part 2(Azriel) Part 2(Eris)

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Ever wondered what it's like to be alone?

It's a game, really. A game of utter self degradation. A game where there are only two players, you and your mind. A game where you never truly win and you always have to keep playing because your brain never tires.

A game which no one else realizes your playing until you lose and it's too late.

It's the game you have been playing ever since the Archerons joined the inner circle. You love them all, honestly. Thier different personalities was the first thing that drew you to them. You admir all three of them but the one thing you hate is how you got left alone after their involvement to your life.

Before them, you all relied on all of you for company and support. Now, everybody has their own person.

Rhysand has Feyre, Cassian has Nesta, Azriel has Elain, and Mor and Amren have found thier partners too but in case they aren't present, Mor and Amren, as crazy as it sounds, rely on each other. Just like that, everybody has a person to go home to, to come back safely for, to turn to for comfort.

You don't have anyone.

You hate going home because your bed is always empty. You hate going on missions because you know no one would be worrying about you every minute you gone. You hate celebrations because you have no one to dance with, to drink with, to end the day with.

You love family dinners. Even though you never get a chance to speak, even though you never talk to anyone, even though no one notices your presence. You love family dinners and meetings because it's the only time youre not alone.

It's doesn't matter if you're lonely, at least you aren't alone.

But in the game you're playing with yourself, after a while, you get too tired to challenge back with same force. You don't push back the mean thoughts your mind throws at you as insults. You listen to them, compare them to your situation and realise, you've been trying to win for nothing.

You slowly stop trying to protect yourself all together.

The first time you didn't go to a family dinner, you thought you would regret it later but you didn't, instead you felt glad that you didn't go because no one had come to get you, no one came to ask why you didn't show, no one cared about you enough to think why you didn't go.

So you stopped going at all.

You stopped doing everything with you 'family' and prefered being left alone.

You only met them when you had a mission together or anything related to work.

Just like that, today you had gone to one of the Illyrian camps at Rhys orders. He got report saying things haven't been going as they should there and wanted you to go check. But on your way back you had been ambushed by a group of six men wanting to kill you in the camp, they couldn't of course but you did come out of the fight with a large sward wound on your left side.

All you wanted to do was go home, rest, tend to your wound and sleep. You can give the report to Rhys tomorrow.

You let out a grunt and step in your house, immediately tense seeing a shadow of a person move the dark room. Your hand placing itself in your dagger straped to your thigh, you other hand on the left side of your waist pressing on your wound.

"Relax, it's just me." A familiar voice fills the silence as the fae lights turn on and Rhysands face becomes visible. You sigh in relief and furrow your eyebrows,"What you doing so late in my house?" You nearly snap, but hold back as respect for your high lord.

"You came late you were suppose to be here two hours ago." For minute it feels like he cares for you, and you allow yourself to believe that he was worried for you but you fantasy shatters the second he opens his mouth again. "You were supposed to deliver your report two hours ago. You know how important this is, I have other things to do too." His voice sharp as he scolds you.

"You're right, I'm sorry. I got attacked while leaving, it took time to fight them of. It was six against one but well I managed to survive, eh?" Rhysand's scowl deepens. "Tell me what happened there now."

Your eyes closs for a second whem you feel dizzy. "Look, how about you give me ten minutes to freshen up, and I also have a wound to–," You try to say but he cuts you off saying,"I don't have more time. Tell me right now what happened so I can get started on fixing things, then you can have all the time to fresh up as you want. My office, now." He doesn't leave much to room to argue and winnows you to his office.

You sigh and start speaking, repeating everything you noticed in the camp as Rhysand listens and writes down the report. Near the end, you feel another wave of dizziness hit you and put your head down to rest it against the backrest of your chair and groan when you feel pain shoot up from your injury from the movement.

Rhysand finally notices the source of your pain and his eyes flare,"You're hurt?" You scoff. "Yes. That's what I was trying to tell you before you winnowed us here."

"I didnt notice it. I'm sorry, you should go tend to it." He quickly dismisses you, finally letting you go back to your house.

As you look at yourself in the mirror, thinking how filthy and hideous you seem, you grit your teeth. Of course no one notices you. Look at you. You are ugly and filled with dirt and scars all over your body.

How could anyone look at you when you can't even look at yourself.

Your gaze falls to your wound, the big cut that spread from under you left breast to the start of your thigh. If was deep enough to bleed you dry.

Would anyone even notice if you did? If you don't heal and let the injury bleed you dead. Would anyone know that you were gone? That your body layed unmoving in the bathroom floor. How long would it take for someone to find you? Who would find you? Probably Rhysand when he needs you for his next mission.

You eye your dagger that you unshielded on your way in the bathroom. How long would it take for you to bleed out? Hours? Days? You didn't want that. That was too much. You don't think you can handle that much pain constantly. Maybe if you took that dagger and deepen your cut, you would bleed out faster. Maybe you would have a faster death. Sure it would hurt but at least you would be gone before someone found you.

You would be free. Free of the loneliness. Free of the feeling like you were a burden in everyone's life. Free of wanting Someone to care for you the way you see everyone else care for their loved ones. You would finally be at peace.

You gasp and blink out the terrible thoughts. Breathing heavy, you search for the cotton and Healing cream in the cupboards. You groan out with you don't find any of them.

You turn back to the mirror. Maybe your brain is right. Maybe this is a sign from Mother herself telling you to not let the wound heal and die right here, right now. Your gaze finds the knife again, eyeing the sharp edge. Would it really be that bad?

Your hand grips the handle of the dagger, bringing it closer to the cut. You let the cold mettle edge scrap the skin, an inch afar the start of the cut. The sharp edge slicing through skin like paper, leaving a line of crimson red blood, seeping out of the newly cut skin.

Your eyes widen as you observe yourself, keeping the knife near the cut but not touching it entirely.

It's... mesmerizing. The way blood slowly comes out of the skin, the small and steady lines created by your dagger are engrossing. And the pain, the pain is hypnotizing, slowing raising to the rest of your body. Your body feels electrified, there's snips of pain tingling through out your entire body, your ears buzzing with excitement. Your hands are shaking and eyes bluring but all you can focus on is how much you want to do this again. Feel your skin open beneath you knife again. Feel the pain that slowing raises with each extra inch of cut.

Oh gods. What have you done?

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#acotar #acotar fanfiction #acotar fandom #acotar x reader #acotar angst #angst #tw: sucidal thoughts #tw: self loathing #tw: self half #your mental health matters #love you guys #azriel x reader #rhysand x reader #cassian x reader #inner circle x reader #eris x reader

[zvdvdlvr]

Hi I just saw ur post about the sh comfort, could you write a sh comfort fic, a outsiders one please, could you do Johnny hcs pleases and can you make the reader gn please

johnny seeing your SH scars ( thighs, wrists )

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒: 𝑝𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑚, 𝑠𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑠, 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑡 𝑓𝑖𝑐

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆: 𝑟𝑜𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑐!𝑗𝑜ℎ𝑛𝑛𝑦 𝑐𝑎𝑑𝑒 𝑥 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟

𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐒: 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦/𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚

{🧡}

looking back, johnny felt bad that he didn't push sooner

he only found out that one day at the Curtis's when you were in the bathroom and were pulling on a tank top to put a long sleeve shirt over that

johnny didnt knock, no one knocked.

when you jumped to face the intruder, johnny looked down to give you your modesty, put his eyes locked on the jagged lines criss crossing on your thighs

he looked up slowly, your paused movements giving him view to the faint scars on your wrist

swallowing, johnny turned on his heel and left, making sure to close the door when he left

he didn't avoid you; you were both dating and practically lived at the same house

however, he avoided the confrontation for fear of irritating you

you pulled him away from the group while darry and soda tossed the football around, two-bit occasionally jumping in to intercept the ball cleanly and take off in a sprint

"hey" you "hi :p" johnny

you asked him if he told anyone, and he gave you a questioning look

"my scars, johnnyboy. did you... tell anyone?"

he shrugs. "did you want me to?"

you almost cried tbh

you smile at him shyly. "do you want me to explain it? why aren't you asking me questions?" through your happines, there was confusion

the few people that had seen normally asked a lot of questions

but

you almost... wanted him to know

was it because you were dating? who knows!

"later? we can go pick up sodas and go hang out at the park?" johnny

you agreed, happy that he wasn't interrogating you, but not brushing you off

later, you both walked down to the park, drinks in hand

you explained (albeit shakily) why you made yourself bleed., and johnny listened

at some point, he shifted his coke to his other hand so he could link pinkies with you bc you sounded sad </////3333333

screaming and crying i need a johnny

after that night, johnny glances at you with A Look ™️, questioning if you had Done Anything

you shook your head; he was helping you forget that habit and

if you were still self harming (cutting), johnny would always clean your cuts and bandage them up without saying anything

your own battles are always the worst

and he knows that

but a whispered "i'm here" from him always makes you tear up

your beyond disappointed at yourself for possibly disappointing johnny and feeling upset that he would waste his time with you

HOWEVER

he absolutely DOES NOT think that :')

he's secretly in love with you!

anyhow,

if/when you finally stop turning to that to take out your emotions, (when ur snuggling or in private) johnny rubs his thumbs over your scars

one time, he whispered "you're so strong"

you were asleep (or were you?😏) so you didnt answer

if you decided to wear a short sleeve or let your scars show, johnny would never leave your side: he gets a lot of looks because of the marred skin on his face

darry sat you down, though, as the mother that he is

it was a simple "you don't need to do that anymore, we're always here for you, you're part of the gang" speech

it was touching, but funny

dally had to be held back whenever someone pointed or laughed or made a comment about your wrists

most likely by two, darry, and soda

mans strong when infuriated

mans hot af

WHOA WHO SAID THAT

if you do the shmexy time when ur older,

ABSOLUTE SWEETHEART.

kisses your scars, takes time to trace them with a light fingertip

he's so proud of how far you've come <3

sobbing i love him

if you were comfortable with it obviously,

if you had a pattern like # that, two would probably play tic tac toe with you i dont make the rules i dont wanna offend anyone

you were startled at first at how he looked up at you, holding the marker out to you

but now it your thing

johnny laughs whenever you beat two (which is always 50/50)

will edit later,

sorry if this is bad <3

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[jellyfishinajamjar]

That one post that said germaphobe Hunter post-Thanks To Them is so right. I’d also like to add hypervigilance to that list. One tiny paper cut and his world was torn apart. One tiny little cut and he lost his best friend, nearly killed his sister, nearly had his life taken from him again by that monster. All it took was a tiny cut for him to get in and it nearly cost him everything, and he will never be that negligent again.

So what if his hands are a little too red cause he keeps scrubbing them, or people give him looks cause he flinches just a bit too hard when someone sneezes, or he goes hungry a night or too cause he just can’t eat, not when it could be infected, not when it might happen again. So what if he’s paranoid, if he’s hurting himself so no one else will get hurt because of him? He’s only paranoid if he’s wrong.

#the owl house #toh #toh hunter #tw: ptsd #tw: paranoia #tw: self half

[cuteangsty]

Whump prompt 4#

[tw: self harm]

Whumpee is already with caretaker, but they can't understand the fact they don't have to be punished anymore, so they start to think it's a test and begin to punish themselves.

Whumpee

They usually use anything in their environment to "punish themselves", especially human whumpees, they are quite adaptable.

Avian whumpees mostly scratch their thighs, wrists and wings, pulls feathers.

Vampire whumpees bite themselves or try to eat chunks of their own skin.

Werewolf whumpees also try to eat their own skin or scratch themselves.

Caretaker

Caretaker is horrified when they witness it. They had been noticing the new bruises/ cuts/ bites, but they never would have expected this.

They try to explain once again that punishment is not needed, that whumper won't punish them.

Caretaker tries to help whumpee get clean from self harming, little by little. Telling them to not cut/ bite/ etc... Only 10 times, then only 5... Until they can be clean.

Whumper

If Whumper ever gets to see this happen, they are initially interested in such reaction.

Whumper asks whumpee what kind of punishment do they think they deserve and then tell them to do it.

They make whumpee count the wounds made by themselves and even turn it into a competition.

Later he starts to get bored of it and yells at whumpee that "only they can hurt whumpee" or "they can't even do that right"

#tw: self half #whumper #whumpee #whumplr #caretaker #whump prompt #whump #avian whumpee #avian whump #vampire whumpee #vampire whump #werewolf whumpee #werewolf whump #human whumpee #non human whump #whump prompts #mine #pet whump #whump drabble #whump writing

[loveandmurders]

Helloooo, I was wondering if I could request Sinclair sister who struggles with SH?

Hello love, thank you for this request <3 

I really hope you’re doing well and if you need to talk about anything, you can send me a message. Never stay alone if you feel like you’re struggling <3

This request is the most personnal thing I ever wrote on this blog because I did hurt myself for quite a while, and still do sometimes. This is also my darkest post over here. 

Not too sure if I love or hate this work (it had been very hard to write and readproof it before posting), but I still hope you’ll enjoy this in a way that’ll bring you some comfort. <3

And if you needed a sign to stop hurting yourself or not commit suicide today/tonight, this is it.

LET ALL THE ANGER AND HATRED OUT

Warnings: self harming (pulling you hair, bad position, scratching and cuting yourself), self hatred, insecurities, shame, suicidal thoughts, mentions of mental illness, mention of torturing and killing people (the twins’ solution to your SH isn’t a good one but you can’t except more from slashers)

You started to hurt yourself when you were a child.

At first, it was pulling at your hair or taking deliberately positions that would quickly be uncomfortable or hurtful. Thankfully Vincent was always there to stop you pulling at your hair, and Bo was finding way too much comfort in your presence so you always ended up on his lap or close by, that way he was unknowingly preventing you from hurting yourself. And when Lester was noticing how silent you were - which often meant you were going to hurt yourself - he would cheer you up and sleep with you, at night, to look after you.

When you became a teenage girl, you started to understand that you were actually hurting yourself. As a child, it was a subconscious defence mechanism, but as you grew up you realised what you were doing. And if you stopped pulling at your hair and taking bad positions - mostly because you started to enjoy your hair and because you wanted to have a healthy body (so your dad wouldn’t give you some made up painkillers you didn’t know the side effects of), you started to hurt yourself in other ways.

At first, you started to scratch your skin with your nails until you bled. As you continued to grow up in this very toxic family, you started to use a knife or a razor blade on your inner thighs and arms. You always did your best to tend your wounds afterwards, mostly because you didn’t want your brothers to find out. You knew they already had a lot to handle, and you loved to be able to bring them comfort, and not even more burden.

Plus, you felt awful, weak and pathetic afterwards. The more you hurt yourself and the more you hated yourself. It was a vicious circle but you just couldn’t help. It was like a drug. You felt so much better when you were punishing yourself, it felt like you were alive too. But once you were done, you would look at what you did; and you would feel empty sometimes, or you would start crying. Either way, you would mechanically go have a shower and try to patch everything up and burn anything with blood on so no one could know.

You were always putting on long enough sleeves too, because you were ashamed.

More than once you thought about killing yourself too, but you never did for your brothers. You knew how much they loved you, adored you, cherished you. You knew how Bo was always freaking out when you were out of his line of vision, how Vincent always kept an eye on you, how Lester was always looking at you when he made a joke to be sure you were laughing at it. 

So you didn’t commit suicide - to not break your brothers even more than they already were - but you continued to hurt yourself, even in your adulthood. There were better days, better weeks, better months than others. But there were also very dark times. Your lows were awfully low. If you brothers knew you could sometimes feel depressed and unhappy, no matter how much you would always try to hide it behind a smile, they never thought you were using blades against yourself. They always thought they would notice - but they probably were blind by their own insanity and mental illness. They couldn’t imagine that their joyful beloved baby sister could hate herself. How could she when she was the ray of sunshine in their life? When she was the only thing worth living for, even in this bloody and unhappy mess?

It was so easy for you to hurt yourself when you lived in your own flat, you didn’t even have to hide the bloody bandages anymore. But when you agreed to live with your brothers again, a sane part of yourself hoped this would help, hope you would feel better, or hope that the boys would notice something. The bigger part of yourself thought that if you had been able to hide it your whole childhood, you could continue doing it.

But the boys grew up too, they weren’t just angry, vulnerable, violent, desperate, broken teenagers. They were adults who used their own suffering and insanity to find prey, to kill them, to turn them into the main attraction of the town. They also spent several years without seeing you every day, so their eyes on you were more lucid. And if their love for you never wavered, it turned more protective and possessive with time.

That was how Vincent started to notice that some days you seemed to be hiding your arms, or that you were trying to not flinch when Bo would innocently grab you to show you something or have you sit down for a family dinner. He also noticed how long you could stay in the bathroom for a simple shower. Vincent learnt to observe and to stalk people as he grew up, and even though he hated to do anything that could make you feel uncomfortable, he couldn’t let anything happen to you.

He knew something was wrong. 

That day, after lunch, Bo went back to his garage, Lester left for an errand, and you went upstairs for a shower. Vincent stayed in the kitchen, and looked at the clock. 

It was over an hour your were in the bathroom now. 

Deadly silent in there too. 

His instinct was screaming at him to open the door separating the two of you, but he couldn’t do that, so he waited for you right behind it. 

You gasped when you opened the door and found him there, quite surprised and deep inside, a little bit panicked. You still smiled at him “You scared me” you chuckled even though you didn’t understand what he was doing there. You kept the towel you used to stop the bleeding closer to your chest so Vincent wouldn’t see it. You tried to move past him but he blocked you and you frowned.

“What, Vinny?” you asked

Why so long? He signed and your heart dropped. No one ever asked you this, and you didn’t think anyone would notice because the boys were always so busy with everything. When you were a teen, your parents would kick your arse if they heard the water running for too long, but they wouldn’t care otherwise. When you were a teen, Bo was too busy screaming, Vinny being in his own world and Lester trying to get his mother’s attention.

You shrugged “Just did a hair mask, took me longer… Why? Are you checking how long I stay in the bathroom now? It’s kinda creepy, Vince” you replied with a smile, trying to embarrass him so he would leave you alone, but he could see past your lies and noticed how your smile wasn’t reaching your eyes.

You good? What’s going on? He insisted and you bit on your bottom lip.

“Look I don’t know what you’re imagining…” you said as your brother reached for you and you accidentally let the towel fall. You didn’t even look at it, because you knew Vincent would see the blood on it. You looked away actually, feeling so ashamed. Vincent picked the towel up and for an instant he was simply speechless.

He hadn’t known what you were doing in the bathroom, but hurting yourself to the point of making yourself bleed was clearly not what he had imagined. He had thought that maybe you were staring at yourself and hating yourself and insulting yourself, like he often did. But hurting yourself... like that? 

He let the towel go and very carefully and gently he grabbed your arm and he lifted the sleeve up. The sight of the bandages turned his stomach up and down. He had no idea what to do. His heart was breaking. He couldn’t believe he hadn’t noticed before either. He should have been smarter for your own sake.

He brought you against his chest and hugged you. You had to resist the urge to cry as you hugged him back.

“I’m fine, Vinny, I’m fine, I swear. I’m sorry about the towel, I’ll go buy a new one” you babbled, as if Vincent was caring about anything else but you. He remembered the hair pulling when you were a kid and he hated how he never thought it could have turned into something worse. “Vinny, please don’t tell Bo” you pleaded. “Or Lester. Please. I’ll stop, I promise” you begged him.

I’m sorry we haven’t noticed before. I’m sorry you never talked to us about it. Vincent replied as he cupped your face. You know we love you more than anything. Tell me what we can do to make this stop. He continued and you started to cry as you shook your head.

“I’m fine. You all have enough to handle with, I don’t want to be a burden. My skin regenerates well, if I put some cream on every morning and night, it’ll be all good soon.” you replied. You didn’t add that you had become quite good at hiding any marks with jewels or clothes.

In your state you hadn’t heard Bo coming inside the house. Vincent did, and even if he understood you wanted to keep this a secret, he needed Bo to watch over you too. Bo heard the two of you talking upstairs so he joined in. He saw the tears dripping down your face and in two big steps he was there, hugging you. He didn’t know what was going on, but he never was able to stand the sight of you crying.

“What’s wrong, baby?” he asked and you felt like you were going to cry even more. You didn’t answer, and as he was about to ask Vincent, he saw the bloody towel on the ground.

“Are ya hurt?” he instantly asked and he started to check on you with worried gestures and eyes. You gently pushed him away because you felt like you couldn’t breathe. But he didn’t let you do, he brought you closer before freezing when he saw the bandages. With what happened to his wrists, he understood right away. And it felt like a punch in his stomach. His baby sister had been hurting herself all those years and he hadn’t noticed? Like Vincent, guilt instantly creeped inside of him. As your big brothers, their job was to protect you and to make sure you were happy. How could they have failed so badly without realising it? Like Vincent, he hugged you, completely speechless, and you cried even more before pushing the two of them from you.

“This needs to stop” Bo sternly said because he had no idea how to handle the situation, and emotions weren’t his strong suit. You let out a dry laugh that broke their hearts even more.

“Ya think I don’t know that, ya think I’m feelin’ good? It’s been weeks I haven’t needed to, but today I just couldn’t stop. I should’ve been better at work and I haven’t been super nice with Lester yesterday, so I needed to do this. That’s all. I mean we’re all fucked up, so yes I’m hurtin’ myself since I’m a kid, but it’s fine, I survived so far.”

“Love…”

“Ya want to know how bad I can feel? Sometimes I fuckin’ dream I could hurt myself bad enough it would kill me.” The twins’ eyes widened and they both reached for you with pure fear and concern written all over their faces. They couldn’t stand the thought of losing you, and hearing those words coming from your mouth was ripping their hearts from their chests. “But if I never did, it’s because I knew I’d kill ya too. Honestly ya saved me more than once, but I need to hurt myself to feel somethin’, or when I’m angry at myself, or when I feel guilty or stupid or pathetic, or when I’m tired or when I’m feelin’ too lonely.” you explained, and it felt good to be able to say it out loud for the first time in your life.

Your brothers hugged you, lost for words. They both were thinking fast because they couldn’t let you continue hurting yourself like that. After a few instant, something very natural came to them. They just exchanged a look before guiding you to your room, so you could sit on your bed. Vincent sat next to you, stroking your back, as Bo knelt in front of you and he cupped your face in his hands.

“Listen to me, love.” he started and you looked down at him as he stroked your cheeks. “Ya need to let all your anger, your hatred and sufferin’ out, but ya can’t do it on yourself no more. Ya’re important, ya’re loved, and ya’re safe with us. We should’ve seen what ya were doin’ to yourself a long time ago, but now this will change, do ya hear me?”

“How?” you asked as you softly sniffed

“By hurtin’, torturin’ and killin’ people who aren’t ya. I promise ya’ll feel better and we’ll make sure that nothing can happen to ya. Ya know the special room I have in my garage that I never let ya see? There is a chair there, and I’ll tie up anyone ya’d like so ya’d let out everythin’ bad you have inside of ya unto them. How does that sound?”

“I don’t know, Bo…” you weren’t sure you were able to hurt someone else other than yourself. You had never been a bully, and you weren’t a killer.

“Let’s try, love, even just once, okay?” Bo insisted so you looked up at Vincent who nodded. You thought about it for a few moments before nodding and both the twins relaxed. They really hoped it would help like it “helped” them. They also promised themselves to keep a very close eye on you, because you were far too important for them.

And everyday they reminded you that:

You are loved.

You are not alone.

You are important.

You are safe.

You deserve better.

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[the-friendly-entity]

[ ~"Teen idle"~ ] - Mortal Kombat 1

You have depression but the Mortal Kombat character dont know, how are they gonna figure it out?

What contains? Depression Topic, Suicide, Self Harm, Sensitive Content

How is visualized as? Cople Relation Ship, Family Relation Ship, Friend Relation Ship

Raiden

-He certainly will notice very early before you can do something to hurt yourself, the odd patron like you dont eat much or you eat too much, you lost interest in doing some activities in the past you liked a lot, and mostly does strange jokes you do, that makes him concern

-He dont wanna overthink it or really think is a possibility, still, he wants to make sure you are really ok, so he thinks a way to bring this topic to you without making you overwhelmed or scared, he wants to bring this the best as possible

-Finally when you two are together for a simple visit, talking and eating, finally Raiden finds the opportunity to bring up the topic, at first are simple questions of how you going or how you diet, simple and hidden questions about it, to the point finally bring fully the topic about if you have depression

-You dont know how to respond, already feel scared or nervous, but Raiden already can see by your eyes and body expression his concerns are true, he does not force you to respond, but gently holds your hands and tell you whatever you affronting he will be there for you, you not alone, this makes you cry and hug him, he hugs you and makes sure you feel loved and safe

Kung Lao

-He will not notice at first, probably if you eating too much must be you that hungry or eating less is because you are on a diet, he will find it odd you jokes but he thinks he dont understand you humor and that ok, but most odd about it he saw is you lost interested in things you like, he questioning why?

-Something he found is you compliment his hat, he appreciates you like his hat and finds it cool, but, he can see you looking at his hat, does eyes reflect something he feels uncomfortable, he dont understand why, sometimes he caught you almost touching the sharp parts of the hat, you move away your hand and fastly and nervously tell you want just to use it, he chuckles about it and let you know he appreciates it that, but still he can't get out of his head how odd is it, he maybe overthinking it?

-One time, he noticed you wearing more clothes than usual, covering all you body, he found it odd, is not even that cold, he joked about it, even trying to take off your sweater in a playful manner, you tried to stop him but he was more stronger than you and soon he take you sweater off he saw you scars on you arms close your hands, he finally understand everything

-He keeps looking at you injuries on your arms as his brain tries to process everything as fast it can, he quickly afrond this fastly asking what happened to you, you try to lie about having an accident or something, but Kung Lao knows is a lie, the discussion continues to the point you yell at him saying the true and how you feel, finally just crying in the end, Kung Lao just keep there looking, until hugging you carefully, he will say sorry about how he brings this topic badly and force you like this, he will say he will be there to help you, you are important to him, no matter what your brain says to you, you hug him back continue crying, he carefully caress you back and say last one thing "One last thing, my hat is not for hurt you, is for protect you, and keep you safe, alright?" he chuckles a little, just trying to cheer up the mood

Smoke - Tomas

-He will notice your weird behavior, like does jokes, he can't understand why you joke that way, and you eat less, and do not even want to do things you like anymore, of course, he always checks on you and asks all this, you just make up an excuse, but he can feel there something else

-He wants to figure out all this without pushing you, mostly invite you to eat a little more correctly, and mostly invite you to do more activities with him and the rest, even sometimes you reject the invitation he always finds a way you be there with them and have fun

-Eventually, one day you ask him to talk in private, he is nervous about it thinking about what will be about, finally saying to Smoke about your depression, thanks to Somke always being there to make you feel you belong and always taking care of you, is make you brave egnoft to tell him what is happening

-Smoke is surprised by this, all make sense for him now, he processes it while seeing your sad expression, he gently hugs you and says to you nice words, and no matter what he always be there for you, and will help you to afront this

Kenshi Takahashi

-He gets used to Jhony Jokes, but yours? are already so odd the way is, he dont think eating too much is a problem, but when is eating less already is, always asking why you not eating much?, even if you say is for diet he will say you still need to at least eat something more, he also finds odd why you dont do things you liked but dont get very deep in it

-Thankfully, thanks for Sento, they will say to Kenshi there something very wrong with you, making Kenshi now paying more attention at you, if Sento says is for something, he maybe ask about it with you, about if you ok or if something bothers you, of corse you will lie and move away, and Kenshi knows that not it

-He will be with you most of the time, near or far away, but always there checking on you, he sometimes invite you make you eat more correctly, or mostly go to do things you like to do, even if Kenshi dont like or dont know much about it, he want to make sure you ok

-Once you finally talk about your Depression in private, he understands, he is not even surprised but he is happy you tell him about it, he gently kiss your front head and he makes a promise to be there with you, always

Reiko

-He definitely will not see the odd patron, laugh about your jokes, and not even pay attention to the food thing

-However, he will always try to force you to do something, at least training! of course you dont want, and it always ends in a fight/discussion

-Eventually, he caught you hurting yourself in your bedroom, you were scared and trying to hide about what was you doing as you yeet a pillow at his face angry, just trying to hide what was happening, but was too late, he already saw it

-He will demand you show your arms, you deny and you ask him to leave, but he will not leave you, taking one of your arms and checking your injuries still bleeding, he asks why is causing you doing this? what is the reason you are depressed, any reason behind it, he dont want to lose you, and he will make sure you to help you win this "war"

Rain

-He will find odd your jokes even asking what you trying to mean by that, you just awardly keep in silent, he of course he will notice about the food thing and always tell you you should eat normally, and the lost in interesting in things you like? he finds it absolutely weird

-He always will ask why you doing all this, and you always make excuse and lie about it but he know something is not right and will sometimes insist that you try to tell the truth, always saying "I will not judge you, I just want to understand"

-He always was with you, sometimes invite you some events, sometimes you reject sometimes you go and pass good time with him, Eventually you tell him about your depression and he finally understand

-He will ask everything about it, how did it happen first? what cause it? anything, he wants to know everything to help you afront it, and of corse, after that he will help you afront this the best as posible

Baraka

-Oh he of course saw it, he saw a lot of people who suffer the Tarkat ended in a horrible state of depresion, different people deal in different way, but the result was the same, ending they lifes, seeing you in that same state of depresion make Baraka heart worrie, you have a very long life to live, and he cant imagine you taking your own life, he will act and try to deal with this

-Of cose he try how to adress this, looking the better moments to try to convers this with you, without pushes you about it, motivate you for eat correctly, and be back to your old lovely activities, anytime you do does kind of joke he light/fix it up with something good, not longer making the joke odd

-Baraka hopes could try to hug you, you really need someone to show you affectionly someone cares about you, but of corse....the Tarkat, he hates be in this posicion of cant help much, you need help, and the most close you have someone is Baraka, this hurt him feeling he cant do egnoft for save you, but will not give up for you

-Finally, he caugth you almost going to hurt yourself with a knife, he stop your hand, holding it thigth abvoiding you try to stab/hurt yourself and remove the knife from you, you try to fight about it, but instend Baraka hug you, your surprised it, even Baraka regret doing this he know you need this for you own good, right here and right now, telling you dont have to do this and how much important you are, finallly you just crying on his sholder, Baraka just continue hugging you, waiting you finally get all does feelings out

Shang Tsung

-At firts he will not noticed, he will think you acting weird, but soon he gets its, ooh the little you have depression? how adorable, he will smile at the distance seeing you how badly you are, how give up of life you are, a very slow suffering, he will pretend he dont know about it and just continue the days

-There something very inside telling him, very inside worrie about you, he will just laugh it off and thinking "me? worrie about that Earthrealm?? that just nonsense" but his hear and mind will remember the times you been so nice to him, willing to give him a chance even he a lose case, you dint give up for him, he try to stop thinking about does memories and move on, but...."what if?"

-He will saw you scars, almost not hided, as you awared he will not care about it, he will see it and just looking other way, he will just do what he was doing, but soon is very blocked due his mind and heart is screaming at him about you, he really worrie about you?

-Finally he go check on you, caugth you at the moment of your final decicion, you was going to hang yourself, Shang Tsung was there observing, he cant move for a moment, but he finally did when you fall, caugth you before you neck get hold by the rope, you was absotluly confused about, wondering what he was doing, Shang Tsung remove the rope from you neck and take you to his lab to heal your badly heal injures, you there seeing him taking care of you, asking him why is doing this? he mostly not respond, he badly quiet just healing you, once he done you ask him away "Why?" he will keep quiet for a moment until a angry grump he finally respond "Just..dont do it, is not work it"

-Even he dont want to show it, he cares about you, and will figure out a way to help you, he will change? no, he alredy make a decicion when "Damashi" appear and he will not change, but he will not let you end your life, that only person, not matter how cruel he was with you, you dint give up for him and you was so nice with him, even he find fun play with does inocent and pure heart, somehow you make a special place into his heart, he will finally admit it, but will not show it, he cant, but he will help you

Syzoth

-He indeed will saw the odd patrons, your jokes confused him and scares him of how odd they are, how you eat too much or too little, and how you dont want to do stuff, he at firts cant understand why you change, but soon he will noticed it and understand it

-He was the same posicion when was working for Shang Tsung as a his Slave, lack of interest in do other stuff or eat, but of corse, was diferent, he wanted see his family and well, was the same when was reveal his family is dead, taking sometime to process this and move on about it

-He will never thougth about the idea you gonna try to hurt yourself or end your life, he just think you passing a very horroble moment of your life and right now is visible you need help, and he will help you, he will not ask about what is causing it, thinking is too personal for it, but he will help you make your life better, motivate you to eat more correctly and passing time, like have small adventures explore the beuty of nature, enjoy the night sky, those simple things make you rememeber what means to be alive

-Finally after some time you will tell Syzoth about your depression, he happy you tell him about it but absotluly shoked about you confess of the idea of hurt your self or take your life, he wil freak out and ask you if you ok, you calm him down telling him you dint, was just in your mind and fail attempts, he will relief about it but he know understand this is more serius at firts thougth and will help you to afrond this

Havik

-He definitely will not see the odd patron, not even noticing it, he laughs about your jokes, you two are mentally unstable, which is the worst recipe something may happen

-However, he will be confused as to why you just do not want do anything, just be there looking at the ceiling, he will try to force you to do something but in the end, he just leaves you there

-Eventually, he catches you getting out of the Bathroom with a lot of recent scars over your body, he will surprise you by taking your arms and asking what happen, he will think someone hurt you and he will make sure to make that person suffer, but when finally you told him you did it, he finally understand everything

-He was speechless, you? doing this to yourself? the injuries was so deep, so in a hateful manner, no, you should Fight for your life, not End your life, he will gently caress your injuries, telling you not to do this, even if you want to answer back he gently "kiss" you front head, and he will tell you can afront this, holding you hands, he want to say sorry, but he feel so guilt for not see the odd patrons first he dont deserve forgiveness, he will make sure to fix his mistake and make you happy

Liu Kang

-He saw a lot of people falling into depresion and taking their life, he will noticed you odd patrons about it and he concern, he thinks for a moment what to do, he should intefier? it was your decicion and he should not interfier in mortals decicions, but he remember he importart for you, all does good memory with each other having a good time on what even you guys was doing, even you fogot about it, he knows he have to do something about it

-He will be slow, he cant focer the process but he need to act before is too late, making you eat correctly even you refues sometimes, but his words make you do it, he will invate you diferent places to pass time, mostly very confy or fun, mostly long walks talking to each other and watching every small detail, he want to show he there for you, you have someone cares about you

-Mostly he will adress this with the rest of your friends, to help in the case, being your company almost all the time, Raiden, Kung Lao, Kenshi, Johnny, Ashra, Syzoth, they all care about you and will show you they do and you important

-Finally you tell Liu Kang about your depression, but mostly adress it as if you have a porpuse in your life, he will tell you no, you dont, none have it, and that the beuty of life, chose your own porpuse on your life, or simple enjoy life as you like, not need to really worry about a porpuse becuse there none, this relief you, knowing is the true from the god of fire and time, huging and cuddle each other while you cry on his chest, letting out all does feeling

Geras

-He defenely saw it, from the clock of time, all the diferent way of how your depression appear, what cause it, and saw diferent result of you afront it and move on, or take your life in diferent ways, he will always monitor your progress and your decicions, he will tell Liu Kang about this, knowing what to do to help you, but he aware Geras is someoen important to you so he will alowe Geras help you

-He know is not the best adress it stragith it, but rather with actions, show you are cared and important are for this world and people, even if life is hard sometimes, there always light even is hard to see, but the best is not let that darkness destroid you, of corse you will suspect about he being with you, knowing he the protector of the clock of time, surely know what is happening to you

-Finally you afront this talking at him why he doing this, is becuse is his job or liu kang told him? you want to know the real reason why is helping you, mostly thinking is becuse is doing what his porpuse do, becuse what ever happen in your "history" need to be alive for what thing happen

-Of corse he wil tell the truth, he not have any permission to interfire to mortals decicion and life, your decicion matter, not matter how many time lines exist, how many you exist, they all are important, including you of this time line, just becuse there diferent version of you, posebly living better or having a porpuse, not means you are less, he will tell the same like Liu Kang did, he just observ the time and time lines, but all what happens, is everyone desicion, not Liu Kang or his, finally feeling relief and hug him, crying getting out does feelings while he caress your back

#mk1 #mortal kombat 1 #syzoth #Kung Lao #Raiden #kenshi takahashi #Smoke #tomas vrbada #Baraka #shang tsung #Reiko #Havik #Rain #Liu Kang #Geras #You in Depresion #tw: self half #tw: depression #TW: Suicide #You #Reader #Y/N #Mortal Kombat Masterlist #Reptile

[talkingteardrop]

vent, tw: self harm, su!c!d3..

My parents fucking suck

ive contemplated fucking killing myself multiple times

ive slammed my head on the wall multiple times, hard

i want to die

i fucking hate my life

my parents are so pushy with me to finish all my work in a few days

they fucking stalk my grades

i have FUCKING B’S

B’S

ONE FUCKING GRADE BELOW A

I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE

#tw: self half #tw: suidice #ooc

[agaxso]

could you imagine Binghe's desperation when the scars made by sqq's sword started to dissappear in the abyss?

I just like to imagine him picking at the scar in his chest and hand every day before he learned to control how fast and what to heal. While the injuries made by demonic beasts were ignored he digged his nails into the sword wound to keep it there, fresh; desperate to have something from his shizun.

And then imagine one day he was too busy fighting or whatever that he passes out for a while only to wake up to the almost healed up injury and almost gone scars. He would lose it.

Binghe opening back the injury, exactly as sqq did because you better believe he branded the look and feel of that injury in his brain. And it wouldn't be a single time thing, it would probably take him some time to get enough control to keep his blood from healing those injuries and every time he had to do it he repeated sqq's words, wondering what he did wrong for his shizun to throw him away.

#svsss #lbh #endless abyss #uhhh yeah #tw: self half

[allelitewrestlings]

Look at me now! I have nothing! I have a shot and I have my word. Tuesday, I take my shot. Tonight, I give you my word.

#jon moxley #hangman page #adam page #wrestlingedit #aewedit #aew #aew dynamite #dynamite: s04e41 #tv: dynamite #feud: moxley vs hangman #ours: gifs #maker: s #* #tw: self half #tw: hitting self

[dicktat]

Getting primal all by yourself handsome?🖤🖤🖤

For @frenziedmarten my love

Reference under cut:

#dying light #dying light 2 #aiden caldwell #this has GOTTA be my proudest drawing of him as of yet #sorry I keep using references I’ll tryna learn and it’s crafty #fuck yeah wolfboy #🐙 dl art #Spotify #tw: self half #going fucking feral

[teleri-tale-teller]

I'm not sure how much of a canon it is but as far as I understood Gale had sort of a depressing episode after getting the orb stuck in his chest. I just wonder if I understand it right? I wonder if he ever self-harmed?

I bring too much personal into this, maybe, but uhhh... Just... Well, maybe now when I want to I can imagine him holding my hand and saying he's been there

#juli's things #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #tw: self half

[ohtobeleah]

I’m working on a prompt and I’m not sure where to take the story. Help a girl out. My brain hurts.

#leahs whumptober masterlist #tw: self half #tw: depression #tw: mentions of suicide

[naescar]

TW: self harm, eating disorder, OCD

Here is the thing that gets me about heartstopper after watching both seasons, reading the comic and making my way through the books (as every healthy person should)

It's the support system Charlie has when it comes to dealing with his eating disorder, his ocd and his self harm behaviour. Like it's not perfect but he he has Nick and even his parents that even if they aren't perfect they are still there for him and trying. So when Charlie relapses, they make him stay home from school, they attend therapy with him.

I never got any of that. I started self harming when I was 15, largely because I was bullied in school. I didn't have a lot of friends. My parents noticed but never said anything. Even worse years later,my mum would tell me that she thought I just did it to get attention. I had to be the one that decided I need to get therapy. The therapy helped but I continued to self harm until my twenties. And while I at some point got friends that helped me I mainly had to get through that all alone and it sucked so much. Like even now I sometimes have to remind me really hard that self harm is not worth it.

So imagining how it would have been to have people that cared, people that I felt save with, that just gets me. And I think it's so important to have media like that.

#heartstopper #tw: self half #heartstopper webcomic #heartstopper spoilers #solitaire alice oseman #This winter

[p1x3l3d]

Ibwant to hug my mother, crying, telling her how happy I am she's here because she's the reason I'm still here and haven't hurt myself

When I was younger she asked me to promise to bever hurt myself, as a kid I was confused, but I promised, and it saved me, because I couldn't do that to my mother, I never told her

But I want to, I love her so much

#tw: suicide mention #self harm #tw: sucidal thoughts #tw: self half

[pink-comship]

My favorite ship is pjsekai is Mafuyu x Emu, why?

BC its adorable

I kin both so why not

(TW : self harm) they both selfharm thogether, and they are not planning to stop anytime soon

Its litteraly the Purple gf and pink gf trope !

#proshipper please interact #proship please interact #proshipper #proship #comshipper please interact #comship please interact #comshipper #comship #tw : sh #tw: sh #tw: sh mention #self h@rm #self half #tw: self half

[ghostiewriter]

remember when evil stepmother said something about using self harm as way of getting a guy to stay with you? maybe she wasn't joking

I-

who said what now?🤠

#ask #tw: self half