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gentletomatoe · 3 months

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Birthday: 6/19/2002

Horoscope: gemini

Fav colors: pink, black , sage green

Hobbies: reading, journaling, volunteering, listening to podcasts, occasional poetry writing, listening to music, thrifting , crocheting , & occasionally hate watching bad lifetime movies

Music genres: R&B, alternative , rap, pop, I like punk rock too

Fav artists: Tyler the creator, Mac miller , kali uchis , jcole , chief keef , gorillaz, summer walker, frank ocean , SZA , MJ, the smiths , young nudy , erykah badu

Fav movies : 10 things I hate about you , 13 going on 30 , legally blonde , kill bill , almost any Robert deniro or Quentin Tarantino film, cute Pixar movies , also A24 movies ( p.s I’m a horror movie fanatic)

Video games : harvest moon, Mario kart, tekken, final fantasy , street fighter , marvel vs capcom , fashion games , dbz

Tv shows : breaking bad , shameless , new girl , bojack horseman, probably any cartoon , SpongeBob fs , gossip girl , the sopranos , sex & the city

Fashion : simple , hyper feminine , skater culture , some punk/Y2K influence , 1990’s sears catalogs , minimalism , a touch of masculine pieces & some cottagecore lol

Dream cars : Porsche or g wagon or a vintage corvette ( in reality I want to have a black jeep ) lowkey I want a Volkswagen tho

Dream job: entrepreneur , pediatric nurse , BCBA, licensed therapist

Interests : makeup , stocks , books , animals , music , fashion , nature , YouTube videos about interesting stuff

Fav physical activity : hiking or yoga , I occasionally run

Comfort drinks : iced cold brew w vanilla sweet cream , iced matcha latte w boba or taro boba , raspberry arizona teas , lemon ginger tea , champagne or sweet wine , coconut redbull

Comfort foods : sushi , poke bowls , chicken wings , pizza , Mac & cheese , salads , cheese fries , crab legs , curry , butter chicken , Greek food, I could actually go on but also grilled cheese w tomato soup

Fav desserts: cheesecake , brownies , pecan pie , soft serve ice cream or sundaes , sour straws , gelato , icees

Personality traits : observant , goofy , joyful , humble , sweet , bold , smart , sarcastic , reserved

Character flaws: broken humor , I lose interest in others fast , I deem myself as “too much” , also “too nice” but I’m working on it , laughs In serious moments , can he either too withdrawn or too childish no in between

Description: hourglass figure , 5’6, fair-olive skin , button nose , big eyes , arched brows , dimples , soft features, thicc , I have a pretty cute smile >:)

Ethnicity : I’m pretty much white but moms side is Puerto Rican with a little bit of Filipino & Spaniard & dads side is completely white , French & English maybe Irish too ? Idrk I think I have an identity crisis on whether I’m Hispanic or not every other day so we’ll just go with white lol

Places you might find me : the thrift store , the book store , ulta , a park , the nearest boba shop , nature trails , the beach , animal shelter or my job

Likes : sanrio , makeup , memes , good music , $, podcasts , squishmallows , my cats , nature like a beach or river , pink , sweets , genuine people , honesty/unfiltered energy , spirituality & philosophy , the color green

Dislikes : rats both types , capitalism, bugs , dishonesty , tension , envious energy, the patriarchy lol , being lied or deceived , false media , clout chasers

I’m most likely to .. be extremely loyal to loved ones , take on care giving roles , take initiative and make decisions on my own , perform kind acts , show transparency, put a disrespectful person in their mf place , celebrate other’s accomplishments.

I’m least likely to .. break promises , talk down on others , be envious , engage in negative conversations, give into shallow mindsets , snitch bc fuck snitches lol.

Wants : commercial property, a pair of manolos , more tattoos , and a good sandwich ( maybe a loving partner & family in the future)

Needs: a long hug, a good education, a good career , a vacation out the country

Dream house : a ranch style house or villa styled house , if it’s out the country I’d love some type of cottage

Dream life : I always wanted to make passive income & work a job where I help others , I hope one day I get to experience motherhood with a loving husband by my side , the funds to support a soft life , to travel every once & a while

Relationship status : in love with myself / a cat lady

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senshrek · 3 years

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YO DJ PUMP THIS PARTY 🌦🎉💭🎊

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rosaliesmole · 4 years

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bella swan (new moon, 2009)

#twilight #twilight saga #twilight renaissance #twilight fandom #midnight sun #midnight sun meme #alice cullen #bella swan #edward cullen #jasper hale #rosalie hale #jacob black #the cullens #emmett cullen #birthday #birthday meme #tyler the creator #twilight new moon #new moon

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pink-strawberries · 4 years

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this is what trying to find the right anxiety meds feels like

#annabelle.txt #its mental illness luv #okay to rb #idk just thot this was funny #i made this meme btw yes i use humor to cope #anxiety #mental illness #memes #tyler the creator #so you just gon bring me a birthday gift on my birthday

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bucksbisexual · 4 years

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not part 4 of friend zone ep4 having none other than 13 million views just because of the last scene and the thumbnail 😭😭😭😭😭😭 you horny mfs i swear 😭😭😭😭😭

#friend zone the series #friend zone #stud standing in front of that door like so u're just gonna have sex after cheating on ur boyfriend who's been with u for 4 yrs????#basically imagine that tyler the creator meme of the birthday gift but with stud for that ^

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cringeyjesus · 5 years

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so. I made this thing.

to make myself feel special ^^

Here’s the original.

(I love Tyler the creator so much,,,)

Happy birthday to me ^^ YOOPIE!

#fanart #art #eddsworld #doodle #sketch #ew tord #ew tom #tyler the creator #meme #birthday #2008 style #THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU ALL #this teaspoon is growing up

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wizecrackx · 5 years

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It’s my birthday give me money!

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javisjeanjacket · 3 years

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Interview Tag Game

Beautiful Estela thank you so much for the tag!!! ( @over300books ) I also made a new post all together to avoid a Long Post™️ lol :)

Nickname: hai, hailee girl

Pronouns: she/her

Star sign: Sagittarius

Height: 5′7

Time currently: past my bedtime BUT I did take a nap earlier so I think we're fine

Birthday: January (yes i am aware that the sign for january is capricorn but i do not relate to capricorns in the slightest so i have picked my own zodiac sign and i have picked sag :))

Favorite groups/bands: HAIM, One Direction, BROCKHAMPTON, Gang of Youths, Glass Animals, boygenius

Favorite solo artist: This question is so hard!!! 😫 As of right now I really like Phoebe Bridgers, Maggie Rogers, Orville Peck, Frank Ocean, and Tyler the Creator

Song stuck in my head: My Woman by Tommy Newport

Last movie you watched: asdfjkl Prospect

When you created your blog: oh gosh!! I created this blog in May of 2020, but my og blog in 2012 I think!

Last thing i googled: asdfjkl cute friendship memes 🥰

Other blogs: @imananxiousdriver is my whatever / aesthetic / dumbass blog lol

Why I chose my url: because Javi in his jean jacket is one of my favorite Javi looks and it deserves more love!!!

Do you get asks: I get a few!! :)

How many people you are following: 272

How many followers: more than I could have asked for when I started this blog and I’m so thankful for all of you!!!

Average hours of sleep: oof it really depends honestly! I usually average anywhere from 5-7 hours!

Lucky number: 23 (i have no idea why, I’ve just always been drawn to this number 🤷🏻‍♀️)

Instruments: lol NOPE. (I used to play the guitar when I was like 12 or 13 and I was obsessed with it for a few years, but then I got into high school and didn’t have time to play anymore so now she just sits in the back of my closet. RIP)

Currently wearing: sweatshirt, undies, star socks

Dream job: Author!!

Dream trip: Ooohhh gosh there are so many cool / fun places I want to visit!! Greece, India, Scotland, Norway, and Hawaii to name a few!

Favorite food: Does candy count?? 😅 Because I really love candy lol. My favorite candy are the Trolli gummy octopi, but my favorite food is maybe cauliflower wings??!! I literally will eat an entire head of cauliflower after it’s been cut up and battered in wing sauce. So mf good👌🏻😭

Favorite song: oh jeez! Another impossible one!! I do hold the song Boots of Spanish Leather by Bob Dylan really close to my heart 🥺 so maybe that one!

Top 3 fictional worlds to live in: Oh man. Hmm... Prospect universe, Star Wars universe, then Red Dead Redemption universe lol

Tagging: anyone who wants to do it!! I know people are busy, but if you want to do it and tag me, I would love to see your answers! :)

#estela tag #thank you!!

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gaychaosdemon · 4 years

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I got tagged by @fireheart05us to answer some questions about myself!!! Thanks man!

Name: Elio

Age: I'll be TWENTY in two weeks and I'm freaking the fuck out about it big time

Zodiac: Leo ☀️ Taurus 🌙 Libra ⬆️

Height: I Am Very Small And European: 155 cm.

Hogwarts House: Gryffindor

Last google search: Birthday party Tyler the Creator meme

Song stuck in your head: Boogie by Brockhampton

# of followers: I'm not sure like 80 something

Amount of sleep: a fuckton cause its hella hot in Italy, I have low iron and Im a sleepy sexy ass

Lucky numbers: any repeated combination of the number two

Wearing: my house clothes which consist of my red shortest shorts and a very communist T Shirt with a fist on it and the phrase "Le monde est à nous"

Fav song: what kind of question is this I don't know how to answer. I have an entire playlist of my favorite songs but right off the bat I'd say A Thing For Me by Metronomy

Favorite instruments: I kind of play guitar but I like singing more

Favorite Author: Don't really have one. Right now I am obsessed with Maggie Stiefvater as you can see from my blog which fucking turned into a trc dump

Aesthetic: very eboy looking tattooed and pierced guy who mainly wears black on the outside, the literal SUN on the inside. Also I like gold jewellery

Fav animal sound: CICADAS IN THE SUMMER

Random: Something that you may not know about me just assuming what I like from my blog is: I am a fucking huge beer geek. Yes I am a gay man that only drinks craft beer. I despise other alcoholic beverages. I have a beautiful relationship with the owner of my favorite beershop where I am a regular and people sometimes think I work there because I will occasionally help random people figure out what to drink instead of him.

People I'm tagging (obviously feel free to just ignore this): @wlwminyard @abitqueerupinhere @theflyingpeach @cryptikoh @adamarks @ravenwithasideofcrow @vanceityrecords

#me #asks #questions

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peripheralvsn · 3 years

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tagged by @wineunnie to answer some questions and tag blogs you wanna know better

name/nickname: iman/alif

gender: bi(?) male

star sign: sagittarius

height: 175cm

birthday: december 5

fav bands: blink-182, angels&airwaves, northlane, bmth

fav solo artists: frank ocean, tyler the creator, joji

song stuck in my head: fever dream by movements

last movie: tokyo godfathers

last show: modern family

when i created this blog: june 2010 holy fuck its been almost 11 years

last thing i googled: japanese city pop playlist..

other blogs: side trash blog for memes/wtv @megalo-manic

following: 517 lol idgaf

why i chose my url: i was young n trashy n wanted to be “aesthetic tumblr”

average hours of sleep: ??? who even knows man

lucky number(s): 5!

instruments: guitar, drums!

what i’m wearing: fave hoodie n shorts

dream trip: japan

favorite food: i eat everything

nationality: singaporean

favorite song: can’t pick one it changes every month but currently it’s Heaven by Angels&Airwaves

top 3 fictional universes i’d like to live in: Community, Adventure Time, Hades

tagging: @azoiia , @nansea , @killabvby , @venusinfursasaboy , @youthdivision

#text #sorry i only picked you guys to tag cause yall interact with my blog

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mcrcvtios · 4 years

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jeon jungkook. cis male. he/him. one. * / oh , i just saw mecurtio choi coming out of apt. #1603 if you were looking for them! the twenty-three year old is a college student + music store clerk and i heard they’re a scorpio which makes total sense. if you can’t find their room , just listen for boredom by tyler the creator ; i heard they’re obsessed. \ * saoirse. 22. she/her. est.

my names saoirse and im an absolute pro at late intos love that for me (: anyway.. this is mercutio, everyone’s problematic least-fave and heres his intro and also click HERE for wanted connections! ALSO if u prefer dscord for plotting (understandable) u can hit me up at horny emoji#2013

so mercutio choi: a whole mess of a man if im being completely honest here

son of multi million hotel conglomerate father and household name actress mother, so mercutio grew up without want of anything (except like genuine love and affection but like whatever)… basically boy had a silver spoon stuck in his mouth before he knew his own name

middle child of 3 boys, therefore has ultimate middle child syndrome- aka the forgotten child, who didnt get the praise of the eldest nor the adoration of the youngest and was simply just there.

his mother always said that he took after his father the most out of all the boys, which he at one point took as a compliment, when he was a young boy who wanted nothing more to be exactly like his father, because, in his eyes, the man was nothing short of a god. as mercutio got older and his rose coloured glasses rusted and cracked, he realized his mother meant nothing positive by the comment. whereas his brothers had their mother’s soft handedness, patience, kind eyes and even her slight air-headedness, mercutio burned like his father; angry, volatile, impulsive, and with both a superiority complex and inferiority complex all rolled into one.

this meant while growing up, the biggest conflict in the household- besides what mercutio saw as his parents’ sham of a loveless marriage- was the clashing of his and his father’s egos, as his father continuously expected him to uphold the family name and mercutio continued to make a mockery of it by landing his name in tabloids for a new scandal every other week

he’ll say he’s always hated the lavish lifestyle, the needless spending but that’s a goddamn lie - he fucking loved it. he loves having a leg up on other people who dont have the same luxuries as him.

is now a music production major and officially cut off from the choi family fortune! he kept all his lavish goods, save for the car he got gifted by his mom on his seventeenth birthday. he’s just thankful he got to keep his high end clothes and still pretend he’s better than you in that regard

mercutio really loves pretending hes an all around aloof, unfeeling, asshole, because he figures that’s easier, and what people expect from him anyways at this point but really he’s passionate abt a lot of things! like art he’s a mf musician he has secret lyric notebooks dating back to when he was thirteen and was only doing super edgy/cringey punk rock bullshit and also feeding the homeless cat that lives in the alley way next to his apartment building and fashion and jogging every morning as the sun comes up and showing up drunk and/or hungover for classes and uh idk dumber things, like being elitist about what cigarettes he smokes and what booze he drinks!

*insert love is a neurochemical con job meme here* i really cant imagine him in a healthy, genuine relationship rn jdshkfs if he is in a relationship u know it’s gonna be toxic, messy, and manipulative on both sides. also hmu for some ex connections bc u know hes fucked over a number of people in the past!

this is ): short but if u have q’s abt him i\ll be happy to answer!!! uwu also plot w me >:(

#flats.intro #◆ ⋆ — shut! me! up!┊❛ out of character ❜ ❫#whew

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empcratriz · 4 years

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Song URL meme

RULES: spell out your url with song titles, and then tag 10 people

E- Everything I Wanted by Billie Eilish

M- Mystery of Love by Sufjan Stevens

P- Party Like It’s Your Birthday by Studio Killers

C- Captain Hook by Megan Thee Stallion

R- Rules by Doja Cat

A- A Boy Is A Gun by Tyler the Creator

T- To Be Loved by Askjell

R- Run by Joji

I- Ignorantes by Bad Bunny

Z- Zero Eclipse by Hiroyuki Sawano

Tagged by: @kumihao

Tagging- @the-lesser-elementalist @shovvstopper @ask-sett @silverfxng @voidhunting and anyone else who would like to do this!

#qi:munpost #just exposing my music lol #this really doesnt cover it tho lol

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jordaneberle · 5 years

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Another tag thing

Answer 20 questions and tag 20 people. I was tagged by @hockeyauzzie (thank you I love to talk about myself)

1. Nickname: Issy or like variations of my last name. I also used to be called Fat Pony in primary school which didn’t make much sense

2. Zodiac sign: The best example of a Pisces you will ever meet

3. Hogwarts House: I have no idea and never read the books, hopefully Hufflepuff though based on the funky name

4. Height: Ok I THINK I’m 173cm which is apparently 5′6 and a bit

5. Last thing I googled: Apart from what 173cm is in feet, it was the Bro I am straight up not having a good time meme

6. Favourite Musicians: I saw Louella said Hilltop Hoods so that’s relatable. The Wombats, Tame Impala, I think I just said Triple J songs one time but I’ll listen to most stuff

7. Song stuck in my head: It is constantly Melbourne by Small Town Alien (better than Melbourne Sound, please listen you will die) but I’m listening to Earfquake by Tyler the Creator rn

8. Followers: People who put up with obscure AIHL posts

9. Following: Exclusively people that talk in the tag

10. Do you get asks? Very rarely and they warm my heart

11. Amount of sleep: Last night? Like four hours so I’ll probably nap later

12. Lucky number: 22 for Nikita Zaitsev and also two Ron Hainseys (and my birthday but thats less important)

13. What are you wearing? Literally only a black hoodie

14. Dream job: No idea, it changes a lot. Social media stuff is cool idrk I’m studying Media and Communications though

15. Instuments: Piano (badly) and I did choir all through school shoutout all altos who get stuck w boring ass parts

16. Languages: English and Italian (if you speak Italian please never read my Italian tags they are so embarrassing) and also Latin so salvete you funky Latin people

17. Favourite song: Right now maybe Almost (Sweet Music) by Hozier but generally Nosebleed Section by Hilltop Hoods is never bad and also the entire album Glitterbug by The Wombats

18. Random Fact: I can probably quote all of Happy Feet down to the dancing taps (also Lion King and Finding Nemo and Lion King 2)

19. Aesthetic: Mate I’m so all over the place there is none

20. Dream trip: I’ve wanted to ski in Canada and also Aspen since I was pretty young so maybe that. Also Iceland and probably Italy again bc the history really overwhelms me and I get very excited about my main man Emperor Augustus

I tag: @trevrmoore @nikitakuucherov @chiiizakura @officialwylanvaneck

#Wow me making my answers for these way too long again?#do people ever read these idk I always do #OH ALSO I LIKE TWO DOOR CINEMA CLUB #tag thing

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lissten · 5 years

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Tyler Okonma’s Life of “Odd Future”

Exploring the hip hop scene of LA through Tyler, the Creator and his Loiter Squad

Tyler, the Creator

Tyler, the Creator is one of those asshole celebrities I’m both endlessly both fascinated and frustrated by. He’s undoubtedly talented, a triple-threat in music, fashion and television, and yet he’s a horrible person. Tyler has had his fair share of controversies, none of which should be taken lightly - but then he releases something like Flower Boy, a piece of art which I cannot help but respect. Even the never-ending saga of Tyler’s ambiguous relationship with his sexuality, which he references multiple times throughout the Flower Boy album, and mentions in his art and on twitter fascinate me -- I could write a whole essay on internalized homophobia in the hip hop world alone. But I digress. The fluctuation between articulate artist and chaotic evil makes me want to know where Tyler sprang out of. What place, what person, what machine could have possibly spat out this entirely full-formed artist, someone so completely in control of his art and aesthetics?

Let’s be anthropologists for a moment, shall we? Tyler, the Creator was born Tyler Okonma of Ladera Heights, California -- and I bet if you know anything about him, you’ve seen these two words next to each other: Odd Future. Anywhere Tyler goes, Odd Future goes.

Odd Future Wolf Gang Kill Them All, shortened simply to Odd Future or the seven-letter acronym OFWGKTA was a hip hop collective formed by Okonma in 2007 with friends in Los Angeles. The ten-member group has been called the new Wu-Tang, exploring genres of underground, hardcore and alternative rap. Another successful figure to come out of OFWGKTA is Frank Ocean, of Blonde fame. Ocean debuted in 2011 with nostalgia, ULTRA as a member of the Odd Future collective, and made multiple appearances on Okonma’s debut studio album Goblin.

All Music says of Odd Future, “The crew’s crude sense of humor and confrontational subject matter earned them a huge underground following, and put them on “top artists to watch” lists.” OFWGKTA has grown with Okonma, appearing as cast members of his Adult Swim skit comedy show “Loiter Squad”, reaching meme status with their “Happy Birthday B*tch!” sketch.

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Okonma never forgets about his roots in OFWGKTA, bringing along best friend and Odd Future member Jasper Dolphin for Vice series Nuts + Bolts, where they learn about anything and everything under the sun that Tyler finds interesting.

Though the collective was rumored to have disbanded in 2015, there’s still traces of Odd Future in his work. The track “November” on Flower Boy makes reference to “those Odd Future Sundays”, as the happiest time of their lives. While Okonma has moved on from the Odd Future clothing brand to work on his own line Golf Wang (a take on the Odd Future Wolf Gang) and collaborations with companies like Converse and Suicoke, the heart of Odd Future is still there. And as Tyler, the Creator slowly returns to making music after a short hiatus following the release of Flower Boy in 2017, the legacy of alternative rap and Odd Future Wolf Gang Kill Them All returns with him.

Odd Future Wolf Gang Kill Them All

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babswithamoneysign-blog · 6 years

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Tag Game!

Thanks @maddyisneckdeep for tagging me!

Rules: Answer 20 questions and tag 20 people you want to get to know better.

Name: Sophie

Nickname: Soph ?

Age: 18

Gender: female

Orientation: straight

Favorite color: deep reds (like ruby red?)

Book recommendations: psychological thrillers like The Couple Next Door and Behind Closed Doors, and ofc Zodiac by Robert Graysmith

Movie recommendations: (you guessed it, more psychological thrillers like The Gift) but also I Girasoli bc Sophia Loren is an icon, Sixteen Candles and the first two Godfather movies (not the third bc it sucked ass, you can live without it)

TV recommendations: On My Block, That 70s Show, Skin Wars, Brooklyn Nine Nine, Freaks and Geeks

Music Recommendations: Kali Uchis, Tyler the Creator, A$AP Rocky, Arctic Monkeys, Tame Impala, Inner Wave and Childish Gambino

Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: C O F F E E but specifically espresso lol

Cats or Dogs: 🐱🐱🐱🐱🐱

Favorite meme: you can’t choose a favorite child

I want to live long enough to witness: vine 2.0

Weird obsessions: collecting pieces of paper or business card-type-stuff only to hoard em and never look at them again?

Tumblr birthday: no idea bc I’ve had this account for some years now but just started being active (ish) in 2016

How many sideblogs: Zerooo

Random fact about me: I’ve always loved cheese so much, my favorite being Brie, that my parents got me a brie baker for Christmas one year lmao

Goals for 2018: eat healthier more consistently & create more art

I’m tagging @bianca0137 and @svictoria077 and whoever else wants to do it :)

#tag game #personal #i need more friends

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nyxi-styx · 6 years

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It’s hard joining a new fandom sometimes

I’m just going to take a minute to vent a little bit of my feelings and I honestly don’t care if anyone reads this.

At 25 years old (24 when I started getting dragged into it all), I thought I was “too old” to be a YouTube fan. It was, after all, rather after my time. Established in 2005, I didn’t really experience anything on YouTube until about 2007-2008. Back then it was meme-y BS like Shoop-da-Whoop, “Shoes”, Charlie the Unicorn, and Potter Puppet Pals. As I grew older, YouTube seemed like something better left to teens. Maybe use it to look up a music video or something instructional and then fall down a Slow-Mo Guys or choreography rabbit hole. Still not a fandom. The closest I came to such was binge-watching Rob Dyke’s WWYPTOTI series and Twisted Tens series.

At Indy PopCon 2016, I was there with friends to see a guest (and caught glimpses of a passing Kevin Smith as I was so that was badass). Two of my friends were already in the YouTube culture world and fans of Markiplier and Dan & Phil. While we were having a snack and playing a card game, they spotted Wade (THE LordMinion777) taking some photos with fans int eh same food court area. I went over and took the photo of them with him, having no idea who this dude was. Less than a month later, (I’d say about 2 weeks) one of those two friends finally introduced me to Markiplier. I don’t remember the reasoning, but she showed me I Am Bread first. It was funny. I liked it. I didn’t think I’d get as into it as she did. However, curiosity had the better of me and I went to my room that night and watched him play ALL of OctoDad: Dadliest Catch. I laughed so hard I cried and that sold it for me. I fell in love. Of course, I had known a little about him due to gratuitous gifs and photos all over this godforsaken hellsite and I always thought he seemed like a nice, genuine person. Overtime, I just kept watching. I got to know about Bob and Wade and Team Edge. I fell in love with Chica. I just really enjoyed myself. Of course, I knew a little bit about JackSepticEye too, but I though being a Markiplier fan was about as deep into YouTube fandom as I was going to get.

About February, I saw a recommended playlist of JSE videos on an unrelated site. At this point, the post with the playlist was about 4 months old. I decided to go ahead and watch it, just to try something new. Naturally, I fell in love. I loved Jack more than I love Mark soon enough, not through any fault of Mark or anything. He’s still a wonderful person. I just loved that Jack was jsut unabashedly, fully, enjoying himself and nerding out and THEN doing the “professional” thing and reviewing the game whereas Mark would try to review while playing and get distracted by his own emotions and reactions. Not that that is a bad thing. That doesn’t mean Jack is better than Mark. I love them both SO much, but I find it easier to connect with Jack that way because that’s how I am too. I think that’s how most of us are. Once again, I thought this was as deep into YouTube fandom as I was going to get. I caught up with most of their videos (both Mark and Jack). The ones that interested me anyway. And then I would go back and forth and catch up on their latest. So, naturally, I got to know Tyler and Ethan too.

Unfortunately- and I feel like dirt admitting this, like I feel so fucking guilty and that’s why I’m venting here- I paid a lot of attention to Tyler and Mark and not a whole lot to Ethan. I didn’t have anything against him at all. He was funny and adorable. I just... *shrug*. But eventually, his self-deprecating jokes about “my channel is dying” started echoing in my head. And I found myself going “Why?” I knew they would tease him about his opening (which I think is a little unfair since it happens to be joked about more than Mark’s or Jack though there’s are targeted too) and that was about it. So, I finally went and I hit that subscribe button and waited until I had a little bit of time to really check out the content.

I finally sat down and opened the Crank Gameplays channel and started saving playlists of content that I found interesting. I don’t remember where exactly I started but I was kind of like “Okay. Cool. Cool. I mean there’s a lot of similarities between YouTube gamers, so how much can you really do?” But then I saw the video of Ethan and his brother singing “I’ll Be Home For Christmas” and I was like “Wow! He can sing! He’s got a really nice voice! It’s kind of that rugged jazzy, folks-y type voice. He kinda reminds me of like... Train or Matt Nathanson. Neato.” But then in ‘recommended’ came a video (I assume a clip from a livestream) of Ethan playing ukulele and covering “Can’t Help Falling In Love”. If there’s one thing I’m a sucker for, it’s Elvis songs.

I watched that video and fell. in. LOVE. Instant stan. I don’t know what it was but I just... couldn’t help falling in love. Haha.

Like I do, I instantly tried to find out a lot about him as if to play catch up. I was surprised to find out he’s a bit younger than me. But he’s got the same birthday as my dad (three days before mine and 3 days after my favourite actor) so of course I thought that was pretty freaking cool.

Maybe it’s because I always root for the underdog and the secondary characters... maybe it’s because blue is my favourite colour... maybe it’s because I am a sucker for hazel eyes... maybe it’s because I always fall for the biggest dork... I don’t know. I can’t pinpoint it, but Ethan is so wildly different from Mark and Jack. They’re all super nice, super genuine guys, but something about Ethan tugs at my heartstrings way more.

Whatever it is, I’m happy to be here. I’m happy to watch him grow and succeed in the next year. And I’m SO excited to have the chance to meet him at Indy PopCon 2018.

The thing is, though... I feel... like I don’t belong here. In Mark’s fandom, I really am just a number. Nobody notices. Nobody cares. In Jack’s fandom... well, the Overnight Watch was my first foray into community interaction and I was so surprised and overwhelmed by how welcome I was. Like it didn’t matter how long I had been a fan, what mattered was that I was a fan and I was happy to be interacting. And it’s nice to be a part of a fandom in which there’s little to no toxicity and drama and hatred amongst fans. It’s nice to be completely accepted.

In Ethan’s fandom... well, I’ve been here all of about a week... and I feel like I’m trying too hard. Like I shouldn’t be in this community because everyone else has been here longer. Everyone else understands more. Everyone else is better than me. I don’t matter.

This is why it’s nice to have @markidarkimoo as a friend. She stans with me no matter who or what.

The worst of it all in these three fandoms is that I can’t make fanart. I am shit at mood/aesthetic boards. I CAN make video edits, but my current laptop will not support my preferred software and I can’t afford a better laptop for a while. I am shit at photo edits.

I just... I can’t do anything worthwhile. I see all this other amazing work that all of the rest of you put out and I just... feel so insignificant.

Being part of a “big box” fandom like Supernatural or Marvel or Sherlock is easy for me because they’re all fictional characters and people eat up fanfic like they’re starving to death. Doesn’t matter if I can’t fan art. I can contribute to the fandom and show my love by making stories.

YouTube is different. It’s not based on fictional characters (Jack’s Egos and Darkiplier aside), it’s based all on real people. I can’t fanfic that unless it’s reader insert and that’s not something for the creators to see (*if they ever do, please kill me*) and enjoy.

I don’t know... I just feel pretty useless. These fandoms are smaller than the “big box” fandoms so I feel like I have to contribute something in order to properly show my love and appreciation and gratitude. But I can’t. I’m just useless. I’m just a blip.

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