#u cant do mail delivery 40 hrs!!!

[transrightsjimin]

jfc i have so much work tomorrow this isnt funny

#if only like. mail delivery was a job that got paid accordingly #like yes it is minimum wage but the minimum wage is based on a 40 hr contract #u cant do mail delivery 40 hrs!!! #they only count the time in which you actually walk / cycle through the route and deliver mail #so even if youre busy for like 7 or 8 hrs you just get paid for the route itself and not cycling back and forth and loading bags at work #so it rly doesnt feel rewarding nd its super exhaustive #i knew a person who was clearly at the verge of a burnout and she had a 20 hr contract but worked 34 hours per week #which of c is way longer irl bc they only count the routes #she was so overworked and started early but was done super late so that she couldnt even make it to a meeting of (a bad) union #like daily life would rly probably improve a lot for me when i have a stable job nd some structure #and oh my god i normally hare vacations bc i get so bored nd depressed yet stressed in them #but what if i for one time truly have a proper break where i dont need to stress abt family and work and homework (bc im a graduate) #just SUCKS that i hate everything abt working #ppl r like oh but ur so smart!!! :( #first of all im not that smart #like i guess im intelligent but i also dont remember anything that i learned in primary - high school - college - uni #just nothing. nd i dont read ever bc im fucking stupid nd have no concentration and hate doing stuff that takes a lot of focus #i hate reading i hate cooking i hate learning stuff im not interested in #nd im a rly slow learner w practical stuff which is not exactly a good trait w jobs #i cant focus i cant remember stuff i hate work i hate having to deal w colleagues but im also a very dependent person #IF ONLY i got help w a job coach sooner but no i have to wait until december for an APPOINTMENT where they #evaluate how much i can truly work bc i stated i can work 'only' 32 hrs so instancies feel the need to check if thats true #nd im just so fucking stressed #my housemate now has a job so we'll soon lose our rights to welfare benefits #i need to work but im so bad at lying #i feel so useless nd also bad for consistemtly crying abt this to my friend #i DONT KNOW WHAT WORK I COULD DO OR HANDLE #rambles