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ASK TIME ASK TIME!! i am officially raiding your asks now, take this as a threat /j
mkay sooooo, thoughts on lovejoy member!reader x wilbur?? 🤭 you could write about their sweet loveydovey moments and the way they blow kisses to each other on stage, or maybe their relationship is secret so focus on all the little things they do to show affection without the fans (and maybe friends too) knowing they’re together? like holding hands under tables, the lil glances they give each other, aaaah!!
apologies if you’ve written smth similar already, my memory is failing me rn, but if u have then do not worry because ill be back asking for other random shit too LMAO <3
🎸 Lovejoymember!reader x Wilbur HCs🎸
a/n: yoooo this is a really cool idea :D
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contains: loads of fluff, petnames, a single ass slap, & cheesiness
This man is CONSTANTLY flirting with you on stage. We're talking ass pats, blowing kisses, quick pecks between lyrics, etc. He finds it funny whenever the crowd screams & cheers when you two flirt.
When you two first started dating, you both didn't want to tell anyone, so you couldn't be affectionate around each other. Or so you thought. He'd hold your hand under tables, make sure you two were sharing a hotel room &/or bed, kiss the back of your hand when nobody's looking, give you hugs, tickle you (we all know he would tickle you. he did it to Mark, why not you?), etc.
If you were a drum player, he'd randomly rest his chin on your head if you were sitting down to play
During studio time, he's hugging you from behind & being suuuuuper cuddly (while grossing out the other members in the process)
During concerts, he's randomly making suggestive, cheesy, or flirty jokes to you to make the crowd laugh.
^^ "Hey, Y/N?" Wilbur said to you into the mic, looking in your direction.
"Yeah?" you replied, trying to catch your breath from the last song. "What's up?"
"I have a really important question for you," he said. "The crowd would really love to hear this from you."
"What is it?" you replied.
"Everybody's been wondering what you do for a living besides being sexy," he grins. This causes you to turn beet red & the crowd, the rest of the band, & Wilbur begin to laugh.
If you were a good singer, he'd beg on his hands & knees ask you to do duets or backing solos in new songs
If you were artsy, he'd also beg on his hands & knees ask you to help design the merch
If the band had to get on a plane or train to get to the next concert location, he'd be SO CUDDLY!!! He'd lay his head in your lap or vice versa, he'd hold your hand, he'd share an earbud with you, he'd let you watch him play The Sims on his laptop, he'd lean his head on your shoulder or vice versa, etc.
When the band goes out to eat or just goes out in general, he's paying for & doing EVERYTHING for you. You got something to eat? Don't even lay a finger on your wallet. You're in a store & you mention being hungry? He's grabbing every single snack & drink that you like. You shiver slightly? He's taking off his jumper or hoodie & giving it to you, no questions asked. You mention your legs hurting? You're being carried, either piggyback, on his shoulders, or bridal style.
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Don't take this as an hate ask or anything. am trying to frame it in the most nice way possible.
Why do you tag your moots in your every post? You do realise right that a taglist and a moot list is different?
And I just saw the post where it had all your moots name and written PERMANENT TAGLIST. Did they tell you they wanted to be in your Taglist? Even if they did, I don't see any evidence.
Plus, in that so called Taglist, I see most of the people are not mentioned so you just put their blog in an hyperlink. That's okay, I understand! But the problem is, the blogs' hyperlinks are not inserted correctly. Like, when I click on @deluluriddhi it opens up @angel1kisses . I hope you will correct that.
- your dear follower ✿
hi! If ur one of my followers who looks thru my posts um I did specify in one post that my tags were being a bit annoying and they still don’t work.
And about the perm taglist, it’s smth I just tagged ppl so that they know that I’ll be tagging them in a lot of my posts but if they have a problem with it, I’ll remove their username. So that’s what I meant and I’m sorry for using the wrong words.
ive only recently started getting active on Tumblr so I don’t rly know how some stuff works…
and I saw the first but where u said that u are trying to frame this in the nicest way possible, well, im sorry but it didn’t rly feel that nice to me… 😕
I’ll try and fix this, but um this kinda made me sad how there wasn’t a hint of anything for improvement or to make it sound like feedback, to me it just sounded like pure criticism, and I don’t really like that… so next time pls put a tone indicator so that I know if you’re saying it in a good way or bad way…
#anon follower?????? and it said dear so it might be one of the ppl I talk to a lot…#Oh my god im confused and racking my brains as to who u would be???
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DEAR ALICE ... IN SHORT , HAPPY NEW YEAR FROM THOSE OF US IN WONDERLAND TO YOU , OUTSIDER ! / OH SHIT ANOTHER NEW YEARS POST FROM SOMEONE ON YOUR DASH ?! yes, that's me! i don't want to ramble too long, but i do want to thank everyone who has supported me on this blog over the past year & especially with how chaotic it's been on my end. i know my activity hasn't been great this year and i've been struggling a lot, but i still appreciate so much the people who have stuck by me & still interacted with me despite all the stuff i've been going through. <4 being here & talking to everyone & getting in interactions where i could has helped make 2022 a better and less lonely year than it would have been, otherwise.
i'm so sorry to people who i've let down when it comes to interactions & getting back to them through messages and whatnot. 2022 was genuinely such a rough year for me, but i am infinitely more grateful that in spite of those things, so many of you have still decided to stick with me. this blog was... so ambitious when i made it & i honestly didn't think i'd make it this far or that anyone would have any interest in a bunch of random furry ocs KJNEMRKHJM. i was just a fan of otome with a will to roleplay & a dream :') but you all have given so much love to these ocs and i can't thank you enough.
i hope that moving forward i'm able to interact with more of you!! and to continue interactions with those i've already started them with!! or rekindle ones that got caught up in my absence. thank you so much for your patience with me, & for sticking around! i hope you all have a HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR & that 2023 is kind to us!!
now let's point some fingers under the cut ehehehehe.
— FAMNESIA ... my little discord group clowns ! most of us have been in the discord for like, what? 6 years now? or smth? we spend pretty much every day together, both on & off tumblr rp so !
@londonfallen › ew it's my fiance AAAAAAAA MICHAEL. thank you so much for everything you do for me on this blog!! i'm so thankful to you, it's partially thanks to you this darn thing even exists. you rlly do fund so much content on here & i'm always thankful to have you participate in lore & art uwu i know this year has been especially rough on us, but hopefully 2023 will help us get back on our feet & you'll find your will to keep writing !! you've been doing so good lately look at you go <4 you rose out of the dead for silas and gave him love at first sight can u believe it... your blog & lore has so much thought put into it, i wish you'd be kinder to yourself and less mean to the things you create. your art & writing is beautiful u should be bragging on the dash 24/7 about how cool you are, actually. ily thank u for making the year better even when it was miserable on us, we're going to have the most disgusting wedding ever one day when we can afford mickey mouse wedding us before the eyes of kami-sama, our lord and savior mr. walt disney!!
@kusaranai › your ass doesn't even log onto tumblr anymore biancnya so i'll have to link this to your dms BUT I'M INCLUDING YOU ANYWAYS BC I CAN NEVER MAKE THESE POSTS WITHOUT YOU. i love u my wonderful furry waifu !! by wonderful i mean cursed and by waifu i mean the sleep paralysis demon i see when i get choked out in phasmophboia. my career on tumblr really blossomed when you came into my life and ruined it uwu and it will continue to blossom now that u are long gone and only annoy me on discord ! SOMEWHERE LIGHT AND KUMA LIVE ON. somewhere, even more importantly, i still have light telling kurisu that he loves her shoved into my drafts on an abandoned blog...
@galaxiasus › THE SMOL OF THE GROUP AAAAAAAAA LUNYA. i'm so glad that you've been around more often this year, even though it's been hard on everyone bc 2022 was phew. man it sure was huh. KJNERHKJN as always i'm so glad seeing you on my dash but i'm even more glad that you've actually remained active icb it </4 ur the only person who didn't abandon me on tumblr for 5 years until ren joined us, we were the sole beacons of rp together for a long while and we have so many good ships bc of it!! you're such a joy to write with and your writing is amazing 10/10 idc wtf you say lmfao. i'm so glad i got to rejoin famnesia and reconnect with you and i look forward to holding ur hair back while u scream cry throw up at the end of endwalker !! i'm sorry i'm so slow with dms but rest assured seeing u screaming in them always brightens my day
@zorkaya › REN REN REN REN aaaaaaaaaaaaa. did u know i used to be scared of you when i was a wee little unicorn... many blogs ago... tragic KEJRNHM. I'M SO GLAD that you joined the famnesia server and got to talk with all of us more often!! ofc we've been friends by proxy for a good couple years, but i'm happier to get the chance to talk to you more consistently / often :') you're such a sweet and super cool person, and your writing is so good !! thank u for teaching my fiance and my cohealer how to write pr0n. uwu zarina is such a beautiful & well developed character!! i'm so proud of you for picking up a strong female villain and sticking with her even though the rpc can be whiny when it comes to them. zarina DESERVES to be op and anyone who cries about it is a weak baby bitch. i look forward to writing more with you moving forward !! on all blogs !! with all my muses !!! take the whole roster idc
@eidetic187 › HI VERONICA UR ALSO NEW IN THESE PARTS, i'm just as glad to see you among our msging chaos throughout the day !! even though our schedules are different bc you're on night shift, it's always fun to wake up and see what's transpired in chat lmFAO. finally someone who appreciates the visual novel classics just like me !! kicks really cursed dating sims under the rug so that they cannot be seen. we don't look at those. we're all super glad to have you around partaking in all our discussions and i hope that the next year is kinder to you in every possible way !! also that you and your partner have a hella good new year together once you get out of work and are able to chill together :') we've been mutuals for like 500 years i feel like you were on my first follow forever tm {remember those} on monokuma and u will be on the last one when tumblr burns
@hakureimaiden › omg u came back just in time to force me to write more ppl on this post icb it /j IRMA WELCOME BACK TO THE HELLSITE i've been here on my lonesome for so long except the occasional showing of michael and luna, it's nice to see one of the og muses has survived since the disney murder game days... as always you are a pleasure on both the dash And in the chat!! you brought a lot of really neat friends together by merging our groups together and it's made things super fun getting into xiv and stuff with you!! i'm not always the most :') timely ship partner when it comes to msgs with how whack i've been this year, but i'm hoping wITH NEW ENERGY IN 2023 we can develop romesen... carmeo.... yeah carmeo, WE CAN DEVELOP THEM MORE KJERNHM. regina george is romeo's type? man. would not have guessed. UR SUCH A SWEET CHILL PERSON I HOPE U KNOW FAMNESIA FISTBUMPS WITH U.
@rotinthedark › HALEEEEEEEEEEY i know talking thru groups and stuff isn't ur thing and i'm naturally quiet on discord BUT U STILL GET TO BE HERE because :') we have worked so very hard for the sebalex ship and they are FINALLY making headway and i'm so excited for it!! alex? having a crush on seb? it is a-go, we are THERE, we have MADE IT KEJRNHM you're such a nice & fun person to talk to, and i absolutely ADORE writing with you!! sometimes our interactions are what keeps my love for stardew alive just bc i have like 500 hrs on it and sometimes i'm like broe what else can i even do... i can log on and reply to haley... that's what i can do... i had never thought of sebalex as a ship too srsly until writing with you and now it CONSUMES me i am broken. pls.
— SPECIAL ALICES ...
@dangaer › hi jupiter <4 i want u to know that your blog is one of my favs on this hellsite, i hope you know that the way you write ALL of your muses is so very pleasing to read. all their characterizations are genuinely SO GOOD. i've mentioned it before but even characters i didn't like much or just didn't consider v often are characters you've made me care about just seeing you talk about / write them on the dash!! like ofc i am so intensely biased to the amnesia muses bc that otome has... a very special place in my heart but despite what our rp history may make u think!!! i have played others!! KJNEMRH and your characters are SPOT ON, always, without fail. i love our ships & threads / interactions, even though i can be slow getting to stuff !!! the dynamic we've built up with ikki and darcy is one of my favs, i love them SO MUCH and idk i just think. they're like. kinda valid for wanting to destroy wonderland and stay together. the normal ending? a good option. i support them. i can't WAIT to see aleister and kageyuki's dynamic grow likewise, i know i'm going to love it just as much!! thank you so much for writing with me & support my dumb otome ocs :') i know they aren't a Real Otome, but it is v sweet to be indulged as if they are. i'm in tears rn actively.
@redemptioninterlude › HENLO FRIEND u might be surprised to find yourself here, but :') i do keep up with your blog quite often actually. i know that i've dropped the ball on interactions a lot, this year has been so... much for me, & my activity really suffered, but i want you to know that i LOVE your blog!! and all of what we HAVE done together! and while i love alice specifically, for obvs reasons, i do also read your other threads / dynamics that you put on the dash and pls know that your writing slaps KJNERHM literally there's never a miss, from rue euphoria to ur interesting and well developed ocs, all of them are written in a way that's so amazing to read. you take such a diverse cast & breathe so much life into them, and i'm very lucky to be able to perceive your content when it gets posted. i hope in 2023 we're able to interact together more frequently !! :squeezes my wonderlandians like they're squeaky toys: i want to get a handle on my content SO BADLY and get stuff going with you again, on god !!
@heincus › maaaaaax i already yelled as you over your muses a lot, but i'll yell again!! so help me after i get moved into my new apartment after the holidays i would LOVE to figure out some match ups / dynamics between our muses because all your ocs have so much love / care put into them and they're all SO MUCH fun!! i love how much passion you have for writing, and how boundless your imagination is. ocs are HARD to write, you have to come up with a lot and juggle world building and character building and all the things, but you make it look so effortless :') your roster is full of so many colorful and expansive personalities and stories. i want to pick them up like barbie dolls and throw them at whatever the fuck weirdos are on my own roster and simply see what sticks. the possibilities? endless. rlly though your writing is so good, you should be proud of what you've created on your blog and i am so glad that i get to interact with you during times i'm not awol lying dead in a ditch ty <4
@galaxylimbs › BANGS POTS AND PANS TOGETHER AAAAAAA u may not think it because my replies are slow as hell rn, but i love our ships HI HELLO EKJNHM. from code vein to oc otome hell, i'm so glad to see you back around again!! know that even though i can take 10 years to reply to things, i do absolutely love the dynamics we have with deirdre / magnus and louis / belle. it's such a joy getting to write with you, and i am SO DETERMINED to give you more ship content this upcoming year. i'm happy as well that louis and belle are back, they're such a fantastic duo and i have... so many emotions over code vein to this day, i'm excited to get back into exploring that world with you :') just as well getting to expand on deirdre and magnus's interactions, the potential is untapped !! thank u for sticking around and writing with me friend aaa
— FLOWERS IN THE GARDENS ... i love seeing you all on my dash! it's likely i've left you on read at some point or shoved our drafts in my box, but please know there's no lack of interest on my part. perhaps we haven't interacted at all, but unbeknownst to you, i see you on the dash all the time & you've left an impression. either way, i adore seeing you around & i absolutely want to interact with you!! thank you so much for brightening up my day with your writing. although i may be quiet, i notice u, and i am a fan kjenrhmkjernhm.
@untowonder / @innocenceimpulse / @seeasunset / @snowfeathered / @starlit-heir / @vibraea / @aceparagon / @jardinae / @tvrningout / @swerte / @aetherbled / @pluviacuratio / @synthwealth / @decoresca / @wishngs / @hymnblood / @tricksheart / @strywoven / @xdcwntherabbithole / @mcmcntomorii / @frestoniia / @reapcrbunny / @double-knots / @acandlelitdeath / @jaxxmulti / @tellescope / @hiisfire / @crownedveil / @shrapnelsong / @box-of-characters / @xamassed / XOXO TO U ALL !!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
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Hi sky!! Happy birthday love!!🥳🎂
I've always been a silent admirer of ur blog, this is like my 3rd time? Sending u an ask. I just want to say how grateful I am that you exist, it sounds a bit silly I know but you're such a beautiful person inside and out(I haven't seen u but I just know it) and bangtan is so lucky to have a fan like you cheering on them from the very start of their career. It's truly admirable to see how devoted you are to bts and how much u adore jungkook🥹 and the other members as well. You were my first ever bts blog I came across and I fell in love with one of ur jungkook gif sets.
I've been struggling so much mentally for the past few yrs and these past few months were especially hard on me. I was diagnosed with adhd and it was very hard for me accept that and just live life all in all but whenever I came on tumblr and saw one ur posts or u freaking abt smth it just lifts up my mood involuntarily. It's like you're tinkerbell and when I see ur blog, it like sprinkles pixie dust on me making my mood better(sorry if that doesn't make any sense).
When you open up personally, I sometimes do relate to some of it and it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I'm not that type of person who gets attracted to ppl or let ppl in my life easily but you've easily become one of my fav person. So thank you for everything that you've done. Forever grateful for all the lovely gifs u make.
Have the happiest 26th birthday ever!!! sending a lot of love and hugs your way💌💗🫂🫂
I'M GOING TO CRY OMG 😭😭😭😭 your message made me so emotional. I wish I could give you such a big, long hug right now.
I know how hard it is to know something like that. I've been to a place like this so I know a little about how you're feeling. but if I could help as a friend, I would tell you to see this as a way of getting to know yourself. It's really hard to be diagnosed with something, but with that we also start to get answers. and then you top feeling like there's something different about you and see that it's something normal than what you have. we begin to understand ourselves better and deal better with our feelings. in my life, depression affects me much more than my dyslexia, but it was much more hard for me to accept that I had dyslexia. It was a really long journey until I felt comfortable with it and stopped feeling embarrassed about it. I really hope something similar happens to you. I just wish your journey is not long like mine. I wish everything will be fine soon. and may you be able to get through this in a not so hard way. please don't be hard on yourself. this is the time you have to be your own best friend. take good care of yourself. don't let any negative energy from anywhere affect you. It's a time for you to focus on you and only you. "It's like you're tinkerbell and when I see ur blog, it like sprinkles pixie dust on me making my mood better" there are tears in my eyes right now 😭 this was one of the most special, beautiful, emotional and amazing thing I have ever read in my life. and having this directed at me made me so emotional and speechless. I will keep your message forever in my memory and in my heart.
I'm feeling so special and honored to be one of your favorite people. I don't know who you are but you have already become one of my favorite people, because I can see what an amazing, beautiful and nice person you are.
thank you so much 🥹 please don't be a stranger, come here whenever you want ok? I will always love seeing you here.
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hey guys happy holidayss~ i know a rambley lil impromptu post-festivities inebriated post isnt very studyblrcore of me but i hope you guys see me not just as a studyblr but as a cool older cousin type, or if youre older than me, then as an angel sent to heal your inner child with nonserious-serious vibes and nihilistic optimism <3
speaking of new years i wonder if i might end up making this blog a bit more langblr-y next semesterrr, i think im about decent enough in korean to feel okay making more content about/in it. or if im not then im gonna start aiming for it more lol!!
im hoping to make my korean studying more consistent and almost mundane or like low pressure, so that instead of cramming and hyperfocusing on it a lot and forgetting my other classes i can just make studying habits part of my routine and a constant so i can have better focus when i work on other things, if that makes sense idk if i explained that well. but i also reallyyyy love learning korean so the hyperfocusing will still happen lol
i really wanna write more this year both personal journaling and practice/hobby journaling for korean plus my academic/intellectual thoughts?? i never like really write those down and i wonder why not. i also want to be off line more and i feel like getting better at irl communications helps that a lot even if its just personal journaling no one else reads. its a good to remind myself that i can articulate myself if i try lol
ooh and i want to become really good at pilates idk, somethings been awoken in me this last month about it, and its been too long since i had a hobby that was physically active like that so i am restless lol. so ig it doesnt have to be pilates if i get bored and try smth else thats cool too
hm what else. idk i just kinda wanna be more expressive yknow, in minor and major ways. i have a lot a of thoughts on this idk. or maybe its an unmasking journey im on. oh shit no im def on a trauma-reprocessing journey i forgot thatll be a doozy lol. but! im growing so much~ did u know that avoiding discomfort is actually not the point of life? and that sometimes good things and right things that have to or should happen, are uncomfy? and that doesnt mean theyre bad or wrong? did you know pain ends and believing yourself to be able to survive painful things is actually so fucking important? im trying to learn those things lately. that tragedies are still worth telling.
alright. ill shut up now ty for humoring me. whether or not you celebrate things this time of year i hope you are comfy, i hope you find moments of peace and joy however small or private, i hope you reach out to people or the universe or whatever it is you need. ive been really grateful for my experieces w this blog this year <3 rest well and take care everyone!
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Alright, but if Y/N is indeed pregnant, could you let her keep the baby? I saw the “mentions of abortion” tw but like please, I want her to keep it. I don’t even care if she doesn’t get back with Satoru in the end. I don’t know but I’m always so soft for babies.
So, I see that some people have this very visceral reaction to Y/N in this chapter, and guess what? I want to defend her like those K-Pop stans. I don’t care about changing their feelings about her but I just want to let them KNOW.
Y/N has made a mistake, a single one, and it makes her no different from Rie, the other woman, but seriously, Y/N is still far more dignified than Rie can ever be. Both committed a mistake. And then what? Rie decided to continue to live in La La Land and created more fuckery while Y/N did everything she could to not do anything wrong again. Y/N immediately told the truth to Suguru and Shoko while Rie and Satoru knew the truth but kept it a secret to save face or whatever tf. After the cheating, Y/N was firm with Satoru about not getting back together with him while Rie went ahead and accepted Satoru’s advances despite feeling guilty.
I saw someone say Y/N is bad at decision-making. LIKE WHERE??? Unlike Rie, Y/N made all the right decisions for someone in her position. They are a foil to each other and the entire series shows how different they are as a person by showing what they decided to do after making a mistake. Like are you being serious with me now? But I don’t know, maybe you read this series with your eyes close or smth, and you simply refuse to see that. Rie and Y/N are the “same” in this situation but overall, as a person, they are not.
LOL, alright, sorry for going off like that, I’m Y/N's biggest fan as you can tell. She’s not me, she’s my precious baby 🥺.
All in all, thank you, Kai, for this chapter! Oh man, this series is going to end soon. What a ride it is! I can’t wait to see how this will end. I actually can’t believe that you just started writing when you created this blog. You’re so good??? Coincidentally, I was an English Major too LOL and I wish I was as talented as you. Once again, really enjoy this update. Looking forward to the next and have a nice weekend, okay? <3 (2/2)
you know what, YOU'RE HEAVEN SENT. im so glad u pointed that out bc there's an ask in my inbox that seems to be downplaying rie's actions yet enraged by what happened between yn and satoru. i cannot bring myself to post it bc it stressed me a bit LMAO, it's like they just skimmed through every chapter and paragraphs. like they didn't pay attention to the contexts and hints that i put it in there. i mean we all know what yn did was wrong, i am not justifying it and that is why yn's facing the consequences now. yn acknowledges it and is doing everything not to do it again, unlike rie who stood tall and straight despite knowing that her new rs is a product of betrayal. i just … dont get what they're fighting for. really.😭 LMAO and im glad u mentioned this bc i was having a really hard time thinking where i lacked explaining in the story. i understand that there are still things which are unclear right now. but that's why we still got 2 more chapters left😭
anywayssss, omg as usual, that was an amazing read !! 2 more weeks and this series is over 😭 this is the longest one i've written yet. and yeah i started writing on april 19, wrote home and posted it on the same night😂thank you so so much and omg you're an english major too !! im sure you can write fics as well, u just have to start !! your reviews and analyses are GOLD, never fails to amaze me how you always get all the points that im trying to get across in the story. im grateful for all of them and for your support, you're amazing, thank you sooooo much !! <33 i hope you're doing great~
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unfortunately i have come to the realization that i am possibly polyfragmented due to Recent Happenings and the fact that i learned a lot of my parts are actually just a bunch of fragments in a trenchcoat (like part a will have four or five fragments inside, part b will have one or two, some have none, then there's some subsystems that i absolutely have no access to at all and total blackout amnesia and it's just layers and layers of bullshit [insert tired emoji])
i cannot begin to count them all (it's impossible since a lot r so underdeveloped and just hold like one single thing almost like they're fragments or smth lol) but i am curious if u have anywhere to start in terms of like. find brain something other than split to do when only minor trauma happens so i can be a little more stable.
my therapist has not been good for me lately and im actively searching for a new one but it's taking a bit. i have a good psychiatrist but i just want to be able to try and help myself a little beyond just getting meds straight yk? and i look up to ur blog since ur well-read and stuff <3
sorry for anon just dont want to out myself as more traumatized than i seem bc Scary
also u definitely do not have to reply, ik u put a lot of time and work into writing and u may not have it atm!! ur very cool and i hope ur having a wonderful day
Hey, anon. I’m so sorry it has taken me so long to get to this. I have severe issues getting things done until it just Happens, sometimes and I hope you’re doing okay. I completely misremembered this ask as well and had come up with a plan to respond to it a certain way only to realize that, I don’t need to do any of that. Whoops.
Splitting happens often in polyfragmentation because the child begins to dissociate very young. Like, pre-mobility young. This can be from something like stressful things in the environment/yelling/really anything that would stress a baby to the point of triggering fight or flight. Which is a lot of shit. It does not always have to be from direct abuse.
The reason this is a factor is because at that time in a child’s life, they are unable to make use of any coping mechanism or response that is NOT dissociation, especially when they don’t receive appropriate comfort from a caregiver.
This effectively means that if you’re polyfragmented, your first and possibly only coping mechanism for a while is dissociation and therefore splitting. The best way to work to break this cycle is to develop new coping mechanisms and work to stabilize, whether that’s in therapy (recommended once you find a therapist that works. I would be up front and honest with any therapist you talk to— don’t want to end up with a therapist that doesn’t work for you. Trust me, it works wonders) or on your own.
This means CBT. This means DBT, sometimes. This means removing yourself from certain situations you know are stressful to you when you’re able, until you’re able to handle them. This means being extremely mindful of your behaviors and why they happen and how you can change them to be healthier, without getting down on yourself and spiraling. This means cutting out unhealthy patterns and unhealthy people and finding new things to do that can help you rather than hinder you.
Finding new coping mechanisms when it comes to something like dissociation isn’t really easy. At all. But it’s necessary to heal. It’s not something that happens fast, but it’s worth it. A great step towards this is grounding when you’re stressed and notice yourself starting to drift off, when your vision starts to get blurry or when you start to feel detached. This requires a lot of mindfulness and practice, which really mainly consists of paying attention to your behaviors without assigning any value to them. Just making sure that you know what you’re doing. It’s extremely important when it comes to trauma responses, and can be very revealing and help you to be the best you that you can be.
You can use whatever grounding technique you like, but a few of my favorites are:
Looking around the room you’re in and naming/talking about objects (out loud helps) and maybe even their stories and how they relate to you. Whatever comes naturally.
Remind yourself of the exact date and time. Year, month, day, time. Your location. That whatever has happened is not happening right now, and that you are in the present and safe.
Run your hands under ice cold water/feel something cold/shit, I have put ice cubes in my clothes before. I’ve stepped out into the snowy weather before. Sudden, severe temperature change can jolt you back to reality.
Splash cold water on your face. This actually triggers an instinct that humans have called the Plunge Response, and will force you to breathe deeply and a few other things that are amazing for grounding. It works.
Remember that meds are only part of the solution. You won’t get far with just medication, as it seems like you know. You need to first stabilize on your own and in therapy and develop healthy coping mechanisms, and then you’ll be able to process the traumas you’ve experienced safely. Without stabilization, this is unadvisable. I did trauma processing before stabilization when I was younger. It fucked me up. I split, certain alters became known to me that I wasn’t ready for, and I was stuck in that place for a long time. Be careful and don’t deep dive until you’re ready. The therapist you have needs to know how to treat complex trauma and stabilize you, and you need to work towards stabilization on your own as well.
I hope I explained everything well, and if you have any more questions at all or I left anything out that I might not have caught, please feel free to DM me or send another ask. I promise it won’t take nearly as long as this time. And again, I’m extremely sorry it did take this long. I hope you see this and are doing well!
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the anon who doesnt have aspd and taught myself empathy again here! i've never talked to a psych (self diagnosed autism) and as a teen i was p sure i had aspd (i Knew shit was strange w me and really wanted an explanation and once i figured out my mix of trauma and autism things made sense) coz lack of remorse and shit but i never actually really matched the rest of it -- i dont have substance abuse issues and never have, im p easily entertained, i've had the same three friends basically my entire life. i do though describe myself as the worlds most boring hedonist coz like yeah i sometimes have a hard time controlling my impulses and im motivated by fun but for me thats usually p simple -- easily entertained. read a book, video games, jump around to music. i AM frequently bored though?? like its my most frequent emotion and ive spent a Long time learning to cultivate my joy and really feel it properly. but im also the most easily excitable person i know. i dunno, i have v large emotions that appear then disappear quite quickly. a favourire hobby of mine since i was a kid has been to start arguments between the ppl i care abt and see how large i could make them in a single session then solve the argument w/o the ppl realising i'd manufactured and egged on the argument. which typing that out now seems uh. an interesting hobby. but late last year i told my younger brother and he laughed coz its a v me thing to do and was like "yo thats fucked. pls stop doing it to me" so since then ive mainly tried to just like playfully tease ppl in a normal way coz cognitively i understand its a fucked thing to do and im trynna be like, a decent person who doesnt go outta my way to play w ppl for funsies. which yeah that uh... maybe i Should look into aspd more again, i did a fairly shallow look into it as a teen and relating to azula as much as i did as a kid (and izaya as an older teen/young adult) was deff a sign of smth
i've followed you on this blog for a while (i think you'd only had it for a couple weeks when i first followed u?) so yeah i did know the story abt u and ur fiance! v cute
i feel like maybe we need a different identifier than "the anon who doesnt have aspd" because that might not be, uh. accurate! i have o clue why a lot of people with aspd seem to congregate around my account but i guess this is an aspd helpline now??????? whuh????
like im not complaining its just. how did i get here
also i think ive deadass used the "worlds most boring hedonist" descriptor for myself before and i deal w chronic boredom the same way you do- i have a LOT of hobbies and i plan elaborate projects and that entertains me but only temporarily
and thats the thing about aspd! it- like every other disorder- is a spectrum. you might not have substance abuse issues, and i do. you did.... your interesting hobby, and i find it morally fucked!* i have no idea your relationship with criminality, and i got fired for stealing
*i have done something similar but i have a moral policy of like, only fucking with people who Deserve It. who deserves what varies case by case and what exactly i do... i need to explain weird spiritual stuff to go in depth andyeah im not really itchin to be called crazy on tumblr dot cum
aspd in general is very misunderstood and no literature really focuses on what its like to have the disorder, only the perceived damage being around someone with the disorder will bring- which is why i initially self diagnosed thru tumblr posts from ppl talking about their symptoms in a serious educative way
sometimes i think like, maybe i don't have aspd, maybe i'm just autistic and i'm spreading misinformation- but i never really felt "at home" with other autistic people. its like- yeah i click better with other autistic people, but i'm still masking, i'm still faking, and even in this situation i can drop the mask partially but not fully. growing up with a personality disorder and trauma in communities largely filled with autistic people with trauma, very quickly teaches you that there's something different about you. it's an isolating, traumatizing feeling- my experience with this was mainly symptoms of npd, but like.... knowing you have a problem, wanting it fixed, and knowing nobody around you knows how deep the problem runs, and might even find its existence laughable or dangerous... it's isolating! and its shitty!!
generally i tend to Know if things i'm doing are bad or not, i just tend to not care in the moment, because it's better than being bored! entertainment wins out over everything. it's actually kind of terrible; i'll do stuff just to see a reaction out of people- it's like izaya, honestly, what happens when people are pushed to their breaking points?
thats kind of how i got so much into angst and psychological horror. not only did i want to break the characters, i wanted to break my audience. i'd tell my friends detailed stories about torture partly because i was interested in my story, mostly because i wanted to see their horrified reactions. i wanted to see how far was "too far," and i keep that stuff in my current narratives- i keep the pov extremely tight and do silly little tricks with narrative and formatting to make the audience feel like they're Really There
so yeah look into aspd. do it boy listen to me im the ps5 im speaking to you inside your brain. do it boy do it
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Hi, I just found ur blog and I really love it but I was wondering if I could get some advice on like, everything
I've had a really complicated relationship with gender for a while, when I was younger I thought I was a trans girl then went into denial for a few years but now I'm like 99% sure I really am a trans girl, but some things don't quite add up. When people I know call me by my given name or he/him pronouns it feels like, ok, but when I have to introduce myself with masculine terms or by my name it feels gross and dysphoric
I have lots of dysphoria in other areas too but specifically in the topic of names and pronouns I've been really confused. I'm used to being called he/him but when I really think about it, it makes me feel really wrong. But with she/her pronouns, it also feels wrong. i don't know of it's just because I'm not used to them or something but he, she, and they pronouns don't really feel right. Same thing with names
Sorry this was so long I jusy really felt confused and didn't know where to ask about stuff like this!! Have a great day :)
“if I could get some advice on like, everything” anon i LOVE that
Thing is, there’s this like, Ideal version of what trans people have to be, created by like cis people and tr*nsmed bootlickers. Like Hello my name is I Am A Passing Binary Trans Person and I feel so much dysphoria im depressed and am on HRT a and physically transitioned, and I hate being trans but like. That doesn’t apply to everyone. Not every trans person feels dysphoria in everything, not every trans person is name and pronoun conforming, not every trans person is 100% Sure All The Time.
If being called by your given name and he/him doesn’t make you dysphoric that doesn’t mean you’re not trans. Like, I’m a trans guy, I don’t have a lot of physical dysphoria, doesn’t mean I’m not a guy
If u say u are a girl, and u are honest about it, u are a girl, full stop.
Ahh yea that’s a weird feeling, isn’t it? Bc it’s like, this determines identity, this determines *who u are* so u get stressed and our significance into it but u don’t have to bc like. It’s a name. It’s pronouns. They are Sounds We Made Up. U are u, regardless of name and pronouns. Take a deep breath my friend. You’ll find smth eventually or maybe u won’t, what matters is are you happy? Are you forgetting about finding yourself and starting to create yourself?
So, I’ve found there’s two types of weird when finding new names/pronouns.
One, just dysphoria. You try and it feels Wrong, it’s gross, it’s like your hands are covered in something slimey. It feels like too-tight shoes or clothes the wrong size or looking in the mirror and seeing someone else. No matter how long you try on new names/pronouns, it feels Wrong, and you can’t get used to it.
Two, good-weird. It’s like…new shoes. Strange, at first, because they’re *new* and *different* and you’re not used to them, but different doesn’t always mean bad. As you keep wearing in the shoes you realise they’re much more comfy than your old ones, fit better, feel better. But you don’t realise this immediately, you gotta like, try it out for a week or so. Vibe with it, see how it feels.
So like, what I recommend is, don’t drop new names immediately just bc they feel wrong. Try it out for at least a few days or a week, then if it still feels wrong, drop it. A lot of names will stick, and you’ll find that the weirdness was just not being used to them.
Just…don’t try to fit into other peoples boxes. Don’t search for an identifier, an anchor to the world of gender. Just like…float in a gender sea for a while. Drifting and exploring. Just be happy, be free, be yourself, and if you find a piece of driftwood or a cool island (labels/names/pronouns in this metaphor) stick to it. Be happy first, find labels second.
I hope I could help you out!! You are loved. Drink some water <3
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its always when is wibble posting n never how is wibble........ im here 2 say HOW ARE U ?? n love the blog theme its v cool! the green is a lovely shade (i say this 100% seriously. love me some neon green)
NEON GREEN LOVERS RISE
also i’m doing pretty good!!! the atrocities and diseases are slowly being tamed, but i’ve got finals pretty soon which is Scary because i’ve never had to take finals since i started high school in 2020.
HOWEVER I am having the time of my life developing this doc, even though it also makes me want to tear my hair out because i don’t know how to break it up successfully. i can’t really talk about any of the topics in it without the others so i’m sorta stuck, but i’m also still gathering info bc apparently the Bible is like a whole book or smth and i’ve gotta study 2 other books alongside that (they’re also movies tho so i might just watch those)
thank you for asking user pavement-ghosts :)
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it's gonna be our 1 year anni on dec 19th! it's kind of nerve wrackin since I've never, before him, had a relationship longer than 2 months.... I actually heavily celebrated the first 3 to 4 month anniversaries cause I wasn't used to actually havin someone around that long... it makes me excited but also nervous and I have a fear of abandonment anywas hdjdhdjf
yea tbh I think the idea of a yandere for many is a hot fantasy. but its just that, a fantasy. not real. one of my exes met me in wantin a "yandere boyfriend" but once I started showin yandere tendencies and was unable to cope without talkin every single day and slowly spiraled into delusion due to it, it was too much, and he didn't even try to understand it. it's kind of funny, really. I told him day 1 I was delusional, there was signs of me gettin delusional and apologizin for it and him reassurin me once... but he suddenly couldn't grasp it in later stages when he didn't do anythin to improve upon the behaviour that made me delusional (ghostin me, basically), and he'd just argue with me all the time what I was sayin wasn't true, and that I was lyin... which hurt because I never lied to him. I only ever told him the truth... what I thought to be true and experienced. I literally have trauma of him vividly abusin me because of how far it got, despite at most all that happened in reality was some arguments and being ignored. wonder what it means when the delusional person is adamantly tellin you smth is true that you know to be false... hmmm idk what it could be! totally just a liar, right?
but yea, the yancore community is really nice and I've only received a couple hate anons, and they were really funny. just bein like. "You there. You. Stop that. what the Fuck. Stop." or makin wild assumptions of me despite literally only knowin I owned a yancore vent blog. like. no shit the vent blog js negative do u even go here. hskshdkdhd ~🎵
Congratulations, I am happy you are doing well in your relationship! I hope the two of you will be able to do something nice together this winter.
Your past relationship on the other hand was horrible, and I am sorry you were treated so poorly. It is hard when people close to you neglect and undermine your mental health issues, and I am sure that him ignoring and ghosting did not help with your fear of abandonment.
Getting hate anons suck, how do you deal with them?
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u should info dump about smth, anything
(ali my friend my beloved my good time gamer and bestie HIIII!!!! 💕💕💕)
it's not like i don't have topics to infodump about, but the truth is that i feel like you've handed me a mic in the middle of karaoke and now it's my turn (oh god it's my TURN)
also 👉👈 um um i'm not sure if the info i'd be dumping would be NEW or interesting to anyone. why am i overthinking this. "I have no mouth but I must Rant" kinda situation over here.
Like I'd LOVE to infodump about my very, very personal deltarunesona au shenanigans I've been working on for like, a YEAR now- but that feels too PERSONAL to TALK about on my PERSONAL blog, gods forbid I show any kind of Intense Passion i have which might be deemed """""weird"""""
Same goes for my 4 DnD characters (DID U KNOW I RECENTLY FINISHED A WHOLE CAMPAIGN?!?!?! MY FIRST CAMPAIGN and my tiefling paladin got the happiest most lesbian ending possible, hell yeah) bcus i have LOTS of lore for them but i always end up. Not sharing it? Not even with my fellow players on the table bcus man i know they don't really care lol. Like, did u know i have Powerpoints of various lengths talking about them?!?!?!? For at least 2 of them. Eshuu (my most favorite warlock, my goat boy whomst i love deeply) got the 5 star treatment and his powerpoint has 40 slides of content. I JUST LOVE ALL OF MY CHARACTERS and i have been CURSED, cursed I TELL YA to play on tables that don't really. Have that same passion for roleplaying characters (acting wise, u know) or creating OCs. Like cmon guys i thought we all agreed dnd was for repressed theater kids (JOKE)
hmm hmm I MEAN my on rotation rants currently are:
Moon Knight (and why i love it, and why it's one of the best things the mcu has done lately, and WHY I NEVER WANT IT TO CROSS OVER WITH THE REST OF THE MCU with ONE one ONE TINY EXCEPTION. BONUS: THE 2021 RUN RANT BCUS MY GODDDDD!!!! MR JED MACKAY HAS ME ON A FUCKING TIGHT GRIP!!!!!! THAT MAN TRULY IS FEEDING US WITH HIS RUN WHICH IS MARVELOUS AND SO GOOD AND AAAAA IM SO GLAD HE IS WRITING MOON KNIGHT)
Deltarune (just. listen this is MY BEHEMOTH talk about deltarune with me and i will just not shut up. mostly i like to talk about speculation of what will happen on the next chapters and my god. my god, toby fox when will ur brainworms end (never apparently)).
Star wars (THIS IS A SPECIAL ONE. OKAY??? BCUS I BECOME A FUCKING HATER WHEN SOMEONE EVEN BRINGS IT UP. Not because I don't like star wars per se, BUT I HAVE FUCKING BEEF WITH IT AS A FRANCHISE. This all started on the day i was born ON THE DAY they released that last trilogy movie and my life fucking ended. "somehow palpatine returned" I WILL NEVER LET THAT GO, THEY MADE MY BEAUTIFUL MAN OSCAR ISAAC SAY THAT LINE AND NOW HE'S THE FACE OF STAR WARS' SECOND GREATEST NARRATIVE SIN- HOW COULD THEY DO THAT!!!!! WHO WROTE THAT!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I MEAN. I MEAN. I'm always ready to list all of the reasons why i fuckin love Mob Psycho 100 but i don't think that's revolutionary. Everyone is doing it these days. Anyway I am in love with Reigen Arataka and my hot take is that HOW could you not love him. Also the Reigen spinoff is GENIUS bcus it's not even ABOUT him.
This is also a special case but it's not a rant im always ready to make but. Homestuck 2. The epilogues. Krusty from the Simpsons going "WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT".gif As I'm sure you'd suspect I have STRONG emotions and OPINIONS about All that mess. What a trainwreck. They did ONE thing right but it did not justify the Clown Show it all was. My god. my god.
The legion of super heroes (and by extension, the CW and Michael fuckin' Bendis): Do you wanna know my complicated relationship with DC comics, my love-hate relationship with it, my love for supergirl, my love for the supergirl series which ENDED UP BADLY and also my deep deep love for one of the most BEATEN AND BRUISED hero teams in modern runs???? My god this rant is for YOU. But all u have to know is that I love Brainiac 5, he's my beloved, and i think my love cursed him to be the most DONE DIRTY character of all time. It is my cross, my burden to bear.
I'd add the magnus archives to that list BUT admittedly I still haven't finished the podcast and I have still a very loose grasp on the concepts they just introduced on s3. BUT. B U T. JUST KNOW. I love Elias Bouchard he's evil and he sucks and he made me listen to the brutal pipe murder of a man and i went "wow :) what the hell is his deal <3"
Well. Well I think that's my infodump about MY possible infodumps. Now that I think about it, i'm not sure if this is the answer u wanted. As in, was ur ask made in response to something else? Literally i dont know why i am once more overthinking about it. ANYWAY ALI ILU AND I'M ALWAYS GLAD TO HEAR FROM U!!!!!!! SORRY I DONT TEXT MORE LIFE IS HECTIC AND WHEN TOO MUCH TIME PASSES I START TO THINK I MIGHT BE BOTHERING PEOPLE, BUT ILU FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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HI honeyy, it feels like it’s been ACTUAL AGES since we talked,,, school and exams are really taking up my time ☹️ only 2 left tho! German and Biology wish me luck >.< I hope you’re okay, how are you doing?
I am actually here under ulterior motives 😳, I had some.. spicy thoughts, as you know I’m not one to describe things in ✨detail✨ because I get embarrassed easily, so if you’re up for it, have fun with these ideas! (I was a blushing mess writing this I cannot, how do you deal with writing such amazing smut without being extremely embarrassed)
so my first thought was:
(1)Beomgyu and s/o who is often exhausted (physically or mentally) so they sleep a lot and are kind of on sleep mode all the time, so I imagine them both having talked abt if his s/o is comfortable with BG still touching them etc. (in this scenario they consented) so imagine, they’re just watching TV nearly dozing off, but BG feels very needy, so he asks his s/o for consent and it ends with them sleepily riding him, then he takes over and it’s just rlly soft sex, afterwards they’re falling asleep on his chest and he takes her to a bath, cleans her up and brings them both to bed. (stan aftercare!)
My other thought is:
(2)BG and a rlly shy s/o, Beomgyu usually notices them being needy and gives them the attention they deserve, since their relationship is a bit fresh they haven’t talked about all their kinks, so he usually just does really vanilla stuff with them since they’re shy, but sometimes during sex, his s/o says rlly surprising things like “It turns you on when I ride you right? You love it when I use you like this.” or “Please cum inside me, I just want to be yours” and it drives him INSANE, his s/o doesn’t mention it afterwards and is all shy again when they’re done, but he can’t stop thinking abt their moans and the look on their face saying such dirty things to him.
some other short thoughts I have are: (3) reader being a popular stripper or (4)reader having financial problems, so they’re a camgirl to pay for college and txt member secretly watches them, but they don’t know bc they keep their streams secret,he also meets them in real life (maybe on a party?) and they start going on dates, so when reader streams, they start thinking of him (bc they’re falling for him) while pleasuring themselves and nearly say his name out loud on stream… (srsly I once read a camgirl!reader x beomgyu fanfic and it was amazing, why don’t people write that more often???)
(5)And lastly toys,,, idk why but toys are not being mentioned enough in smut fanfics for real!! it’s mostly over/understimulation and your usual dom stuff, but nobody writes about sex toys,, I think taehyun, yeonjun and beomgyu would definitely be up for using them (especially taehyun)
yeshhh that’s all i hope you have fun with these ideas, omg imagine making a fanfic with camgirl!reader being confident on stream because that’s their persona but being rlly shy in real life,,, so kind of combining thought 2 and 4 with a little of 5 maybe 👀👀 wow i am nearly begging you to write smth similar at this point, that’s how carried away i’m getting 😳😭🤍
please take care, stay hydrated eat well and sleep tight! 💗🤍
OMG IM GOING TO CRY MY MOM JUST ATE MY STRAWBERRYS,,,,, AGAINNNNNNNNN someone cancel her i’m done i’m done
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WELCOME HONEYY<33
THANK YOUUU, U MADE ME SO HAPPY😖❤️
im really so much better rn, i miss my blog, writing, readers, you😭 so im happy😢 AND WHAT ABT YOU?? Hope ur all well<33
Aaaand idk lol, im not a shy person in my real life (lol😭) so I don't know what to say, but I think your shyness will break as you continue to write!<3 Always be relax dear, I like your writing really... And ur ideas)); <33
But wait, I HATE BİOLOGY Thank God I don't have this class right now.🤧 Good good good good luck, darling! <333
OKAAİİ
First of all, I want to start at the end, because I really like it. That cam!girl idea... made me scream... I swear. This is so hot??! wanna write it)): Soobin and Beomgyu??? Especially Beomgyu, but- AAAHHDDDHAJ EVERY MEMBER?!?! My mind is full of crazy things rn HELP
Abt these sex toys!! I have read about Taehyun, and this man is ruining me. With his everything, seriously... I remember that telling my roommate about him ALL NİGHT-
So I think I shouldn't give spoilers for my future plans LMAO
And at the same time, this is complete Yeonjun. He's the second member I think is open to new things. (1st Beom lol) I think you guys are having a normal day and he suddenly say, "Baby, how about we try a vibrator?" Or he will be quite excited when you tell him that you want to try sex toys. Oh, wait. Just imagine him holding you in his arms to comfort you and turning that damn vibrator around inside you while watches your face... God, we really need more sex toys fics.
For some reason, I'm thinking about doing "Peaches" part 2 right now. And I want to use sex toys there too. I hope I can keep this idea alive because I'm thinking the same thing about "Oranges" 🥺
Ahahagsghshd I love writing lazy things. Easy and hot. ;) It's like a break for all the hard ideas I have in mind. My love, riding is my weak point and you say "messily ride"???? Really? Would I cry? So good...
So It's time for me to drop my drafts? :D Definitely.
You can always make me want to write, im so grateful. Really really really thank you my babe, really... Love you so much.
(shh i can share my strawberries with you🥺 i bought them yesterday🥺come💘🍓🍓)
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“I’m here.”
hey hey !! i’m mod paint. more info under the cut!
general info
pls refer 2 me as only mod paint !!
i do go by mod venus on the @/heros-moving-castle-official blog though
my pronouns r he/they/she btw (not in order of preference - pls just just mix them up when u talk abt me at different times and i’ll be happy)
i’m bisexual. that’s not super important but at the same time it’s impossible to know me and not realize at some point so
i do have a tumblr blog but it’s a secret ! if u want to guess i won’t stop u tho
i edit the writing for the story! i do also like to draw but it’s probably unlikely that i’ll post something with my own art in the near future
i am also autistic ! i do like tone indicators but please try not to put too many, it confuses me. also, please use /nu (not upset) instead of /nm (not mad) - my brain sort of processes /nm as someone actually being mad at me so it helps a bit to use /nu instead. i wont kill you if u use /nm on accident though
if i seem rlly fucking weird when i reply to asks then my bad ! i like interactions & i dont bite but i have bad anxiety and it kinda fucks up my social interactions whenever i do anything. and then that gets amplified by my autism so
ib is cool i gues (game not schooling program) . im stealing garrys gender immediately btw
uhh . boundaries i guess
no nsfw. both mod rose & i r minors & we don’t wanna see or hear abt that lol
i’m not going to put triggers or anything on here bc that’s dangerous but i do have some things that i should probably mention
please don’t be afraid to ask for clarification if i say smth and it makes absolutely zero sense! even i don’t know what i’m saying sometimes . i just type words and hope they make sense
already mentioned this but pls use tone indicators & pls use /nu (not upset) instead of /nm (not mad) bc my brain processes /nm weird
please don’t use typing quirks in asks, especially if ur on anon. replacing words with numbers that they sound like or shorter letters (as in saying “2″ instead of “to” or “too” or using “ur” instead of “your”) is fine and i don’t mind that (i do that too LMAO) but please don’t use ones where u replace every s with the letter z or every o with the number 0 or something. it’s just really hard to read and i can’t read, process, nor answer ur ask sry
so like. i do have irls . bc i have psychotic delusions. and that is important to note i guess bc doubles
i am mari (omori), xiao (gi), fischl (gi), and childe (gi) irl*
i’m fine with doubles, kins, etc interacting in terms of liking & reblogging as well as sending asks but pls don’t initiate conversation w me !! regarding doubles, asks are fine as long as they’re questions abt the au or something and not just to start a convo w me (i probably won’t check the blog unless i need to use ur pronouns in an answer or smth)
*genshin isn’t related to this au but i know mod rose interacts w a lot of ppl who play genshin so i figured this would b important to note
♡ if u actually read to all the way down here then i applaud u & i hope u have a good day !!
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the way this blog is exactly a year old now and dinonetwork is also exactly a month old <3
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hi! could u please write smth abt jaehyun taking care of his s/o thru her period and even offering to do the nasty 👉🏼👈🏼 u can also make it smutty if ur brain juices allow
Pairing: boyfriend!jaehyun x f.reader
Genre: smut (18+ only)
Warnings: mentions of menstruation, unprotected sex, shower sex, sex during menstruation, cum kink
Word count: 1.2k
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A/N: please heed the warnings! at any rate i didn't make it too graphic :) thanks for the request!
“Jaehyun, please hurry! I’m dying!”
“Hang in there, babe, I’m coming!”
The pain in your lower abdomen left you immobile, a heating pad wedged between you and a pillow and meds doing nothing to alleviate the discomfort you were feeling. Jaehyun, being the good boyfriend that he was, did everything in his power to help you feel better.
“You’re a godsend, thank you so much,” you sighed, when he came into the bedroom with the chocolate ice cream you requested. He got into position sitting back against the headboard, while you sat on his lap and he wrapped his arms around you. The warmth and comfort of his presence always helped you during this time of the month, and you already felt your body relaxing bit by bit as he rubbed your back gently.
“Is it helping?” he asked softly, planting kisses on your shoulder as he watched you take big spoonfuls of your ice cream.
“Yes, the ice cream is good,” you mumbled between mouthfuls, “but it still hurts.”
Jaehyun’s eyes turned soft as he looked at you, clearly concerned. “I’m sorry, Y/N, I wish there was more I could do.”
“You could fuck me,” you said half-jokingly, thinking he wouldn’t want to do anything of the sort while you were on your period.
“Would it help?” he asked in all seriousness.
You just shrugged, licking the last of the ice cream off the spoon. “I don’t know, never tried it.”
“Hm,” was all he said, but you could already feel his bulge growing beneath you.
“Jeong Jaehyun, are you considering it right now?” you couldn’t believe he was actually thinking about it.
A mischievous smile spread across his face, his eyes twinkling and dimples appearing in his cheeks as he nodded at you. “So what if I am? Would you want to?”
You had to admit you wanted to, when it came to your boyfriend you always wanted to fuck him, that wasn’t even a question. You’d heard from some of your friends that sex always helped them feel better when they had bad cramps, but you had never tried it, always just worried about the mess.
“I mean, I always want to,” you answered honestly, “but you know, it would be… messy.” You wrinkled your nose at the thought of the cleanup involved.
“We could do it in the shower,” he suggested, a little too eagerly as his face lit up when he said it. Clearly he had already been thinking about the possibilities.
It was a good idea, you had to admit, and with the way he was looking at you, like he wanted to devour you, it would have to do. “Alright, let’s do it.”
Excitedly he jumped out of the bed, almost pushing you off of it, and ran into the bathroom to get the shower running. When he was satisfied with the temperature of the water he brought you in, undressing you carefully and gently, and helping you step into the shower. While you relaxed with the warm spray of the water, he undressed himself and stepped in with you.
“How’s the water?” he asked, slotting his body behind yours and placing his hands on your hips, “is it helping with your cramps?”
“Mm-hm,” you nodded, but what was really helping you was his touch on your bare skin, made even more arousing by the wetness of your bodies and the heat of the water washing over you.
“How’s your tummy?” he asked softly before attaching his lips to your neck and sliding a hand around to caress your stomach. You leaned your head back against him and moaned, the warmth of his hands sliding over your skin heating you up.
“Better,” you answered, because you could already feel the pain easing up little by little, the more he touched you. “But I need more please.”
“Greedy,” he chuckled, before sliding his hand down between your legs and finding your clit. You moaned as his fingers rubbed circles around your sensitive nub, his other hand coming up to fondle your breasts and pinch your nipples.
“Oh god, Jae,” you moaned, the pain of your cramps forgotten as the feeling of pleasure took over. “More, please, I need you.”
You heard him whistle low behind you, and then you felt the tip of his cock teasing at your folds. You’d never had sex during your period before so you weren’t sure how it would feel, but when he pushed inside you the pleasure you felt almost knocked you off your feet.
“Tell me if I hurt you, okay?” his voice was deep in your ear and it made you shudder.
“No, no, it feels good,” your breath was starting to come in small gasps, as arousal overtook all of your senses, “god it feels so good.”
This encouraged him, and he started to pick up his pace, holding onto your hips as he pounded you, your hands splayed against the tiled wall of the shower to keep yourself from smacking face first into it.
“So tight,” he murmured, “so fucking tight.”
You could feel your entire body tingle as the pleasure built up, your orgasm coming on so fast it was making your head spin.
“Jaehyun! Oh my god!” you cried out as he railed you, your moans and whimpers echoing off the tiled walls.
“You gonna come, baby? Hm? Come all over my cock then,” he growled, pounding you harder, his hands coming up to squeeze your breasts.
“Oh fuck!” you screamed, coming hard when he squeezed your nipples and thrust into you so deep you felt him in your guts. Your pussy milked his cock, but he wasn’t done with you yet, pulling you flush against him as he fucked you harder.
“Wanna fill you up, baby,” he said, his voice husky, “wanna fill you so full that my cum will be the only thing dripping out of your pussy.”
You gripped onto his forearms as he came inside you, hips stuttering as he filled you, a loud groan escaping his lips. When his body stilled he kissed down the back of your neck and along your collarbone and shoulder, before sliding his hand around to rest on your lower stomach.
“Do you feel better?” he asked, the spray of the shower doing a wonderful job of washing away the remnants of what just occurred.
“Yes, baby, I really do,” you sighed, squeezing his arms in gratitude. You felt the water starting to cool though, and you were suddenly struck with the feeling of sheer exhaustion. “But I think I want to go to bed now.”
“Of course babe, let’s go to sleep,” he turned off the water and grabbed a towel for you, helping you to dry off before he dried himself off. He helped you change into your pajamas, and then you slid into bed together, where he spooned you (naked, because you wanted to feel the warmth of his skin against you, even through your pajamas).
“Good night, Jae, thank you for taking care of me,” you said sleepily, placing his hand against your stomach.
“Always, my love,” he replied, and just as you drifted off you felt him kiss the top of your head, his hand rubbing gentle circles on your stomach.
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