#ugh im a mess rn

[the-kipsabian]

a quick hot guide for people that struggle commenting on fics aka things authors love to hear and youre just over thinking it and its actually really simple to leave comments on stuff!!

key smash/emoji spam/reaction image/etc (it conveys emotions way more than you might think)

drop a line you really liked

say how much you love a ship/character and how happy you are that theres content about them

ALL CAPS ANYTHING

"i liked/loved/enjoyed/whatever it!" its better to say the most basic thing than saying nothing tbh; writers appreciate hearing anything over nothing 💜

"thank you for writing this" its short, sweet, and very powerful

think what kind of feedback you'd personally like to receive on a piece of art you made. try to translate that want into comments you leave for other people too

you dont have to be critical or constructive or anything, even if the author asks for that stuff in their notes. they'll get it from someone else, you just do you

i feel like people make leaving comments too hard on themselves, so really just make it simple. if you really dont come up with anything, just say thank you. youre there reading for some reason, tell the author what it is. fic comments dont need to be book analysis essays (tho those are. incredibly appreciated as well if you want to write one!!), writers publishing their works for free online appreciate any kind of feedback regardless if you consider it good or well written. a comment is a comment

bottom line is, leave comments on fics and other written works. its whats keeping this game alive

#feel free to add these are just the two cents in my brain rn #also absolutely reblogs encouraged #listen im not just speaking for myself i want to see every fic writer get more comments. more feedback #and dont even get me fucking started on getting reblogs on this goddamn webbed site im gonna blow up otherwise #just. fucking. support your friends. support your favorite creators. say nice shit about them and share their work #i cant believe this needs to be said in fucking 2023 god #im tired can you tell lmao #i also know im a fucking nobody talking about this but fuck if i dont who will ugh #as someone that tries their best to always leave at least a word in everything i read (which admittedly isnt a lot but still) #this is a very important topic to me. okay? okay #again feel free to add to this and its absolutely rebloggable if for nothing else than to remind people to COMMENT ON FICS #night is an absolute mess on main

[silkysong]

tumblr user silkysong i BEG of you get firefox and ublock if you havent already holy FUCK

if that worked for me and my needs, i wouldve done it already. what i need is tumblr staff to stop being ableist little shits and stop making flashing ads, period. which i know is unrealistic, and they will never stop.

why should i, a person with significant neurological impairments that relies on routine and familiarity to function, be the one to jump hoops and walk on eggshells and install extensions and change my entire internet experience JUST to use this app without risking being hospitalized more than i already am?

i pick and choose my battles and i decided this isnt a battle i really wanna fight anymore

#edit: the tags messed up ugh. #ask #i usually delete these asks that go USE FIREFOX/UBLOCK!!! but im severely pissed off rn

[jaeyunluvr]

uni's been grilling me im suffering guys and the heat in my country is insane rn i cannot do this anymore. i'm going to be sick if it's this way. i have to go to the doctor for my pcos but i don't want to i just hate taking medication i will cry

#i promise im gonna post smth very soon #ranting rn cuz my head's a mess #UGH #i hate this #kayz talks!

[voidcat-senket]

for the "get to know your fic writer" meme: 51, 64, 68

51. What’s your total AO3 word count?

As of this moment, 612,042 over 19 years. It's certainly not the sum of my writing-- some of those words belong to other writers and many of my words were never posted, but that's where we're at, ~600k. Interesting that 150k of that belongs to a single fic!

64. Something you love to see in smut.

Feelings! Realizations! Need! Surrendering oneself entirely to another. Desperation for connection. Possessiveness is rarely amiss. And a little getting held down and/or choked is good for the soul

68. What, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

Talk to people about things! A lot of what I've written recently was inspired by other people- by conversations we're having about the canon material but also things they want to see. It's nice to write for other people sometimes! most times. I write to connect, so... yeah. Even Original Fiction is about being like. 'here are feelings that I experience, that these characters experience, do you experience them too? Will you feel them with me?' There's a reason the things I care the most about are writing, acting, music... we're communal people, we're emotional fragile complex creatures, and I just want to hold as many metaphorical hands as I can

#writing stuff #ask meme #writing asks #not me crying rn thinking about this #ugh im a mess lately #thanks for asking <3

[madame-mongoose]

lately the only four emotions i have are extremely happy, extremely sad, paranoid, and empty. its so exhausting it sucks

#and im trying not to burden anyone with my issues #its just so much to deal with every day #like rn i just feel so hollow #i really wanna talk to my friends to maybe hopefully elevate my mood #but i dont wanna bother anyone #plus anyway only one ever seems to want to talk to me #ugh idk #its so hard to determine whats real and what my head is making up to mess with me #i cant tell anymore. im so tired #im so so tired #sighs #monnie rambles

[silenthillbunni]

📓🖊️🌧️🌫️

#just... ugh! im so frustrated nd need to vent a bit #sadly.. smth i havent accepted yet is that having avpd will be constant thru my life and it will have ups and downs #i had a pretty long run of not being *that* avoidant #for 2 weeks now i'm back in that suuuuuper avoidant place #like super avoidant. i dont even go for walks or go to the grocery store. or send emails to my teachers (important!!!!) #i cant look at anything thats important. i dont even clean my room T-T #this is the 2nd week im skipping school which is v bad. nd i havent done anything on my assignment in the course i need to finish in march #i dont open messages or reply to anyone bc i just cant it gives me too much anxiety #im simply avoiding EVERYTHING #and it's such an awful place to be stuck in i hate it so so so so much #worst part is I HAVE NO FKN IDEA HOW TO BREAK FREE!!!!!!! #i've never gotten any treatment for my avpd nd there is actually no information or research online so idk how to handle it #i just wait and simmer in this fkn.... sucky ass soup mess nd wait nd wait #until suddenly it just loosens nd i can start doing things here nd there #the problem is. i dont rlly have time #i dont have time to sit and wait!!! i have time sensitive responsibilities that i risk ruin if i dont do them #i just have no idea HOW to do anything rn. bc it doesnt work to just force myself to do them #it doesn work to make lists or schedules #it suxxx that there isnt rlly any treatment or accessible tips for how to deal w avpd bc im rlly... #im alone... out in the open sea... no one around as far as the eye can see... no life raft. no help skskksks #anyway #ig all i can do is wait nd *try* to do small things as much as i can nd hope i'll get less avoidant soon #i just hate this so much. i always feel so awful nd terrible nd it's so bad ugh

[itsbrucey]

For the late nighters. Post notification-ers. And whoever else finds this. He'll be real or I will rip both of my hands off.

The bun or the braid for today.

robably gonna fuck around with his face more. Like his face shape specifically. And his hands are on another layer so don't sweat. I'll resolve weird leg anatomy too dude I DONT. KNOW.

#he has a guitar pick in his mouth but ill probably mess with that with the face bc im ehhh #also he'll get piercings. fear not #TBH........im kinda fucking with the Bun rn I THINK. LOOKS GOOD #hot glenn autumn #Keep voting Glenn and Nicky btwwwwww you'll get more art from me !! thumbs up #AND TATOOOSSSSS ugh dude Glenn. shakes him around. #I like his cover art so much and i just dont feel like i do him justice but im TRYING

[soggypotatoes]

role reversal with mum getting really intense

im trying to go up to her place more, even though literally every time I go there I relapse (I don't at home these days!) bc I know she's lonely.. and she's having surgery soon and I don't trust my dad and brother to look after her (aka not let her do all the cleaning still lol)

so I'm slipping back into the role of kid parent and I feel myself also slipping into. being a little kid again who's in over her head

I don't know what to prioritise :/ my therapist always tells me I'm supposed to put myself first, my biggest problem is Ive never known how to do that. but that's the problem!!! what does that mean!!! if putting myself first means not looking after her, I'd hate myself for it. she needs me. and I'm neglecting friends, too - I haven't been able to even glance at any of my messages bc I'm too overwhelmed with other people's needs. is prioritising myself checking their messages and making time for them, or is that prioritising friends over family over me??? WHAT DOES IT MEAN GUYS

I just really don't know what I'm supposed to do to look after myself. I'm stumped!

#anyway. ugh #i feel the need to put myself aside and focus on her #but the problem is if i do that i will wither away #and stop existing #and also when does it end? #that's the thing #if my brother and dad never plan on putting effort in.. #and the fucked thing is #i dont blame my dad at all #hes. a child. he never grew up #rn all my anger is towards my brother #isnt that messed up? im angry at him for not parenting our parents lmao #i want to exist for myself and do things i like to do #i just dont know what that means or who im supposed to. um #like who to let down. in what order #do i let down my mum or my friends lol #cause i only have space for 1 or the other #ed mumbles

[armageticwords]

i finally submitted an application with portfolio to the animation school i want to get into and oh god im shaking like a wet cat rn

#because like. they have been so so nice to me so far (this was also the school that introduced me to corpses last week) #and i reeeeeaaaaally want to get in. but im a sophomore rn and i’m literally working on my first digital animation assignment right now? #so like. will they even let me in. please let me in PLEASE #i have a backup that i’ve been accepted into but i would be so so mad for ever and ever if my PORTFOLIO was the only thing that stopped me #from getting into this school. ugh im tired but mostly just mad that i have to deal with all of this in the first place #stay tuned for me sorting out this mess i guess #h text

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#me @ birth control: u were supposed to bring balance to my moods not leave me in darkness! #whats worse? rocketing around with volatile moods feeling insane nearly all the time but sometimes in a fun way? or feeling level headed but #depressed enough at u dont give a fuck abt anything? #i say the latter so i should probably stop taking it. i cant handle the bloating or the depression. assuming i wasnt already on track to #feel like this bc it started before i was on the pill but it hasnt let up. but if u have a predisposition to mood issues or adhd u r more #likely to have depressive side effects. hod dammit. i need something that causes side effects in either ppl with bipolar or adhd so i can #disentangle myself from this mess. ugh. not that it even matter. im just treating this like an experiment with a sample size of 1 #the disadvantage of having an obsessive analytical mind: treating yourself like a test Subject #ugh. whatever ill see my counselor Monday and she'll tell me to chill the fuck out abt this. bc im being insane abt it #unrelated #genuinely tho im procrastinating rn for a class i have in an hour. that is very very very unlike me. im usually a: ill have it donr 2 days #ahead sort of person. bc im an anxious freak but now im just tired.

[tinylittlebab]

2/10/23

goal: 1000 / total: 821 / extra burned: 100 / net: 720 / weight: 94.5

disappointed in this. wouldve been less but i kinda blanked while eating goldfish and forgot to count them out bc i was too busy sorting them. oops. well its not that bad. i didnt end up getting to do my usual stuff so the day was very hard. i had planned to wait to eat till later or not at all but around 8pm i started feeling very ill and shakey so i decided to eat. unfortunate but whatever.

mad at myself for being hungry this morning since i had over 800 yesterday. my body is so pathetic. i fed it so much yesterday but even still.

#ugh. 821 thats so much i feel so bad #i know that ill still definitely lose weight if im eating that much daily but i feel pathetic for not going lower even when i wasnt #exercising. the main reason im able to maintain 97 and still eat 2000 a day is bc i exercise so much every day #my sedentary tdee is 1400 and i burn so much extra every day so it works out. i guess im lucky that my main coping mechanism that i use to #feel regulated and also happy (basically a hobby tbh) involves exercising. idk daydreams are more vivid when i skip around #makes me forget my body exists. and i do it so much that i burn a whole lot of calories #ugh. my body hurts rn. i should eat but idk what. should i go higher now and lower later or vice versa #im allowing myself to be ok with higher numbers today. nothing above 1100 but above 800 is ok #think its kinda silly that i always SAY my limit is 1000 but its actually not. but if i set my limit to anything less than im actually more #likely to meet it or go over. i more frequently get totals of 500 with this limit. i tell myself i can have a bigger meal later and then it #comes to bedtime and instead of eating i just go to bed. qhen its a lower amount i know i wont be able to eat anything larger so i am #doing way more counting of cals on everything to figure out what to eat later and it messes me up #and eating over 800 2 times a week isnt so bad. ill still lose weight. i feel bad tho. like im not disordered enough #but 800 is still a very small amount

[the-kipsabian]

i really need to read immortal fears back and get back to writing it huh

#five chapters in half a year just feels bad rn #like i know ive done a shit ton of other things but.. this story/au is my child. its the thing that got me back to writing regularly #it deserves to continue and to end eventually. theres so much that needs to be added #idk im feeling bad about semi abandoned wips rn mmmm #also looking at maybe one day you'll become that star. i should write that too #idk. feeling bitter at myself today. its fun especially since this week is such a clusterfuck idk how much energy i have for anything #ugh sorry #just not feeling like a writer today again its fun :| #night is an absolute mess on main

[syntheticspades]

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#vent #im not gonna lie #ive been feeling pretty lonely lately #just. isolated #my friends did some bad things though they were justified tbh #realizing i have to live until at least 30 until i inevitably develop cancer and die is so damn exhausting to think about #and god. the mental stuff. #i cant understand shit up in that dumbass head of mine #i kinda just wanna not hang out w my irls and be by myself #it doesnt make me as happy as it used to #my parents are stalling when it comes to me doing freelance #life is just a mess rn but i gotta keep it inside cause it' #s only day 5 of the school ywar #ugh #tw sickness #tw cancer #tw isolation #? #idk

[shingogf]

i will literally riot if the aftons aint bri ish in the movie

#i ve just watched a vid rn saying how it would be terribly inconsistent (as are things in fnaf) to make them bri ish in the games #then strip them of their defining identity in the movie for the sake of convenience and to appeal to general audiences #which. yeah #like im already not keen at all on the cast they selected for william and michael and it seems that they arent gonna give them an accent :/ #i genuinely have such low expectations for this movie its so sad #like why make the aftons such an interesting crazy little family with a different culture then just throw it all away in the movie #ik scott is indecisive and always switches shit up mindlessly like with the bri ish afton it was a happy accident as pj put it #BUT EVEN AFTER THAT THEY KEPT IT CONSISTENT UP UNTIL THE MESS SB WAS WITH ELIZABETH AND MICHAEL ALSO HAVING AN ACCENT #.txt #mine #fnaf #and also. the fact that pj thought of hannibal fucking lecter when coming up w william's voice which gives him SO MUCH character ugh

[kurosaaki]

in my worst mental state ever 🥳

#jen’s life update #tbh i just want a hug #uni is starting in 7 days and idk anyone there #my lifes been a mess #and i am a mess too rn #ugh #and i feel so bad because im unable to write in this state #i feel like shit

[moniehon]

The other day a mutual of mine called be by my full birth name that I don't use anymore at least on internet and, idk I really don't feel attached to it so it's not like it was unpleasant, it was just weird

#also im sure they didn't do it on purpose #we've been mutuals on my art acc for so many years at some point i probably had that name there #but yeah #im sorry idk why im getting chatty rn #ansjsjsks #anyway #giu txt #sometimes is good to get back on here bc twt can be ugh #and i probably should make different accounts for my art/my personal stuff but I really can't manage multiple accounts #m a mess