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partycatty · 3 months

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I have this idea:

Johnny Cage x tomboy (can be gender neutral reader), I see the reader as a introvert, gamer, a bit of a nerd that prefers to wear comfy pants than elegant, tight dresses/skirts. Johnny likes to talk to them cause they can play games together (I believe that johnny being a bit of a gamer is a fact stated in mk1, when we have a Cage's Mansion tutorial?) and so he decided to invite reader to a red carpet event created because of the launch of his new movie. It's first time in their life to attend such thing and they really don't know what to do... (the rest is up to you, they can either fuck before the event while reader is trying to pick a good outfit or just go there and have fun or whatever<3)

johnny cage > zip me up

johnny's not used to seeing his best friend in anything but a hoodie and sweats. what happens when they have to dress outside of their comfort zone?

warnings: nsfw... :3, exhibitionism?, hardcore praising LOL, awkward reader (no rizz ...), reader is written as curvy? LONG POST LOL

notes: i physically cant write dom johnny without it sounding super ooc LOL ALSO!! im so sorry if the formatting is iffy, ive been forced to use desktop and the formatting is completely different than my usual mobile writing

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honestly, it's hard to gauge what games he'd actually play, so a part of me believes he mainly plays... mortal kombat. and yes, since he is canonically responsible for the franchise existing, he would main himself. or maybe he'd play fortnite, lord knows he'd have his own skin.

"come on, man! you can't keep picking general shao! you can just say you hate me," johnny groans, staring at the character select screen. his favorite thing was to drop tidbits about the characters and compare them to the real life counterparts. "i'm still mentally recovering from witnessing his ugly mug."

you chuckle and lean back in your chair, pulling your headset mic closer to your lips. "would you rather i picked one of your buddies? kenshi, or as you called him, sexy face two?"

"and now you're asking me to beat up my best friend," johnny sighs dramatically. you giggle, and it makes his heart flutter and cheeks redden. thankfully, today was a day your webcams were turned off so you were none the wiser. you make a comment that he's the one that wanted to play a game that features his real friends and actual enemies which earns yet another groan from him.

"if you're gonna be annoying, we could switch to something else?" you offer teasingly. "not my fault you choose to stare at yourself every game instead of learning combos."

"oh hush, you love me," johnny replies, earning a little peep from you out of surprise. he loved to push your buttons and flirt with you. it was in his personality, sure, but because of it you did have a massive crush on him. it was innocent and purehearted, but you just couldn't see yourself risking your great friendship over some silly feelings. "you love it when i'm difficult, don't lie to yourself."

"...shut up," you pathetically try to retort, sinking into your seat and fighting the flush on your face. "are we gonna run another round or what?"

"actually, i had something to ask of you," johnny says, tone suddenly serious and almost unreadable. you feel a pit in your stomach at his tone, wondering if maybe you're in trouble. your mind spirals as you nervously fidget in anticipation. "well, two things actually. could you turn your camera on so i can properly ask you?"

you shakily turn your camera on in discord, anxiously glancing between your monitors and camera lens. johnny smiles to himself, leaning forward get a closer look at you as if you were sitting across the table from him.

"good girl, there we go," he says encouragingly, making your thighs clench as you use your sleeves to hide your face. "no, come on, don't hide. here, let me-" he clicks on his own camera button and his webcam blinks to life. he smiles directly into the camera, and for a moment you're winded at the reminder that you're best friends with a celebrity. "-there. now it doesn't feel like i'm talking to my computer."

"well, you are-" you speak up, ready to go on one of your famous tech tangents. johnny holds up a single finger, shushing you instantly. as much as he'd love to hear your voice for hours on end, he wanted to squeeze out what he was going to say first.

"-hold your tongue, my dearest nerd," johnny quips with a wink. "my favor first." you tense up before he speaks up again. "i've got a movie coming out. finally, right? point is, cris is an absolute no-go, and my assistant couldn't find a damsel to hang off my arm in time for the red carpet. so, next best thing, i was wondering if... you'd be my plus one."

"i-i don't dress up, johnny," you protest, looking away. "all those cameras, all the shouting... not for me."

"it's not all bad," he insists with a smirk. "you'll have me. all you have to do is stay close to me and smile."

you stammer, trying to spill out more excuses for him to give in and stop asking.

"i don't have a dress-"

"i'll buy you twenty."

"nobody knows who i am-"

"eyes'll be on me."

"what if someone laughs at me?"

"doll, have you seen some of these hollywood clowns? you'll look just fine."

you tug at your hair, exasperated. he came prepared with every response, had every reason to bring you to the carpet. you wanted to say no, but truth be told, you missed johnny dearly. you don't get to see him in person often, given your medium distance and his constant work. a meek "fine" escapes your lips and johnny cheers to himself, his excitement painted all over his face. it made you warm how well he was at showing his appreciation at times.

"i knew i could count on you, sweetheart. this means the world to me. i'm getting you tomorrow at three, okay? we're gonna get you a nice dress, i'll get a matching suit tailored... oh, it'll be like prom all over again!" he's gesturing wildly as he hypes himself up over the plan.

"i never went to prom, johnny," you chuckle to yourself, eyes on your keyboard. "i wouldn't know the experience."

"well that's ridiculous," johnny looks surprised at this fact, for a reason you can't pinpoint. "i would have asked you if we knew each other then."

"i'm sure," you agree shyly, turning away to try and hide your blush. "i'll see you tomorrow, johnny."

"see you tomorrow, doll," he smiles at the camera again, and you catch a glimpse of it as you weakly return the expression. then, johnny leaves the call, leaving you huffing and blushing. he just asked you to be his plus one on the red carpet, for his movie, for his fans... all eyes will be on you. the thought terrifies you, but maybe you could push through for your friend. you were a software developer, mostly confined to your dimly lit bedroom. this was a whole new realm!

you roll around on your bed and kick your feet, wondering why you're always so awkward around him. if you fumble at all in public, your world might just fall apart. sleep doesn't come easy for you, but it eventually overpowers your anxiety.

sunlight creeps through your windows. despite your usual tendency to sleep in, your nerves shot you awake slightly earlier than that, and you tried your best to negate your shakiness through games and squeezing in any work projects you could make up - before a firm knock was at your apartment door.

you fly to the door and swing it open, excited to see the only man that gets your heart pumping. he's matching your energy with a cheesy grin, immediately charging at you to embrace you in a bear hug. his cologne makes you tingle as you breathe in his shirt fabric. when he pulls back, he chuckles to admire your attire. you're wearing your usual sweatpants, hoodie, and slippers.

"you clean up nice," he compliments you sarcastically. "it's nice to finally see you, honey." you shrug with a shy smile at his endless pet names. "let's get you into something more flattering, yeah?"

he encourages you to his car, it's one of his nice sports cars with his name printed across the seats. you always felt out of place in his luxurious lifestyle. however, even through the two hour car ride back to malibu, you found yourself familiar and comfortable alongside johnny.

"you didn't have to drive four hours just to see me," you insist quietly, voice muffled against the window as you admire the waters. "it's a lot of trouble for one night."

johnny seems to genuinely seem taken aback by your deprecating comment. he leans over and slides one hand on your knee, patting it gently.

"you know i'd do anything for you," he speaks in that dangerously low tone, stealing quick glances as he desperately tries to focus on the road. "i want you with me."

even after his comforting pat, his hand lingers for a moment, sliding up your thigh with feather touches. you cover your lips with your finger to muffle any whimpers that threatened to escape. you always hated how touchy he was, and by hated, you mean it turned you on embarrassingly easily. as the road straightens out, you realize he's staring directly at you with suspiciously blown out pupils, but snaps back into reality as quickly as you noticed. he clears his throat and removes his hand, settling them both back on the steering wheel.

perhaps he just missed me and wants to be closer, you thought. he's always clingy, he probably just... you're having a hard time justifying his needy glances. they looked off. it's been a stupidly long time since someone eyed you down like that.

after what felt like a thousand years, the city comes into view and johnny parks at a luxury outfit boutique. it's small, but the window mannequins alone make you swallow nervously.

it takes quite some time to decide on a dress, because you internally decide that every possible option is unflattering. each time johnny pulls a dress from the selection, you cringe and shake your head. the sleeves were either too long or too short, the skirt was too flowy or too loose, or the color wasn't quite right.

"how about i pick one for you?" johnny offers, a little exhausted at how difficult you were being. "you just go sit in the dressing room, i'll slide you a couple dresses and don't think too hard about this. you'll look great in anything, my dear."

you agreed with his idea. maybe it'd be best for the celebrity that's known to dress nice to put you in something that'll definitely turn heads and keep you confident. it was unfamiliar territory for you, after all, since the last flattering thing you wore was a one-piece swimsuit on a beach trip with your family.

after some time of fidgeting in the dressing room, johnny slides the curtain aside and greets you with a smile, his veiny arm holding about a dozen dresses. he's got his iconic shit-eating grin as it seems he has something devious in mind for you.

"don't look so afraid," johnny shrugs, nudging you playfully. "i'll treat you right, pinky promise." he holds up the first dress, a flowy one with off-the-shoulder sheer sleeves. it looks like something out of a fairytale, and you're reluctant to deny his suggestion when he's cheesing so damn hard. you smile back and shove him back behind the curtain, giving yourself space to change.

you slide into the dress, catching it on your hips momentarily but pulling it past without tearing it thankfully. when you pull it up to your chest, it takes quite a bit of tugging, seeing as the fabric isn't as stretchy compared to what you're used to. when you fall silent as you try to pull the dress up, johnny assumes you're ready and slides the curtain aside, stepping in eagerly.

"how's it-" he cuts himself off when he gets a good look at you. you're flushed from trying to squeeze into the fabric, and your breasts (that he didn't even know you had) were spilling out of the front. his lips get sucked inward as you witness the gears come to a screeching halt in his head. his eyes may have been hidden from his sunglasses, but you know for a fact he's checking you out. "i like that one." his voice is too monotonous for him to truly be emotionless. it's like it's taking every ounce of his being to be normal.

"i don't," you mumble, continuing your fruitless attempts much to johnny's delight as your boobs ripple with each pull. "i can't get the stupid zipper up in the back, either."

eager hands shoot out to you as johnny takes quick strides to stand behind you. your front is facing the mirror, your hands resting atop your breasts and eyes focused on the man behind you. when his head tilts town to get a good look at the zipper, you notice his eyes are far darker than the typical warm brown.

his hands fumble tremendously as he tries to keep his shit together. he uses one hand to keep the parts together and the other to get the zipper sliding.

the sudden jerk catches you off guard and you're far from balanced. thankfully, your palms press against the mirror to keep yourself upright, and johnny lurches forward as his grip is pulled with you. his hands fly to your waist to ensure he doesn't topple you over.

you would have gotten up like nothing happened, and maybe apologized, but during the scuffle you felt something hard and warm through your skirt. johnny's nose is tucked in the nape of your neck when you fully realize your predicament.

as you sputter out his name to call him out, you feel his lips smile against your back. his hands loosen momentarily, but don't pull away.

"uh, sorry, doll," he mumbles into your skin, not sounding all too apologetic. "pretty girls in dresses just... gets me goin'."

"i'm not pretty," you mutter, averting your gaze. johnny lifts his head and looks at your reflection incredulously.

"you're joking, right?" johnny replies, brows furrowed. "babe, look at yourself." he grabs your jaw from behind and angles your vision on your body. "i didn't know you were carrying all this. i almost want t'take you out and get you a whole new wardrobe just to get you out of those garbage bags you're always in. pardon my french doll, but you're fuckin' hot." as he speaks, his hand snakes down your throat, your shoulder, and then settling firmly on your hip, not even hiding the brief sweep he made against the flesh of your chest.

you're left staring in awe. he was always charming around you, but never outright flirting. you glance toward the curtain; what if someone heard all this? you swallow thickly, moving back to look at johnny apprehensively. he's biting his lower lip, suddenly thrusting more against your body, letting a shaky breath as his face is now buried in the crook of your neck as he tries to hold it together.

"you got me all riled up seeing you in that, you know," he warns you in a husky voice that dampens your panties. "so you can't say you aren't pretty. feel what you did to me." the air feels intensely different than it was when you guys were just friends. he's confessing something he'd implied to feel for quite some time, but you never envisioned the day it'd come to fruition. you can't really say you were complaining when he pulls your hips toward him, letting him use your ass to grind down on ever so slightly. your stillness throws him off for a moment, and he looks up at you through the mirror with concerned eyes. "you don't seem into this. i can stop."

"n-no!" you yelp out, sounding a little more desperate that you'd like to admit. "this is okay."

"just okay?"

"well, no, but - i'm sorry, i don't know what to say."

"do you want me to stop?"

"...no."

"good girl."

he presses a little harder against you, keeping you upright and stopping your knees from buckling with his rough hands. abruptly filled with a primal hunger, johnny tugs the long flowing skirt up in bunches, gripping it tightly to get a glorious view of your ass. this interaction was not prepared for, so you couldn't help but feel flustered when your boyshort panties are fully on display. johnny just chuckles to himself as he grabs a shameless handful of one of your asscheeks anyway, squeezing hard enough to leave red prints behind. you bite down on your lips to stop any noise from coming out, but a moan of surprise slips through.

johnny wraps one arm around your midsection for stability, and the other flies up to your lips to hold his palm over your mouth.

"if you want this, you're gonna stay quiet, is that clear?" he growls into your ear, head tilted toward you but eyes fixated on your reflection's eyes. all you can do is nod. "i'll show you how fuckin' pretty you are."

he slides your panties down with ease, expelling a shaky groan when he watches a trail of your wetness follow the fabric. his cock is swiftly freed from his dress pants and he slides his throbbing tip against your folds, creating a sopping sound to the trained ear. if the store was quiet enough, the entire building would know how soaked you were for your best friend. all you can do is whimper and gasp as your noises are muffled by his hand. johnny leans forward and gently shushes you, lips brushing against your ear.

"you can do it, princess," he assures you in that husky voice before holding intense eye contact in the mirror. "you look so good like this, don't you think?"

your pupils were blown out and your cheeks were stained a deep red as you're bent over for the actor. you didn't feel pretty, still. you felt... needy.

you pressed back against his cock, and it slips between your folds before catching on your aching hole, making you twitch. the sloppy friction makes johnny moan against your skin as he hungrily matches your movements. he slides his hand down and toys with your clit, wetting the area with your own juices which seems to be plentiful. he sticks two fingers inside, not bothering to ease you into the process at all. he needs you now, and if "now" is in a clothing store, then so be it. your pussy burns from the sudden stretching, but you take it because it makes him happy to see how eager you are for him.

"i should've put you in a dress sooner," he mutters, hazy eyes staring right through you as he relishes in the way your walls embrace his fingers. "you look beautiful, my dear. angelic. i wanna ruin you so bad, baby, but i can't. not here." his words already bring you closer, but as you feel the tension building inside he leaves you empty and sopping... but not for long.

his tip slides in with ease, and he has to bite down on your bare shoulder to stop himself from losing it entirely. it's the first time in a long time a pussy has been too good for him. he's stuck his dick anywhere and everywhere, but you take the cake. his bite deepens when he slowly but surely bottoms out, his own knees buckling at your gorgeous insides.

"mmf, so fucking good," he groans into your flesh, eyes clenching shut. "my pretty girl. all mine, yeah?" you nod lazily, too entranced in the fact that his cock is buried inside of you. you'd had sex before, but it had been quite some time. years. and his dick just felt impossibly big.

"i could stay like this forever," he mumbles, almost forgetting to thrust. you remind him quickly when you shake your ass needily. "ah, but i shouldn't. you deserve to feel good."

he pulls out slowly, admiring the thin coat of juice painting his shaft before thrusting back in. he's careful to move just enough to hit deep, but not enough to make the slapping sound too obvious.

"there you go," johnny encourages you as he starts to slowly pump into you. "you take me so well, so pretty with my dick buried in you."

you almost wanted to pinch yourself to see if you were dreaming. just yesterday, he was your duo in your favorite game. and now, he was fucking into you in public. the thought makes you dizzy and you have a hard time keeping your head upright, that is, until johnny pulls your face up to the mirror again, still muffling you with his palm. you want to say you're the one enjoying it most, but that might be johnny. his once cocky demeanor is now down the drain as he fights for his life to not cum with every second of friction. you were just so good, he's already pussydrunk. he seems to be living in his own heaven when he lazily peppers kisses and licks all around your back, neck, and shoulders, breathy whimpers and moans warming your skin up nicely.

his thrusts grow increasingly sloppy as he completely loses himself against you. his eyes are swapping between you and him in the mirror as he admires your wetness dripping down your thighs and splattering against his own front. he would be mad you were ruining his nice clothes, but he's just going to buy another suit with you anyway.

"you wanna cum on me, doll?" he huffs into your ear, letting go of his fear of the slapping noise and now progressively slamming into you harder and harder. "let me feel it, baby, i'm real close."

johnny's arms readjust, one snaking under your armpit and over your shoulder, and the other rhythmically swirling circles against your clit. what once was hungry groans is now turning into needy whimpers from the both of you as you cum simultaneously. your lower half feels warm as he cums deep inside of you, watching it drip and splatter out with every finishing thrust. your vision becomes tunneled as you see stars, head thrown back as each throb from the orgasm makes you forget you're in public entirely.

he holds you both there for a moment, breathing in your damp skin. you both feel dazed, but incredibly satisfied. johnny kisses your cheek from behind, dancing his way to the corner of your mouth and then captures your lips in a messy, brief kiss.

"you know i didn't need a dress to want you that bad, right?" johnny asks against your lips, his fingers brushing against your bare thighs. "i really do think you're beautiful. always have."

you nod, taking in a quick inhale of breath to gather yourself. "i wasn't sure before."

"well, i hope you are now," johnny chuckles, and kisses you again. "at least, i hope so - hey, hey -" the embrace stops as he steps back and notices his semen dripping down your leg. "don't get that on the carpet. and definitely don't get that on the dress. we're buying that one for the red carpet-" he checks his watch. "-that we're late to. shit."

he doesn't really regret it.

#mortal kombat #mortal kombat x reader #johnny cage #mk1 #johnny cage x reader #johnny cage smut #marley writes ☆

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sunnnfish · 1 year

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Due to the mental anguish I am rambling about tbhk. I WAS going to put this under a readmore but that keeps breaking the post on mobile so. Im sorry. Tons of spoilers for chapter 99. And like the whole series. You know how it is.

I feel like I need to make an itemized list because there’s so fucking much I need to talk about right now

The violence and parallels to tsukasa. I mean who can forget tsukasa prying mitsubas mouth open to feed him number 3s heart. Who knows what tsukasa’s intentions were but they weren’t necessarily bad— as we know now mitsuba needs to eat to survive plus number 3 was like a pretty big power boost that would keep him together for a longer time. So he likely just wanted mitsuba to live comfortably. BUT ALSO there’s the beginning of the chapter where tsukasa tells mitsuba to dig the heart out himself vs kou who gets it for him. Anyways. With kou here it clearly came from a similar place of wanting mitsuba to not disappear. There’s a desperation to it and fear and it’s one I personally actually know quite well. I’ve dealt with friends refusing to eat and take care of themselves and it is a violent frustrating feeling that just ends with crying after the anger fades. There’s a lot of confusion like. Why do you not care about yourself as much as I care about you. Anyways. His actions make a lot of sense to me bc I have felt and done the exact same things.

Me core ^

and THEN there’s mitsubas feelings of wanting to be fucking exorcised and going to the fucking minamoto household to do it there’s so much here hang on. Like. I think he went to the minamoto house for some sliver of hope. If he wanted to for sure disappear he probably could’ve waited it out or something better but he went to the place where, depending on who answered the door, he’d either die or be faced with fucking. Kou minamoto. And the fact the he chose to reveal himself to kou it’s like. Did you really want to disappear. Did you really. And then taking him out on a fucking date basically like. You don’t want to disappear do you. You just don’t want to be. This. He wants to be human. He wants someone who will understand him and. And. Kou so readily accepts and understands him. Even the parts he thinks are ugly or unworthy. Fuck.

AND THEN. Kous feeling of inadequacy and fearing that mitsuba trusts tsukasa more than him and connecting to the vision he saw in the red house. Whether he accepts it or not he wants mitsuba to need him. The red house showed him a mitsuba who told him that he needs kou that he wants kou to be a supernatural with him and he brushes it away knowing mitsuba would never say that to him. He tells himself that mitsuba would never trust him or want him like that but he wants it to be real and he’s still hurt when the real mitsuba won’t open up to him. And it all comes back to his overall self worth issues of wanting to be strong and dependable and worthy.

AND this is all under the context of Teru finally letting kou have some responsibility and telling him to go exorcise the low level spirit that came near their home and AaaaaAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUU. KOU MINAMOTO……..

God its just. Kou minamoto cares about mitsuba so so so much and neither of them completely understand the gravity of it all. Also at this point hes said like 3 times that mitsuba is the root of all his worries. ALSO dont even get me started on the art and expressions this chapter. It’s so gorgeous like as always but. God. Also the keychains. Im gonna[blaring truck horn]

ALSO the way mitsuba says at the end like ‘you’d be lonely without me’ or whatever and kou almost looks shocked for a second like. Oh. And its like he thinks about it more and cries more because yeah, he would be lonely. He’s been lonely. Mitsuba somehow inexplicably became like his closest friend that knows everything about him and god he was lonely when mitsuba disappeared. The first time and the second. And he’s barely had time to process any of it because to everyone else around him mitsuba doesnt really. Matter. And because kou is so kind he is always putting everyone else’s problems in front of his own. The severance happens and it becomes a journey to help nene bring hanako and aoi back—next to no mention mitsuba aside from the leads to the red house, much less trying to find and save him too. The whole time theyre in the boundary to the far shore its all about hanako and nene and number 6. And there’s STILL the conversation about how to become a supernatural that he brought up with nene but noooooo we cant ever know anything about what kou wants. And like. It all comes back around this chapter because he so so selfishly wants mitsuba to live. One of the only things he lets himself want. And it aches. God. I wish i was any good or natural at prose writing because god the things i would write about minamoto kou. AND TO TOP IT OFF HES LIKE FUCKING 14 YEARS OLD…. Okay. Okay im done.

#the power kou minamoto has over me to make me want to chop all my hair off. i WONT. but.#god. kou minamoto and mitsuba sousuke you guys make me feel undocumented emotions #anyways #tbhk #jshk #toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shounen hanako kun #kou minamoto #minamoto kou #mitsuba sousuke #sousuke mitsuba #sunnfish.tbhk #sunnfish.jshk #sunnfish.txt #why cant i write this much on like. academic papers #sigh #I’ve been writing this for like an hour btw #long post

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echo-of-sounds · 2 years

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chronic illness/physical disability

How Aizawa, Toshinori, and Fatgum would help and support their partner who's physically disabled/has a chronic illness.

I really wanted to write these because I see so few posts for readers with physical issues. It's always about mental issues. And like with my other headcanons, I can mostly only speak to my experiences. It'd be impossible for me to try to encompass every illness and physical disability as there are just way too many.

Warnings: a bunch of medical stuff and a little about past not-so-great relationships, but it's all rather vague

Aizawa Shouta

At the beginning of your relationship or before you started dating, Shouta didn’t think much about your physical and/or chronic illnesses. They’re a part of you, and like with all other parts of your life, he accepts it when he decides he wants to be in a relationship with you. He’ll also educate himself on whatever you’re dealing with, so he isn’t an ignorant boyfriend.

He knows you don't need him to survive. You survived your life without him until this point. You don't need someone pestering you about meds. If you thought a heating pad would help, you'd get it or ask him to. He's there to help you when you need it, not be overly motherly. The times you do need help to get breakfast or to grab your afternoon meds, of course, he'll help, bringing you a light snack and ginger ale as well to get something in your stomach. (If he's home. He's busy and sadly isn't home most of the week.)

He doesn't judge or demonize the number of medications you need. It doesn't mean you’re drug-seeking or make you some sort of nightmare to deal with. If anything, they help by limiting your pain, discomfort, anxiety, and other symptoms. He’s rather indifferent to those that vilify the use of meds, no matter the amount. Some people need them to survive. It’s a fact.

One part he hates the most is how you think and talk about yourself. No, you're not useless. No, you're not a burden or shameful or disgusting, or unlovable. Simply existing with a mobility aid isn't taking up space. Needing help to fold the sheets isn't belittling. Asking for help isn't weak. Wearing pajamas for four days doesn't make you gross. You're struggling. You're sick. It doesn't matter what you get done in a day because you still have value by just being here. Yes, even the times you can't do things because of your disability. Caring, thought-out words do not come easy to him, but he certainly tries his hardest for you.

Chronic illnesses and physical disabilities leave you with a rather complicated relationship with your body. You feel okayish on Monday, fine for the most part on Wednesday, then completely hate how it's unable to function on Friday. You glare at all the injection and laparoscopic scars. And cuddling doesn't help when you feel physically gross, body cramping, sweating, making sounds you don't want to hear, let alone your goddamn partner. It's just embarrassing.

But Shouta isn't needlessly judgemental. Some things are simply out of your control. Surgery scars, implanted ports, ostomies, and splints are all things that have improved your health or saved your life. None of them are bad or ugly, and he hates feeling you curl away from him during one of those bad days. He resists pulling you back and asks if you want to talk. He may not be the best at reciprocating the delicate conversation, but the warm hand holding your side lets you know he’s there to listen to all the fears and anxieties.

While Sho’s spent some time in hospitals/at doctor’s appointments, they aren’t things he’s dealt with for prolonged periods for ongoing issues. Dealing with shitty doctors is a new experience for him. And it’s worse because it isn’t him dealing with it, it’s you. Getting a call from you at two on a Wednesday, crying your eyes out because of how little this ‘specialist’ cared about your problems and pain, ticks him off. He can’t just leave his work, but he tries to hurry home after, worried about how the third appointment like this’ll affect your mental health, possibly spiraling your depression further.

A horrible side effect of dealing with chronic physical problems is how it causes and worsens mental health. You have to spend literally years listening to people claim the disabled are just collateral damage, not worth saving. Chronic exhaustion, like the name implies, is fucking exhausting to deal with. People don't understand it. They think it’s ‘just being tired’ when it’s neverending joint and muscle pain, bodily weakness, brain fog, confusion, and you physically cannot get out of bed for fear of collapsing in the hall. They throw out lame 'advice' of "Try working out!" or compare it to depression when they’re two completely separate issues. It wears you down after years and years, leaving you hopeless and suicidal on the worst days.

Shouta can relate to this a bit. While his tiredness comes from a mental health angle from the combo of two jobs, stress, and general insomnia, and while it isn't the same as chronic fatigue, he does understand the struggles. It's hard to function when everything inside you is just too fucking exhausted. And all the annoying, unsolicited advice about 'taking melatonin' or 'trying coffee' only makes you want to throw something at their face because 'no, a fucking massage won't help and your essential oils are more than useless.'

He quickly becomes an angry partner. Not towards you or in an abusive/negative way. It’s towards other people, possibly snapping at the nosy woman who asked why you need a wheelchair if you can technically walk or at the doctor who brushed off you fainting for the third day in a row as a period issue. It surprises him a little just how angry he can be at others over you.

Before you do anything sexual together, Sho's gonna need to talk with you. He's naturally rather rough, and he doesn't want to risk hurting you with a position that'll subluxate your knee or make him penetrate too harshly. It’ll definitely take some exploring to find what’s best and pleasurable for both of you.

Though, that conversation can open up a can of worms he wasn't exactly expecting. Certain people just don’t understand how physical issues impact sex. Having one of those people as a past partner leaves lasting impressions. They made you feel bad when you couldn’t have sex for over a month, say it's unfair like you're punishing them, and act like their sexual satisfaction is more important than your physical and mental health. And when you are ready, it hurts, so you have to stop, making them mad all over again because "you should be able to push through the pain." Sho comforts you through the sensitive reminiscing, promising he’ll never be like that and that your comfort is always his priority.

Sex can also be embarrassing. You have to stop because of sudden lower GI issues. Or he'll pull out to see thick, black discharge on him despite not being on your period. He tells you to stop with the apologies. They're unnecessary. Your body works differently, maybe wrong, but you don't need to apologize for needing to stop. Your health is more important. Besides, if he really needs to get off, he can just do it himself. It's not a big deal to him.

Yagi Toshinori

Toshinori’s disabled, missing organs, and deals with the same chronic pain and vomiting. He understands the struggles of physical health issues and how different and agonizing they are compared to mental health problems. And when his flared up, he had no one. He pushed through it no matter how badly his stomach hurt, no matter how nauseous or lightheaded or disgusting he felt, and no matter how much he dry-heaved in an alley till his ribs strained.

It's difficult to know how much to share about your symptoms, particularly at the beginning of the relationship. Share too much, you might scare them off by appearing like you're too much trouble to deal with. Share too little, you risk overexerting yourself by hiding symptoms, especially the 'uglier' ones. Thankfully, Toshi makes it pretty easy to talk to him about anything. He's kind, patient, and with his injuries, has his fair share of symptoms. Depending on yours and how open you're comfortable being, he'll understand if you slowly talk about it, symptom by symptom, as the relationship grows, or if you just want to flat-out say your diagnosis(es) to get it over with.

Since he has to pay attention to his diet so, it's natural for him to also pay attention to his partner’s. It's not a judgmental thing. It's him making sure you've eaten recently and had enough water. When he cooks, he'll always place some aside for later for you. It can become nearly impossible to cook or prepare food during flair-ups, so if having casserole leftovers or finger sandwiches in the fridge helps get something nutritional into you, then he'll gladly do it.

One of his go-to ways to help is to offer to go for a walk. Who knows? After a long day of laying on the couch, some cool evening air might help. But he also knows not to push you too far. If you truly can't, then that's okay. If you can only make it to the end of the block or ten minutes, that's okay too. You tried. If you get outside and realize that it does help, he'll walk for another forty minutes if it's what you decide.

He's great with doctor appointments! He's suffered through enough of them, and he's more than willing to accompany you to one. The only thing that'll throw a wrench in his experience is how some doctors ignore your problems, even if it causes you significant distress. It'd take a reminder that he's a Hero, and used to be the top Hero of the country. Of course, doctors took his issues seriously. For others, it can take numerous appointments to find one doctor to listen to you. And it's always worse if you weren't born a man, overweight by the slightest amount, and/or have mental health issues as doctors like brushing things off as anxiety or weight problems, or flat-out ignoring you if it's related to your uterus, not bothering to mark anything down or refer you for any tests.

Toshi isn't above seeking out a highly-regarded doctor for you. He's seen his fair share of specialists and will ask around, maybe even pulling the "Yes, I'm All Might. Yes, they're my partner" to get you in faster. It's not about making you feel incapable, but more so about making sure you can get the proper care you need from someone willing to give it. He loves you and hates watching you suffer in any way. He won't stand for anyone ignoring or dismissing you.

After sitting in the damn MRI machine for longer than you prepared for and dealing with all the anxiety while you wait for the follow-up, you're left looking at a picture of your brain littered with so many white matter abnormalities it looks like a fucking dalmatian, mirroring stroke patients brains. Then they tell you how infarct-like lesions increase your chances of a stroke and that migraines may cause structural changes in the brain, and you just shut down for the rest of the day, dissociating away from the scary words — they too many horrible possibilities in your future that you don't want to think about.

Then it gets worse because your illness(es) gets worse, or you're diagnosed with another thing that affects all your other things. You feel stuck in your own damn body, barely able to function even with handfuls of medications, becoming bedridden if you accidentally miss a dose or the pharmacy or insurance company messes up.

Toshi's dealt with those low odds, those shitty feelings, and the self-hatred. You feel like it's somehow your fault — like you're a moral failure. Maybe if you did something different, ate different foods, lived someplace else, took different vitamins, life would just be different. But you can't know the answer to that. You're here, and you have to deal with the problems. And he'll always do his best to support you. He can't take the pain away or fix whatever's wrong in your GI system, but he will always support you, pulling from his own experiences to help.

Occasionally, it feels impossible to feel good in any way. If you're struggling for a long while, Toshi offers sex as a means to help. It isn't a straightforward question. He’s a shade too timid for that. It’s him helping you wash up in the shower after spending three days stuck in bed. You can relax as he softly runs the soap over your body, carefully massaging your sides, your breasts, your clit among the suds. You're always able to say no, no reason necessary. He knows physical health impacts libido. But sometimes, getting those endorphins running is what’s needed to stop the pain. If you want to continue, he lays in bed with you, between your legs, softly sucking your clit till you find a calming release. Sometimes, it leads to more. Sometimes, it doesn't. He doesn't care much either way. He only hopes you'll get a bit of relief.

Penetrative sex can be uncomfortable, if not nearly impossible. You worry you're never going to experience painless sex and be able to enjoy the intimacy you want with the man you love. If you go to pelvic floor therapy or have exercises, he'd be happy and very willing to get involved. Yeah, it might be embarrassing the first few times, but his want to make sure sex is enjoyable for you overrides all that. He may even surprise you with a higher quality dilater set (something he'd easily drop three-hundred dollars for) or treat you to a loving and newly-learned pelvic floor massage, nearly making you cry because for once in your life, sex is fun and painless.

Toyomitsu Taishiro

While Taishiro wouldn't call any of his physical issues an illness or disability per se (rather negative side effects from his quirk), he understands chronic pain and how badly one's body can just suck. His pain flares the most after expelling his stored energy, which leaves him weak, swollen, and exhausted. He also gets joint pain quite a bit, particularly in his hips and knees. His quirk allows his body to work in different ways, but that doesn't mean it's immune to the cracks, bone grinding, and bodily wear and tear.

However, most don't know about that part of his life and quirk. He isn't open to the general public about that. As you get closer, he begins to share his struggles. It can come as a bit of relief knowing that the man you’re interested in also deals with physical issues, allowing for a deeper understanding and connection of each other’s problems and feelings.

Tai also understands how shitty offhanded comments and generalizations people make are, especially if you're visibly disabled in the slightest of ways. If you’re breathing too hard, too pale, too slow, or too “fussy,” people feel the need to draw attention to it like it’s somehow inconveniencing or insulting them on a personal level. He received more than his fair share about his weight growing up. Though, for him, they've mostly stopped now that he's a fairly well-known Hero.

But again, that just shows how people won't complain about, mock, or chastise you/your disability if you're deemed useful and never complain about your symptoms. If you're not, then you're weak or not trying hard enough or lazy or a hindrance, or a moocher. They'd rather you be invisible than accommodate you in any way.

It's hard to internalize others' love when you know what you used to be: top-of-the-class honor student, taking four classes, able to juggle all the homework and essays while working a job on the side. But now? Now, you're stuck in bed. On a good day, you can take a shower, throw the clothes in the washer, and maybe get the dishes done before you collapse onto the bed again, timing when you get up for a snack and go to the bathroom with when your meds are due to make one trip.

Like Toshi, Tai does his best to support you. He can’t fathom the exact pain and disappointment you feel with everything going on, but he stays beside you the entire time. And he never judges the "gross" symptoms skin or GI issues cause or makes you hide your suffering for his comfort. If you're in pain, tell him. Just like you always do your best to help him after a fight or nightmare, he gets a warm bath going or heats your rice pack. Whatever your pain management is, he does it, laying down beside you for some cuddling.

Since his professional life is far less busy than the other two, he has more off time, meaning he has much more time to spend with you. It’s perfect if doctor visits are difficult or intimidating. New doctors are always the worst. You worry if they'll take anything seriously. The horrible ones leave you hopeless, scared life will be uncomfortable, painful, and debilitating. The truly terrible ones can leave you suicidal, preferring to not even be here if the rest of your life is going to be this shitty. He may not be the most experienced in handling those low moments, but he tries. His priorities are making sure you're comfortable, preferably beside him or bundled in his lap, and seeing that you're safe as you ride out the upheaving, distressful feelings.

On the other hand, he's great support for any surgeries and procedures you need. Those thirty-one Botox shots to your head are scary? He's in the neurologist’s office with you, reminding you to breathe and relax your muscles. Need a colonoscopy/endoscopy to explore nearly your entire GI tract? Well, he won't be able to fast with you, but he can make you some delicious chicken broth to drink. Need yet another pelvic exam, or worse, an endometrial or cervical biopsy, and just hearing them describe the procedure is nearly enough to make you faint? Yeah, he's in the room with you, rubbing your arm, letting you squeeze his hand as hard as you need through the long needles, punching and pinching, and way-too-heavy pressure.

A CT scan, two-hour-long MRI/MRA scans that make your head feel oddly, uncomfortably warm, transvaginal ultrasounds that hurt but you have to sit through, transesophageal echocardiogram, biopsies, spinal taps, the procedures go on. They’re difficult to deal with one by one, especially if your relationship with doctors is not the healthiest, but to deal with them all within a few months of each other is grueling, if not debilitating, to your mental health, let alone your physical.

Tai knows he can't go in with you during every procedure. Some have radiation exposure. Others need a sterile environment. But he will be right beside you when you wake up or come out, maybe surprising you with a cute, new stuffed bunny, and he'll treat you to some pancakes to help you regain yourself after. If it was a particularly taxing test, he's a little extra snuggly once home, which is exactly why he likes to take the day off in case you need extra loving after.

He loves adventurous dates: amusement parks, festivals, concerts, and fairs. It might take one or two for it to sink in how much they affect you, whether it be how hard it is for you to walk, needing places to rest, or how inaccessible they are, only having stairs and tight walkways to get around. He learns quickly. Whenever it's his turn to pick the place or if he wants to surprise you, he checks their reviews or scopes the place out to see if it's actually accessible. You deserve to have the same fun and experiences as others do.

If your ability to have painless and/or enjoyable sex is compromised, penetrative sex simply may never be an option. He's big, and if using your fingers is borderline painful, then he won't risk penetration. He isn't upset. He's more so at a loss for making sure you both feel good together. It'll take some working out and trial and error. Oral, mutual masturbation, and you laying on your back while he slides in between your thighs, letting you stroke yourself as he does, are the easiest ways to enjoy each other. If you're having some pain-free days, he may try fingering you and maybe, maybe PIV penetration if you're really wanting it and confident in trying. He's slower and gentler than ever as he massages you, stretches you, licks you till he slides in.

#aizawa shouta #aizawa x reader #all might #all might x reader #yagi toshinori #toshinori x reader #fatgum #fatgum x reader #taishiro toyomitsu #taishiro toyomitsu x reader #aizawa headcanons #all might headcanons #fatgum headcanons #bnha #bnha x reader #bnha headcanons

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kim hongjoong nsfw a-z

18+!! mdni!!!

tumblr is fuckin ugly on mobile & duplicates shit idk how to fix it but if u do lmk >> anyways a lil smth til i get more motivation </3 im working on a masterlist rn & im debating if i should jus post it and edit it later </3 anyways doing all the members for this bit hopefully finished by the end of the week ^.^ enjoy<3

a ⋆ aftercare

not the type to be too crazy and loving after sex, of course wants to clean up but i think he'd also be the type to kinda wanna wind down post-sex in his own mental so would probably just clean up and lay with you quietly, depending on his mood and how much he is in his head or not, you might get lucky with some affection

b ⋆ body part (his favorite body part)

ok i know i said he was an ass man, but now im like . thighs. i could see him being a thighs guy, or even tummy </3 bye i could see him giving soft ass kisses on ur tummy </3

c ⋆ cum (anything to do with cum)

idk why but i cant see him being the type to like coming inside often, but if he did he would make it worth it. would probably hold off on sex for a while just to make sure he'd give you it all. other times would probably come on your tummy or ass depending.

d ⋆ dirty secret (his dirty secret)

why do i feel like he'd be curious about getting a footjob LOL and i will Not Elaborate unless asked. Other than that . WOULD Love when you top, but he's to prideful to admit he likes it when you do

e ⋆ experience (how experienced is he?)

average? LOL like not crazy experienced but not clueless either, but also picky who he opens up to sexually - a lot of trust and interest needs to be involved

f ⋆ fav position (sex position)

as ive said before- speed bump!!!!!!! && idk the name for this but the position where like his lovers head would be hanging over the bed and he'd fuck their mouth YEAHHH i could see him really enjoying that <//3

g ⋆ goofy (how he acts in the moment)

probably during foreplay he'd be a little goofy depending on comfortablity, but for the most part likes to be pretty serious and intimate. i feel like he'd be the type to say smth super cheesy like "sex is an energy exchange" LMFAO so he'd probably keep it pretty serious in the moment

h ⋆ hair (how groomed is he?)

i dont think he's hairless, definitely trimmed and groomed

i ⋆ intimacy (how passionate is he?)

hm this man is a scorpio so i hate to fall into that stereotype they're super like freaky and passionate but i do think he is - but only if he's all about you - like a tunnel vision type of love. you can see how charasmatic and passionate he is in terms of music and performing and i think that would translate into the bedroom if he feels like you're the only one for him

j ⋆ jack off (how often he masturbates)

i dont think he's the type to be horndog 24/7 but probably 1-2 times every other week idk horomones are weird </3

k ⋆ kink (one or more)

ORGASM CONTROL. i feel like even though his personality seems very colorful and wild or open-minded, in the bedroom he likes structure and being the one to call the shots and this definitely reflects in how much your orgasming and if he's letting you - maybe breathplay and some biting

l ⋆ location (fav place to do it)

not too keen on exhibitionism, so the bedroom/home is where it stays but if he's too eager for you then he doesnt mind somewhere more open

m ⋆ motivation (what keeps him going)

LOVES LOVES LOVES how reactive you are during sex to whatever he gives you, and loves that your honest about it, would be the type to stop in the middle of something if you're not giving your normal "feedback" and would ask where he needs to touch you or if he needs to go faster or slower

o ⋆ oral (giving + receiving — is he good?)

likes both equally but loves when you go down on him, refer to fav position bullet point >> loves seeing him bulge in your throat, enough said.

p ⋆ pace (fast and rough? slow and sensual?)

prefers to start off slow and hard and gradually pick up pace from there >> if you guys are in missionary though, definitely takes him time with being slow and sensual

q ⋆ quickie (his opinion on it + how often they happen)

since he'd prefer more at home/in the bedroom environment i dont think quickies would happen often unless you guys went a long time without seeing each other and were just too eager

r ⋆ risks (is he willing to experiment, does he take risks, etc.)

would be open to experimenting some in the beginning of a relationship, but could see him falling into a routine and feeling comfortable in that.

s ⋆ stamina (how long can he last?)

probably two rounds MAX, but i think he'd be the type to wanna get you off first as much as possible before he has his way with you, would wanna edge you a lot first so you both could cum together

t ⋆ toys (does he use/own any?)

nahhh, would probably get you a dildo or a vibrator or something to use when you guys are away and wanna have phone sex >> but no matter the distance, mans is still in charge

u ⋆ unfair (how much does he tease?)

a menace, i definitely feel like he's a mean tease in public and likes seeing you embarassed or flustered so would be mean nonstop but fear not! behind closed doors, he loses some composure after seeing how riled up you are for him

v ⋆ volume (how loud is he + what noises does he make?)

dont really see him as whiny (at least all the time), but i do think he's a moaner, and definitely dirty talks but only if you guys are in close proximity and he can say it in your ear type vibe. i definitely think he would risk it all if it means getting to have you in his studio and letting him record yalls session(? LOL) >> feels confident in his own volume and moans to wanna incorporate it into something for later + he'd love to flex knowing his lover (you) sounds so good <333

w ⋆ wild card (random headcanon for him)

oh . dont even get me started . for one, i think this man is super into making out or just kissing in general. i definitely think he falls apart if you suck on his tongue in the middle of a makeout session 1000%

x ⋆ x-ray (what’s under his clothes?)

not thaaaaat big (but got some girth to him) and knows it </3 but makes up for it everywhere else >> might be insecure abt it in the beginning of a relationship

y ⋆ yearning (how high is his sex drive?)

dont see him the type to be clingy a lot and doting on a lover all the time, especially because he does have that "work now play later" vibe so i think itd really be like once a week or so but would make it a whole scene (foreplay, teasing, edging, etc.)

z ⋆ zzz (how quickly does he sleep after?)

dont think he'd fall asleep quick but not have much energy afterwards, probably stay up long enough to clean up and come down from post-nut state and then end up cuddling up with you

#ateez #ateez smut #ateez x reader #kim hongjoong x reader #hongjoong x reader #kim hongjoong smut #hongjoong smut #park seonghwa #jeong yunho #kang yeosang #choi san #song mingi #jung wooyoung #choi jungho

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Retrospective 2023 (2)

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2023 has been a rollercoaster of stuff, with some very high-highs, and some pretty low-lows. Things have been pretty busy this year, then got busier and weirder. I didn't manage to do things I wanted to do, ending up doing a lot of different things instead. This year was kinda the perfect storm to do all those new stuff and experimentation I've published.

It's been good, it's been bad, it's been ugly, and it's been cool. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Long post ahead - breaking here.

Goals for 2023

Last year, I made big-ass post about what I hoped to achieved during those next 12 months. The main one being: Get things off my desk and shelf it for good! The goal was to finish WIPs and remasters of "completed" projects.

And I... somewhat did that? But also... did whatever. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Taking the list of the "plan":

Goncharov Escapes! was: re-written, re-coded, and translated (to French). The new version also now includes music!

La Petite Mort was: re-written, added content, and translated (to English) for this year's Ectocomp. It just need one more or two things tho

The demo of P-Rix - Space Trucker is now playable on mobile! (and the template based on the game is out too)

The Trials and Tribulations of Edward Harcourt didn't get just one but TWO updates last year!

A bunch of templates! 5 to be exact: 3 focused more on visuals (Sci-Fi, VN, Title), and the other 2 more on code (Setting, Charac Creator).

So... what's extra? Well... a lot. Maybe too much...

A lot of new titles under my name: DOL-OS, The Rye in the Dark City (wip), The Roads not Taken, À la Campagne, Entre-d'oeuf coquilles/An Eggcellent Preparation, Collision, Intersigne, Clarence Street 14, The Dinner, In the Blink of an Eye, Tower of Sleep, and Dévoiement. From bite-size to full large game, that makes TWELVE new thing this year! I... may have gone a bit overboard with this...

Aside from the template, I've also worked on the SugarCube Guide, a guide that covers all markup, macros, functions, methods, and APIs of the SugarCube format. From the basics to the very advanced code ~ Which will receive another update when the 2.37 comes out for real.

After the @seedcomp-if, I continued to organised more IF events: Neo-Twiny Jam, Single Choice Jam, Orifice Jam, Bring Out Your Ghost, Bare-Bones Jam, ShuffleComp... and helped out other events (the IFComp, y'all!).

I've been a tad less active on the Tumblr front lately, mainly because I've hung out more on the Forum or the @neointeractives Discord. But I've been plenty active reviewing games, especially since last May (@manonamora-if-reviews). The count is over 300 now...

I made a zine?????

So yeah... A LOT this year. (and there would have been more had I not gotten sick...)

2023 Achievements and Milestones

There were probably a bunch of itch/analytics milestones this year, but... I've tried to stay away from numbers as much as I could, because I realised it was a source of anxiety. I want to make games for fun, not worry that I haven't achieved a certain play level by a certain date. So I've even edited my itch's dashboard to hide it all. (I'm still updating the analytics sheet once in a while tho) And anyway... nothing will ever be as popular as CRWL, even when I'm trying to push other - and much better imo - games down everyone's throats.

Some other stats on itch:

22 [total] games on itch (incl. the experiments & demos) we're getting closer to my goal of 1 game/birthdays

9 free-to-use prompts

7 free-to-use templates

3 coding guides

1 zine

I also participated in 22 different jams and comps, almost always using one game for multiple jams at once (I'm crazy, but not that crazy). I ranked pretty high on multiple jams, which I am really happy about, and got some amazing reviews and lovely comments. A bunch of my games from 2022 were nominated for the IFDB Awards (and two were mentioned in the Top50 IF too)! (maybe next time I'll get a spot too !)

But the major thing coming out of it all was winning a big competition too, with DOL-OS at the start of the year. Holy shit, did that make my year. I really wasn't expecting it because so many of the games that year were incredible! This was such a confidence booster! I think that's my biggest achievement this year. (I just finished the puzzle I won too, and that was loads of fun) I am so so so proud of that game, especially after releasing the remaster.

Some non-numerical achievements I'm happy about:

I continued experimenting this year, with non-linear stories (DOL-OS), shorter and more kinetic content (Neo-Interactive jam entries), and... well... a thing. The experimentation included trying out other programs to make game too!

Speaking of the thing... I've made a monster of a Twine, creating a bad (oh so bad in convention) parser... which I still haven't finished fixing. I talked at length about here.

I've made an actual proper parser game, following the conventions of the medium... and enjoyed it a lot. From creating puzzles to solving the puzzle that was coding it. It didn't rank super high, but it got some good reactions! Making a parser strangely helped me playing them, and appreciate them more.

Has it been a lot of stuff? Yeah... it feels a bit like a lot...

Some 2023 personal things

Like last year, I've continued to struggle with feeling like I was not doing enough during the year (or the month, before doing the monthly dev logs). Not enough words written or progress made. It was a pervasive thing last year, and I've been working on myself to feel less so, especially with all I've been doing anyway this year. But it's still there.

I think I recently found one of the reasons I've been feeling this way: not working on or finishing the WIPs I started with back in 2021 and in 2022, not making substantial progress that would warrant an update... It's been especially hard when seeing other authors churn out updates left and right and I have little to nothing to show for. Maybe that's why I've been compensating with all the new little projects and jam entries throughout the year (and half-way through 2022). I mean... there hasn't been a month where I didn't publish something new, whether it was an update, or a new game, or a template/guide, or brought out a whole-ass remaster of a game.

And by working on those other little things, I think I found myself in some sort of cycle, where the time spent on those new things is not spent on the WIPs, and I start feeling bad about it. But when I open the file, with all that pressure I put myself, nothing gets written or fixed. So I distract myself with a different thing... and I end up not making any progress on the WIP. It sucks, because I want to see those WIPs done. I want to finish those stories. But it's been hard. Who'd have thunk it??? I'm a stupid human being after all ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I know breaking that cycle will happen... when I work on those darn WIPs. I just need to push myself to get there... But I also want to enjoy what I am writing too, because the quality of the writing really sucks when I force it... So silliness has been happening in the meantime.

Will it continue like this? In the near future, most likely. Hopefully not to the extend of the past year and a half. At best, I'd want to have 1-2 updates on a bit WIP, 1-2 new medium-sized games, and a handful small silly experiments, during a year.

Not that I owe anyone an explanation, but anons being nasty about the whole no-progress thing - essentially why @crimsonroseandwhitelily was offline for a whole while, or why I haven't answered many questions lately.

Also gonna take this moment to not address the very personal stuff that happened IRL, even with the very insisting messages I got. I was tempted to go on a whole tangent about what's been going on, but I'm a bit paranoid about my privacy on the internet (and with the anons wilding lately, I've become more careful), and I don't really want IRL to flood this space either (more than it has anyway - considered leaving a few times tbh). I like this specific corner to not be about IRL, to have it as an escape and spend some time just not having to think about it. So yea... you can ask all you want, I'm not going to answer. But it's been a time... I'm coping by being here damnit. Maybe you'll get an(other) autobio game about it one day xD

Here's to a more peaceful state of mind (and inbox) next year...

2023 is OVER officially

And what a fucking year this was. It's made me even more excited to see what 2024 has in store for me.

I want to learn more, for sure. I think I reached a bit of a plateau with SugarCube, where the only thing I feel I haven't tried yet is some sort of RPG adventure/combat system. Or diving further in JavaScript/jQuery (it's inevitable...). Or have less of a spaghetti code... Though it didn't really start as a conscious effort, I'm glad I tried different IF programs and Twine formats this year. It helped me think more about IF game structure and coding. It really pushed me to grow and appreciate the variety there is in IF outside of Tumblr. It did reinforce my love for Twine, especially SugarCube xD

I know I've complained about having done a lot but also not feeling I did enough, but strangely this year has also been pretty fulfilling. Having achieved things I didn't think I could, mess around and create unmentionable bits of code that should not have seen the light of day, learned how to handle new formats, met and talked with a bunch of cool and knowledgeable IF peeps, and just tried to do some good for the community.

I would love to be as fulfilled in this new year too!

I was shocked with all the good things I got in 2022, but I didn't imagine it would be even better this year. How much I got out of this year. How much I got done. How much I learned. How much I grew as a person and a creator. I'm glad I stuck around another year.

I'm really lucky I was able to have the year I had, to be surrounded by such lovely people, to get such positive return on stuff, to be in this community, to have the friends I have, to still be here.

So, thanks for sticking around too, and partake in my silliness :)

#manonamora #retrospective #2023 #year in review #games #indie dev #assets #twine #interactive fiction #interactive games #I can't tag all the projects anymore #because Tumblr has a limit of 20...

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sillysadduck · 1 year

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hihihihi

I was wondering, since you made a guide on how you draw Duck, can we know how you draw the headshape for human Red or Duck?

HI BABE YES YOU CAN HAVE BOTH <3 but when I tell you I STRUGGLED trying to figure out how to show it😭😭 bc not only is my style inconsistent but also my process is always different and tumblr only allows 10 pictures on each post when on mobile so I'll try my best!

Okay first, Duck, my human version of him has a thin face, and sharp but not strong features. A long thin nose and a few barely-there expression lines. Very different from the way I draw Red but I'll get to that later. Kind of old hollywood features I guess

I start with this ugly ass nonsense circle and then I pretend those lines dont exist and do whatever I want bc I dont follow them

I hate to admit it but I don't have any solid advice on facial feature placement, hope you don't mind since you asked for head shape :")

As I said his head shape is more... Sharp I think. But he doesn't have, say, a strong jaw or a strong browbone, he's sharp but delicate-looking to put it in words :]

Small jaw, small neck, thin nose, and overall very thin face

This ones kinda rushed, not perfect, but you can correct things as you go :] I didnt do it here bc maybe it would be confusing

Hope this made sense! I'll reblog showing how I draw Red's head when I do it

#tutorial #my art #asks #dhmis

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unladielike · 11 days

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So since it has been brought to my attention some rumours have been circulating about me, I just wanna make a few things clear.

First off, I did not supposedly stalk anyone's blog for years.

If need be, I can even provide my IP address (aka self-dox myself) to prove any screencaps to be false, but I'm nowhere near obsessive enough to check somebody's blog everyday. Like, sure, I might visit blogs of ex-mutuals every once in a blue moon out of curiosity, but contrary to popular belief, tumblr doesn't take up 90% of my time and at best, I would maybe lurk on COAR to read new confessions or refresh my dash once per day just in case non-active partners of mine have returned.

If anything, my time has been mostly comprised of going to work and grinding mobile gachas; in fact, should I notice I have replies to write, I will log in, throw my replies into the queue/save written replies in my drafts folder to queue later, and then fuck off to do other stuff. Honestly, provided someone has beef with me, it's unlikely I would know why unless my encounter with them on tumblr had been rather recent.

To my knowledge, I haven't harassed anyone off of tumblr.

Now, did I have spats with my own fair share of people over the eight or nine years I have been on this hellsite? Yes. Have I made vague posts about ex-mutuals, unintentionally ghosted others, privately vented to friends about people from the RPC I personally can't stand, and commented on COAR confessions? Also, yes.

But that being said, the only one I've ever sent anon hate to was myself and if I played a part in somebody deactivating their blog or quitting tumblr roleplay altogether, then that's certainly news to me, because I don't like participating in public smear campaigns, to the point where I even avoid name dropping certain users in my rules or PSAs I've made. Heck, the way I see it, I can only ever recall myself being relentlessly harassed/bullied, because when it comes to me for some reason, people on this site sadly don't know how to block and move on like normal people.

I also have never encouraged anyone to delete their blogs or chase them out of the RPC and have only ever reported one person due to the fact they would not stop posting about me/attempt to provoke me into engaging in drama on a site that we both frequent despite having me blocked; therefore, I have no idea where the narrative of me harassing people off of tumblr even comes from. Besides, I'm nowhere near popular enough to influence whatever following I have to dog pile on whoever I have grievances with, let alone have many people who would go to bat for me each time I'm being unfairly criticized. Honestly, the one time someone did call out my harasser, it was something I had no control over and they did so without my permission, to the point where I did privately tell them to stop url-dropping me and engaging with this person on my behalf... because again, I just wanted to be left alone.

Furthermore, I make it very clear to mutuals I've vented to that they don't have to unfollow/block roleplayers I've had bad experiences with... so I'm not sure if this is merely a case of the Mandela Effect rearing it's ugly head, individuals making up bad faith reasons to dislike me, or an issue of mistaken identity (especially since I'm likely not the only one who goes by the mun handle, 'Livi', and it has happened before where somebody had wrongly assumed a blog belonged to another person).

Of course, it's possible I could have forgotten stuff, as I have had more than three blogs over the years, so naturally, I won't remember all the OOC posts I have ever shared, let alone every instance before 2022 where I have been involved in drama... but regardless, I refuse to take accountability for things I have never done unless you personally come to me off anon with screenshots that provide evidence.

#drama tw #⸾ ❖︎ ⸾ ( OUT OF ) ⤹ •• 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟.#║▌ ⧼ ⸢ ʚɞ ⸣︳p̲u̲b̲l̲i̲c̲ ̲s̲e̲r̲v̲i̲c̲e̲ ̲a̲n̲n̲o̲u̲n̲c̲e̲m̲e̲n̲t̲. ⧽ ― THIS SHOULD COME WITH SUBTITLES IN REAL LIFE.#[ the rest of this post is hidden underneath a read more in case people would prefer to scroll past ooc posts revolving around drama ]#[ BUT HONESTLY Y'ALL... i'm tired and just wish people would talk to me if they have an issue instead of keeping tabs on my blogs ]#[ and thinking i somehow wouldn't notice if they vagued about me especially after passive aggressively responding to almost all my takes ]#[ on a public platform where everyone could see ]#[ and mind you... this isn't me 'playing the victim' or 'virtue signalling' for my brain genuinely draws a blank whenever i attempt to ]#[ recall things i've been FALSELY accused of so i'm inclined to believe i did nothing wrong ]#[ still anyone who thinks otherwise IS welcome to change my mind as i am open to discussion! ]

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limpfisted · 8 months

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#LIMPFISTED. LUCIFER GOT DOWN ON HIS KNEES AND PRAYED TO GOD, HIS FATHER, THE FATHER OF ALL THE ANGELS. HE WANTED PSALMS AND SONGS AND SUNSETS. HE WANTED DREAMS AND FAIRY TALES, A PARADISE LOST, BECAUSE IT HAD NOT YET BEEN MADE. HE WANTED ADVENTURE, HE WANTED PRAISE, HE WANTED JUSTICE, HE WANTED POWER—AND IN GOD’S DEFENSE, HE GOT IT AS THE GATE LOCKED BEHIND HIM.

DID IT HURT, WHEN YOU FELL FROM HEAVEN? WHEN YOUR FATHER WOULD RATHER BANISH YOU THAN LOOK YOU IN THE EYE?

THE CLOCK HAS STRUCK MIDNIGHT, THE SHARDS OF THE GLASS SLIPPER CUT INTO YOUR SAWED OFF HEEL, THE UGLY DUCKLING HAS EMERGED FROM HIS SHELL AND AWAKENED A BLACK SWAN.

What are you waiting for?! LET’S START OUR HAPPILY EVER AFTER!

LET’S MAKE A PACT !!!!

indie wyll ravengard: mobile doc / print layout doc. herbert sherbert, 25+, they/them. brief rules under the cut.

screenshot base credit: @/laceratiio (follow them we stan!)

20+ only. don’t be nasty, don’t be gross, i like horror, i like dark themes, i don’t like Bad things, but also sometimes bad things are a part of the characters trauma and we can talk about it and write about it! also: i sometimes write toxic relationships/situationships between consenting adults. there are sometimes age gaps, wyll is 24 on this blog, but age gaps happen, don’t follow if you don’t like it man.

i like a lot of your ooc posts if we’re mutuals! tell me to knock it off if u dont like it! however, if u like all my posts, i will be ur online rp bestie and personal court jester (tho we will be keeping safe professional online boundaries in place lol, i want us to be mutual fans of each other’s art, we do NOT have to share personal details.)

discord i only give out rarely. tumblr ims are best. i love to plot, i love to talk, hit up my ims!

i write about bodily harm and canon characters trauma! all astarion trauma is tagged astarion tw! all suggestive content is tagged suggestive te, nsft, and nsfw! ask me to tag whatever u like, but i may forget! oopsie doopsies! give me the benefit of the doubt.

MY ICONS ALL HAVE A BIG CLOSE-UP OF AN EYE. IF YOU DON’T LIKE THE ICONS, JUST DON’T FOLLOW. I’m not tagging it, so sorry pal.

my wyll is transmasc and non-binary, he/him, he identifies as “a blade”, you can use any “gendered terms” for him!

alright i said this was gonna be brief. jesus christ.

#pinned #ooc

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this-world-of-beautiful-monsters · 2 years

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psspspsppspspsp

do you

do you have more leo angst fic reccs? /nf

preferably rise or 2012! but idm others!

Okay, so there’s a whole fucking bunch of these, including some of my own shit (although I removed some of my own Leo-angst fics because the post was just too dang long). You can also find the full list of recs on my AO3.

2018

Everything that We Are by fireworksinthenight - Leo and his family deal with the fallout of the Kraang invasion as best they can (tw trauma, guilt)

Withstanding all the Time, Changes and Seasons by guide_to_the_galaxy - Leo struggles to keep his family together during the apocalypse (tw body horror, mild gore, trauma, doomed timelines)

Of Late Nights and French Movies by pleasantnonsense - Leo tries to comfort Donnie after his brother has a bad dream (tw trauma)

cracked windows, falling by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo comes to terms with his multiversal legacy (tw trauma, nightmares, unreality, violence)

“say sorry to the lions, right now” from covered with dead flowers / it was cold it was cold yes it was / cold by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo confronts Donnie after discovering one of his brothers’s darkest secrets (tw past mind control, betrayal, trauma, implied ableism)

You can find a whole lot more of recs from an earlier collection here.

TMNT 2012

and I shall name you.. "Karai you lil shit" by @gekroent - A great piece of art about Leorai gone wrong (tw implied mind control, blood)

let's see just how far you'll go by leones @leonsi - Leo is determined to do whatever it takes to keep his family safe and Mikey stumbles upon the downsides (tw blood, self-harm, past child abuse)

evil is a relay sport by leones @leonsi - Leo doesn’t have the strength to hold Donnie back anymore (tw blood, speceism, violence)

Don't Judge Me by DarkxKitsune - Mikey is more accepting of Leo’s desire than Leo himself is (tw tcest, explicit, internalized kink shaming)

you're faking all your pain, you're bleeding on a stage by leones @leonsi - Leo struggles with accepting a mobility (tw trauma, internalized ableism)

i want to break you in pieces, fight me by Anonymous - An alternate reality where Leo is chased out of the sewers by his father and into the perhaps-overly-loving arms of Tiger Claw (tw csa, codependency, blood, violence, rape/noncon, underage sex, PTSD, past child abuse, self-esteem issues, unhealthy relationships, mental health issues, intense age gap)

some sunday in autumn by guide_to_the_galaxy- Leo and his family real from a horrifying loss (tw grief, guilt, trauma, injuries, torture, child abuse)

RL,Hot & Cold by @ringingt - Raph and Leo struggle to survive in the dark together (tw torture, possible tcest)

a quick something my sick depressed mind produced to carry on. by @arishynya - Leo and Karai deal with the return of the space turtles, and the fallout is ugly (tw a form of self-harm, injuries, scars, trauma, mental instability)

This art by @arishynya- Art of a 2012 Foot Leo au (tw implied mind control)

Leorai week day 1 - Injured by @arishynya - Karai struggles to keep Leo safe at a time of crisis (tw blood, injuries)

Something weird by @arishynya - Leo and Karai’s relationship enters a painful stage (tw implied breakup)

This art by !youngtitan213 - Leo deals with the fallout of Karai’s mutation (tw vaguely suggestive?)

The Salamandria Saga - Leo and Donnie try to survive the end of the world together (tw PTSD, turtlecest, explicit, apocalyptic imagery, family imagery)

it's not revolutionary by leones @leonsi - Raph tries to help Leo work out some of his darker feelings (tw implied self-harm, internalized ableism)

Leo, you fierce precious baby by @lornaka - Leo fights for his life during the invasion (tw implied violence)

urges burning through your skin by leones @leonsi - Leo does his best to keep his shit together while having tea with Chloe (tw self-harm, self-hatred, self-esteem issues)

(Tmnt , Au of Vengeance is Mine) by @sabindark - Leo is the one that gets mutated following vengeance is mind (tw identity issues)

save him by haru-kaze - Usagi finds out the reason for Leo’s maturity (tw trauma)

We Captured A Moment by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - Leo wakes up in the wrong timeline and stumbles into an unusual relationship (tw Splintercest, time travel sexual weirdness, homelessness, violence, injury, speciesm)

ghosts (old conversations) by notebookpapers - Leo has been bearing a lot of weight from a young age (tw child-as-parent, trauma)

Cliché (it was too late for me) by leones @leonsi - Leo stumbles into a relationship with a redhead in the coffee shop (tw trauma, anxiety, background tcest, speciesm, eating disorders)

Leonardo Hamato, The Righteous Hand of (God) Splinter by @floozdooz - Leo’s relationships with his father manifested as worship (tw daddy issues, religious imagery)

My Life Was Ended By Your Hand, the Kind of Murder Where Nobody Dies by PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Leo and Raph have some ugly shared childhood memories (tw child rape, csa, emotional manipulation, forced incest, future child loss)

There's Nothing More Than Empty Sheets Between Our Love” from I Keep Telling Myself This Might Be Nothing by PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Leo wrestles with loneliness on his first night awake at the farmhouse (tw implied underage sex, implied tcest)

We're still here, Fearless, don't worry. by @uggables - Leo’s family helps him keep it together after Fungus Humungous (tw trauma)

h, but I'm not bitter. i'm just tired. by leones @leonsi - Leo’s brothers help him sort through the remains of his relationship with Karai (tw break-up, past relationship dysfunction)

please don't tell me we share the same name (i don't want to be associated with that kind of pain) by leones @leonsi - Raph encourages Leo to push his limits, and Leo finds himself stumbling down a dark path (tw past csa, past child abuse, alcohol abuse, PTSD, nausea, unreliable narrator)

clinging to hope (what else is there to live for?) by leones @leonsi - Usagi offers a strange revelation while trying to help Leo pull himself together (tw implied suicide, suicidal thoughts, mental health issues, PTSD, past violence)

Aggressive Empathy in the Abyss (AEITA) by Gemma Winchester (PrincessGemma12), PrincessGemma12@princessgemma12 - Leo and Raph try to wrestle with the past together (tw tcest, explicit, trauma, past rape, past underage rape, PTSD)

ride it out by leones @leonsi - Raph helps Leo deal with a rough patch (tw dissociation, trauma, PTSD, possible tcest)

Both Leos lost someone importante at the end of their stories so I wanted them to meet again even if they are not the same people... by @lyse-474 - Two versions of Leonardo try to work out past losses in alternate realities (tw grief, trauma)

eating disorder fics by leones @leonsi - A primarily Leo-centric collection of stories about his struggle with his body and mind (tw neglect, vomit, unhealthy coping mechanisms, denial, unreliable narrator)

Curled In by Luescris - Raph tries to help Leo literally come out of his shell at the farmhouse (tw panic attacks, trauma, injury)

Don't Get Too Close by runawaydirtbag - A brilliant and terrifying collection of Leo-centric Angstpril stories (tw mental health issues, underage drug use, trauma, child abuse, self-hatred)

To the Victor by squishyturtlefuckfics for Melodistic - Shredder savors his new control over Leo (tw rape, implied torture, mindbreak, bad ending, explicit)

maybe that's the point by leones @leonsi - Donnie helps Leo work out some dark thoughts (tw PTSD, suicidal thoughts, flashbacks)

"i am so sick of being so scared all the time." by @leonsi - Leo is overwhelmed by his PTSD (tw trauma)

memory is the foulest gift by leones @leonsi - Mikey and Leo comes to terms with a long-buried secret (tw child rape, rape, past csa, trauma, family dysfunction, self-hatred, internalized victim blaming, suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt)

This art by @nei-ning - Leo receives horrible news (tw grief, tcest)

i can feel your eyes stare (and i'm not gonna lie, i get a little bit scared) by leones - Leo tries to work out his feelings regarding Usagi (tw past rape/noncon, hurt/comfort)

Monster by CityFallArc (orphan_account) - Leo wakes up in time to be left with nothing (tw mind control, past violence)

“Colors (Leonardo) ” from Visions: One Word Prompts by Gemma Winchester (PrincessGemma12) @princessgemma12 - 10 sentences of Leo across the universes (tw trauma, blood and gore, tcest, animal cruelty)

Deepest Darkest by FormlessVoid , with this art by 10yrsy - Leo struggles with the fallout of Fungus Humungous, but at least he’s got Raph on his side (tw trauma, loneliness, nightmares)

“You don’t have to face this alone.” by leos-wormstache - Raph and Splinter both help Leo deal with his fears (tw nightmares)

Hostage by ringingt - Leo struggles to survive Tiger Claw’s captivity (tw forced feeding, blood, injury, torture, sickness)

Inward by Captain_Jade - Leo and his family find themselves caught up in a web of dreams and nightmares (tw unreality, trauma, gore, grief)

Father vs. Sensei by SleepingSeeker - Splinter’s latest training regime takes more out of Leo than usual (tw child abuse, poisoning)

Do you feel it? by Riu_wiu - Raph tries to help Leo with his guilt over their relationship (tw turtlecest, family dysfunction)

Return of Honor by Firebird Scratches - Leo discovers what his newly recovered father can and cannot do for the family (tw violence, injury)

Captain Ryan Wouldn't by Flynne - Leo is growing beyond his childhood heroes (tw violence, fire, pain)

These Scars Remind Me The Past Is Real by xXNerdFighterXx - Leo tries to figure out Raph’s coddling new attitude after he wakes up at the farmhouse (tw family dysfunction, injury, trauma)

The Devil In I by Kareh - Leo is taken from his family and returned as something nearly unrecognizable (tw brainwashing, torture, abuse, trauma, violence)

Sacrifice by Silvermoon27 - Leo sacrificed himself for his family and takes the long road coming home (tw deception, grief, violence, family dysfunction, injury)

If it makes you happy by samstoleaburger - Mikey comforts Leo after a bad day (tw bullying mention, light family dysfunction, self-doubt)

10 ways to say i love you by orphan_account - Leo connects with Casey in ways both beautiful and painful (tw injury, fear)

Hanging By A Moment. by Chandrakantya - A collection of Leo and Casey's first kisses and everything they meant (tw trauma, self-doubt)

I'll Remember You by MusicRocks807 - Leo tries to find Karai, but it’s hard when she’s forgotten almost everything (tw identity issues)

the more things change by breeisonfire - Leo and his family try to put themselves together after coming home from space (tw past grief, trauma)

These nightmares always hang on past the dream. by Werepirechick - Leo and his clan try to keep together in space (tw nightmares, PTSD)

“ One Double-Drabble ” from The Secret Anthology by Amitica Revenant - Leo deals with his impending sacrifice in the Techndrome (tw near-death experiences, drowning)

Coping by FishiesGoneFiction @fishiesgonefiction - Leo does what he can for Karai (tw trauma, dysfunctional relationships)

Dark side of the Sun and Shattered Spirit, Conquered Soul by Shanalaa - A series where Leo pays the price for his family’s inner darkness (tw rape, tcest, forced tcest, sexual abuse, past underage, trauma, victim blaming, internalized victim blaming)

“ xli-l ” of Diffraction by AngelDormais - Leo and his family fight for Leo’s life after fleeing New York (tw injury, trauma)

Unseen by Pheonix500 - Leorai with undertones of fantasy and mind control (tw violence, brainwashing, dubious consent)

Okay by MoTexas55 (CupNoodles55) - Leo deals with a dream of what he can’t have (tw separation, unreality)

You Have Always Wanted This by Adoradork - There is something very wrong with Karai–if only Leo could figure out what (tw implied sexual coercion, mind control)

“You came back. (Splinter&Leo)” from Drabble Collection by starsofyoursoul (Apothecary_Rose) - Splinter comforts Leo after a hard fight (tw injury, guilt, self-doubt, implied trauma, past violence)

can't let a cold heart be free. by Chandrakantya - Karai and Leo’s relationship is always shifting, often painfully (tw implied sexual content, unhealthy relationships, past violence) it's only love, not a timebomb (there's no way out of this) by authenticaussie - Leo can’t help being worried for Casey (tw injury, past violence)

“Used to Know (Mikey & Leo)” from The Shinobi's Garden by taizi @taizi - There’s something wrong with Mikey; Leo helps as best he can (tw violence, nonconsensual drug use, mind control)

“Incompetent (Leo - Problem Child AU)” from The Shinobi's Garden by taizi - Human AU where Leo still has so many fears to wrestle with (tw past homelessness, trauma)

someone will come running by taizi - Leo has to leave to come back (tw family separation, trauma, grief)

in the bitter watches by impossiblewanderings - Raph watches over his sleeping brother (tw trauma, injury, family separation)

My Cub by squishyturtlefuckfics - Tiger Claw carefully breaks down Leo’s walls (tw dubcon/noncon, possible underage, imprisonment, explicit)

Know my name (as it's called again) by moogsthewriter - ATLA AU where Leo, Donnie, and Raph seek out a missing brother (tw family separation)

The Need to Escape by orphan_account - Leo and his family try to find a world outside the shadow of their master, the Shredder (tw trauma, violence, child abuse, implied unhealthy relationships/csa, child abuse, family dysfunction, speciesm, tcest, dehumanization)

Haunted by Kiraynn - Raph helps Leo from a traumatizing attack (tw past rape/noncon, trauma, explicit, tcest)

Broken Brother by Koalagriton - Bringing Raph back isn’t easy, but Leo won’t get up (tw alcohol, tcest, mind control)

On Beautiful Nights and Their Consequences by Anonymous for Crowdog - Karai gives Leo a very strange gift (tw post breakup, surprise parenting)

Stealth and Sacrifice by GoblinCatKC - Leo undoes himself for his brothers in more ways than one (tw violence, blood, self-harm, identity issues)

Sleeping Beauty by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo suffers a devastating betrayal without even realizing it (tw rape/noncon, explicit, betrayal, tcest, abuse, sexism, homophobia, guilt)

Strange Little Shadows by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - 50 sentences about Leo, Raph and Karai (tw trauma, tcest, major character death, brainwashing, violence)

I See Things That Nobody Else Sees by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo tries to protect his memories of his relationships with his father and brother in the face of harsh reality (tw sexual abuse, rape/noncoon, parent/child incest, tcest, emotional manipulation, unreliable narrator, physical abuse, emotional/psychological abuse, gaslighting)

No Safe Place by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Karai discovers one of Leo’s ugliest secrets (tw csa, underage rape/noncon, past manipulation, past violence, explicit, parent/child incest, identity issues)

“Quick” from TMNT ABC III: Lives And Times Of The Turtles by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo, Mikey, and the nature of monsters (tw violence, attempted rape, vomit, gore)

“Gone” from TMNT ABC IV: Turtles Forever And Ever And Ever by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo tries to keep his brothers alive when their father disappears (tw childhood trauma, speciesm, self-harm, hunger)

“They don't give a fuck about you, like I do” from Red-Light District by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Tiger Claw takes Leo apart after an escape attempt (tw child abuse, csa, rape/noncon, imprisonment, implied violence, injury, torture, unreliable narrator)

“Stop Worrying And Love (The Bomb)” from Midnight Whispers by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo and his family do what they need to survive (tw sort-of-abortion, cannibalism, tcest, apocalypse, implied character death)

and if you have nightmares, we'll dance on the bed by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Shini and Karai have to rescue Leo from an ugly situation (tw gore, captivity, torture, mentioned sexism, mentioned sexual assault, dissociation, trauma, past underage rape/noncon, fire)

feeling like a boulder hurtling by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo is particularly frustrated by two of his new enemies (tw brainwashing, underage rape/noncon, mind control, violence, emotional manipulation, abuse, unreliable narrator)

sew this hole up that you ripped in my head by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Inspired by @leones’s magnificent relax. by leones (which I’ve recced elsewhere); an accidental trip through the multiverse forces Leo to confront the past (tw past csa, past underage rape/noncon, trauma)

“constellation” from with friends like these, who needs by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Chloe loves Mr. Turtle, even when she doesn’t always understand him (tw trauma, implied injury)

“cursed” from with friends like these, who needs by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo has a question that only the forest can answer (tw grief, implied ableism, mentioned eating disorders, trauma, family dysfunction)

You can find a whole lot more of recs from an earlier collection here .

TMNT IDW

Dawn Into the Dark by Cass_Phoenix- Leo relapses after escaping from Shredder (tw violence, mind control)

This coincidence has been carefully planned - Lavinia/Shredder by Ibenholt

@Ibenholt - Genderbent AU where Saki claws his way into Lavinia’s life, over and over again (tw rape/noncon, mutilation, violence, trauma, mind control)

some Dark Leo doodles just for fun by @mooncalfe - Reflections on a different Foot Leo costume (tw implied mind control)

some doodles by @mooncalfe - Leo tries to deal with the City Fall fallout (tw trauma, past mind control, creepiness, identity issues, past abuse, past manipulation)

This art by @ringingt - Leonardo has an ugly confrontation with his Foot self (tw violence, self-harm/suicide undertones, major character death imagery, identity issues, implied mind control)

CITY FALL by @puna-nezuki - Raph encounters Foot Leonardo in the rain (tw implied mind control)

This art by @robinsondraws1 - Leo is fracturing, just a little bit (tw mental health issues, identity issues)

Blue and Red to Black by dearjoanwallace - A poem about Foot Leonardo (tw violence, mind control, major character death)

“(Shredder/Leo) Accidental” by Sink Deeper (Hypnovember 2021) by squishyturtlefuckfics - An unexpected memory drags Leo down (tw explicit, sexual assault, underage rape/noncon, mind control)

This art by @72stars - Leo’s family do their best to comfort him after City Fall (tw past mind control, trauma)

Tamashi No Tatakai by dearjoanwallace - Leo’s dreams are not his own (tw violence, unreality, emotion manipulation, mind control)

Leo - Foot slave by teddyparty - Leo finds himself caught in an ugly trap (tw slavery, imprisonment, implied mind control)

come back for us by blackdragon-sama - Raph tries to pull Leo back from the Foot (tw incest, mpreg, implied mind control)

[TMNT IDW] City Fall Leo EDIT -Here- by Pizzainator - Leo’s part of the Foot Clan now, but he doesn’t belong (tw flashing lights/colors, violence, manipulation, grief, blood)

Glued Leaves by Pebr - Leo’s perspective as he decides whether to spare Koya’s life (tw violence, blood, trauma)

For doing what I could not. by leospigtails - Leo tries to comfort both Mikey and himself (tw past child abuse, explicit, tcest)

The Games We Play by orphan_account - Karai and Leo are caught up in a dangerous game (tw implied brainwashing, consent issues, explicit, identity issues)

Dark Leo by dearjoanwallace - Leo’s plans for the future are dark, determined, and not his own design (tw violent thoughts, discussions of character death, unreliable narrator)

Goodbye For Now by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo and Karai try to figure things out before her departure (tw grief, trauma, past manipulation, past abuse)

Darkness Eating Me Alive by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph gives Leo a shoulder to lean on in the aftermath of City Fall (tw past mind control, past abuse, violence, gore, simulated character death, trauma, guilt, nightmares, unreality)

Screaming Into The Void by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo receives solace from an unusual source (tw eating disorders, self-harm, trauma, grief, abandonment, past mind control, violence, fire)

“Zombies” from ABC TMNT by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo’s reality is less stable than he’d like (tw past mind control, csa, trauma, hallucinations, gore, horror, rot, internalized ableism)

“Confrontation” from ABC TMNT II: Out Of The Ooze by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo tries to come to terms with what Kitsune did to him (tw past mind control, emotional manipulation; still relatively tame compared to my other City Fall stuff)

“You” from ABC TMNT II: Out Of The Ooze by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo and Jenny try to reckon with the weight of their new bodies (tw past character death, body image issues)

“Kindling” from TMNT ABC III: Lives And Times Of The Turtles by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo’s father is slipping into a dark place and Leo can’t save him, only stop him (tw violence, imprisonment, child abuse, mental health issues, child death, fire)

give my regards from the underground by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters, inspired by @ibenholt‘s writing - Rule 63 City Fall AU where Hamato Lavinia does her best to put herself back together (tw past underage rape/noncon, past mind control, past csa, blood and gore, nightmares, unreality, trauma)

TMNT 2003

Silk and Steel by katanashipping (stopbeingbored)- Leo is fracturing at the edges, even with Usagi’s help (tw mental health issues, trauma, implied violence)

spectrum by m00nie - Leo is autistic and struggling to keep it together (tw meltdowns, internalized ableism)

martyrs and holy men by comatoseroses- Leo tries to figure Raph, and himself, out (tw family dysfunction, blood, injury, trauma)

Solitude's Price by Skywinder - Leo’s role in the family cuts him off from the rest (tw family dysfunction, self-isolation)

Heights by ASWF - A character study told in leaps and falls (tw trauma, mental health issues, implied violence)

Compassion Is Not Optional by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - Leo’s family is determined to take care of him, despite the Ninja Tribunal’s attempts to stand in their way (tw injury, trauma, ableism)

You Build A Wall by HamsterMasterSamster - Leo and April bond in the aftermath of Shredder’s attack (tw trauma, past destruction, injury recovery)

Blindspot by Valpoet - Leo tries to figure out survival in a SAINW universe (tw mentioned depression, past self-harm, PTSD)

Words Best On Paper by TheAngelofFate for BrightLotusMoon - Mikey uses his journal to cope with Leo’s escalating issues (tw trauma, family dysfunction)

The Katana Chronicles by Windify - A collection of Leo-centric stories (tw violence, child abuse, self-harm, drug use, trauma, violence, injury)

Soft by Koalagriton - Usagi struggles to keep Leo alive after a dangerous encounter on his world (tw poison, near-death experiences, brief suicidal ideations)

Love Endures All by SleepingSeeker - Leo tries not to be destroyed by Karai’s fractured edges (tw abuse, dysfunctional relationships, torture, self-esteem issues)

With a Touch of Blue by Windify - The Hamato family is abruptly reunited with a missing sibling (tw trauma, torture, amnesia, forced cannibalism, mind control)

Avocado by Capricornicis - Leo tries and fails to have some “normal” playtime with Casey (tw explicit)

Vanishing by governmentcontractor - Leo and Mikey deal with the edge Leo is approaching (tw family dysfunction, elements of abuse, trauma)

“In The Hands Of The Enemy,” “I've Got You,” “I Think I've Broken Something,” “Panic! At The Disco + What's a Whumpee Gotta Do To Get Some Sleep Around Here?,” “I Think We Need A Doctor ” and “Today's Special: Torture ” from Whumptober 2020 by ceraxxxx - Leo-centric stories from Whumptober (tw major character death, guns, injury, family dysfunction, guilt, grief, trauma, paranoia, exhaustion)

Them by SeaThreePeeO - Leo can’t get the blood off his hands (tw violence, gore, guilt)

Whispered by Pebr - A demon finds its way into the sewers, setting its sights on Leo and his brothers (tw violence, self-harm, MCD imagery, possession, manipulation, amnesia, trauma, self-esteem issues, identity issues)

“Leader: Splinter,” “Emotion: Leonardo,” and “Rectitude: Splinter” from Drabbles Forever by Mikell - A collection of Leo-centric stories (tw emotional issues, childhood trauma)

Point of View by MissMoMo1990 - Alternating POV during one of Leo and Raph’s more destructive squabbles (tw violence, family dysfunction, unhealthy relationships)

Paperthin by stopbeingbored - Leo and Usagi’s relationship comes under Casey’s scrutiny, and Leo doesn’t know how to deal with that (tw violence, homophobia)

Strategy by Meg720 - Leo finds his own way to comfort Donnie (tw trauma, past character death)

Maybe Just the End by nightwalker for amaronith - Day of Tomorrow AU where Leo and Donnie fight for their lives in a stalled elevator (tw apocalypse, minor character death)

Chronic by suitboxers (orphan_account) - Leo’s struggle to cope spins out of control (tw drug addiction, ableism)

Whumptober 2020: Leaving Tonight by Pebr - Leo-centric whump drabbles (tw injury, torture, blood and injury, starvation, imprisonment, unreliable narrator)

My soul is bigger than my body (I don’t know myself at all) by GreenGoddessSmoothie - Leo has had so much to bear over his short life (tw trauma, unhealthy relationships)

It Always Comes Back to You by zangetsugirl - 50 sentences about Leo, some happy and some not (tw implied violence, past destruction, trauma, guilt)

I Call The Shots by ClothesBeam - Leo finds himself caught in Karai’s web (tw slavery, abuse, torture, rape, tcest, explicit)

The Legacy by Nekotsuki - Leo discovers that some threats aren’t as dead as he’d hoped (tw nonconsensual drug use, blood, violence, forced transformation)

Not Enough by Starkangejr - Leo can only be so close to what Raph wants (tw dubcon, noncon, tcest, explicit, unhealthy relationships)

Release From Guilt by babygirl127 - Donnie tries to help Leo work out his emotions after Raph gets hurt (tw possible self-harm, complicated BDSM etiquette, consent issues, trauma, guilt, tcesty undertones, non-erotic spanking, past violence, injury)

Deterioration by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Leo and his brothers get caught up in Bishop’s latest scheme and discover they have more to lose than they ever considered possible (tw violence, tcest, possession, nonconsensual-touching, manipulation, violence)

Underdark by Nekotsuki - Leo and MIkey fight to survive a cave-in together (tw injury, near-death experiences, sensory loss, blood)

Past to Present by crabapplered- Leo leads his brothers once more by giving Donnie a very special welcome home (tw past violence, family dysfunction, internalized ableism, trauma, tcest, explicit)

i promise that you'll breathe again by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo and his surviving brothers mourn their dead (tw grief, alcohol, past alcoholism, trauma, tcest)

All Media Types

you make holes in me and little slits (you use as mouths for you to kiss) by Anonymous for This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph has some really bad ideas about how to handle Leo’s self-harm (tw torture, rape, underage, gore, implied self-harm, abuse)

A Choice by Deliciousdame - An imprisoned Leo faces a decision (tw captivity, manipulation, discussions of betrayal)

A Petal Falling by FoxTheWriter - Leo deals with the sometimes ugly side of duty (tw anxiety, panic attacks, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts)

Tonight by cndrow - Leo and Raph deal with bumps in the road of their relationship (tw tcest, dysfunctional relationships)

Lure Rebound by Various - A collection of Leoraph art, including heavy angst (tw blood, explicit, turtlecest)

"This isn't just about you..." from Chapter 2 of Quotes by what_should_i_post_here - Leo and Raph struggle to overcome Leo’s inhibitions (tw tcest, implied family dysfunction)

A Different Path by VenusTheMarvelTurtle - A darkly brilliant Foot!Leo AU centered around toxic Leoraph (tw abuse, torture, rape/noncon, underage rape, csa, manipulation, drug use, violence, gore, explicit, tcest, unhealthy relationships, self-loathing)

Problem Solving by Goblin Cat KC - The loss of Donnie’s mathbooks leads into a much bigger mystery, with Leo at the center (tw learning issues, self-esteem issues)

Insanity Disguised by NRATQH - Leo comes to terms with the steps he must take to protect his brothers (tw self-harm, neglect, family dysfunction, self-loathing, guns, violence, speciesm)

Quiet by Fight_As_One - Leo and his family fight for their lives at the end of the world (tw violence, major character death, guilt, trauma)

Pet Turtle by GoblinCatKC - Leo gets tangled up with two unsavory customers (tw explicit, rape, gore, violent death)

“Chapter 26” through “Chapter 29” from Of Flowers and Things by Mystic Medjai - Mikey gets hurt and Leo struggles with the aftermath (tw violence, injury, guilt)

“S2 Chapter 74 ” from Of Flowers and Things by Mystic Medjai - Leo tries to work out his feelings for Karai (tw unhealthy relationships)

Never Never by crazycatlady713 - Leo comes to terms with his father’s vulnerability and the burden of growing up

“Inside - Part 1” and “Inside - Part 2” from The Secret Anthology by Amitica Revenant - Leo watches helpless as Donnie disappears into his own mind

Ignore the Ghosts by Bunny MacCool - Leo is beyond repair when he comes home (tw mental break, images of gore and character death, implied torture, unreality)

Three Sheets to the Wind by Bunny MacCool - Leo’s brothers’ attempt at family bonding leads to some painful revelations (tw underage drinking, implied forced alcohol consumption, trauma, self-doubt, self-esteem issues)

Eldest by Ironi Numair - Leo’s very personal version of the turtles origin story (tw animal death)

If You Had To Choose by DarkestSight (Daylight) - Leo and Raph try to decide who they’d save (tw self-sacrificial/suicidal undertones, implied violence)

The Only Thing Left by Connie Nervegas - Raph and Leo are the only ones left, and they might not be enough (tw gore, smoking, alcohol, suicide attempt, major character death, family dysfunction)

A Paper Trail by sleepyxcoffee - Leo’s attempt to find his father lead to some ugly places, and his brothers must race to save them both (tw violence, gore, torture, misogyny, racism, speciesm)

Waking Up by fren - Leo has spent a lifetime in a world that didn’t exist, and wakes off not sure which reality he prefers (tw heartbreak, implied sexual content, implied suicidality, imaginary major character death)

xxxiii. ink from “ xxxi-xl ” of Diffraction by AngelDormais - From a young age, Leo has trouble taking things for himself

More than a sword. by leospigtails - Leo and his brothers find themselves in a dimension-spanning adventure with terrifying implications (tw turtlecest, violence, major character death, manipulation, selfcest, trauma)

Other by VenusTheMarvelTurtle - Leo’s mind is under attack and splintering from within (tw rape, tcest, explicit, underage rape, implied casa, blood and gore, mind break, humiliation, psychological torture)

Between the Lines , What Doesn't Hurt , and From the Depths of Dreams by jusXtrust - Karai is determined to have Leo one way or another (tw torture, rape, imprisonment, trauma, sexual coercion, explicit, humiliation)

“Remembered” from The 100 by Alessa_D - Leo tries to deal with his father’s approaching end

Icosahedron by AngelDormais - Leo’s family refuses to let him die for them (tw self-sacrifice/suicidal behavior, destruction)

“Fear” from Turtles by Neko_HaniChan - Leo deals with a devastating loss (tw major character death, violence, suicidal thoughts)

“If ” from 100 Challange - TMNT by Kamefootninja (Kame630) - Leo is paralyzed by possibilities (tw implied character death)

“Work ” 100 Challange - TMNT by Kamefootninja (Kame630) - Leo does his best to keep his emotions under control

All by sleepingseeker - Karai takes a captive Leo apart (tw imprisonment, implied torture, dubcon, explicit, threats of mutilation)

Silenced by DreamerofCurses - Leo has a permanent injury, a new perspective on life, and nowhere to hide from his father (tw child abuse, past violence)

Purgatory by GoneBunny Leo wrestles with some particularly painful desires (tw explicit, violence, blood) Redux by vacant houses (the_lost_robot) - Leo’s reality is being stolen out from under him (tw major character death, unreality, torture, violence, horror)

Where Do I Even Start (It's All Falling Apart) by Kareh - Leo does something terrible and Leo doesn’t know how to cope (tw suicidal impulses, rape/noncon, trauma, victim blaming, nonconsensual drug use)

Give me a reason by GoneBunny, Watchword - Karai helps Leo learn not to die (tw suicide attempt, past child abuse, implied violence, sexual content)

bloodlines from Kay the Cricketed - Star Wars AU where Leo does not forget his brothers (tw family separation, identity issues)

Lockdown from Kay the Cricketed - Leo keeps a secret and accidentally sucks his family into a frightening new battle (tw injury, hiding injury, poisoning, drug mention)

The Teapot Dilemma from Kay the Cricketed - Raph helps Leo deal with all the little ways loss creeps up on you (tw grief, past character death)

Careful Where You Go from Kay the Cricketed - Leo says goodbye to Donnie (tw violence, blood, injury, major character death)

A Beautiful Moment and Paper Thin Wishes from Kay the Cricketed - Leo has so much to say and not enough time to say it (tw major character death)

Flicker from Kay the Cricketed - Leo follows Raph into danger and matters split out of control (tw blood, major character death in one version, violence, grief, trauma, guilt)

Clarity, Her Tomb from Kay the Cricketed - Leo tries to make his way out of a fracturing reality, with only warped versions of his brothers to guide him (tw blood and gore, violence, unreality, manipulation)

Wallower from Kay the Cricketed - The darker parts of Leo’s mind come crawling out during a fever (tw sickness, implied injury, unreality, possible body horror, self-esteem issues, mentions of self-harm)

The Lake from Kay the Cricketed - Leo tries to deal with the fact that Donnie isn’t coming back (tw grief, trauma, past major character death)

Footsteps that Follow from Kay the Cricketed - Leo is forced to confront the stranger parts of psyche (tw mental attacks, unreality, manipulation, implied violence)

The Bartering Room by kay_cricketed - A magical-realism AU where the tools for Leo’s family’s survival lie in his own undoing (tw memory loss, self-sacrificial/suicidal behavior, major character death, self-destruction)

inside the telescope by guide_to_the_galaxy - Leo tries to cope with the steady, relentless loss of his sight (tw bad parenting, ableism, trauma, manipulation, unreality)

sub!Leo prompts by GoblinCatKC - A collection of sexy Leo stories dealing around various levels of consent (tw rape/noncon, sexual abuse, torture, panic attacks, anxiety, explicit, objectification, nonconsensual issues, mind break, nonconsensual body modification)

Tsunami Dream by GoblinCatKC - Leo and Mikey try to survive a radically changed New York (tw unreality, apocalypse, destruction)

Candles Drowning by GoblinCatKC - Leo experiences a frightening transformation with ugly ramification for his family (tw noncon/dubcon, mind control, violence, gore, identity issues, unreliable narrator, captivity, torture, tcest, explicit, family dysfunction)

Routine by Ibenholt @ibenholt - Leo struggles to keep himself and his brothers alive under Shredder’s thumb (tw sexual slavery, rape/noncon, hostage situations, implied control, nonconsensual bodily modification, emotional/psychological abuse, violence)

Not Our Problem by Kyn - Leo takes a child from a dumpster and sends the remains of his clan spiraling (tw violence, poverty, attempted child murder, suicide attempts, family separation, past torture, past captivity, dystopia, guns, attempted rape, explicit, identity issues)

Casting Stones at the River by GoblinCatKC - Leo and his brothers wield the double-edged sword of immortality (tw violence, character death, tcest, explicit, consent issues, family dysfunction, possible abuse, imprisonment, explosions, apocalypse)

Lio by GoblinCatKC - Leo faces a choice only he can make (tw fears of misgendering and misogyny, implied abortion)

Stumbling in Fog by GoblinCatKC - Silent Hill crossover where Leo searches for his brothers in a disorienting hellscape (tw violence, suspect, horror)

Bad Places by GoblinCatKC - Leo comes back from a bad palace with a heart full of secrets (tw gore, blood, violence, mental health issues, identity issues)

Mirage Comics

Something About Ajax and the Inevitable from Kay the Cricketed - Leo loses everything bit by bit (tw family separation, grief, trauma)

The Greatest Enemy from Kay the Cricketed - Leo contemplates the burning body of the Shredder (tw past violence, very roundabout references to rape)

Ten Minutes by kay_cricketed - Leo pushes himself dangerously far in his struggle for perfection (tw insecurity, anxiety, self-harm)

TMNT 2007

Reflection by KameTerra- Leo tries not to go to pieces in the jungle (tw loneliness, family separation)

Scars by KameTerra - Leo’s reflections on the past are interrupted by a hope for the future (tw grief, major character death, past violence)

Jungle Fever by Elphaba-Rose - Leo and Raph get sent to the jungle together (tw injury, tcest, explicit, brief references to sexual assault not involving main characters)

Never Again by Winnychan - Leo shares a dark story with Karai (tw implied child trafficking, past violence, past manipulation, trauma, guilt)

“His Own Grave ” from The Secret Anthology by Amitica Revenant - Leo comes home far too late to prevent a permanent sundering (tw family dysfunction, separation, heartbreak)

Send Your Lifeboats Out For Me by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - Leo comes home from Central America with a secret he took to the jungle with him and his brothers try to put the pieces together (tw rape, graphic depictions of violence, bathroom issues, violence, gore, torture, sexual torture, tcest, explicit, genital mutilation, child abuse, victim blaming, panic attacks, suicidal thoughts)

“xxiii. vapor” from xxi-xxx of Diffraction by AngelDormais - Neither Donnie nor Leo know what to deal with Leo’s impending departure

Countdown to Clarity by LittleKy - The crumbling of Leo and Raph’s relationship in reverse (tw violence, family dysfunction)

“Moon” from 100 Challange - TMNT by Kamefootninja (Kame630) - The moon hasn’t changed, but Leo and his family have (tw family separation)

Homecoming Child - Leo comes home too late (tw major character death, implied character death, family separation)

The Lost World from Kay the Cricketed - Leo tries to figure out who he is in the wild heart of the jungle (tw family separation, identity issues, past violence)

TMNT Bayverse

The guilt you dont deserve [comic] by Traitmill - Leo and his family deal with the fallout from their latest trauma (tw turtlecest, blood and gore, gore, trauma)

Lean Into the Hard Left by bright_roaring_blue - Leo struggles to cope with his father’s unveiled secret (tw implied sexual content, family issues)

The gift horse's mouth. by leospigtails - Leo experiences a transformation with painful implication for the whole family (tw nonconsensual drug use, tcest, bad parenting)

Home by Ponaco - Leo learns to step up at a young age (tw violence, childhood trauma, speciesm)

Out of the Shadows by cptsuke - Leo struggle to take care of his brothers, even when they don’t really understand his methods (tw implied violence, family dysfunction, speciesm)

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