#ummm. anyways *gaping void of loneliness and despair bc i want to stay at home forever but also i want to stay on campus forever and for

[pepprs]

ok besties so im not in pain anymore thank GOD and my ear infection is almost gone but even still im gonna be living at home for another week until i finish my antibiotics 😍

#bc im at risk of muscle tears / strains bc of them and i have a family history of it… and i live on the 3rd floor of a building on top of a #steep hill 😍😍😍😍😍😍 so im gonna commute w my brother except i have to come to campus late for work basically every day so he doesn’t have to #be possibly exposed to covid and yet he’s pissed at me for asking him to do his virtual class at home instead of on campus ONE TIME 😍😍😍😍😍😍 #so everyhing is awesome. but at least i may be dropping my history class w the guy who has an uncomfortable crush on me and replacing it w #an independent study w my advisor who is one of my favorite ppl on the planet so maybe that one thing is genuinely awesome. but #everything else? awesome (sarcastic) #purrs #* 3rd floor of a building on top of a steep hill etc etc in like the farthest possible place from all the buildings i have to go to for work #and class etc etc. so on top of the climb there’s also the 10 minute walk to everything and i do NOT want to get plantar fasciitis 😍 #ummm. anyways *gaping void of loneliness and despair bc i want to stay at home forever but also i want to stay on campus forever and for #the next 7-ish months of my life at minimum im never fully going to be able to put all of myself in one place. also because i am safe and #comfortable here but i also am not free and on campus im free but im not safe and comfortable like i am here but i still miss it so much and #just want to be in my room again i think. lol XD* #also like i could change my mind at any time and decide to go back to my room and just take the risk of hurting myself. but idk. sigh #and plus i like NEED to go back to my room i forgot my toothbrush charger…. =_=