#unhealthy mentality

[foxy-pawsy]

You ever know someone who has such a death grip on their emotions that they're incapable of healthily expressing those emotions? Where they can't express the way they feel when they need to, without going immediately back into control-overdrive?

I'm "someone".🙃

#ignore me im working through some things #i realize that i coping mechanism-ed my way into being this way #i dont even know how to explain it #vent #vent post #me #me things #emotional supression #unhealthy coping mechanisms #unhealthy mentality

[thepeacefulgarden]

#recovery #stop enabling #self care #self care is not selfish #doing the hard stuff #self care is not an indulgence #codependency #boundaries #relationships #unhealthy relationships #family #friendship #mental health #make yourself a priority #self compassion #healing #low contact #no contact #dysfunctional family #people pleasing #fawning #love #find your people

[itsseriouslyridiculous]

getting my wisdom teeth out would cost 2000 because my dental plan isn't very good.

I was all feeling like I should anyway because they say the younger you are when you get them out the better it'll heal (I'm getting older every day). and they are pushing my other teeth tightly together making them get crooked and harder to floss. and one has a cavity (probably the one that had a flap of skin over it for years).

but. when I just mentioned that I'll probably need to get my wisdom teeth out, my mom got all against the idea, like she doesn't trust my dentist and she says I should go to her dentist. and that's so dumb I don't have the extra money to have an appointment with a whole other dentist office.

and now I feel bad and unsure of what to do.

she kind of does this to me. it's a pattern. has very strong opinions about an important expensive decision. strongly states her opinion as the only right way, turns any discussion into an argument. leaves me confused and I do the fawn thing trying to appease her. it feels like I have no other choice but to do what she suggested or whatever option she liked or the first thing she responds positively to. and it ends up being the wrong thing to do. and once it's undeniably clear that it was the wrong decision. then it's always referred to as my decision, that I chose this. that I wanted this.

and I guess ultimately it was. I chose to go along with her. I chose not to fight. I chose to hope it would work out. but it didn't feel like a choice when it was happening. it felt like it was already decided. it felt like there was nothing else I could do.

it doesn't feel fair to say I wanted to do this. I didn't want to. but I did try to do it.

the things I want aren't practical or allowable or ever the right thing. so now I can barely tell what I actually want.

and I can't stop myself from asking my mom's opinion, I can't stop myself from telling her about my plans or my life. it's like a compulsion or something. and her opinion holds too much weight, her positive regard is too valuable. she can make me unsure of a decision I had already made, she can make me think I look bad in an outfit I picked out and felt pretty in. and the effects are quick and permanent, I'll never feel pretty in that dress again. I'll always believe that I don't have what it takes to be an animator.

and I take everything to heart. it is all my fault. I am too easily influenced. I'm too sensitive, I'm overly emotional. I make bad decisions.

and I feel all this everytime I don't measure up to standards whenever I struggle or regret. that it's my fault.

but I know it's unfair. it may be selfish of me to say but, my mom made me this way. I'm conditioned to listen to her. I've had years and years of repeated negative feedback whenever I did things alone .

I'm trying to get better. but it's hard. I always feel like I'm making a mistake.

and so all this came back up because of wisdom teeth. if we aren't considering the money I was thinking it's a good idea to get all the wisdom teeth done at the same time. all the pain and healing at the same time only ruin one month instead of 2. and it would be over.

my mom says I can only do one or 2 at a time because it will hurt too much to do all of them, or it's somehow more dangerous to do them all at once.

and I don't know what to do. I can't let myself mindlessly trust my mom. she is often wrong. but what if she's right?

I cried typing this all out, I cried until my cat Tsumi jumped on my lap.

its starting back up again.

#decisions #unhealthy mentality

[honeypleasejustkillme]

so real.

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd vent #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd #bpd fp #unhealthy love #wooooo #i love posting these types of things cuz it’s just always calling out #guys i want a lover #someone date me #someone come give me cuddles pls

[7nvk]

i will give and give until nothing is left of me

#unhealthy relationships #mental health #depressing shit #depressiv #mentally drained #mentally tired #quotes #sad quotes #mental illness #depressing quotes #mentally unstable

[jvlianbashir]

"ezri was 21 when she was joined and became the counselor on ds9"

#she should be at the club drinking shitty vodka crans instead of dealing with everyone's mental crises and unhealthy projections haha #yeahyeahyeah i know joined = more experience but im always shocked to remember how actually young she was to be in the position #julian and jadzia were like 27-28 when they first got to ds9 #star trek #ds9 #ezri dax #doctor's log

[placetovent306]

I realized that the reason I can't get better is because I feel the best when I'm at my sickest

#actually bpd #bpd #bpd thoughts #i'm so tired #s3lf harn #s3lfharmm #tw s3lf harm #vent #bpd blog #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd stuff #bpd feels #bpd meme #bpd shit #bpd things #bpd vent #actually mentally ill #mentally unhealthy #mentally unwell #mentally fucked #self sabotage #self destruction

[nemugyo]

#drawing #illustration #original art #digital art #oc #art #tw mental illness #mental illness #unhealthy relationships #unhealthy love #tw depressing stuff #depression #cw #neet #neetcore #hikikomori #traumacore #tw self destructive behavior #tw

[cherylmustdie]

-i drink so i dont cvt myself (another fucking coping mechanism)

-i cvt myself because i get drunk and have no ability to control myself

it doesn't make any sense

#tw s3lf harm #$elf harm #$elf h4rm #$h tumblr #mental health #s3lfharmm #mentally fucked #s3lf mutilation #mental health relapse #tw sh related #i wanna relapse so bad #tw selfhate #self h@te #self h@rm #mental illness #$hblr #tw self destructive behavior #tw self destruction #unhealthy coping mechanisms

[sleepyflowershead]

that a huge hat..

#cookie run #pure vanilla cookie #shadow milk cookie #cookie run au #this guy with unhealthy mental is killing them #this doodle is lazy #trapped forever soul au

[signedjehanne]

people on tumblr will literally post things like “you have to eat vegetables and expand your palate i dont care if you are a picky eater because of autism (if i can overcome it you can too)” and everybody will reblog it being like “yes this is true for everybody no matter what” and think its okay. like sorry but that wont work for everyone and there is no one size fits all and some people will never be able to eat these things no matter how hard they try. im only allowed by my doctors to eat recreationally and not for nutrition, because my ARFID is so severe that i get my nutrition solely from a specially made formula drink. your suggestions of “try vegetables roasted!” or “try them in soup!” and assurances of “i did it, you can too!” don’t work for those of us with more severe mental illnesses and disabilities. stop tying a person’s worth to their diet and stop assuming everybody has the ability to do what you can.

#seb speaks #autism #arfid #disability #i am TIRED. #for me #it’s not just sensory issues it’s a subconscious response #that reads unfamiliar foods as poisonous #this has been confirmed by all the doctors and scientists ive spoken to #actuallyautistic #i cannot have it blended to where i cant taste or feel it because even the thought #of those foods elicits panic attacks #because again. my brain reads them as poisonous. whether i want it to or not #you may say ‘this is sooo unhealthy tho’ #and yes! it is! because i’m mentally ill and disabled and i will never be healthy in this department #for as long as i live #i have done 3 rounds of feeding therapy and 1 support group #and countless visits to doctors and specialists and scientists #and they have all confirmed i will not get better #so the best i can do is to drink the formula and eat my safe foods. it’s the only way i’m physically able to live #and it’s why im not dying in a hospital bed from malnutrition anymore

[ddruxyart]

At this point the bully has become the bullied but he keeps coming back for more??

#whitney the bully #dol whitney #dol #degrees of lewdity #dol fanart #ddruxyart #artists on tumblr #my art #Sorry Fem!Whitney lovers I dont have a solid mental image of her yet so yall gotta make do with this Masc!Whitney #I know I said that I prefer to create character designs that work for either sex/gender bc I focus on capturing their feel & personality- #-but there ARE some exceptions and yes; Whitney is one of them. Alex is the other but I havent had the energy to do their fem version #At this point my games Whitney HAS to be into it with the amount of times he comes back for more- #- I'm really curious what his friends thoughts are on that #The lil chibi is my oc turned pc; Dee. They would be in a real unhealthy relationship if the game would allow her to do more to him #Dee; absolutely incredulous: I THOUGHT YOU AT LEAST WERE NORMAL ABOUT ME WHEN IT COMES TO THE BULLYING #He specifically has those snake bites so that he can lick the blood off of them

[thepeacefulgarden]

#relationships #interpersonal #family #generational trauma #religious trauma #exvangelical #ex catholic #unhealthy relationships #people pleasing #fawning #codependency #mental health #self respect #self compassion #self care #self love

[professor-amaryllis]

#pokemon irl #pokeblogging #pkmn irl #art #cooper the hisuian sneasel #cheddar the hisuian sneasel #pokemon #hisuian sneasel #//could a mentally unhealthy person make this?? #//lmao

[honeypleasejustkillme]

yeaa i know they’re not healthy but they keep me afloat so whatever

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd fp #bpd #bpd vent #bpd favorite person #bpd problems #bpd mood #bpd memes #unhealthy coping mechanisms #oopsie #it is what it is man #i be looking at the red flags in my coping mechanisms like they’re candy instead of red flags..

[gideonisms]

I will admit I hate the trend towards measuring how Healthy fictional relationships are. they're not breakfast cereals! we don't need to measure the amount of fiber! even if it did matter how much fiber a fictional relationship has "healthy" is also a very general, vibes-based word for concepts that I think we probably should get more specific about

#here are some great words: 'consensual' 'exploitative' 'fulfilling' 'draining' 'enjoyable' 'painful' 'affectionate' #we can talk about the ways a relationship is or isn't working for the parties involved #without falling back on 'health' #i think that what is considered healthy changes based on the time period and in general as a queer person i do feel a certain hesitance #to just like nod to health without specifying what i mean given the complicated relationship between queerness and #being considered unwell or unhealthy by society/doctors/psychiatry #ultimately this is a small thing and doesn't matter because once again #if everyone in a work of fiction stayed physically and mentally healthy throughout that would be a very boring story. to me #it's just not the type of story i like so it doesn't matter anyway it's just #sometimes i'm like. but we all know there is no one simple standard for health right? right??