#unhinged and isolated

[theidlespoon]

feminine urge this masculine urge that how about the mentally unhealthy urge to isolate myself from anyone who i ever been faintly vulnerable to.

#text post #textpost #shitpost #tumblr #relatable #humor #humour #trust issues #lmao #mental health #sad humour #sad vibes #mentally unstable #sad truth #feminine urge #masculine urge #mentally ill #unhinged and isolated #i feel isolated #tired but alive

[jahiera]

I know it’s just a games mechanic thing but I’m kind of obsessed with the idea of the potential learning curve astarion had to do being thrust out into the wilderness and actually fighting for his life every single day after 2 centuries of stalking shadows and mostly using charm to keep himself safe and alive. picking up a bow for the first time in centuries and it’s awkward, unwieldy at first, but the muscle memory slowly returns to him as he uses it more and more—and so does the question of, did he learn to use this while he was mortal? did he enjoy it? it feels familiar, like a long passed hobby he might’ve once had. or having to quickly adapt to using two daggers for actual combat rather than the one he might have kept on him just in case an alley interaction turned sour. astarion having to learn how to fight in a group, when he’s always been deeply, deeply alone in the shadows before. slowly adapting to watching karlach’s back, picking off enemies from the side as they group around her, or picking off an enemy that was creeping up on wyll with a trick shot from a distance. like there’s no way he did any of these things back in baldurs gate, and it’s a special kind of thrill to accumulate new skills, work skills he barely remembers even having, or finding new ways to utilize talents that once would’ve served cazador but now he uses them to save his own life, and occasionally protect his …. friends … with only mild complaining. something makes me crazy about astarion being forced to use his body for centuries to lure people back with his attractiveness and middling charm and NOW he can turn his body into something strong, a weapon that belongs only to him, reclaim autonomy through the ways he chooses to fight and develop skills and abilities cazador never would’ve wanted him to have

#I have a Mini Essay for Every Companion on their relationship to fighting vs autonomy by the way. Unhinged essays #wyll losing his powers at the beginning as he mentions. karlach using her brutality to DEFEND HER FRIENDS rather than fight for zariel #gale flexing spells and talents he hasn’t dipped into in so long while he was isolated away. #lae’zel learning what it means to fight in a group that wants to keep you as safe as they do themselves. fighting for protection. #BITING DOWN. #bg3 meta

[scarecrowdrugs]

I love Jonathan Crane as the cold academic type as much as anyone else, but my absolute favorite personality is him just being an absolute little freak for shits and giggles. I want this man to be hissing from the top of a fridge in full Scarecrow gear just because he can. Jon would absolutely reenact urban legends for the thrill of it; let's just be honest with ourselves, this is the type of guy who'd hide underneath your bed and lick your hand to fuck with you. I want him scuttling his bony ass into air vents and just launching himself straight onto people. This man has rabies and he's proud of it.

#dude needs to start dragging people into the air vents alien isolation-style #i want this man unhinged and absolutely loving it #absolute rancid man #jonathan crane #scarecrow

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

Oh we are so BACK

When I tell you I saw this and died. HELLO?????

I keep hiding my face lahshjsdhjgfsaf HE HAS NO RIGHT. NO RIGHT AT ALL BEING THAT SEXILY INTENSE AAAAAAAAAAA

Anyway, I should probably try to make some attempt at describing the event since. If I don't I'll just be barking/crying/hiding my face for the next twelve hours.

Basically--and I'm not sure this is going to be across the board, but it held true for Napoleon and Sebastian at least--each suitor has a birthday event this year instead of a separate story. Comte's won't be released until tomorrow, but they have posted a preview.

From what I gather, he talks a little bit about himself and reveals parts of his past that haven't come to light in the game yet. There wasn't really enough to convey a coherent narrative beyond attending a party, but the line displayed here does get across the larger theme:

Comte: (I don't need momentary pleasure or ephemeral affection any longer. Now that I know love, there's nothing but you.)

He talks about how the aristocracy have thrown parties and extravagant celebrations for his birthday for most of his life. But none of it has ever really made him happy, largely because he knows that they are attempts to strengthen and broadcast power relations within high society. While I don't think he means it's entirely devoid of well wishes, I do think he sees it as a nexus of influence--and thus, by nature, impersonal. And honestly, I don't think he's wrong about that; the higher the echelon in social standing, the more it requires performance to maintain the position.

That being said, there is a fascinating flashback where he remembers a pureblood telling him about how falling in love with a human is an experience of another caliber entirely. My understanding is that Comte was still a fairly young vampire at the time, so he didn't really understand what the person was getting at. It seems like the other pureblood was trying to convey the difference in feeling, perhaps the fact that humans are more grounded in accordance with how they live--the reality and necessity of change.

After reading this--and the recent 5th bday story--I can absolutely see how change is something Comte has a complicated relationship with. He's known a certain way of life for so long, has constructed a sensibility of distant, rational maturity. After all the heartbreak of his youth, and two very acute traumatic events in his life, I can see why he'd be so afraid of broaching any kind of proximity with another person. Because on some level it's so much easier not to put your feelings on the line, to never have to fear devastating loss. And that's to say nothing of the worry of being unable to measure up on behalf of another person, of letting them down.

I'm so excited to see the rest of the contents, but something about the preview made me equal parts giddy and enamored (all I do is kick my feet with excitement LOL). I think what gets to me with Comte is that he truly does love companionship as a place to rest, a place where he can be honest about himself and his feelings without fear of ridicule (and the same goes for MC). In a world increasingly obsessed with surface level performances of power, status, and emotion, it's hard not to feel his exhaustion to the core.

Also, because these lines at the end more or less destroyed me in the best possible way:

MC: ...The you who had nowhere to belong no longer exists. In much the same way...Abel, I belong to you. Comte: ... Comte: I wish I could say to myself all those years ago, the me who kept indulging in such paltry things. Comte: Until you meet MC, you will never know love... The warmth of MC in my arms filled me with such joy I was near tears. (I don't need momentary pleasure or ephemeral affection any longer. Now that I know love, there's nothing but you.) The moment my lips found hers, the sweetness lit a fire deep in my body. Comte: These cute lips that melt against mine, the heat of your skin, the love that envelops me in your embrace--always leaves me so deeply in love with you.

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp spoilers #LETS GO ABEL UNPACKING ALL THOSE COPING MECHANISMS #**pats the couch next to me** CONFIDE IN ME #but in all seriousness i really do love how raw his relief and happiness feels #to have spent all of those years trying to subsist on emotional crumbs and numbing himself #and mc is so real for just gathering him in her arms and holding him tight QUEEN MOOD!!!! #i really really really love that general recurrence in his stories too #of how he always feels so isolated and out of place even when he's surrounded by people #yet all it takes is mc saying 'you belong to me--just as I belong to you. you're never truly alone :>' #to make him both overjoyed but also unhinged with so much love for her--to feel alive #also man........MAN..... #him looking back at who he used to be vs who he is now #im so caught between memeing like 'you know what that is? growth!' #but also lowkey weeping from the fact that he feels loved enough to look back and fully admit it wasn't quite happiness #that he was just surviving the only way he knew how--not really living #ABEL THE THINGS YOU DO TO ME #CMERE LOVER BOY #comte propaganda #fangdad propaganda #baguettosaurus #literally october was always my favorite month but its even better now that it just becomes a comte-loving festival for me #truly all the joys of monsterfking all tg

[s0fter-sin]

reverse verse where soap takes on the mask instead of ghost. he wears his red skull mask so you can see the lower half of his face and his chin scar extends along his whole jaw to look like exposed teeth

#his chin scar is so gnarly and i think we gloss over it just a little too much #i like reverse verses but i think they can change just a little too much #like i wouldnt have soap act like ghost #if anything id have him act the same just more unhinged #hes still extroverted and will talk to people but people find him very unnerving #theres just this edge to everything he says and does that lets you know just bc hes being civil doesnt mean he wont rip your throat out #with his teeth #and hes just brutal in the field #preferring hand to hand wanting to get up close and bloody #very berkeresque where other soldiers learn not to go near him or interrupt him bc he cant always differentiate friend from foe #except for one deadpan brit who had a soldier’s eyes long before he ever joined the military #dour and depressing until he cracks a messed up joke and everyones shovked when they hear a scottish voice laugh #just soap who goes through roba and simon whos still ghost after living through his fathers abuse #just slightly less self isolating since he still has his family #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #we’re a team. ghost team

[lesbianspeedy]

arrowfam as tiktoks ...1/?

(Flashing Lights around 1:00-1:10)

#i would say #that this is what i spend my time doing in isolation #but i think we all know that whether i was isolated or not i'd be doing this so #arrowtoks #arrowfam #dc comics #green arrow #black canary #speedy #Ollie Queen #oliver queen #dinah lance #roy harper #connor hawke #arsenal #emiko queen #red arrow #let me say trying to find one for connor was harder than it had any right to be #its just that i watch inherently unhinged tiktoks and connor is very hinged compared to the others

[kg-clark-inthedark]

my roman empire is when in dh2 you take out the first guard you encounter after you leave the tower in a long day in dunwall and if you’re playing as Corvo he says “traitorous dog” or “disloyal dog”

#the disgust in his voice 🫣 #also sometimes he says you’re not fit to wear that watch uniform #and I’m like ugh #like no we’ve rehearsed this #I’ve been a bad dog remember?? #someone isolate this voice line for me so I can stop watch playthroughs for this specific reason #yeah this is unhinged but #when they said sexualize that old man I took my orders to HEART okay?

[girldewar]

thinkin about the deweys . as always

#there is this trend i have noticed within myself #where whenever it hits finals season i want to avoid doing my finals so so so bad #that i just start coming up with the most unhinged depressing fic concepts ever known by man #today's is a post-trade queer isolation fic centered on the way things weren't perfect in minnesota not by far #but at least connor was a little sure -- a bit mind you nothing crazy or anything #but a little sure that if his teammates didn't already know what was going on with brandon they'd just accepted a certain level of #Weirdness #that gave them a pretty long leash re: what they could get away with without being noticed or ostracized #but now he's on the leafs and he's running into all these new issues he never had to worry about before #they want to know why he's on his phone all the time. they want to know if he has a girlfriend. they want to know about brandon #but not like that of course why would they have any reason to think it was like that. and even if they did think it was like that -- #connor has enough to worry about already without being on sheldon keefe's or auston matthews' or whoever's shitlist for being queer #or for that matter the toronto media's shitlist. and to top it all off he and brandon aren't even in the same country anymore. #not even in the same CONFERENCE #fuck. #bees speaks #ok bye im gonna go stare at this stupid poem for a while #rpf talk #2126

[shipverse]

Spent a day sketching Matt ♥️

twitter

#it was SO much fun u guys #i had so much fun #im usually a lot slower so it rly flowed #daredevil #matt murdock #my art #not that he has a perfect pokerface (he chips easily) #and his eyes are SO expressive - meaning the subglasses is a total necessity for emotional facade purposes also #but he tries his best to stay composed in civilian form #pictured one clenched jaw fake polite smile and simmering w anger on there ahaha #he has so much anger.. #and the worst copingmechanisms #isolation and pushing everyone away (before he can be abandoned and hurt again- or worse get them hurt) #ugh. him ♥️😭 #biggest shiny bambi eyes hidden behind the sunglasses👏😔 #cw: blood #tw: blood #unhinged feral vigilante lawyer man i love him

[whump-queen]

i just wanted to say i loved seeing you go through ashtrays story and reading your tags agkfhdjs hope your fever went down and you were able to rest :D

— @honeycollectswhump

OMG WAAHH HIHII!!

I don’t think we’ve talked before but !! ok we have @whumpsday and @whumpshaped to thank for this whump story matchmaking because

AND THEN I BINGEREAD IT THAT NIGHT.

i’m always thrilled and delighted that people are reading my unhinged tags, and that the author of the work (YOU BABE!!) sees my little spam and !! YAY!! I hope it makes you feel some of the good happy emotions I felt while reading your little ashtray story cuz it just made me so happy to read 🥰🥰🥰

#long ask answer cuz i’ve been rly isolating myself the last few months and like #fuck I had to get back on this BEING UNHINGED ANYWAY and reading the little stories about pathetic boys LIKE ASHTRAY AAAGGF #and just going to fuck OFF in the tags cuz that’s HOW I DO IT BABYYYYYY #bc it’s always how i’ve connected w people on here and I HAD STOPPED DOING IT WHICH #LIKE #MOANA BITCH #REMEMBER WHO U ARE #so yes he gives me the spice of life again #a little ashtray whumpee to remind me why i’m sticking around on this little rock a litttttle looongerrrrrr #and yes my fever went down feeling bettte now <3333 #answered asks #akias asks #MOANA BITCH MOANA MOANA

[sillyfairygarden]

you love blood too much (but not like i do, not like i do)

#i wanted to test out some new brushes and get some wings under my belt #they just ended up on fire i dont know the reason your honor #i just think hes neat. a little unhinged and a little isolated its good blorbo material #anyways im still not over 3rd life. yah that killed me #DONT ask why his scarf is blue do you know hhow hard it would be to add more red to this piece #mcyt fanart #mcyt #thellos art corner #3rd life grian #3rd life #3rd life fanart #third life fanart #third life grian #3rd life smp #third life smp #lyrics are ethel cain i owe her my whole life

[imminent-danger-came]

Unhinged Anon again, and thank you for the meme! I love that you went through the extra effort to add Macaque's jacked-up eye lol.  

But also, your response has me straying ever closer to the brink of insanity, because now I can’t stop thinking about how MK and Macaque in S2E7 kind of parallel Azure and MK in S4E13-14.

It’s not a perfect parallel, of course, but… 

A character who really, really wants to be a hero and help others ends up isolating themself from the people who care about them most and hurting/endangering those dearest to them, as well as the world in general, as they pursue more power (MK in S2E6-7, Azure in S4E12-14). A ‘hero’ who doesn’t realize their slowly becoming someone that, if they were to look at themselves from the outside, they would never call a hero. 

Another character, who is technically their enemy but doesn't really want the ‘hero’ to go down a self-destructive path and sees their genuine desire to do good, throwing every ounce of flawed reasoning and self reassurance the ‘hero’ has ever tried to use right back in their face. Pointing out every hypocrisy, every step taken towards becoming something, everything, the ‘hero’ doesn’t want to be. 

A ‘hero’ getting a reality check in the form of an ass beating from someone significantly stronger than them while said stronger being points out the mistakes the ‘hero’ doesn't realize they’re making. And this ass beating happens while the ‘hero’ is completely separated from their friends, alone with nobody but their enemy. *slowly rotates “It’s scary being alone” around in my head*

“In the darkness, the Warrior was forgotten by the Hero''. All of the isolating MK does in S2E6-7, unintentionally leaving his friends alone and vulnerable to the kidnapping vs S4E13 Azure nearly hitting Yellowtusk with the scroll while attacking MK and SWK. Bonus points for the snack area MK goes to having much better lighting and being above the theater where he leaves his friends, and Azure being well lit from his place high in the sky while Yellowtusk is on the ground and shaded by the forest. Bonus bonus points for an ‘enemy’ being the one to save the ‘hero’s friends, not the ‘hero’ himself. Macaque’s the one that broke the lamp and Tang had to shield Yellowtusk from Azure’s barrage. 

And don't even get me started on how Wukong fits into all this.

Anyways, something something “The second the hero got real power, he couldn’t care less about his friends. That’s you bud” something something “Come on, Unkie Lion. You’re the big hero, right? Then prove it” something something the parallels between MK and Macaque are driving me insane, and I’m starting to realize that Shadow Play might be my favorite S2 episode. Anyways, hope you’re having a wonderful day! *waves from the precipice of madness*

DELICIOUS ANALYSIS THANK YOU UNHINGED ANON. Always a pleasure to see you here in my ask box!

So with Tang being the one to save Yellowtusk in 4x13 and Macaque being the one to save Mei, Pigsy, and Tang in 2x07, there's also the Lady Bone Demon being the one to save Macaque from death—rather than Wukong, whose whole motivation for power was to protect the people he cares about. The delicious irony.

We can even take this another step further and point to the Embrace Your Destiny special, where Wukong leaves MK and then gets possessed. Possessed Wukong then hurts MK and Macaque is the one who has to save him. Look at this parallel here for more fun!

#hmmmm I think 2x08 might be my favorite s2 episode with 2x05 and 2x07 really close behind #But it's because of sandy destroying the fucking bear mountain. It kills me every fucking time #Like cool ''Doomed to play a role in tearing this world apart.'' LIKE. COOL. #asks #lmk #lmk analysis #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #lmk MK #lmk Azure Lion #lmk Macaque #unhinged anon #Don't even get me started on ''it's scary being alone'' and how that plays into like. Into all of it. the whole fucking show #Abandonment and togetherness themes. #Themes of isolation #Leaving motif #Reaching motif #''We're stronger together'' ''I need to stop dragging you into my fights'' ''Wukong has to drag everyone else into his mess'' #Like. How your close proximity to others enables you to hurt them. #It's scary being close to people and it's scary being alone #''You don't want to fight Azure cause people might get hurt—you don't want to not fight Azure cause people might get hurt'' #it's the crack writing #the writing they put crack in #ANYWAYS CLEARED MY ASK BOX WOOO.

[jackdawsfavorite]

What doesn't kill you makes you sad strange defensive and difficult to connect with

#It's my annual visit to stay with my parents which means #Two weeks of being as normal as possible around people all day while my journal entries get increasingly unhinged #Because openness fosters interpersonal closeness but I don't know how to be Open around them in a way that doesn't massively hurt for evry1 #Like. How am I? I'm in near constant emotional pain because coming back here sucks. Because my memories of here since #like eleven are of suffering and fear and inability to escape. So I'm scared and hurting. But! #I will keep coming back here anyway. Because one day I won't have my parents anymore. And I don't want to regret time not spent with them. #It's a bit perverse isn't it. Being motivated by fleeing fear instead of pursuing love. But that's where I'm at. #And what are my parents meant to do with that? They can't fix it. Or me. They can't apologize in a way that would mean anything to me. #They can only suffer in guilt and helplessness. And then I'll imagine their suffering and hurt more for it. #And that's it! Fin! The only endpoint I can see. I've tried putting it on their shoulders before. It only hurts. #So I will try very hard to behave like I'm calm and okay. And in two weeks or when I snap -whichever comes first- I'll go back home #And return to the peace of social isolation and cleaning my house and admiring wildlife. #It's not healthy to keep oneself so alone. But I am not healthy. I'm sad and strange and defensive and difficult to connect with. #And nobody but me can help me and I don't know how to be different. #Christ. I need to go back to therapy. I need a hint. #Memories

[pussysidon]

Why is it that in every modern Beauty and the Beast adaptation everyone still treats the beast like some hideous monster? A guy in a huge fursuit is literally just an average Tuesday for me

#beauty and the beast #modern au #unhinged #let's also not forget the monsterfuckers #i think that the beast could definitely find love on the Internet #there are so many people online who would fuck a furry #also why is he always isolated ib theses aus like #no one gives a fuck how you look as long as you buy stuff

[synobun]

(In which we learn erin only knows how to show support via jokes) (sorry) (they will probably not improve with time)

#ask reply #good meme #ngl though i did get self-conscious about venting in my tags #and reblogging generally sadboi things #i've never been good at tumblr and interacting with new people #so the thought of potentially alienating the few people who DO interact with me is not a nice one #especially when I'm mid isolating from everyone and every community #it feels affirming of my drive to disappear i guess #tumblr why is the post now button grayed out #do i have to type something in the actual post #yes i do okay #i'm gonna put a gif of something unhinged

[athousandcowboys]

What sorts of stories do u like writing? Any ideas ur excited about right now??

I’m kind of newish to writing stories, so I guess I don’t have a set genre/preference yet. I wrote a lot of fiction as a kid but got bored of it eventually, and I never finished anything. The most I’ve done since then is creative nonfiction essays, which can be cathartic but definitely a very different skillset.

I haven’t gotten an idea for an original story yet, so for now I’m just working on fanfiction. I’ve been thinking kind of obsessively about the Zelda II backstory ever since I thought it would be fun to imagine what would mean for all that to go down in the context of the canon that’s been established ever since.

Originally I was just going to write a story about Aurora and her brother (who I named Itentio), two Golden Age siblings under immense pressure who are at each other's throats until the bitter end.

But the more I thought about it, the more I became interested in Aurora's life after waking up, so now this idea has evolved into a LU fic. The POV flips from Traveler to Aurora to Dawn, and we get a flashback scene from each of them while the present-day story deals with them confronting their respective pasts.

I'm still kind of in early drafting stages, but so far the story involves Traveler's dad, Aurora's dad (lots of dads), Dawn's political life, uncertainty vs. certainty at the end of the world, rehydrated wizzrobes, the blood curse, monsters who don't want to be monsters, and lots and lots of magic.

#i rewrote this so many times idk if it's coherent anymore #i probably should have waited until i had more energy but i was too excited to not infodump immediately #i did the exact same thing u did lmao like oh she probably doesn't want every explanation for the worldbuilding i did #apparently it is so much??? i could go on forever about the zelda ii manual #isn't it interesting that the palaces could only be completed with magic #like the king not only had powerful enough magic himself to cast a spell on the triforce but he also designed challenges #for a future king that relied on magic #it's because they're from the same place! #an isolated country of sorcerers who don't have a divine right monarchy like Hyrule #they choose leaders based on who can complete the sacred seven trials #also isn't it interesting that traveler has to learn those spells from people who are hiding in basements #could it be that most hyruleans are a little spooked by their magic? #must have something to do with all those old legends of heroes who fought evil sorcerers #traveler would really rather not unpack his past. would be a shame if the narrative forced him to #okay enough ranting in the tags i am SO TIRED this must all look so unhinged lmao #hy writes #weetbixbb