#unstable sense of self

[booksbonesborderline]

maybe if i reinvent myself enough times, ill find a version of myself i actually like and want to be

#actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd things #bpd moment #borderline things #borderline vent #bpd fp #unstable emotions #unstable sense of self #who am i

[craycraybluejay]

You said in tags once that pedophiles and child predators aren't the same, can you explain why? /GEN

For the same reason that people with any kind of attraction to anyone ever aren't all rapists/don't all pursue romantic/sexual feelings that could or definitely would hurt the other person. Because paraphilias are simply the morally neutral state of experiencing attraction and rape/grooming is Not That. Because people *choose* to hurt others, but not what they feel. Because a good majority of child sexual abusers aren't even pathologically/paraphilically attracted to children, they *just want to hurt them because they can.* Because they're dissatisfied with something in life, or want a punching bag, or want to feel powerful, etc etc.

It's not really different conceptually from physical abuse. Do people do it because they have icky feelings about liking blood or violence? No. They do it to feel powerful. Sexual abuse is not about sex but about power. Hope this answers your question. I've answered it a good million times on this blog but eh I'm in a generous mood.

#anon response #pro para #girl imagine if ppl blamed randomass sadists for me getting beat up as a kid #like. no. thats not how that works. if they got off on hurting me in a literal sense they mightve been a little nicer ab it. #honestly its just flat out offensive to equate thoughts and feelings with abuse #regardless of someone's pathology you can always choose to do good and always choose to do evil #what you do with that ability is up to you. but rather than focusing consequences on random 'freaks' maybe focus them on #'normal people' who decide to covertly abuse their kids. or the priest who got tired of being godly and did some fucked shit #it is not the freaks you should fear but those who put on a face of normalcy while treating others like garbage and hurting people #also mostly those that are self aware know how to Be Good so to speak and im saying this broadly ab all 'dangerous' thoughts #ppl who know they can get triggered into violence will usually avoid sais triggers. ppl who spiral out of control during an episode will #have someone watch over them or find some way to offset any possible damage #even for people in whom some sort of harm is an instinctive reaction and not a conscious decision #steps can be should be and are taken to minimize problems and recover from anything that needs it #i trust a big 3 paraphile easier than an unstable person in power with no self awareness #because ive met both and only one has ever seriously hurt me. guess.

[hannibal-confessions-nbc]

I hate when people say Hannibal "ruined" Will's perfect life with Molly shuuut up Will made his own choices. Will conveniently walked his dogs when Jack was there and left Molly alone with him knowing he would show her crime scene photos and she'd try to make Will go. He said he knew what he was doing going back after Molly got hurt. Hannibal told him not to come back even and Will ingored it! We need to acknowledge Will is a manipulative person and makes his own choices

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#anon i am so sorry i took ages to post this. its been over a month i hope youre hanging in there #hannibal confessions #nbc hannibal #hannibal #im so sorry for ranting here! couldnt help myself. #about hannibal telling will not to go back... he did say that BUT because he knew will wouldnt #listen to him. will has problems with authority god damn it. course he wouldnt listen. i think im more upset with molly in this scenario #because she pushed will to do something he expressed uneasiness for. she pressured him. he guilt tripped him into going. #ik will makes his own choices but as someone who has been guilt tripped frequently by someone im supposed to trust. its not easy to ignore. #doesnt matter if its intentional or not. #guilt tripping is not easy to ignore at all. so yeah im mad at molly for that. BUT THEN. im mad at jack for guilt tripping molly into guilt #but then im not mad because jack was just doing his job. he wanted a way to catch the ripper and he was relentlessly out for his ass #and would stop at almost nothing to get there. including putting his agent-made-ex agent-made-agent again's life and wellbeing on the line #yeah. will is a grown man. he makes his own choices. hes manipulative. hes a good manipulator. #no matter how manipulative you are you can still be manipulated. and easily. will has an unstable sense of self and im 99.9999999 percent #sure he struggles with a dissociative disorder outside of the encephalitis. among plenty of other things. his sense of self is not stable. #that makes him malleable. he can close himself off all he wants to avoid being susceptible to manipulation but he's still malleable. #chiyoh said it. she's not as malleable as he is. #will graham #hannibal lecter #molly graham #jack crawford

[vurren]

my therian/otherkin/whatever you wanna call them identities tend to change and shift so rapidly... but I don't think this invalidates any of the ones I've had. identity is fluid, identity is flux, you're never going to be the same person you were a year ago but that doesn't mean you didn't exist as that person. things could change at any moment but use that as a motivator to enjoy your identity in the present

#otherkin #therian #alterhuman #vurr.txt #just trying to hype myself up tbh LOL #i have an unstable sense of self (bpd yayyyy) so i try to cope in any way i can

[mattodore]

Theo is bi?? Not trying to be rude I swear but he really comes across as a gay man? I somehow can’t picture him with a woman

hm... well, i can't say it's surprising that you'd think that, because i'm pretty sure i've only ever talked about his attraction to women on here once and it was only very recently (i think i mentioned it in his 60 questions post?). but theo's bi with a very strong preference for men.

the thing about theo is that he's very much real to me... so honestly i'm not gonna say he's 100% bisexual because i think it's something he's not even certain of himself. theo has a very hard time understanding his desires and knowing what he wants. um, and i think he's very averse to relationships, so he can try picturing himself with a woman the way you mentioned and he's always gonna be like hm... that's not for me. but he also has an even harder time picturing himself in a relationship with a man. so. his sexuality is something he struggles with alongside his desires. obviously his attraction to men is... really complicated and hard and he's repressed it for years of his life. but his attraction to women is also hard for him because of HOW exactly he's attracted to them... he doesn't want women the same way a straight man would want a woman ykwim? he doesn't want to perform masculinity the way society wants him to and i think he feels... almost as if he's doing something wrong no matter which way he acts on his attractions. so, yeah, he struggles a lot with his sexuality and he doesn't exactly know what he really wants.

but where I'M at with his character rn is that he's bisexual. maybe down the line this changes, but maybe not. i think where he's at right now is that while he hooks up with men most often, he still feels some attraction to women.

#river dipping #asks #anonymous #theodore doe #oc extras #echthroi #i open tumblr and this is the first thing i see... shifting into oc mode right as i wake up #i'm ONLY a little iffy on theo's sexuality bc theo himself is but matthias is 100% certain on his and i think all of my other ocs are too #well... dionte is repressing his and i think dutchie struggles but that's bc of catholicism yk how it is #theo's party friends are all gay so he doesn't really know anyone who's bi either... see this is why he needs to talk to imani and romeo #they're both bi and i think specifically talking to another bi man would really help him figure things out... #i actually identified as bi for... god... eight years i think? before realizing i was a lesbian and to this dayyyy i still question it #like am i really a lesbian or am i bi???? and i think that's also probably how it is for theo like no matter what i think he struggles #with knowing who he is................. one of his main traits is an unstable sense of self... it's why he has so many material possessions #he kind of uses them as... a window to his soul? and it's how he tries to understand himself #so obviously he struggles with his sexuality a lot... he really doesn't know who exactly he is

[theokusgallery]

I freaking love your au and your latest comic because MAN

I FELT THOSE LAST WORDS AND I WAS LIKE "OH FUCK"

First panel was already a bit unsettling itself - like you get it's just intimate manners as you do as a couple but he felt so possessive already and

Sunny's inner thoughts

I'm sure 100% his abandonment anxiety will increase drastically the more he stays with nick and honestly slay

I mean it's kinda obvious

But like I felt that

Yeah

Nick is unhinged

Nick is crazy

Y'all are gay for him

Good 😵💥

Sunny has soooo many issues. So many of them. He's so vulnerable and he makes himself vulnerable to Nick while still being intimidated by him, it's... Dude's got some problems.

#ive talked about mental illness and nick before but not sunny... #well. only a bit. ive said sunny's autistic #but he's also got other problems-- such as abandonment issues as you said #sunny's very insecure in relationships - partly because he has a very limited experience with them #and partly because he has self image issues. #when you grow up as an undiagnosed autistic kid you tend to be very aware you're different while not knowing how to change it #everyone thinks and says you're weird but you have no idea what's weird about you so you can't even try to fit in #a friend of mine told me once that she thought i was so brave for not being scared of being different in middle school #i wasn't. i wasn't brave. i just had no idea why people thought i was weird #sunny in this au knows how deeply different he is from other people but he doesn't know /what/ makes him different or how to change it #and as a result he just doesn't open up very much. he's very reserved and doesnt talk to many people. he has like two friends total #which also conviently makes him easy for nick to isolate #sunny also has bpd! and he gets deeply attached to people who show him any kind of affection very easily #as i mentioned before he also tends to fall for people who intimidate or scare him -- people he sees as mentally superior to him #his self image is constantly oscilliating between 'im the greatest person to have ever lived' and 'im the worst thing to have ever existed' #he's extremely unstable. he has mood swings. he gets obsessive easily. he seeks out relationships with mostly toxic or older people #he doesn't have a good support system. he's socially anxious and an introvert. he's openly trans. most people think he's weird. #he has no stable sense of self. he has panic attacks. he's both hypervigilant and oblivious to lies and attempts at manipulation #all of this makes him a very easy target for someone like nick. #at least- at /least/-- nick genuinely loves him. #ask #tosteur-gluteal #rant #arsenic #i start talking about psychology and i get lost. my apologies

[faggyangel]

another day another hour spent thinking about diagnosing ed with BPD

#like i dont mean it but im starting to think i mean #idk the unstable sense of self the somewhat intense idealization of stede which swings to thinking he doesnt care enough #risk seeking/impulsive behavior suicidal ideation at the thought of rejection fear of abandonment #also thinking he is a bad person at his core and constantly seperating Ed and Blackbeard i feel like ties into the unstable sense of self #mayhaps im projecting but By God he has a disorder #does anyone else see this or am i fully projecting cause i do say this a lot with characters i like ed feels. Different #edward teach #ofmd

[annelidteeth]

Is that me? Is this right?

#art #digital art #gore #body horror #annelidart #an unstable and nebulous sense of self #and a reading of the thing/frozen hell as a metaphor for something it's not

[timegears-moved]

ough i miss mlp now

#bwark #i think i gave up after swarm of the century on my rewatch months ago. pinkie was like my ult cc when i was 12 i miss her #even if she got flanderized to hell and back #unstable emotions and a fragile sense of self worth? that horse has bpd to me

[boycritter]

if i could exist without going between. im literally the hottest person alive. and . im so fucking ugly it actually aches. every 10 fucking minutes. that would be epic

#wuh oh! the tumblr users sense of self is extremely unstable !

[evilmacdennisevil]

heyyyy everyone so mac mcdonald actually has bpd which is comorbid with his autism. yeah

#sudden change in emotion going from extremely happy to extremely sad or angry #extreme volatility from seemingly small triggers #requires constant verbal reassurance that people around him like him #black and white view of issues and relationships #warped sense of self (his body image and tendency to be completely disillusioned about his abilities) #intense unstable codependent relationships #highly impulsive #literally needs constant attention #mac mcdonald #it’s always sunny in philadelphia #iasip

[aa-400]

in addison what is arthur "i am humanity. the best and the worst it has to offer." lester doing if not what he does best (be incredibly human, for better or worse (which in this case is worse))

#im not putting this in the tags but like.................... yeah #my guy did not become inhuman somehow or literally lose his sense of humanity or morality he was just Going Through It #yes hes cruel and shitty but thats a genuinely human response to his situation hes literally hitting rock bottom #after all the physical mental and emotional trauma its no wonder he goes on a self-hatred fueled rampage and projects hard onto larson #and takes it out on yellow john and the people in the mines #i just gfdiug theres nothing supernatural about it john definitely didnt Take shit theres not been like a shift between their souls #nor does arthur become an Evil Person #gjfidhgfd john doe vc: youre a good person arthur!!!!! #i just. hes in a bad place and he does bad things im not defending him im just saying #the best humanity has to offer is still in there we literally see it already in addison dude is just emotionally unstable (understandably) #im v sleepy idk where i was going with this weird post rant i guess im an arthur lester apologist now #addison arc more like arthurs mental health has crumbled and hes going (taking himself) down swinging

[nagichi-boop]

I was rewatching a video and it reminded me of something important, something I am still trying to learn myself.

Never assume that you are bothering someone unless they tell you that you are.

I know I’m not the only one who will say “sorry for bothering you” and the likes when talking to someone. But the thing is, that’s self projection. You’re projecting the idea that’s you’re a bother onto the other person. The only time you should assume you’re bothering someone is if the other person tells you that you are.

“But that’s an uncomfortable thing for someone to say.” Maybe, but the onus is on them to communicate that to you. They need to set that boundary. Chances are though if the person is talking to you and answering you, they probably aren’t at all bothered by you. Assume you aren’t bothersome until told otherwise.

The issue with projecting your feelings onto others is it can become a self-fulfilling prophecy. You continue to apologise for or ask about whether you are being a burden and it can be exhausting for someone to keep having to reassure you to the point it actually does become bothersome. Also, having someone reassure you every time you say sometime like “sorry for bothering you” actually doesn’t do you any good. It reinforces the idea that you are only not a bother if someone tells you you’re not when you should actually just be focusing on trying to not view yourself that way and/or projecting those insecurities onto the other person.

Be kinder to yourself. You’re not a bother. You’re not a burden. You’re just human.

— x —

Btw if you were curious, I was watching Dr Mick’s Psychonauts 2 playthrough. He talks about this concept both in this video (at 29:10-32:58) and this one (at 44:19 - 47:54).

#hopefully this makes sense but also I’m tired #reminders #self love #boundaries #anxiety #depression #ptsd #cptsd #bpd #eupd #borderline personality disorder #emotionally unstable personality disorder #mentally ill #mental illness #nagichi talks

[pathologising]

no longer a misandrist bc my bf was nice 2 me btw

#i feel so bad h3 worries so much abt me #and like it makes sense i am unstable and self harm and do stupid stuff so i dont blam4 him #but i dont like when he worries abt me

[ashrifts]

───ㅤ»ㅤwhat does your heart look like?

YOUR RESULT: ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ* A GUIDING, GOLDEN LIGHT.

Just because you cannot see your own heart doesn’t mean that others can’t. Your heart is blinding, captivating, a fire so bright that others can’t bring themselves to look away. It illuminates the path they follow and cements you as a guiding star for their own wayward hearts. Every experience you’ve lived through has built your lighthouse heart up just a little higher. You are inspirational, a light that doesn’t go out.

and─

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ* A TANGLED BALL OF RED STRINGS.

Who are you without the company of others? You aren’t sure, but you know that you aren’t fond of whoever it is. You are an actor, a pretty face and a pleasant song. Many idolize you, or love you, but you can never be sure of how sincere it is. Your heart is buried under the letters they leave you, sealed with a kiss. It can’t be untangled from the red strings they’ve attached to you. You deserve to find something, someone, true and faithful to hold your heart in place. You don’t have to be everything to everyone.

tagged by: @deathfavor 💕💕 tagging: idk who hasn't been tagged yet - take it from me and say i tagged u!!

#* ›› / * queue. #oop accidentally wrote an essay in the tags-- #retook the quiz with One different answer bc i felt both screamed ran and i couldn't decide on just one #and if i cut these in half and make them into one single result then it's very accurate LOL #ran has a very strong sense of self but there's certainly that overwhelming apathy towards everything unless it truly grabs his interest #so bc of this i think there's times he doesn't actually realize how kind and nurturing he can be towards those he cares about #and he may be an idiot sometimes but he can give really wise advice when needed #and be a firm ground for when the others' footing are unstable #so maybe not a guiding light in the way that his heart is beautiful and pure and inspirational -- #but he's definitely a person you can look to when you feel unsure #and the other result... he genuinely believes everyone either loves him or should “love” him #and that they do so sincerely bc ran voice why wouldn't they? #but in the end they're only seeing what he wants them to see bc his public image is so carefully crafted and calculated #so there's def a bit of skepticism when someone tells him they genuinely love him (aside from rindou bc he's the only one who rly knows him #* ›› / * dash games. #* ❪ㅤ​​starving skeleton valleyㅤ❫ ›› / * headcanon.

[la-lil-alien]

#me problems #state of me #actually me tho #me rn #me af #me irl #im a mess #i need help #send help #make it make sense #mentally unstable #hello darkness my old friend #mental health #alien #self deprecating meme #wtf is wrong w me #mental health memes #depressing shit #im sad okay #depressing memes #dark memes #dark moodboard #dark humor #dark comedy #tragedy #william shakespeare #self deprecating humor #sad memes #im sad af #life memes