#urgh its frustrating

[sunsetcorvid]

hyperfixates so hard that it interferes with my school and basic bodily needs

#okay like genuinely i cant focus on anything i cant do my work #im on academic probation because of this i dont know what to do at this point #any time i try to do one assignment my brain blocks it all out and i get so frustrated that i just dont do it #its so fucking stupid why cant i just focus on one assignment for 2 minutes i dont need to brainstorm object shows 24/7 im so tired of this #i dont even know how to put my frustrations into words now urgh #miles rambles #vent post #kinda #tw vent #may delete later

[hearts4juzi]

nobody does plot holes quite like pokemon

#tzu rambles #sorry but like. ive never seen a story quite as chock full of worldbuilding plot holes as pokemon #i forgive htem ofc bc theres REASON for a good bit of them but also like #urgh. its frustrating #“cubone wears the skull of its dead mother” so they just. all have dead mothers...? #and why do they hatch with a skull even in the anime iirc #“kangaskhan raises its baby in its pouch” but like. we never see a blue kangaskhan #why does it hatch with a child #what #actualy i dont forgive them for that one its as simple as making a pre evolved form 😭 #also the kangaskhan mega evolution is cool af but also stupid #ur baby grows up for four seconds?? h u h???? #actually the way they talk abt mega evolution in general is weird #why are you telling me about them catching prey and how it helps htem live in the wild #my brother in christ POKEMON CANT MEGA EVOLVE IN THE WILD #SHAKES YOU????? #idk. too much is made up to sound cool and be convenient!! urgh!!!!!!!! #pokemon #i forgive them tho

[wildlyfreemoon]

i wasnt gna talk ab physical 100 s2 on here but COME ON every person i root for gets eliminated

first lee won hee and now gibson like i will riot

#urgh its just frustrating like those are the two men i would have wanted to win bc they seemed cool #i always root for the women though i hope they win bc i hate when contestants are like “oh this will be easy bc shes a girl” #like kys #physical 100 #wildlywatches <3 #wildlywatches <3 physical 100

[arsenicflame]

im just endlessly frustrated with the way Stede and Ed learn something and then Immediately forget it again

we went from Stede not caring about The Swede having scurvy to learning to care for his crew at the end of s1 when they stand up for him, but then ignores their opinions on Ed, he has to be told to ask Lucius how he is, and he seems to genuinely care! then we get him letting the crew kick Ed off the boat but asking them to accept him back only a few hours later! as if anything's changed!

and Ed- he has this conversation with Fang, where he earns a real forgiveness, where he finally sees eye to eye with someone he's truly hurt- but do we get that with anyone else? NO! we get some bitchy comments to Izzy and that's it! he should have learnt the results of having a sincere conversation

Stede had that whole thing about talking to Low's crew about how they feel, but then when it looks like Olu and Jim and Archie are gonna leave he forgets about their feelings and only focuses on his personal offence!!!

how many times are we going to repeat this cycle?

#its just!!! so frustrating #i want to like them i want to!!!! but they never fucking learn #how many times have we had the stede discovers empathy arc #ed is honestly way less bad than stede in this regard but its still frustrating that we have to see this happen over something so important #ed made reparations. to people whos lives he didnt effect. #and then the crew threw a party and 'he' changed poison for positivity or whatever the fuck #he still hasnt actually said sorry to anyone other than fang and no i am not counting that sorry about your leg #SAY IT TO HIS FACE #not while youre walking away!!!!!!!!! #nyxtalks #ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #edward teach #stede bonnet #its just like. fuck dude we could be past this if you just learnt your fucking lessons? #if you realised other people exist in this world aside from you? #that this isnt your playground each and every person here has their own lives; their own thoughts and feelings? #urgh

[toastsnaffler]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests... #theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!) #but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍 #anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^) #.vent #.diaries

[sketchy-galaxy]

6, 7, and 10 with hunter!

THANK YOU I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT HIM TOO OFTEN

(look at him!!!!)

6. if your f/o is from a series, which episode/movie/game/book of their source content is your favorite?

I've heard Hunter is in an episode of the Clone Wars but so far I've only watched The Bad Batch series! Out of that season my favorite episodes would probably be Reunion and Kamino Lost!

I really like it when the show shows Hunter and Crosshair at odds with one another, Kamino Lost especially!

7. are there any specific scenes/chapters/moments of your f/o that you find yourself going back to revisit more often than any other? 

Yes! But Not in a 'going back to watch it' way, but in a 'to think about' way! I think about the scene when Hunter was trying to talk with the padawan in Episode 1 right before he jumps over the cliff. Like I know that he wasn't going to kill the kid and the kid had every right to not trust him but when if he had? What if Hunter had been able to go with the kid or take him back to Kamino to sort this out? Plus even before meeting Omega, Hunter was sort of acting in a very parental way. I think if he did know how to talk to a scared and shaken kid the Padawan probably would have trusted him

10. if you could change one thing about your f/o’s source content, would you? what would you change?

*froths at the mouth for a second before taking a deep breath*

Okay. Star Wars is technically Hunter's source, and in all honesty I don't know the Star Wars media that much to want to change anything. And a lot of the nitpicks I have about the source are from a meta/fandom perspective.

But looking away from that, I know I would love to see the Bad Batch's abilities be shown in more creative ways. Hunter ESPECIALLY.

It is implied that Hunter's ability gives him super senses (sight, hearing, smell, taste, and touch) This makes him an excellent tracker but they hardly show him actually putting these senses to use. Like to show it off, he touches the ground and somehow knows the squad of droids went west three hours ago. Like LET HIM USE HIS OTHER SENSES. In the last episode of season 2 he SENSES SHIPS FLYING IN THE AIR (probably by ear) LET HIM USE HIS OTHER SENSES CREATIVELY GOD DAMNIT

#hunter tag #cabanela #hunter has the most interesting ability of all the bb #but if the show SHOWED IT OFF MORE he would BE SCARY #like wrecker? scary tech? scary crosshair? scary af hunter? pft okay he can track us so can a dog whatever #URGH ITS SO FRUSTRATING

[pinkopalina]

IF I GOT A PENIS IT WOULD BE CALLED A NEOPENIS

#urgh great now im gonna start getting frustrated that everyone thinks penises are just for men #but in a whole new way where its like i a nonman without a penis would like to remain a nonman and have a penis #jfjdnsmsifhdn

[aro-aizawa]

ha. ha. hahaha. yeah i always love this feeling its great :)

#shut up danni's talking #been v distant lately bc i've mostly just been relaxing and listening to fics #but i have listened to literally all the fics i love almost twice now and i want to rip apart my own skin in frustration #bc i want to listen to fics but i have consumed p much all the fics that i ever could get into in my current fandoms #i have scraped the fkn bottom of the barrel in all of them and just urgh #i am so understimulated i NEED new fics to tear into but i don't want to get into a new fandom #but i have reread the same fkn fics for the same fkn fandoms for years and i just #and i mean its not like i haven't gotten into a new fandom for years bc i have read from new fandoms recently!!!! #i got into batfam fics which i never bothered to before and i checked out fnaf fic which is also something i never bothered w #but all the other fandoms i'd want to check out for fics either have none or they're so small that longfics are so rare and don't appeal #sigh #this feeling will pass i know it will #just a question of how long its gonna take for it to do so :/ #hope it happens soon

[kellystar321]

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#periodic life updates #hrnmg. burnt soup mom worked hard on; smoked up the house. i took it off the burner and opened the door but it still smells like smoke #i was heating it up but i forgot and it burnt gbffhgffhh. #urgh. my chest hurts. imbgjhgfhg!!!! frustrated. i should have taken care of it. arghgfsgggg. #im laying down while it airs out. i feel dumb. i wish i remembered to take care of it. guggghhhhhg >. #it smells bad and now my siblings wont have leftovers to eat and mom worked really hard on the soup and i KNOW its no big deal #i know it doesnt matter in the long run i KNOW but aughrhghggh. #UGHHG. night is bad now i am going to perish now (read as: sleep and pretend to not exist anymore) #ugh. jaces useless vents.

[fabulouslygaybean]

im kinda tempted to work on setting up a custom desktop theme for this blog but im not very talented at html or css, and finding an accessible premade theme is pretty difficult, so i don't even know

#like. there's lots of pretty themes! but its so hard to find ones that are easy to navigate and don't erase tumblr's base features #some make it impossible to fast reblog or see how many notes a post has or make it hard to find the alt text for images and so on #i wanna have everything still available and easy to see/access for the most part while still looking nice #urgh. frustration #okay kinda unrelated but this is my first time using desktop tumblr in a while and i didn't realize you could rearrange the order of your - #- tags by just dragging them #i love that feature so much

[terresdebrume]

You wanna know why my knee jerk reaction to the "stop making everything gay" discourse that pops up on this site every now and then is to go 'fuck off and fuck you'?

It's because I have this friend who, most likely without particularly meaning to, almost always responds to me mentioning two guys on a show may have a smidge of a chance of becoming canon by saying it would be weird, or inconsistent, or by finding an article where the actors hem and haws about characters sexualities and 'you can see it both ways'

And you know what? A lot of the time shipping stuff is just wishful thinking because most tv doesn't go there but it's just... The automatic shooting down of the idea that frustrates me. At best it feels like this is is completely impossible in their mind, at worst it feels like they're looking for arguments to prove I can't possibly be right about characters being queer because... I don't know.

And like... It's not like they're the only one, is the thing. It's the way we'll meaning people try to explain that this is never going to happen in popular shows that isn't specifically about queer characters from the get go. That I'm delusional for daring to think that maybe, some days, the relationships that are built up with everything you need to make a good romantic relationship will actually have a romantic ending and it'll be about main characters and it'll be okay, even if they weren't established as queer from the start!

And frankly? That attitude is just hurtful and frustrating.

It's not even really about shipping--I have plenty of ships I have zero hope or expectation for them becoming canon, but it would be fucking nice, for once, to be able to say 'hey, this one actually might' and not be immediately met with disbelief and denial. Like. Sorry to the (few?) people on Tumblr who tried to use 'stop trying to make everything gay' as a 'there are other identities out there' (a completely valid sentiment) but that is overwhelmingly not the feeling behind that phrase as soon as you step out from behind the screen.... so yeah, I'm really, really not ready to perceive this specific phrase, or its behavioral equivalent, in any way other than a rebuttal for being too queer or too obsessed with queerness, at best.

#Matt has a life #Shit from home #I know I know queer coding still has its place #still will for a long time #It really does! #But it's still 2022 and I'm fucking tired of being met with resistance #every time I dare to say I think a m/m relationship could maybe possibly become canon #I mean FOR FUCK'S SAKE look at how people reacted to OFMD! #It's intensely and obviously framed as a love story from the beginning and the ONLY reason I didn't hold my breath #until Lucius said 'this is happening' is because I ALREADY KNEW Stede/Ed got canon #That's literally it #Otherwise it would hav e taken me THAT LONG to really believe the show intended to go down this road #So yeah the day I stop hearing 'stop making everything gay' and immediately go into feral cat mode is DEFINITELY not there #Urgh #I'm just. #Frustrated and annoyed #and also frustrated and annoyed at myself because I can't figure out if I'm overreacting like I know my family would say #or if this is a cumulation of things just exploding because I'm tired and bleeding from my fucking vagina #All I know is that it hurts even more during pride month and it stucks #ARUMPH GRUMPY GRUMP GRUMPING

[boyheros]

its like I've been wanting to, somehow, move the brunt of the necromancy thing off of mavericks shoulders. Bc that's a holdover from the veeeery first iteration of the story when it was still about angel & demon stuff whatever. bc he was the ONLY angel doing his job and reincarnating ppl because it was supposed to be like. he's the only one who actually cares about humanity anymore. and in turn Reo, ironically, was the only human who 'cared about' supernatural stuff or remembered the mysterious guy bringing em all back to life. but the main version of the story is TOTALLY not like that anymore and claiming Maverick, this random ass clone boy, brought a ton of people back doesn't really jive anymore. although I am not sure how to remedy that ..

#like he would still most definitely being reo back because he's weird and desperate like that but. in the story plenty more ppl are #reincarnated. so like how did they get there ummmm i dont know anymore #ive actually been kinda frustrated with this story as of late bc i feel like its too convoluted. i might have to step away & come back later #which is. upsetting bc this lives in my mind constantly against my will. urgh #mvrckposting #phx news

[fujoshawty]

i hate that rb chains are broken and that i cant locate older versions of a post like i dont want to rb a post that has a rb with an @ on it because it feels like i am encroaching on a private moment between mutuals and they are not my mutuals so what are their handles doing in my house!!!! this is actually pissing me off so bad can we just go back to better times.. better systems even i hate this photo scrolling algorithm nonsense i hate that i cant double tap to zoom in ive been using this app since i was in middle school and they are changing my enclosure after all these years with bloated dogshit features.. please do not make a creature of habit change for the worse i am hating using this app now which says a lot

#punching staff #fuck tumblr #urgh #im just so frustrated because i grew up on this site and app and its rendering itself unusable by becoming like every other platform #i have clung onto tumblr because i did not like other apps and they are now becoming what i hate #idk just pissed off

[lilyliveredlittlerichboy]

stupid bastard body. betrayal. what about my plans. what about my ambitions. why do i even have to have nerves and pain receptors?? the dr will just tell me to stop doing the thing that makes it worse but its the one thing ive found in recent years that brings me enough joy to offset the depression i am not going to stop. but how can i continue if my stupid annoying body is trying to sabotage me with pain

#I'm annoyed and frustrated #i really want to play guitar more i feel like my progress is stalled and i can't practice in the way i want and need to #the tape is coming out again and i need to remember to put on my pain relief cream in the evenings too #I'm just so frustrated and its sapping my joy #also given up smoking today and this might. might be me feeling it #urgh #:( #i need a tag for my own rambles