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chosonore · 3 years

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summary: ushijima misses you terribly when he's traveling, plagued by a strange heartache and thoughts filled with only you. what he wants is come home to you every day, for the rest of his life.

a/n: i'm not sure if i characterize ushijima well but he's one of my favourite haikyuu characters. he's so adorable and endearing in his own way and my fingers were just itching to write a little something after my friends and me were talking about him and dating. enjoy!

ushijima had a hectic schedule, always on the go or busy with work related things. but whenever he could, every second of the day, he would spend it with you. no matter how much time he spent with you, it always felt like it wasn't enough. he would find his thoughts wandering to you throughout the day, his fingers itching to grab the phone and call you just to hear your voice. it was even worse when he was abroad; though ushijima had never been a person that particularly needed physical contact, he grew to appreciate being able to hold you in his arms. due to his large frame, he'd engulf you entirely, pulling you close to his chest as he rested his chin on your head or pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead. the closeness comforted him, made it easier to fall asleep. being abroad was hard without you, ushijima missed you terribly and even more so when timezones made it difficult to talk on the phone.

the past few weeks had been excruciating. it was the first time that he was away for so long, so much so that it made him feel restless. everything in him was itching to get home as fast as possible - it was almost comical, seeing how he excused himself and took his leave as soon as they exited the airport and left with such rapidity that none of the teammates could say goodbye.

ushijima felt like his heart was going to explode soon. was it nervousness or excitement? he couldn't quite tell. all he knew was that he looked forward to you, longed for you. perhaps it was the distance and extended period of time spent apart from each other that made him realize that he wanted to come home to you for the rest of his life. because no matter how many times he woke up next to you, how many times you'd already gone on dates or how many times you'd told him that you loved him, it never failed to make his heart flutter anew, as if he fell in love with you over and over again.

and there you were, standing in the kitchen in one of his sweaters that were way too big on you and humming quietly as you prepared dinner. a sigh left his lips as he dropped his bags at the entrance of your shared apartment, padding over to you. awkwardly, he bent down to wrap his arms around your waist and nuzzle his head in the crook of your neck. ushijima exhaled loudly, relieved that he was finally home, with you. you giggled quietly at your boyfriend's antics, wrapping your arms around his neck as you hugged him back. your fingers found the nape of his neck, gently playing with his hair. "hey baby. how was your flight? no complications?"

ushijima grunted a brief reply and made an affirmative noise, not wanting to let you go yet. you were warm and comfy and he would not let you go until he felt fully recharged. sensing his reluctance to let you go, you remained in his hold, swaying back and forth gently. though he hadn’t uttered a word, you could tell that he had missed you as much as you missed him. you could tell in the way that his arms tightened around you ever so slightly upon hearing your voice, how his breathing had calmed down gradually with every second that passed while holding you.

though you were busy yourself, juggling your free time between pursuing your hobbies and meeting up with friends, watching his matches on tv whenever possible, there was always a lingering loneliness following you whenever ushijima was traveling. only after moving in with him, you realized how much it affected you at times. he was a gentle and silent force that accompanied you throughout the day, even without him letting you know, even when he wasn’t there physically, you knew that you could count on him. he would always be there for you, regardless of what he was doing, willing to drop his training just to come home for you.

mornings didn’t feel as warm anymore without him by your side, days were starting to drag and blend into one another, colours dull and not as vibrant whenever he left. but just as a cloudy, rainy day that was slowly coming to an end, revealing brilliant hues of blue and the warmth of the sun, you felt like every ounce of liveliness returned back to you when ushijima was back in your arms. almost like a petulant child, he grimaced slightly as you pulled away but calmed just as fast when you stood on the tip of your toes and pressed your lips against his. with ease, he lifted you up on the counter, making you giggle against his lips as he stood in between your legs.

“i don’t want to leave for this long ever again,” ushijima bluntly stated, absentmindedly grasping your much smaller hands, clumsily intertwining your fingers. “that felt very unpleasant.”

“but that’s your job, you love volleyball. your matches just require you to travel, that’s how it is. i’ll always be here, waiting for you,” you looked at him perplexed, watching as his brows furrowed at your words. was he upset about your reply?

“i don’t like it, not being with you or near you. i keep thinking about you all day and then i feel distracted.”

“where is this coming from all of a sudden?” you asked, soothingly rubbing the back of his hands with your thumbs. something must have happened during his travels, he usually wasn’t this… pensive when coming back home. in your experience, it always took a while to coax him into telling you what was bothering him - either because he wasn’t sure himself or wanted to gather his thoughts before opening up to you. so chances were, he would either let you know or brush it off. to your surprise however, ushijima halted in his movements, exhaling briefly.

lifting his head ever so slightly, he looked at you, gnawing at his bottom lip. "i missed you a lot," he confessed quietly. "i don't like coming back to an empty bed or somewhere that is not home. it makes me feel restless."

"oh. so you feel homesick?"

"is that what it is?" ushijima seemed to be confused. you couldn't help but coo at his troubled face expression, he just looked to adorable as he was trying to make sense of his thoughts and feelings. it was almost as if you could see the cogwheels turning in his head, clicking and clacking until it finally made sense and a light went off in his head. the tall male shook his head. "i don't know if it is. earlier i realized, when i think of home, i think of you. i want to come home to you, for the rest of my life."

your eyes widened at his last sentence, spluttering in panic as you tugged at his hands to get his attention. "wait, wait, wait. are you proposing to me?"

"huh?" now it was ushijima's turn to look at you panicked. "no? i mean i wouldn't mind but that was not my intention. but if you want-"

"no, no, it just sounded like you were going to," you laughed nervously, scratching the back of your head. your heart was beating rapidly, the possibility of him proposing was one that you'd never considered until now. the two of you had never discussed anything of that sort or even remotely mentioned it - moving in together had already been a big step for you. but the thought of spending the rest of your life with him filled you with so much giddiness that you couldn't contain your excitement, wiggling around on the counter until you were able to wrap your arms around his waist and burying your face in his chest.

"so you don't want me to propose?"

"i do, i do. one day, when you're ready and thought it through, maybe?"

"okay." you felt ushijima nod, then his lips against your temple and cheek before they landed on the corner of your lips. he kissed you gently before regarding you with an earnest look. "i love you, y/n. you know that, right?"

"yeah, i do," you reassured your boyfriend. he nodded in contemplation, undoubtedly pondering about his future proposal. it was somewhat endearing to know that he always wanted to make sure that you knew he loved you, reminding you again and again because he found it difficult to express it in other words. but he didn't need to, you could see it in his actions and how they were reserved only for you.

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