#v; make me proud (616)

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☀ ჻ &   @webheadedhero​  because  we  plotted

__________☼      IT’S      BEEN      YEARS      SINCE      SHE’S      SEEN      HIM.      one    near    death    experience    on    a    bridge,      a    phd,      &&    the    start    of    a    career    at    shield    later    to    be    exact.        she’s  never  truly  processed  his  identity,      what  it  means  about  the  death  of  her  father,      what    it    means    for    them      (      she    had    run    away    to    london    once    to    ignore    her    problems.      now    she    simply    buries    herself    in    her    work      )      except  now  she’s  being  ushered  into  a  room  with  him  as  shield  seems  to  collect  heroes  left    &&    right  these  days.      ‘    don’t    worry    mr.    parker    !    dr.    stacy    is    the    best    biochemist    we    have    !    whatever    you    need,      she    can    make    !      ’      knuckles    turn    white    as    she    clutches    her    clipboard      &&    they    are    left    alone.      ❛    it’s  been  a  while,      hasn’t  it  pete.    ❜

#c; gwen stacy #webheadedhero #v; make me proud (616) #(( we plotted a thing and i was inspired tonight so i'm basketball tossing this out into the void ))

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Fic Writer Interview Meme

tagged in this a while ago by the lovely @oluka ! thank you, bluebonnet!

name: starvels/dinosaur/dinostar/di/star or any combination thereof

fandoms: currently i have open fic documents for: marvel (616, 3490, AA, MCU and a secret one ~), naruto (yes i know 😪), avatar: the last airbender and fullmetal alchemist. i’m also obsessed w the locked tomb books over at @camillaloudhect

two-shot:

it's taking everything, it's taken everything is a legitimate two-shot about sex pollen trope subversion. it’s sad as hell and i’m rly proud of its style/narrative construction

funnily, are we satellites? is actually listed as a two-shot bc the map chapter that showcases s/t’s roadtrip path

and actually fourth time's a charm is a two chapter fic as well. it’s was a lil pinch-hit for stevetony secret santa about sparring and love confessions that i sometimes forget i wrote lol

most popular (marvel) fics:

by the numbers

wear it like a message: (v funny bc i’ve never had a person off of ao3 talk to me about this fic at all 😂) it’s a s/t ensemble cast kinkmeme fic about domestic shenanigans and dogtags/rings

we were meant for love: it’s the first in the we were meant verse about cliche, happy-no-hurt AU s/t falling in love at first sight

by measures of people asking me about it:

are we satellites? that steve/tony 616-inspired roadtrip with nature metaphors, takes the cake for sure

followed by some combination of any of my (overtly) trans fics like name it ever after which is a 3490 exploration and the firefighter/pyrokinetic as we touched and burned

actual worst part of writing:

that bit where you are 75% done with a piece and you can see the end and you know basically what you have to do to complete it all, but it’s SO close to being done that you’ve maybe started looking at other projects already/started crossing it off in your mind as done already.

that’s a hard space for me to be in and i run into it on anything over like 7-8k. i think the reason why is because the pacing of the writing changes so drastically - i will write 1k/hr easy when i’m in the zone, but when you get to 75%, you’ve got to start editing, nit-picking at things, being careful, filling in spaces, etc. that’s hard and i usually require handholding to get through that part lol.

how you choose your titles:

almost always a song lyric. i’m obsessed with finding new music and i’m constantly listening to different niche subgenres. when i find a song that fits the vibe of a fic i’m writing i will either listen to it ON REPEAT for the entire writing. wild! or i will make a playlist from it to write to. i like to pay homage to that inspiration.

occasionally, i will also do a word association tree and just nit pick through combinations like for syntax of bones

do you outline:

i generally do not and i would not recommend this style of life for other folks. it’s pure chaos lmfao.

i doubt that i will ever outline short (<6k fic) but i’ve been trying to be better about writing small outlines for mid-long length fics. i went through a phase when i was writing long fic a lot where i was doing a ton of moodboards and drawing of plot lines and literally breaking things down day by day for the text - which was fun! but i think there’s a balance b/w that and not outlining at all that i need to find somehow haha.

ideas you probably won’t get around to, but wouldn’t it be nice:

listed a bunch here and here! but also

more poly fic - janstevetony, carolrhodeytony, caroljessrhodey, janesamthor, etc! this is more about having background comic knowledge to do justice to each character. so much to read...

young avengers fic! this is actually really likely bc i truly do love otgay more than i love any other ensemble in marvel, and i did recently catch up on death’s head/strikeforce/empyre but i feel like i would need to do more specifically Fic Research to adequately get a handle on how to characterize everyone. and i haven’t done that yet lol.

war-time 616 steve’s relationship to gender/sexuality

mcu natasha/pepper start a relationship before im2, emotional fall out from the events of im2, tony both thumbs-up in the background

callouts @ me:

di, belief in yourself is the best writing tool you have! believe in your words. give them attention, give them water, give them space in your life. let writing be a habit for yourself and cultivate it how you would any other plant cutting. turn into challenges, bc they’re what keep you lively and growing. let your work be an average, rather than striving to make everything you produce your best thing ever. be kind and gracious with yourself.

prioritize EDITING before posting, oh my god, di.  щ(゜ロ゜щ)

best writing traits:

prose/description is the most commonly complimented aspect of my writing! and i agree :’) i really do love to play with the inherent poetry of human existence. i also think i am good at setting up emotional tension (i want people to FEEL as much as i do all the time) and crafting a subversive narrative (starting with a climax and exploring resolution/genre blending/turning tropes upside down/talking about gender/queer experiences through a non-cishetero lens, etc.)

tangential opinion: “Friends and support are a thousand times more important for your well-being as a writer than anything else.” - oluka

gonna echo this, actually! i’m a part of a lot of og writing groups and its really taught me how essential feeling safe talking about your work and sharing it is. that’s how you develop inspirations. s’why i’ve been attempting to slide back into discord lately, as i get into marvel again haha.

also, tbh, don’t be afraid to like things! enjoy what you enjoy and do so wholeheartedly and unabashedly. don’t be ashamed of feeling things - about your writing or as inspiration for your writing!

tagging: i do NOT know who has done this already sorry! but i’d love to hear from @viudanegraaa @hungerpunch @alexenglish @ironlawyer @msermesth @welcomingdisaster @veryvincible (if you already did it, link me pls!)

#memes #my talk #my fic #fic talk #writing talk #once again i think to myself i have too many organizational tags

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bc this is absolutely required to be on my blog now ...  natasha  (  or at least, more specifically @reddeathed​‘s nat  )  is like peter’s aunt. written on behalf of cherry, too. dsfgh

i’m putting this under a read more bc it’s gonna get hella long.

at the time, she knew peter’s parents. if i were to base this off of the original franchise for spidey, then his father was a scientist for oscorp. however, after some research, i’m more inclined to draw some inspiration out of 616, thus making both of his parents spies for the CIA; thus, nat knew peter’s parents and were like ... friends w them, and was around when peter was first born.

when peter loses his parents, nat’s there for him, along with aunt may & uncle ben. at the funeral, peter isn’t entirely sure what to make of the situation. he just stands there, clinging onto her and looking at her with wide eyes, wanting her to bring his parents back. but she can’t do that, and soon, he realizes his parents are actually dead. the bounce and playfulness in him is gone for quite a few months, never really wanting to play or get along w others because peter just doesn’t know what to do w himself? at school, they tell him to draw his parents, and the other kids don’t take v long to figure out that peter doesn’t have his parents anymore.  (  and kids are cruel at a young age, so they probably tease him about it.  )  rest assured, nat has a v serious convo with the teachers about this. she is willing to punch other kids for peter.

but, kids being kids, they sort of get over it. peter learns that there’s nothing anybody can do, including himself, so he sort of just ... sets it aside. buries it deep down inside himself. he still has aunt may, nat, and uncle ben.

now, being a spy, ofc, nat wasn’t around all the time. she had missions to go on and all that, but smol peter loved having aunt!nat around whenever she could stay for a while. nat always comes to see peter before she goes on a mission bc there’s no guarantee that she’ll come back. he’s a bundle of excitement whenever she babysits or picks / drops him off for school. he’ll run up to her, screaming “aunt nat!!!” at the top of his lungs, wrapping his little arms around her legs. he’s also a super clumsy kid — nat will be making some dinner and the next thing u know, peter runs into an open cupboard, his ass now on the floor and rubbing his forehead. but nat will just pick him up n kiss his forehead. peter will fall asleep on the couch w her, leaning against her or like, resting on her lap. he’s safe with her.

and when she takes him to bed and tucks him in, he wakes up v briefly, eyes groggy and voice the cutest, purest thing ever, asking if she’s leaving.  (  he’s still so scared of losing everyone else.  )

when peter first gets his powers, he doesn’t know who to tell. if he can even tell anyone at all. but he trusts his aunt!nat, so he tells her about it. and that he’s worried, but it’s also so cool bc now he can help others!! like eventually, when he sees a bully outside of school, or someone trying to mug an old lady, he’s proud to say that he can actually help. and nat is so proud of him?? like her lil boy is growing up.

she’s so loving and cares so much for peter that we’ve both collectively emptied our tear - ducts.

anyway.

NOW, BELOW ARE IN.FINITY W.AR SPOILERS. PLS READ AT UR OWN RISK. YOU’VE BEEN WARNED.

canon divergent sort of from IW, let’s just say if if tony were to return back to earth without peter in tow and nat realizing that peter faded along with all the others? FUCK Y’ALL!! nat is losing her shit bc she’s just lost the boy who’s been an integral part of her life, someone from her family. but oh, but then peter comes back to life, and he ends up clinging onto both nat and tony so hard bc he doesn’t want to die again. he’s so afraid of death. and nat holds him close as hell bc she was terrified to think that she’d lost him for good.

now if u thought peter would go home on his own, u would be wrong. car rides, plane rides, anything, with his aunt!nat? he still does the thing where he leans his head against her shoulder and falls asleep. he absolutely knows he can trust her w his life.

HYPOTHETICALLY, if peter didn’t end up in space & was still on earth / returned down when tony told him to, and he fought in the battle of wakanda against those alien dog monster things, u bet ur ass he’d be fighting w nat. and like at this time in their lives & ages, he’s already teasing nat abt relationships. like aunt!nat r u dating??? what ur mARRIED TO STEVE? is he lIKE MY UNCLE NOW? I WASN’T INVITED TO THE WEDDING???? DON’T KISS AROUND ME !!!

so yeah, our nat & peter are practically family. that was a long talk. i hope u enjoyed,,,,

#|| i have an idea ( headcanon. ) #reddeathed #the amount of times i got Emo again writing this #u won't believe #does contain some iw spoilers at the end #which u can feel free to skip if u want

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@aquabcrn​  liked  for  gwen  !!

__________☼      DESPITE      HER      BEST      EFFORTS        TO        PEAK      OUT      FROM      BENEATH      HER      LASHES,      her  vision  remains  obscured  by  his  hands  placed  strategically  over  her  eyes.      she  trusts  him  to  lead  her    &&    despite  nearly  bumping  her  shins  against  various  obstructions,      she  can’t  help  the  smile  spreading  across  lips  or  the  teasing  that  enters  her  words.      ❛    c’mon    caleb.      are  you  going  to  make  me  wait  all  day    ??    ❜      whatever    this    was,      he  had  not  breathed  a  single  word  about  it,      leaving  her  curiosity  to  fill  in  the  rest.

#aquaborn #c; gwen stacy #v; make me proud (616)

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THE  OVERWHELMING  DESIRE  TO  KISS     ||     ALWAYS  ACCEPTING

07 .   a  kiss  to  say  what  you  can’t  say  aloud     //     @unwcrldly​​  (brandon)  to  gwen  !!

__________ ☼     SHE   FEELS   AS   IF   SHE   IS   DROWNING   IN   HER   OWN   MISERY.      what   do   you   want  ??       his  question  brings  the  sudden,      stifling  silence  that  threatens  to  make  her  scream.      how  could  he     possibly     understand  the  war  waging  itself  inside  of  her  with  the  feeling  of  loss  so  fresh  on  her  mind  ??     her  father  had  been  all  she  had,      the  only  family  since  her  mother  passed  years  ago.     &&   now  he’s  gone  too.      how  could  he     possibly     understand  the  fear  that  grips  her  heart  like  a  vice  each  time  she  looks  at  him,       each  time  he  makes  her  laugh,       each  time  he  makes  her     FORGET     ...      ❛   i      ...   ❜

☼ __________       THROAT   TIGHTENS   WITH   WORDS   THAT   WILL  NOT  BE   CHOKED   OUT.     he  deserves  an  answer,      no  matter  how  hard  she  finds  them  to  formulate.       in  an  instant,      the  careful  gwen  stacy  makes  a  rash  decision.      hands  pull  his  face  towards  hers,      lips  connecting   &&   spilling  every  unspoken  sentiment.        it  is  only  when  she  pulls  away  that  she  finds  her  knees  are  nearly  shaking  with  the  effort  of  propping  herself  up.

☼ __________      ❛   now   you   know.   ❜

#unwcrldly #❛ watch how she brings me back to life ❜ ▬ ( gwen stacy meme. ) #❛ time in a bottle ❜ ▬ ( answered. ) #c; gwen stacy #reply; brandon belmont #v; make me proud (616) #(( 👀 )) #tw: death mention

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FIVE  TIMES  KISSED     ||      always accepting

five times kissed peter & gwen     //     @thrspidcr​​

1.     the  first  time is the     SPARK.     neither knew a first date could be so easy,      so comfortable.     her laughs fill the air of the pizza parlor he’s brought her to.      the  best  slices  on  this  side  of  the  river  !!     so  he  claims     suddenly,     the air is heavy  &&  they feel the weight draw them together.     though his hands fidget  &&  the nervousness of both creeps into the quick brush of lips,       this is the     START    of the fire.     they are content to burn.

2.     the  second  time     is filled with all the     HOPES    of a childhood love.     summer draws to a close,     yet she casts this moment to memory.      the sun gently warming her skin,      grass beneath her palms as she props herself up,     peter     insisting     the light is reflecting her eyes just perfectly.      click,     click,      click.       photos taken  &&  she can’t help the giggle before she closes the distance between them.      she  swears  this  is  all  she’s  ever  wanted.       neither cares that fall will fill their days with classes at esu,     that they will have less time for moments like this.       for now,     the world is perfect.       they  believe  it  will  last  forever.

3.     the  third  time     is     UNSURE.     she never meant to doubt him,     never meant to call into question his devotion to her     (     it  is  plain  as  day  to  any  passing  stranger     )     yet with every unexplained disappearance  &&  dodgy excuse,     she can’t help the suspicion that bubbles inside of her.      is  it  mj     ??     are  you     ...     seeing  her  ??       it nearly breaks her to see how the questions cut him.      his kiss is full of reassurances.       you’re  the  one  that  i  love.     it’s  always  been  you.     he  never  explains  where  he  disappears  to

4.     the  fourth  time     promises a     FUTURE.     the city bustles around them as they settle into their routines.     pencil scratches across a personal calendar as she marks the days she has labs,    the shifts he’s working at the bugle,     the date nights they’ve set aside to revisit that pizza parlor where it all began.      lost in the task,     she barely notices when he slides a key across the dining room table to her.     i  figured  you’re  over  here  so  often  anyway...     &&  she feels as if her heart will explode as she conveys every happiness he has given her into that kiss     she  would  marry  him  in  an  instant  if  he  asked

5.     the  fifth  time is a     GOODBYE    she cannot feel.     in the final moments,     she had realized who the spider was,     felt the     betrayal    of the one she loved the most.      she  hardly  has  time  to  register  the  realization  before  it  all  goes  black.     she won’t know the way he cradles her head or gently brushes back her hair from her face.     she won’t know how he calls her name until his voice breaks.      she  won’t  know  that  he  grazes  his  lips  across  her  forehead  before  he  leaps  into  his  own  personal  hell.      two  people  die  beneath  that  bridge

#otp: first love never dies (thrspidcr) #thrspidcr #c; gwen stacy #❛ time in a bottle ❜ ▬ ( answered. ) #❛ watch how she brings me back to life ❜ ▬ ( gwen stacy meme. ) #(( hey hi i'm not okay )) #v; make me proud (616)

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SUBTLE  ROMANCE     ||     ALWAYS  ACCEPTING

"you  look  amazing”      //     @unwcrldly​  (brandon)  to  gwen  !!

__________ ☼     A   SUBTLE   BLUSH   CREEPS   UP   LIGHT   FEATURES   ADDING      color  to  cheeks,      yet  it  only  serves  to  make  her  more  radiant       (      her  hair  is  already  the  color  of  sun     ...     the  feat  is  not  hard  to  achieve      )      hands  pull  the  hem  of  her  shirt  down  almost  nervously,      though  she  cannot  help  the  smile  that  softens  eyes  in  good  humor.     ❛   well  isn’t  someone  the  charmer  today  ??   ❜

#reply; brandon belmont #unwcrldly #c; gwen stacy #v; make me proud (616) #❛ time in a bottle ❜ ▬ ( answered. ) #❛ watch how she brings me back to life ❜ ▬ ( gwen stacy meme. )

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WAR  OF  THE  FOXES     ||     ALWAYS  ACCEPTING

“ There is no new me, there is no old me, there’s just me, the same me, the whole time. “    //     @unwcrldly​  (brandon)  for  gwen

__________ ☼     EYES   SOFTEN   AT   THE   STATEMENT.     it  is  true,     life  changes  people.     it  molds   &&   dents  until  it  creates  the  very  beings  that  stand  before  them.     yet  she  knows,      at  their  core,      they  are  the  same  people  they  have  always  been.     life  may  be  tough,      it  may  have  tried  to  keep  them  down  at  their  lowest,     but  they  are  still  the  same  brandon   &&   gwen  who  started  down  their  paths.       they  may  be  a  little  bruised,      they  may  be  a  little  shaken,      but  they  are  still  the  same  old  them.     ❛   you  shouldn’t  have  to  change  who  you  are.      besides,      i  happen  to  think  you’re  pretty  great  just  the  way  you  are.   ❜

#c; gwen stacy #reply; brandon belmont #unwcrldly #v; make me proud (616) #❛ time in a bottle ❜ ▬ ( answered. ) #❛ watch how she brings me back to life ❜ ▬ ( gwen stacy meme. )

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SOME MEME SOMEWHERE     ||     always accepting

“ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re going to be okay.”     //     @thrspidcr​

__________ ☼     HEART  THREATENS  TO  EXPLODE  FROM  HER  CHEST  AS  SHE  PLUMMETS.     not a sound escapes rosy lips for the fall had been too sudden,     too     unexpected.     the ground beneath her feet had suddenly become     NOTHING     but air  &&  she feels the terror take over     (     so  this  is  what  it’s  like  to  see  death     )     she has no time to register much outside of the lone figure,     the  spider,     reaching his hand out,     web flying in a desperate attempt to slow the     INEVITABLE.      if there had been time,      had she had more than the     split  second     to feel the gasp of shock rise  &&  die in her young throat,     her thoughts would be on one alone.

☼ __________     PETER  PARKER.     the love of her life.      the ‘  let’s  grab  pizza  at  3  am  because  we  can  ’  goof.     the one who promised a future     BEYOND     the fragile guilt they both carried for various family members long  gone.      memories of lending a hand when he fell on their roller rink dates,     the picnics on the hudson,     the late night chats  &&  college plans     ...     all lost to the one all consuming thought     (     when  is  the  impact  ??     )     

_________ ☼     IMPACT  NEVER  COMES.     web has wrapped around her ankle and found its way around her wrists.     she lays suspended,     inches above the ground     above  death.     for a moment there is     nothing  &&  suddenly there is     everything.     that  voice,     she’d  recognize  that  voice  in  her  dreams.      though this is no dream     ...     death has not been able to claim her just yet,     but it claims something else inside of her.     how  is  it  possible  to  feel  so  much  all  at  once  ??     she  thinks  she  will  break  apart  at  the  thought  of  it  !!     for mixed in the anger  &&  relief  &&  betrayal looms the realization.      ❛   pete  ??  you    ...     you-   ❜     you  killed  my  dad.     nothing  is  going  to  ever  be  okay  again.

#thrspidcr #v; make me proud (616) #c; gwen stacy #otp: first love never dies (thrspidcr) #(( me: oMG HE GOT HER #also me: oMG SHE KNOWS )) #❛ watch how she brings me back to life ❜ ▬ ( gwen stacy meme. ) #❛ time in a bottle ❜ ▬ ( answered. )

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SOME MEME SOMEWHERE     ||     always accepting

“i know i screw up a lot but please don’t leave”     //     @thrspidcr​

__________ ☼     THE  QUIET  STATEMENT  IS  A  FAR  CONTRAST  FROM  THE  HARSH  TONES  SHE  HAD  BEEN  USING  MOMENTS  BEFORE.     she had felt the accusation bubble up too quickly to bite it back  &&  when she released it in all its fury,     it had hung heavily in the air,      threatening to     choke     them both.      she is not an unkind girl.      in truth,      she gives far too much of herself to a     CRUEL     world in the hope that it will be as     gracious     as she is,     but this  ??     this is months in the making.     months of wondering where peter disappears to.      months of wondering why     she     is always the one left behind.      months  of  wondering  whether  he  cares  at  all.

where  were  you  ??      when  ?? you  disappeared  when  the  goblin  showed  up  at  the  park  this  afternoon.     you  left  harry  &&  i  behind.      we  couldn’t  find  you.      i  lost  you  in  the  confusion. pete,     this  isn’t  the  first  time  !!      you’re  a  coward  !!     you  always  leave  us  behind  when  there’s  the  first  sign  of  danger  !!

☼ __________      SHE  IS  ALREADY  HALF  WAY  TO  THE  DOOR  WHEN  HE  PLEADS  WITH  HER.      it is almost enough to make her regret giving voice to the thoughts.     almost.     ❛   where do you disappear to,     pete  ??     why is it that you always leave us to fend for ourselves  &&  then don’t call us to let us know you’re okay for hours  ??     why  pete  ??  ❜     it is her turn for the desperation to leak into her voice.     begging for answers  &&  wishing she can make sense of it all.     she  is  so  thoroughly  in  love  with  him  that  she  will forgive  just  about  anything.      but he doesn’t answer,     doesn’t do anything but flounder for words that she could not even guess     (     her  love  disappears  to  save  her.      he  disappears  to  become  the  spider  )     with no forthcoming revelation,     she gives a curt nod.     ❛   give me a call if you figure it out..   ❜      click.      the door closes behind her  &&  she is gone.

#thrspidcr #c; gwen stacy #otp: first love never dies (thrspidcr) #v; make me proud (616) #(( *flips the table* screw this EVERYTHING HURTS )) #❛ watch how she brings me back to life ❜ ▬ ( gwen stacy meme. ) #❛ time in a bottle ❜ ▬ ( answered. )

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YEARNING && DEVOTION     ||     always accepting

❝ I made a promise when we were young. I told you I would see you again, no matter what became of us. ❞     //     @thrspidcr​

__________ ☼     SHE  REMEMBERS  CLUTCHING  BEN’S  SHIRT  AS  CHAOS  RAINED  AROUND  THEM.     richard had squirmed in her arms,     not quite     comprehending     the situation     (  not  that  the  adults  could  understand  why  people  were  disappearing  around  them  either,     but  left  &&  right,    people  seemed  to  just    ...    vanish  as  if  they  had  never  existed  )     thoughts turn to her husband as she tries to comfort her son.     she wonders if peter’s okay,     if he’s been taken too  &&  then her arms are      EMPTY.     her  son  is  gone.     mouth barely has time to form the beginnings of a primal scream    a  mother’s  grief  is  a  powerful  force     before the white light comes for her too.

☼ __________     SHE  WAKES  BELOW  A  BRIDGE,     DISORIENTED  &&  ALONE.     ben  &&  richard  are  nowhere  to  be  found.     her head spins  &&  her stomach seems to lurch at the sight of her surroundings     (  she  can’t  put  to  words  why  this  location  creates  such  a  looming  dread  within  her  )     it doesn’t take long for police to notice the lone woman dazed in the closed area,     but it does take time for them to track the names she desperately cries out.     ben  parker  ??     ma’am,     we’ve  found  a  ben  parker  but  he’s  been  dead  for  years.     robbery  gone  wrong  we’re  afraid.     george  stacy  ??     george  stacy  died  years  ago  too.     are  you  sure  you  don’t  want  to  talk  to  someone  ??      peter  parker  ??

__________ ☼     THEY  TRACK  A  PETER  PARKER  TO  CHINATOWN,     ADMIST  THE  CONFUSION  SLOWLY  TAKING  ROOT  IN  THE  CITY.     did  you  hear  that  the  mutants  seem  to  have  lost  their  powers  ??     anarchy threatens  &&  slowly,     the police stop insisting she speak to the psychiatrist     there  are  more  pressing  issues  at  hand     the wait is excruciating,      but surely her peter will know what to do.      doesn’t  he  always  ??      &&     suddenly he is in front of her,     staring,      gaping,       hugging      this  is  one  situation  where  peter  parker  doesn’t  know  what  to  do     locked in his desperate embrace,     gwen doesn’t notice the necklace wrapped around his wrist or the ring linked in the chain.

☼ __________     HIS  WORDS  ARE  THICK  WITH  EMOTION,     WITH  SHOCK.     it takes all she is to form her own question at his statement.     ❛   no matter what became of us  ??     pete,     what’s happened  ??     where’s richard  ??   ❜      what happened to ben  ??     what happened to my dad  ??     WHAT  HAPPENED  TO  US     ??      questions beat in her head until her knees feel weak.

#c; gwen stacy #thrspidcr #otp: first love never dies (thrspidcr) #v; make me proud (616) #(( oKAY BUT IMAGINE IF THE WEDDING RING WASN'T THE ONLY THING THAT WAS BROUGHT BACK FROM HOUSE OF M )) #❛ watch how she brings me back to life ❜ ▬ ( gwen stacy meme. ) #❛ time in a bottle ❜ ▬ ( answered. )

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THE ANGST QUEEN HAS RETURNED || always accepting

“ it’s not okay! you’re not fine! ” // @thrspidcr​

__________ ☼     SHE  CAN  FEEL  THE  PRICK  OF  TEARS  BEHIND  HER  EYES  &&  SHE  WANTS  TO  DO  ANYTHING  BUT  HAVE  THIS  CONVERSATION.     the tide of grief clings to her like a second skin  &&  for the life of her,     she can’t imagine how to     survive     its oppressive grip.    the standard answer has slipped her lips.     ‘     i’m  fine     ’     they come automatically to her now,     no thought or much emotion required on her part  &&  most accept it,     albeit with      PITY     tainting their gazes.     she  thinks  she  will  scream  that  they  can  choke  on  that  pity.     she  doesn’t  want  it.     but he questions the mask,     the way she’s downplayed it     ...     it  takes  all  the  strength  she  has  left  not  to  collapse  under  the  weight  of  it  all.

☼ __________     WHEN  SHE  FINALLY  FINDS  IT  IN  HER  TO  PUT  VOICE  TO  HER  WORDS,     THEY  TASTE  BITTER.     she has never known much outside of kindness  &&  this    acidity     is threatening to poison her from the inside out.      ❛   what do you want me to say pete  ??     HE’S  DEAD  !!     my dad is dead  &&  there’s     NOTHING     i can do about it  !!     what does it matter if i’m not fine  ??     i don’t think i even know what fine is anymore  !!  ❜     she  is  breaking,    breaking,     breaking     ...    &&  when the tears come,     she desperately wishes she could disappear    he  shouldn’t  see  her  this  way      ❛   i  wish  it  had  been  me  instead.  ❜

#c; gwen stacy #thrspidcr #v; make me proud (616) #(( jfc i am not okay )) #❛ watch how she brings me back to life ❜ ▬ ( gwen stacy meme. ) #❛ time in a bottle ❜ ▬ ( answered. )